When Penelope Parker Stark was 5 years old and she watched all the kids from her kindergarten get picked up, she didn't feel anything. She knew that it was not normal for someone who was hired by her dad to pick her up.
In her short five years of life she knew that her dad Anthony "Tony" Stark was a media sensation. However she also knew what her dad was not to her. An actual dad after all the only times she really saw him when he was drunk or high.
Penelope was considered a child genius at her age, already understanding things much greater than a normal child should. That in introspection should've made someone worried about her but no one ever did. Afterall it was all about Tony Stark. And wasn't that something fun to think about.
"Penny" Her teacher called, "Someone's here to pick you up." She blinked and got up from the seated area and went to the door already knowing the routine.
She got picked up by her Nanny Miss.Julie and then she was driven back to her house and from there she would go to her room. From there she would do her homework or anything she wanted to build or try out while waiting for her dad to get home. That didn't matter too much. She was always ignored or forgotten by Tony, it wasn't anything new to her and wouldn't be for a long time.
(And wasn't that sad)
After getting in the car she watched as the world flew by. In her five year old mind she greatly cared for someone to actually care about her. But, alas she didn't think that was going to happen for a while and just sat there quietly.
Whenever people looked at Penelope Parker Stark they expected something great from her. Afterall she was a stark and considered american royalty but people were often disappointed.
Instead of a loud raucous arrogant child like they expected, they got a quiet demure blue eyed sullen girl. She never seemed to care about anything and people were mean even when you were a five year old.
The lights were on and Penny looked at the house with a dull interest, it was grandiose and something fit for a stark.
(penny hated this quiet mausoleum of a house with all her being)
She walked and saw her dad was plastered on the couch with bottles of alcohol surrounding him. Her nanny tried to push her on with a shocked but not at all surprised expression on her face.
You see she was already used to this
(the best money can buy right)
and Penny quietly walked up the stairs to her room quiet like a ghost. Her nanny had already left seeing that her parental guardian was already here. Penny didn't say anything, she never did when her father was like that or even sober. It was like living with a stranger, and Penny was already used to it.
(Age 7)
Two years passed by and Penny got smarter and smarter. She was already taking fifth grade courses and was on her way to middle school with how fast she was learning everything. Her father attained a new personal assistant Virginia "Pepper" Potts. Penny didn't say anything at all because why would she, Pepper was just another stranger to her and with the rate her father was getting attached she might actually be a new stepmom.
Penny was still alone and she didn't mind because she preferred to read and get lost in her own wonderland with superheroes and villains. You see Penny always wanted to save people in some kind of way and she didn't care how. When they were asked what they wanted to be when they grew up, Penny stated with all seriousness in her tiny little body, "A superhero" And wasn't that funny, Penny stark wanted to be a superhero while her father was a war mongering whatever.
People thought Penny was joking but she was dead serious.
One day she saw uncle obie walking in all smiles.
(Penny never trusted him)
Obie went on and on to her father about all these weapons and her father just nodded along
(It was pennies birthday that day, but who cares right)
Penny just sighed and went to her room with a store bought cupcake and a singular candle. She wished for the birthday she saw on tv where the little girl had her parents surrounding her wishing her and being with her.
Instead penny just got a rich absent alcoholic father
(Tony didn't want to be his father)
look how that turned out
Today her father was supposed to go to Afghanistan for a weapons presentation and he was already late. Penny stood there watching with blank eyes as he flirted with pepper.
"Alright penny now say goodbye to you dad" Pepper stated cheerfully
Penny slightly inclined her head and walked away annoyed. She didn't even know why she dragged her to say bye to her father. It's not like he ever said bye whenever he was going anywhere and penny would find out from whatever drunken mishap he did on the news
(Penny would never say this outloud but she hated her dad for being like this)
Penny never saw the fallen expression on her dad's face when she walked away.
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The news was on and it was talking about the abduction of tony stark. Penny watched on with a numb look on her face and tried to find the sadness that everyone expected her to feel. Instead she felt nothing because why would she?
It's not like tony stark was anything to her anyway besides her father she was just some stranger she saw get wasted ever since she was born. Penny had more of a connection with "Happy '' Tony's bodyguard/ butler.
(Wasn't that sad)
Now there was a mess of who was going to take penny. Apparently that was resolved quickly because somehow in tony's will for something ever happened to him she was supposed to go to rhody.
(That pissed off obadia when he found out he wasn't given guardianship at all)
He can’t control the next stark heir this time
As the three months passed by Penny continued on as usual already used to being ignored. Everyone was shocked to see Penny look the same. She wasn’t crying or even seemed sad that her father was gone,
(What they didn’t know was that penny did feel sad, she just couldn’t show it)
Pepper always looked like she was about to burst into tears while Rhodey looked even more exhausted every time he came home finding nothing. It didn’t mean that they weren’t hopeful to find her father.
A dark part of her mind whispered, “Maybe we are better off without him”
Penny just shook the thought away and continued working on the math work that was assigned to her. Her teachers along with Rhodey decided to let her skip school for some reason.
Penny wasn’t going to complain
she hated the stares
Penny was at the mansion with everything quiet
Pepper had run off in a rush over something and Penny didn’t bother to question it. It was probably some issue with Stark Industries and something inside her was begging her to turn on the TV.
She did and their was her dad in all his glory bruised up but alive
(Penny was supposed to feel happy, she felt nothing)
Penny turned the TV off and went to her room and quietly told Jarvis, “lights out protocol” and the lights closed in her room one by one. Penny was not in the mood to deal with this and she just decided to go to sleep. She didn’t want to face the world or anything at all so she sunk into oblivion.
Hours later Penny woke up feeling bleary and even more exhausted than before.
“Jarvis?”
“Yes miss.stark”
“Is my dad home?”
“Yes mr.stark is home, would you like for me to call him?”
“no”
Penny didn’t know what to feel and decided that nothing would be a great idea. She didn’t want to care, just like how Tony never cared for her.
(Age 10)
A lot has happened ever since Tony got back from Afghanistan. Penny saw the rise and fall then the rise again of Iron Man. Her dad was an actual superhero and worked along side with earth’s mightiest heroes.
Penny couldn’t find it in her to care at all since she was busy raising herself and going to school in Midtown Elementary.
She knew that the elementary was considered a top notch school and could easily get her in midtown middle and midtown high without her even trying. Penny never liked name dropping her dad and she wasn’t very well known in the public.
People knew that Tony Stark had a kid and that’s about it.
(the only thing penny thought he did right)
After moving back to New York after their home in Malibu was destroyed because of Tony leaking their address Penny actually made friends…
She was friends with Harry Osborne, and Ned Leeds as well as Michelle mj Jones. Penny thought the world of them because they actually listened to her. Penny got used to the absences her father set out because of being Iron Man and she couldn’t find it in her to care even more.
The school day was over and Penny was waiting for it to be over. Today was really boring and dare Penny say it she just really wanted to go home and hide under her covers and do nothing. She was used to walking home because Happy was too busy babysitting her father with made Penny scoff and roll her eyes.
Her indifference to her father was slowly turning into resentment and thats maybe how Harry and Her got along so well. The mutual hate they both have for there dad’s.
The wind was blowing softly and it was nearing summer time. Penny spent most of her time out of the tower just wondering wherever. She was stupid rich because of the large allowance her dad gave her and never really cared about what she spent it on.
Penny snorted derisively, “He has to notice in order to care”
Un post sur Tumblr n’est pas une ressource suffisante. Je poste des informations, des opinions, des pistes pour aller plus loin, mais ça ne devrait pas représenter votre seule lecture antiraciste.
Je lis des articles, des essais, des livres, j’écoute des podcasts, je regarde des reportages et des vidéos, je m’informe et j’essaie de reformuler une fraction de ce que j’apprends et de l’appliquer au monde du rpg. Mais ce n’est pas une ressource.
Du coup, je vais vous demander honnêtement : c’est quoi le dernier média antiraciste que vous avez lu/regardé/écouté ? Quickly.
Non parce que y a une vague de revendications sur les environnements “safe”, mais le tout avec l’énergie de l’effort minimal. Nous soufflons. Et il y a une vague de personnes qui se pensent légitimes maintenant pour en parler et pour policer ce qui se fait en la matière alors qu’ils ont juste écrit trois lignes de règlements un jour sans jamais avoir lu quoi que ce soit. PUH-LEASE.
