Jul 28, 2021
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My ✨M A Y 2 0 2 1✨ set up for my bullet journal, with a Star Wars theme.
Terrified.
Terrified. I realized tonight I've finally let my guard down. Our little fight the night I got home from the beach was the first sign of it. I was jealous, mad, scared, and picked a fight over it but tonight I finally realized it was because I've finally let my guard down and I'm scared to get hurt again. It was a defense mechanism. Last night I thought a lot about everything and decided I HAVE to and NEED to stop bringing up the past hurts or else we'll never move past them. He was right in saying he hasn't done anything since we've been back together to break my trust or make me question him. He loves me. He wants to marry me. If he didn't he said he would of never came back to me again after all the shit he put me through. It's still hard for me to believe it but I'm trying my absolute hardest to trust it. Which is scaring the shit out of me because I believe him every time and he's hurt me every time. I'm hoping this time he finally means it.