#ihatelove

[only-jazzyb]

It Ended Before It Started…

How can I be sad,

How can I be mad..

How can I grieve for a love I feel I’ve lost?

A love I never had...

It was all me for you...

You were special, from my point of view.

I bought into a dream, and what was the cost?

I should have taken the time I invested, & bought myself a fucking clue.

Or shit... maybe saved what I had spent on the tattoo…

Thats whats fucked up.. I played myself for a fool.

I dont know who you are anymore..

Aint got no time to spare,

So who am I to trust anyone?

We fucked us up.

We gon end up with someone else… and not each other. & thats so fucked up.

Its all fucked up.

Ill get your name on my body covered,

Maybe the dignity I lost will be recovered.

The shoes, the shirts, all this shits gotta go..

In my closet it seems out of place, its presence I have no room for.. My mission is to remove the clutter.

I took you too serious.

You took me for a clown.

Maybe I deserve that, I showed you too much.

I no longer want to be seen. I no longer want to stay in this town.

So i’ll wipe my tears, pick up my mothafuckin crown..

It was you. It still is you.

Until you wanted me to leave.

I swear you wanted me to leave.

Cuz I cant really believe…

That you could be so naive.

You knew what I’d say.

You knew I’d be left to grieve.

You had to know I’d assert my thoughts.

but then again.. It was me that was the whole ass clown.

It’s me that got your name in ink on my body,

It’s me that held it down.

It’s me left feeling empty with all your shit in my closet..

It’s you that left my heart on the ground.

And this is how we end…

No love lost, no love found.

And I should have seen it coming..

but for you, to you, my love was bound.

I swear to God...

Never again.

[fancy--name]

2gether the series EP 12

Give win metawin his OSCAR RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Omg omg i felt all his insecurities and anxieties. I... I am devastated.

The IG feed comparison is the final nail deep in his insecurity coffin.

He was shortly comforted but being in the same space with whom he thought he was shadowing isnt pleasant.

And good lord, to see this sunshine boy became so gloomy and solemn in this episode is killing me.

Again, GIVE WIN METAWIN HIS DAM OSCAR!!!!!!!!!!

Dont get me started on Man being ridiculed. I am hurting. Double hurting.

Overall, I get why Tine would want to end things with sarawat. Feeling like youre just filling in someone else's shoes is one of the worst feelings ever.

[rileyblankenhorn-blog]

I have the best friends always there to support me and take hella great pics😘

[sweetchic19-blog]

Cuando crees que nada puede cambiar, cuando menos lo esperas, pasa algo que cambia todo. Lo peor es que al final todo vuelve a ser como siempre ha sido.

Beth♡

[depresoul]

Just, end-less.

You still live in a small cage Deep Inside my eyelids Kept - L o c k e d - In that summer ... I can't let go.

[y4iba]

tell me when this is all over

tell me when u wanna stop

tell me when u r already bored

tell me when to stop

tell me if u don't want me anymore

im a mess, and so r u, we kissed and i like kissing u, could this be true?

[only-jazzyb]

“Mom”….

You told me that love— wasn't meant for me.

My troubles were a burden on you— something you didn’t need.

I needed comfort— instead I was cast aside.

I was left alone trying to figure out ways to escape myself.

My tears, you never looked for… so they were always easy to hide.

Your eyes— would fill with disgust every time I passed by.

You didn’t have to say it— how much I have ruined your life.

How Micheal is gone, & your dad now too…

You’re my mom, you love me, right?

True master of disguise.

You didn’t have to hit me— or physically bruise me

In order for me to bleed.

Inside I was broken— and robbed of all of my self esteem.

You told me I was a whore— destined for teen pregnancy & HIV.

You never stopped to think— of the pain of your words being etched into my mind…

And what this would inevitably do to me.

You told me I was worthless— I couldn't do anything right.

I looked up to you, you were my mom..

I needed your comfort all of those lonely nights…

Your words became my heart beat— the pulse underneath my wrist.

Your words became my mantra— sometimes, I wish your hatred…

Would have been expressed with your fists.

You made me think, that the only life for me..

Was the life where I stressed myself fulfilling, your every need.

You took your insecurities and made them my own.

It’s your voice that still haunts me, especially when I'm alone.

It’s you I still turn to and call during my happiest times.

It's like this new life I own, still isn't mine..

Because now you know what I have to offer, you know what you can take.

& I gladly give it.. it’s your approval I still search for, it’s your words that still cause me to break.

I just want my mom to be proud of me, you see.

But unconditional love from my mother, is not something I can ever foresee.

I just want my mom to realize that my whole life…

Her words dictated my destiny, because I always believed she was right.

[only-jazzyb]

&& That's How It Always Goes....

And that’s how it always goes...

He shatters not only your heart,

but also your soul.

Abandons you in the most awful way,

&& you’ll be the one who crawls back to him with what’s left of your broken body…

Just to find his door is locked.

That’s how it always goes...

You send him 3 messages in a row, they remain unanswered, as if you were the heartless bitch who did something terrible..

When in reality, he should be the one filling your inbox with apologies, and saturating your voicemail with desperate pleas.

That’s how it always goes...

He is the one who mistreated you, he won’t say a word to you again as if he was the victim,

&& you, who should be happy he’s gone && cursing him with all you’ve got, but your only wish is for him to take you in his arms to gently stroke the bruises he himself left on your soul, so you beg him to take you back.

But that’s how it always goes...

So he will never stop hurting you with her, because you'll never actually leave, and he knows.

—^v^-❤️-^v^—