Hey guys, today was my Higher secondary exam result.
I got gpa 3.92 out of gpa 5.00
I am the very first person in my family who got such disappointing,disgusting grade from science background. Even tho my parents did not say a word against it. My dad and my second uncle were super supportive of me. They were like "what's gone is gone, focus on the future. Look for what opportunities you have with the grade that you've got. We're here. There's nothing to be sad about" but my grandmother called me and told me "I am so disappointed in you. None of my children did what you've done. You're not even worth being my son's child. My children were brilliant students and You're the eldest of you generation but you got 3.92? I am so ashamed. Very much ashamed. It's hurting me so much". Even the guy i never got along with since middle school, who does little to no studies at all got a GPA 4.80. I can't believe he's trying to give me mental support rn. Him being nice to me feels so fake even though i know it's probably genuine. My third and fourth uncles were so disappointed like even i am disappointed in myself. I feel like killing myself rn. I dont know what to do. I gave so much efforts to this exam. I barely ate,slept,watched anything on my laptop and i did not even write fanfics during this time.i totally invested myself in this but what did i get? A GPA 3.92? I am such a disgrace like grandma's right. My dad must be so unlucky to have me. He deserved a better daughter, a better kid. I can't even give him a good result but he gives me the world. I hate myself for being this useless and worthless. I really do. Now i know that no matter how much i try to do something, I'll never do good. I'll always fail. Loser.