warnings
soobin: fingering, unprotected sex
yeonjun: oral (f. rec), fingering, unprotected sex
beomgyu: degradation, unprotected sex, biting
taehyun: breast play, fingering, orgasm denial, unprotected sex
kai: breast play, worship, a bit of dry humping, oral (f. rec), fingering
lmk if i forgot anything!
↪ izzy speaks... I don't know how it turned into 6k... also, as you might see i was way too lazy to proofread and edit so just ignore mistakes pls
masterlist
CHOI SOOBIN — soft, apologetic
The game has been on for what feels like hours. Maybe because it actually has been hours. Four if you’re exact. But Soobin doesn’t seem to care about that at all, yelling at Beomgyu over the phone while you quietly sit beside him, counting down the seconds until his match ends. Just like you have been for the past four hours.
When he said he wanted to play with Beomgyu for a bit, you didn’t mind. He is free to enjoy his time with his friends and do what he likes, but you certainly didn’t expect for him to leave you waiting for so long. An hour or two would be fine, but four? You want his attention as well. You want to enjoy your time too, chat and laugh, or just watch something. Instead, you have to listen to him yelling at his friends and aggressively moving the mouse over and over again. Frankly, it’s getting into your head.
You wrap your hand around his biceps, giving it a tight squeeze and making him glance at you. He simply smiles before looking back at his screen, groaning when he gets shot. “Binnie,” you squeeze his biceps again and he pushes his headphones back, making sure he can hear you. “How much longer are you going to play for?”
“I don’t know, baby, just a few more rounds, yeah?” He presses a quick kiss to your cheek before asking Beomgyu if he has enough health left. “Choi Soobin,” you interrupt him again, getting irritated. You’re talking to him—trying to at least—and all he cares about is the game? “Can you listen to me even for just a second?”
Soobin raises his eyebrow confusedly, questioning what you mean. “It’s been four hours, Soobin. I want to talk with you as well. Can’t you just stop and pay attention to me too?” — “Baby, I’m paying you attention.”
“No, you’re not,” you argue, frowning. You drop your hand down, resting it in your lap as you look up at him. “You haven’t even looked at me fully since you sat down. And I get that you want to spend time with Beomgyu and play games, that’s fine, but why can’t you make it work with me included in your plans?”
“Love, you’re overreacting.”
“I’m overreacting?” It hits more than you’d like to admit. “Soobin, I just want to spend time with you!” Something flashes behind his eyes, his behaviour suddenly changing as he realizes what he said. He drops his headphones on the table and turns his chair to face you. “I didn’t– I didn’t mean that, baby,” he holds your hands in his. “No, you did,” you shake your head, pulling your hands away. So instead, he cups your face, making you look at him. “I didn’t mean it,” he repeats, leaning down and pressing his lips to yours.
“Please,” he whispers as he kisses you again, making your eyes soften as your emotions get clouded with the feeling of his soft kiss. “I promise, baby, I was wrong. You’re not overreacting. I should have paid more attention to you.” You shake your head, trying to argue again, tell him that it really bothers you and you don’t want him to just brush it off like this, but you can’t. Not when his thumb brushes your cheek softly while his other hand moves down to your waist, pulling you closer.
“I’m sorry,” he whispers against your lips. “I’m sorry, baby.” Apologizes leave his lips between every kiss, your whole body melting into his as he pulls you to sit on his lap. He repeats how sorry he is and that he will pay you more attention from now on. “It’s okay,” you tell him, for what feels like the thousandth time. “It’s okay, Soobie,” you cup his face, pressing another kiss to his lips. “Let me make it up to you?” He asks, looking up at you.
You bite your bottom lip, nodding. His touches are soft as he kisses his way down your neck, promising he’ll be better. He slides his right hand between your thighs, teasing you through your clothes. He smiles when you moan into his ear, circling your clit. “I’m sorry,” he apologizes again as he takes your shirt off, his lips soft against your skin as he kisses your breast.
It’s when Beomgyu’s voice rings through the headphones on the table that you remember he’s still in the game and on a call with his best friend. Your eyes widen, but before you can say anything, Soobin moves his mouse on the screen and with a few clicks, he turns his computer off. “All you. My attention is on you only, baby. No one else.”
You help him take down your pants and underwear, his pants following right after. You wrap your hands behind his neck, watching him as he plays with your clit. Every one of his touches is careful, gentle, and it makes you melt. “Does this feel good?” He asks, unable to take his eyes off you as you moan on top of him. “So good,” you nod, moaning.
He pushes two of his fingers inside, stealing your lips in another kiss when your mouth falls open. His cock twitches against your stomach but he does nothing about it, keeping his focus just on you like he promised. He doesn’t even look at his dick until you finish on his fingers, your lips on his. “Do you want to?” He asks, finally wrapping his arm around his cock and giving it a few pumps. “We don’t need to. I just want you to feel good.”
“Soobin, when did I not want your cock?” You raise your eyebrows, prompting yourself on your knees when he doesn’t answer and slowly sinking down on him. He cups your cheek, brushing his thumb over your skin as he looks down to where your bodies connect. “I’m sorry, baby,” he says again, slowly trusting in you. He doesn’t rush, taking his sweet time with you and the pussy he loves so much. You clench around him, making him groan as he grips your waist, helping you move on top of him.
“I don’t have work tomorrow,” he says between each thrust, making your head spin. When your boyfriend fucks you, it’s always full of love and sweetness, and sometimes, it drives you more insane than if he was rough. Now is one of the times. You barely comprehend his words, your mind clouded with thoughts of his cock and how well he fills you up. “Let’s be together, hm? Let’s go somewhere?” You nod, not really caring what he says as you bounce on top of him, getting to the speed you prefer. He lets you ride him, pressing his lips to your neck and covering it in marks. He’ll make it up to you. He has to, otherwise guilt will eat him alive.
CHOI YEONJUN — desperate
This wasn’t the first time you and Yeonjun fought, but it was the first time tears built up in the corner of your eyes as you turned away from him to hide. He’s frustrated—with you, with the fight, with the whole situation. “Come on, seriously. You can’t be mad because I’m going out!”
“I’m mad because when are you not going out!” You snap back. “Don’t you realize you keep putting me in last place? I have to fight with all your friends for your attention! I have to fight with work and parties for your attention! This is not how a relationship is supposed to be like!” You yell, clenching your hand into a fist and hitting his chest.
He catches your wrist, tilting his head in disappointment. You don’t back down though, hitting him with your free hand as tears run down your face. You hate fighting. But what you hate even more is the way he’s been treating you for the past month.
“Don’t be ridiculous.” That hits. You? Ridiculous? When it’s him who has been acting like you don’t exist? “Let go of me,” you try to wiggle out of his grip but he only pulls you closer, his eyes softening. “Don’t leave,” he whispers, his free hand wiping tears off your cheek. “Don’t leave me.” You scoff. Isn’t that exactly what he’s been doing? Leaving you, so he could have fun with his friends?
Before you can say anything, his hand moves from your cheek to the back of your neck, pressing you onto himself as his lips find yours. There’s nothing soft about the kiss. It’s messy, and so is the way he lets go of your wrist and squeezes your waist instead, holding onto anything he can.
“Jun–” you gasp, your fingers tangling in his hair on instinct. “I’m sorry,” he mumbles, cupping your face. You want to be mad at him, push him away and scream, but you can’t. You melt under his touch, letting him back you up against the bed. “I’m sorry,” he repeats, kissing you all over the face. He sets himself between your legs, holding onto your waist as he kisses your neck and collarbone. “I won’t go out. I’ll stay home with you. Let me show you you’re the only one that matters. Not friends, not work, not parties,” he sounds desperate, his kisses messy.
“Okay,” you agree, head thrown back and fingers in his hair again as he rolls your shirts up and traces his kisses lower. His lips are full of messy I love you’s as he pulls your pants down, kissing your stomach, inner thighs, and then finally, your clit. He pushes two of his fingers into you with ease, sucking on your clit. You rock your hips against him, his groans filling your ears. “Please, love. Tell me you know you come first.”
You’re not sure what to make of his sentence, if he’s referring to your argument or his tongue on your clit, but you’re not in the right mind to think about it. You nod, a soft whine leaving your lips. “I know,” you cry when he pulls back and waits for your answer. He works you through your first orgasm, licking you clean and worshiping your body. You don’t know how to be mad at him. You want to, you really do. You want to fight this through with him so he’d understand how you’re feeling, worried this is just his way of sweeping it under the rug.
But when he moves up and presses his lips to your while slowly sinking into you, reminding you that he loves you, you can’t fight anymore. He holds your hand, lacing his fingers with yours and giving you a tight, reassuring, squeeze. Your boyfriend is never too rough with you but the speed he sets this time is agonizingly slow. He is sloppy from the start, his eyes full of regret as he looks at you. You roll your hips against him, searching for more friction. Anything you can get. “Please, love. Please,” he whispers and you just shake your head. You don’t know what he wants to hear from you and you don’t want to think about it. You don’t want to think about the fight anymore.
“It’s okay, jjunie,” you assure him, his speed finally meeting your need. “It’s okay,” you repeat. “It’s not,” he disagrees immediately. “I don’t– I need to know you know.”
“Know what?” You coo, a moan leaving your lips right after when he hits your sweet spot. “That I love you. I love you so, so, so, much. You come first, always,” he kisses the corner of your lips, still trusting in you. “I’m sorry, love. I’m sorry I made you feel otherwise.” You shake your head again, pulling him closer and shutting him up with a kiss. You know. And you’ll tell him as soon as you’re done.
But before then, all you want to think about is how good he feels inside you.
CHOI BEOMGYU — rough but not angry
“What do you think?” you make a spin, showing your dress off to your boyfriend. Beomgyu looks up from his phone, his mouth falling open as he takes the sight of you in. “You’re gorgeous,” he breathes out, making you chuckle. You take your handbag from the table, looking in the mirror one more time. “That’s good. I don’t want to embarrass Taehyun, he said to dress fancy.” Your boyfriend’s eyes widen, realizing you’re not dressed up for him but for one of his friends instead. “You’re going out with Taehyun?”
“Yeah,” you nod, meeting his eyes. “I told you about it, Beomgyu. He didn’t have anyone to go with him to the gathering so he asked me. We talked about this.” — “No, we didn’t,” he shakes his head immediately. “I think I’d remember if my girlfriend was going out with my friend as if I don’t exist.”
“Come on, Gyu,” you shake your head. “I promise you I told you about it and you told me to have fun. Don’t turn this into an argument.”
“I’m not turning anything into an argument. I’m just voicing how I don’t like this,” he says, throwing his phone to the side. “Think about it, how would you feel if I dressed up all nice just to go out with a different girl while you sit home all alone?” When he puts it that way, you get what’s bothering him. But Taehyun is not only your friend but also his. He knows there is nothing to worry about there, so why is he so stressed out?
“Beomgyu, you’re stressing out over nothing. I’ll be back before you go to sleep.” He runs his hand through his hair, rethinking the situation. “So you’re going to go?” — “Why shouldn’t I?”
“Because I’m right here!” You groan, throwing your handbag back on the table, knowing you’re not leaving the apartment anytime soon. “Friendships are healthy! I can’t just be with you 24/7 because you feel insecure when you don’t have to!”
Your words hit, and the stress he felt until now turns into something deeper. “Fine, if I’m so insecure why are you even with me?” He stands up from his place on the couch, grabbing his phone. “Go out with Taehyun, right, who gives a fuck.” You groan, staring at him as he paces around the apartment. “I’ll go to Soobin’s. I’ll make myself busy since that’s what you’re doing as well.” — “Beomgyu.”
“What?” He turns to face you, his eyes flashing with a mixture of anger and sadness. “I can’t do this. If I’m so insecure, just don’t be with me. It’s that easy.” You cross the room, a heavy sigh leaving your lips as you cup his face. You make him look at you, standing on your tiptoes to press your lips to his. “Shut up for once, will you?” You mumble, tangling your fingers in his hair. He groans against your mouth when you tug, his hands finding your waist on instinct. “Do you want me to cancel?”
“Yes,” he breathes out, pressing his body to yours as his hands roam the small of your back. “Please.” You nod, pushing him back towards the couch. He often lets you take control, use him however you want for your own pleasure, but you guess that’s only when he is in a good mood as he switches your positions, pressing your back into the cushions as he kisses your lipgloss off. “Call him. Call him right now,” the command sends a shiver down your spine and you reach for your boyfriend’s phone without a second of hesitation. Your own is too far away and you don’t want to get up just for that.
You unlock his phone while he cups your breast over your dress, waiting for you to do as he says. You dial Taehyun’s number and as soon as the call goes through, Beomgyu pushes his knee between your legs. You gasp. You should have expected this. Of course the little menace would do something like this. “I’m sorry Tae– Taehyun, I can’t go tonight,” you apologize, your voice shaking as his knee presses against your clit. “Fuck, you’re not wearing any panties?” Beomgyu’s voice rings in your ears and you quickly rush to hang up on the call.
You want to fight him, tell him he is stupid for saying something like this while the call was still on, but you can’t. “Yeah,” you breathe out, swallowing hard as he pushes himself back just to take in the sight of you under him. “For Taehyun?” He questions, kissing the inner of your thighs. His voice is more teasing than jealous, but you don’t want to risk what’d happen if you tease him back. “For you,” you shake your head, watching him as he bites onto your flesh. “Don’t move,” he murmurs when you squirm under him and something about his rough voice makes you stop, your entire body obliging.
Your dress is buckled up at your hips before you can realize, his fingers playing with your clit while you fight the urge to squirm away. His free hand only grips your thigh tighter, steading you in place as his eyes focus on your clenching pussy. “You’re my pretty little slut, aren’t you?” He flicks your clit, a loud moan leaving your lips. “Of course you like that,” he scoffs quietly, leaning closer, his lips brushing the shell of your ear. “You like being called a slut, don’t you?”
You whine, your eyes closed as a shiver runs down your spine. His fingers slide between your folds, teasing your entrance but never pushing in. You never knew you could get so desperate, but you’ve never wanted a dick more in your life. You grasp his wrist, batting your eyes at him and hoping he’ll give you what you need. “What is it?” The smirk on his face pisses you off, but you have no energy to fight him about it. “Please,” you beg instead and he immediately pushes his pants down.
Maybe if it was a different situation, you could admire how quick he is, but when his hips snap against yours, you’re unable to think about any of that. Your eyes roll back and you clench around him in an instance, gasping. He curses under his breath, grasping your inner thighs. His fingers dig into your flesh as he thrusts into you, giving you no time to adjust.
Moans leave your lips on repeat, mixing with the sound of his name and filling the room. It’s lewd, but you couldn’t feel better. He brings you to your orgasm quickly, your mind too fucked out to make a coherent thought as you cum around his cock.
He doesn’t leave you alone in it for too long, following his preferred speed and reaching his own orgasm. Your breath is heavy as he pushes you further into the mattress, wrapping his arms around you and biting your shoulder. “No more hanging out with Taehyun,” he states, and you don’t even argue back.
KANG TAEHYUN — possessive
You kick your feet, feeling helpless as you stare into the tea mug in your hands. All your thoughts have been drowning you but you knew how the conversation was going to go. It always went like this.
“What’s going on in that pretty head of yours, hm?” Taehyun comes to stand between your legs, his hands resting on each of your sides on the kitchen island, looking up at you. “It’s nothing,” you mumble, even though it’s far from it. He raises his eyebrows slightly, questioning you with his eyes. You sigh, setting your mug aside before meeting his eyes again. “Why do you not want to move in with me?”
The question makes Taehyun’s eyes soften. “You know that’s not true,” he shakes his head. “It’s not that I don’t ever want to.”
“But you don’t want to now,” you interrupt him, a quiet scoff leaving your lips. That might be even worse. “Tae, we’ve been dating for three years and it’s like we’re stuck in one place. We’re not moving forward at all.”
He groans, running his fingers through his hair. “But why does moving forward have to mean moving in?” He takes a step back, the smile on his face he had when he stood between your legs disappearing. “We love each other, isn’t that enough? Or do I have to fucking propose to you just so you finally understand I’m serious about us?” He is annoyed, you understand as much from the tone of his voice. It’s because of the heat of the moment, you know that. But it still hurts to hear him talk about marrying you with such disgust.
And it is the heat of the moment that makes you answer as well, there’s no better explanation you can find for how worked up it gets you. “Wow, I didn’t know marrying me one day would be such a bother to you. I guess dating to marry isn’t familiar to you and we don’t have the same opinions after all,” you huff, jumping down from the kitchen island and storming out of the kitchen as fast as you can. You need to find your phone and wallet. You need to go home.
Taehyun runs after you, yelling at you to wait. Ignoring him, you look under the pillows on his couch, hoping to find your phone there. And you do. But by then, he is already behind you, grabbing your waist and spinning you so you face him again. “That’s not what I meant and you know it,” he argues. “I never said I don’t want to marry you.”
“No, your expression just screamed you’d rather die than do so,” you scoff, wiggling out of his grasp. “It’s fine, Tae, really. We don’t have to do this. We don’t have to get married, we don’t have to live together, we don’t have to date.” You push past him, walking to his bedroom to find your purse and wallet. You knew the conversation was going to go like this, so why do you even bother anymore?
Taehyun follows you again, cursing under his breath as he tries to sort out all his thoughts. He hates fighting with you more than anything. Especially when it’s about this. He knows you’ve been worried about how your relationship was progressing for the past few weeks, brushing over the topic a few times when you were on a date with him. But he never expected it bothered you so much you might want to break up with him for not moving in with you.
It’s been two months since he finally moved out from the dorm he shared with his four friends, two months he spent living alone with you sleeping over half the time. He liked it that way. He liked spending nights with you while also finally having the space to just breathe alone. Maybe it’s selfish, maybe he really isn’t ready for a real relationship, but he wants to hang onto that for a bit longer. The freedom, the silence, oh the silence.
“Love, just wait. Let’s talk about this. You don’t have to leave,” he says, watching you from the door, leaning on the frame as you pack your purse. “I don’t think there’s anything to talk about anymore,” you answer, finally meeting his eyes again. “I don’t want to do this anymore if you’re not on the same page as me about us, Taehyun. I can’t do this if that’s the case.”
He opens his mouth to say something, argue, convince you that he is on the same page, but before he can do so, you speak again. “Maybe someone else would be better for me. Maybe this is our sign to stop and try with different people.” His eyes widen, jealousy clouding all his other emotions. He might have let you go home tonight, let you cool off without any further arguments, but this is something he won’t let you do. He can’t let you break up with him and move on to someone else.
He crosses the room in a few steps, his hand finding the back of your neck before you can say anything, pulling you closer to him as he presses his lips to yours. Your eyes widen but instead of arguing, you find yourself melting into his touch. His hand moves to rest on the side of your neck, his thumb brushing against your chin, making your head spin. You almost trip as you stumble back but he catches you, his other hand squeezing your waist to steady both himself and you.
“Wa-Wait,” you gasp when he bites your bottom lip, your cheeks red and eyes hazed, the reminder of why the two of you are together flashing right in front of you. You don’t think you could ever feel like this with anyone else again. In a way, he has you wrapped around his finger. “Don’t go anywhere,” he whispers into your ear before lowering his head and pressing his lips to your shoulder. “Don’t go to anyone else.” The way his words sound like a command makes your knees weak. You won’t go anywhere. You can’t.
His hand moves lower, squeezing the flesh of your thigh. Your breath shakes and your head tilts back, your chest raising with each touch of his hands on your bare skin. “I love you,” he mumbles, kissing your lips. “I want to be with you.” Another kiss. “I am on the same page as you.” Another. “And I do want to move in with you and marry you.” Another.
Your hands wander under his shirt, your fingertips cold against his skin. He lets you touch him how you want, lets you pull him closer by the belt and push your lips against his again—this time in a deeper kiss, your tongues fighting each other.
You moan into the kiss, letting him push you onto his bed. Your legs wrap around his waist and his hands slide up your waist, cupping your breast through your shirt. “Tell me you’re not going to anyone else,” he says, biting your collarbone lightly. “I’m not going anywhere,” you nod, his touch sending a shiver down your spine. “I’m yours, Taehyun.”
That seems to do it for him, buckling your shirt up with ease and exposing your tits, lowering himself against and taking one of them in his mouth. You moan as his fingers twist your other nipple in an instant, your pussy squeezing around nothing. You try to push down your shorts as well but he stands in the way, making you give up again. Looks like tonight things are moving according to his pace and his pace only.
“Say it again,” he mumbles, the words barely audible as he sucks on your nipple. You blink confusedly before running your fingers through his hair, a soft smile spreading across your lips. “I’m yours. I’ll always be yours.” He groans as you tug at his hair, pulling him back. “Now, how about you take care of what’s yours?”
The rest of your and his clothing is gone in mere seconds, his fingers buried deep inside you as you moan into his mouth. He is anything but gentle, his fingers pumping into you as if he needed to remind you again you’re his. His thumb presses to your clit, your orgasm coming closer and closer. But just as you squeeze around his fingers, your release approaching, he pulls away, a whine leaving your lips. He smirks, brushing a few sweaty strands off your face as he gazes into your eyes.
“Don’t look at me like that. I’ll get you there again,” he chuckles, running his hand down your body as if to memorize every inch. Which is funny, because you know he already has your whole memorized. “Taehyun, please,” you plea, the words leaving your lips in a soft cry. “Shh, I got you,” he assures you, aligning himself at your entrance.
Your lips fall open immediately as he thrusts into you, his balls slapping against your ass. “Just like that,” he groans. “See how we mold so perfectly together?” He asks, trusting into you. “No one else would be as good. That’s why you’re mine, right?” You nod, tears running down your cheeks as he slips in and out of you at a pace he’d normally build up to. He is never as harsh with you from the moment he sinks in. But you can’t say you’d mind.
He runs his hand through his hair, pushing them back before the same hand rests on your lower belly. “I get to mark what’s mine, right? Make sure everyone else knows you’re off limits, hm?” You nod again, too dazed to fully think about his words. But the truth is, he can do whatever.
He squeezes your clit between his fingers again, your moans filling his ears as he brings you to your orgasm again. Your legs shake, your breathing heavy as you finish around his cock, squeezing him so tight he debates never pulling out again. But instead, he does the next best thing, slapping his hips against your ass, his brows furrowing together as he reaches his orgasm, filling you to the brim.
You gasp, your eyes rolling back at the feeling, falling apart completely. He smirks, replacing his cock with his fingers again and making sure nothing spills out. “We have to make sure nothing gets out. After all, everyone has to know you’re mine, right?”
HUENING KAI — worships
Never in your life would you imagine spending your Thursday night on your boyfriend’s couch, listening to his rant about how important spending time together is and that you don’t value him enough. Because really, that’s the biggest nonsense he’s ever said.
But here you are, with your face in your hands and a loud ground leaving your lips as you get annoyed. “Kai, for fucks sake, I watched an episode!” You finally yell back, raising your head again. “You can’t seriously think I don’t want to spend time with you because I watched an episode of a teen show without you.”
“But this is our time!” He argues. “We always sit down together, watch the new episode, and hate Jeremiah because he is an asshole!” — “We can still do that!”
“Not when you already saw the episode and know what happens!”
“Oh my fucking god,” you groan again, running a hand down your face. “Kai, fucking listen to yourself for a second. You’re mad at me because I had spoilers all over the internet and just decided to watch a fucking episode! I told you we can watch it again together, that I don’t mind. So what’s the problem? Why are you making this into a bigger deal than it is?”
“It just feels like a betrayal!”
“But it’s not!”
You sigh when he doesn’t answer, looking around the room. This is the stupidest argument you’ve had in your life. And you still don’t see the problem. Is it really you who’s in the wrong?
Kai plops down on the couch beside you, avoiding your eyes as he focuses on his turned off tv. He feels fucking tired. It’s been a long, draining day, and ever since he got off work, all he wanted to do was cuddle up with you on the couch and watch the show with you like always. But then you told him you’ve already seen it and it felt like the final hit. It’s a stupid thing, he knows that, but there’s been so many stupid things like that today that just kept piling up until it got over his head. And now he’s tired.
“Come here,” he whispers when he finally looks at you, his eyes broken. You feel bad immediately. It’s nothing, you did nothing, but you still hate seeing him hurt. You move from your place and sit on his lap, letting him tug your hair behind your ears as he gazes into your eyes. “I’m sorry, love. I’m just tired,” he says, his hands resting on your waist. “I’m sorry too,” you whisper. “I should have waited. I know. And I shouldn’t have yelled at you.”
He shakes his head, closing his eyes and resting his head on your chest. “Don’t apologize. It’s my fault. You did nothing wrong,” he mumbles, pressing a kiss in the middle of your breasts. “I’ve had a long day, I didn’t mean to argue with you though,” he whispers, kissing his way up until he finds your lips.
You tilt your head slightly, pushing your lips against his as his hands roam your waist and the small of your back. “You’re so perfect,” he mumbles, as he pulls back, pressing his lips to your shoulder now. “I don’t want you to think I don’t think so just because work was hard.”
“I know, Kai,” you whisper, a shiver running down your spine as he slides his cold fingers under your shirt. “It’s okay,” you assure him, closing your eyes as he unclips your bra with ease and cups your breasts. “It’s not,” he shakes his head, getting the bra off your body and getting your right nipple between his lips through your shirt. You moan quietly at the touch, tangling your fingers in his hair.
It doesn’t take much longer for your shirt to be off as well, Kai’s hands still carefully roaming your body and lips planting kisses anywhere and everywhere he can. You help him out of his shirt as well, admiring his exposed body while he sucks on your nipple, his fingers playing with the other one. You moan at his touch, filling his ears with your pretty sounds while rolling your hips on top of him.
He pulls away with a pop, making your head spin. “Let me take care of you and this beautiful body of yours, hm?” He looks up at you, his hands still wandering, making sure he remembers your every curve. You nod to him, letting him lay you down on the couch and hover over you. You raise your hips slightly so he can take down your pants and panties, watching his every movement.
“So beautiful,” he whispers, kissing your inner thighs, You smile, his lips soft against your skin. He’s the beautiful one. He looks absolutely stunning kissing his way up your inner thigh until he meets your pussy. “Can I?” He looks up again, pressing his thumb onto your clit. You bite your bottom lip, nodding. That’s all he needs, wrapping his lips around your clit and sucking. You throw your head back as he works on you, his hands grasping onto any flesh they can—waist, thighs, ass.
He throws your legs over his shoulders, still sucking on your clit as his fingers find your entrance, tracing slow circles around your opening before thrusting inside. You gasp, grabbing him by his hair and pulling him away, the pleasure too much. But truth it, you don’t really want him to stop, and so as soon as his lips leave you, you whine in disagreement, missing his touch. He chuckles, pressing another kiss to your inner thigh before biting down. “Love, you need to decide if you want to cum or not, you can’t be saying no and then wanting me again when I pull back,” he shakes his head and you whine again, letting go of his hair.
“Kai, please,” you whisper. “I want to cum.” — “There you go,” he smiles, lowering his head again. Your boyfriend knows how to eat pussy, and every time he does, you feel like you’re in heaven. But this time, if it’s even possible, it feels even better. Your hips roll against his face, his tongue circling your clit before he sucks again, his fingers never stopping.
It doesn’t take long for him to bring you to your orgasm, his fingers curled perfectly inside you. He doesn’t stop moving even after you finish, letting you ride it out before he pulls his fingers out and licks you clean, your already sensitive clit reacting to his every touch. By the time he pulls back completely and comes up to kiss your lips, you completely forget what you were arguing about in the first place.
Summary: When soulmates are found in dreams, your nights remain empty—until someone with a broken bond helps you search. As dreams clear, unexpected feelings emerge. Are soulmates really just predestined, or can fate change mid-course?
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In a world where the concept of soulmates isn't a theory but an inevitable reality, the moment you turn 18, your dreams begin. That's when your soulmate appears, silently, waiting in the midst of your subconscious, pulling you into the world of shared dreams. It’s supposed to be magical—like a fate you can't escape, an inevitability that everyone else experiences.
Everyone else, except for you.
Every night, you wait, but the dreams never come. No warm, comforting figure stands before you in the half-light of slumber. No shared glances in the mist. The dreams everyone else describes, full of warmth and recognition, never materialize. You lie awake, staring at the ceiling, wondering what’s wrong with you. Your friends laugh about their experiences with their soulmates, speaking of a mysterious presence—someone they’ve never met, but already feel an unshakable connection to.
But for you? Nothing.
It’s as if you’re destined to walk through life alone. Everyone else gets a preview of their future, a glimpse of someone meant just for them, and yet you’re left with nothing but empty nights and a growing sense of isolation.
Questions begin to haunt you: Are soulmates real, or is it just a cruel trick of fate? Why do others get to experience something you can only dream of? The idea that there could be someone out there for you seems increasingly like a fantasy, an ideal too far-fetched to be believed.
Despite your doubts, there’s still a sliver of hope—something small, fragile, that perhaps one day your dream will come. But for now, it feels like it will never come true. You try to convince yourself that you’re fine without it, that the idea of a soulmate is overrated, but every empty dream reminds you otherwise.
The city is buzzing around you—crowds moving in all directions, the hum of traffic mixing with the distant murmur of conversation. You weave through the chaos, phone pressed to your ear, trying your best to pay attention to Jungwon’s frantic pleas.
“Please, please, I need you to help me with this!” Jungwon’s voice is filled with urgency, almost reaching a panicked pitch. “I’m seriously stuck. It’s for my girlfriend, you know? She loves flowers, but I can’t figure out which ones to get her. I was thinking, like, lilies or tulips? Wait, no—daisies! Or roses… or maybe something more unusual? I don’t know, man. Please, can you just check this one shop near you? It’s called Fleur de Destin. I swear they have the best flowers ever. I’ll pay you back after, I promise!! Just please, I really-”
You roll your eyes, but it’s all in good fun. Jungwon has always been like this—a bit too eager, a little too scatterbrained, but always with good intentions. You try to keep up with his rambling while your eyes scan the sidewalk for the shop.
“Wonnie, calm down!” you sigh, almost chuckling at his frantic energy. “I’m already on my way. I’ll figure it out, okay? Just give me a second.”
As you round the corner, you finally spot the sign you’re looking for: Fleur de Destin. The name alone makes you roll your eyes, almost scoffing at how ridiculous it is. Of course, it had to be soulmate-related—some flower shop with a fancy name designed to tug at the heartstrings of those obsessed with the idea of destiny.
“Right, right, thank you, thank you! You’re a lifesaver!” Jungwon’s voice rings with excitement, unaware of your thoughts. You roll your eyes, shaking your head as you push open the shop door.
“Yeah, yeah, I know, I’m the best,” you mutter sarcastically, stepping inside the shop, your eyes scanning the colorful array of blooms on display. “So, what flowers did you want again?”
“Okay, so she likes lilies, but not the tiger kind. And tulips—oh, wait, maybe daisies would be better?” Jungwon continues, listing off flower after flower, each suggestion more irrelevant than the last.
You groan, struggling to keep track of his endless requests. “Jungwon, you’re literally saying every flower in existence,” you complain, glancing around the shop as you try to focus. “Just pick one, or I’m walking out with a cactus.”
Distracted and exasperated, you turn the corner, still holding the phone to your ear. And then, in a flash, it happens.
You bump directly into someone. A sharp jolt of surprise, followed by the sound of something crashing to the floor. You freeze, eyes widening in shock as a plethora of bright red petals tumbles from the stranger’s grasp and scatters across the floor.
“Oh my gosh, I’m so sorry!” you blurt out, immediately hanging up on Jungwon without thinking. You kneel down, trying to salvage what’s left of the bouquet as your heart races. “Were these for your soulmate? I totally ruined them, didn’t I?”
The boy you bumped into crouches down with surprising grace, gathering the scattered flowers with care. His expression is more amused than anything else, as he looks up at you with a hint of a smile.
“No, these weren’t for my soulmate. Don’t worry about it,” he replies, his voice warm and reassuring.
Still flustered, you hastily help him pick up the fallen blooms. “But I completely ruined them. They were so pretty. I’ll pay for them!” you insist, already digging for your wallet.
He shakes his head with a small grin. “It’s fine. I wasn’t selling these to anyone specific. I was just arranging them.”
You bite your lip, not entirely convinced. “Still,” you protest, glancing at the half-destroyed bouquet. “I feel bad. They were part of a bigger arrangement, right? I messed it up.”
He pauses, and then grins wider, his eyes twinkling with a mischievous spark. “Well… you’re not wrong. I’d have to redo the whole arrangement now to make it work. But that’s just more work for me, so…” He holds the flowers out to you, a playful gleam in his gaze. “How about you take these instead? It’d save me the trouble.”
You blink, unsure. “Wait, really? I can pay for them, you know?” You hold up your wallet, still feeling guilty.
He shrugs, unfazed. “Yeah. Think of it as a freebie. From the shop to you. Something like… I don’t know, a new customer gift. Besides, it’s not like I can put these back on display now.”
A reluctant laugh escapes you, and you accept the bouquet with a small smile, feeling a little better about the situation. “Thank you. I feel bad about taking them, but… thank you,” you say, the awkwardness slowly fading.
As you straighten up to leave, ready to escape the situation before you embarrass yourself further, he adds, almost casually, “By the way, I’m Hueningkai. I work here part-time.”
His name lingers in your mind as you step out of the shop, the bouquet of poppies tucked carefully in your arms. For a brief moment, you feel a soft warmth blooming in your chest, a flutter that you can’t quite explain. You shake your head, dismissing it. It’s probably nothing, right? Just some random guy at a flower shop.
But the way his eyes spark with that playful, easy smile… something about it lingers in your thoughts longer than you expect.
The cool air hits you as you step outside, the city noises slowly fading into the background. The bouquet of red poppies feels delicate in your hands, their bright petals a stark contrast against the grey streets around you.
You pull your phone from your pocket, the familiar vibration in your hand a reminder of the chaos you’ve temporarily escaped. It’s a text from Jungwon—naturally. You glance at the screen, and immediately, you feel a little twinge of guilt.
“Did you find the flowers? Please tell me you didn’t get a cactus.”
You stare at the message for a beat, the poppies in your hand almost mocking you with their vibrant color. You can’t help but think of the brief encounter with the boy at the flower shop, his grin still lingering in your thoughts.
You hesitate, fingers hovering over the keyboard. Should you tell him the truth? That the flowers were a gift, that you accidentally ran into the boy while trying to help him? But it feels… too complicated. After all, you can’t exactly tell Jungwon you’ve already messed up his entire shopping trip by getting sidetracked with some random guy, even if the poppies are beautiful.
So, instead, you settle on something simpler. A little white lie.
“They didn’t have any of the ones you wanted. Sorry!”
You press send before you can second-guess yourself, a tiny knot of discomfort twisting in your stomach. You know Jungwon will bombard you with questions if he suspects something’s off, but at the moment, it seems like the easiest way out.
Sure enough, his response is swift and dramatic. A string of emojis floods the screen. A skull, a broken heart, and a sad cat.
You roll your eyes, chuckling softly to yourself. Typical Jungwon. Of course, he’d react like this. It’s all part of the charm—his over-the-top reactions to every little inconvenience.
But as you walk home, the weight of the bouquet starts to feel a little heavier, the small lie weighing on you despite how harmless it seems. You glance down at the poppies again. Their vibrant red hue stands out against the dull, overcast sky, reminding you of the shop, of Hueningkai, and of the warmth in his smile that you can’t seem to shake.
The soft morning light filters through your window, bathing the room in pale gold, but it only serves to amplify the emptiness you feel. The warmth of the sunlight brushes against your skin, but it does little to chase away the chill that’s settled in your chest. You blink awake, eyes still heavy with sleep, the familiar ache of disappointment lingering like a dull, unshakable weight. Another night, another empty dream. It’s become a cruel routine—the restless hours that stretch into a blur, the fragile hopes that flicker like candlelight, only to be snuffed out when morning comes and the truth sinks in: no soulmate. Just silence. Just loneliness.
You lie motionless, staring at the ceiling, the stillness of the room a mirror to the heaviness in your heart. Each breath feels shallow, as though the air itself carries the burden of your unfulfilled longing. Your gaze traces the cracks in the plaster above, mind drifting back to last night and the quiet sorrow of yet another dreamless sleep. The hours had passed in a haze of restless tossing and turning, the emptiness pressing against your chest like an unwelcome visitor that refused to leave.
But then, like a spark igniting in the darkness, a memory surfaces—soft and vivid, cutting through the fog of your melancholy. The bouquet of poppies on your counter.
The bright red petals stand in stark contrast to the usual dull monotony of your mornings. You sit up and glance at the flowers again, a soft warmth blooming in your chest. Kai. You can’t shake the image of him—his warm smile, the way he hadn’t hesitated to give you the poppies, even when he probably should have asked for something in return. It’s funny how someone you barely know can make you feel so... seen, in a way. There was no judgment, no expectation, just a simple act of kindness that left you with more than just the flowers.
For a brief moment, the loneliness eases, replaced by a sense of comfort. A warmth you can’t quite place, something simple yet significant.
You decide, right then and there, that you should do something for him. It’s not much, just a small gesture to show your appreciation, but it feels like the right thing to do. Maybe it won’t change the emptiness that lingers in your heart, but at least for today, it feels like you’re taking a step toward something positive.
You make your way to a nearby café, the chilly air nipping at your cheeks as you walk, your hands cradling each other for warmth. The streets are quiet this early, the faint hum of the waking city blending with the soft rustle of leaves carried by the wind. Your breath fogs in front of you, each exhale a fleeting cloud that vanishes into the crisp morning air. The weight of your thoughts clings to you like the cold, but the gentle buzz of activity from the café’s glowing windows feels like a small reprieve from the solitude.
The bell above the door jingles softly as you step inside, warmth wrapping around you like a comforting embrace. The scent of freshly brewed coffee mingles with the faint sweetness of pastries, and for a moment, it’s easy to forget the unease stirring in your chest. You step up to the counter, scanning the chalkboard menu even though you already know what you’ll order. Two cups of coffee—one for yourself, and one for him.
When it’s your turn, the barista greets you with a cheerful smile, her pen poised to jot down your order. You give it to her, your voice soft but steady, and she begins ringing you up. But then comes the inevitable question, casual and routine: “What name should I put on this one?” She gestures to one of the cups, waiting for your answer.
You open your mouth to reply, but the words falter, sticking in your throat. What was his name again?
The thought comes with an unexpected rush of panic. You know his name—of course, you do. You’ve said it to yourself countless times in the quiet moments in your mind. But now, with the barista watching you expectantly, the letters twist and blur in your mind. Hueningkai. That’s right, isn’t it? But how do you spell it? Is it “H-u-e” or “H-e-u”? The uncertainty churns in your stomach, and your nerves suddenly feel much too raw for something so small.
Your cheeks burn, the silence stretching uncomfortably. You need to say something. Anything. Before you can overthink it further, you quickly blurt out the first thing that comes to mind.
“Just… Kai. K-A-I.”
The barista nods with an easy smile, scribbling the name onto the cup. Her pen glides over the paper like it’s the simplest thing in the world, and you let out a quiet, shaky breath of relief. But the faint blush warming your face refuses to fade, a mix of embarrassment and something else you can’t quite name.
You step to the side to wait for your coffee, arms crossed as you try to shake off the lingering awkwardness. It’s just a name. It doesn’t have to be this complicated. People shorten names all the time, don’t they? It’s not a big deal. But no matter how much you tell yourself this, you can’t escape the strange weight that settles in your chest.
Because it does feel like a big deal. The simple act of ordering coffee for him feels far more significant than it should. It’s not just about the name or the cup; it’s about the connection, the bridge between what’s real and what still feels so dreamlike. It matters to you—more than you’d expected—and the thought of getting it wrong, of somehow lessening the meaning of this small gesture, gnaws at the edges of your mind.
Your fingers drum lightly against the counter as you wait, the soft hum of the café filling the quiet spaces in your thoughts. Why does this feel so important? You can’t quite explain it, even to yourself, but you know the answer lies somewhere in the way his name lingers on your tongue. It’s not just a name; it’s a piece of him. And that makes it impossible for you to treat it as anything less.
Back at the flower shop, the door chimes softly as you push it open. The familiar scent of flowers greets you, but this time, it feels different. There’s a lightness to the air, a nervous anticipation you can’t shake. You glance around the shop and spot Kai behind the counter, his back turned as he carefully arranges a bouquet. As you approach, he turns, his eyes widening in recognition.
“Oh, hey. Back again? What, did you come to knock over more flowers?” he teases, his voice light and amused as he sets the bouquet down.
You laugh nervously, the memory of the previous day’s accidental collision still fresh in your mind. “No, I just… I felt bad about yesterday. You were so nice, and since you wouldn’t let me pay for the poppies, I thought coffee might make up for it.”
Kai raises an eyebrow, looking at the cup in your hand, and then his gaze flickers to the name written on it. His smile grows wider as he sees “Kai” scrawled in neat handwriting. “Kai, huh?”
Your heart skips a beat at the way he says it. Did I mess it up? You panic for a split second before quickly speaking up. “What? Did I spell it wrong?”
“No, it’s fine,” he chuckles, his tone warm and light. “My friends call me that too. I did tell you it’s Hueningkai though, remember?”
You groan, scratching the back of your neck, feeling heat rise to your face. “I didn’t forget, don’t worry. It’s just that the barista asked for the spelling, and I panicked. I wasn’t sure if it was like… H-u-e or H-e-u or…” You trail off, embarrassed at how overblown this whole situation feels now.
His laughter is genuine and easy, making the awkwardness feel lighter. “Don’t worry. You can just call me Kai. Honestly, it suits me better.”
The tension between you two fades, and the conversation turns easy, natural even, as you both sip your coffee in companionable silence. There’s a peacefulness in this small moment, a quiet connection that feels as if it’s grown out of the simplest of actions. It’s strange—how a cup of coffee, an exchange of words, could carry so much weight. You can’t explain it, but somehow, it does. There’s a comfort in being here with him, in the shared space, even if it’s only for a moment.
As you finish your coffee, you start to stand up, preparing to leave. The warmth of the coffee lingers in your hands, and you feel a small pang of reluctance at the thought of walking away. But just as you turn, Kai’s voice calls out, pulling you back like a thread being gently tugged.
“Hey! I just realized—I didn’t get your name. I should’ve asked it beforehand, huh?”
You freeze mid-step, caught off guard by the simple statement. It’s funny how something as ordinary as your name can feel so vulnerable at this moment, as if giving it away might anchor you to this fleeting encounter. Slowly, you turn back toward him, a hint of embarrassment creeping into your expression.
“Oh, uh, right,” you say, brushing a strand of hair behind your ear. “How could I forget? I’m Y/N.” The words come out soft, almost hesitant, but you offer him a small, shy smile to soften the awkwardness.
Kai’s lips curve into a genuine smile, one that makes his features light up in a way that feels unfairly disarming. “It’s nice to meet you, Y/N,” he says, his tone carrying a warmth that feels like the first hint of spring after a long winter.
You nod, ready to excuse yourself, but he continues, his voice dipping into a playful lilt. “I feel like I should make sure you don’t knock over any more flowers. How about we exchange numbers? That way, you can give me a heads-up if you’re planning to visit again.”
A surprised laugh escapes your lips, and you shake your head. “Are you going to hold that over me forever?” you ask, though the lightness in your tone betrays the quiet excitement bubbling beneath your skin.
“Absolutely,” he replies without missing a beat, the mischievous glint in his eyes sending a small flutter through your chest. “But I promise to be gentle about it.”
The faint heat rising to your cheeks betrays the calm facade you’re trying to maintain. “Alright,” you say, pulling your phone from your pocket, your fingers trembling just enough for you to notice. You carefully type in your number, hesitating for a moment before handing it to him.
As he takes the phone, his fingers brush lightly against yours. The contact is brief—barely a second—but it leaves behind a spark that lingers, warming your skin like the echo of a quiet flame. He glances at the screen, his lips curling into a satisfied smile as he saves your number.
“There,” he says, holding up his phone like it’s a trophy. “Now I can officially make sure you’re not a menace to flowers everywhere.”
You laugh again, the sound feeling freer this time. “I’ll do my best to avoid causing more disasters. Scout’s honor.”
Kai grins, his eyes crinkling at the corners in a way that makes your heart skip. “I’ll hold you to that, Y/N.”
With a final exchange of smiles, you both say your goodbyes. As you step out of the coffee shop and into the cool air, the world feels a little brighter, the colors a little sharper. Your mind keeps circling back to the warmth of his voice, the easy rhythm of your conversation, and the way his smile lingered just for you.
Clutching your phone in your pocket, you can’t help but wonder if this brief, serendipitous moment might grow into something far more unexpected. For the first time in a long time, the idea doesn’t feel so impossible. Instead, it feels like a quiet kind of hope.
The first text from Kai comes the next morning, a simple message: “Hope your day’s going well.”
You stare at the screen for a moment, unsure of what to say, but it feels like a door opening—a small crack that you could slip through. So, you respond: “Good so far, just the usual. How about you?”
It’s an innocent exchange, but something about it makes your heart flutter. It’s just a text. Just a casual check-in. And yet, it feels like it means more.
Over the next few days, the texts come more regularly. The casual messages soon become a natural part of your routine. Sometimes it’s a photo of the flowers you’ve come across while walking home, sometimes it’s a little observation about something funny or odd you saw in the city. Kai, always prompt in his replies, sends photos of his own—his latest photography projects, snapshots of the flowers at the shop, or just the candid moments of his day. It’s never anything particularly groundbreaking, but the simplicity of it makes you feel like you’re getting to know him more than you expected.
One afternoon, you send him a picture of a small bouquet you picked up on your way back from class. Bright yellow daffodils, with their cheerful petals standing out against the greenery. “What do you think of these?” you ask, feeling a little silly, but the thought of his opinion matters to you in a way you can’t quite explain.
A few minutes later, your phone buzzes. “They’re gorgeous. Definitely a good pick. I think you’re going to love how they look in your space.” There’s a small follow-up text: “Daffodils are one of my favorites. They remind me of early spring—the way the weather feels like it’s on the edge of change, but still holding onto a bit of the winter chill.”
You smile at his words, the thoughtfulness behind them. It’s strange how quickly you’ve come to appreciate these small moments of connection. The way his comments feel personal, and the way he seems to truly think about things before responding. It makes you feel seen, even if it’s just in this small way.
After a few weeks, the texts have evolved. Sometimes it’s quick updates on your day, but other times, you find yourselves talking late into the night, the messages flowing more easily than you ever expected. He tells you about his life, about how he balances his part-time job at the flower shop with his classes. How he has big dreams of traveling the world, capturing moments with his camera, but also feels a pressure to figure out what he wants to do with his life. There’s a sense of uncertainty in his words that you can relate to, but there’s also a spark of passion when he talks about photography, as if it’s the one thing he knows he’s meant to do.
It’s strange—how quickly you’ve started looking forward to his messages. At first, you thought it was just casual. A way to pass the time. But now? Now, it feels like a connection is slowly growing between you two, one small message at a time. Sometimes, you catch yourself waiting for the sound of your phone buzzing, hoping that there’ll be another text from him waiting for you. And when it does come, there’s a warmth that spreads through you, like the glow of the sun breaking through the clouds.
The ease with which you both have fallen into this comfortable, shared space catches you off guard. Every text feels like a small piece of a larger puzzle, one that you’re slowly starting to put together without even realizing it. And somehow, it feels like something more than just casual messages between friends. There’s something there, something that you can’t quite name yet.
Every now and then, you think about the idea of soulmates. You wonder, as you read his messages or look at the photos he sends, if this could be it. Could he be the one you’ve been waiting for, even though the dream system never worked for you? Could this—this—be how soulmates are found, not through dreams or destiny, but through something as simple and beautiful as a shared moment, a small act of kindness, and a deepening connection?
For now, though, all you know is that you enjoy these small moments with him. The way the conversations flow so naturally. The way he shares pieces of his life with you. And somehow, it feels like you’re building something more real than any dream could ever promise.
It’s another late evening at your favorite café, the soft hum of chatter and clink of coffee cups filling the air as you and Kai sit together, enjoying the warmth of your drinks. There's an unusual ease between you, a connection that feels more natural with each passing day.
After a few moments of comfortable silence, Kai looks up at you, a contemplative expression crossing his face. "So, have you met your soulmate yet?"
The question catches you off guard, and your stomach sinks slightly. You've been avoiding this topic for weeks now. You laugh it off at first, trying to keep the conversation light. "What? No, I haven’t. You know that. I mean, I don't even have dreams like everyone else. It’s like... nothing is happening for me."
Kai gives you a soft, understanding look, though there’s a hint of sadness in his eyes. You pause, feeling the familiar sting of rejection, the disappointment that comes with never having felt the pull of a soulmate.
He hesitates, then quietly admits, "I haven’t had a soulmate dream either. Not for a long time."
You glance at him in surprise, unsure of how to respond. "What do you mean, 'not for a long time'?"
He looks away, as if lost in thought. "I had one. A long time ago. But..." His voice falters, and he takes a deep breath before continuing, "... my soulmate rejected me. They cut the bond before it could even really start."
The words hang in the air, and you feel the weight of them. You can't imagine what that kind of rejection must feel like—being told that your connection, your future, isn't real. But the look in Kai’s eyes tells you that it’s been the hardest thing he’s ever experienced.
"I tried to move on," Kai adds, his voice soft. "But it's hard, you know? When you’ve been told that you only get one soulmate... and then it all falls apart."
The sadness in his tone is unmistakable, and you feel a pang of sympathy for him, even though you're struggling with your own emptiness. The idea that everyone only gets one soulmate feels like a cruel joke, especially when it’s all tied to something as fragile as a dream. You’ve never had a soulmate dream, and now you’re hearing that Kai had one—and it was ripped away from him before it could even begin.
You want to comfort him, but the weight of the situation leaves you at a loss for words. Kai continues to gaze into his cup, almost as if the pain is too much to look at directly.
After a long silence, he looks up, meeting your eyes with a quiet resolve. "But I’m not going to let that stop me from helping you."
You blink, taken aback. "What do you mean?"
Kai leans back in his chair, his voice steady. "I know what it’s like to feel like you’re never going to meet the one. But that doesn’t mean I won’t help you find yours. Even if I’ve lost mine, I’ll help you. I won’t let you feel alone in this."
His words are both comforting and heartbreaking. You hadn’t expected him to offer—especially given everything he’s been through. The weight of his rejection, the hollow feeling he must carry every day, and still, he’s offering his help without hesitation. There’s something selfless in his offer, and you find it hard to process.
You swallow hard, a mix of gratitude and sadness pooling in your chest. "Kai, I—"
He gives you a soft smile, though it’s tinged with sorrow. "You don’t have to say anything. I know it’s not the same, but maybe we can help each other figure it out. I’ll be here, even if it’s just for the company. And I’ll help you search for your soulmate—just… don’t give up on them yet."
His words make your heart ache, and for a moment, you feel a tiny crack form in the wall around your own feelings. You had been carrying this burden of emptiness on your own, not sharing it with anyone, and now, Kai is here, offering to help in the only way he knows how. And yet, there’s a part of you that feels pained at the realization that he’s had to carry this pain of rejection alone for so long. You hadn’t expected to feel this way, but it hurts knowing that even though he’s willing to help you, he’s still carrying the pieces of his broken soulmate bond with him.
"I… I don't want you to feel like you have to help me," you say softly, your voice barely above a whisper. "I don’t want you to go through this alone just because I need someone."
Kai shakes his head, his eyes soft but firm. "No. I want to help you. It’s not about pity or anything. It’s just... if I can help you find something real, then maybe it’ll make this whole thing worth it for someone else, even if it’s not me."
A lump forms in your throat, and for a moment, all you can do is nod. The emotions swirling in your chest are too complex to untangle, but you appreciate his honesty, his vulnerability. Yet despite the sadness that’s colored this conversation, something inside you shifts—Kai is no longer just the boy who gave you bumped into that one day; he’s someone who truly understands the weight of lost dreams, and somehow, you’re both going to find a way through it together.
But as he speaks, you can’t shake the quiet disappointment that lingers in your heart. You finally had hopes of your soulmate, you thought it was him, but turns out he already had a soulmate, well used to. But still, you can’t help but feel grateful for the person sitting across from you, even if the path ahead is uncertain, you had a friend like him.
As the days pass, your connection with Kai deepens, although you don’t let it get further than just a friend helping you out. The conversations you once had over coffee now spill over into late-night text exchanges and phone calls. The weight of your shared quest to understand soulmates—those late ones, the lost ones, the ones like you—becomes a bond neither of you had anticipated.
It starts off small. You exchange articles, links to forums, obscure old myths about soulmates passed down through generations. But each discovery, no matter how trivial it seems, feels like a small victory. And every time Kai texts you something new he’s found, it brings a new kind of excitement, something you haven’t felt in a long time. The loneliness doesn’t sting quite as much when you're searching together, looking for answers that might finally bring you peace.
The first night you sit together in his room, your laptops open, books scattered around you, it feels like a shared mission. You're not just searching for your soulmate anymore. You’re searching for a truth that feels just out of reach.
Kai, always the meticulous one, has already printed out several research papers he found about soulmate bonds, especially ones about the late bloomers—people who don’t dream of their soulmate until later in life, or whose connections are severed before they can even begin to bloom. His handwriting fills a small notebook, filled with observations, notes, and even speculative ideas about how soulmates could be tied to something more than just a dream.
"This one," Kai says one night, his finger tracing an old myth from a dusty book he’d borrowed from the local library, "talks about how some soulmates might be waiting for the other to be ready. Like, maybe the dream doesn't happen until both people are emotionally prepared to face each other. That could be why you haven’t had a soulmate dream yet—maybe you’re just not ready, or the dream hasn’t arrived because you haven’t faced whatever you need to face yet."
You take a long look at the page, absorbing the idea. It makes sense, in a way. Could there be some truth to it? Have you been avoiding something in your life that could make your dream of a soulmate real? "What do you think?" you ask, curious about his thoughts.
Kai leans back, his eyes a little distant. “I don’t know. But it’s possible. It’s just like when people say you can't truly love someone else until you love yourself, right? Maybe it’s the same with soulmates. The universe is waiting for you to be whole first.”
You nod, the words resonating in a way you didn’t expect. There’s a truth to what he’s saying. It’s not just about meeting someone; maybe it’s about becoming someone capable of accepting that connection. The weight of that realization lingers, but it also offers a flicker of hope. Could your soulmate be out there, waiting for you to understand something about yourself before you meet?
Another night, as you scroll through a thread on a forum discussing soulmate connections, you stumble upon an older comment—one that catches your attention. It talks about how some soulmate connections aren’t about finding your other half, but about finding someone who compliments your journey, someone who helps you grow. You read the words to Kai out loud, and he nods thoughtfully.
“That’s an interesting perspective,” he muses, tapping his pen on the desk. “What if soulmates aren’t a perfect match but rather the catalyst to make you a better version of yourself? It’s kind of like... what I was talking about with ‘readiness.’ Maybe soulmates are there to teach us something.”
Your heart flutters at the thought of it. Could your soulmate be someone you wouldn’t expect? Someone who helps you grow, someone who’s meant to challenge you? The idea makes your stomach turn in an odd mix of excitement and nervousness. What if your soulmate was someone completely different from what you imagined?
Kai’s voice pulls you out of your thoughts. “Maybe you haven’t had your dream because there’s something you still need to learn before you can be ready for it. But I’ll help you figure it out.”
His words settle over you like a gentle, steady reassurance. It’s not just the research or the theories that make you feel comforted, but the quiet sincerity behind them. Kai has been hurt by his own soulmate’s rejection, but instead of shutting down, he’s chosen to help you find yours. His belief in your chance at a soulmate, despite everything he’s been through, is something you can’t quite comprehend yet, but you feel the weight of it—how deeply he cares.
You don’t know what you’ve done to deserve such a loyal friend, but you’re grateful for it. The more time you spend together, the more you realize how much Kai’s presence has become a comfort in your life. He’s not just a source of information anymore; he’s a friend, someone who understands your struggles, someone who’s willing to go through this journey with you, no matter how long it takes.
But there’s something else, too—something that’s starting to grow between you, a feeling that’s hard to name. As you share theories, exchange ideas, and laugh over shared frustrations, the bond between you and Kai shifts. It’s no longer just about finding your soulmate. It’s about finding your way through this confusing, lonely world, together.
Sometimes, when your eyes meet across the table, you catch something unspoken in his gaze. It’s not the same as before. It’s softer, warmer, and when he smiles at you, it feels like something more than just a friend’s smile. But every time you notice it, you push it aside, telling yourself that you’re just imagining things.
After all, Kai is helping you find your soulmate—not being one for you.
And yet, with every passing night spent researching and learning together, the lines between friendship and something deeper begin to blur. The more you lean on each other, the harder it becomes to separate what you need from what you want. And neither of you knows yet where this journey will take you.
But you’re no longer alone in it.
After weeks of late-night research and deep conversations about soulmates, today is a quiet, uneventful afternoon at the flower shop. Kai has just finished his shift, and you’ve come from your classes, the calm of the day settling in between the two of you. The shop is warm, sunlight pouring through the windows, casting soft patterns on the floor. You’re both sitting with iced drinks in hand, scrolling through your phones. But there’s an underlying tension in the air that you can’t ignore.
Kai is distant today. He’s usually more present—playful, engaging, or cracking jokes to fill the silences. But not today. Today, he’s just sitting there, staring down at the floor, a furrow in his brow. It’s subtle, but you notice.
“Hey,” you say gently, trying to break the silence. “You okay?”
Kai blinks and looks up, his gaze sharp as if he’s just snapped out of a trance. He offers a small, distracted smile, but it doesn’t reach his eyes. “Yeah, just... thinking about something. It’s nothing.”
You don’t buy it. Not for a second. Over the past few weeks, you’ve become familiar with the way his moods shift, and this isn’t the usual easygoing Kai you know. Something’s bothering him.
“You sure?” You try again. “You seem... off.”
He chuckles softly, a little awkwardly, rubbing the back of his neck. “It’s just... I ran into someone yesterday.”
You raise an eyebrow, curiosity piqued. “Someone? Who?”
Kai’s gaze flickers to the flowers scattered around the shop, avoiding your eyes. “My ex... the one who rejected me.”
His words hit you harder than you expected. You’ve heard pieces of his past, but hearing it like this, raw and unfiltered, makes something twist in your chest. You can see it now—the tension in his shoulders, the subtle tightness in his jaw. There’s a lingering sadness in the way he says it, like a ghost he’s still carrying around.
“Wait, you saw her?” you ask, your voice quiet.
Kai nods, looking almost reluctant to share. “Yeah. It was a surprise. We bumped into each other on the street. Honestly, I thought I’d feel... something. But, weirdly, I felt nothing.”
“Nothing?” you echo, surprised. “Like... no anger? No pain?”
He shakes his head slowly, his expression distant. “Just... indifference. I thought I’d feel something after everything that happened. But when I saw her, I realized I don’t care anymore. I didn’t feel anger or resentment. I didn’t feel relief, either. I just felt... nothing. I guess I was hoping for some sort of closure, but instead, I just... walked away.”
You pause, the weight of his words hanging in the air between you. The silence stretches, both of you caught in your thoughts, as you try to process what he’s just shared.
“It’s good that you felt indifferent,” you finally say, your voice gentle. “Maybe that means you’re starting to move on. Like... truly move on.”
Kai looks over at you, his eyes softening as he meets your gaze. He gives you a small smile, but it’s bittersweet. “Yeah... maybe. But it’s weird, you know? After everything we went through, I thought I’d have some kind of reaction. Some feeling that would tell me I was over it. But in the end... I didn’t feel anything at all.”
You think for a moment, then offer him a reassuring smile. “Maybe that’s a good thing. It means you’re free.”
Kai lets out a quiet, almost resigned laugh, but there’s still a shadow in his eyes. “Maybe. But sometimes I wonder... if I’m just... afraid of feeling anything again, you know? Maybe that’s why I can’t let myself care.”
His words hang in the air, and you don’t know what to say. You’re not sure how to fix the uncertainty in his voice, or the way he’s still so hesitant to let himself feel something, even though he’s ready to let go of the past.
You don’t have an immediate answer for him. Instead, you just sit there with him in the quiet of the shop, the weight of his vulnerability hanging between you. The afternoon light spills through the windows, casting long shadows as the two of you are left alone with your thoughts.
After a long moment, you finally speak. “If you ever want to talk about it more, you know I’m here, right?”
Kai looks at you, his gaze soft, and his smile deepens slightly. “I know. Thanks.”
It’s not the kind of conversation that has any clear resolution, but in this moment, the simple act of being there for each other feels like the most important thing. You’re not sure if Kai is ready to face his fears about opening his heart again, but you’re certain that, for now, you’re there with him, sharing this space and understanding him in a way that words can’t fully capture.
The afternoon slips into evening, and the two of you fall into an easy, comfortable silence. There’s no pressure, no need for more explanations. You’re just there, two people who have seen each other’s scars and are slowly learning how to heal them together.
It’s a fragile, quiet comfort. But it’s enough. For now.
For years, your dreams remained empty, cold, and silent. But then, one night, things began to shift. It started with a faint shadow, a shape in the distance that was too unclear to recognize—just a faint outline, barely visible. The figure was blurry, indistinct, but even so, your heart skipped a beat. You couldn't help but wonder: was this finally your soulmate? Could the long wait for a connection in your dreams be coming to an end?
Night after night, the figure grows clearer, the edges sharpening with each passing dream. Though you still can’t make out their face, their form is more defined now, their presence more tangible. You feel a pull in your chest, an unexplainable warmth when the figure appears. Hope swells inside you—the soulmate you’ve longed for, the one you were meant to meet, is finally reaching out. The excitement is overwhelming. You just need to see their face. But even with the lingering blur, you’re convinced: this is them, the one you’ve been waiting for all these years.
Yet, as your connection with this blurry figure deepens with each dream, you can’t help but think of Kai. Of the long conversations, of the shared moments, of the way you’ve both supported each other in your confusion and pain. For so long, he’s been a constant, a friend who has listened to your hopes and fears. And now, as you inch closer to meeting the person who will complete you, you wonder—what does this mean for you and Kai? Will your friendship end when your goal is reached?
For Kai, though, things are different. His dreams are also filled with a figure—a blurry, indistinct shape that grows clearer the more he sleeps. But unlike you, Kai isn’t filled with excitement. Instead, he feels dread. Every night, he’s haunted by this figure, and with every new dream, he’s more convinced that it’s not someone new—it's his ex-soulmate. The one who rejected him all those years ago.
The figure hasn’t solidified yet, still too blurry for him to fully recognize, but Kai knows. He knows that it’s her—the person who severed their bond before it could ever even begin. He hasn’t seen her in years, but every time the figure appears in his dreams, his stomach sinks. The more he tries to push it away, the more certain he becomes. This isn’t a new person; this is someone from his past, someone who broke his heart and left him questioning everything about soulmates.
The dread claws at him each night as he sees that blurry figure taking form, inching closer to clarity. He doesn’t want it to be her. He doesn’t want to face the possibility that she might want to reconnect, might want to try again. The rejection he endured still stings, and he can’t imagine having to go through that pain again. Even if the figure is still vague, the fear that it’s her makes him hesitate to believe it could be anything else. Yet, why does a part of him long for it to be someone else, even when it would be impossible.
You can’t contain your excitement when you sit down with Kai at the café, eager to share the latest developments in your dreams. The figure is growing clearer, and every night, you feel a stronger pull toward them. You tell Kai about how you can sense the figure reaching out to you, and how the bond feels so much more real with each passing night. The hope of finally meeting your soulmate feels so close, you can almost touch it.
Kai listens quietly, but the smile on his face is faint, his eyes shadowed with a flicker of something deeper. His heart sinks as you speak, a quiet ache growing in his chest. The weight of your words settles heavily on him. You’re so sure that the blurry figure in your dreams is your soulmate, but Kai can’t help but think about the blurry figure in his own dreams.
As you talk about your dreams, about the connection growing stronger, Kai’s mind drifts. He’s been trying so hard to ignore the feelings that have been growing inside him. The feelings he’s been hiding for so long, the feelings that have only deepened as the two of you have spent more time together.
He’s falling for you. He knows it, feels it with every passing day, but the truth is too complicated, too painful. He watches as you get excited about your soulmate, your connection, and it feels like a cruel reminder of everything he can never have. The dream of soulmates that was once his, now shattered and replaced by an unspoken truth he can’t share.
Kai doesn’t want to feel this way. He doesn’t want to feel this weight on his chest, this tightness in his throat every time you talk about your soulmate, because he knows it’s too late. You’re on your way to meeting yours, and even if he wanted to tell you the truth—that he’s falling in love with you—he’s terrified. Terrified that you won’t feel the same way, terrified that it’s too late for him.
He’s watching you become closer to someone else, and the thought of losing you—of never having a chance with you—is unbearable. So, he suppresses it. He smiles, laughs, listens, all the while pretending that everything is fine, all the while fighting the intense emotions brewing inside him.
Despite the turmoil in his heart, Kai continues to help you. He listens patiently as you share the details of your dreams, offering his insights and advice on how to interpret the signs and clues. He tells you to pay attention to the smallest details, to look for anything that might confirm the identity of the figure, even as he feels the ache of not being able to reveal his own feelings.
Each time you tell him about how much clearer the figure has become, how the bond feels more tangible, the tension in Kai’s chest grows. He smiles and offers encouraging words, but the smile never quite reaches his eyes. The strain is evident in his voice, in the way he holds himself back from saying too much.
He’s doing everything he can to be there for you, to help you find your soulmate. But inside, he’s battling a storm of emotions. Every word of encouragement, every smile, feels like a slow burn, like he’s suffocating under the weight of his own unspoken love for you. The more you grow excited about your soulmate, the more the distance between you and Kai feels like an insurmountable divide.
The tension between you both grows, even if you don’t see it. Each moment spent with him feels like a precious gift to Kai, but also like a constant reminder of everything he can’t have. His love for you remains unspoken, locked away in the silence between your words, and he wonders how much longer he can keep it buried inside before it all comes spilling out.
The space between you and Kai continues to grow, though neither of you acknowledges it outright. There’s something undeniably charged between you two, something that lingers in every shared glance and every small moment. His presence in your life is a constant, and you’ve grown used to the comfort and warmth that comes with his quiet support. Yet, no matter how much you feel the connection between you, you still find yourself pushing it away.
You remind yourself that the soulmate you’ve been waiting for is out there, still a blurry figure in your dreams, and that’s the one you’re meant to be with. Despite the warmth you feel when Kai is around, the tenderness in his eyes, the way he listens to you like no one else does, you refuse to acknowledge it. You tell yourself that it’s too soon, that this bond with Kai doesn’t mean anything.
Each time you laugh and share another bit of good news about your dreams, you can feel his gaze lingering on you longer than it should, a quiet sadness that you don’t see, but that he can’t hide. You’re becoming more and more absorbed in the hope of meeting your soulmate, the one who’s supposed to be out there waiting for you, the one who will complete the dream you’ve been chasing for so long.
Kai, on the other hand, watches as the gap between you grows. It’s not that you’ve changed, not really. But he can see the way you’ve become more distant. The more excited you get about the dreams, the more you pull away from him, almost as if you’re trying to convince yourself that your soulmate isn’t someone you already know. It eats away at him, but he doesn’t know how to stop it. He’s terrified that if he tells you how he feels, he’ll only push you further away. But watching you hold on to the idea of someone else, someone who’s not him, is slowly breaking him.
One evening, after a long day, you and Kai take a quiet walk together. The air is cool, the sound of your footsteps is all that can be heard as the silence between you both grows more palpable. You’re talking about your dreams, your soulmate, and how convinced you are that they’re finally starting to reach you. The figure is becoming clearer, your connection growing stronger.
“I can’t wait to finally meet them,” you say, your smile hopeful, your eyes filled with anticipation.
Kai forces a smile, nodding along as if he’s truly happy for you, but his heart feels like it’s sinking. He swallows the lump in his throat, the ache that has been building inside him for weeks. “Yeah,” he replies softly, his voice carrying a faint edge of pain that he quickly tries to mask. “They’re out there.”
But even as he says it, there’s a part of him that wants to scream that he’s right here. That he’s the one who’s been by your side, supporting you through all of this. But he doesn’t. He can’t. He watches as you remain wrapped in the belief that your soulmate is someone who will appear in your dreams, and he wonders if you’ll ever look at him in that way.
The walk ends in silence, a thick, invisible wall between you that neither of you is willing to acknowledge. You part ways, still believing in the dream of your soulmate, unaware of how much Kai has already given you—how much he’s already given up in silence.
For Kai, each step away from you feels like a piece of him breaking off, but he swallows it down. He’s learned to live in the space of almost, to pretend that everything is fine, even when his heart aches with every passing second. But the truth is, he knows deep down that no matter how hard he tries to be just your friend, the feelings he has for you have grown too strong to ignore. He just doesn’t know if you’ll ever see him the way he sees you, nor should you, not when you’re destined to be with someone else already.
The night wraps around Kai like a heavy blanket as he sits on the edge of his bed, phone in hand, staring at your message. His thumb brushes idly against the screen, scrolling up to reread your words, as if the emotions woven into them might shift into something easier to bear if he looks just one more time.
You had sent it with so much enthusiasm, your excitement spilling over like the first rays of dawn breaking through the darkest night. You’d written about the dream—how vivid it was, how the figure was no longer a blur but beginning to take shape. You’d described every detail with a breathless kind of joy: the way the figure moved, how they reached out to you, how close you felt to finally understanding who they were. It was like reading a story painted in colors so bright they almost hurt his eyes, each word shining with hope and possibility.
Kai could see your happiness so clearly in every word, and it twisted something deep inside him. The tightness in his chest grew unbearable as he pictured you sitting there, eyes lit up, fingers typing quickly, pouring out your heart to him. It was the kind of joy he wanted to see on your face every day, the kind of excitement he longed to be the cause of—but instead, it was for someone else. Someone faceless. Someone who wasn’t him.
His hand tightened around his phone as he reread your description of the dream, the way you’d said the figure was finally coming into focus, how it felt like you were standing on the edge of a life-changing revelation. Kai could practically hear your voice in his mind, brimming with anticipation, and it only made the ache in his chest worse.
His fingers hover over the keyboard, trembling slightly, and before he knows it, he’s typing. I wish it were me. I wish I was the one you saw in your dreams. The words spill out in a rush, raw and unfiltered, as though his heart had taken over, desperate to finally be heard.
For a moment, he stares at the screen, his heart pounding. The confession feels so fragile, so vulnerable, and yet it burns with the truth he’s been carrying for far too long. The glowing words seem to taunt him, daring him to hit send, to step into the unknown and finally bare his soul.
But then reality crashes down on him like a wave, cold and unforgiving. His breathing slows as doubt creeps in, wrapping around him like chains. His thumb hovers over the “send” button, frozen. What if this changes everything? What if you don’t feel the same? What if he loses you entirely?
The risk feels too great, the fear too overwhelming. With a shaking breath, he presses backspace, watching the words disappear one by one, like erasing a part of himself. The blank text box stares back at him, mocking him with its emptiness.
Kai types something safer, something distant, something that won’t betray the storm raging inside him. "That sounds amazing. I’m really happy for you," he writes. The words feel hollow, lifeless, like a shadow of what he truly wants to say. But that's all he can manage.
He hits send before he can overthink it, the message vanishing into the ether like a whisper swallowed by the wind. As soon as it’s gone, a crushing weight settles on his chest. The ache doesn’t lessen; it deepens, sinking into him like a stone dropped into the depths of a still lake.
He imagines you reading his response, your excitement still glowing, your mind racing with thoughts of your soulmate and the dream that brought them closer to you. He imagines your smile, your heart fluttering with hope, and it feels like a knife twisting in his chest.
Kai closes his eyes, letting his head fall into his hands. The silence of his room is deafening, broken only by the sound of his own uneven breathing. He tells himself he’s happy for you—he repeats it over and over in his mind, like a mantra, as if saying it enough times might make it true. But deep down, he knows he’s lying.
He doesn’t just want to be part of your dreams; he wants to be the dream. The person you wake up thinking about. The one you’re so excited to meet. The one who makes your heart race and your words spill out in breathless joy. But instead, he’s the one sitting in the shadows, watching you chase a future that doesn’t include him.
A few days later, you meet Kai for coffee at your favorite spot, a cozy little café tucked away from the bustling streets. The familiar hum of conversation blends with the soft clinking of cups and the faint aroma of roasted beans in the air. It’s one of those rare, fleeting moments when life feels suspended in a delicate balance, and the two of you can simply exist—no burdens, no expectations, just two people sharing a moment of peace.
The conversation starts light, with playful jabs about the unseasonably warm weather and anecdotes from your day that make him chuckle. There’s an ease between you that feels natural, like slipping into a favorite sweater. But as the minutes tick by and your drinks grow lukewarm, the conversation takes a turn, shifting into deeper waters as it often does when you’re with him.
"So," Kai begins, a teasing lilt in his voice as he stirs his coffee. "How’s it going? The soulmate dreams?" His tone is light, almost casual, but the slight hesitation in his question hints at something more—something unspoken.
You sit up a little straighter, your eyes bright with excitement as you lean forward. "It’s getting clearer every night," you say, your words spilling out in a rush. "I can almost see them, Kai. It’s like I’m standing right there, just one step away. I know I’m going to meet them soon."
Kai listens intently, his hand stilling on his cup as he watches you. There’s a quiet intensity in his gaze, but it’s layered with something you can’t quite catch—an emotion buried deep beneath the surface. He offers you a small smile, but it doesn’t reach his eyes. "You really think they’re out there, huh?" he asks, his voice lilting with mock curiosity, but the weight behind his words betrays him.
You nod eagerly, completely missing the subtle crack in his façade. "I know they are," you say with conviction, your hands curling around your cup. "I’ve been waiting for this my whole life, Kai. I can feel it. They’re out there, and they’re waiting for me too."
His smile falters, just for a moment, before he schools his expression into something softer, something easier to wear. "I guess we all have to believe in something," he murmurs, his voice so quiet it nearly gets lost in the background noise. But his words hold a heaviness that lingers, an ache he tries to suppress.
You’re too caught up in your own thoughts to notice the way his shoulders slump ever so slightly, or the way his fingers tighten around his cup like he’s holding himself together. You keep talking, sharing every detail of your dreams—the colors, the sounds, the way your soulmate’s presence feels so real, so close. And all the while, Kai sits there, nodding along, his chest tightening with every word.
For you, this is hope—an unwavering belief that everything you’ve dreamed of is just around the corner. But for Kai, it’s something else entirely. It’s a quiet kind of agony, the kind that sits heavy in your chest and makes it hard to breathe. He’s been your confidant, your anchor, the one you turn to when the world feels too big. But as he listens to you speak of your soulmate with such reverence, a cruel truth seeps into his heart: you’ve never looked at him the way you look at the person in your dreams.
He forces another smile, his lips trembling for just a fraction of a second. "I’m happy for you," he says softly, his voice steady despite the storm raging inside him. He means it—he really does—but the words feel like glass on his tongue.
You don’t notice the way his gaze lingers on you, or the way his hands tremble slightly as he sets his cup down. You don’t see the way his heart breaks, piece by piece, with every word you speak. All you see is the future you’ve dreamed of, the life you’re so certain is waiting for you.
And Kai—sweet, selfless Kai—sits there in silence, letting you pour your heart out even as his own shatters. A part of him wants to tell you the truth, to lay everything bare and risk it all. But another part—the part that loves you too much to take that chance—keeps him rooted in place. So he listens, he smiles, he nods, and he pretends. Because that’s all he can do now—be your friend, your confidant, the one who cheers you on even as he quietly mourns the future he knows he’ll never have with you.
A week later, the air feels heavy between you and Kai as you walk through the park, side by side, your shoes crunching softly on the path beneath. It’s a serene evening—the kind that makes everything feel just a little more alive, just a little more beautiful. The sky is a warm gradient of orange and pink, the sun dipping below the horizon. The kind of moment you would want to savor, if only everything didn’t feel so complicated.
Kai is listening as you talk about your usual topic the past few days, your soulmate—about the blurry figure in your dreams, how each night it becomes clearer. You’re excited, almost desperate to share this feeling with him. The possibility of finally meeting the person you’ve been waiting for, the one who might complete you.
But as you speak, you notice something. Kai is looking at you differently. His usual smile is soft, but there’s something deeper in his eyes, a mix of emotions you can’t quite understand but it’s something that makes your heart skip a beat. There’s a heaviness in the way he watches you, a silent understanding between you that only heightens the tension in the air.
The conversation slows, the words between you becoming fewer as the quiet settles in. You’re aware of the space between you—close, but not quite touching. It feels like everything is building to something, but neither of you knows exactly what. Your heartbeat quickens, and for the first time, you realize just how close you’ve become to him, how much his presence affects you.
Suddenly, you stop walking, turning to face him. The moment hangs between you, and you feel the pull—something between you that’s been there all along, something that’s become undeniable. Kai stands still, his gaze searching yours, as if asking for something you’re not sure you can give.
Then, before you can think, you see it: the way he leans in just slightly, the way the world feels like it’s slowing down around you. The distance between you shrinks, and you feel an electric current spark in the air. His breath is warm against your skin, his presence so overwhelming that your heart seems to stop beating for a moment.
Everything inside you screams to kiss him—to bridge the gap between you and the unspoken words you both keep holding back. But your thoughts of your soulmate—of the person who’s supposed to be in your dreams—rush in, and before you can even make a choice, you pull back.
“Wait,” you murmur, your voice shaky, caught in the whirlwind of your own emotions. “This is wrong, Kai. I... I can’t do this.”
Kai freezes. For a second, the world feels like it’s fallen silent, but instead of letting the awkwardness linger, he smiles quickly, a little too brightly, as though trying to mask what just happened.
"Sorry, I thought you had an eyelash on your cheek," he says, his voice light, almost too casual. "I was just trying to get it."
He raises his hand and brushes your cheek gently with his fingers, an act so tender it almost feels like a confession. His touch lingers for a moment before he pulls away, his smirk now a little forced.
“I don’t know if I got it. I couldn’t really see it properly,” he adds with a chuckle, as if nothing significant just happened. “Oh, sorry, guess I just got a little too close.”
You laugh nervously, your heart still racing, trying to mask the confusion inside. "Right," you say, your voice weak. "That was... close."
Kai steps back, his eyes still lingering on you for a fraction of a second, but the moment is already slipping away, the unspoken words hanging in the air, unresolved. The quiet that follows feels different now, heavier, like you’re both pretending it didn’t happen.
The rest of the walk feels like a slow unraveling. You continue to talk, but the easy silence is gone, replaced by an uncomfortable tension. The words are there, but they don’t feel like they’re reaching each other the same way. It’s as though the space between you has grown even wider.
Later, when you lie in bed, you replay the moment over and over in your mind. You keep thinking about how close you were, the way his fingers had brushed your cheek. You wonder if it had been a mistake to stop. Was it too soon? Was it wrong to pull away?
You convince yourself that you did the right thing. It’s not fair to Kai. It’s not fair to the soulmate you’re waiting for. But deep down, there’s a nagging doubt, a voice that wonders if you’ve been fooling yourself all along. Was it really the wrong time? Or did you just push him away because you were afraid of what it meant?
On the other side of the situation, Kai is tangled in his own thoughts. His fists are clenched at his sides as he stares at the ceiling, his mind racing. He replays the moment in his head too—the way his heart had pounded when you stopped him, how close you had been, how he thought, for just a second, that you might feel it too.
But you pulled away. And in that moment, he felt the weight of it all—the distance between you, the reality that no matter how close you got, you’d always be waiting for someone else.
“I should’ve known it was too good to be true,” he thinks bitterly. “You have someone else. Someone waiting for you. And I’m just here… stuck in this endless loop, a broken bond yet hoping that maybe you could mend it back with yours.”
He sighs, closing his eyes, willing the ache in his chest to fade. “I can’t make her feel something she doesn’t. She deserves someone who’s meant for her. Someone who was fated to her.”
And with that thought, Kai drifts into a restless sleep, knowing the truth but still clinging to the hope that maybe, just maybe, things could be different.
The dream begins, as it always does: blurry, disorienting, filled with an overwhelming sense of longing that you can never quite explain. It’s the same every night—shapes and shadows, a silhouette that never seems to come into focus, no matter how hard you try to make it clear. It teases you, whispers to you of something important, something that feels like destiny—but you can never quite grasp it.
Tonight, though, something is different.
The figure in front of you seems to ripple, the darkness around it seeming to waver, like the world itself is holding its breath. Your pulse quickens as the shadow begins to shift, stretching into something more defined, as if the universe is finally granting you the clarity you've been waiting for.
You reach out instinctively, as though you could pull the figure into sharper focus, draw the mystery out of the murky fog surrounding it. Your heart pounds in your chest, the anticipation rising to a fever pitch. The details begin to sharpen, the edges of the form gradually becoming clearer with each passing moment. A figure, tall and broad-shouldered, standing just out of reach. You can almost make out the curve of their jaw, the shape of their lips.
But still, it’s not enough.
And then—just when you think you might burst from the pressure of waiting—the veil is lifted. The figure finally comes into full view, and you gasp.
It’s not a stranger. Not the faceless being you’ve been waiting for all this time.
It’s him.
Kai.
His features are unmistakable now. The curve of his smile, the sharpness of his eyes, the way he stands with that quiet confidence you’ve come to know so well. Your breath hitches, and for a moment, it feels like the ground beneath you has vanished. All the tension, all the confusion you've carried with you all this time, falls away as realization crashes into you like a tidal wave.
This isn’t just a dream. This is the truth, the answer to every question you've had for so long. The person you’ve been yearning for, the soulmate you've been waiting to meet—is Kai. He always has been.
And just as this revelation settles deep within you, a strange, familiar pull tugs at your chest. The world around you begins to dissolve, and you feel yourself being torn away from this clarity, back into the murkiness of sleep.
Across the expanse of sleep, Kai stirs in his own dream. For weeks, he’s been seeing a shadowy figure, indistinct, almost impossible to grasp, lingering just out of reach. In the beginning, he assumed it was his ex-soulmate, the one who had rejected him so painfully. That figure—still shrouded in mystery—haunted him every night, dredging up emotions he’d long buried.
But tonight… tonight, everything changes.
The figure in his dream shifts, becoming clearer in a way he’s never seen before. The edges grow sharper, the outline of the person coming into focus with each passing second. His breath hitches in his sleep as he tries to make sense of it. He reaches for the figure, just as he’s done so many times before, desperate for clarity.
And then, the figure’s face is unmistakable.
It’s you.
He sits up suddenly, heart hammering in his chest. The dream isn’t just a flash of the past anymore—it’s you. It always has been. The face he’s been searching for, the one that’s been haunting him in the shadows, was you. Not his ex. Not a distant memory.
The realization is so sudden, so sharp, it almost feels like a physical blow. The dream slips away, leaving him awake and breathless in his bed. His heart races, thumping painfully as he processes what he’s just learned. The figure he’s been seeing—he’d thought it was someone else, but it was you all along. The connection, the bond, the love he thought had been lost to him—it’s been with you from the beginning. He doesn’t know how but he isn’t complaining. For once it felt like the universe was listening to him.
You wake, your pulse still erratic, your mind tangled in the remnants of your dream. You stare at the ceiling, still reeling from the shock of seeing Kai in the dream so clearly. How did you not know? How did you miss it before?
And then, like a jolt of electricity, the buzzing of your phone breaks through the haze of your thoughts. You glance at the screen, seeing Kai’s name flash across it, and for a moment, you hesitate. Could he have…?
You pick up the phone, your voice trembling. “Hello?”
There’s a pause, heavy with the unspoken. You can feel the rawness in his voice before he even speaks. “I—” He swallows, the words difficult to form, you could hear him panting as if he just ran miles. “I need to see you. Can you open your door?”
Your heart skips. You already know. You both woke up with the same realization, and the gravity of it weighs down on you, pulling at your chest.
“I’ll be right there,” you manage to say, barely able to steady your breath.
You rush to the door, your pulse quickening as you open it before he even knocks. There he is, standing in the hallway, his form framed by the dim light from the corridor. His eyes meet yours, filled with a blend of vulnerability and uncertainty, and you feel the weight of everything unspoken between you. Without a word, he steps inside, the door softly closing behind him.
For a long moment, neither of you speaks. The silence between you is thick, a heavy fog of unspoken words and emotions. You can’t seem to catch your breath. Your mind is still spinning with everything you've just realized, and you feel his presence in a way you never have before.
Finally, Kai breaks the silence, his voice quiet but urgent. “I don’t know what this means for us,” he admits. “But I know that… I don’t want to lose this. I don’t want to lose you.”
His words shake you, and you feel a lump form in your throat. You’ve been holding your emotions in check for so long, and now, standing here in the reality of what you’ve just learned, it feels like it’s all crashing down on you.
“I don’t want to lose you either,” you reply, your voice shaking. But then the doubt creeps in, and you can’t stop yourself from asking, “But… Kai, what if this isn’t just some dream? What if we’re just convincing ourselves it’s real?”
Kai steps closer, his gaze steady, unwavering. “We don’t need to convince ourselves, do we?” His voice is low, sincere. “What we have is real. It might not be the perfect soulmate connection we always imagined, but it’s ours. We’ve built something here. Haven’t we?”
The truth hits you like a wave. He’s right. Everything you’ve shared, everything you’ve felt—it’s not just fantasy. It’s real. And it has been all along. The bond between you is undeniable, even if it doesn’t fit the mold of what you thought soulmates should be.
“I guess… we don’t have to figure this out right now, do we?” you say, taking a step closer to him. “We can just… let it be.”
Kai’s smile is small, bittersweet, and filled with so much unsaid emotion. “Yeah. We can just let it be.”
And in that moment, you both understand. The connection between you, the pull you’ve both felt—it doesn’t need to be perfect. It just needs to be real.
Kai reaches out, his hand tentative but sure. You don’t pull away. Instead, you let him take your hand, fingers weaving together in a silent promise. His thumb brushes over your knuckles, sending warmth racing through you, and you look up at him, the question hanging in the air between you.
Do you want this?
The answer is clear as you lean in, your lips meeting his in a kiss that is gentle, soft, as if you’re both tasting the truth for the first time. The kiss deepens, fueled by everything you’ve been holding back, the emotions you’ve been too afraid to voice. His arms pull you closer, and you lose yourself in the moment, in the warmth, in the certainty that, finally, everything has fallen into place.
When the kiss finally breaks, neither of you pulls away. You’re both breathless, your foreheads pressed together, feeling the weight of everything that has just shifted between you.
Kai’s voice is a whisper, barely audible, but you hear it clearly. “I’ve been waiting for this—for you—for so long.”
You smile softly, your hand over his heart, feeling the rhythm of it beneath your palm. “Me too,” you whisper back.
And in that moment, it all clicks. This isn’t just a kiss. This is the culmination of everything you’ve built. Everything you’ve both waited for. It’s not a fantasy anymore. It’s real. You’ve found each other.
The kiss lingers between you like the soft echo of a song you never wanted to end. It’s not just a kiss—it’s a silent admission, a wordless promise, a release of everything that has been building between you, unspoken and hidden. Kai pulls back just slightly, but the weight of his gaze on yours feels as if he’s reaching into the deepest corners of your soul. There’s something in his eyes, something that tells you everything, yet nothing at all.
“There’s something I’ve been meaning to say,” Kai begins, his voice a whisper, as fragile as the air between you. The tension in his voice—so raw, so vulnerable—sends a shiver through you. “Even before all of this… even before we realized what we meant to each other, I—” He stumbles over his words, his breath coming in shallow bursts, like someone standing on the edge of a precipice, afraid to fall.
You take a step closer, reaching for him, your hand finding his, grounding him, grounding yourself. You can feel his pulse, racing in sync with yours, the rhythm of your hearts mirroring the storm inside both of you. You offer him your silence, a soft encouragement that says everything without a word. “You can tell me anything, Kai,” you murmur, your voice steady, even as your heart flutters wildly within your chest.
He closes his eyes, as though gathering every shred of courage to speak the words that have been locked inside him for so long. Then, when his eyes meet yours again, they are filled with the weight of a thousand unspoken thoughts, and his next words come out like a confession he’s been carrying since the first moment he laid eyes on you.
“I’m falling for you,” he says, the words tumbling from his lips, as soft as the first rain of spring but as heavy as the storms they promise. “I think I have been for a while. And I… I don’t want to hide from it anymore.”
Your heart stops for a beat, and then it races, thudding loudly in your ears, so strong and steady that it feels like the sound of an ancient drum calling you home. Every part of you trembles at his admission, the truth of it sinking into your bones, as though he’s just pulled the rug out from under your feet and you’re left floating, weightless and free.
You can feel it too. You always have. It’s like a quiet fire, smoldering in your chest, a warmth that grows and flickers every time he’s near. And now, with his words, it explodes. The fire consumes you. You are lost in it, but somehow, it’s the only place you want to be.
“Kai,” you whisper, your voice shaky with the weight of your own confession. Your hands tremble as they reach up to touch his face, your fingers brushing against his skin like the softest touch of wind on a still day. “I’m falling for you too. I didn’t want to admit it at first, but…” The words catch in your throat, but you push them out, letting them flow like a river breaking free from its banks. “I’ve never felt more sure of anything in my life.”
The world seems to still in that moment. The doubts, the fears, the questions—they all vanish like smoke in the wind. There’s only the quiet certainty that settles in your chest, heavier than any burden you’ve carried before. You know this is right. You know it in the deepest part of your soul.
Kai’s smile is soft, almost hesitant, but it’s the most beautiful thing you’ve ever seen. His thumb brushes over your cheek, so gentle, so tender, like a promise, like a vow. The warmth of his touch is the kind of warmth you’ve been searching for your whole life, the kind that fills every crack in your heart and makes it whole again. “We’re not alone anymore, are we?” he murmurs, his voice a low, soothing hum in the quiet of the room.
“No,” you breathe, your voice steady now, stronger than you ever imagined it could be. “We’re not.”
In that simple exchange, something inside you both shifts. You no longer need to search for the answers to what’s been confusing you. You no longer need to chase what was never truly lost. The future is no longer an uncertain road ahead. It’s the path you’re walking together, one step at a time, hand in hand.
There’s a new understanding between you now, one that doesn’t require words. You’ve built something, not out of fate, but out of choice. You’ve created this bond from the ground up, in the moments where you bled and healed and trusted each other, even when it seemed like the world was telling you it wasn’t meant to be.
And just like that, you understand. Soulmates aren’t found in dreams. They’re not a perfect match sewn together by some divine plan. Soulmates are born from the jagged pieces of your life—broken, messy, imperfect—and when the time is right, those pieces fit together in a way that makes everything else fade away.
Soulmates are made in the waking world, when two people choose to find each other in the chaos, when they choose to heal the wounds of the past with the love they build from the ground up. They are made from the moments of doubt and pain, the moments of laughter and joy, and the quiet moments when you realize that this, this connection, is something you’ve created.
The kiss that follows is everything you’ve ever needed. It’s not just another kiss; it’s the culmination of years of searching, of longing, of waiting for the right person. It’s the promise of all the tomorrows you will share, and the soft surrender of all the yesterdays you’ve held onto.
When your lips finally part, you rest your forehead against Kai’s, breathing each other in, as if the world outside of this room has ceased to exist. His voice, a mere whisper, breaks the silence, but this time, there is no hesitation. “I’ve been waiting for this—for you—for so long.”
A tear slips down your cheek, but it’s not one of sadness. It’s a tear of release, of acceptance, of peace. You smile softly, the weight of your own heart finally finding rest. “Me too,” you whisper back, your voice full of everything you couldn’t say before.
Soulmates don’t have to be something you find—they are something you choose to become. Something you create, piece by piece, through every laugh, every tear, and every step you take together. And as you lean into Kai, your heart steady in its rhythm, you know this is just the beginning of a love that bends all odds, one that goes beyond fate’s grasp.
Rei's Notes ✎: It's here!! To be honest, I don't feel as proud with the finished product as I thought I was but I really hope you would still like it. I'm so proud to have put this idea to life and I couldn't have done it without the amazing people who also partook in this event. They are so talented and I had so much fun with them. Make sure to check out everyone else's stories and give them your thoughts too~ Happy Valentine's Day you lovelies <3
contains: ghostface!huening, dom!huening, a little knife play, dubcon, p in v, kitchen sex
wc: 1,289
you chuckled at your phone, leaning against the island in your kitchen. your popcorn popped in the microwave, as you were getting ready to watch some scary movies to start the spooky season.
a beeping microwave signaled you to grab your bowl and empty the popcorn into it, but before you could start that… riiing! “huh?” you glance at your phone, an unknown number calling you. who could be calling you right now?
you ponder for a moment, before answering the phone. “hello?” you say into the phone.
“hello.” a male voice responds.
“who is this?” you ask warily.
there’s silence for a few seconds, before you hang up. just a prank call, you reassure yourself, pouring the buttery popcorn into a bowl. holding your bowl of popcorn and phone, you settle onto your couch, grabbing the television’s remote.
about to get up a movie, you are interrupted again by the ring of your phone. you groan, picking up. “hello?!” you ask, your tone more bold and aggressive than earlier. “wow, so feisty already!” the man chuckles.
“you didn’t let me finish earlier.” he adds, his tone different, now low.
“and why should i?” you ask, shoving a handful of popcorn in your mouth.
“not taking me serious, i see. how about you stop eating that popcorn and start listening to me?”
and that comment does stop you from eating your popcorn. “how do you know what im eating..?” you question him, glancing around your living room nervously.
“look outside.” he responds. you shiver at his words sounding so eerie. nonetheless, you hesitate before standing up and peeking at your backyard through your blinds.
a figure stands, clad in a black cloak and a white mask decorated with an elongated mouth and eyes. speaking into the phone, you ask, “is.. that you?” you watch the man raise his phone, turning it towards you. he presses the red button shown, and you hear the caller on your phone hang up.
your heart thumps out of your chest when the man runs towards the entrance of your house. you make a run to your kitchen, trying to find anything to protect yourself. rummaging through your drawers, you end up finding a steak knife.
that’s far too small, you think. but, hearing pounding knocks on your front door makes you reconsider. you want to shriek, but you hold it in, clutching the knife and watching the door.
the door knob twists, the man still attempting to enter your house. “leave me alone!” you cry out, trembling hands struggling to hold the knife. your plead seems to work, as there’s sudden silence.
you take a few deep breaths, freaked out by this encounter. is he really gone? you slowly walk towards the door, looking through the peephole. nobody. you let out a sigh of relief, thank god he gave up…
until a crash echoed throughout your house. a crash so loud it caused you to drop your knife and cover your ears instead. the window you used to see the man had broken, as he had jumped straight through it.
you let out an ear piercing scream, trying to make it to your stairs, which means you had to go past your kitchen. unfortunately, he was quicker than you, and grabbed you, shoving you against the island in your kitchen.
you yelped, but your screams were muffled as he covered your mouth with his gloved hand.
“shut up.” the man demanded, holding a hunting knife to your face. you breathed heavily, your screams dying down.
he kept his hand covering your mouth, running the flat of the knife against your cheek.
“you’re a pretty one.” he states, seemingly unaware of how frightened you are.
“p-please.. i’ll do anything, just don’t hurt me…” you beg, your voice shaking.
“oh really? anything?” he responds, his tone almost.. flirtatious.
you swallow, hesitant to do what this man has in mind. “yes, anything.” you glare at the knife on your cheek, your head pounding at the strangeness of this situation. this man breaks into your house with a knife, yet he hasn’t even attempted to harm you. “take off your shirt.”
“huh?!” you are taken back by his blunt request.
“you said you’d do anything. go on, before i put this knife to use.” that makes you listen. you grab the hem of your shirt, pulling it over your head. nothing covers you underneath, leaving your chest bare for this stranger to gawk at.
he stares at your breasts for a second before pressing the cold blade onto your nipple. you inhale, the sensation new and unusual.
his eyes return to your face before he speaks.
“you could get rid of these too.” he tugs at the waistband of your pants.
“will you kill me if i don’t?”
“maybe, maybe not. but, it’d be better if you did.”
you sigh, discarding your pants as well.
“turn around.” he commands, and of course, you listen. anything to save your life, right?
he slips off his own pants, hands then grasping your hips.
“well, this is much better than killing you.” he says before aligning himself with your cunt. you gasp as he quickly enters you, not giving you much of a warning.
his thrusts were slow at first, letting you adjust to his size. yeah, this guy just broke your window, and threatened you into getting naked, but gosh was he huge.
he wasted no time getting faster, his own breaths getting heavier.
“o-oh my…” you whimper under him, your pussy getting so roughly penetrated.
this may have been the best sex you’ve ever had. the wet noises filling your kitchen were so disgustingly lewd, and it just turned you on even more.
“fuck, you’re so wet.” the man groans, giving your ass a hard slap. you wince, but can’t deny the fact it got more pleasure than pain out of you.
his thrusts continue getting faster, even when you think it’s impossible to do so. this guy must be really skilled, as you feel your orgasm nearing, and from the way his cock twitches inside of you, you can tell he’s close too.
“fuck—!” the man exclaims. he pulls out of you, and a thick liquid starts to drip on your ass. soon after, you feel your own release running down your thighs. you turn to look at the man, watching him panting.
it must be so hot under that costume, hell, he’s covered from head to toe. getting bold, you decide to help him out. you place your hands on his mask, removing it from his face.
the man doesn’t fight, and you expose quite the handsome face. he has a prominent nose with soft eyes, including smooth lips you felt so eager to kiss.
“you’re beautiful..” you whisper, thinking out loud. even in the dark of your kitchen, the blush painting his cheeks was obvious.
“thanks..?” he replies, sounding confused. he continues, saying, “sorry.. but the last thing i expected after breaking into your house and fucking you was a compliment.” he chuckles, staring at your face intently. he could probably see your face much better without that ridiculous mask that he certainly didn’t need.
“i’m just telling the truth.” you respond, smile coating your lips. “whats your name, anyways?” you ask, tilting your head.
“uhm.. kai.” he answers timidly. such a shift in personality after his face is shown.
“kai..” you repeat, nodding. “well, kai. just know, if you ever want to come over again, you’re definitely welcome.” kai smiles at that. “oh, and a couple hundred dollars to repair that window would be nice.” kai swallows, nodding as his smile drops. “okay. yeah. definitely deserved.”