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[marisa-senpai]

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Name: Lillian Nickname: Senpai [most common in real life], Univ, Tree Birthday: November 2 Star Sign: Scorpio Gender: Female Height: 5′3″  

Sexual orientation: A shaky hetero for now. [leaning gradually towards bi] Romantic orientation: Hetero too I guess.  Favorite color: Red. Time and Date: May 14th, 7:50 PM PST Average hours of sleep: 7 First word that comes to my mind:  One place that makes me happy: Neighborhood pond.  How many blankets: 2 Favorite fictional character: Sakura Kinomoto [Cardcaptor Sakura] Favorite famous person: Don’t have one.

Favorite Books: the Mistborn series, Good Omens Favorite TV shows: Cardfight!! Vanguard, Wixoss [well it ended], F/SN Unlimited Blade Works Favorite musicians: none come to mind in particular Favorite games: Wixoss, CF Vanguard, Pokemon [the video games], floor hockey, Tales of the Abyss Last movie watched: Cinderella [nice costumes] Dream Holiday: Going back to Japan when I’m not super ill.  Dream Job: I can’t even decide what I want to do. 

I’m tagging: light-sakura, kuraikami, zoedawnstrilonde, uhhh can i even come up with ten, ciaranmacken, sexyhotsizzledoge, dragonicvanguard, yeah okay that’s enough

[icouldbehonest]

Personal Rant

So I am really into soccer. I have played for 12 years and this is going to be my final year. I am the only goalie on the team. I have had to miss the past two games due to work. I take Sundays off from work so I can play.

Last week, they changed the game to a Saturday, so I couldn't make it. This week I had to miss it because I had a training class for work that I could not miss because I missed the one before because my manager did not give me enough notice. I missed the first class because I didn't want to let my team down. One of my teammates, (who became captain because our other two captains were severely injured and had to take time off to recover) just went on facebook and tried to guilt trip us all.

Now I am the type of player that plays when I am sick/ injured (I played with a sprained ankle for a year) and never complains. I put in a 100% whenever I play. I missed one game in the last 3 years I played for this coach and that was only because I had a wisdom tooth removed. I have had to continually deal with my team giving up on me and leaving me to fend for myself (some games I get more than 40 shots). She singled me out for not being there. I let my coach know as soon as I found out about this class. There was nothing more I can do. I also just got a shot that makes it really hard to move my arm for a trip I am about to go on. I am exhausted because I am working and trying to keep up with advanced classes.

I feel bad that I couldn't make it but this is the last class that is offered for 6 months. I don't need someone telling me that one of the reasons they lost is me. I have walked away from games this year so frustrated with my team that I had tears running down my face. This has happened more than once. Soccer is more than just a game to me, it is a part of me. It is something that I never want to give up but I have to due to injuries and I am just trying to finish off this season. 

I just can't believe that someone who is in a leadership position would take to degrading half the team for things she knows nothing about. This is not what I would like to see in a captain. This type of drama is what had made me avoid practice all year ( there is a lot more than this). I'm thinking about just saying that I am done and being done with all the drama...