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need to know how everyone feels abt me 24/7 or i will explode & die
genuinely can’t tell if i want a relationship for true love and enjoyment or if i want one so i get known for the attention of being pretty and lovely and smart enough to get one
Me: *is a lesbian*
My HPD brain: oh wouldn’t it be nice to be loved and adored by every man you come across? Having sex with all of them so you feel like a Queen? Yes it would, now fantasize about being with a man even tho you’re not attracted to them. Do it for the attention and validation, who cares what you like! Sleep with anyone that wants to sleep with you! You love it, you love the attention!
I used to be hot shit at every school I went to so now that I don’t go to school anymore I feel like nobody
does anyone else get extremely demotivated + other stuff when they don't get enough attention. like i can't do basic tasks because of it
also getting mad when anyone besides me is getting more attention
wish i didn't get filled w intense jealousy and resentment at other people getting paid attention to intently/enthusiastically
having hpd is so hard when no one gives me the attention i deserve 😕