SYNOPSIS. When the world falls asleep, a certain radio broadcast goes live—one hosted by none other than you and your best friend Wen Junhui. The two of you host an anonymous love confession segment, where listeners submit their deepest feelings, secrets, and late-night loves they can’t say aloud for you to unravel live on air. However, when a recurring submission starts to feel too familiar, a certain someone finds themselves wondering how long they can stay anonymous… before they are finally heard.
PAIRING. radio host!wen junhui x radio host!fem!reader (ft. soonyoung as a comedic device)
GENRE. fluff, best friends to lovers, crack/humour, comfort, slight angst, smut (minors dni 🔞)
WARNINGS. cursing, mentions of toxic situations in relationships (situationships, cheating, love bombing), yn and jun are dumb asffff no wonder they're besties, jun feeling a lil insecure :(, lots of playful bickering and bullying, terms of endearment, kissing, grinding, fingering, oral (f. receiving), unprotected sex, they bully each other even while doing the deed 😭
WORD COUNT. 11.3k
notes: hellooo everyoneee, this is my fic for the @studiosvt First Time Caller collab! please don't forget to support all the amazing authors in the collab!! unfort this was so rushed and lowkey not proud of it SDFDS i completely forgot how to write while writing this since it was all during the stress of finals szn and other matters LMAO, but i love writing abt two stupid oblivious idiot besties who are secretly in love with each other 😔 not rlly proofread so i'm sorry for any mistakes !! there is also a skye @etherealyoungk cameo in here hehe
“No, no, no𑁋Wen Junhui, you’re being way too nice about this!” You exclaim mid-laugh, shaking your head as you lean in towards the mic. “If someone’s been stringing you along for six months with nothing but ‘I’m not ready for a relationship yet’ texts, then that’s just straight up terrorism. Not even a situationship, at this point.”
Jun lets out a laugh of his own and throws his head back, almost making his headphones nearly fall off his head. He readjusts quickly, dark hair messily falling over his forehead. The neon red of the bright ON LIVE sign on the wall behind his head casts an almost villain-like glow across his features, sharpening the curve of his already amused smile.
“Terrorism? Wow, tell us how you really feel, Y/N,” Jun retorts playfully. “But fine. Anon, if they’ve been feeding you breadcrumbs for half a year, that’s basically emotional warfare. Please save yourself and block them on everything𑁋and yes, that includes on Spotify.”
You snort at that, tapping your pen against your script notes that you’ve been barely following anyway. The show had practically devolved from advice to whatever banter you and Jun had cooked up on the spot. “Exactly. Listeners, if your situationship has an expiration date longer than expired milk, it’s time to toss it. Jun is too sweet to say it, so I’ll do it. Run.”
“I𑁋’too sweet’?!” A dramatic gasp tumbles out of Jun as he spins his chair toward you. “I was the one who told last week’s caller to roast her boyfriend’s dick like a marshmallow because he kept forgetting her birthday!”
“But you said it with, like, the sweetest voice ever!”
“That man deserved to get emotionally blue-balled! How can you forget your girlfriend’s own birthday for a second year in a row?”
You roll your eyes so hard it’s basically audible over the mic. “God, Junhui, you have the emotional range of a raccoon.”
“I’ll take it.” Jun grins at that, thrusting his shoulders back as if he’s trying to appear bigger and more intimidating. “At least raccoons are cute, right?”
On your laptop, the chat is going crazy.
user: here we go again with their flirty banter 🙄
user: JUST GET MARRIED ALREADY YOU TWO!!!!!!!!!
user: i swear this radio show is hosted by 2 delusional idiots
user: i think they should kiss idk
“No, we shouldn’t!” You exclaim at the chat like you’re scolding a bunch of twelve-year olds.
Jun nearly hops out of his seat. “Wait, I agree!”
“Wen Junhui!”
“What? I was agreeing with you!”
“That was not you agreeing with me,” You groan. “You agreed to kissing me.”
“Well, the chat started it, so don’t put all the blame on me,” Jun says with a pout, folding his arms together. “Plus, it would be good for research purposes, wouldn’t it?”
Your eyes bulge out of your skull, your mind and face flaming up. “You’re such a𑁋we host a radio show, not a damn lab!”
“Chemistry is still relevant! And chemistry is needed for relationships!”
“We are not in a relationship, oh my, God.”
“Hypothetically, Y/N. Think hypotheticals.” Jun clicks his tongue, letting out playful tsk-tsk-tsk. “I’m telling you our ratings would absolutely skyrocket.”
You fight back the smile threatening to split your face in half, but there’s no point in trying to battle it. After being best friends with Jun for most of your life and witnessing pretty much all the stupid shit he has ever said or done, you’ve long accepted that his brand of chaos is the only thing in this world that can make your chest too tight and too warm at the same time. Especially if it involves the playful flirting you’ve been bouncing on for years.
“Whatever, to answer your question𑁋raccoons are cute, but they’re also known for making stupid life decisions,” You point out with a victorious smirk. “So, maybe not the best comparison to make. It’s accurate, regardless.”
“Harsh,” he whines, but his eyes𑁋those stupid, unfairly expressive eyes of his𑁋sparkle with teasing delight. “Alright, onto the final submission of the night. Anonymous says…”
Dear Y/N and Jun of Love On Air,
I’ve been supporting the show since the very beginning, and now, I think I’m in trouble enough to make a submission.
I’m in love with my best friend. I have been for years and it struck me pretty hard this morning. Is it weird to say when I first met them it felt like love at first sight? We talk every day to the point that everyone assumes we’re together, but we’re not. They’re kind, funny, and sometimes I think they deserve someone better than me. But is it selfish of me to say that I want to keep them in my life forever? Even if that line isn’t crossed?
What should I do???
🐱
The studio falls silent for a few moments after Jun finishes reading. The shift in the air is immediately noticeable, as if all the oxygen had been sucked out of the room. When Jun picks his head back up to look at you after reading the confession, his usual smirk is still in place, but fades just a tad when he catches the contemplative expression on your face.
“Hello? Earth to Y/N?”
“Huh?” You blink back up at him. “Oh, shit. Right, uh…”
You can’t tell if it’s the late night hour getting to you or something else entirely. You’ve received so many similar confessions before𑁋a best friend falling in love with their other half, the slow and torturous ache of unspoken feelings, the fear of messing up something that’s already so beautiful itself. And ultimately, your advice has always stayed the same.
But when you meet eyes with Jun, it’s as if the words have completely cut your tongue off. You finally clear your throat.
“First of all, welcome cat anon to the club of people who are all vicariously and collectively screwed together,” You say, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear. “And I wish we hadn’t read yours at the very last minute since we’re about in end in five𑁋”
Jun lifts a brow. “Wait, we have about fifteen𑁋”
“𑁋but I’ll just say that you aren’t selfish for wanting to keep them in your life. But you are doing a disservice keeping it locked away forever. This kind of love doesn’t come around twice. So tell them, even if it scares you. What’s the worst that could happen, you know?”
You can feel Jun’s heavy gaze linger on the side of your face.
“Exactly, anon,” he jumps in like the professional he is. “Ripping the band-aid off would only hurt temporarily, right? And if it doesn’t work out, we’ll be here next week with some ice cream recommendations to help you cope.”
“Keep in mind what Jun said, guys,” You say, forcing a small laugh. “Thank you all for turning into Love On Air. Stay honest, stay unhinged, and send that one person a risky text. If you want to submit a confession, please send one to our email. We are live every Saturday on FM 98.7! Goodnight, everyone!”
You kill your microphone first as the ON LIVE sign on the wall blinks out with a soft click. Jun switches off his microphone right after, and the silence that washes over the studio is louder than anything else.
For a moment, neither of you moves.
You still feel the ghost of Jun’s gaze warm on your cheek from when you were giving advice just a minute ago. It’s silly, really𑁋how one singular anonymous confession is enough to make you think and contemplate so hard. You’ve given advice to more people than you can count on your hands and toes, but this specific one feels as if it grew limbs, crawled out of the screen, and sat itself between you and him.
“You rushed that ending,” Jun interrupts your thoughts as he swings his coat over his shoulders.
You scoff lightly. “I did not.”
“Did too.”
“I literally answered the question,” You shoot back, narrowing your eyes at him. “That’s our job.”
“Exactly,” he hums in response, leaning his elbow on the desk and resting his chin lazily in his palm. “You answered it like it was your first time ever hearing it.”
A pause.
“When it’s not.”
It’s not. But why𑁋out of all goddamn times you’ve read the same exact fear𑁋did this one feel like someone jabbed a finger at your chest and said: here, this is yours?
You force a laugh at that, letting out a deprecating shrug. “Maybe I’m just getting sentimental at my big age.”
“You’re literally younger than me.”
“Only by a few months. Your argument is irrelevant, grandpa.”
Jun tilts his head at your words, pushing himself off the table and invading your personal space as always. He stands only a step away from you, observing the way you’re speedily packing your belongings like some kind of punishment. When you face back up at him, he gives a light flick to your forehead. His touch lingers for a few seconds, before he brushes a stray strand of hair behind your ear. It’s playful and casual, but the way your skin tingles after isn’t.
Your heart does a stupid little flip in your chest.
“Come on, youngling, I’ll drive you home,” he says with a cheesy smile, dangling his car keys off his finger.
A groan leaves you as you allow him to drag you by the wrist and out of the studio.
To be honest, the radio show started off as one big fat joke.
It started in sophomore year of college, where you and Jun were nothing but a pair of dumb, broke college kids. Then you both decided to sign a quick gig for the campus radio station because you thought it would look good on your resumes. The two of you were supposed to do the boring music hour𑁋basically play whatever indie crap the station manager liked and read weather updates every morning.
But that didn’t exactly go as planned, as the majority of those sessions were spent with you both roasting each other’s music tastes live on air, and for some reason, the listeners seemed to eat that dynamic up.
In one particular session, Jun opened up the radio station email box live on air. You both expected for another complaint, which wasn’t uncommon knowing how immature the two of you act sometimes. However, it wasn’t a complaint this time.
It was a confession.
A girl had written about how she’d been in love with her roommate for the past two years and didn’t know how to voice it without ruining their lease together. Jun read it when his microphone was supposed to be switched off, and something in the studio shifted that night.
“Do… we answer it?” Jun had asked you warily.
You had hesitated for once, before a sudden surge of determination filled you. Perhaps it’s the delirium of two idiots who believed they could wing it, or the thought that a random person decided to reach out to both of you𑁋out of anyone else𑁋was the reason for the determination. Either way, you looked across at Jun that night and said, “Yeah. Let’s answer it.”
And that was that.
The rest of the semester became an absolute rollercoaster of love confessions, messy breakups, love bombers, situationships that made you want to pull your hair out, and the two of you slowly carving a name for yourselves as the unfiltered chaotic duo who gave sarcastic advice that came straight from the heart. The campus station extended their time slot, then the local radio station in the city picked the two of you up.
Somewhere along the way, and four years later, Love On Air stopped being a joke and became a real thing you and Jun committed together every Saturday at midnight𑁋your own little pocket of chaos in an otherwise normal adult life. For the most part, at least, because pining for your best friend is totally counted as normal.
Wen Junhui came into your life like a stray cat who decided that your doorstep looked comfortable enough to stay forever. Uninvited and unpredictable, way too pretty for his own good, yet somehow always exactly where you needed him to be. He randomly plopped down right next to you during freshman orientation, snatched the last macaron on your plate, and gave you a look that said you’d be fun to annoy for the next four years before introducing his name.
You’d never admit how absolutely starstruck you were the first time he smiled at you. Or laughed. You told yourself you were just sleep deprived and lonely being in the city all by yourself, but deep down, the voice in your head at that moment said that you wanted to keep him.
You should have been annoyed. But instead you laughed and nearly choked on your water, and that was it. Game over. And you became each other’s favourite person without either of you having to put a label on it. Best friend felt too small, and soulmate felt too big and scary for two broke college kids who couldn’t dedicate themselves to a single major.
So you just… existed together. Thrived together. Grew together through the most stupidest decisions known to mankind.
And at some point down the road, that stray cat curled up into your chest and refused to leave.
“Listeners, let’s give a full round of applause to user derangedcarat for cutting off their cheating ex-partner,” You announce into the microphone, clapping your hands like a proud mom at a recital. The chat explodes immediately.
user: 👏👏👏👏
user: FINALLY i’m so proud of u user derangedcarat queen
user: anyone who cheats on their partner needs to be put on death row
user: ^^^ preach!!!
“And you did the hard part, user derangedcarat,” Jun adds in. “We love growth in this household. Maybe email us a screenshot of the block so we can frame it in the studio here.”
“Exactly, and please don’t forget to take care of yourself,” You reassure into the microphone. “Block, delete, go touch some grass if you need to. You deserve someone who actually respects you.”
The next confessions run by in a blur over the next hour. Someone sends in a confession asking if it’s weird to still be hung on their high school ex, another person confesses that they’ve been naming their house plants after people who ghosted them, which the two of you undoubtedly praise for creativity.
To top off the chaos, there’s one submission an anonymous user submits with screenshots of cringe-worthy flirty text messages from a man they’re talking to, with the sender begging for the two of you to rate the messages on a scale of “smooth operator” to “immediate block”.
Jun narrows his eyes toward the screen. “Y/N, listen to this: ‘hey babygirl, how’s your night been? mine was spent thinking about u 😏’. Sent at 2:19 in the morning, left on read for three days.”
You burst out laughing, cheeks puffing out to the point it hurts. “Oh, my God. Solid negative five. That’s a biohazard right there.”
“That’s way too generous,” Jun snorts while spinning in his chair. “Anon, this man is serving nothing but expired milk. Please save yourself a headache and block his number.”
Heartbreak, confessions, and ridiculous stories𑁋you and Jun tag-team them over the next hour like strong duo you are, with the chatting eating up every particularly brutal line that leaves either of your mouths. This is what seems to happen when you give two nocturnal people a cup of bitter tar coffee and the free will to say whatever they please.
By the time the final minutes of the session comes, you and Jun decide to read out one last confession.
“...Cat anon is back with a follow-up confession.”
You perk up curiously at that. “Really? What does it say?”
Jun hesitates briefly, before clearing his throat.
Dear Y/N and Jun of Love On Air,
Hi, it’s me again. The one who wrote the other week. Thank you both so much for responding to me. I listened to every word you guys said, and I think you’re right. I was almost brave the other night𑁋had this whole stupid mental speech planned to tell them when we were hanging out together. But I… chickened out. Again. Really dumb of me, I know.
And I know that I look like a coward who needs a weekly pep talk, but this show feels like the only safe space I’m able to confess this. I do have a question for the two of you to answer and discuss.
Do you think there’s such a thing as ‘perfect love’?
I think that’s my dilemma right now. I want to be perfect for them. I want to give them that perfect love that they deserve. But how can I do that, knowing who I am?
🐱
The studio falls into a gentle kind of quiet after Jun finishes reading. The words are still processing deeply through your mind when he warily lifts his eyes back up at you, lingering on your concentrated expression. Then his heart stutters in his chest when you meet his eyes as if he got caught doing something wrong.
“Jun, why don’t you answer it first?”
Jun blinks, before shaking his head like he’s trying to clear away fog. He leans back in his chair and stretches his long arms up with a thoughtful sigh, enough for his hoodie to ride up just slightly for you to catch a sliver of skin. You try (and fail) not to notice, muting your microphone briefly to let out a cough into your hand.
“I mean, ‘perfect’ love is that type of stuff you read about in books or watch in movies, right?” He shrugs, letting his arms fall back down as his chair creaks softly beneath him. “Like no miscommunication, no timing issues, no one being stupid… which already disqualifies most of humanity, honestly.”
You lean back in to unmute your microphone. “Are you saying you’re part of that disqualification?”
“Absolutely, I’m the poster child for it,” he claims with that mischievous glint in his eyes. “I constantly forget shit, I’m nocturnal as hell, and sometimes I make objectively terrible decisions. Who would want to date me?”
The question lands a little too easily, maybe even familiar, sending an uncomfortable ripple you feel all the way down to your toes. Something about the way it left his mouth without any hesitation sends a painful grip to your heartstrings. Jun has always had this kind of self-deprecating humour, tossing it out like it was nothing at times. It makes you want to one: shake reality into him, or two: kiss him to prove him wrong.
You force out an awkward laugh, higher than it needs to be.
“Someone with terrible taste, clearly,” You answer, keeping your voice teasing despite the heaviness in your chest. “But luckily for you, the world is full of people with terrible taste.”
Jun chuckles, spinning his chair so he could study you properly.
“Yeah?” He tilts his head. “You think so?”
The chat is moving so fast now it’s basically a complete blur.
user: bro really asked who would date him while staring at his wife
user: why is he so boyfriend coded still tho
user: y/n should answer the question too!!!
user: PERFECT LOVE IS WHEN YOU LOOK AT EACH OTHER STOPPP RNN
“Chat is right,” Jun quips. “What’s your answer to the question too, Y/N?”
The second the question leaves him, you can feel every pair of invisible eyes staring at you through the screen and your pulse kicking up loudly in your ears. Jun is still leaning back in his chair, relaxed as ever, his curious gaze fixed solely on you.
Finally, you clear your throat.
“Well, I’ve seen couples break up because their relationship isn’t ‘perfect’,” You begin. “But the ones that last? They’re the ones where both sides are a little flawed, a little messy, and a little scared, but they choose each other anyway. That’s what you would call an imperfect love, and… I think that’s the most beautiful kind of love that can exist.”
Suddenly, the tiny studio feels almost suffocating to sit in. Your eyes flick up to Jun. He isn’t laughing anymore, or even smiling. He’s just staring at you with an expression so open𑁋almost surprised, like he didn’t expect you to be so serious𑁋it steals the rest of your answer out of your throat.
You refuse to look at the chat; you already know what they’re saying.
“You really thought about it a lot, huh?” Jun asks, scratching at the back of his neck.
You could only manage a small, somewhat self-conscious nod, bringing your eyes down to the ground. “Yeah. Guess I have.”
A wave of silence washes over the studio for a minute.
“...it’s a really good answer,” he murmurs.
A pleased smile crosses over your face. “Well, I am kinda a professional at this.”
“Mm,” he hums absentmindedly in response.
You pretend to busy yourself with your laptop, trying to read over the chat that has now morphed into just meaningless spams of screaming text and heart emojis. Your cursor lingers over nothing, while your heartbeat is running a full blown marathon of panic.
But when you glance back at Jun, the panic seems to strengthen even more.
“Cat anon, we really appreciate your trust in us,” You finish softly. “And I really hope that our advice tonight resonates with you. At the end of day, we’re all just a bunch of flawed humans looking for love, right? Don’t drive yourself to be perfect, because you’re already perfectly imperfect just as you are. And if your best friend reciprocates these feelings…”
Your eyes flit back up to Jun.
“...then take the leap, because they’re probably already waiting for you.”
After a pause, you lightly kick Jun’s foot underneath the table. He jolts in his seat like you shocked him, before recovering with a nervous, boyish chuckle, sounding not even close to his usual, bright and effortless laugh. For once, he appears almost rattled, with his pupils wide and his ears pink that even the dim studio lights can hardly hide.
On the wall, the ON LIVE sign flickers in and out of its glow.
“She’s, um… Y/N is right, cat anon,” Jun agrees quietly. “You don’t have to become someone else to prove yourself worthy for someone. If they’re your person, then… who you are already is why they stayed this long.”
From that, the chat practically combusts.
user: WEN JUNHUI???? IS THERE SOMETHING U WANNA SHARE W THE CLASS???
user: why did this suddenly get so intense lmao is it hot in here or is it just me?
user: i’ve been on this ship since the beginning of the show!!!!
“Alright, that’s all the time we have for tonight,” You interrupt quickly, instinctively switching back to host mode. “Thank you to everyone who sent in your confessions tonight. Stay safe, stay honest, and please don’t respond to someone who sends you a babygirl text at ungodly hours.”
Jun reaches for the switch. “Goodnight, everyone!”
Click. The ON LIVE sign dies.
Jun slides the headphones off his head and shuts down his laptop. You do the same. The two of you pack up belongings in that familiar and companionable silence that always spills into the room after a session. When you swing your bag over your shoulder, Jun glances up in your direction worriedly.
“You okay?” he asks.
You nod, offering him a small, sleepy smile. “Take me home?”
Jun swallows down the lump in his throat.
“Yeah.” He’s already opening the door for you. “Always.”
Jun remembers one of the first discussions the two of you had on the show together.
Love at first sight.
Back then, the studio was smaller, scrappier, and the chairs squeaked each time either of you moved even a centimetre. The world had fallen asleep long enough that honesty slipped through the cracks of your voices so easily. You both were running on nothing but instant noodles and caffeine, way different than the semi-functional adult routine you have established now.
He remembers the beautiful laugh that left you when the question came in halfway through a song neither of you remembered choosing.
He laughed with you too. Rolled his eyes and called it nonsense, all while pretending to not notice how your smile had gone a little soft when you answered it with that amused lilt to your voice.
“I think it exists,” You had said. “Not like movie magic, though. But… you just meet someone and your brain clicks into place, you know? Like it says, ‘Oh. It’s you.’”
“That sounds like you’re trying to make shit up to justify bad decisions,” Jun argued back with a smirk.
You gasped at that and slapped his wrist, causing him to laugh. “Excuse me? That was uncalled for.”
And the segment moved on after that.
But Jun continues to carry that sentence with him like a permanent scar.
Oh. It’s you.
“What are the chances that a confession we’ve read out is from someone we know?” Jun asks while plopping a chip in his mouth, adjusting his body from where he had been sprawled across your couch for the past few hours.
You don’t bother to spare a glance up from your laptop, but a grin crosses your features. “Pretty high, to be honest. Soonyoung once told me he submitted something to the show one time.”
Jun nearly chokes on the chip scratching at his throat. “Soonyoung? As in Kwon Soonyoung? Never shuts up, Soonyoung?” He sits up so fast he accidentally knicks his socked foot under the coffee table. “Ow! I𑁋What the hell did he confess? Was it about that girl in his dance class that was drooling over him?”
You finally look over at him, chuckling at the way his eyes have grown comically wide. “He didn’t say. Just that he sent it under a funny username and almost died when we read it out. Apparently, we just straight up told him to stop being a coward and talk to her. They went on one date together. He found out she was allergic to cats and broke her heart by saying they were incompatible. End of story.”
Jun stares at you for a full blown three seconds, before he throws his head back into the couch with a laugh so genuine you would think his soul left his body completely.
“That’s insane,” he says breathlessly. “Literally the most Soonyoung thing to do. No wonder he’s still single.”
“Actually, he’s not,” You chime back in. “I think he’s dating this new girl named… Skye, I think?”
“Sky?”
“Skye, but with an e at the end.”
“Wow,” Jun mutters, crunching down on another chip and sarcastically adds, “Character development. We love to see it.”
You roll your eyes, shutting down your laptop with a click and leaning back into the couch with Jun right next to you. You curl your knees up to your chest. “People change, Jun. Miracles happen.”
Jun offers you the bag of chips. You take one, crunching absentmindedly as your gaze travels somewhere past the TV, past the wall, past everything. He notices. Of course he does. A nudge to your leg awakens you quickly.
“Where’d you go just now?” he asks.
“Nowhere.”
Jun huffs. “Liar.”
You flick a crumb at him. “Shut up.”
“Make me,” he retorts with a lazy grin, sticking his tongue out.
You shoot a glare at him and snatch the bag of chips from his hand before he can react. A scandalised look splits his face as he lunges to grab it back from your grasp, but you manage to twist your body away and dodge his reach.
“Hey!” he exclaims, attempting to grab the back once more but you clutch it tightly to your chest. “Give that back to me!”
You yelp and scramble further into the arm of the couch, shoulders shaking with laughter as you hug the back tight enough to crush some of the chips inside. “You stole this from my pantry!”
When his fingers brush the corner of the bag, you only yank it away again. Jun narrows his eyes at you, lips twitching upwards like he’s trying not to laugh.
“Y/N.”
“No.”
“Y/N.”
“Junhui.”
“You’re being annoying on purpose.”
“And you love me for it,” You remark, sticking your tongue at him back mockingly.
That does it.
As he makes a dive for it again, you twist a little too far. The next thing you know, you’re collapsing back against the couch cushions with a soft oof, and Jun is falling down with you. Very much ungracefully.
Because one second he’s reaching, the next he finds himself tumbling down over you in a tangle of limbs and laughter, somehow managing to catch himself just beside your head before he can actually crush you into the couch. And he’s way too close.
His knee presses into the cushion in between your legs, while his hand is planted by the side of your head. His dark hair has fallen slightly into his eyes, and his breath comes out unevenly from the laughing.
Your own breathing isn’t exactly steady either.
Jun looks down at you. You look back up at him. Your apartment suddenly feels fifty times smaller, and the laughter dies instantly, replaced by a familiar heaviness in the air whenever the two of you are alone together. His eyes drop down to your lips for a singular second before flicking back up to your face, and you catch the way his ears redden in slight guilt.
You swallow down a lump in your throat. “Jun…”
And from that split second of vulnerability, he uses that opportunity to snatch the bag of chips right off your hands, catching you completely off-guard. The warmth in the air still lingers even as he pulls away from you and flops back down on the couch.
“Aha!” he exclaims triumphantly. “Victory is mine!”
You stare at him in disbelief before letting out the loudest, most offended noise imaginable as you smack his shoulder.
“Wen Junhui!”
“Hm? Sorry, I can’t hear you over the savoury taste of victory,” he quips with a grin, face beaming with pride.
“You’re such a little thief𑁋”
“You hesitated!” he argues smugly. “So that’s on you!”
“Because you were staring at me all weird!”
That makes him shut up, the smugness fading off his face so abruptly as if you accidentally powered something in his system off. The apartment goes quiet enough for you to only hear the soft buzz of the refrigerator and the honk of a car outside. You didn’t mean to say it out loud. Or maybe you did, you don’t know.
“I…” You utter weakly, trying to brush it away with a nervous chuckle. “Can we just pretend I spontaneously combusted instead?”
A soft, disbelieving laugh leaves him. “I’m sorry.”
“What?”
“For… looking at you all weird.”
“Jun𑁋”
“I think I’ll get going. It’s getting late,” he mutters, immediately standing up a little too fast. He grabs the bag of chips instinctively, realises it’s still in his hands, and sets it back down on your coffee table awkwardly.
He doesn’t look at you as he grabs his hoodie and keys, moving with a surprising speed that even your own brain can barely process what to say. When he’s scrambling to the door, you move before you think, and you grab him by the wrist before he can unlock your door.
Jun feels his pulse jump harder under your fingertips. Twisting himself back around, he’s met with your soft yet worried gaze, before flicking down to where your hand is still wrapped around his wrist. You release him immediately like you accidentally touched fire.
“Sorry,” You murmur, taking a small step back. “Just… text me when you get home, okay?”
He nods solemnly. “Yeah. Of course.” A sheepish smile graces his lips for a moment. “Goodnight, Y/N.”
“Goodnight, Jun.”
You close the door with a quiet click that somehow is louder than it should be. Now, you’re all alone in your apartment, yet the warmth of his presence still lingers through every part of your place. He’s been in here a thousand times𑁋hell, you both have slept in the same bed together a plentiful amount during all the times he’s trespassed in your space𑁋but tonight it feels like there’s a literal dent in the air itself.
The two of you have shared many awkward moments together. He’s accidentally walked in on you changing a few times; you’ve seen him stress-eat an entire family-sized bag of shrimp chips at four in the morning. You both have seen each other at some of your lowest points, but why, out of all nights, does it hit harder than anything else?
You sink back into the couch with a groan. Your phone burns a hole in your pocket. Ten minutes pass. Then fifteen. Then𑁋
Buzz.
[12:55am | menace (affectionate)]
i just got home
you okay?
You stare at his message for a long moment.
[12:57am | y/n]
good
and yeah, i’m fine. you?
[12:58am | menace (affectionate)]
splendid! and … tired
[12:58am | y/n]
go sleep then dumbass
[12:59am | menace (affectionate)]
alright mother calm down i’m brushing my teeth
A low giggle leaves you at his response. A few minutes pass before a new text from him lights up your phone.
[01:05am | menace (affectionate)]
can i ask you something really random?
[01:05am | y/n]
of course
The typing bubble appears, disappears, then reappears again.
[01:07am | menace (affectionate)]
do you think cat anon is okay?
A sinking feeling opens a pit in your stomach, thumb frozen over your keyboard. You stare at the screen until the words begin to blur. God, of all the questions he had to ask tonight…
[01:10am | y/n]
i don’t know
i hope so
and that they learn it’s okay to be brave
[01:12am | menace (affectionate)]
yeah. me too
You’re hardly able to think when his next text comes in quicker than you expected.
[01:12am | menace (affectionate)]
goodnight y/n
don’t overthink in your sleep
You smile faintly.
[01:13am | y/n]
no promises
goodnight jun
You lock your phone after that with a tired sigh, tossing it onto the couch cushion besides you like it might bite you back if you hold it for too long. And somewhere on the other side of the city, another phone is tossed away like a shameful piece of evidence.
As you stare blankly at your dark television and feel the exhaustion of the day weighing between your bones, you know that sleep won’t come easy tonight. It becomes even more challenging even after you brush your teeth, wash your face, doomscroll on your phone for a while, and face plant onto the bed like you just came home from a wounded battle.
“Pathetic,” You mumble into your pillow to absolutely nobody. “I’m so pathetic.”
On the other hand, Jun is… doing the exact same thing.
His ceiling fan spins lazily overhead while his phone screen dims beside him. The last text message you sent to him spirals through the air around him. He doesn’t even know what to do but let out a muffled incredulous laugh into his pillow, sighs, before abruptly sitting up in bed and realising how much of a loser he’s acting right now.
“I should’ve…” Jun groans, running a hand over his face. “I should’ve just told her… I’m such a coward.”
Because the thing about running a late-night show where love is the main topic and advice is given, is that it’s painfully easy to tell strangers to be brave when your own heart isn’t on the line, when you’re not the aforementioned person in the story who is being pined over. It’s easy to take the leap when you aren’t standing at the edge yourself. Yet for some reason, it’s only harder to take the leap when you don’t even follow the advice you give to others.
The irony is quite laughable, to be honest.
Jun grabs his laptop and forces it open, the bright screen nearly blinding him in the darkness of his bedroom, but he doesn’t care. He finds himself navigating to his email, switching to his second account, and gets greeted by a particular message that had already been forwarded to the radio show. A message that had already been read, answered, and sent under a certain pseudonym.
Dear Y/N and Jun of Love On Air…
Biting down on his bottom lip, he opens up a fresh draft and begins typing.
“Take the leap, cat anon,” he repeats to himself over and over again. “Take the leap, Wen Junhui.”
Jun texted you two hours before the show that he was sick along with a selfie of him buried in a hoodie he threw on, somehow contracting a stomach bug which he blamed on some expired convenience store gimbap. He insisted that he could still come in, yet you reassured him with a string of sobbing emojis that it’s probably in his best interest to stay home to rest, and that you could handle hosting the show on your own, even if… you’ve never really done it before.
The show must go on, after all.
So when you find yourself sitting alone within the quiet studio just mere minutes from going live, you definitely sense both the physical and mental emptiness of his presence in the room a little too sharply. His headphones are still left the way he always leaves them, and his chair is facing the wrong wrong because he spins in it so much that he never bothers to put it back properly.
A small, fond chuckle leaves you at the thought of him, and you have to chase those thoughts away the second the clock strikes midnight. From there, you roll your shoulders back to shake away any residual nerves, clear your throat, and reach over to the switch.
Taking one last deep breath, you flip it on. The ON LIVE sign sparks to life on the wall.
“Good evening to all our fellow lonely and emotionally volatile listeners,” You greet warmly into the microphone. “Welcome back to everyone’s favourite unhinged radio show, Love On Air, live at midnight every Saturday on FM 98.7.”
Your eyes can barely keep track of the live chat box being spammed with incoming messages. You read a couple of messages out of people describing their day, but it isn’t long until the elephant in the room is acknowledged.
You snort lightly. “I regret to inform you all that Jun has passed away due to… alleged food poisoning.” Some comments following your words make you laugh. “Yes, yes, you’re all invited to the funeral, don’t worry.”
user: i commence a ritual to bring him back or we riot 🙏🙏
user: bro probably slept through his alarm honestly
user: WAIT BUT THIS FEELS SO WRONG W/O HIM 😭😭
user: rip… guess no husband and wife arguments for now… 😔
“He offered to join while sick, by the way,” You add in quickly. “But I personally vetoed it. I’m not letting a man who ate expired gimbap shit his way into a session. He’s probably listening in right now, so hi, Jun. Hope you’re still intact, buddy.”
After a few minutes of more interactions, you finally pull up the radio show’s inbox and begin to organise through the confessions that were received recently. That weird feeling creeps back up your spine once again as you scroll𑁋not about the confessions specifically, just the thought about doing this alone. Your eyes flick to the empty chair right next to you once more.
You read a few confessions and answer two callers𑁋there’s one from someone who felt bad for ghosting someone they actually liked, another person confesses they’re having a hard time with their partner wanting to open up their relationship, and one with expressing their fears of having their first time with the wrong person. You offer your own thoughtful answers and advice as best as you can, yet it feels so lackluster and flat without Jun’s playful interjections whenever you get too sappy on air.
“Your first time should be with someone who makes you feel safe, not just wanted,” You say gently into the microphone. “You deserve that. Don’t settle for anything less. It’s okay to wait until that safety feels undeniable.”
The chat floods with hearts and supportive messages. A few people send their thank yous for the advice. Some latecomers ask questions about Jun’s whereabouts.You smile gratefully, but it feels a little fragile tonight, not quite reaching up to your eyes.
As the final music break of the session ends, you unmute your microphone to speak.
“Alright, listeners, we’ve reached the final thirty minutes of tonight’s session. I want to thank you as always for staying up and listening into the show,” You announce confidently. “We’ve got time for… maybe a few more confessions and a possible lucky caller, so let’s see what we have left.”
Scrolling silently through the inbox, it isn’t long until your cursor hovers a familiar username once again. Your heart spikes at the sight, hesitating for a slow second.”
“Everyone, let’s welcome cat anon back to the stage with another follow-up confession.” You click the confession, take in a deep breath you’re sure the viewers can hear, and start to read it aloud.
Dear Y/N of Love On Air…
Hi, it’s me again. To be honest, I don’t really know why I keep sending these, but somehow I always end up back here again. You truly have a way of words, and I really want to thank you for that.
I thought about what you said about imperfect love. I used to think that if I fix every flaw about myself, then maybe I’ll be worthy of them, but now I know that love is someone seeing every fractured version of you, and staying anyway.
There’s something else I want to confess too. I think I’ve been waiting so long for the “perfect” moment that I accidentally passed a thousand “imperfect” ones. It makes me terrified that they’ll meet someone more braver than me, so I’ll use this chance now to be brave for once.
I’ll be ready on the line for this session and use this chance to finally face whatever happens next. I hope you’re able to answer my call whenever that may be. I have an important message to send.
🐱
Your voice comes out almost too quiet by the end you finish reading. You flit a quick glance to the ever-exploding live chat box.
user: HOLY SHITTT CAT ANON VOICE REVEAL???
user: answer the call! answer the call!
user: IM GONNA THROW UP WHY AM I SO NERVOUS
user: we’re witnessing a cinematic moment in history wtff
Suddenly, the blink of the call line makes your throat tighten. Your fingers hover over the console as if it might suddenly jump out and bite you. God, you don’t understand why you’re unexpectedly so nervous𑁋you’ve talked to many callers, and yet, speaking with cat anon has you on complete edge.
“Okay,” You stammer shakily into the microphone, covering up your nerves with a faint smile. “Let’s… let’s take this final call of the night, everyone.”
When you answer the line, it’s as if the world goes entirely mute, except for the intense pounding your chest. Nothing but static fills your headphones as the line struggles to connect for a few torturous moments.
Then, a quiet breath reverberates into your ears. The kind of breath that sounded like it had to claw its way out of someone’s chest.
“...hello?”
The voice is slightly distorted through the line, unmistakably low𑁋clearly a male voice𑁋and trembling slightly around the edges. It’s more of a whisper, if anything. Perhaps he’s just as nervous as you.
“Hi,” You greet warmly, slipping back into your professional radio voice. “You’re live on air with Love On Air. Is this… the one and only cat anon?”
A small, embarrassed huff of air crosses the line. He sounds a bit closer this time as he replies, “...yeah, it’s me.”
“Well, I’m giving you the floor now,” You assure firmly. “Whatever you need to say… we’re listening.”
Another shaky breath crackles through the line. You can practically touch the contemplation that’s buzzing through the call with your fingertips if that’s even possible, and even within the studio itself.
When the seconds of silence turn into a full-blown minute of consideration, the line crackles once more.
“I’m in love with you, Y/N.”
Your heart stops. Your mind draws a complete and utter blank. The abrupt clarity of his voice cuts through any lingering distortion and static and hits you like a wave. The world itself feels as if it’s tilted on its axis.
“Jun𑁋?”
“I love you,” he repeats more firmly this time, voice raw and full of everything he’s been holding back. “and I told you I was sick tonight because I couldn’t sit right next to you while you gave advice I was too scared to take. I just𑁋holy shit, I love you…”
Your mouth parts open in shock, then closes. The chat is going absolutely feral right now and you can barely read through all the comments without having this unusual urge to just slam your hand onto the console and pretend that you’re suffering from pure delirium.
On the wall, the ON AIR still glows stubbornly.
user: I FREAKING KNEW THAT CAT ANON WAS JUN
user: may i find this kind of love one day what the helly 🙏
user: Y/N ARE YOU BREATHING RIGHT NOW ????
user: our stupid oblivious hosts are in love. I CALLED it
You feel as if you almost have to squeeze your voice just to get it out. “Jun…”
On the other hand, he inhales sharply.
“...yeah?”
“You’re such an idiot,” You sputter out. “Do you have any idea how… how insane this is? Confessing on our show… using a pseudonym I gave advice to𑁋”
“I know.”
“𑁋after lying about being sick𑁋”
“I know.”
“𑁋and letting me sit here and talk about love like you weren’t the one I was talking to the whole time?” You ramble on out of a sheer mix of pure disbelief and relief, tightening your grip on the microphone. “Like all the advice I said wasn’t about… us?”
You hear some rapid shuffling on the other side, and you could almost imagine Jun sitting up in bed as if he’s received the most shocking news of his entire life. Then you hear his dazed laugh flowing into your ears.
“Yeah,” he admits quietly. “It was.”
Your breath catches embarrassingly hard and your face is completely on fire. The chat combusts once again, and you have to keep mentally reminding yourself that this entire interaction is live and half the city is probably listening in at this very second.
“From the first moment I saw you back in college,” Jun continues softly. “My heart and brain did the thing, you know? That you said before𑁋where you meet someone and all you can think is: Oh, it’s you. The second I saw you, I just… I knew I wanted to keep seeing you.”
You feel your eyes start to burn.
“I should’ve said it years ago, but I’m… I’m a coward. I know I am,” he mutters helplessly. “I know it’s stupid pretending to be cat anon because it was safer than telling my best friend I’m in love with her. Stupid that I… used to remind myself that I never deserved someone as bright as you. But anytime you told someone to suck it up and take the leap, I had to do it now or else I’d lose the chance and probably explode.”
He lets out a soft, breathless, disbelieving laugh of relief at the very end. Tears are streaming down your face at this point, but you don’t care.
user: IM PASSING TISSUES DOES ANYONE ELSE NEED ONE???
user: jun confessing his undying devoted love to y/n life is worth living again!!!!
user: i feel like a successful marriage counselor WTF
user: the solomon paradox is REAL
“Gosh, you’re…” You wipe a tear from your eye, murmuring weakly, “Your timing really needs to be studied, Jun.”
“Wait, wait, are you crying?” Jun asks worriedly in a fit of panic. “I didn’t mean to make you cry on air𑁋oh, my God, I can take it back, I can𑁋”
“You cannot ‘take this back’, you idiot!” You cut in immediately. “I’m crying because I’m in love with your stupid ass too! And if you don’t get here and finish the show with me, I’m absolutely going to lose the rest of my dignity.”
There’s a very long, suspicious beat of silence that passes. It’s enough to have you feel like you’re going through all the stages of grief in just a matter of seconds. And you swear on Jun’s life that if he doesn’t say something in the next minute, you might actually crash out and let the world witness your breakdown.
But reality snaps back in when you hear the sound of him nearly tripping on the other end of the line.
“I’m coming,” he reassures you. “I’m sprinting as fast as I can. Stay there for me, okay? Don’t finish the show without me.”
The line goes dead.
The night is quietly young as you and Jun step back into your apartment, the door clicking shut behind to finally cut out the rest of the world.
You still can barely process what just happened. First, Jun had texted you that he was quite literally shitting bricks for the entire day (which was a lie, thank goodness), then you somehow managed to host an entire segment all on your own without losing your sanity, and now the man you’ve been secretly in love for years had confessed to you𑁋live on air, alongside an entire audience of fellow love drunk listeners𑁋and is currently standing directly in front of you, wearing a hoodie he probably put on right before sprinting to the studio and a pair of pyjama sweatpants.
Jun doesn’t waste a single second. He steps up close to you and carefully wraps his long arms around you, the comforting scent of him quickly filling all your senses. He lets his forehead rest against yours, the two of you shutting your eyes together as you simply bask in each other’s presence.
“You’re real,” he murmurs, his hands trembling where they rest on your back. “I swear I thought I hallucinated the entire night. I need someone to pinch me if𑁋hey!”
You giggle at the way his face dramatically contorts with a pout, soothing his side with a gentle squeeze. You tilt your head enough to brush your nose against his.
“Then kiss me like I’m real, you idiot.”
For a moment, he just blinks like you spoke complete gibberish. Then he cups your face and presses his lips to yours, sending immediate shivers that make your knees weak. You let out a soft sigh into his mouth as the kiss deepens ever so slightly, your hands slowly sliding up his chest. You feel him chuckle against your lips.
As you kiss, you find yourself backing up in the direction of the couch. Jun follows without breaking contact with your mouth. When the backs of his knees hit the cushions, you both tumble down together in a clumsy, giggly heap with you on top of him, straddling him.
You brace your hands on his shoulders, and Jun’s arms lock around your waist instantly, holding you flush against him. And for a second, you both just… stare at each other.
Jun is the first to break, his eyes flitting back and forth between your eyes and lips as he doesn’t know where to look. “What?”
You bite your lip to keep from smiling too wide at how ridiculously cute and disheveled he looks right now, tilting your head at him like you’re pretending to study him. You lean in a little just to tease, and instinctively, he puckers his lips together, chasing after yours when you pull back away.
“I can’t believe how stupid we are,” You whisper, brushing his lips briefly in a feather-light peck. “Giving advice to everyone but ourselves. We wasted literal years.”
Jun chases after your mouth again, capturing it properly this time and pulling away with a satisfied hum. “Mhm. Absolute morons.” His hands find their way under your shirt, tenderly mapping the bare skin of your waist. “But I’m done wasting time now.”
You chuckle into the next kiss, the sound bubbling up uncontrollably as he tries to deepen it. God, his lips are so eagerly soft, but he’s smiling so hard you momentarily knock your teeth against his.
“Mm, wait,” You mumble against his mouth as you draw back to readjust your position, causing him to suck in a breath. “Are you trying to eat my face? Where’s the technique?”
He blinks up at you dazedly, mouth parted in playful offense. His hands tighten around your waist. “I𑁋excuse me?”
“Zero finesse. One star. I expected more from cat anon.”
Jun sits up suddenly so that you’re basically pressed chest-to-chest with each other.
“You’re too cute, that’s the problem,” he says, voice deep yet still a little rough around the edges. “How am I supposed to kiss you if I short-circuit and all I could think, holy shit, she’s mine?”
Your heart does a stupid little flip from his words. “Flattery won’t save your shitty technique.”
“Oh, yeah?” He cups your face with both hands, thumbs caressing your cheeks. “Watch this.”
The next kiss is messier𑁋heated, giggly, and clumsy because you both can’t stop smiling. You feel your toes curl as he nips lightly at your bottom lip. You sigh into it, threading your hands through his hair, the heat of it enough to make you rock your hips against his growing hardness.
You feel the heat dancing up your skin and pooling into your belly as you continue your lazy grinding against him, swallowing down the broken sigh and groans that fall out of his mouth. When his mouth begins its descent down your jaw and to a particular sensitive spot behind your ear, he smirks against your warm skin.
“Fuck𑁋you like that?” he breathes out, his fingertips brushing the underside of your breast underneath your shirt.
A shaky laugh leaves you, but it melts quickly into a soft moan when his thumb brushes your already-hardened nipple. “Don’t get cocky. Still𑁋mmh𑁋mediocre at best.”
Jun lifts his brow, mouth curved into a stupidly fond grin. “Mediocrity, huh?” He pinches your nipple gently, causing you to jerk your hips into his. “Your body is saying something different, baby.”
“Ignore her. She’s… a traitor,” You croak out, grinding against the hard line of his cock through his sweatpants.
Jun merely chuckles, tugging your shirt up enough to expose your chest. He unclips your bra without any hesitation, pushing the straps off your shoulders then letting it fall uselessly to the floor. His eyes widen as he takes a few seconds to drink you in completely.
“God, you’re so beautiful…”
Then his mouth is back on you. He sucks one nipple between his lips while his hand affectionately palms the other. A crude moan slips out of you this time; it heightens his confidence even more.
As his mouth lavishes attention to your other breast, he drags his hand down your side, teasingly sliding under the waistband of your pants to cup you over your pants. He can feel how warm you are already.
“Rating?” he requests with a firm suck.
“Like a solid𑁋shit𑁋two-point-five out of five…”
Jun pulls off your breast with a wet pop, grin turning wicked. “But you’re soaked, and you’re still calling me below average? I think your pussy disagrees.”
You open your mouth to retort, but then he slides his hand into your panties, fingers circling over your slick folds, and nothing but a breathy gasp escapes you. Your hips roll down to meet his hand as he inserts a finger inside of you, curling into that spot that makes your back arch and he has to use his other hand to hold you in place.
“What’s the rating now?” he asks, watching the way your face is beautifully twisting with pleasure as a second finger slides inside.
You shoot him a death glare as you clench around his hand. “Three𑁋fuck, right there𑁋three-point-eight𑁋”
“Getting better already,” he hums in approval, leaning back down to worship your breasts once more. The dual sensation has your head falling down into the crook of his neck, your moans caressing his skin.
“Four𑁋Jun, you asshole𑁋four-point-five𑁋”
He pulls his fingers out of you unexpectedly, making you whine at the loss. Before you can complain, you find yourself being flipped on the couch as he settles in between your thighs, looking up at you with that mischievous, hungry, adoring look. He gives another tug to the waistband of your pants.
“Final rating before I eat you out?”
Your chest heaves, though you try to keep your tone light and teasing. “Four-point-seven. Don’t get lazy down there or I’m docking points, smartass.”
Jun’s eyes sparkle with challenge as he helps you out of the rest of your clothes. When you’re fully bare in front of him, he spreads your thighs even further, letting his mouth hover tantalisingly where you need him most.
“Four-point-seven,” he repeats to himself, pressing a trail of kisses to your inner thigh. “I can work with that. Watch me get that perfect five.”
Then he leans in and drags his tongue up your soaked pussy in one long stripe, a groan leaving him as he tastes you for the first time. Your hips jolt against his face, a sharp moan tumbling out of you and bouncing off the walls of your quiet apartment.
“Oh𑁋Jun𑁋”
“Hmm?” He circles your clit with the tip of his tongue before sucking it gently into his mouth, eyes flicking up to watch your face. Two fingers slide back inside of you, curling into that spot that makes your vision glassy. “God, you taste even better than I imagined…”
You slap a hand over your mouth as the pleasure starts to bloom its way out of you, but he reaches up and pulls it away, lacing your fingers together.
“Don’t do that, please,” he murmurs against your pussy. “Let me hear you, baby…”
The way he eats you out has your head spinning. It’s dizzying, a little messy, and entirely devoted to you. The wet sounds of his mouth and fingers echo and your moans and gasps travel throughout the room, only making him double down even harder to bring you over the edge.
“Five𑁋five stars𑁋ah, please𑁋”
You cum with a cry of his name, the pleasure crashing into you in waves. He continues to lazily lap at you before you start trying to push his head away, the two of you giggling breathlessly in the aftermath.
When he pulls away, his lips are shiny and he looks foolishly pleased with himself. He wipes his mouth with the back of his hand and crawls his way back up your body, meeting you for a deep kiss. You taste yourself on his tongue, and the thought that this absolute klutz of a man just gave you the best orgasm of your life sends another shaky giggle rolling out of you.
“You okay?” he breathes against your mouth, chuckling softly of you barely controlling your laughter.
You run a hand over down your warm face. “I… what the hell just happened?”
“That was me letting go after holding back for years,” he answers without diffidence, tracing soothing circles over your bare thigh. “Do I get a final rating now?”
“Hmm, solid five-point-five. An extra half point for your enthusiasm and those cute noises you made down there.” You run your fingers through his messy hair, making him lean into your touch like a baby kitten. “But I’ll let you try for a six if you fuck me right now.”
Jun’s eyes darken instantly. “Say less.”
The two of you battle over taking off the rest of his clothes. Jun attempts to smoothly yank his hoodie off in one go, but it gets snug on something, causing him to laugh when it gets caught on his shoulders.
“Oh, my God𑁋stay still so I can take it off, you dummy!” You exclaim in frustration.
“Help me then, smartass!” His laughter is muffled into the fabric.
When you finally unsnag the hoodie and toss it somewhere on the floor, you both immediately reach for his pants at the same time, elbows bumping into each other. Rolling your eyes, you lightly smack his hand away so you can push it down his hips with borderline desperation. He kicks it off the rest of the way, his boxers following quickly.
The second he’s fully bare in front of you for the first time, he cages you into the couch right above you, littering soft kisses over your flushed cheeks. His cock rests heavily against your stomach as he stares down at you, chest rising and falling heavily.
“Hi,” he whispers stupidly, like he’s just remembered how to speak.
“Hi,” You reply with a bashful smile, reaching up to cradle his face, pinching his cheeks together. “Still waiting for my six-star performance.”
“Give me a break, I’m nervous!” he gasps defensively, grinding the underside of his dick along your slickness unconsciously. “I’ve only pictured this every single night for, like, the past four years!”
“Poor baby,” You coo impishly, reaching down to stroke him softly. “You’ve been jerking off to the thought of me for four years?”
Jun whines needily, burying his face into the crook of your neck, inhaling deeply. “Stop bullying me when I’m trying hard not to embarrass myself right now.”
“Then embarrass yourself. I’ve waited just as long, you idiot,” You urge, bringing him closer until there’s physically no more space between your bodies.
With a sly smirk, he reaches down, lines himself up with you, and slowly pushes inside. He groans lowly as he sinks inside you until his hips are pressed against yours. For a second, he doesn’t move at all, only trembling with his forehead leaning onto yours.
“Oh fuck𑁋I think I died a little,” he grunts pitifully into your neck. “You’re so warm. And tight. Think I-I short-circuited again.”
You give his shoulder a tight squeeze. “Move, Jun. Please.”
He obeys right away, thrusting into you experimentally and drawing a collective moan out from both of you. When he snaps himself into you again, again, and again, he sets a slow, deep rhythm that has the couch creaking softly beneath you.
“Shit, Jun𑁋” Your nails rake down his back as he hits that spot perfectly inside you again and again, wrapping your legs around his waist. “You… You feel so good.”
“Yeah? You look so pretty falling apart on my cock, baby,” he praises heavily, voice sounding absolutely wrecked. “Still rating me? Am I passing?”
Your laugh dissolves into a moan when a particular thrust punches the air out of your lungs.
“You’re at…” You bite down harshly on your bottom lip, glancing down to where you’re joined together. “Five-point… seven𑁋shit, keep going like that, I’m so close…”
“I’m so close too, not gonna last,” he pants, his breath molten on your neck. “God, I love you, I love you, I love you…”
You grab him by the nape of his neck to collapse his mouth back onto yours, swallowing all his desperate little grunts and sighs as the kiss turns heated fast. His rhythm stutters for the briefest second before he regains himself swiftly, the wet slap of your bodies meeting over and over again flooding the room, with your own hips rolling to meet with each of his thrusts.
The heat of it all invades through all your nerves, that familiar coil tightening in your belly. The rating game is completely out of the window now. There’s only nothing but the drag of his cock kissing your walls and this thumb dipping in between your legs to caress your clit, encouraging you to let go.
When your orgasm finally crashes, it’s much more intense than the last. Your nails imprint sharp crescents down his back as one final broken cry rips out from your throat, stars bursting behind your ears. Your walls squeeze around him so tightly he curses, the drive of his hips faltering sloppily.
“Baby, I can’t𑁋I’m gonna𑁋where𑁋?”
“Inside,” You beg gravelly, wrapping your arms around him even tighter. “Lose yourself in me, Jun, please.”
That’s all it takes for his own orgasm to hit him. With one final thrust, he spills inside of you with a deep, guttural groan. His face drops into the crook of your sweaty neck as shaky little whimpers continue to leave him𑁋your name, I love you, fuck I love you𑁋repeatedly until he’s completely spent and melted into your arms.
For a few moments of stillness, the only sounds travelling throughout the room is your ragged breathing and the sudden hum of your refrigerator. Eventually, Jun lifts his head from where it’s been resting comfortably on your chest. His dark hair is sticking out in all sorts of places, a few strands even matted to his forehead. And his eyes are half-lidded, yet so soft and full of love that you almost want to sob.
“So…” he starts hoarsely, kissing the tip of your nose. “Final rating?”
You let out a tired, contented laugh, brushing damp strands of his hair off his face.
“Mmmh… six-point-five,” You decide sleepily, pressing a chaste kiss to the corner of his mouth.
A bright, boyish grin unleashes across his face. “I’ll take it. Room for improvement for the next round.”
“I𑁋next round?!”
“I aim to achieve ten stars. Or maybe more than that.”
“God, you’re so insatiable,” You groan, shaking your head despite the smile breaking through your expression. “Later on, maybe… for now, I just want to hold you.”
Jun swears he feels himself literally melt into a puddle at that, because how could he ever deny a request like that from you? Despite the little space on your creaky couch, he pulls out of you with a wince, grabs the throw blanket that has unknowingly dropped to the floor before shifting himself more deeper into your arms. The soft fabric wraps around your bare bodies together in a warm, messy nest, one of his legs slotting in between your legs.
“Better?” he mumbles hopefully, letting his eyes fall to a close so he could listen to your heartbeat.
“Mhm. Much,” You hum in response, nosing through his hair. “I love you, you menace.”
You feel his lips meet the soft skin above your breast, right over your heartbeat.
“I love you too, dummy.”
Remember that stray cat that landed on your doorstep at the very beginning and refused to leave?
𝐒𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲 ➙ When you inherits an estate, you expects creaking floors and dust — not a ghost who swears you’re his wife. The house breathes with memories that aren’t yours, and every night, a soft voice whispers your name. Jun isn’t frightening; he’s heartbreakingly gentle, waiting for a love you've forgotten.
𝐓𝐚𝐠𝐬 ➙ Angst, Ghost x Human, Dark Romance, Mention of Past Lives, Slow burn (I think??), Tragic Romance, Love beyond Death, “You forgot me but I never did” type of shit, Porn w/ Plot (and yes, YOU CAN SKIP the sex scene if not comfortable with the smut warnings)
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𝐀/𝐍 ➙ ahh I adore this story so much!! I really hope you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it. I’m usually known for my angst works, so I guess this is my moment to shine hahaha. please don’t hesitate to click out or skip the explicit parts if they make you uncomfortable — this one gets a little intense with the kinktober themes 😭 anyways, reblogs (w/ or w/o tags) are always appreciated. love you lots!!
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The house was older than your name.
It stood past the last turn of the countryside road, half-swallowed by the forest, where even the birds refused to sing. The lawyer had given you the address over a call that sounded static, voice clipped, rushed — like he didn’t want to linger on the topic too long.
“An inheritance, Miss L/N,” he’d said. “A private estate. Been untouched for years. You’re the last living relative.” “Relative of who?” you’d asked. “Of the previous owner, Miss Wen.. if I remember correctly. Distant, very distant. She had no direct heirs. You might want to- ah -look through the documents yourself.”
The call ended before you could ask more.
Now, standing at the foot of the property, suitcase in hand, you realised how words could never have prepared you for this.
It was enormous, but not in the modern sense. The house was alive in its decay — a mansion of forgotten gold and black wood, wrapped in ivy that crawled like veins up the cracked stone. The windows glowed faintly amber, reflecting the dying sun. Even the wind that brushed against your skin felt heavy with something unsaid.
“Okay,” you muttered to yourself, pushing the rusted gates open. “Creepy, but not.. haunted. Hopefully.”
Your footsteps echoed across the gravel path leading up to the grand doors. Each step felt like trespassing on someone’s memory. When you finally pushed the door open, it didn’t screech or fight you like an old hinge should — it sighed, like the house itself was breathing you in.
The first thing that hit you was the smell — grass and rain, faint but fresh, like someone had opened a window minutes ago. The foyer stretched out before you, the chandelier above still glittering under years of dust. Paintings lined the walls. Not landscapes, not still lifes — just portraits. Of the same man.
You paused in front of one. He was handsome in a way that felt wrong for being immortalised in oil paint — sharp jaw, dark, tousled hair that falls around his neck in soft layers, eyes are gentle yet piercing. Scattered across his skin are small, striking moles — near his lips, another on his cheek, and gracing his forehead — as if even the universe couldn’t resist marking beauty where it found it.
Someone had painted him with devotion. You leaned closer. “Whoever you were,” you whispered, “you were definitely the favourite.”
The next few hours passed in quiet exploration. Every room was preserved — sheets draped over furniture, candles that looked half-burned but untouched by time, books still open mid-page on desks. It was eerie, yes, but also intimate. Like someone had just stepped out of the room and would return any minute.
By dusk, exhaustion caught up with you. You found the master bedroom on the second floor — and stopped cold. It was clean. No dust. The bed was made perfectly, the sheets turned down as though waiting. There was even a small vase by the window, a single white rose standing tall in it. You frowned.
“Someone’s been here,” you murmured. Then, louder, calling out just in case, “Hello? Is anyone-?” Silence. Except the faint hum of wind through the old vents. You hesitated, then sighed. “Guess I’ll just lock the door.”
The bed was too soft. Too inviting. You sat down anyway. The pillow smelled faintly of cedar and musk, a scent that didn’t belong to you. Still, the fatigue was pulling you under, and you let your eyes close for just a moment.
—
A breath brushed your neck. So real, so warm, it made every hair on your body stand on end. “You came back.” You bolted upright, eyes scanning the room. “Who’s there?” Nothing. Only the curtains swaying even though the windows were closed.
Your heart hammered as you reached for your phone flashlight. Its glow hit the mirror across the room — and froze you in place. In the reflection, someone stood behind you. A man, tall and pale, dressed in white collared shirt, neckline framing a single pearl necklace that adds a delicate contrast to his look.
Over it, he wears a black tweed jacket interwoven with silver threads, catching light in subtle glints. His expression wasn’t threatening. If anything, he looked relieved. He smiled softly. “You shouldn’t be afraid. I’ve waited long enough.”
You turned around. Empty. Your throat felt dry. “I’m-” You laughed weakly to yourself, trying to shake it off. “definitely calling the real estate agent tomorrow.”
You climbed back into bed, pulling the blanket tightly around your shoulders. But your body refused to relax. When your breathing finally steadied, you noticed something that made your pulse skip again. Your dress.
It had slipped halfway off your shoulder, your collarbone bare. And on your skin, faint as breath, was the outline of a handprint. You stared at it until your eyes blurred, until the scent of roses filled the air, until sleep pulled you back into the dark.
And somewhere, between waking and dreaming, you heard him whisper again — closer this time, almost tender “I’m glad you’re back, Wen Y/N.”
Morning came gently — too gently for an abandoned place. The light that poured through the curtains was soft and gold, catching the dust in the air like glitter. You sat up slowly, your body still wrapped in that hazy, half-remembered dream. There was no handprint now. No scent of smoke or roses. Just quiet.
“Okay,” you whispered, rubbing your eyes. “Maybe I just freaked myself out.” You checked your phone. Now we’re talking. I can definitely live here, there's a signal. It showed the time, 7:43 a.m. You must’ve slept like a rock.
After washing up with the little water that still ran in the bathroom sink, you wandered downstairs. The house looked different in daylight — less ominous, more tragically beautiful. Every surface was layered with dust except for a few areas: the stairs’ rail, the main hallway, the parlour table. Like someone had constantly wiped them.
You knelt beside one of the portraits in the living room and dusted it gently with your sleeve. The man’s painted gaze met yours again, unblinking and patient. His eyes were dark brown, almost gold under the varnish.
There were at least eight portraits in the entire house, all of him. Each painted a little differently: one in uniform, another in casual robes, another holding a book. You moved to the last one by the fireplace — this time, he wasn’t alone.
A woman stood beside him. The artist hadn’t captured her face clearly, but she wore a white dress and veil, hand resting delicately on the man’s arm. A wedding portrait. You tilted your head, curiosity pricking at you. “So.. you were married,” you murmured, brushing the edge of the frame. “And I’m guessing your wife didn’t inherit the place. Lucky me.”
You took a step back, hands on your hips. The house was huge, but not unmanageable. You could make it feel like home again. So you started cleaning.
At first, it was just idle — opening windows, letting air in, humming faintly under your breath. But then something strange happened. The longer you worked, the more you noticed subtle traces of order that weren’t yours: beds already made, a vase refilled with white roses, curtains tied back differently. Someone — or something — had been maintaining this house all along.
You shook your head, deciding to distract yourself before your imagination spiraled like last night. Grabbing your phone, you opened your messages to message your best friend.
Y/N: guess who inherited a horror movie set 😭
Hao 😈: LMAOOO don’t tell me it’s that creepy old mansion your mom mentioned??
Y/N: yeah. the one with zero neighbors and 800 ghosts per square meter
Hao 😈: pls send pics 😭😭
Y/N: hold up
You snapped a few photos: the cracked chandelier, the grand staircase, one of the portraits — you didn’t even realise until later that it was the wedding one.
Y/N: okay ngl it’s pretty. like victorian pretty. you should come here.
Hao 😈: looks like somewhere a hot ghost would haunt.
Y/N: stop! 😭😭
Hao 😈: no bc imagine waking up w/ a ghost husband like “good morning my bride” 💀
Y/N: STOP IT HAO I SWEAR I’LL MOVE OUT
Hao 😈: u say that but u also said ur into tragic romance when bored soooo 👀
You laughed out loud, the sound echoing across the empty hall.
Y/N: fine. if a ghost husband appears i’ll let u know so u can write my obituary.
Hao 😈: deal
You pocketed your phone, still smiling. The house felt a little less lonely now. By afternoon, sunlight filtered through the stained-glass windows, scattering coloured light on the floor. You carried an armful of old books back to the library and froze when you saw one already open on the table — one you knew you hadn’t touched.
Its pages were lined with elegant handwriting. You could barely read the faded ink, but you caught one phrase clearly underlined: “Bound beyond death, by name and vow.” A chill ran down your arms. You shut the book gently, heart thudding. “Okay.. enough cleaning for today.”
Outside, the wind had stopped entirely. The forest was silent. The only sound left in the house was your breathing — and somewhere, faintly, a low hum. Like someone singing through the walls.
The house was quiet that night. Too quiet.
You settled at the desk with your laptop, your only source of light a small lamp you’d brought from your old apartment. The rest of the room lay in shadows, the wallpaper peeling faintly in the corners as if the air itself had been holding its breath for years.
You cracked your knuckles, muttering, “Okay. Chapter sixty-three. Let’s do this.” The blinking cursor greeted you like an old friend.
Your book — To Breathe Again — had been a year in the making, and your editor had been hounding you for pages. The irony of working on a novel about necromancy wasn’t lost on you. You even laughed about it when you messaged Minghao earlier those years.
Y/N: if i start writing ghost love stories don’t pick me up, i’m doing the right thing
Hao 😈: u kinky mf
Y/N: shut up 😒
Hao 😈: ok but if u get possessed can u at least ask the ghost to edit my thesis
You shook your head, smiling to yourself before getting back to work. Hours passed unnoticed, the rhythm of typing filling the silence like a heartbeat. Sometimes you swore you could hear faint footsteps pacing the hallway — the kind that made the wooden floor groan softly, like memory itself stretching awake. Every time you paused to listen, the sound stopped.
Around 2 a.m., you leaned back in your chair and sighed. “One more paragraph,” you told yourself. But the words on the screen blurred together, and your head eventually dipped forward. You must’ve dozed off right there at the desk.
When you woke, it was morning again. The sun slanted through the tall windows, warm on your face. You blinked against the light, you woke up in the bed “ahm.. did I sleep walk here last night?” you mumbled, stretching your arms.
But your body felt sore in a way that didn’t make sense — like you’d been tossing in bed for hours, muscles overworked and trembling faintly. Your nightgown clung to your skin, a little too loose at the collar and ends almost reaching your hips.
You frowned, rubbing your eyes. It hurts. That’s when you noticed your laptop. The document you’d been writing was still open — but your last sentence had changed. Instead of “She pressed her hand against the cold stone altar..” the words now read:
She pressed her hand against the warmth of his chest and whispered, “I’m home.”
Your heart stuttered. You didn’t remember typing that. And yet.. the phrasing sounded exactly like something you would write. You closed the laptop slowly, the faint scent of something — cedar, musk, and roses — lingering in the air, as if someone had been beside you all night, breathing close enough to touch.
The smell of sizzling butter filled the kitchen, the sound of eggs hitting the pan soft and rhythmic. Sunlight pooled faintly through the old lace curtains, dust swirling in golden ribbons. You could almost pretend the house wasn’t haunted — that it was just another quiet morning.
Almost.
You rolled your shoulders, wincing. There was still a deep, dull ache running through your muscles, especially between your thighs. “Did I- sleep weird?” you muttered, rubbing the back of your neck. You brushed off the thought with a nervous laugh and reached for the salt.
It must’ve been another one of those dreams. The kind that felt too real, too heavy. You remembered flashes — pale fingers tracing your skin, a whisper against your ear. The dream man’s touch had been so vivid that your body still remembered the heat. You’d seen his face this time too, clear and unblurred, framed by soft candlelight.
And it wasn’t just any face.
Your gaze drifted across the kitchen, toward the hallway where the portraits hung — the ones you’d noticed. You froze, spatula hovering midair.
The reflection in the hallway mirror caught him perfectly — the same slanted eyes, the same mouth curved like a secret. You blinked, once, twice, stepping closer to make sure your eyes weren’t playing tricks.
It was him.
The man from your dreams.
Your stomach dropped, pulse quickening in your throat. He’d been here all along, hanging silently in those frames, watching you from the moment you arrived.
You forced a shaky laugh, brushing stray hair from your face. “Okay. Creepy coincidence. It’s just- just the power of suggestion, right?” you told yourself, trying to sound convinced. “You saw the portrait before bed, your brain mashed it into a dream. Simple.”
The portrait didn’t answer. Behind you, the stove hissed. And for the briefest moment — just before you turned off the heat — you thought you heard a low voice whisper near your ear, soft and familiar “Good morning, my bride.”
You froze mid-breath.. again, every hair on your neck standing up. The voice was right there. Close enough that you could feel the faintest whisper of air brush past your ear. Your body reacted before your brain did.
“WHAT THE!” You spun around with the frying spatula raised like a weapon, egg still clinging to the edge. “WHO’S THERE?! I SWEAR I’LL- I’LL FLIP YOU TO HELL!!”
“Please don’t,” came a calm, almost amused voice from somewhere behind you. It wasn’t echoing, wasn’t hollow — it sounded real. Too real. “You’ll stain the walls with yolk, and I quite like our kitchen.”
Your eyes darting around the empty room. No one. Nothing. Just the faint sound of your pan still sizzling. Your heart hammered against your ribs. “Who- who said that?” Silence. Then, softly: “Jun.”
You blinked. “Jun..? What? Huh- ha?!” A small pause, then a low hum that almost sounded like a chuckle. “So you can hear me. That’s good.”
Your grip tightened on the spatula. “Okay. Either I’m losing it, or I’m being haunted by a polite ghost who cares about kitchen hygiene.” “Haunted?” Jun sounded genuinely offended. “That’s a rather cruel word for a husband, don’t you think?”
You gawked at the air. “Excuse me- husband?!” “Yes.” His tone softened, almost fond. “You’ve been wearing my ring.” You glanced down — and nearly dropped the spatula. On your left hand, glinting faintly in the sunlight, was a thin silver band. You had no idea when it got there.
“Oh hell no,” you whispered, yanking it off. “This is not happening.” Jun’s laugh was gentle, teasing. “You always say that. I miss hearing from you.”
“What- no, no, no! Don’t gaslight me, Casper!” “That’s not my name.” “I don’t care!” you shouted at the air. “You-! Get out of my house! Out! Whatever supernatural lease you think you have here, it’s over!”
“I’m afraid it’s not,” he said lightly. “This house is also mine.. and to you.” You dragged a hand down your face, spatula still clutched tight. “Great. Fantastic. I move into a cursed house, and my new roommate is a ghost husband with boundary issues.”
There was a low, almost bashful chuckle. “You weren’t complaining last night.” You froze, eyes wide. “Excuse me?” But the voice didn’t answer this time — just a faint, amused hum that faded into the creak of the old walls.
You pointed the spatula at the ceiling. “Don’t you dare ghost-laugh at me, Jun!” Somewhere, you swore you heard the faintest echo of a grin in his voice, that made you drop your spatula “You’re cute when you’re angry, my bride.”
—
You sat at the kitchen counter, laptop open, breakfast cold. The spatula still lay on the floor where you’d dropped it mid-crisis. Your phone buzzed beside your plate. You snatched it up like a lifeline.
[Group chat: “Emergency Life Updates (aka Therapy)]
Y/N: besties i think my house is haunted
Hao 😈: LMAOOOO it’s been 3 days, that’s a record. what happened suddenly??
Y/N: some man’s voice called me his wife while i was making eggs
Min 😵💫: ..was he hot at least???
Y/N: I DON’T KNOW I DIDN’T EVEN SEE HIM
Min 😵💫: so u married a ghost sight unseen 💀 bold of u
Y/N: IM NOT MARRIED
Hao 😈: sure kinky mf who’s writing a novel exactly with that plot, i think u manifested it loll
Y/N: also i think he’s a victorian ghost level polite. kept saying “my bride” like bro calm down
Min 😵💫: LMFAO STOPPPP this is going in my notes. “haunted by horny regency ghost”
Y/N: NO 😭😭
Hao 😈: did u check the portraits u sent me? maybe he’s one of those men 👀
Y/N: that’s the thing. IT’S HIM.
Hao 😈: oh.
Min 😵💫: …babe.
Hao 😈: are u sure ur not just having like, a super vivid lucid dream? u do write romance for a living.
Y/N: im literally wide awake and my ghost just argued with me about kitchen cleanliness
Hao 😈: sounds husband material to me. when’s the wedding??
Min 😵💫: more like when was the wedding LMAOOO
You groaned, burying your face in your hands. “Why are my friends like this,” you muttered aloud. Why is Mingyu missing out of all times.. Seokmin and Minghao are no help. From somewhere down the hall, a familiar voice replied, low and teasing, “Are you in distress?”
You shrieked and nearly dropped your phone. “HAO HE’S HERE AGAIN.”
Hao 😈: ok listen before u start performing an exorcism, record it. i want receipts.
Y/N: u want me to RECORD THE DEMON?
Hao 😈: for science.
Y/N: i hate you.
You peeked over your shoulder, heart pounding. “Jun?” “I’m here,” came the smooth reply, closer now. “You don’t need to shout, my love.” You stiffened. “Don’t call me that!” “I can’t,” he said softly, like it was the saddest truth in the world. “You’re all I have left.”
The words hung in the air, so gentle it almost made you forget the absurdity of the moment. Almost. You typed one last message with shaky fingers.
Y/N: ok yeah maybe the ghost husband is kinda sad and not bad
Min 😵💫: so u admit he’s hot
Y/N: BLOCKED.
You set your phone down, exhaling deeply. “Okay.. Jun,” you muttered, scanning the empty room. “If we’re really doing this ghost tenant thing, why are you still here?” A quiet laugh brushed your ear like wind.
“Devotion. It ties me to the house.. to you.” You groaned. “Oh my god. He’s poetic too.”
It started the same way it had the last two nights. The soft creak of floorboards. The faint shift of weight on the mattress. The air cooling around you as if someone had opened a window. You didn’t move this time.
“Jun,” you whispered into the dark. “You’re here again, aren’t you?” Silence, then “I always am.” His voice came from beside you, smooth as velvet, threaded with something ancient. “You sleep so restlessly when I’m not.” “I sleep restlessly because there’s a ghost in my bed,” you muttered, sitting up halfway.
“Do you even.. sleep?” He chuckled, the sound low and fond. “No. Not anymore.” You exhaled through your nose, squinting into the faint light spilling through the curtains. “Okay, let’s try this again. Who are you, Jun?”
“I’ve told you,” he said gently. “I am your husband.” You rolled your eyes. “That’s not an answer. A name and a marital claim don’t explain why I wake up sore, by the way.” A pause. His voice softened, almost guilty. “I haven’t touched you without your consent.”
You arched a brow toward the darkness. “Really? Because my sore thighs say otherwise.” “I swear it.” His tone deepened, steady and earnest. “Your body aches from something else — the remnants of the bond. The house.. it remembers. And through it, so does your body.”
“The house remembers?” you repeated, half a scoff, half a laugh. “Jun, that’s not- that’s not even science. That’s..” “Magic,” he finished for you, quiet but unyielding.
You stared at the shadows for a long moment. “You expect me to believe that I’m some reincarnated bride living in a haunted love nest?” “I don’t expect you to believe,” he murmured. “Only to listen.”
Your throat tightened — something about the way he said it felt real. Too real. You tried to sound casual. “Then why are you here? Why can’t you just.. move on? Find peace, cross the afterlife, whatever ghosts are supposed to do.”
A silence. Then the faintest brush of a cold fingertip against your wrist — hesitant, reverent. “Because my peace was buried with you.” You froze. “You’ve got the wrong girl,” you whispered, voice trembling despite yourself.
“Perhaps,” Jun said softly. “But tell me, why do you wake up with my name on your lips?” You blinked, stunned. “I- I don’t.” “You do,” he said simply. There was no arrogance in it, only sorrow.
You fell quiet for a moment, staring at the darkness that felt far too alive. “You really didn’t do anything?” “No,” he said, and this time his voice was gentle enough to make you believe him. “Only kissed you when you were dreaming. You looked so lonely.”
Your heart squeezed. “That’s still technically not consent.” He laughed quietly, the sound curling through the air like smoke. “Then I’ll ask properly next time.”
You sighed, lying back down. “There’s not going to be a next time.” “I said that once too,” he murmured. You pulled the blanket over your face, trying to hide your smile. “You’re so dramatic for someone dead.”
“I was dramatic before I died,” he countered, teasing now. “You said you liked it.” You turned to where you thought he was, whispering, “You talk too much.” “And you listen too little.”
Somewhere between his chuckle and your quiet hum of annoyance, your eyes slipped closed. The bed dipped slightly, just enough for you to feel the outline of someone lying beside you. And though you told yourself you didn’t believe in ghosts, you still whispered, just before sleep took you,
“Goodnight, Jun.” A hand — cold but gentle — brushed your hair back. “Goodnight, Y/N.”
—
You pushed the front door open with your shoulder, grocery bags cutting into your fingers, sunlight spilling in behind you.
“Jun!” you called out, voice echoing across the empty living room. “I was literally talking to you outside for ten minutes simply about if you do eat or not, and then I realised-” You paused dramatically, setting the bags down on the counter. “You weren’t even there!”
There was a soft hum from somewhere near the hallway — warm, amused. “Why are you talking to yourself outside?” Jun said. You glared toward the voice. “Don’t turn this on me. The delivery guy looked at me like I’d lost my mind. I thought you’re with me. This past few weeks, you never leave me alone”
He chuckled quietly, the sound wrapping around you. “Would you rather I scare other people half to death? Also, I can’t help you outside anyway”
You huffed, unpacking the paper bags. “Still. You could’ve… I don’t know. Come with me? You never go out.” There was a pause — not defensive, just words. “I can’t,” he said simply. Your hands stilled on a carton of milk. “Can’t?”
“The house is my boundary,” he explained. “My anchor. I’m bound here — by the curse, by memory, by you. Step beyond the threshold and I start to fade.” You turned toward the sound, heart softening. “That’s awful.”
“It’s tolerable,” he murmured. “I was alone here for so long before you came.” Your chest tightened. “Jun..” He spoke again, light but wistful. “Besides, I like it here. You fill the rooms with noise and scent and warmth. It’s almost enough to feel alive again.”
You rolled your eyes — to hide the sudden pang of emotion. “You sound like a bad poem.” “I was a bad poet once,” he teased. “You threw my drafts into the fire.” You froze mid-unpacking. “What?” He laughed, low and delighted. “Ah — perhaps that was another life.”
You shook your head, smiling despite yourself. “You’re insufferable.” “I missed being called that,” he said softly.
The quiet after that settled gently, like a comfortable silence between old friends, or husband and wife..? You busied yourself with arranging the vegetables, pretending you didn’t notice the way the air thickened slightly around you — Jun standing close, unseen but undeniably there.
“Hey,” you said after a moment. “If you can’t go out.. what do you do all day when I’m gone?” “I watch,” he said simply. “Creepy.” “Protectively,” he amended, amused. “I walk through the halls. Listen to the wind. Sometimes I read over your shoulder when you’re writing.”
You shot a look toward the dark corner of the kitchen. “That’s definitely creepy.” “Then perhaps,” he said, voice warm with laughter, “I’ll keep doing it.” You couldn’t help it — you laughed too, shaking your head. “You’re impossible, Jun.”
“I was told I made an impossible husband,” he said, tone dipping into something soft, almost nostalgic. “But I like to think I’m improving.” You ignored the way your heart skipped. “Keep the flattery for someone you can actually touch.”
Another pause — this one quieter, heavier. Then: “I can touch you.. just to remind you,” he murmured.
You swallowed, suddenly unsure what to say. The light from the window dimmed as clouds rolled in outside, shadows crawling gently across the old wood floor. You pretended to focus on your groceries again, voice light but trembling slightly.
“Well,” you said, “if you’re going to touch me, at least help me unpack next time.” A faint rustle answered you — the bag of rice shifting slightly on its own, sliding closer to the cabinet.
You froze. Then laughed, a soft disbelieving sound. “Show-off.” From behind you hear his amused whisper, low and tender “Only for my wife.”
—
It was past midnight, the kind of hour where even the wind outside seemed half-asleep. The house was wrapped in silence, save for the soft rustle of paper as you turned another page of your book. The lamp beside your bed cast a warm circle of light that didn’t quite reach the corners of the room, where the dark always seemed to breathe.
You could feel him there. “Jun,” you said quietly, without looking up. “Are you here?” A pause — then that familiar voice, soft and close. “I’m always here.”
You smiled faintly, still reading. “That’s supposed to be comforting, right?” “I suppose that depends,” he murmured, “on whether you believe I’m haunting you or protecting you.”
You tilted your head toward the voice. “You keep saying you’re not haunting me, but it sure feels like it sometimes.” “Would a haunt make your tea every morning?” he teased gently.
“That was you?” You blinked. “I thought I was just.. sleepwalking.” “I can’t do much,” he said quietly, “but I can move little things when the night is kind to me.”
You shut the book slowly, the words blurring. “Why do you do it?” “Because you forget to take care of yourself when you write,” he said simply. “You get lost. I don’t want to see you vanish the way I did.”
Your breath caught. “The way you did?” He didn’t answer at first — only silence, deep and heavy, filled the room. Then, softly “I loved too fiercely. Enough to tether my soul here.” You looked toward the darkness, where you thought his voice had come from. “For her? Your wife?”
A faint laugh, like wind through old glass. “For you.” The room suddenly felt colder, your heart lurching against your ribs. “Jun, that’s-” “I know,” he interrupted gently. “It doesn’t make sense. Not to you. Not yet.”
You pulled the blanket tighter around you, eyes scanning the space though you knew you wouldn’t see him. “You sound like a tragic novel waiting to happen.” “Perhaps that’s why you were drawn here,” he said softly. “Writers always return to unfinished stories.”
You exhaled, half a sigh, half a shaky laugh. “You make everything sound like fate.” “Isn’t it?” His voice was closer now — you swore you felt the faintest brush of fingers along your hair, so gentle you might’ve imagined it.
“You should sleep,” he murmured. “The world outside can wait.” “Are you staying?” you asked, eyes drooping. “I never left.” You smiled faintly, a small surrender, before your eyelids fluttered closed.
Jun stayed — unseen but so achingly near, his presence hovering like a heartbeat in the dark. And when your breathing evened out, his whisper came, softer than a sigh “You once told me you’d find me again. I suppose you always keep your promises.”
The cafe was the kind that looked like a Pinterest board come to life — soft lighting, fern leaves drooping over every table, the faint hum of an espresso machine mixing with lo-fi music. You sat by the window with your laptop open, pretending to edit your manuscript while your three best friends interrogated you like you were on trial.
“So,” Hao started, sipping his iced latte dramatically, “how’s married life?” You choked on your drink. “What- excuse me?” Min snorted. “Don’t play dumb. You literally sent us a picture of another portrait and said, He’s kinda hot for a dead guy. Don’t tell me you’re not crushing on the house ghost.”
You pressed your fingers against your temple. “I was joking!” “Were you, though?” Gyu cut in, deadpan as ever. “You also texted last night that someone made you tea again. Either you have a kind spirit or a trespasser with excellent domestic skills.”
Seokmin gasped theatrically. “Or maybe both!” You groaned, burying your face in your hands. “He’s a ghost.” “Then why are you blushing?” Minghao leaned forward with a grin. “Look at her, Seok- she’s blushing!”
“I am not!” you hissed, but your cheeks burned hotter than the cappuccino in front of you. “He’s just..” You stopped, realising how ridiculous it would sound to admit that Jun talked to you every night. That he teased you, cared for you, comforted you in ways that humans can’t even do.
Mingyu leaned back, stirring his coffee lazily. “You’re acting like you’ve got a boyfriend who only comes out after dark.” You glared at him. “He’s not my boyfriend.” Seokmin propped his chin on his hands. “Not yet.”
Hao laughed so hard he nearly spilled his drink. “God, this is gonna be one of her novels, isn’t it? Lonely writer moves into a haunted house, ghost falls in love with her, she says it’s a curse, but he says it’s destiny-”
“Stop quoting my life!” you interrupted, waving your spoon like a weapon. “You guys are the worst.” “We’re the realists,” Min said, still smirking. “You just happen to be living inside your own plot twist.”
For a moment, they all laughed, that kind of carefree, echoing laugh that only happens in midday cafes. You joined in too, trying to drown out the strange warmth you felt under your ribs.
Your laughter stuttered, your eyes darting toward the window. The glass reflected only you and your friends — no one else. You sometimes think every time you’re outside, is he bored at home? Is he okay? That quiet presence. A part of you just wants to stay at home.
“See?” Min teased, nudging you. “She’s spacing out. Probably thinking about her ghost husband.” You forced a laugh, looking back at him, heart racing. “Yeah,” you said softly. “Something like that.”
The cafe hummed with lazy afternoon chatter. You sat across from Minghao, Seokmin, and Mingyu, who somehow turned what was supposed to be a casual catch-up into a full-blown roast session.
“You’re into ghosts now, huh? So that’s why you’re not dating anyone alive?” Hao said, chuckling. You jabbed a straw at him. “Minghao, I swear to God-” Gyu raised an eyebrow. “What’s his name again?” You hesitated. The word caught on your tongue. “Jun.”
All three of them stared for a beat before Min smirked. “Jun? You even named him?” “I didn’t name him!” you said quickly. “That’s what he-” You froze. “That’s what his real wife, maybe, called him.”
“Right.” Mingyu nodded, clearly unconvinced. “So this ghost talks to you, cooks for you, and sleeps beside you-” “He doesn’t sleep beside me!” you blurted, heat rising to your cheeks. “He just- he-” “Uh-huh.” Seokmin grinned. “You’re doomed, man. She’s in deep.”
You tried to laugh it off, but your pulse was unsteady. Because later, when you were back home and the house greeted you with that quiet stillness, the laughter from earlier still echoed faintly in your head — you called Jun, yet no one was responding.
You frowned. He always answered when you came home. Even just a faint, teasing whisper — You’re late, little human. But tonight, nothing. Just the quiet hum of air through the vents and the faint ticking of the antique clock in the foyer.
“Okay,” you muttered to yourself, forcing a laugh. “So we’re doing the ghost-silent-treatment thing now? Cute.” You busied yourself in the kitchen, slamming a cabinet or two a little louder than necessary. Still nothing. The quiet felt heavier now — not the peaceful kind, but the kind that watches you.
“Jun.” You called again, voice sharper. “If you’re mad at me for something, at least say it. Don’t just.. vanish.” The air stirred faintly behind you, like a breath on your neck. You turned, but the space was empty. A shiver ran down your arms.
“Come on. Don’t tell me you’re sulking because I went out with my friends.” You rolled your eyes, more to convince yourself than anything. “You’re not seriously mad, right?” Still nothing. You exhaled. “Fine. Silent treatment it is. You win. I’ll just talk to myself then.”
You started rambling, pacing the living room like a stand-up comic trying to fill dead air. “For the record, they’re friends. Normal, breathing, alive friends who buy me coffee and don’t haunt my house.”
The chandelier above flickered faintly. You stopped. “Did I strike a nerve there?” A faint hum of energy prickled across your skin — the sign that he was listening, even if he didn’t want to admit it.
You sighed, softer now. “You know, it’s kind of unfair. You disappear when I talk to other people, but then you act like I’m supposed to just stay here waiting for you to materialise out of thin air.” The silence stretched.
You pressed your lips together. “I’m not yours, Jun.”
That’s when you heard it — not a loud voice, but something that slid into your mind like a thought that wasn’t yours. “Aren’t you?” You froze. The temperature dropped suddenly, enough for your breath to fog in front of you.
“You wear my ring,” his voice murmured now, closer, though he still wasn’t visible. “You live in my house. You sleep in my bed. You call my name every night without realising it.”
You spun toward the sound. “You didn’t answer when I came home. You scared me.” “I know.” The reply was soft, low, guilty — but underneath it, something darker stirred. “You talked about me with them,” Jun continued, voice drifting between the walls, nearer and nearer. “You laughed. You blushed. Did you enjoy that?”
“Jun,” you warned, heart pounding, “how did you even-? Don’t do this.” He let out a breath of what almost sounded like a laugh. “You think I don’t feel it? Every time someone says your name, every time you smile at someone else, it burns.”
Your pulse quickened, a strange mix of fear and warmth tightening in your chest. “You’re not even alive, Jun. What are you implying?” “Maybe not,” he whispered. “But you still make me feel it.”
You swallowed hard, staring at the faint outline of his form starting to shimmer near the hallway mirror — not solid yet, just smoke and memory. “Then don’t disappear like that again,” you said quietly. “If you can feel something, then talk to me. Don’t just.. leave.”
For a heartbeat, nothing. Then the faintest smile crossed his half-formed face. “You missed me.” You scoffed. “You were sulking.” “I was angry,” he corrected. “Because for a moment, I thought maybe you preferred your men.” You looked at the mirror — at his faint, sorrowful expression behind your reflection.
“They're not my men.. they’re my friends. You’re impossible,” you whispered. “And you,” Jun said softly, “are the only thing I’ve wanted in centuries.”
The room stilled. The air grew warmer. You felt the ghost of fingers trace the outline of your wrist — not cold, but not quite warm either. Just real enough to make you tremble.
Jun's reflection leaned closer, his gaze locked on your lips. His hands moved from your wrist to either side of your head, trapping you gently between his ghostly palms. “Say you're mine,” he whispered, his voice low and urgent.
You didn’t answer. He held your hands and pulled you near the mirror, “Do you need to see me, for you to talk?” he said, a little annoyed, you’re not sure whether to you or to himself. You looked directly at the mirror, memorising his ethereal face.
His hands framed your face, thumbs gently brushing your cheeks as he stared into your eyes, making you look at his direction directly, nothing, you can see nothing. But you could feel his presence, his breath ghosting over your neck. “I'm not in the mirror, my wife” he murmured, voice coming from both directions. “I'm here.”
The ghostly hands slid from your cheeks to the back of your neck, fingers tangling in your hair. He leaned in closer, his translucent lips hovering just above yours. “Let me kiss you,” he whispered against your mouth. “Please.”
You smiled.. “only because you asked this time.” Jun's reflection smiled, his eyes crinkling at the corners. He loved when you teased him, even a little. It meant you weren't scared of him. “Only because I asked?” He repeated softly, his voice ghosting over your lips. “You admitted before that you did without my consent.”
His expression turned serious, one hand moving to gently grasp your chin, turning your face slightly as if preparing to kiss you but stopping himself. “I’m sorry. That was my mistake.” His thumb brushed over your bottom lip. “This time.. will be different.”
He stared at you intently, his hands steady and gentle. “I'll ask for permission every time. I'll wait for your agreement. And if you say no, I'll stop.” His voice was quiet, sincere. His eyes searched yours, looking for understanding.
You parted your lips slightly to answer. “Then go on.” That was all Jun needed. He surged forward, capturing your mouth softly at first. He tested your response — one hand cupped your cheek possessively while the other slid around your waist. You hummed softly, making him deeper. Now this is weird but also kinda hot.. I’m kissing the air.
Jun’s kiss grew more insistent, his tongue gently probing your mouth. He tasted sweet, like a phantom memory of honey and mint. His hands roamed from your waist downwards until they gripped onto your hips firmly pulling you closer towards him. You can feel him.
You gasped against his mouth as he pulled you closer, his cold hands gripping your hips tightly. Jun took advantage of your open mouth, deepening the kiss even further by pushing his tongue inside. He tangled it with yours, exploring your mouth thoroughly as if he was trying to memorise the taste of you. “Fucking hell, you taste like heaven.”
“For someone who’s dead, you curse so strongly.” You said laughing in between the kisses. In the mirror, you can see him smirking against your lips, his voice husky and amused. “Even ghosts can curse when they’re kissing someone they’ve been longing for.” His hands slid down to your thighs lifting them slightly as if trying to pull them around his waist.
You giggled, the sound muffled against his mouth. Jun groaned, the vibration sending shivers down your spine. He pulled harder, attempting to wrap your legs around his unseen waist. The mirror grew warmer, fogging up completely as their kiss grew more intense, more desperate.
“Jun.. my imaginations may be wild, yet I can’t do this to someone I can only see in the mirror”
Jun’s smirk faltered. For a second, his reflection looked as though it was flickering — as if even his smile could no longer hold shape. Then he stepped back, his eyes dark and distant. “You can’t see me because you’re not supposed to.”
Before you could ask what that meant, his hand — cold but firm — grasped your wrist. The mirror rippled like water as he pulled you through the hallway. You stumbled after him, feet barely touching the ground, until you reached a door you had never opened before. It was the last one at the end of the corridor at the third floor — carved oak, locked since the day you moved in.
“Jun, wait-” But the door creaked open on its own, revealing a dimly lit room heavy with the scent of old wood and faded perfume. Dust particles drifted lazily in the air, but beneath the decay, everything was preserved. A canopy bed stood at the center, its sheets neat, untouched. A wedding veil lay folded at the pillow’s edge.
“This room” you whispered. “I never-” “Because you weren’t meant to remember it.”
Jun’s voice was quieter now, stripped of playfulness, stripped of warmth. He stood by the window, you can’t even see his figure under the pale afternoon light. You could see the garden though — but you know his eyes were solid, endless, tired.
“You walk through this house like a stranger because you are one. But once, you weren’t.” Your chest tightened. “What are you saying?” He looked at you, a faint tremor in his hands. “You can’t see me because you can’t even remember who I am.”
The words felt like a knife — sharp, but dull in disbelief. “That’s impossible. I just moved here. I just-” Jun shook his head. “No. You came back.” He stepped closer. His voice softened, trembling with a kind of desperation you’d never heard from him before.
“You promised me you would, before you died.” Your breath caught. “Died?” “Before you died,” he said again, slower this time, as if tasting every syllable. “You said you would find me. You said, ‘Wait for me. Even if it takes lifetimes, I’ll come back.’”
You blinked rapidly, a faint ringing in your ears. Your mind refused to accept it — but your body remembered something. A pulse in your fingertips. A flash of a wedding ring. A man’s laughter. A voice saying My Jun.
He continued, eyes glimmering like glass. “I remembered everything. That’s my curse. I have lived every life remembering you — who you were, how you died, how you looked at me the day we said our vows. Every damn lifetime.”
The room felt like it was spinning. You staggered back a step and looked around the room, dizzy. That’s where you realise, this room is the real master bedroom, with another portrait.. where Jun and the same woman from downstairs. The difference is that you could see her face clearly now.
A face that is very familiar to you. A face that you see everyday. It’s your face. It’s you. “No.. Jun, that can’t be real. That’s-” “You’ve always said that,” he whispered. “Every life. Every time we meet, you never remember at first. But I always do. And every time, I find you.”
You shook your head, heart pounding painfully. “Then why am I here? Why this house?” “Because it’s where we lived,” Jun said simply. “Where I built a home for you. And where I died waiting when you didn’t come back.”
Your lips parted, but no sound came out. He looked around the room, his gaze softening with memory. “They called it devotion. I called it punishment. I’ve been bound here, in this house, between life and death, waiting for you. Every creak of the floorboards, every breeze through the window — it’s been you I’ve been calling.”
You sank onto the edge of the bed, the veil beside you brushing against your hands. “Then.. I died?” Jun nodded slowly. “You did. In this life, you lost control of your car the day before our wedding anniversary. You were coming here.” He knelt before you, his touch barely grazing your knee, but warm now, almost human.
“You survived,” he whispered. “But you lost your memory. You forgot me.” Tears burned your eyes before you even realised you were crying. “So that’s why I can’t see you. Because part of me still refuses to remember.”
Jun smiled sadly, brushing your tears away with fingers that faded halfway through the motion. “You can’t see me because you don’t believe in me anymore. And without your belief, I’m barely here.”
You tried reaching out to touch him, his hands guiding your hands to his face — his cheek, his hair, anything solid — but your hand passed through his face like mist.
Until it didn’t.
Warmth bloomed under your touch. Solid. Living. Real. You gasped softly, feeling your heartbeat stumble as Jun’s features sharpened in front of you — the faint curve of his smile, the mole beneath his eye, the soft slope of his nose. He was no longer just a shimmer in the mirror; he was right there.
He was beautiful. And familiar. He’s divine.
The air pulsed once and then everything tilted. The floor beneath your feet dissolved, colours shifting, walls melting into light. You blinked and suddenly, the world changed.
Sunlight streamed through the canopy of white sakura trees, their petals falling like snow. You stood under an arch woven with lilies and pearls, your hands trembling as Jun slid a ring onto your finger.
“Do you promise to haunt me even if I die first?” you teased, your voice catching from laughter and tears. Jun’s lips curved into that same half-smile you’d later dream about. “I’d rather haunt the world than live in it without you.”
You threw your head back, laughing softly, pressing your forehead to his. “That sounds like a curse.”He smiled against your lips. “Then I’ll gladly be cursed.”
—
You stood in front of the house you live in now — only brighter, newer. Boxes piled high on the porch, sunlight filtering through the vines climbing the walls. Jun appeared behind you, wrapping his arms around your waist. “Our forever home,” he said, kissing your temple.
“It’s old,” you murmured. “And it creaks.” “So do we, sometimes.” You laughed, swatting at him. “That’s not romantic.”
He leaned closer, whispering, “Then let me try again.” He kissed your shoulder gently. “Our love will creak too, old, stubborn, and impossible to let go.”
—
The sound of clinking porcelain. You sat at the wooden kitchen table, hair still messy from sleep, while Jun poured you tea with that same careful grace he did everything with.
He kissed the back of your hand. “You always forget breakfast when you write.” “And you always act like I’ll starve in two hours,” you said, rolling your eyes playfully.
“Because you will,” he replied, sliding the cup toward you. “My wife, the novelist who forgets she has a body.” You smiled, reaching out to tug him closer by the tie. “You talk too much hubby.”
He chuckled. “I love you” you smiled “I love you more”
—
The clock struck midnight, the house silent except for the faint hum of the record player. You were in your pajamas, barefoot on the hardwood floor. Jun appeared behind you, holding out his hand.
“Dance with me,” he said simply. “There’s no music.” “There’s us.”
You laughed, slipping your hand into his. He spun you once, your laughter echoing in the dim light. The two of you swayed lazily, the world shrinking to the warmth of his hands on your waist and the sound of your quiet breaths syncing together.
—
Thunder boomed outside, rain drumming against the windows. You were both huddled in front of the fireplace, wrapped in a single blanket. “Tell me something true,” you murmured, tracing his palm with your finger.
Jun’s gaze softened. “When I first saw you, I thought I had seen you before. Like in a dream that I’d already lived.” “And did you?” you asked.
His silence was long, his thumb brushing your cheek. “Maybe I’ll tell you in another life.” You frowned. “That’s unfair.” “Then stay with me in this one,” he whispered, voice low, almost pleading.
Both of you laughed, as the warmth between you two became one, cuddling at the stormy weather at the bed.
—
“Jun, stop reading over my shoulder!” you groaned, swatting him lightly with your pen. “I can’t help it,” he said, grinning. “Your characters sound like us.” “They do not.”
“They do. ‘The stubborn man who won’t take no for an answer,’” he quoted dramatically, pointing to the page. “That’s clearly me.” You threw a crumpled paper at him. “Then I’ll kill your character next.”
“Then I’ll haunt you,” he teased, eyes glimmering. You rolled your eyes. “Then I’ll marry you out of guilt.” “Perfect. My plan worked.”
—
Sunlight peeked through sheer curtains, painting soft stripes across the bed. Jun’s arm was draped lazily around your waist, his chest rising and falling behind you.
“Jun,” you murmured sleepily. “You’re heavy.” He chuckled, half-asleep. “You used to like it.” “I changed my mind.” He buried his face into your hair. “Too late. You married me.”
You sighed, smiling to yourself. “You’re impossible.” He kissed your shoulder. “So are you. That’s why it works.”
—
The dining room was dim except for candles you hastily lit on a lopsided cake. Jun entered the room and froze, eyes widening as you yelled, “Happy birthday!” “I told you not to-”
“You think I listen to you?” you said, grinning. “Make a wish before I eat it all.” He stared at you for a moment before blowing the candles out. “I already did.”
You blinked. “What’d you wish for?” He leaned in, his lips brushing your ear. “To live long enough to grow old with you.” You laughed, rolling your eyes. “That’s so cheesy.”
But he smiled softly. “Cheesy things are true things.”
—
The smell of oil paint filled the room. You sat by the window, sunlight catching in your hair while Jun worked on a portrait of you. “You’re taking forever,” you complained, swinging your legs.
He looked up from the canvas, smirking. “You move too much.” “I’m bored.” “Then talk to me.” You tilted your head. “What should I say?”
“Say something I can remember,” he said. You smiled. “I love you.” He paused, brush mid-air. “That’ll do.”
The memories collided with reality, your breath ragged as you stumbled back. The house, the mirror, the kitchen — everything shimmered and settled again into the dim golden light of dusk.
You were crying. Not from fear, but from the weight of recognition. “Jun,” you whispered, your hands trembling as they cupped his face. “I remember everything.”
Jun smiled through the tears shining in his eyes. His thumb brushed the corner of your lips like he’d done a thousand times before. “You came back to me.”
Your lips trembled. “And you waited.” He nodded once, a soft, broken laugh escaping him. “Every lifetime.”
His smile turned into a hungry kiss as he pressed you against the old bed where you shared countless moments together you’ve forgotten. His hands roamed over familiar curves remembered through centuries of waiting — for this exact moment where memory returned fully between two souls meant to be entwined forever.
His hands trailed down to your waist, pulling you flush against him as he kissed along your jawline. Suddenly, he pressed a cold finger to your neck, activating a necromantic chill that made you gasp and arch into him. “Do you remember my touch?” He whispered huskily
A wicked smile spread across his face as he remembered your kinks. He reached over to the bedside table and lit a candle, the flame flickering to life in the dim room. He started playing with temperatures, his breath, his touch being entirely cold, and the candle.. the wax. He dribbled hot wax onto your collarbone, watching as you gasped and your eyes fluttered closed. He knew exactly what you liked.
He kissed down your neck, his mouth alternately hot and cold like fire and ice. “Wife.. you taste so good.” His lips trailed open-mouthed kisses along your collarbone with wax on it as he slowly unbuttoned your shirt, revealing more skin for him to worship.
One hand continued the slow torture of dripping hot wax onto your skin while the other hand slipped under your bra, teasing your nipple with cold fingertips. “Cold or hot first?” He didn't wait for an answer, switching between hot wax poured onto your chest and his ice-cold hands caressing your skin.
This leaves you shivering and gasping beneath his touch. He unhooked your bra, throwing it somewhere as he continued his assault on your senses, his mouth claiming one hardening nipple while his fingers played with the other.
Junhui worshipped your body like he’d been starved for centuries — because he had been. His mouth trailed down to your stomach, kissing and licking each inch of skin he uncovered. He unbuttoned your pants slowly, almost reverently, pulling them down your legs along with your underwear.
He spread your legs gently, his cold hands contrasting with the heat of your core. He leaned down, blowing a cool breath over your clit before he spoke. “I remember everything about you. Every moan, every gasp, every shiver.”
“And I remember how you used to drive me crazy with that mouth of yours.” You spread your legs wider, teasing him deliberately. Jun groaned, pressing a freezing cold kiss directly onto your clit. “Stop teasing me with your knowledge of my body,”
His cold tongue replaced his lips, licking a slow path up your slit before sucking your clit into his mouth. He used his fingers to spread you open further, his ice-cold digits pushing inside you suddenly. You gasped and bucked against him. “Uhmm-hmm jun..” “You used to call me hubby.” He murmured.
“My hubby,” He growled against your sensitive folds, his fingers curling inside you while his tongue worked overtime on your clit. He remembered every spot that made you moan hubby. His other hand snaked up to pinch one of your nipples hard, making you arch into him.
“You used to grab my hair and fuck my face when I do this..” He demonstrated by sucking hard on your clit while pushing three cold fingers deep inside you, curling them exactly how you used to love. “Ugh! Fuck-”
You instantly wrapped your legs around his head, gripping his hair tightly and riding his face as you moaned his name like a prayer. Jun moaned loudly, his fingers freezing cold inside you as he remembered how much he loved being used by you.
“God, you always ride my face hard when I touch you like this.” He added another finger, spreading them wide inside you, hitting your favourite spot. He blew cold air onto your clit again, watching your body tightly coil with remembered pleasure.
“Stop reminiscing,” You pushed his head away sharply. He laughed softly, his mouth wet with your arousal. “No more remembering how you used to bounce on my face?” He teased, trying to pull your hips back down onto his mouth. You smacked his head lightly, “Asshole.”
He caught your hips sharply, pulling you back. He spread your legs wide, feasting on you like a starving man. His fingers still inside you, curving them perfectly as he ate you loudly, slurping and sucking your clit like it was his last meal.
Your body tightened like a bowstring as he remembered exactly how you liked it. Within minutes, you were crying out, your legs shaking as you came hard against his mouth. “Junhui- God! Aghh Oh my- fuck!”
He kept eating you through your orgasm, his cold fingers never stopping their relentless attack on that sweet spot inside you. He loved how you tasted, how you moaned his name like a dirty prayer. When your legs finally stopped shaking, he pulled away slowly, licking his lips.
He sat up, his face glistening with your juices. He wiped his mouth with the back of his hand, looking up at you with hooded eyes. “You taste even better than I remembered,” he said huskily. He spread his legs slightly, palming his hard, cold erection through his pants.
“My turn, hubby.”
You smirked and slowly removed his jacket and white collared shirt, revealing his perfectly sculpted abs. He lifted his hips so you could pull down his pants and boxers in one smooth motion. His massive, erect dick sprang free, slapping against his stomach with a wet smack.
His hands came up to grip your hair as you looked down at his length. He was already cold and hard, leaking pre-cum. “Take it in your mouth,” he ordered roughly, his Chinese accent thickening with desire. His hand tightened in your hair possessively. “Open Wen Y/N”
You spread your lips slowly, taking the tip of him into your hot mouth. He hissed sharply, his hips bucking slightly. “Damn it,” He muttered softly, watching your wet mouth stretch around him. “You used to deep throat like a pro.” He gripped your hair tighter, guiding you slightly.
His eyes rolled back as you suddenly took him deep into your throat without warning, your nose pressing against his balls. He let out a choked groan — “Fucking hell..” His hands tangled in your hair desperately as you started bobbing up and down rapidly, sucking hard “Shit.. shit- shit, you’re even better now!”
His cold dick throbbed in your mouth as you kept deepthroating him, your tongue pressing against the sensitive vein underneath. He could barely speak, his voice coming out strained “Fuck...fuck..fuck! Goddam- Ughh”
With a loud, muffled groan, he came down your throat, his hips jerking uncontrollably. You swallowed every drop before pulling off with a wet pop. He fell back onto the bed, panting heavily. “Still so noisy” You commented dryly, crawling up his body.
He wrapped his arms around you tightly, nuzzling into your neck and inhaling your scent. “Sure sure..” He murmured against your skin, his voice hoarse. “You’re the loud one. Always screaming my name.” He started kissing and sucking on your neck possessively. “My hubby.. still so good for me.”
He rolled you onto your back, covering your body with his. I can’t even see the ceiling. His cold hands gripped your wrists, pinning them above your head. His dark brown eyes bore into yours intensely. “Turns out, my wife gives even better head now. I wonder how else she’s improved.”
One hand slid under your thigh. “Spread for me, Y/N. Let me check if that tight hole still belongs to me only.” His voice was low and commanding.
He pushed your legs apart roughly, his cold dick already hardening again. I’m fucking a ghost. He’s so cold. He positioned himself at your entrance, rubbing the head against your sensitive spot. “You know what I love about this position?” He asked, his voice husky.
“What?” You barely said, “It lets me go deep,” He answered darkly, pushing your thighs back sharply and slamming inside you hard. He hit the bottom instantly, making you cry out loudly. “See?” He pulled back and thrust hard again, making you bounce on the bed. “Noisy.”
He started pounding into you relentlessly, the sound of skin slapping against skin filling the room along with your loud moans and cries. One hand remained on your wrist above your head holding it back while the other on your thighs “Fuck-” He groaned, “Too loud, my wife”
His thrusts became deeper and harder, hitting that spot inside you perfectly. Your loud moans turned into high-pitched screams as he fucked you brutally. “Shut up...shut up”
He slapped a hand over your mouth as you screamed during another deep thrust. “AHHH-” “Jesus,” He muttered against your neck, “You sound like a fucking porn star.” He bit down on your shoulder to muffle his own groan, still fucking you mercilessly.
Your world turned into a blur of cold hands gripping your body painfully, eyes glinting menacingly above you, and a ghostly cock pounding into you. You could feel every inch of him stretching you open, hitting depths you never knew existed. “Mmph..”
You felt possessed, fucked by a literal ghost who showed no mercy. His cold body slammed against yours relentlessly, making the headboard bang against the wall loudly. Your screams were echoing, spit dripping from the corners of your mouth.
Tears streamed down your face from the intense pleasure-pain as he hit your cervix with every thrust. Your nails scrambled against his back, leaving red marks on his pale skin. You felt like you were being claimed by a supernatural being, completely at his mercy. “Nghh!”
Your tears only seemed to fuel his hunger for you. He watched, mesmerised, as they spilled down your cheeks and dripped onto the pillow. “Adorable,” He groaned, his voice laced with dark desire. “My pretty wife crying while I fuck you stupid.”
Mid-thrust, an abrupt memory flashed through his mind — the candle he had lit earlier, still burning softly nearby. A wicked smirk crossed his ghostly face as an idea struck him. “Hold that thought..” He suddenly pulled out completely, leaving you empty and whimpering. “Don't move.”
He quickly reached the candle, dipping his cold fingers into the melted wax. The room fell silent except for your laboured breathing and soft sniffles. “I forgot you’re a ghost, and how you can’t feel pain.” He chuckled then looming over you with a sinister grin and wax-covered fingers. “Spread wider,” He ordered darkly. “Let's play a little game.”
Without warning, he pressed the warm wax against your sensitive entrance, pushing it inside you slowly. You gasped at the foreign feeling, your hole stretching to accommodate the wax. He added more, filling you up with the warm substance before snapping his fingers. “Cold now.” The wax instantly hardened inside you,
Leaving you with a feeling of extreme fullness and pressure. He pushed your legs back even further, until your knees were practically touching your ears. “Now, let's see how long this pretty little human can hold still while I fuck her with a frozen, wax-filled hole.”
He lined up his cock again, pushing the head against your entrance. He groaned as he slowly slid in, the hardened wax making you even tighter than before. “Goddamn,” He grunted, “You feel insane right now.”
With a sharp thrust, he buried himself balls-deep inside you. The sudden intrusion forced a loud, strangled moan from your throat. “Ahh..! F-fuck..!” You bucked your hips instinctively, only for the wax to shift inside you uncomfortably. “N-no...ahh- st-still..”
He wrapped a hand around your throat to hold you down as he started thrusting his hips slowly, each thrust causing the wax to grind against your prostate pleasurably. Your moans turned into broken whimpers as he fucked you with that unrelenting fullness. “Shh, my wife.. just take it”
He picked up the pace, his hips slapping against yours with wet smacks. The wax inside you began to melt slightly from the friction, creating a warm, sticky sensation that had you moaning uncontrollably. “Ahh..ahh...ahhh!”
Your loud, desperate moans sent him over the edge. He slammed into you one last time, hitting your prostate dead on as he came hard inside you. “FUCK!” He groaned loudly, his cock pulsing as he filled you with his hot cum. “HUBBY!” You screamed as you cream his cock as well inside.
He stayed buried inside you, his heavy breathing gradually slowing as he nuzzled against your neck. The melted wax and his release dripped out of you messily, coating your inner thighs. After a moment, he pulled out slowly, watching as more fluid followed. “Mmm”
You looked down at the mess between your legs, then back up at him with confused eyes. “How.. how are you cumming? You're a ghost” He smirked mischievously, “Ghost sex has its perks, wife. My spirit can still produce semen.”
“And trust me, it feels just as good as real cum would.” He chuckled softly, floating down to clean himself up with some tissues he got at the night stand. “Plus, being dead means I can fuck you for hours without getting tired.”
Your eyes widen, completely not understanding what happened just now, “can I get pregnant..? BY A GHOST?!”
He raised an eyebrow at you, then shook his head with a soft laugh. “No, Y/N. You can’t get pregnant from ghost sex.” He explained, “My spirit might produce semen, but it lacks the necessary components to impregnate anyone.”
“Oh ok,” you sighed, relieved. His smirk turned into a full-blown grin as he went back up to top you, hovering between your legs. “So basically, I can fill you up as much as I want, and there’s zero risk of an actual baby.” He leaned down to kiss your neck and the night was long.
The morning light slipped through the old lace curtains, pooling soft gold across the floorboards. The air was warmer than usual — almost gentle, like the house itself didn’t want to disturb you. You stirred under the sheets, your body still aching in ways you couldn’t explain, every muscle sore but tingling with something that felt like longing.
This bed feels more like me, than the other bed. I love to be back.
Jun sat beside the bed, his elbow resting on the headboard, chin on his hand, smiling softly. “You’re awake,” he murmured. His voice was as calm as ever, but there was something different in his gaze — something steady, quiet, almost resigned.
You groaned, trying to sit up. “Remind me to never let a ghost manhandle me again.” He laughed — that deep, melodic laugh that used to echo down the hallways when the house was still alive. “You weren’t complaining last night.”
“Yeah, well,” you muttered, cheeks warming as you tried to swing your legs off the bed, “that was before I realized ghosts apparently have stamina.”
Jun leaned forward, catching your wrist before you could stand. “Careful,” he said softly. “Don’t move too fast. You’re still sore.” You rolled your eyes. “I can handle it.”
“Of course you can,” he teased, standing and offering his hand anyway. “But let me handle you for once.” You took his hand without thinking — it felt solid now, warm even. The thought almost made your chest ache. “Since when did you get so smug?”
He smiled faintly, leading you toward the kitchen. “Since I got my wife back.” You froze mid-step, and for a moment, your breath caught. He said it so casually, like it was the most ordinary truth in the world. But something in his tone — that faint tremor beneath the calm — made your heart twist.
“Jun..” He only smiled again, brushing a stray strand of hair behind your ear. “Breakfast first. Heavy hearts need coffee.”
He made pancakes. You didn’t even think ghosts could cook, but the smell of butter and sugar filled the air, and when you asked how he did it, Jun just shrugged. “You said you missed the scent of home,” he said, flipping one perfectly golden. “So I borrowed it from your memory.” You laughed. “That’s creepy and romantic. I can’t decide which.” “Can’t it be both?”
The rest of the day passed in a strange sort of domestic bliss. You both cleaned the bedroom — or at least, you did, and Jun hovered around you, pretending to help but mostly teasing you. He brushed wax off your cheek, steadying you every time you leaned too close.
“Do you ever miss it?” you asked suddenly, when you caught him watching the sunlight through the window. He turned to you, smiling faintly. “Miss what?” “Being alive.” For a heartbeat, his smile faltered. Then he said quietly, “Not anymore. Everything I ever wanted.. is standing right here.”
You stared at him — the soft glow in his eyes, the way his voice trembled like he was holding back something heavy. You didn’t press. Instead, you reached out and brushed his hand — and this time, it felt entirely real.
Jun blinked, then smiled again, softer this time. “See? You’re getting stronger.” You frowned. “What’s that supposed to mean?” He didn’t answer right away. Instead, he leaned forward, pressing a light kiss to your forehead — his lips almost warm now. “It means you’ll be okay,” he whispered. “Even when I’m not here to make pancakes for you.”
You looked up sharply. “What are you talking about-” “Nothing,” he interrupted, smiling again — that same too-gentle, too-final smile. “Just saying.. ghosts like me don’t get forever. So promise me, if I ever fade away” He brushed your cheek with his thumb. “…don’t stop living.”
You didn’t know why, but the air grew heavier around you. The sunlight dimmed. You forced a laugh. “You’re being dramatic again.”
Jun chuckled softly, though his eyes were glistening in the light. “Maybe. But if being dramatic lets me stay in your memory, then I’ll take it.”
You stared at him for a long time, the ache in your chest tightening, and for a fleeting moment, you swore you could see through him — just a shimmer, like heat rising from pavement. But you blinked, and he was solid again. Smiling. Alive in his own way.
And so, you smiled back. “You’ll have to work harder than that to get rid of me.” He leaned in and kissed your lips. “I know,” he whispered. “That’s what I’m afraid of.”
—
The night came gentle, like the world itself didn’t want to wake you. You sat on the veranda with Jun, a single candle flickering between you — its flame bending and swaying with the wind. The garden was quiet, the air thick with that faint sweetness of rose and memory.
Jun leaned back in his chair, watching you instead of the stars. You didn’t notice at first how still he’d become. “I used to dream of this,” he said softly. “Of what?” “Peace.” He smiled faintly, eyes never leaving your face. “I thought I’d forgotten what it felt like.”
You chuckled, sipping your tea. “You sound like someone who’s about to give a farewell speech.” “Maybe I am.” You frowned. “Jun.”
He turned toward you, eyes reflecting the candlelight, gold and endless and unbearably sad. “You remember everything now, don’t you?” You blinked. “What do you mean?” “Us,” he whispered. “Before this life. Before this house. Before the accident.”
The words hit you like a chill. The images — faint, half-remembered — started to surface. The rain. Screeching tires. The ring glinting against the pavement. Jun’s voice calling your name, desperate, echoing. And then.. nothing.
Your throat tightened. “I- I saw flashes. I thought they were dreams.” He reached out, brushing your cheek with the back of his hand. His touch was lighter than before — fading. “They were memories. The last ones we shared before everything ended.”
You shook your head, tears already welling. “Ended? No.. we found each other again, didn’t we? You said you waited for me-” “I did,” Jun said, smiling. “Every life I remembered, I searched for you. Sometimes I found you. Sometimes I didn’t. But this time..” He paused, his voice breaking. “This time, you came back to me.”
“Then why- why does it sound like you’re saying goodbye?” you asked, your voice trembling. “Because I am.” You froze. “No.”
He moved closer, cupping your face, thumbs tracing slow circles over your tears. His hands were almost see-through now — light bleeding through his fingers. “My curse was to remember every life,” he said softly. “To live them all until I learned to let go.”
“Jun, stop-”
“But yours,” he whispered, “was to forget. To live free of the pain. To start again.”
—
The moment the words left his lips, something in your chest cracked open — a white flash of pain, too bright to bear. And then..
White walls. The soft hum of machines. A dull ache at the back of your head. You blinked your eyes open and found yourself lying on a hospital bed. Your throat was dry, your body heavy. The faint rhythm of a heart monitor keeps time with your shallow breathing.
“Mingyu- she’s awake!” You turned your head weakly. Three faces came into focus — Mingyu, Seokmin, and Minghao — all hovering near your bed, eyes wide with relief. Mingyu reached out, holding your hand tightly as if grounding you.
“Hey,” he said softly, voice trembling. “You scared us.” You looked at them, confused. “What.. happened?” Seokmin’s smile faltered. “You got into an accident. You’ve been out for a few days.”
You nodded slowly, your mind foggy. But as you looked at their faces — familiar yet oddly distant — you felt something off. Something hollow. “Was anyone else with me?” you asked after a moment.
They froze. Minghao looked down at the floor, his jaw tight. “No,” he said finally. “You were alone when they found you.” You frowned, trying to recall anything — a road, a sound, a name. But your head throbbed the harder you tried. There was nothing. Just blank space.
Days passed, and you went home, that doesn’t even feel like home. You walked through your apartment, touching the furniture, tracing the edges of picture frames that held no faces. You caught your reflection in the mirror and felt the strangest ache, like someone else should’ve been there beside you. Someone who wasn’t.
Late one night, unable to sleep, you sat on your bed and whispered into the dark — not knowing why, or to whom. “Maybe it’s not about moving on,” you murmured, clutching your chest where that invisible ache lived, “but trying to remember the memories I’ve already lost.”
A tear slipped down your cheek before you even realised you were crying. You didn’t know what you were grieving — only that your heart was mourning something you couldn’t recall.
—
You sobbed, shaking your head violently. “Then why- why bring me back here? Why make me remember?” “Because you deserved to know you were loved,” Jun said, voice trembling. “Even after death. Even after forgetting. You were my heart in every lifetime, and I needed you to know that before I go.”
The candle flame flickered. His form wavered, the edges of him breaking apart like smoke. “No,” you cried, clutching his shirt — your hands passing through him. “Please, stay. I’ll remember you this time. I swear, Jun, I won’t forget”
He smiled faintly, leaning forward until his forehead touched yours. “You will. You have to. That’s how you live.” He said. You sobbed. “Then what now? What happens to us? To you” “You live,” he said gently. “You finish your book. You keep the house. You keep going.”
“As for me.. I’ll keep waiting. Like I always do.” You shook your head violently. “No. No, you can’t. You deserve to move on.” “How can I?” Jun whispered. “My heaven was you. This is my fate.. I finally have the reason to cross the afterlife for this life, Y/N.” You felt the warmth of his breath one last time as he whispered,
“Find me again, in another life, my bride” The candle went out.
Silence filled the house — that heavy, sacred kind of silence only grief can make.
You sat there long after, whispering his name into the darkness, your tears falling onto the wooden floor. When the morning light finally touched the veranda, there was no trace of him — just the faint scent of cedar and rose and the ghost of a handprint on your cheek.
And for a moment, as you looked toward the mirror inside the house, you swore you saw him smiling.
Then he was gone.
And on the bed beside you, the veil stirred gently — as if brushed by unseen hands. unheard voice.
𝐀/𝐍 ➙ and that’s a wrap!! thank you so much for reading — I hope you liked it!! we’ve still got a few more left on our 2025 kinktober prompt list, next up is jeonghan, then wonwoo. see you all soon! stay safe, healthy, and a little unhinged, loves mwaa
౨ৎ in order for junhui to afford his college tuition on his own, he needs to claim financial independence by getting married. luckily, he doesn’t have a girlfriend and can find a wife on social media.
contents friend!jun x f! reader smau (ik u guys sighed) romance comedy marriage of convenience friends to lovers mentions of pregnancy and divorce first time no more cliffhanger
from rianca, realised that i have the free will to turn written fics into smaus whenever i get writers block loololol (this is one of those fics). i watched this one tiktok and knew it had to turn into a fic so thanks to my sis for sending me this months ago 😛
✦ genre: soulmate au, angst, fluff, selfdoubt and a lot of insecurities
✦ note: you have no idea just how much I love this story. They're the absolute cutest and a small part of me just wanted to keep building on this story forever. I hope you love it as much as I do
Most people walked through life, but Junhui, he danced. Even before he had met you, he danced. He was a beautiful boy, and doors opened before him in the world of film and acting. But all that changed when he met you.
When he turned 13 he was frantically searching for his mark, but he never found anything. His parents told him it could be a while, but right as he was about to break down he heard you, an echo of a voice inside his head that wasn’t his own.
He didn’t understand what exactly you were saying, but he understood the meaning behind your words, the comfort you were trying to show his panicked heart.
That day he decided he needed to change the trajectory of his life, he needed something other than just acting if he was gonna find you, if you were going to be able to find him.
It took a few years, but he ended up in Seoul under Pledis, surrounded by new people and a language he couldn’t quite speak, and on the days where he felt alone and discouraged you were there to ease his mind and cheer him on.
As the year had progressed the two of you had learned a few new languages to communicate with one another, but typically you spoke Korean to one another. It was good practice for the both of you, and despite korean being difficult to pronounce for you, it was easier than mandarin.
You could still vividly remember the day a male voice spoke mandarin in your mind, it was panicked and desperate. Sad and heartbreaking. Despite not understanding a single thing you tried reaching out in your mind for that little spot that had suddenly appeared in your inner eye.
He hadn’t done it on purpose you quickly realized, it had been the bond that had reached out instinctively.
“You’re okay, just breathe… I’m right here, I’m not going anywhere” You kept repeating the words over and over again until he seemed to calm, until he seemed to hear you.
Unlike Junhui you had always been a very vocal and extroverted person, always the loudest one in the room, the one who stole the attention of everyone without even trying, but after him, after the mark manifested, you drew into yourself, wanting to spend your time with him, getting to know him and his soul.
It was difficult at first, not being able to really communicate, but at some point a few words started to make sense and as the communication became better, and your love for him grew.
He told you about his move to Korea, his dance, his brothers, the struggles of his every day that looked so different from your own.
The mark made it impossible to learn specific details about one another, every time he tried telling you where he was going for his tours, his voice would be muffled. Just as every time you would try and tell him about your university, yours would as good as disappear from his head.
It made it hard, but you both knew people had it harder than the two of you did. You at least had your love singing you to sleep every night.
Junhui was sitting in the beauty room before a shoot. Next to him was Soonyoung, and in his lap sat none other than his sweet soulmate that they had all nicknamed ‘Pink’ due to the famous hair that had brought the pair together.
She ran her hands through his hair as she styled it.
“Do you really need to rub it in?” Dino said with a somewhat low voice.
“Obviously” Pink said before squeezing Soonyoung's cheeks together and kissing his lips sweetly. He chuckled in response, looking just as the hamster he claimed he wasn't.
Jun explained the situation to you through that little link he had in his mind.
Tell them they’re disgusting. You quickly commented with a laugh.
As he repeated the words, Pink clutched her imaginary pearls, before jumping down from Soonyoung's lap, earning her a whine from this very grown man.
“Don’t worry Jun, I’ll make you pretty for her, in hopes that she’s watching along”
He laughed. You had not found him yet, and he doubted that a performance unit song would be what did the trick. But he could always hope.
They hadn’t expected carats to go as feral for the music video as they did. But apparently a little bling and smooth moves would be all it took.
And they did look good, ethereal almost.
Jun couldn’t help but hope that this would mean you found him, after all that was the reason behind becoming an idol.
“I hope you see it” He said in his mind as he reached out.
You knew he did something within the music industry, but you couldn’t even imagine the scale it was actually on. How famous your soulmate was, how beautiful.
Once in a while you stumbled upon Seventeen music videos, but you never clicked on them. There were too many views, and for some reason you had imagined him being from a smaller, more unknown group.
If you were being completely honest you did think that the music was kind of a side gig. A passion that made life bearable. A hobby.
It wasn’t until your friend actually forced you to sit down and watch the newly dropped music video for “Spell” that you realized exactly who he was.
“You have to watch it!” She said as she gently stroked the clock that was counting down on her arm.
You rolled your eyes with a smirk on your lips. “It’s not gonna be him”
She shrugged. “You don’t know that! I’m staying in my delusional era, convinced that Minghao has a clock somewhere on that beautiful body of his”
You pulled her close to you on the couch. “Fine, I’ll watch it”
A small shriek escaped her throat. You could humor her.
Exactly two seconds after the music video had started your heart stopped. Because you knew that voice, and on screen was the most beautiful human being you had ever seen.
The brown curls framing his head, the eyes so soft and kind were looking into your soul. It was him, there was no doubt in your mind.
The whole scenario was overwhelming, you knew the song, he had been humming it for months, singing it to you at night.
“This makes no sense” you said slowly as tears welled in your eyes.
Your bestie had her arms around you in a second, pulling you close as you sobbed into her chest. You didn’t know why, but this wasn’t happy tears, no. You were devastated.
There was no way in hell a man like that, a man like him would be okay, that he would be happy with someone like you.
He didn’t know what he had done wrong. But he had to have done something. You had been quiet now for around 3 days, and it was the longest time since he had found you, that he had gone without hearing your voice.
The remaining of the guys had all picked up on it. He was agitated, annoyed and snapped over the smallest mistakes.
He was currently located in one of the small kitchens in the Hybe building, filling up on water in between breaks of practicing the choreo for the upcoming tour.
Minghao was leaned up against the fridge, arms crossed in front of his chest as he looked at his best friend.
“You need to tell me what the hell is going on” as usual when something was bothering either of them, they spoke mandarin. It gave them a sense of privacy even when there were people around.
Junhui sighed as he looked down at his feet. “She doesn’t speak to me anymore…” it was almost just a whisper, but the hurt, the broken heart that was lying beneath that surface of his was evident.
Minghao pulled him close, and for once he allowed himself to be comforted. He hid his face in his friend's shoulder as he let the silent tears fall.
“Did you do anything?” He asked as he pulled away to look at his friend.
Jun just shook his head as he dried his eyes. “No, at least I don’t think so. I’ve been ragging my brain over and over to find out what could make her pull away. But honestly? The only thing I can think is that she found me… and that she’s disappointed it’s me and not someone else”
His voice shook, and he burried his head in his hands, hoping the tears would stop falling if he just squeezed the palms of his hands into his eyes hard enough. It didn’t help.
“I don’t get it, I thought she loved me… I thought she was supposed to accept me for me, and not judge me for it”
He felt a hand on his shoulder, one that didn’t belong to Minghao, but to Chan. And as he turned there stood the remaining 11 of his brothers.
The youngest pulled him close and as he cried again, they all rallied around him.
Like the first time you had heard him, he hadn’t meant to let you in. But it did happen from time to time, if their emotions were out of control. And what he had said, had broken your heart.
You were convinced it would be for the best, that he wouldn’t love someone as normal as you, someone as boring. You were convinced he deserved better.
But hearing him break, hearing his sobs knowing you were the reason for them. Broke you even more than the potential heartbreak of him not wanting you.
The days following his breakdown he had stopped trying to reach out, and it almost felt like he had given up. You had scoured the internet to find any kind of update, to see what he was doing, if he was okay.
Dino had done a live with Minghao, begging Carats to send Jun all their love because he was struggling.
This wasn’t what was supposed to happen, he was supposed to be relieved, supposed to be happy that he, as a world famous artist, didn’t have to settle for someone as ordinary as you.
But you were slowly learning that you had made a mistake. Because Seventeen was despite being world famous, global superstars, kind people.
You had watched every going seventeen episode, seen every music video and over all catches up on everything.
It was funny seeing everything after the fact. You had heard story about his friends going crazy when they played games, and Hoshi and Mingyu especially fit that bill in the ‘Don’t Lie’ episodes.
He was quiet, more quiet in these settings than he usually was with you. But then you noticed it, hidden smiles and small laughs, it was because when he was with them, he talked to you as well.
Always updating you on their shenanigans, filling you in on the new games they made along the way or retelling the jokes he knew you would find funny.
You had fucked up. Severely. Now all that was left to do was trying to fix it.
As the days went by you started to reach out to him. But he wasn’t quite ready to talk yet. He could feel the sorrow in your voice, in the emotions that ran through his mind as you said good morning and good night to him every day.
You never pushed him, and he appreciated that. He wanted to hear your explanation, as to why you had chosen to cut him out, but he was scared, so scared that the explanation would be a confirmation of all his worst fears.
“Are you sure you’re okay?” Joshua said as he laid a hand on his shoulder.
He sent a tight lipped smile his way. “Yeah, let’s just get through the day”
“Are you still not sleeping?” Minghao said as he looked up from his phone.
Jun shook his head and sent a sad smile his way, his friends sighed in unison as Seungkwan entered the room.
“You need to look after yourself hyung”
“Maybe you need to talk to her” Joshua pushed.
Jun only played with his long fingers as he released something in between a huff and a laugh. “I know, but what if all she wants is to cut the tie between us?”
They would never quite get used to seeing their brother cry, and this past week they’d seen it more than they had in the last few years.
It was his anxiety talking, he knew that, and so did they. But it was hard talking him down the edge when they had no chance of communicating with you, to actually hear your side.
Seungcheol looked into the room, and all he got was a small shake of the head in return from the boys. “We’re going on in 5, game face on Jun”
He took a deep breath and stood from his chair.
Your leg was bouncing up and down, fingers pulling on one another as you simultaneously chewed on your bottom lip.
Something inside of you couldn’t quite figure out how this had happened, how you had made it happen on such short notice. But here you were sitting in a hall filled with carats, waiting for your soulmates and his brothers fansign.
They entered the stage and you literally felt your heart stop in anticipation. And there he was, and if handn’t been because of the lack of oxygen you’re pretty sure you would’ve flown from your seat and into his arms before security would even have a chance to notice.
He’s beautiful, he’s so so beautiful…
He heard your words eccho in his head and for the first time in a week he smiled genuinely all while his cheeks were painted in a subtle blush beneath the make up.
You better be talking about me and not someone else. He quickly responded. It was a pure instinct, needing to know that you still loved him, that the silence hadn’t been because of a lack of love for him.
He heard your chuckle in his head. It’s most definitely you Wen Junhui.
You watched him on the stage, hand quickly flying from his side to cover his mouth. You watched as his eyes sparkled. He turned away from the crowd and made these small almost awkward movements, as if he almost wanted to run away but couldn’t.
Minghao looked his way with furrowed brows, but when he saw his friends smile, he knew that all the anxiety had just been whisked away from his body. And the remaining 12 of them quickly found that the burden they had been carrying was lifted.
“Hi” Minghao said as you sat before him on the long table. He pulled the album you had in front of him closer to sign it. It felt surreal sitting here in front of the people you knew so much about, the people who knew so much about you, but somehow had never met.
“I feel like I owe you an apology” you said with a small voice in mandarin. The mans eyes lit up as he chuckled.
“Why would you owe me an apology?” He asked with curious eyes and a smirk.
You sighed. “Because I’m guessing you’ve had a rough week because of me. I didn’t… I didn’t mean to hurt him. It was just when I found out who he was, I suddenly felt like I was lacking in every aspect”
You looked towards Junhui as you talked, and shrugged as you ended the sentence.
“Oh…” you looked up at the beauty that sat there, looking at you with tears in his eyes. He left the album behind and reached out over the table, grabbing your hands in his, giving them a squeeze.
“He was afraid that you were disappointed, that you had hoped he was someone else”
You quickly looked back to Minghao with big eyes. “What?! How the hell would he think that?”
This time it was Minghao's turn to shrug. “I don’t know, but now our time is up, so go get your man”
He sat up in his chair, leaned over the table and kissed your forehead. “I’ll talk to you after”
You heard the gasps, the murmuring that had started in the room. Minghao was known for not playing along with carats parasocial relationships, he was known for always giving people a wake up call. So you could understand the shock of suddenly seeing him kiss a carat at a fan sign.
You also knew your bestie would end up killing you for not bringing her along for this.
Before you knew it you were in front of him. He didn’t look up from the album right away, he just introduced himself, and when his eyes finally met yours, all he saw was you sitting there with an open mouth, trying to get the words out.
He blushed, he actually blushed when he looked at you, and in your mind you heard a small; wow.
You took a deep breath and then you blurted it all out. “I’m so sorry… I’m so sorry I made you doubt yourself, doubt me, doubt us. It was never my intention. I just, I finally found you and every bad thing I have ever thought about myself was suddenly under a magnifying glass. I felt so ordinary, so plain, so incredibly boring next to you, your life…”
He hadn’t taken a single breath since you had started taking. He knew your voice as well as he knew his own. And before he knew it, before you even blinked he had thrown himself over the table and pulled you close.
“You’re here” he whispered into your hair, loving the smell of your hair, your skin and your perfume.
“I’m here” you whispered back as your hands pulled him as close as physically possible despite the table.
He pulled away and ran a hand over your cheek, catching your tears with his thumb. He rested his forehead against yours as he laughed, a laugh that you returned. It was one of disbelief and pure joy.
You heard all the people move around you, heard as people were ushered out of the room to give the two of you some type of privacy. The fansign would continue when everyone had a chance to calm down.
He stood up and walked around the table. “I can’t believe you’re here, that you actually found me, that you got in here so quickly” He pulled you into his chest and rested his cheek on the top of your head.
You could hear his frantically beating heart beneath his chest, god you could feel his chest, every muscle. Beneath your skin.
I swear you were hand sculptured by all the gods that have ever existed.
You said through the link in your mind. He laughed. Loud and genuine.
You’re so beautiful my love. That you were ever in doubt about being good enough for me… I’m sorry I didn’t tell you I loved you more often, that I didn’t tell you more often just how proud I am of you. That I didn’t manage to make you feel safe with me. I promise I will spend the rest of my life trying to make it up to you.
He pulled you close with one of his hands on the back of your neck, the other on your cheek. He caressed your nose against his, looking for any type of doubt in your eyes. But he found none. Instead you closed the distance and kissed him.
The room broke out in whistles and cheers, loud and chaotic. Just as you had always imagined they would be.
The two of you smiled, before looking towards those he called his brothers.
They were all over you in a second. Introducing themselves, bickering with one another about who should have the privilege of meeting you first. And Jun, he never let go of you, his fingers stayed intertwined with yours. Just as they were meant to be.
note: as always - please don't be a silent reader, all your comments, theories, likes and reblogs means so so much to me. It's one of the reasons I can keep pumping out a story a week - so please keep it up my loves. and as always; please let me know if you want to be added to the taglist.
being the engineer who knows too much and the sister who’s had enough means standing at the eye of the storm while two men she cares about tear each other apart. jun’s pride could still cost him everything, and yet he refuses to fight to fix what’s broken; neither will minghao. she’s tired of the fallout, but no one listens. a crash was only the beginning. now, can anything bring them back?
🏎️ GENRE/S :: f1 au, smau, contemporary drama, action, psychological, romance, slice of life
🏎️ PAIRING/WC :: wen junhui x fem!reader ⋅ 22,012 words
🏎️ CONTAINS :: rivals(?)-to-lovers tension, teammates-to-enemies-to-(??) for jun and minghao, childhood-friends-to-something-undefined, some smau things, emotional fallout, jealousy-driven angst, idiots in love who don’t know how to communicate, toxic masculinity (pride, refusal to communicate), media scrutiny, invasive paparazzi/journalists, suppressed emotions, power imbalance (professional + personal relationships entangled), high-stakes drama, dramatic crashes (literal and emotional), and two stubborn men who would rather self-destruct than back down, ambiguous boundaries (platonic vs. romantic blurred lines), possessiveness and control (family + teammate interference), familial conflict (brother-sister arguments, controlling dynamics), references to past breakup
⚠️ WARNINGS: kinda physical violence, arguments, car crash/accident, injuries, hospital setting, toxic dynamics, mental strain, psychological fatigue, mentions of rage driving, kinda toxic (?) sibling/friend dynamics caused by the fallout but otherwise good relationship, bits of cussing, possessiveness, implied unhealthy coping mechanisms, smoking, near-suicidal recklessness (though not framed as intent, heavily implied emotional spiral)
🏎️ A/N :: man. so the very first line of this fic is literally just me stealing a tweet that popped up on bee’s @imnotshua pinterest feed. yes, that is how i start writing apparently. you'll also very likely see right away that… i know nothing about f1 lmao. like, i only know the bare minimum to make this fic not collapse on itself, and even then, let’s not look too closely at logic 😭 tbf, the more i think about it, the less it makes sense why i even when joined the collab when em invited me because i knew nothing except “cars go fast,” but i have zero regrets because i had soooo much fun writing this [with one almost disabled hand too, but who’s gonna stop me? no one!] and i did what im supposed to do: write, learn and enjoy. THE THERAPY NOTES AND ALL MAY NOT BE ACCURATE!! im not a medical professional.
i genuinely had so much more to say but i’ll stop before this a/n ends up longer than the fic itself. oh! and i know y’all voted for this fic to drop as one post but tumblr have text block limit :( it’s sitting at 30k+ right now so i’ll be posting the next part very soon [next week, probably]. promise it’ll be a quick update!
🏎️ IMP THANK YOUS :: big big thanks to chee @nothoughtsjustfic for helping me untangle a super important part of this fic. i knew the destination and the fallout, but the whys and hows? absolutely lost. i was stuck on that one scene for a whole week, so thank you chee for being brilliant. if there’s anything that’s wildly inaccurate, just… look away pls bahahaha. thanks to everyone in the server who answered my many, many silly questions, for being the kindest, most fun space to write in. endless gratitude to rae @nerdycheol and em @gyuswhore for beta-ing this monster, and to cam @highvern and em @gyuswhore for letting me be a part of this collab. extra love to jo @daechwitatamic, jess @starlightkyeom, alta @haologram, and fia @amourcheolfor sprinting with me, you made dragging this fic over the finish line so much easier. also, extra love(2) to trixie @joshujin for showing interest in this monster and alta for one day probably unknowingly motivating me (and always scolding me. ily). STARRING — @nothoughtsjustfic @nerdycheol @shinysobi @an-annyeoing-writer
▸ PART OF THE @camandemstudios : LIGHTS OUT & AWAY WE GO COLLABORATION
📌 i hope youll love all the fics in this collab!
I'm being put into an alarming number of situations, is the first thought crossing your mind as you watch Minghao blast past on the circuit, the tires screeching just enough to remind you how unforgiving a Grand Prix can be. Tension is everywhere around you, and everything, everything, seems to be going sideways. You’re not even in the car, and yet you might as well be, bracing for impact with each turn.
You’ve spent years as Minghao’s race engineer, glued to the pit wall, knowing every twitch of his steering and every shift in his throttle like the beat of your own heart. He's meticulous to a fault, he understood every nuance of his driving style, every quirk of his car. You never needed to explain things to him twice, and he never left you guessing—because Xu Minghao, your brother, your blood, has always treated racing like a ritual, and for better or worse, you’ve followed him like it was gospel. He's the one you grew up watching tear up every track. Minghao is not just a driver; he’s an enigma of focus and stubborn will. When he sets his mind to something, it’s done. No questions asked.
And then there’s Junhui—Wen Junhui, technically, but no one calls him that anymore. Just Jun. The wild card. Brilliant, yes, but volatile—a star burning twice as bright and half as long.
He’s got this effortless charm, a raw talent that makes engineers and fans alike hold their breath every time he steps into the cockpit. But underneath that, there’s pride, and stubbornness, and lately, a streak of frustration gnawing at him. The media paints him as the team’s: golden boy, the wildcard, the journalists’ favorite quote on legs, and while none of that is entirely wrong, it all feels so... demeaning, in a way. Because you’ve seen him at four in the morning, crouched over telemetry footage, muttering to himself about brake bias and downforce, sweat clinging to the collar of his black fireproofs. And lately, you’ve watched the tension build in his jaw, heard the silence stretch too long between his radio checks, felt the growing weight of expectation settle like pressure in your chest, too.
Something’s unraveling in him. The footage confirms it even if no one wants to say it out loud: a snap of oversteer here, a braking delay there, moments where instinct should’ve kicked in but didn’t. His lap times are slipping, it wasn't drastically, but enough to raise eyebrows in the garage and prompt whispered conversations you’re not meant to overhear. You know the pattern. You’ve seen it before, in other drivers, in other lifetimes. This is the part where people start making excuses—bullshit about tire compounds, fuel load, headwind—but none of that changes the fact that Jun is faltering, and no one seems to know how to stop it.
And now here you are standing behind the box, biting your tongue as you watch Minghao float through the sector split, while Jun skids wide at Turn 9 and loses another half-second. You’re not supposed to feel this angry. You’re not even sure who you’re angry at. Maybe it’s at Jun for letting this get under his skin. But a part of you thinks, however unfair it is, that he should have known better than to try and outshine Minghao, because there’s only ever been one golden son of Sebong. And right now, black and white checkers feel a lifetime away.
Technical issues haven’t helped. The telemetry shows micro-instabilities Jun hasn't dialed out. His setup still searching for the balance Minghao seems to have nailed. It’s a subtle dance between man and machine, and Jun is stumbling. The team has always relied on the unstoppable dynamic between these two: Minghao’s strategy and Jun’s instinct. Together, they’ve carried the team through countless podiums. It was a combination both beautiful and brutal.
Now, Jun’s faltering threatens to undo the rhythm the team has spent years refining. And you’ve found yourself shifting from being Minghao’s steady hand to trying to steady Jun’s spiraling mess; a task more complicated than you ever signed up for. You wonder, briefly, if this is how stories begin to fall apart—or how they find their fiercest comebacks.
The roar of engines fills the air, vibrating through your bones and shaking the walls of the Sebong Racing garage. Around you, the team works in synchronized bursts — the pit crew ready, engineers monitoring endless streams of data, radios crackling with calculation. Outside, the circuit stretches in a sweeping tapestry of asphalt, curves, and straights; the grand stage that has made both Minghao and Jun legends in their own right even if one now seems to be chasing the ghost of the other.
You grip the tablet tightly, eyes moving between telemetry feeds and the live timing screens. Jun’s car, number 23, slices through the course. Every corner is a gamble; every straight, a test of nerve and machine.
“Sector 1 time is 0.2 seconds slower than his best lap,” you report into your headset. The performance engineer beside you nods, fingers flying over the keyboard, tapping commands into the system while you add, “brake temperatures are creeping up on the front left. We need to watch for degradation.”
Your heart pounds in time with each lap as Jun pushes through the relentless Azerbaijan heat, sweat beading at his temples beneath the racing helmet. You can kind of see the tension in his grip on the steering wheel; fingers white-knuckled, muscles taut like a coiled spring.
Minghao’s car, just a few seconds ahead, is the perfect foil: precise, calculated, seemingly untouched by the shit swirling behind. The two of them are a study in contrast. Jun’s raw aggression versus Minghao’s stoic precision, but that dynamic has long been the backbone of Sebong’s success.
You track the numbers lap after lap, watching Jun close in on P4 before the wear drags him back, his pace slipping at Turn 11 where understeer chews away costing him precious milliseconds. You call out adjustments, relaying updates, hoping to thread the needle between speed and survival. Then, the pit window opens.
“Box, box, box!” The call cuts through the noise.
Your breath manages to catch as the pit crew spring into action, removing wheels and replacing them in a blur of motion. Jun’s car flashes across your screen, the on-board camera capturing the taut stillness in his posture and the movements of his hands on the wheel, and before you can process anything more, he’s already back on the track with the clock pressing hard against his rear wing.
The gap to the car ahead narrows, and your pulse quickens. With four laps remaining, Jun’s radio crackles: “Grip’s fading on the rear. I’m fighting it.”
You adjust the strategy on the fly, feeding him targeted data about cornering lines, braking points, and throttle modulation. Every tiny edge counts, you remind yourself, because at this point, precision is all you have left to give him.
In the final stretch, Jun battles as much as he can, carving through the air with desperate speed, chasing down the fourth-place driver. But the clock runs out, and he crosses the finish line fifth, breathing.
Back in the garage, you exhale, your hands trembling slightly. The team erupts around you, some cheers, some nods of relief. Jun may not have climbed the podium, but today was no defeat; it was a statement. A defiant roar against the slump threatening to swallow him.
You glance at Minghao’s finish time: second place. The crowd’s cheers fade into the night, you wonder if it'll cause any rift, before everything comes crashing down… or finally comes together.
You’ve known them for years. Long before the roar of engines and the floodlights kissed silver onto champagne-soaked podiums. Before they were Sebong Racing’s unstoppable duo, Wen Junhui and Xu Minghao were just two boys from the same neighborhood, running through back alleys and dreaming with reckless abandon. It’s almost poetic, really: two halves of a whole, bound by rivalry and brotherhood.
Jun was always the kid who’d challenge anyone to a race even if it meant running barefoot through broken glass. His laugh was loud, his temper quick — but beneath all that, a heart that could burn brighter than any spotlight. Minghao, on the other hand, was the calm before the storm. Quiet, observant, always calculating three steps ahead. You could see it in the way he moved, how he watched the world. His eyes were not searching for a fight, but for the perfect moment to align itself in his favour to strike. He was the steady hand to Jun’s unpredictable flame.
Together, they pushed each other, dragged each other forward, fell and got up with scraped knees and laughs. When Jun got reckless, Minghao was there to pull him back; when Minghao hesitated, Jun’s encouragement was the spark that lit the way.
As a team, and more than that, as best friends, they were unstoppable, and everyone around them knew it. Their chemistry on and off the track was electric, a volatile fusion of energy and control. And through every victory and every scrape, you watched them grow, side by side, protective and proud.
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Minghao reached into the folded stack of newspapers on the wooden table and pulled out the front page, smoothing the creases with his fingers before holding it out to Jun. “Look at this,” he said, trying to keep the mood light despite the gravity of the words printed in bold headlines. “The economy’s in freefall again. Can you believe this mess? Inflation’s skyrocketing, markets crashing... it’s a disaster.”
Jun barely glanced at the paper. His eyes sharp, weirdly stabbable beneath the brim of his cap, flicked up momentarily before sliding back to the floor. The sound of the news barely registered with him. Instead, he leaned back against the leather chair, pulled a cigarette from the pack in his pocket, and held it between his fingers with his casual defiance. He brought the cigarette to his lips, lighting it with a flick of his lighter, the orange flame briefly illuminating the lines of his jaw.
As the smoke curled from his mouth in lazy spirals, Minghao watched him carefully, sensing the distance growing between them. He didn’t want to talk about the race, or at least today. That was a raw nerve the older man wasn’t ready to touch. So he settled for conversation about anything but that.
When Jun’s silence stretched longer, Minghao sighed, a breath of frustration. “You know,” he began, trying for a lighthearted tone, “if the economy keeps tanking, maybe we’ll have to race for food instead of trophies.”
Jun’s eyes moved toward him briefly as a ghost of a smirk tugged at the corner of his mouth. “Yeah, well, I’m better at burning rubber than burning cash.”
Minghao chuckled, relieved to find some humor. “True, but maybe you should watch those tires more carefully. You’ve been slipping lately, Jun.”
Jun’s smirk faded. His hand tensed around the cigarette, the smoke twisting into tighter rings. “Maybe I’m just tired of the same old track.”
Minghao’s brows furrowed. “What’s that supposed to mean? The track’s fine. Maybe you’re the one who’s off.”
Jun’s gaze snapped to his brother’s face. “Off? You think you’re so perfect, don’t you? Sitting there, calculating every move as if you know and own the damn circuit.”
“That’s not it! What are you talking about?”
“Oh, please. Why are you acting as if you really don't know what I'm talking about?”
“I’m not against you, Jun. No one is. You’re under pressure, I get that, but don’t turn this into some kind of war.”
Jun scoffs. “Then stop pretending you're the victim when you’re the one everyone listens to. You think I don’t hear them? You’re the golden one, Hao. Always have been.”
“You’re being stupid, Jun. Why are you taking everything so personally?”
“Because I’m tired!” Jun burst out, his voice cracking around the edges of his harsh tone. “I’m tired of chasing something I’ll never catch. I’m tired of pretending this isn’t affecting me.”
The room suddenly felt smaller and so uncomfortable as the banter escalated. Minghao’s jaw clenched but his voice stayed even. “At least I don’t throw fits and crash when things don’t go my way.”
Jun stood up abruptly, making the chair scrape harshly against the floor. “Oh, so now you’re perfect? You think I want this? You think I want to be the joke of the team?”
“Then stop acting like one,” Minghao shot back, standing to meet him eye to eye. “We’re supposed to be a team. Not enemies.”
Jun laughed bitterly, hollow. “Team? Since when did that matter to you? You’re just glad to see me fail.”
Minghao’s eyes darkened. “Don’t put this on me.”
Jun scoffs, but there's no humor in it, just twisted and bitter. He flicks the ash off his cigarette while not looking at Minghao as he says, “You know, it must be easy for you. Clean races, clean image, clean conscience. You’ve always liked keeping your hands clean while I dig through the dirt for us both.” Minghao doesn’t respond to it, just watches him that feels sharper than anything he could say. “Must be nice,” he taunts, “always being the one who finishes first. Not because you’re better, no, never that, but because no one expects you to crash. They save that headline for me.” His smile turns thin, and he lifts his eyes to meet Minghao’s. “Actually… I wonder if you ever cared whether I crashed or not. Or maybe part of you wanted me to. So you’d finally be the golden boy alone.”
Minghao’s jaw tightens, but his arms stay folded across his chest. His posture is rigid, but his eyes begin to narrow.
Jun leans in slightly, smoke curling from his lips. “Tell me, how long have you been waiting for me to fail so spectacularly you wouldn’t have to pretend you were proud of me?”
The silence is taut and brimming. Minghao still doesn’t speak, or blink, and for a second, it seems like maybe he’ll walk away. But then Jun adds just enough to sting, “You’ve always been a coward, Hao. Hiding behind strategy because you’re too scared to do anything.”
This makes Minghao's fist snap forward with startling speed. His knuckles collide with Jun’s jaw with a sickening sound, and Jun’s head jerks to the side, stumbling a half-step before he catches himself on the edge of the table.
Jun doesn’t say anything. He straightens slowly up, lips parted slightly from the impact that Minghao just caused, his cigarette now flicked off somewhere on the floor, forgotten. His eyes bat once, then again, before he turns toward the doorway until it lands directly on you.
You step into the room and stop short, confused by what you're seeing in the room, the invisible static in the air that you can feel before you even see the mark blooming on Jun’s cheek. He’s still staring at you, and there’s no shock in his eyes—but something halfway between warning and apology.
“Jun—?”
He doesn’t answer you, but just brushes past you with enough force that your shoulder dips slightly from the contact. You’re left in the doorway, blinking, with Minghao still standing there, hand curled into a fist, chest rising and falling in breaths.
You stand in the doorway, caught in a moment you don’t yet understand, and all you can manage to say, in the stunned silence that follows, is, “What the hell just happened?”
Minghao doesn't feel the need to respond to you nor does he spare you a glance. His jaw twitches slightly, like he’s chewing on something bitter, and his eyes stay locked on the far away wall, far too calm for your liking.
You take a step inside, your brows drawn tight. “Did you hit him?”
He huffs, dragging his gaze toward you, then scoffs as if the question itself is annoying. “He deserved it,” he mutters, rolling his eyes. “And you should mind your own business.”
“Excuse me?” You don’t raise your voice yet, but it’s close. The disbelief in your tone carries more weight than your volume ever could. “Mind my business?” You cross your arms. “You think I’m just going to walk in, see you standing there ready to throw another punch, and ignore the fact that Jun walked out looking like you broke something in him?”
Minghao’s expression hardens, his arms crossing in return, bracing for yet another argument, but with his sister this time.
“I don’t care what stupid defensive reasoning you’re spinning in that head of yours,” you continue, stepping further into the room. “You don’t get to say he deserved it. You don’t get to hit him and then shut down like this. So tell me what the fuck happened, because clearly, something did, and I want to hear all of it.”
He just stares at you, processing what you just let out of your mouth. His shoulders sink slightly as if something in him unclenches, not from guilt, maybe, but from sheer exhaustion.
“He kept pushing,” he says to you. His voice isn’t angry anymore, just tired. “He wouldn’t shut up. He—he knows exactly what to say. Like he wants to be punched by me.” You don't respond, so he keeps talking, replaying the scene in real time. “I tried to talk to him… about anything else. I even brought up the damn economy just to keep things light because I didn’t want to talk about the race because I know it’s still eating at him.”
His fingers uncurl and flex once before falling limply against his sides.
“But then he just—he started twisting things. Saying I liked watching him fail, that I was waiting for him to fall apart. That I’ve never cared about him unless I’m ahead of him. Like I would ever wish that on him.” He sounds like he's so disappointed with Jun for even thinking like this. “I told myself not to react. I told myself to let it go. But then he called me a coward.” Minghao’s eyes darken. “He said I hide behind strategy because I’m too scared to do anything.”
You feel your stomach twist slightly, the shape of the argument becoming clearer. “And you punched him,” you finish it for him.
“Yeah,” Minghao breathes. “I fucking did.”
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Wen Junhui Finishes P5 in Azerbaijan Amid Rising Pressure and Questions Over Form
Baku City Circuit, Azerbaijan — September 21, 2025
By Staff Writer Ro
F1.com
Wen Junhui crossed the line fifth at the Azerbaijan Grand Prix today, securing valuable points for Sebong Racing in a season that’s been marked by intense scrutiny over his recent performances. After weeks of inconsistency and visible tension within the garage, today’s race felt like a critical turning point; an attempt to turn the ship amid mounting pressure.
Junhui started the race from P7 after a cautious qualifying session on Saturday. While the team cited minor balance issues and unsettled rear-end grip during practice, his long-run pace hinted at potential. The Azerbaijan circuit, known for its technical corners and punishing walls, left no room for hesitation. From the moment lights went out, Junhui had to dig deep.
His first stint was conservative, managing tyre wear and holding position through the opening laps. But it was during Lap 15 that the Sebong driver made a decisive move, overtaking Ocon into Turn 3 after forcing a small error through Turn 1. Jun's radio communication remained terse, focused, and unusually silent through most of the opening half. Mid-race strategy called for a single stop, with Jun pitting on Lap 23 for mediums, coming out in clean air but falling behind the lead pack by nearly eight seconds. From there, it was a slow rebuild. The car, still wrestling with instability through high-speed corners, proved difficult under heavy fuel loads, with the rear stepping out under throttle through Turns 9 and 11, costing tenths per sector.
Despite this, Jun’s pace remained consistent. While he was never truly in contention for the podium, he defended fiercely against Norris and Russell late into the final stint, managing degradation effectively and showing flashes of the calculated aggression that once defined his driving.
“It was a difficult race,” he said briefly in the media pen post-race. “I think we found a bit more rhythm today, but there’s still work to do. The car felt more responsive, and the team did well with the call.”
Team principal Chee Smith echoed the sentiment: “Today was about building back confidence. Jun kept his head down, drove clean, and brought home the points. That matters.”
But with Minghao once again on the podium and the constructors’ race tightening, questions remain around whether Sebong can return to their former two-pronged dominance, or if Junhui is still climbing out from under the weight of something else than balance sheets and brake temps.
What’s clear is this: fifth place in Baku won’t silence every critic, but it may be the first step back toward the front of the field.
Race Result – Azerbaijan Grand Prix (Top 6):
1. Charles Leclerc (Ferrari) – 1:38:11.432
2. Xu Minghao (Sebong) – +4.213s
3. George Russell (Mercedes) – +7.905s
4. Lando Norris (McLaren) – +10.112s
5. Wen Junhui (Sebong) – +12.031s
6. Esteban Ocon (Haas) – +15.382s
📊 Telemetry Highlights:
Best lap: 1:44.908 (Lap 35)
Top speed: 325 km/h on the main straight
Brake temp spikes at Turn 7 mid-stint, monitored but contained
Lost approx. 0.4s due to understeer at Turn 11 in final sector
📅 Next Race: Singapore Airlines Singapore Grand Prix 2025 | Oct 03 - 05
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racedwithjun: it’s just not the same watching him drive now. what happened to him 😭
minghaosleftbrake: not them treating Jun like the scapegoat when it's clearly a team issue
tracksidegossip: NO interaction post race. nah they FELL OUT for real.
↳ only4f1
@/tracksidegossip fr they didn’t even look at each other. don’t tell me “teammates fight sometimes” this is giving actual beef.
↳ ha0_l0ve
@/only4f1 or maybe, wild thought, they were both emotionally drained after a tough race? not everything is some scandalous feud.
↳ only4f1
@/ha0_l0ve ok but this isn’t the first time? it’s been weird for weeks. they’re not even hiding it anymore.
↳ ha0_l0ve
@/only4f1 maybe it’s weird because people like you turn every normal silence into a fallout conspiracy. not everything needs your fanfiction commentary.
↳ only4f1
@/ha0_l0ve nah girl this isn’t silence this is COLD WAR. and i’m not the only one seeing it. don’t act like fans can’t notice.
↳ ha0_l0ve
@/only4f1 notice all you want, but spinning narratives with zero context helps no one. imagine being them and scrolling through this mess.
↳ lyu_aes_thetic
@/only4f1 they’re literally human. they get frustrated, they cool off, they move on. try it sometime.
hotlap_handsome: a p5 is NOT failure. y’all are just so used to him on the podium u forgot he’s human.
96zri8here: Man, I love them so much. Big fan, but wtf is happening??
lyu_aes_thetic: the way some of you talk, you'd think jun crashed out of the sport entirely. he’s having a rough patch, not a retirement announcement guys. seriously, have you considered not fuelling chaos for engagement? if jun or minghao ever saw half of what’s being said here, i hope you'd have the decency to log out in shame. grow up.
hao_verse: hao still liked it 😭 please they’re not over
↳ junlvr07
@/hao_verse EXACTLY he saw the post, and hit like!! that means something.
↳ formulaughs
@/junlvr07 y’all acting like a double tap is a wedding ring 😭
↳ midfieldmeltdown
@/formulaughs okay but be fr… if they were beefing for real he wouldn’t like it. they clearly still care.
↳ lap88despair
@/midfieldmeltdown or he's just doing pr damage control and making sure fans don’t panic morw lmao
↳ caffeine_and_carbon
@/lap88despair even if it’s just pr it then still shows he doesn’t hate him enough. since he's doing damage control it means he still cares
↳ overtakemehao_opls
@/hao_verse caption or not, it’s giving soft launch to forgiveness 😭
↳ minghao.slastnerve
@/junlvr07 it’s crazy how we all turned into emotional analysts over one like 💀
pitstopqueen: no caption hits harder than any press release rn
speedprince97: bro looks like he’s fighting demons in that suit 😩
sup3rf4n.jun: He looks so fucking ethereal omg
burntclutchclub: you didn’t have to punch me like this.
↳ minghao.slastnerve
@/burntclutchclub it’s giving final act
tires.mokeonly: i’m still in denial. they’re fine. they HAVE to be.
ha0_l0ve: they'll be fine
lyu_aes_thetic: y'all are overreacting for no good reason. it's NOT the end of his career!!!! do you guys have nothing better to do other than causing unnecessary drama? imagine jun or minghao seeing these posts. please just stop already
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You return to your office as you instinctively move your hand across the interface and sort telemetry logs and prepare the necessary reports ahead of the next race weekend. The rhythm is familiar to you, but your focus remains fractured and drawn elsewhere. You care for him a lot; it's difficult not to, having grown up with him through the sheer consequence of proximity. He was your brother’s best friend, and by extension, became your company too.
At first, it had been simple—he was just another presence, someone who happened to be around more often than not. But over time, that presence began to hold more weight, and the lines between platonic and something far away from platonic began to slowly blur. If the warmth in his voice when he says your name ever carries more than friendship, but you never let yourself assume. You both know the boundaries. He is off-limits, and perhaps, so are you.
He has always been a good man at heart, albeit complicated. Being the oldest among the three of you, he would often end up staying behind in the house with you when the others left for errands or when schedules didn’t align. that's how even your families were close. You were the youngest among the three but never left out intentionally. You would sit nearby, forgotten by them while they played video games or bickered over lap times and gear shifts, yet you never minded. While Minghao was every bit the dependable older brother, you had always liked Jun more. He was volatile at times, prone to logicless flares of emotion, but even at his most unreasonable, he remained intelligent—someone who understood the world differently, and more vividly, than most.
You never imagined the three of you would enter the same world professionally, let alone work under the same banner. And yet, here you are. It has always been a strange dynamic between you and Jun; not exactly friends, but never just acquaintances. The space between you has always felt undefined, yet inhabited.
For every moment he made you feel seen, you still find yourself at a loss for words. He picked you up from school when Minghao couldn’t, helped you prepare for your final exams when your tutors gave up on your schedule, and—though it remains slightly surreal—he was standing right there during your first breakup, when it all fell apart on the pavement in front of the coffee shop he visited weekly. You had cried, embarrassed and furious, and he handed you two ice creams without a word, both for you, and wiped your tears with his sleeve. Perhaps it was simply awkwardness. Or perhaps it was kindness, hidden in his silence. I was always waiting for him to look at me like I wasn’t just Minghao's little sister. Maybe I still am.
Now, you reach for your cup of tea and settle into your seat, glancing absently at the screen that still displays Minghao’s most recent telemetry. Technically, you are no longer his engineer, but old habits remain intact. You track his data as if the reassignment never happened. And honestly, who would stop you? You both are siblings after all.
You scroll through your phone in repetition. You have always been someone who prefers to stay informed, and after Jun’s P5 finish today, you know the discourse will be unrelenting. One tweet reads, not defending him anymore. we love him, but he looks like he doesn't love racing right now. You know that's not true. He still loves racing. Probably more than anything else, but it's clear that his confidence is eroding. He is not in the right headspace, at least not entirely. It takes a great deal to unsettle him, but lately, he has been allowing criticism to pierce through his skin, as though he no longer knows how to shield himself from expectation.
The more he falters, the more vicious the noise becomes. It's a cycle of weight now, and still, people continue to push. i can’t believe we watched them go from “if i crash, it’s because i trust hao to catch me” to walking past each other like ghosts, says another post, and unfortunately, you cannot disagree. So much of this has happened because Jun won't step away from his pride, and because he lets every word, every result, carve into him. Whatever happened behind closed doors today, you find yourself leaning toward the belief that the greater fault may lie with him. If everything Minghao said was accurate, then Jun provoked him, dragged the fight into a place it never needed to reach, and accused him of things that no brother by blood or otherwise, should ever say. And yet, you hesitate. You could shift the lens and say Minghao lost his calm, because he failed to calm Jun when he very well knew he was spiraling. But then again, Minghao did hold back for as long as he could. They are both responsible in their own way. Still, Jun more so, and yet, even then, you understand. Mental fatigue distorts everything.
You continue scrolling, eyes scanning through post after post, some well-meaning, some ruthless. You only hope Jun doesn’t read any of it, but knowing him, you suspect he already has.
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BREAKING: Sebong’s Wen Junhui involved in off-track accident hours after Azerbaijan GP
reported by Motorsport Insider | 9:47 PM Baku time
Sources confirm Sebong driver Wen Junhui was involved in a single-car crash near the outskirts of Baku following Sunday’s Grand Prix. While local emergency services arrived on scene promptly, the team has not released an official statement regarding his condition. The incident took place off-circuit, reportedly on a private access road near the paddock exit.
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Fuck, slips from your mouth as your gut drops; you feel it physically, like your heart both stops for a moment and then pounds against your eardrums.
You feel the tremor in your fingers as your eyes scan the article again just to be sure it's not some grotesque prank. But it's real. The page is verified, and the words don't disappear no matter how many times you blink. Your thumb moves automatically, pressing Minghao’s name on the screen as your legs carry you out of your office. The walls blur past as the elevator descends and you grip your phone tighter, muttering prayers beneath your breath that he picks up.
Your anxiety twists sharper with every unanswered ring. You reach the parking garage, practically throwing yourself into the driver’s seat before turning the key with trembling hands. There’s a film of sweat blooming along your back, and your throat dry with dread. It’s not just worry; it’s the sheer thought of being utterly in the dark, the fact that you had to learn about it from the press.
You press the call button for Joshua’s number, hoping the team manager would answer—but the call fails. You press it again, but nothing. Groaning aloud, you drag your hands through your hair and push it off your forehead in frustration while your eyes stay locked on the desolate road. You breathe a few times, then try again. The signal finally holds after trying for so long.
“What is happening?” you demand the moment the call connects, your voice sounding high and frayed.
“If you would stop calling me long enough for a call to actually go through,” he replies, you can hear him being breathless.
“You were doing the same thing,” you snap back without hesitation.
He exhales, “We’re at the emergency wing of the private trauma centre near the paddock exit. No official cause has been confirmed yet, but... if I’m honest with you, it looks like rage driving. He was alone, and lost control. We don’t know what actually happened, yet.”
Your grip on the steering wheel tightens. You swallow hard, because that... makes sense. He had left like a storm, after all, no words, just a mark on his cheek and bitterness in his eyes.
“He’s conscious,” Joshua continues. “Scans show a cervical strain and a grade one concussion. Minor, but they're keeping him under observation.”
You barely manage a nod, even though he cannot see it. “I’m coming,” you let out, before cutting the line and stepping on the accelerator as you drive to where Jun is.
As you step out of the car, your eyes immediately fall upon the mess unfurling outside the hospital. A sea of journalists, cameras flashing without pause, and what seems like half the city’s population press against the barricades while security personnel attempt to hold the tide. You wonder, briefly and bitterly, what it is about human nature that makes this situation so appealing to them.
You push forward toward the hospital only to be intercepted by a guard who mistakes you for just another desperate face trying to force their way through. Your hand immediately reaches for your credentials, but before you can retrieve them, the guard pauses, studies your face, and then steps aside abruptly, recognition flashing through his eyes. He mutters a quick apology and allows you passage.
You waste no time. Striding toward the reception, you make a terse inquiry regarding Jun’s location. The words barely even leave your lips before you're already pivoting toward the stairwell. You don't have the composure to wait for the elevator when the stairs will carry you to the third floor a full minute faster.
When you arrive, you find Minghao seated in the waiting area, his hands clasped together, his eyes fixed on some spot that doesn't exist. Joshua stands beside him, arms folded, shoulders drawn taut. You approach swiftly.
“How is he?” you ask.
Joshua exhales through his nose and replies, “He’s still being monitored. The doctors want to observe him a little longer before they let anyone in. Nothing critical, but they’re cautious.”
Minghao says nothing. You spare him a single glance that holds for no more than four seconds before you look away. There is no accusation in your expression, only a tempered understanding. You don't blame him, and you hope he won't burden himself with guilt either.
Turning back to Joshua, you ask the question that has been clawing at your throat since the moment you read the headline. “Do we know how the accident happened? The extent of the impact?”
“Not exactly…” Joshua doesn't want to explain further right now.
You need answers—whether from Jun himself, or from anyone willing to speak about it or actually knows things.
You still stay away from speaking to Minghao, but are very aware that this is likely his turn to unravel. You don't acknowledge him directly, but you settle into the seat adjacent to his, maintaining an intentional distance. Time moves, and you are not entirely sure how long it has been. Your thoughts are a cyclone of unanswered questions: whether Jun will be permitted to race again soon, or if his condition will force him to sit out. The likelihood leans towards the latter based on your experience in this field for such a long time.
Joshua has stepped outside to attend a call, and Minghao has not lifted his eyes from the floor in nearly twenty minutes. You don't speak to him either. Instead, you reach into your bag that you had blindly grabbed from your office table in your frenzied rush, and get your laptop out of it. Your fingers are still trembling when you log into the Sebong engineering terminal, entering your credentials.
You tell yourself this is just to check for updates, a flimsy lie that barely lasts the length of the thought itself. One new file appears under the internal archive: PVT VEHICLE INCIDENT. It is marked with a cautionary red tag that instantly draws your attention. You don't hesitate before opening it; you already know what you are looking for. And if you're going to sit here and wait, you might as well occupy yourself with reviewing the evidence before confronting Jun yourself—before you tell him exactly how fucking reckless he was, before you tear into him with all the anger you’ve kept locked behind your ribs, and demand the answers you already know won’t come easy.
No visible pedestrians or third-party vehicles involved.
CCTV angle limited; does not capture interior activity.
Aggressive acceleration and lack of controlled inputs strongly suggest impaired emotional state at time of operation.
Internal review pending correlation with telemetry and ESC logs.
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Your eyes remain fixed on the screen, shoulders drawn taut as you reread the lines until they no longer register meaning, only shape. You drag a hand over your mouth, the pressure doing little to still the pulse hammering at your temple. You know exactly what the numbers mean. The override, the g-force spike, the collision timing—all of it. No mechanical failure, no freak variable. This was a choice. You know for a fact that it was not suicidal, but a recklessness born of his stupid anger.
The report doesn't show his face, but you can see it in your head. You sit back in your chair and your breath catches when you see the red-flagged video file load beneath the log. It’s marked CCTV: External Access Road. You hesitate, but it's only for a moment before you give up and press play. If you're going to confront him, you need to know everything before you cross check.
DATE: September 21, 2025
LOCATION: █████ Access Road, Baku, Azerbaijan
CAMERA ID: CCTV-04-LOT_████████
FOOTAGE ID: ████-BK88-JH
TIME STAMP: 21:03:15 – 21:04:01
[21:03:15] — Subject (Driver: W. Junhui) approaches vehicle: ██████, dark-colored.
[21:03:22] — Enters driver’s seat. Door closes with excessive force.
[21:03:26] — Engine ignites.
[21:03:30] — Headlights activate. Vehicle reverses aggressively, narrowly missing ███████ service truck.
[21:03:35] — Accelerates down restricted access road; fails to yield at security junction.
[21:03:43] — Executes left turn; loss of traction at rear tyres noted.
[21:03:45] — Enters blind bend at unsafe speed.
[21:03:47] — Audible skid; no braking sequence initiated.
[21:03:49] — Front right tyre contacts curb.
[21:03:50] — Vehicle loses directional control.
[21:03:51] — Primary impact: front-end collision with ███████████ barrier, estimated at 60km/h.
[21:03:53] — Smoke visible from engine compartment. Airbags fully deployed.
[21:03:55] — Subject shows signs of consciousness; slight upper body motion recorded.
[21:03:57] — Two unidentified personnel approach scene.
[21:03:59] — ███████ radios for immediate medical dispatch.
[21:04:01] — Footage concludes. Response team en route.
CONFIDENTIAL — INTERNAL DISTRIBUTION ONLY
Do not circulate outside of assigned operations and medical review groups. Violations of confidentiality protocols may result in disciplinary review per FIA and team regulation ████-12.3.9.
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You no longer know what to think or feel, so you just close your eyes and let time dull the pain of whatever this is, the way you do with most things; waiting for it to fade into sleep. The trouble is that you are not in your apartment or your car or anywhere else where you can sleep like how you simply do. You are seated in a hospital corridor, fluorescent lights above you, and the person you are not supposed to love is lying unconscious a room away.
Even with your eyes closed, you can sense Minghao peek at your screen. You feel it, but it barely registers. A while later, there is a move on your side, followed by a hand guiding your head to rest against a shoulder. You don’t need to look to know it’s him.
Were you anyone else on the team, you would have left hours ago. Engineers have their roles, and their limits, and the boundaries they don't cross. But you are not just anyone, and neither is Minghao. He is not just Jun’s teammate. He is his best friend, his other half on and off the track. And you, well, you are many things to Junhui. Race engineer, yes, but also history. Familiarity. You have known him just as long. Perhaps more strongly in ways that Minghao may never understand. You stay because you want to, and because, perhaps, he expects you to.
You don't know what the outside world is saying. Maybe they’re speculating or spinning stories, but you have never cared for gossip, and tonight is no different. The media will do its job. The public relations team will handle the rest. You let your body go slack, resting your weight against Minghao’s shoulder as your mind quiets for the first time since the news broke.
You hope, above all, that Minghao is not carrying the weight of this night alone. You are angry with him, and you may stay angry for a while—but you hope he is breathing beside you, and that he still knows how to handle Jun, even when everything is slipping.
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I had not expected to see him that afternoon, let alone have him witness the very moment my pride collapsed onto the concrete pavement outside that coffee shop. It had been raining earlier, so the ground was still damp, and my shoes slipped slightly when I stepped out the door, trailing behind someone who had just shattered whatever illusion of love I had held onto for months. We hadn’t raised our voices, but the finality in his tone had cut deeper than anything shouted ever could. And just like that, he walked away.
I remember standing there, blinking too fast and breathing too hard, unsure whether I was more furious or humiliated. My heart felt too loud, and my hands wouldn't stop shaking. And then, from across the narrow street, he appeared. Jun. He had witnessed the end of something private, something small and devastating, and for a moment, I thought he might pretend he had not. But instead, he crossed over, walked straight into the little shop, and returned with two cones of vanilla ice-cream. He said nothing. Just extended both to me, one in each hand, and watched as I stared at them, confused and glassy-eyed. I took them anyway. He wiped a tear from my cheek with his sleeve, and with a restraint that made me ache in ways I couldn't yet name.
He never did well with emotion. Or probably it was his way of showing care, wordless and unassuming that wraps itself around you without asking for attention. He didn’t stay long, though. He nodded once imperceptibly, and walked back across the street, leaving me alone with two melting cones and a grief that had begun to soften just slightly in the echo of his presence. I felt bad for forgetting about my ex for some time.
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The noise around you stirs you awake from your uneasy sleep. Your eyes blink open to unfamiliar movement, and as your vision sharpens, you catch a glimpse of someone who resembles Ms. Lee in the far corner of the corridor. You lift your head slowly, only then realizing that you had still been resting against a shoulder while wondering if that woman is Mrs. Smith or not. As you turn, you find Minghao still beside you, his expression blank with fatigue, though his brows knit slightly when your movement draws his attention.
You clear your throat a bit awkwardly. “What’s up?”
He doesn't respond. His eyes merely shift forward again, as if the question had never been asked. Rude, you think, without the energy to voice it aloud.
But now that you’re properly looking at him, you see it. His eyes are rimmed in red and heavy-lidded, the weight that comes not from tears, but from hours of relentless wakefulness. The guilt settles in your chest, like something you should have acknowledged sooner.
You rise from the bench, smoothing down your clothes, and glance around until your eyes land on Joshua in conversation with the attending physician a few meters away. Out of courtesy, you hang back, allowing their exchange the privacy it warrants, until Joshua notices you and waves you over with a brief flick of his hand.
The moment you join them, he turns to the doctor and asks, “When can we see him?”
The doctor adjusts his clipboard. “If his vitals remain stable, then in about an hour. He’s under observation for the next cycle, and we’re monitoring for any secondary symptoms. Given how he responded overnight, I’d say discharge by tonight is very likely—assuming no complications arise.”
Joshua nods once. “Hm, understood. Thank you.”
The doctor offers a polite smile before excusing himself with a thank you before disappearing behind the swinging doors that lead back into the restricted ward.
You exhale and turn to Joshua. “I’ll take this window to head to the hotel for a bit. I want to change and shower before we come back. Minghao should come with me—he looks like hell and hasn’t moved in hours. A change of air might do him good.”
Joshua considers for only a second before nodding. “Yeah, he needs it. And you’ll be back before visiting opens?”
“Before the hour’s up,” you assure him. “Text me if anything changes.”
You return to Minghao, where he remains seated with his hands clasped loosely in his lap, shoulders hunched forward. Without a word, you grip his arm and pull with all the strength your body can muster, determined to rouse him from whatever spiral he has buried himself in. He gives you a strange look, blinking at your persistence, and finally rises with slow, reluctant movements, clearly unconvinced but unwilling to let you expend your energy dragging him to his feet.
He still says nothing, so you talk first, “Let’s go back to the hotel,” only to be met with his utterly bored expression. You let out a breath, visibly annoyed. “Come on.”
His brow twitches, and for the first time since yesterday, his voice cuts through the silence. “It’s not time to play.”
“I’m being serious.”
He responds by simply sinking back down into the chair.
You steel your voice. “Jun will be ready for visitation in an hour. I need to freshen up, take a shower, and I’ll be back before then.”
That, at least, provokes a shift. His shoulders ease just slightly, the tension in his jaw softening, though he does well to mask it. “Go ahead,” he mutters.
You cross your arms, irritation bubbling just beneath your skin. “I’m not going unless you come too.”
“Sure,” he replies flatly, eyes trained firmly on the floor, refusing so much as to glance your way.
Your patience starts getting thin, and you lean in just enough to provoke him. “Oh, so you do care about Jun. I see.”
That gets his attention. He turns to you with a flash of frustration in his eyes, and before you can even begin to salvage the moment, before you can remind yourself that you are catastrophically bad at damage control, his hand closes tightly around yours. He tugs you forward without any warning, leading you behind him through the corridor with his strides.
“Let’s go then,” he voices it out, clipped but resolute.
You shake your head to yourself, trailing in his wake, unable to suppress the thought. This pride will be the end of them one day.
Minghao begins to walk in the direction of his parked car when you call out and tell him that you will be driving and that you will be taking your own vehicle instead. He offers no resistance, which surprises you slightly, though in retrospect, his silence makes kind of sense.
The two of you settle into your car without another word, fastening your seat belts before you begin the short drive toward the city.
Barely two minutes into the journey, he finally speaks, asking where exactly you are headed. “The hotel,” you reply evenly, not glancing away from the road.
He frowns. “This isn’t the way.”
You blink unimpressed, and ask, ”Did you genuinely think I meant the hotel booked for the team?” He doesn't answer, and you scoff before adding, “That hotel is literally thirty minutes away from the hospital, and there would be no way to return before Jun’s visitation window if you went there.”
He just nods and says, “Figured.”
“As if,” you respond under your breath dryly.
You reach the hotel in about five minutes. These days, hotels of decent standard are scattered across every part of the city, and this one is both conveniently located and secure—on par with the team’s official booking, but far closer to the hospital. You and Minghao check in quickly, presenting your identification, and are offered a large suite with two separate bathrooms. One room was sufficient; not only is it the more efficient choice, but privacy is paramount, and the front desk is given explicit instruction to limit all disturbances. You make a note to request heightened discretion in the event that anyone recognizes Minghao, and the staff assures you of reinforced security.
Sharing space with him is hardly strange. You are, after all, his ex race engineer and his sister, and now serve as Jun’s current engineer. Your name exists enough in public circles that no one will dare misconstrue the arrangement.
Once inside, you waste no time. You push Minghao toward one of the bathrooms and disappear into the other. Neither of you speak until later. Showers are taken quickly, steam and silence doing what they can to dull exhaustion that was carried in. You both emerge in white robes, only to change back into the same clothes from earlier because desperation wins over style. When you exit the bathroom, Minghao is seated on the edge of the bed, elbows resting on his knees, hands still.
You cross the room and stop in front of him.
"I'm sorry," you begin. "I don’t really know what to say." He doesn’t respond and not even a shift in his posture. You continue, "I was a little mad at first, but I never blamed you. I just… I hope you don’t either. I hope you don’t sit here and spend the rest of your life convincing yourself this was your fault."
Still, no reply. His eyes are lowered on to the wall or whatever there is. You reach out to ruffle his hair, intending to step away, but he finally speaks.
“It is kind of my fault,” he says tonelessly. “I worked him up. I didn’t back down. And now he’s in a hospital bed and might not race for weeks.” You remain quiet while waiting for him to continue speaking, because you know he’s got more to say. “I could tell he wasn’t doing well. The things he said to me after the race… I know I pissed him off, but it wasn’t just that. He doesn’t see me as a teammate anymore. He sees me as competition. Maybe even worse.”
He just states it plainly with certainty you can’t argue with.
“I know,” you admit. “It felt like that. But Jun isn’t himself either. You both know how to pull each other apart. It’s not one person’s fault.”
“I still can’t let it go,” he says. “Because, what he said… it was still wrong.”
You sit beside him, unsure of how to fix a fracture neither of you caused alone. You pat his shoulder with a, “It’s okay,” then step away to answer the knock at the door, already assuming it to be room service.
The clock reads forty minutes past the hour—twenty minutes remain before Jun’s visitation begins. You feel prideful about yourself [a bit of Minghao for understanding the importance of time management] for managing to freshen up within time, and also for offering Minghao a semblance of comfort, however unqualified your words may have been.
You retrieve the meal from the cart, choosing something simple and clean, and hand one portion to Minghao with a gesture, your hand nudging the container into his as you say, “Eat up. I’ll check us out.” He accepts it wordlessly, following behind with your shared bag slung over his shoulder; your laptop the only item you brought in your rush to the hospital last night.
The hotel check-out was fast, and you return to the car, taking the wheel as Minghao settles beside you in silence, his elbow resting against the window, fingers pressed lightly to his temple. You don’t speak. This is how he grieves: quietly, inwardly, without any invitation.
The drive back takes just under five minutes—mercy from the city’s usual congestion. You pull into the hospital entrance with eight minutes to spare before Jun’s visitation window begins.
As you begin to walk toward the lift, Minghao reaches out and catches your hand, prompting you to pause and glance back at him with expectation of why he just stopped you. He hesitates for a moment before asking, “Are you okay?”
You respond with a smile, assuring him, “I am managing just fine.”
He lowers his gaze slightly and murmurs, “It must be difficult for you too—being Jun’s race engineer and witnessing the rift that’s grown between us.”
Yet you shake your head and tell him, “I'm doing what I can, and all I really want is for Jun to return to his usual self, to put his pride aside, and for you to heal from whatever has been festering.” He gives a nod in acknowledgment, so you offer a final remark with lightness in your tone, “Stay focused and gather all the points you can while you still have the advantage, because once Jun returns, I won’t be giving you any leeway,” before you start walking again.
Thankfully, you arrive just in time. “The doctor will call in a minute,” Joshua informs you, and you nod with an, “Alright.”
You and Minghao take your seats in the waiting area, waiting in silence until the doctor eventually appears. The team principal and Joshua are the first to go in, followed by a few other staff members whom you insist should see Jun before you, so that when it’s finally your turn, you wouldn't need to rush out.
Minghao remains beside you throughout the wait, wordless but present, until nearly half an hour passes and the room finally empties. Joshua raises his hand and gestures for the two of you to enter, so you rise and follow him in.
The moment you step inside, your eyes go straight to Jun. He is the only thing you see at first, then the angry purple spreading across the ridge of his cheekbone, and the dried blood cracking at the corner of his mouth. You feel your throat tighten and emotion clawing its way up, but you swallow it down. Accidents are part of this world, inevitable, even necessary sometimes. They teach caution. Still, if this had been Minghao, you know you would have been by his side from the moment it happened, for as long as he needed, even through all the arguments and cold wars that define your sibling bond. But with Jun, it’s different. The relationship is just as important, but off-limits all the same, and you remind yourself of that bitter truth as you glance at Minghao, who, like you, says nothing and remains standing.
You move forward and take the seat to Jun’s right. “How are you feeling?” you ask nicely, making sure your voice is measured.
“Hurts like shit,” he murmurs with a faint attempt at a smirk, and you allow yourself a small exhale.
Minghao remains still behind you, and not once does Jun acknowledge his presence. The tension is deafening. Jun doesn't look at him, and Minghao says nothing, though you can feel his silence that is laced with a hurt that you know all too well.
He didn’t sleep, and barely breathed through the night, yet his best friend can't spare him a single glance. Your patience begins to fray. You bite back the anger that simmers under your ribs, because now isn't the time. Jun may be upright, awake, responsive—but he is still healing. And though the conversation is shallow, all surface-level civility, it's enough for now. The grogginess in Jun’s tone matches what the doctor told you earlier—he may be alert, but he is still weak, and the real confrontation can wait. For now, you stay.
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📰 BREAKING: Wen Junhui to Return to China Following Off-Track Accident in Baku
Reported by Rev from Grand Prix Bulletin
September 22, 2025 | 11:08 AM
Sebong Racing has confirmed that driver Wen Junhui will be flying back to China for recovery following an off-track vehicular accident that occurred hours after the conclusion of the Azerbaijan Grand Prix.
According to an official team statement, the incident took place on a restricted-access road near the paddock zone late Sunday evening. While no third-party vehicles or pedestrians were involved, preliminary reports from both internal telemetry logs and security footage suggest the accident was the result of aggressive acceleration and unstable control inputs, signs consistent with impaired emotional focus rather than mechanical failure.
Junhui was transported to a medical facility immediately after the incident. Team medical officials have now disclosed that the driver sustained a Grade 1 concussion and cervical strain, both of which require rest and ongoing monitoring, though his condition remains stable and non-critical.
“While Jun’s injuries are minor by medical definition, the decision to repatriate him to China was made in consultation with our medical advisors and his family,” said Sebong team principal Chee Smith. “Recovery in a familiar and private environment will ensure a more comprehensive return to form.”
Junhui is expected to remain under rest and observation for the coming week, after which further evaluations will determine his timeline for return.
The team has not commented on the emotional circumstances leading to the incident, though internal sources note tensions following the race and visible signs of mental fatigue. Further updates will be shared as they become available.
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Sebong Confirms Wen Junhui to Sit Out Singapore GP 2025; Reserve Driver Jeon Wonwoo Steps In
September 23, 2025 — 9:02 AM GMT+1
WRITTEN by RaeSide
Sebong Racing has officially confirmed that Wen Junhui will not participate in the upcoming Singapore Grand Prix, citing medical recovery protocols following his post-race accident in Baku.
The decision was made after extensive review by both FIA medical staff and Sebong’s internal team of specialists. Though Junhui’s injuries are namely a minor concussion and cervical muscle strain, they don't pose long-term risks, but doctors have advised that he refrain from high-speed driving until cleared in full. The team has not ruled out a return later in the season, but have confirmed he will miss at least one race, with further participation evaluated on a week-by-week basis.
Stepping in to replace him is Jeon Wonwoo, Sebong’s official reserve and simulator driver since 2023. Known for his composure during testing sessions, Jeon will make his Formula 1 race debut in Singapore.
Wonwoo has been instrumental behind the scenes with data simulations and development feedback. He’s familiar with both the car and our engineering protocols, and we’re confident in his ability to deliver a composed performance under pressure. — team manager Joshua Hong.
Junhui’s absence raises short-term questions about Sebong’s strategy in the Constructors’ Championship, where the team is currently positioned fourth. Nonetheless, team representatives emphasized that the priority remains Junhui’s full recovery and long-term performance sustainability.
The driver pairing of Minghao Xu and Jeon Wonwoo will run the weekend in Singapore, with practice sessions providing the final car setup evaluations.
Further announcements will be made ahead of the next race weekend.
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“So, um, I’ll see you later this week,” you say, standing beside him at the terminal gate, your flight to Singapore now boarding. Though you're momentarily unassigned, duty calls, and the team expects your presence.
Jun reaches out to pat your head, his hand staying there for a second before he says, “Take care. Work well. Don’t overthink things too much.” You nod, though both of you understand what goes unsaid—he is still unwell, emotionally and mentally, and you're not entirely certain whether he truly wants you near him right now.
You want to stay back, scream at him, make him talk to Minghao, and finally release all the frustration and pride he's been clinging to. Perhaps if he just talked, if he stopped misreading the only person who’s been in his corner all along, it wouldn’t feel so suffocating between them. Maybe if he threw that cursed phone out of the window, half his miseries would resolve themselves. He'll begin therapy soon enough, and you'll visit when it seems he is ready to face you—and the anger you’ve been holding back.
You step forward and wrap your arms around him, holding him while his arms return the gesture in full. He feels warm, familiar, and so yours, even though he isn’t. Pulling away with reluctance buried beneath your composure, you bid him goodbye and walk alongside Minghao and the rest of the team towards your gate, leaving Jun behind to board his own flight to China, which is scheduled to depart in another hour.
You settle into your seat beside Minghao on the plane. It has always been routine for the three of you to alternate seating arrangements. Sometimes Minghao and Jun would sit together, other times Minghao with you, while Jun shared a row with Joshua or someone else.
Barely two minutes pass before Minghao glances at you from the side and, in a tone that holds no trace of humour, asks, “Do you have feelings for Jun? Romantic feelings?”
Your breath catches, and for a moment, you are too stunned to speak. “What? Absolutely not. Are you insane?” you say, though the denial tumbles from your mouth far too quickly for comfort.
“That hug didn’t look platonic to me.”
You blink at him, offended. “It was just a hug, and I wasn’t exactly holding a stopwatch. What, you want us to high five next time?”
“I’m serious,” he turns fully toward you now. “I don’t like it. I don’t want you getting close to him outside of work.”
You frown. “You do understand that we grew up together? Do you?”
“I don’t care,” he states plainly. “And I don’t think Jun sees you the same way you see him.”
You stare at him in disbelief. “What is wrong with you? We’re strictly platonic. Jun and I have always been that way, and honestly, even if we weren’t, you have no right to dictate who I’m close to.”
“I do have a right,” he snaps. “Because you’re not just some girl I know. You're my sister, and even if I didn’t have that right, it still wouldn’t be him.”
You exhale, trying to calm yourself. Minghao’s pettiness is unusually transparent right now. He’s almost never like this openly emotional, sharp-edged in his judgment, but maybe the strain of their recent fallout has clouded his usual logic. Or maybe this has always been how he felt. You’ve never tried opening up to him about your feelings for Jun, largely because Jun himself has never shown the faintest hint of interest, but now you are certain: if there is anyone in this world you cannot tell, it's Minghao.
You rest your head back against the seat and turn slightly toward the window, hiding the swell of exhaustion behind your lashes. You try to calm your heart, try to tell yourself this conversation is simply an outcome of stress and temper. But deep inside, you're forced to confront the truth that if this is how Minghao reacts to just the idea of you being close to Jun, there's no universe in which you could ever admit the feelings you’ve been carefully tucking away. You can't tell him.
“I just don’t get why this bothers you so much,” you say after a pause. “Jun and I are not like that. We’ve never been like that.”
“That’s the problem,” Minghao's arms are crossed as he leans toward you slightly. “You’re too close, and maybe you’re too blind to see how that looks to everyone else.”
You shake your head as your patience thins. “There is nothing to see. We grew up together. We trained together. I’ve seen him puke after track drills, and he’s watched me cry over simulation crashes. If that’s romance to you, then I feel sorry for your future spouse.”
“That’s not what I meant,” he says tightly. “You’re affectionate. You care too much. You look at him like you’d wait forever if he just turned around once.”
You blink at him stunned not by the accuracy, but by the fact that he noticed at all. “Even if that were true,” you say carefully wording it, “he’s never turned, and you know I wouldn’t let feelings get in the way of work. I’m his engineer, Minghao. Not his lover.”
Minghao huffs a bitter laugh. “I don’t want you to be either.”
Your eyebrows pull together. “That’s not your choice to make.”
“It is when it’s Jun,” he snaps. “Anyone but him.”
“That’s ridiculous,” you say flatly. “You’re being petty because you two fought. That’s not a valid reason to hate him all of a sudden.”
“I’m not being petty,” his voice rising despite himself. “I’m being honest. You deserve someone who won’t treat you like a background convenience. He doesn’t even really see you, And yet you... you’d burn for him, wouldn't you?”
You don’t answer, because the silence between you says what you never will.
Minghao slumps back slightly but doesn’t look away. “He’s not the one for you. I’m sorry, but I won’t pretend to be okay with it.”
Your chest tightens and thoughts tangle, “you don’t have to be okay with anything, but you also don’t get to decide what I feel.”
“I don’t want to watch you get hurt by someone who doesn’t even know how lucky he is.”
Your voice softens just a bit but still going strong. “That’s not your responsibility.” He doesn’t argue, but he doesn’t agree either.
-
You begin your day before dawn, arriving at the paddock ahead of schedule because you refuse to feel unprepared. The garage is quiet this early, so you station yourself at your terminal, reviewing the overnight data logs one last time: tyre degradation simulations, downforce mapping, delta spreads between Wonwoo’s FP2 runs and Jun’s historic baselines on the same circuit.
Though Jun is absent, your mind operates as if he were still here. You annotate setup preferences that might translate for Wonwoo, cross-referencing them against driver feedback from trackwalks and telemetry overlays. You don't speak much to anyone unless approached; your presence is understood and your focus remains uninterrupted and respected by the team. When Wonwoo enters for the morning briefing, you pass him the updated car behaviour notes you compiled, stating only the essentials and then stepping aside to allow his own engineer to lead.
The technical director asks for a final debrief before you depart for China to check up on Jun, so you remain behind after the garage closes to update the central log with your recommendations and analysis. You keep your wording neutral and impersonal, although every graph you touch still reflects Jun’s style of driving. Before shutting your laptop, you upload one copy of your notes onto the secured remote link, the one only he and you share. You don't write a message to go with it.
At the end of the day, you return to the hotel with the others, pack somewhat, and leave a short message with the team operations manager regarding your flight to Shenzhen. No one asks why you are going, because they already know. They already know that you aren't travelling for leisure, nor for the reassignment, you are going because Jun is still your driver.
As you make your way through the airport, prepared to confront every irritable checkpoint officer just to get to your gate, your phone rings. The caller ID displays Minghao’s name, so you answer without hesitation.
“Where are you?”
“At the airport. Where else would I be?” you respond without hiding your irritation.
But then, a shoulder nudges yours, and as you turn around to see who's bothering you, you almost cuss. Minghao is standing directly in front of you, phone still pressed to his ear with an infuriatingly blank expression on his face.
“What the hell are you doing here?” you ask, stunned.
He doesn’t reply immediately, instead, he falls into step beside you with his boarding pass in hand, and offers only a slight shrug. “I had a day,” he just states. “And I don’t trust you not to cry alone in your bedroom.”
You roll your eyes, though the corner of your mouth twitches. “Just say you don’t trust Jun not to flirt with me while recovering from a near-death experience.”
He scoffs, adjusting the strap of his duffel bag on his shoulder. “Don’t flatter yourself,” he says. “I just don’t want him thinking you flew across countries for him alone. That’s the problem with Jun. Y’all keep making it too easy.”
You say nothing, but you know he means you more than anyone else. You’re painfully aware of how the accident and Jun’s coldness afterward have affected Minghao. You’re equally aware that your brother doesn’t want you around Jun without some sort of emotional chaperone, convinced you’ll slip or fall into feelings you swore to deny. It’s part overbearing protectiveness, part jealousy, paranoia, and entirely Minghao. He would never admit it aloud, but tagging along is his way of keeping watch and from shielding you without saying he’s worried.
And if you're being honest, he shouldn't be worried. You’ve wanted to hit Jun, scream at him, and kiss him all in the same breath for years now. You’ve long since accepted that you like him more than you probably should, but you've also accepted that you will never tell him, because it’s clear he doesn’t feel the same. If you ever confessed, he'd shut you out, and you aren’t willing to lose whatever closeness remains.
Still, Minghao’s antagonism stirs pettiness in you. The more he insists you can’t be with Jun, the more tempting the idea becomes. But regardless of what your brother believes, the truth remains unchanged: you found love in the only place it wasn't supposed to be, and that is, in your brother’s best friend.
Boarding is miraculously smooth, thanks to Minghao’s privilege, and you find your seats quickly. Once settled, he leans toward you with the composure of a man about to deliver a public service announcement.
“Listen carefully,” he begins. “No romantic stares, no emotional monologues, no touching. You are there to check on your driver, not to fall in love.” You roll your eyes again, but he isn’t finished. “I know you’re lying through your teeth, but I’m choosing to believe you because we’re blood. And blood is thicker than water. But I swear, if you so much as look at him in a way that confirms anything, I’m flying him straight to Antarctica.”
“You hate him that much now?” you huff rolling your eyes.
“Hate is generous,” he says. “I loathe him.”
You don't bother to argue further, allowing Minghao to cling to his so-called loathing of Jun as he pleases. Deep down, you know it's a complicated mixture of jealousy, frustration, and genuine concern that fuels his bitterness. You choose silence over confrontation, understanding that some battles are better left unwaged, especially when the feelings involved are so tangled and unresolved.
After nearly four hours in the air, you arrive at Shenzhen airport without incident. The journey was uneventful, and soon after landing, you and Minghao part ways to return to your respective residences. it's decided… rather declared, that he will pick you up in an hour because, in his own words, you cannot be trusted alone with Jun. You know his possessiveness for what it is: a blend of paranoia and pettiness, that only a brother could justify. You comply without protest because you are too tired to argue, and it's not as if you are planning to propose or fuck Jun or something. You return to your apartment, unpack, wash your face, and rot onto your bed. There, you drift in a fog of thought: Jun’s injuries, the impending shift in the team, Wonwoo’s upcoming responsibilities, and the undefined shape of your own role within it all. Eventually, fatigue tugs you under without any warning.
The doorbell startles you awake. You drag yourself out of bed, shuffling across the floor, brushing hair from your face as you reach the door and twist the lock open. Minghao stands there with his hands shoved into his jacket pockets, expression unimpressed.
"Let’s go."
"Why?" you croak, voice hoarse from sleep.
"I told you I’d pick you up. We’re going to see Jun."
You look at him dazed. "I just woke up. I thought we were going later."
"Unless you changed your mind and don’t want to see that dumbass, I’m still driving."
You frown and cross your arms. "I obviously want to see Jun. And he’s not a dumbass."
Minghao rolls his eyes with theatrical exaggeration. "You’re defending him now? Great."
You glance down at yourself and gesture vaguely at your oversized t-shirt and socks. "I’m not going anywhere looking like this."
"You had an hour to get dressed, and you don’t need to look good to visit someone in recovery. You’re not there to impress him."
"I’m not trying to impress him," you huff. "I just don’t want to look like a corpse in public."
"No one’s looking at you anyway."
"Fine. Since you’re so sure, now I’ll dress up just for Jun."
He raises an eyebrow, "That’s pathetic."
You ignore him entirely, spinning on your heel as he mutters under his breath, and disappear into your room, already mentally pairing your eyeliner with petty vengeance.
You get out of your room fully dressed, adorned as though you were preparing for an evening date rather than a patient visit. It's rare for you to put this much effort into your appearance without a formal occasion, and while both Minghao and Jun have seen you dressed elegantly before, it was always for birthdays, ceremonies, or team events—not for an undefined visit on an unremarkable day. You have never simply chosen to look beautiful for no reason, and certainly never in front of the two of them without context.
Minghao glances up at you, unimpressed. “Go change.”
“No.”
He scoffs and looks away. “You look ridiculous. You’re not walking into Jun’s room looking like this.”
“You’re being dramatic,” you brush invisible lint off your sleeve.
“You’re being shameless.”
You inhale and then glare at him. “I’m literally just dressed. I’m not naked. Let’s go.”
“I’ll tell him you did it for attention.”
“I’ll tell him you cried watching K-drama clips on TikTok last week.”
His jaw tightens. “Low blow.”
You smile, sickly sweet. “Still want to keep playing?”
He says nothing, just storms ahead toward the elevator with his shoulders tense and silent in his sulking. Despite all the pettiness exchanged, you follow him out the door, neither of you having won the argument, and Minghao visibly bitter about it.
The drive goes in complete silence just as you anticipated, and before you can even register the passage of time, Minghao pulls into the familiar residential complex. Jun has been instructed to remain at home under strict rest, with no physical exertion or simulation training permitted until cleared by his attending physician, who is scheduled to visit at intervals of four to five hours for neurological observation and vitals monitoring, as per the team's medical protocol.
You step out of the car and walk toward the entrance, knocking on the door yourself because Minghao, saturated in his own quiet resentment, can't be bothered to lift a hand and do even the smallest gesture of civility. Moments later, the door swings open. Jun appears on the other side, and for a fleeting second, his expression lights up in genuine surprise at the sight of you—then stays a moment longer, clearly taken aback by how beautiful you look, eyes momentarily flicking down in disbelief before rising again to meet yours.
“Surprise,” you smile at him.
His eyes move past you to the figure beside you, and just as quickly, his face falters. The warmth dissipates fully as his gaze rests on Minghao. Without a word, Jun steps aside, granting you enough space to enter, though it’s clear the atmosphere has already changed.
You walk into his apartment, the scent and arrangement as familiar as ever, and lower yourself onto the sofa.
“How are you feeling now?” you ask as you glance over at him.
Jun leans against the wall with his arms crossed, “Better than yesterday. Still a bit dizzy when I get up too fast,” he admits to you though his tone sounds a bit quiet.
“Are you eating properly?” you follow up.
“Trying to.” He shrugs, then looks toward the hallway, “Nurse dropped off some food earlier.”
Minghao remains standing, arms folded, as if part of the furniture. “They said you’ll have your next evaluation in a few hours?” you ask.
“Yeah. Doctor's coming at four. Might change the medication again depending on the scan results.”
You nod, “And the team doctor? Did they call?”
Jun lets out a slight sigh. “They called in the morning. Said I’m grounded until they get three clean reports in a row. Something about balance reflexes and neural feedback. I don’t know.”
“It’s standard, you know that,” you are watching his face carefully as you talk.
He offers a nod, eyes drifting away. “Still feels like shit hearing it.”
You glance at Minghao who hasn’t moved. “You want to say something?”
“No.”
Jun exhales, maybe a bit annoyed. “Did you drag him here?”
You shake your head. “No. He insisted on coming.”
Jun scoffs under his breath. “Of course.”
“Stop it,” you say. “Both of you.”
You lean back into the couch, preparing yourself to play mediator in the war they still refuse to let die between them. Minghao turns to you with a look so dumbfounded and wounded, it makes you wince.
“What did I do?” he demands, his voice fogged with disbelief. “He literally just insulted me and I’m the one who needs to stop?” You open your mouth since you are painfully aware of how flimsy your neutrality must look, but you forgot how to speak under this pressure. Minghao lets out a bitter laugh and then turning to Jun, adds with somewhat of no respect, “For your information, I don’t trust you to be alone with her.”
Jun looks a bit stunned at that and raises his eyebrow. “What is wrong with you? Since when are you so protective?”
“She’s my sister,” Minghao snaps at him. “And no, I don’t trust you.”
“Do you think I’d do something to her?” Jun’s tone climbs. “She’s my engineer. We’ve spent just as much time together, if not more, than you have with her. This is so ridiculous.”
You shoot a horrified glance between the two of them, feeling the room heat up, yet you remain frozen, unable to defuse anything.
“Well, from now on,” Minghao cuts in and you can see his jaw visibly clench, “I’ll be around every time she’s here.”
Jun scoffs. “You think I’m going to make a move on her? That’s what you’re scared of?”
“Yes,” Minghao replies flatly.
You stare at him, bewildered. Just days ago he was accusing you of making a move on Jun, and now he’s flipped 180° completely, convinced it’s Jun who poses the threat. You keep silent, unsure which version of your brother is more unhinged.
Jun’s expression twists in frustration. “She can stay here if she wants, but it’s disgusting that your mind even goes there.” That hits more than you expect. So this is how he sees it. The idea of me… of us, together in any way, is repulsive to him. Not just implausible. Repulsive.
“If you can have the audacity to think I’m a threat to you, then I absolutely have the right to see you as a threat to her,” Minghao tells Jun as a matter of fact.
Jun falters at that, momentarily taken aback. You, sitting between them, watch two people you love destroy years of friendship with each exchanged words aimed just low enough to scar. You feel helpless, all you can do is sit still and hope they stop before the pieces are too small to fix.
Jun recovers his composure then looks directly at you. “If she wants to spend time with me, she will. I don’t need your permission, Minghao. You don’t control her. And if she wants to date me, she’ll date me. If I want to date her, I will.”
That catches you off guard, making your breath hitch for the smallest second. Minghao stiffens, stepping forward as his jaw tightens. “You think this is control? You think I’m doing this for fun?” he hisses. “You’re delusional if you believe you’re some innocent victim here. You’ve done nothing but shut me out, and now you're pretending you care?”
Jun’s voice hardens, “You’re the one drawing lines in places they don’t exist. I’ve never seen her as anything but—”
“Stop. Please. Just stop.” You shoot up from your seat which makes both of them shut up. You inhale shakily and turn to Jun, trying your best to stay composed. “I should go now. I’ll visit again soon, but I’m leaving China tomorrow morning. Please take care of yourself until then.”
“You don’t have to leave just because Minghao’s being ridiculous.”
You shake your head firmly. “I’m not leaving because of Minghao.” You look at both of them now and no longer try to mask the exhaustion etched into your expression. “I’m leaving because both of you are being ridiculous. You’re ruining something that’s been standing for over a decade, and for what? Misplaced pride? Bruised egos? You both need to grow up. This isn’t just what happened on that track or in that hospital. It’s how neither of you know how to speak when you both should and how both of you would rather fight than admit you're hurt.” A tear slips down your cheek, and you make no effort to hide it. “You’re both being fucking dumbasses.”
For the first time in like fifteen minutes, both their heads are bowed. You're sure it's not because they feel guilty, but maybe because they had in the faint realization that they’ve let it go too far. And you walk away with your heart heavy, because someone has to be the adult here.
You slide into the passenger seat and close the door with a tired exhale. A minute later, Minghao joins you, wordlessly settling behind the wheel. He doesn’t speak for a while, only stating he’s starting the car, and you remain silent as the car comes to life. The road begins to blur past the windows before he finally breaks the silence.
“I’m sorry for how I kept going back and forth with him. I know it probably exhausted you too.”
You rub your temple, your fingers pressing against the tension gathering at your brow, and offer him a nod. “I appreciate that. And I’m sorry too. I know asking you to stop must’ve hurt, especially when you weren’t the one who started it in the first place. He hums barely audible, his gaze fixed on the road ahead. You wait a second before speaking again. “Jun is wrong right now, but he’s not stable enough to see past his own thoughts. He needs time to figure out that you’re not his enemy. And in the meantime, you seriously need to control the absolute nonsense that keeps coming out of your mouth.
He scoffs, but not without a tinge of guilt. “So I should just stay quiet and let him keep saying whatever the hell he wants?”
“No. Try being kind for once. Or at the very least, be the bigger person. Stop shouting like you're twelve and listen to what he’s really saying.”
“He doesn’t want to talk. He just wants to make everything my fault.”
“Maybe because he thinks it is, maybe because he needs someone to blame, and maybe, if you actually showed him that you still care, even a little, he'd realise how stupid all this is.”
Minghao gives you no reply, and from the tight press of his lips and his grip on the steering wheel, you can tell he has chosen to take your advice of silence. It's not because he agrees with you and understood what you said, but because he believes arguing further would only affirm his suspicion that you're speaking nonsense.
The car rolls to a stop outside your apartment building. You reach for the handle, but before you can open the door, Minghao speaks sharply, “Don’t sneak out to see him alone.”
You whip your head to him and throw your hand in the air, exasperated. “Drop that attitude. And while you’re at it, you still owe him an apology for that punch. Don’t think I’ve forgotten.”
“I’ll think about it.”
And with that, you step out, shutting the door behind you and walking toward the building without another glance.
-
CONFIDENTIAL PSYCHOTHERAPY SESSION NOTE
Filed by: Dr. Lin Yuchen, PhD, Clinical Psychologist | Federation Medical Advisory Unit – Performance and Trauma Division
PATIENT: Wen Junhui | Professional F1 Driver, Sebong Racing
SESSION DATE: September 27
SESSION #: 2 of 6 (Post-Incident Acute Cycle)
LOCATION: Private Residence – Shenzhen
DURATION: 65 minutes
PRESENTATION & INITIAL OBSERVATIONS:
Patient received me at the door with a neutral expression and remained courteous but notably distant throughout the interaction. He remains under medical observation for minor concussion, soft tissue injuries, and a bruised orbital ridge. Though cleared for conversation and light psychological engagement, he demonstrated mild photosensitivity and occasional disassociation.
Arrived to the session having just completed mandatory physical rehabilitation check-in. Hair slightly damp, likely showered recently. Wore casual clothing which was a loose-fitting hoodie and sweatpants, indicating an attempt to remain comfortable. No outward signs of distress but sat angled toward the window, eyes tracking movement outside more than meeting mine.
Mood flat. Affect constricted. Minimal gesturing. Paused frequently, required some prompting. Showed resistance to discussing certain topics, particularly around team dynamics.
SESSION THEMES:
1. Professional Displacement & Loss of Rhythm
Expressed difficulty reconciling with the current state of non-participation. Verbalized frustration not about the accident itself, but the subsequent void in routine:
“It’s the noise I miss. The schedule. The weight of the suit. Not even the adrenaline—just… waking up and knowing who I am.”
Demonstrates emerging identity disturbance triggered by sudden removal from competitive structure. Physical limitations compound the sense of stagnation. Patient repeatedly mentions ‘points,’ ‘lead,’ and ‘margin’ in reference to standings, yet does not mention the collision directly until prompted.
2. Interpersonal Conflict
The conversation eventually shifted toward the recent altercation with teammate Xu Minghao. Describes it not as an argument but, A break I didn’t want. When asked to elaborate, the patient reluctantly admitted guilt and emotional fatigue, stating:
“I said things I wouldn’t say if I’d slept. Or if I wasn’t afraid of what he’d say first.”
Patient perceives former friend as now inherently mistrustful of him. Describes Minghao’s protectiveness toward a shared colleague (engineer) with derision but also some resignation. Direct quote:
“He probably thinks I’m going to hurt her. That I’m reckless with people too. Maybe I am. Maybe he’s right.”
This led to mild agitation. He briefly removed his compression brace, then returned it to his wrist without comment. No aggressive behavior exhibited, but non-verbal indicators pointed to internal distress.
3. Emotional Detachment & Avoidance
Efforts to explore emotional fallout from the accident yielded guarded, often dissociative language. Patient resists feeling vocabulary, preferring metaphors. When asked how he felt seeing others worry for him:
“Like I was watching them through a one-way mirror. Everyone’s looking, but no one really sees you.”
There were subtle but recurring allusions to a specific individual (the aforementioned engineer) regarding perceived disappointment and concern. Mentions her by first name only once, but refers obliquely five times.
Though romantic implications were not stated outright, the attachment appears more than professional. Patient was unwilling to explore further, deflecting with a, It’s not relevant. That statement alone, however, denotes awareness of its emotions.
TREATMENT PLAN:
Encourage cognitive restructuring around self-worth beyond physical output and competitive success.
Guided journaling: reflections not only on race strategy but emotional responses to team interactions.
Begin boundary work and processing of rupture in primary friendships (esp. with Xu Minghao).
Introduce somatic grounding techniques to reconnect body awareness during post-injury stillness.
Postpone any attempts to process affectional confusion until baseline regulation is re-established.
PROGNOSIS:
Patient displays clear signs of psychological fatigue, loss of purpose, and fractured relational trust, but still maintains executive function and a desire to ‘fix’ what has been broken. Insight is emerging, though distorted by pride and shame. His readiness to speak, even if reluctantly, suggests openness to recovery.
NOTABLE QUOTE (UNPROMPTED):
“I’ll race again. That part’s easy. But I don’t know if I’ll get them back. I mean the people.”
NEXT SESSION: Scheduled October 3rd, 10:00 AM CST
NOTE: Recommend medical clearance for light social interaction but continued restriction on team-related stressors. Emotional monitoring advised should tensions escalate post-Shanghai debrief.
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You decided to be good. You don't sneak out at night, or risk another argument with Minghao, and also don't attempt to soothe your own anxiety by showing up at Jun’s door again. Instead, you do what a good girl should do: you stay in your apartment, shower off the noise of yesterday’s clash, fold your clothes, and pack your luggage for Singapore. When sleep eventually comes, it's brittle and shallow, but at least it comes.
The next morning arrives with the inevitability of duty. You wake before your alarm, and after getting dressed, you meet the Minghao in the lobby. He's already waiting, arms crossed, back leaned against the tinted van. He doesn't say much, but his gaze stays on you as you approach, trying to read whether you disobeyed him. You meet his stare evenly, offering a nod that answers everything and nothing at once. So he doesn't ask.
The ride to the airport is boring. You do your job. You travel back as instructed. You board the plane to Singapore with Minghao, your credentials clipped neatly to your chest, your mind lodged somewhere between two cities, two boys, and a hundred unsaid things. And even as the plane lifts from the tarmac and the ground falls away beneath you, the weight on your chest doesn't lighten.
You didn't see Jun again. You were good. And yet, it hurt a bit.
Upon arriving in Singapore, you do what your role demands. You sit through the race briefings, cross-reference data from the last track with the early feedback Wonwoo provide during FP1, and adjust your notes accordingly for strategy recommendations. Although you are technically unassigned as Jun’s race engineer until his return, the team has requested you to observe and provide performance insights from the pitwall, acting as a backup and strategic consultant where needed. You don’t complain; it's better than rotting in a hotel room thinking about what-ifs and what-could-have-beens.
During Practice 2, you pace behind the monitors, headset on, scribbling observations while Minghao complains about understeer in Sector 3.
“It’s too twitchy mid-corner,” he says.
“Copy that,” you say into the comms, “Tell the garage we’ll adjust front wing angle by two clicks. Check tire pressures while you’re in.”
Though it isn’t your job to respond, the team still values your input enough to let you speak when necessary. Wonwoo, in the meantime, is really consistent, pushing laps with clean exits, sending no complaints unless asked. The real test comes on Qualifying night.
You find yourself once again standing behind the pitwall console, as you watch Minghao taking pole by two-tenths. The team erupts into applause, and you allow yourself a small smile. You glance toward where the engineers stand over telemetry, and Wonwoo walks back to the garage after securing P6 on the grid, which, with a penalty to another driver, promotes him to P5 for race start. He nods to you from there, and you raise a thumb in return. He is nice.
Race day arrives, and there's this common tension going on. You go through the motions: data review, temperature checks, telemetry coordination, race simulations. You remain by the engineers rather than in your usual position, giving necessary feedback where applicable. You stay in your lane, but you stay involved.
And when Minghao takes the chequered flag first, you press your knuckles to your lips, unwilling to cheer too loudly. The others flood the pitwall with roars and claps, but you remain composed, recording the final lap deltas and making notes of post-race debrief points.
Wonwoo finishes P5. It was solid, clean, measured, and no mistakes. There was no drama, too. You’ll mention it in the report later.
After the national anthem fades and the trophy is lifted with yet another champagne spray saturating the podium air, you return to the garage unassuming among the clapping staff and celebratory clatter. This win marks Minghao’s tenth this season. It's no small feat, but it feels procedural now, expected. You remain composed and you offer nods where needed.
The energy shifts later in the hospitality room. Minghao slips into the seat beside you without asking and hands you a chilled glass of water he didn’t pour for himself.
“You’re sitting like you’re not allowed to smile,” he says.
“I’m working,” you answer nonchalantly with your eyes still fixed on the digital sheets on your tablet.
“You always say that when you don’t want to talk to me.”
“I always say that because I’m always working.”
He huffs but says nothing further and tapping his fingers restlessly on the table, his elbow brushing against yours a little too often. You know what he’s doing. He is hovering like a territorial cat, and while it would usually make you roll your eyes or shove him off, tonight you simply remain still. Joshua throws you a long look from across the room, saying nothing. He knows. All four of you now live under the same shadow.
Wonwoo passes by and slows when he spots you, offering a lopsided but sincere smile.
“Thanks again,” he says. “For the notes before FP2. That adjustment made a real difference.”
“Glad it helped,” your tone is warmer than it has been all evening, though it costs you something.
He doesn’t stay long, just a respectful nod and then he’s gone, weaving through people who slap his back and offer grins for a job well done. P5 for his first race in Jun’s car is something no one’s overlooking.
You stare into your water and breathe. It should’ve been Jun.
Minghao catches the shift in your expression and leans closer. “Don’t do that. It’s not your fault.”
“It’s not yours either.”
“Didn’t say it was. Just saying you don’t have to sit here like someone died.”
You finally turn to face him. “No one died, yes, but something… I don't know.”
He doesn't reply, only sighs, leaning back and rubbing his neck. The moment stretches into silence, familiar and awkward, until he mutters with an attempt at nonchalance:
“I’m hungry. Let’s go eat some real food. You’re gonna collapse from guilt and granola bars.”
“Fine. But I’m not talking about this anymore.”
“It's okay. I don't want to talk about this anyway. If I hear Jun’s name again tonight, I’ll drown you in the fountain.”
“Try me.”
He snorts at you. You walk beside him through the dim hallways. You don't know if this is peace or another intermission before another war. All you know is that Jun should have been there. And you would have really smiled, had he been. But now, you're just moving forward. Because there’s no pit stop for feelings in real life.
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Jeon Wonwoo Impresses with P5 Debut in Singapore: Pressure Mounts for Returning Star Jun Hui
Marina Bay, Singapore – October 5
In a dramatic night under the lights of Marina Bay Street Circuit, Sebong Racing’s reserve driver Jeon Wonwoo made a formidable entrance into Formula 1’s one of the most demanding calendar stop, finishing his debut race in an impressive P5—equaling the position veteran driver Jun Hui secured just two weeks prior in Azerbaijan, before being sidelined due to a car crash.
Wonwoo, who had only a handful of full-length simulations and limited FP1 laps to acclimate to the car, demonstrated remarkable composure across the 62 laps, handling tyre degradation and safety car restarts with the calmness of a seasoned driver. His defensive drive against Mc Karen's Lando Norris in the closing stages drew praise even from rival engineers, cementing his position as more than a temporary replacement.
While all eyes were on Xu Minghao as he secured his 10th win of the season extending his championship lead, Wonwoo’s strategy-disciplined P5 has sparked inevitable comparisons within the paddock and press circles. His consistency, particularly on the mediums during the middle stint, mirrored the exact performance metrics Jun posted during his last race finish before the crash.
This symmetry is raising eyebrows.
Jun, a proven contender and long-standing pillar of Sebong’s two-pronged championship strategy, has undeniably delivered brilliance this season. However, critics argue that his recent races have lacked the sharpness expected of a title rival, especially alongside Minghao’s dominant form. With Wonwoo delivering a clean, mistake-free race in a car tailored for someone else, the conversation is shifting towards accountability, and not replacement.
“Wonwoo’s composure under pressure is what you expect from someone in their third season, not their first Grand Prix,” said a former F1 team principal anonymously. “If you’re Jun, you’re watching that race from home and taking notes.”
Insiders confirm Jun is recovering well in Shenzhen, continuing his medical evaluations and therapy ahead of a tentative return. Whether he’ll be back for the next race remains uncertain, but what is clear is that expectations will be different when he does rejoin the grid.
For now, Sebong's bench is proving it runs deep. And with a rookie stepping into a star’s seat and delivering identical results, the message is kind of loud: in Formula 1, your past wins matter, but only your next race secures your future.
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everyone_woo: thanks for your hard work!
softlaunch_police: read the room maybe??? your driver literally isn’t racing??
soli.https: excuse me?? oh we SERVED tonight
moralspinal_out: can someone explain how this isn’t PR suicide? like your race engineer partying while the driver’s injured?
noflagsjustdrama: okay but imagine being Jun and seeing this. like. be serious for one minute
junfanclub.mx: why does she look like that 😭 i would also throw a tantrum and crash my car if she stopped being my engineer
↳ soli__luvs
@/junfanclub.mx she didn't stop being his engineer bro
lapdog.law: not saying she’s heartless but it’s giving “i’m good luv, enjoy recovery”
turn1dramaqueen: i know that dress got minghao checking ppl around her 5 times before leaving
turn1toxic: nah if my engineer did this while i was laid up recovering i’d never speak to her again
coffeeforcrashes: do engineers not have code of conduct or something? this feels wildly inappropriate
formula_haos: y’all are seeing the dress i’m seeing the absence of Jun in that seat
↳ dxnf1ghtjun
@/formula_haos no bc the car was built for him and she built the car
↳ carbontension
@/formula_haos realest thing i’ve read in weeks
↳ arian_2001
@/dxnf1ghtjun she built the car??
↳ dxnf1ghtjun
@/arian_2001 bro-
junhui_zone: no but genuinely imagine being replaced and then seeing her look like this 🫠
↳ heartsforhao
@/junhui_zone "replaced" is crazy 😭 he's on medical leave, not fired
↳ tracklimitsarefake
@/heartsforhao still hurts the same tbh 💔
teamradiofromhell: she posted champagne while Jun’s probably on painkillers rn. girl what
oversteer_obsessed: why do i feel like this is a breakup post for two people who were never public
↳ f1girlfail
@/oversteer_obsessed because it is
↳ lyu_aes_thetic
@/f1girlfail you both are looking too much into this. This is literally just her posting a cute photo
↳ turn1dramaqueen
@/lyu_aes_thetic yeah but why now??? she’s been silent since jun’s crash and then she drops this serving??? suspicious
↳ caffeine_and_carbon
@/turn1dramaqueen because maybe they’re professional? idk just a thought 🤡
↳ junhui_zone
@/oversteer_obsessed someone check on jun. if my engineer posted this while i was stuck at home recovering, i’d start rethinking my life
↳ engineeredchaos
@/oversteer_obsessed just here to say she looks amazing. like, unfairly good. f1 girls are really out here winning
↳ tracklimitsarefake
@/turn1dramaqueen okay but she’s jun’s engineer, not minghao’s. it makes sense she'd be quiet if he’s off-track. probably doesn’t wanna distract the team.
↳ lyu_aes_thetic
@/tracklimitsarefake thank you finally someone with a brain
↳ midfieldmeltdown
@/f1girlfail Y'all are so fucking stupid. From where are you getting the news that there's something romantic???? This is literally so stupid. THEY ARE FRIENDS AND COWORKERS
↳ haoisnotokay
@/turn1dramaqueen you people need sleep
softlaunchsyndrome: this isn’t minghao’s sister anymore this is a public figure i need to respectfully stalk
brakebiasbitch25: wild how quick she went from "worried about the team" to "catch me in the lounge”
haoisnotokay: so we all agree she's the axis of the garage universe right
↳ engineeredchaos
@/haoisnotokay her being silent is louder than the commentary
engineeredchaos: this is why engineers deserve podiums too. she SERVED.
hotlap.heaven: idk what her skincare routine is but she needs to release it to the public immediately
drs.daddy: she has no business looking this good after a 3-day race weekend i’m actually offended
carbonqueen.yn: everytime she posts the grid loses 3 tenths from sheer distraction
gridgirlgate: so your driver’s sitting out injured and you’re out here posting thirst traps? okay then
lap88despair: she my roman empire
↳ softlaunchsyndrome
@/lap88despair real
helmet_husbands: if she told me to recalibrate my fuel mapping i’d say thank you ma’am
undercut_universe: someone get FIA on the line because this level of beauty is unfair advantage
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CONFIDENTIAL PSYCHOTHERAPY SESSION NOTE
Filed by: Dr. Lin Yuchen, PhD, Clinical Psychologist | Federation Medical Advisory Unit – Performance and Trauma Division
PATIENT: Wen Junhui | Professional F1 Driver, Sebong Racing
SESSION DATE: October 3
SESSION #: 3 of 6 (Post-Incident Acute Cycle)
LOCATION: Private Residence – Shenzhen
DURATION: 70 minutes
PRESENTATION & INITIAL OBSERVATIONS:
Patient appeared more withdrawn than previous sessions, though punctual. Visible eye bruising reduced from prior week. Sat cross-legged on couch with arms crossed for the majority of session, avoiding eye contact. Responded monosyllabically at first, though engagement improved by midpoint. Several long silences were observed, but notably, he did not resist them.
Mood cynical. Affect blunted but mixed with hostility. Quick to dismiss encouragement. Frequently rubbed his neck and left shoulder—residual injury discomfort likely, though may also indicate anxiety.
Patient expressed growing resentment toward his own limitations, no longer describing the situation as temporary. Referred to himself as a “cautionary tale” and “ghost in the garage,” implying feelings of disposability and obsolescence.
“They don’t bench machines unless they’re broken. So maybe I am.”
When prompted on what he believes the team sees now, he replied:
“Someone they can replace. And someone who deserves it.”
There’s a notable collapse in self-concept tied to not just physical performance, but usefulness. Even discussing his prior technical input with the car, patient downplayed the significance:
“If the setup worked better for someone else, maybe I never understood the car in the first place.”
2. Lingering Impact of Previous Confrontation
For the first time, patient revisited the conflict that occurred during a recent visit from two close individuals (names omitted). Previously withheld details were offered, albeit disjointedly and under emotional strain. He described the interaction as ‘a test [he] failed’ and referred to the confrontation with his teammate as ‘a complete combustion. Mutual.’
“He thinks I’d hurt her. Like I’m the threat.”
“Maybe I am. Not like—physically. But I know how to ruin things just by being in them.”
Describes himself as ‘unwelcome’, though could not articulate whether that feeling was imposed or self-generated. Referred to their voices during the exchange as tired of me, and repeatedly emphasized that he doesn’t blame them.
“I was angry. And I still am, but mostly at myself. I can’t even argue right. I just lash out, and then they look at me like I’m a mess they can’t fix.”
Mentions, something I said that I shouldn’t have, though declined to repeat it. Appeared visibly ashamed, pulling sleeves over hands and lowering voice. Made an offhanded comment:
“She left anyway. Not because of me, but it felt like it.”
Patient shows signs of internalizing the breakdown in the dynamic not only as his fault, but as inevitable. This belief requires restructuring.
3. Complicated Longing & Misplaced Attachment
Although he maintains the relationship in question is strictly professional, there are clear signs of blurred emotional boundaries.
When asked how that made him feel, he paused, then said:
“Like I should disappear more often. Things seem smoother when I’m not in the way.”
There is no explicit acknowledgment of jealousy or romantic desire, but patient’s fixation on her perceived distance and his own absence suggests unconscious emotional entanglement. He describes himself as ‘the static in a signal that used to be clear,’ and claimed, she’s better at her job when I’m not around.
This spirals into more self-condemnation:
“I’m not stable. I’ve known that, but I thought I could hide it better.”
Attempts to challenge this narrative were met with deflection or sarcasm.
TREATMENT PLAN:
Continue narrative therapy to reframe self-perception and unlearn ingrained patterns of guilt attribution
Deepen focus on identity apart from achievement or proximity to performance metrics
Introduce structured role-playing in next session to confront interpersonal ruptures safely
Begin monitoring language around self-worth for cognitive distortion (“I ruin things,” “I should disappear”)
Keep exploration of attachment to unnamed colleague implicit until patient volunteers it without shame
PROGNOSIS:
Patient is cycling through shame loops and resistance, yet shows increased openness to vulnerability, albeit in indirect ways. Though he refrains from naming desire or pain plainly, his metaphors and posture betray them. Notably, this session marks the first unprompted elaboration of interpersonal regret and subconscious longing.
Insight is deepening, but distorted by a belief that affection, if received, is undeserved. Still no indications of suicidal ideation, but monitoring is advised due to rapid spiral in internal language.
NOTABLE QUOTE (UNPROMPTED):
“I used to think being intense made me a better driver. Now I think it just makes me impossible to be around.”
NEXT SESSION: Scheduled October 10th, 10:00 AM CST
NOTE: Recommend withholding any further team visits for now, unless explicitly requested by patient. Emotional volatility remains acute, particularly around interpersonal triggers. Consider video session if patient’s physical recovery plateaus again.
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Before departure, you spoke with Joshua to make sure no problem would come up once the team boarded their flight to the United States for Round 19. Although you wouldn't be attending this race in person, you had already provided comprehensive notes to Wonwoo's engineer and made sure Wonwoo felt secure enough to reach out if needed, leaving your contact available and assuring him of your online presence. You simply didn't want to be at the race this time and managed to convince Joshua to grant you the week off, or at least until Jun was cleared to return. Joshua understood your request without pressing, and the arrangement was made with no questions asked.
Now, standing alongside the team at the airport, your presence is just pretentious. Minghao had warned you not to see Jun behind his back the last time, but he never said anything about meeting him later. Technically, then, you're not breaking any rule. Even if he had objected, it wouldn't change the fact that he has no authority over your decisions. You listened to him once; this time, you won’t. While Minghao boards the plane with the others, you slip away unnoticed, sure that he won’t realize your absence until long after takeoff. He never tracks you that closely. He will likely assume you're seated elsewhere or forget altogether. You can ignore his messages for a day or two if needed.
After exchanging a sneaky signal with Joshua, you walk in the opposite direction and board your own flight to Shenzhen, departing a few minutes before the others lift into the sky—leaving Minghao oblivious to the fact that his sister is not on board.
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Now that you're in Shenzhen with twenty missed calls and over fifty unread messages from Minghao deep, you decide you'll visit Jun the next morning. Tonight, however, you’ll rest. There’s not really an actual reason not to let Jun know that you’ve arrived in China, but you choose not to. If someone tells him, so be it. Pulling up the latest physical recovery notes in his file, you skim through the updated entries. You see that his vitals are stable, his mobility has improved, and the reports suggest a consistent physical recovery, which puts you marginally at ease. Still, there’s no access to his psychological records in your engineering clearance, and if his mental state were as sound as his muscle function, none of this would be happening in the first place. You can only assume—hope, probably blindly, that things are improving. Deep down, your instincts say otherwise to you.
The morning arrives faster than you expect. You prepare yourself, choosing your usual casual outfit this time, unlike your last visit. As you zip up your jacket, a memory tugs: Jun’s face had registered something that you didn't understand when he opened the door that evening. It probably had been the surprise, or maybe, in part, the sight of you overdressed, standing in his doorway, him trying not to feel self-conscious or embarrassed or shy for you. You remind yourself that it shouldn't be embarrassing. It wasn’t then, and it isn’t now. You pick up a few jelly snacks and hot pot for him along the way, small stuff like foods that he’s always liked.
By the time you park outside his building and step into the lift, Joshua’s name lights up your phone. You answer, only to hear Minghao’s voice cut through the line before you can even greet him.
“Why are you in Shenzhen?” he demands. “I told you not to go see him.”
You ask him. “Why not?”
“Don’t talk back to me,” he snaps. “I said not to, and that should’ve been enough.”
The elevator dings open on Jun’s floor, but you stay rooted, thumb pressing the button for the ground floor again. You’re not about to have this conversation outside Jun’s door. “I thought you were over your paranoid big-brother phase,” you say coolly. “Apparently, I was wrong.”
Minghao scoffs at that. “You thought I was over it, yet you didn’t even tell me you were going. You snuck off like a damn teenager. What are you so afraid of?”
You press your tongue against your cheek and exhale through your nose. “Maybe I just didn’t want another lecture.”
“That’s not an answer,” he retorts. “You don’t trust me to handle things? Or do you just not want to admit that you care about him more than you’re letting on?”
“That’s not it either,” your fingers tighten around the phone.
“Then what is it?” Minghao’s voice climbs. “Because from where I’m standing, this is looking a lot like you playing both sides, and then acting like you're just doing your job.”
You laugh at that accusation bitterly. “You want to talk about acting? You’ve been pretending he doesn't exist since the crash. I don’t see you visiting. I don’t see you checking in. If I’m just doing my job, what are you doing?”
There’s a pause on the line, and then, he says, “I’m not the one sneaking around. And I visited with you last time.”
“Oh, yeah, of course you did. I forgot you visited with me,” you pinch the bridge of your nose. “You want me to be a good sister? Then stop making that harder. I’m being a good engineer and a good neighbor or friend or whatever, who happens to at the very least, care. Maybe you should try that too—come see him if you ever have the time.”
Another pause, followed by a tight laugh. “If you really believed that, you wouldn’t be hiding it. People who think they’re doing the right thing don’t dodge calls.”
You hesitate, because he’s not wrong, and that annoys you more than you’d ever like to admit. “I don’t need your permission,” you eventually reply. “And you don’t get to gatekeep concern. He needs someone, and it clearly isn’t you right now.”
“You think you’re saving him?” he's probably rolling his eyes. “He’ll drag you down with him, and you’ll let him.”
“Then maybe stop watching from the sidelines,” you snap at him. “And maybe stop being so goddamn proud and be the brother you used to be. He misses you, you know.”
“I’ll come when I’m ready, and when he himself is ready,” he says, voice a lot colder now. “But you? You’re going to regret making this mess worse.”
You close your eyes. “Thanks for the warning. I’ll contact you later—when I actually feel like it. Now give Joshua his phone back.”
You hang up before he can respond and step out of the building entrance, the hot pot warming your fingers through the bag. Whatever awaits behind Jun’s door, it can’t possibly be as exhausting as this.
You turn on your heel and re-enter the building, going up to his floor before knocking twice against the door. Moments pass until you hear the sound of approaching footsteps, and soon, the door creaks open to reveal Jun standing there with his expression caught somewhere between mild amusement, surprise, and bits of sleepy haze. Seeing you, he steps aside without a word allowing you to enter.
Bracing your hand against the wall for balance with your shoulder hunched slightly, you lift one foot behind the opposite knee and unfasten your shoe. You glance over your shoulder, giving him a sheepish, low-key guilty smile trying to soften the abruptness of your visit.
“I didn’t know you were coming,” Jun’s murmur still sounded rough with sleep. “I just woke up.”
“Then I’m right on time,” you raise the hotpot container in your hand with a sway. “Have you had breakfast yet?”
He shakes his head, and you nod with satisfaction, slipping into the waiting pair of slippers at the door before heading straight for the kitchen. You wash your hands methodically under cold water, letting the chill bring you back into some sense of normalcy, and begin pulling out what’s needed: bowls, ladles, a pot, utensils, the seasoning packets, chopsticks, and some greens from his fridge.
“It’s not exactly hotpot o’clock, but who cares?” you say, barely raising your voice over the running tap. “You can get yourself something lighter for dinner later. I brought plenty, anyway.”
Jun doesn’t offer much in response, just watching in silence. His eyes trailing after your every movement as if he's trying to decide whether to intervene or simply surrender to your presence. You turn toward him once more.
“Go wash up,” you tell him, nodding toward the hallway. “Come back when you're fresh. I’ll have everything ready by then.”
He disappears into the corridor with a reluctant sigh, and by the time he returns, clad in loose grey sweats and a towel drying the ends of his damp hair, you’ve already set the table—broth simmering, ingredients laid out, condiments placed to the side, steam curling in the air in fog. You pull out his chair with a gesture of your hand and give him his chopsticks.
He sits down in the seat, and you follow suit, taking your place.
The broth simmers between you as both of you begin eating, the table radiating some heat that contrasts the silence in the room. Jun lifts his chopsticks to his lips, looking at you between bites with that unreadable look of his, before he finally speaks.
“Aren’t you supposed to be in the States right now?”
You bring the bowl to your lips, sipping the broth as your eyes remain fixed on the rising steam. “I took this race off,” you let him know. “Joshua knows. I told him I’d be working remotely if needed until you’re cleared to return.”
He doesn’t respond immediately, so instead, he pauses mid-chew, eyes fixed somewhat on you as though re-evaluating you entirely. A second passes before he rises from his seat and walks toward the cupboard in the corner of his open kitchen. You tilt your head slightly as you follow his path with your eyes, only for him to return moments later and wordlessly place a spoon in front of you.
You blink at him, mouth forming a small oh as you reach for it. “I forgot,” you admit with a chuckle. “Thank you.”
He says nothing, returning to his seat while picking at the floating lettuce in the pot, placing one onto his plate before taking a photo of it on his phone.
You glance at him, resting your elbow lightly against the table’s edge. “You’re looking a lot better than you did last time,” you remark, watching his eyes soften with the faintest trace of amusement. “How’s recovery been going?”
He nods, smiling, but it doesn’t reach his eyes. “It’s alright,” he replies.
You take another sip, then set your bowl down. “When do you think you’ll be ready to race again?”
His smile fades and is replaced by a shadow of something colder. “I don’t know,” he answers with his voice low and clipped.
You reach across and pat his shoulder, making yourself sound warm and coax. “You’ll be back soon.”
He exhales with something nearly like a scoff, muttering under his breath, words too hushed to catch.
“What was that?”
“Nothing,” he says, then adds with a small grin, “Just eat before you choke and end up spraying noodles out your nose.”
You snort under your breath and lift your spoon again. “I’d rather die.”
He shrugs. “You’ll just embarrass yourself. It’ll be a great memory for me.”
You shoot him a narrowed glance but return to your food. Once both of you have finished, you stand, gathering both your plate and his before he can move.
“I can clean up,” he says, starting to rise.
You gesture firmly for him to sit. “Nope. Sit down. You’re supposed to rest.”
“I’ve been resting for days.”
“Exactly. Rest while you still can,” you stack the bowls near the sink. “You need to get back to the circuit, remember?”
“I’ll get there,” he leans his head against his palm as he watches you move around his kitchen.
“Sooner if you don’t strain yourself,” you say pointedly.
“You sound like a trainer.”
“I sound like someone smarter than you.”
He laughs at that, then stretches his legs out beneath the table. “You sound like someone bossy.”
“You sound like someone ignoring medical advice.”
“You sound like someone who’s being annoying on purpose.”
“You sound like someone who doesn’t know how to take care of himself.”
“You sound like someone who keeps showing up unannounced.”
You turn around, arching a brow as you dry your hands with a towel. “And yet here I am,” you say simply.
He exhales because he's really not arguing with that. His fingers drum against the wood of the table, eyes never straying from you as you finish tidying up and moving around the room like you’ve done this dozens of times before… you actually did. Neither of you chooses to question how natural it all feels.
You let out a huff as you sink into the couch making your shoulders slump with aimless exhaustion that has no real source that you know of. Without glancing toward Jun, who still hasn’t sat down, you reach for the remote lying carelessly on the coffee table, switch on the television, and begin scrolling with half-hearted laziness through the list of half-watched series and forgettable suggestions.
“Do you want to watch something?” your eyes barely flicking toward him.
The question is rhetorical. You’re already scrolling with your purpose, not waiting for his answer, and your fingers eventually settle on the paused episode of 2 Broke Girls that you were supposed to finish last month before shits and other things in life took precedence. You press play just as a small sigh escapes your lips, contented in the most passive way.
Jun, still standing where you left him, doesn’t move. His eyes bore into you with an expression so unreadably blank, so full of unimpressed disbelief and restrained exasperation, it’s almost comical: a stare that lands somewhere between annoyance and flabbergasting, as though he’s trying to understand whether you’re being serious or just remarkably dense.
“Why are you actually here?”
You glance over your shoulder because the tone of his voice is making the back of your neck prickle. You force a sheepish chuckle and tilt your head slightly toward him. “What do you mean?”
His eyes narrow, but his tone doesn’t change. “Why are you actually here?” he repeats.
“I told you already,” you say, feigning exasperation as you turn the volume slightly higher and return your attention back to the screen. “I took this race off. We literally had this conversation less than half an hour ago.”
You can feel his gaze pressing into the side of your face, burning with suspicion and something more pointed than irritation, more stubborn than concern. He’s trying to read you. He’s doing it on purpose, and he knows it’s working. You sigh, finally tearing your eyes away from the screen, and look at him dead on, expression drained of humor or patience.
“I was worried about you, alright?” you say evenly. “I just wanted to check on you. That’s why I came.”
Your words hang in the air for a beat too long, but he doesn't soften. “Worried?” he repeats, dryly. “What exactly were you planning to do with that worry? Feed me hotpot and change the channel?”
You raise an eyebrow. “Sorry, was I supposed to show up with pity?”
“You did exactly that.”
“No, I didn’t,” you shrug at that as you get off the couch and begin pacing around the room, sliding off dust from surfaces with your finger and arranging items to pretend to be busying yourself, doing anything to avoid prolonging the conversation.
The day stretched on with you working on your laptop while Jun tended to his own tasks, neither of you revisiting the tension from before, though an undercurrent of it stayed in any room you both happened to share. When his prescheduled online physical examination meeting started, you joined in and listened to the updates even though his condition reports had already been sent to you.
As the day unfolds, you move through the apartment, doing small tasks, arranging items for him, preparing his meals, and making small adjustments to his environment.
You take the knife and begin slicing the cucumbers for the salad. Jun remained quiet all day long until now, speaking only when absolutely necessary. The sound of footsteps behind you draws your attention, and when you glance over your shoulder, you find him leaning against the countertop, and for a brief, unwelcome instant, your mind latches onto an absurdly inappropriate thought before you immediately avert your gaze, forcing yourself to concentrate on the cucumber slices. Jun clears his throat and his presence presses against your awareness once again, and you feel your cheeks warm as you pause mid-chop.
He initiatively speaks up for the first time, “When are you leaving?”
You hesitate before responding awkwardly, forcing a light lilt into your voice. “I, um, I’ll stay the night in the guest room,” you begin, stumbling over your words. “I was planning on coming over for a few days to check on you, and, well, since I trust the doctors, it’s not strictly necessary, but I want to see for myself how you’re doing, how your recovery is going, and make a mental note of what I’ll need to focus on when we’re back in the car, what needs adjusting, what needs attention. It’s just easier for me to stay for a few nights than to run back and forth every day, and I thought I could keep an eye on things while you can’t really leave the house and hangout with me so that I can… see how you're doing and basically do the same thing that I just explained. You’re looking fine, I know, so there’s probably not much to worry about until you get the official clearance, which I’m hoping will be soon.”
Jun doesn't interrupt once, standing there as you finish your rapid-fire explanation, and once you draw a breath, he simply just turns and walks away. Relief washes over you, tempered by the reminder that this should never feel awkward; the two of you have shared countless moments alone before, even if this is the first time you’ve stayed over without Minghao present.
Returning to the task at hand, you gather the chopped cucumbers and other chopped vegetables into a bowl and reach for the soy sauce, only to realize it is stored in the cupboard just above your reach. Stretching on tiptoe, you strain to grab it, and in that instant, a body moves behind you, his hand lightly brushing against yours as he reaches for the bottle. You pivot as your body momentarily freezes, and meet his eyes that's now looking down as he silently withdraws his hand from the above cupboard, allowing you to take the soy sauce from his hand yourself. “You don’t have to,” you pour it over the vegetables, “dinner will be ready soon, and you should sit down.”
He gives no reply, only a flat neural expression before moving toward the sink with some chopsticks and plates, clearly intending to help. You immediately step to his side, intercepting the utensils. “No, don’t do anything,” you insist. “Sit down. I’ll wash and plate everything, and it’ll be on the table soon.”
He hesitates for a moment as he tries to resist your insistence with just his furrowed brows, but eventually relents and sinks onto a chair, leaving you to gather the plates and scrub the utensils.
When you finally set the meal in front of him, you tell him about how much you prepared, feeling happy and giddy at sight on the table. “I figured it would be easier if everything was ready at once; no need for you to get up or lift anything.” You see nothing change in his expression. He doesn’t respond, but you notice the way his fingers tighten around the chopsticks for some reason.
The dinner proceeds without much chatting, until later, when you finish your portion, pushing the empty plate aside. You stand to retrieve the remaining dishes and stack them carefully as you hum tunes to yourself, a habitual thing you always keep when occupied. Noticing a few stray vegetables left on the counter, you reach to wipe them into a bowl, moving it carefully so as not to make a mess.
You bend slightly to reach for a low cabinet and pull out a clean towel and dust the edge of the countertop where some crumbs had gathered. Straightening, you reach up to adjust a small spice jar that had tipped over from before, and just as Jun steps forward, reaching for the cup he had left near the sink to carry it to the dishwasher, you move first, gently taking it from his hands. “I’ve got it,” you say, smiling at him.
Jun freezes, his fingers twitching as if he wants to grab it back from you. His jaw tightens, and in a loud sharp voice, he finally snaps: “Just fucking leave! I don’t need you here babysitting me.”
You stop mid-motion, towel in hand and pivot to face his glare. The soy sauce bottle still sits on the counter where you’d both reached for it together—a small, dumb reminder that neither of you had really wanted the day to end like this. “I’m not babysitting you. I’m just helping while you rest, that’s all,” you take a small step closer, “you don’t have to act like this.”
“I said leave! I don’t need you here!” he snaps again, the anger in his tone sounds layered and you know it's with helplessness he won’t admit.
You feel a flash of irritation from the sting of his outburst clashing with your patience. “You’re being childish,” you sound calm as much as possible, though your hands clench at your sides.
“You don’t understand anything, and to be honest, it’s disgusting that you think you’re a saint by sticking around like this.”
You meet his words with nothing in your eyes and let the silence speak for all the thoughts between you. You fling the towel from your hands onto the floor, “Do you think I am here because I have to be? Minghao didn't even want me to come, yet I am here because I chose to be. Clearly, you are still too proud to accept that anyone gives a shit about you.” Without another glance at him, you take your bag, slide your laptop into it, and turn toward the door, leaving the apartment with your attention focused entirely on the path ahead.
You fail to notice that, behind you, Jun’s eyes already glimmer with regret, yet his pride holds his lips in silence.
✦ in fiction we trust. love, celeste ˶ᵔ⤙ᵔ˶ sorry again for breaking this up instead of dropping it in one go. tumblr text limits win this round 😔 formatting this beast was actually so fucking hard, i swear i almost cried with how many times the editor crashed on me. pls be kind and i hope you looked away from the formatting if something looked weird lmao. anddddddd, if you made it this far, tysm. i’d love to hear what you thought, so, feel free to drop an ask, it’ll help me know if i managed to land what i wanted with this part
★ | member — junhui x fem reader
★ | genre — smut, strangers to lovers (first date au)
★ | word count — 3k
★ | synopsis — your first date with jun has been good, but all you've been able to think about all night is how to get him alone.
★ | warnings — unprotected sex, creampie, big dick!jun, car sex, fingering, jun is a boobs guy, lowercase intended, title is a baekhyun song and you should listen to it
★ | notes — i'm still on hiatus, sorry i know it's been a while - my personal life has been really busy as i'm graduating college in a little over a month! anyway as a treat here's an old draft. remember to reblog if you like this :) ily huihuis
as far as first dates go, junhui would say this one has been pretty good. sometimes you really click with someone right away, and he can’t speak for you but he definitely felt it tonight. you’d spent so long talking together, that the waiter had had to ask you to leave so they could close the restaurant.
"can we park somewhere?" you ask suddenly, to his curiosity. he nods and pulls into the exit lane to get off the freeway, but the next words that come out of your mouth he wouldn’t have guessed in a million years.
"i've been really wet since dinner, and… i wanna ride you. if that's cool, i mean."
his cheeks have never turned that many shades of red so quickly before, but he's not one to complain when an opportunity presents itself. he can't lie and say he hasn't been stealing glances at your beautiful tits all night long and hoping that sooner or later he'll get to see them bouncing in his face.
it doesn't take long before he's found a secluded spot at the back of an empty parking lot; it's past midnight, after all, and most places are closed by now. as soon as the ignition's shut off you're scrambling to unbuckle your seatbelt and climbing over the center console to plant yourself in his lap, and god, you can already feel how hard he is beneath you.
his hands find your waist immediately, starting to slide up your sides as you fumble with your pants. you can't remember the last time you were this greedy, this impatient, and especially on a first date. but the way his hair falls in his face, the way he’d grinned mischievously at you every time you’d make a joke, and the way he's been staring at you all fucking night like he wants to devour you — you can't help but want him.
you can feel your panties sticking to you as you push them away and slide them down your legs. the crampedness of his car and the way your body is angled makes it awkward to pull off gracefully, but neither of you seem to care. his hands are still gripping your sides with his thumbs beneath your breasts, resting there almost like he's forgotten what he's doing. his eyes are fixed on your face, enamored with the little frustrated scrunch of your nose as you struggle to fling your clothes off.
he finally seems to snap back into action when you've successfully stripped your lower half and begin focusing your attention on his jeans. he squeezes your sides a little rougher, just enough to get you to stop, and your eyes flick back up to his.
"can— can i see these?" he asks, his voice a little more gruff as his fingers slide closer to your breasts.
the wicked grin you give him in return makes the both of you start to move a little faster. his dick is painfully hard by now, and all he wants to do is press his nose between your tits until he suffocates in them.
you take your hands off his zipper and move up to your tank top, pulling it down to sit beneath your breasts. you start to reach behind you to unclip your bra, but he's too quick; within seconds you feel the pressure in your back release, the straps slipping down your shoulders as his fingers expertly undo the clasp. he does it too easily, too practiced, and it only makes you want those fingers inside you all the more.
he doesn't hesitate to remove the loose fabric and toss it into the backseat, leaving your breasts bare on display in front of him. his hands resume their position at your chest, and he's so fixated on them that you don't even think he fully notices when you go back to working on his zipper.
but his attention refocuses when he feels the pressure from his pants loosen, and he lets out a groan when he looks down and sees your hand palming his bulge. he's no stranger to one night stands and he's had more than his fair share of hookups, but god, this might actually be the best night of his life. he manages to bring one hand away from your boobs long enough to swipe it between your legs, and he nearly hisses at the feeling. you weren't lying earlier—you're fucking soaked. so much so that when he pulls his hand away to look, three of his fingers glisten under the dim streetlight, connected by thin strings of your arousal.
he needs you on his cock, now, and judging by the slick on his hand you're probably wet enough to take him without any prep. but his last shred of sense is screaming at him to sink his fingers deep into your pussy first until you're shaking on his lap, and he's obliged to listen.
he's never been this desperate to fuck someone before, and if he had any coherent thoughts still running through his brain he might be embarrassed about that. but you're so equally enthusiastic that he honestly can't bring himself to care. it's not every day that a date goes this well, so you might as well enjoy it.
junhui traces your entrance with his fingertips, making wide circles around the area without touching where you really want him. he's teasing, he can't help it, but he's also waiting for you to let him continue. he glances up at your face again, and he smirks in satisfaction when he sees that cute little frustrated scrunch of your nose again, your mouth hanging slightly open and your shoulders braced in concentration.
"you want my fingers?" he asks. he's trying unbelievably hard not to push his hips upward to get the feeling of your wetness brushing against his bulge. it's probably even more restraint than it's taking you to not start grinding down on his leg and work yourself to completion that way. but the voice of reason in the back of your head is telling you that that won't be nearly as satisfying as cumming on his cock or his fingers will be, and so you resist.
"please," you choke out, your hips writhing in the air from the lack of stimulation.
he finally complies, teasingly tracing around your lips one last time before pushing into you. you can feel his fingers getting wetter and wetter each time he plunges them into you, curling them at just the right angle that makes your knees weak on either side of his hips. your whole body is alight from his touch, every nerve on fire, and you already know it's not going to take much more for you to fall apart.
his other arm is wrapped tightly around your waist, keeping you firmly planted against him despite how hard your body instinctively tries to buck away from the pleasure. your hands fall to his shoulders as you struggle to hold on, and you're sure he can feel your nails digging into his skin, but he doesn't say anything. he just continues to fuck you with his fingers, silently watching your face as the car fills with wet, messy noises. no one in your life has ever gotten you this close so quickly.
suddenly he pulls his fingers out, and you shudder in frustration as you feel your orgasm ebbing away. he holds his dripping fingers in front of your face, and without him even needing to ask, you open your mouth and welcome them. his fingers are hot against your lips, the bitter taste of your own arousal coating the inside of your mouth as you swirl your tongue around them. somehow he doesn't seem shocked at your immediate reaction; he seems pleased, even. yeah, this is the man you've been waiting for all your life.
your eyelashes flutter as you suck, unable to control the choked whimpers and whines that slip past your lips. your self control is waning, and without thinking your hips start to grind against him, desperate to keep the stimulation going.
you're quick to speak after he pulls his fingers from between your lips, satisfied with the way you've cleaned them for him. "wanna cum on your cock, junnie," you whimper. the nickname slips out without thinking, and you’re still unconsciously rubbing yourself against his clothed bulge. your eyes are blown wide when he looks at you, and while the rational part of his mind knows it's because it's dark outside, he can't help the surge of pride that rushes through him seeing you so fucked out already. if this is what you look like, just from riding his fingers? he can't wait to see what you look like taking more.
"you want my cock, baby?" he groans, testing out a nickname of his own and watching how you bloom from the praise.
you lift your hips enough for him to pull his dick out of his pants and finally get a good look at what's going to be rearranging your guts tonight.
"you're so— thick," you choke out, trying not to stumble over your words, but your mouth is watering at the sight of him and all the previously reasonable thoughts in your brain have instantly been replaced with pure want. he's so much bigger than you expected.
"can you take it?" he says, confidence faltering a little when he sees how enraptured you're staring. he's used to hearing the shock and excitement in people’s voices when they see him, but he knows from experience that having a big dick isn't always what it's cracked up to be.
you're silent for another second, blinking as you try to collect your thoughts, and then you lift your head and kiss him hard. but you pull away just as quickly, barely giving him time to register everything as you nod.
"yeah. i can. want you to make it fit," you breathe out, a whisper against his lips, and all he can do is groan and kiss you again. he pulls you tighter against him as your mouths crash together, the heat between you building more and more with each passing second. he's still not even inside you yet, but you're both moving your hips in tandem as if he was, chasing the friction that isn't there yet.
junhui finally pulls back again, creating barely enough room to slip his hand between your bodies and fist his cock. his free hand squeezes your hips roughly to get you to stop moving long enough to line himself up with your pussy.
you finally sink down onto his length, and both your loud groans fill the compact space. he hisses at the tight feeling around his cock as you whimper, eyes squeezed shut again in concentration. he can feel your walls throbbing against him as he struggles to keep himself still, knowing you're still adjusting. fuck, he wants nothing more than to pound into you like there's no tomorrow, but he has to wait. he's way too close to the edge already, so he starts counting the seconds in his head to try and distract himself until you're ready. you can feel every inch of him stretching you open, buried so deep in you that it makes your head spin.
your legs are already starting to burn from sitting in this position but after another minute once your muscles start to relax, you manage to lift yourself up and push your hips back down. it's an agonizingly slow rhythm as his cock forces itself into the tight space, but you still haven't quite caught your breath. you keep moving at this pace, up down, up down, in out, in out, until he grips your hips and pulls you down to stop your motion with him fully buried inside you.
"want me to take over?" he whines, and it catches you off guard to hear his voice a little higher and a little more broken than before.
the noise that leaves your mouth can only be described as inhuman, and he nods in acknowledgement as you give up control. there's a few seconds of pause, as if giving you a chance to change your mind, before he snaps his hips upward and you immediately let out a squeak, a heavy breath of pleasure mixed with relief. his arms settle around your lower back for leverage, which forces you to arch your spine and push your chest into his face. but that only seems to spur him on even more as he buries himself in your breasts, pressing against his cheeks.
when jun groans you can practically feel the reverberations in your ribcage, and you wrap your arms around his head to keep him in place. the new pace he's set isn't much faster than before, but it's a thousand times more intense as he fucks into you, filling every part of you to the brim with each thrust.
it only takes a few more rough snaps of his hips before the coil inside you breaks, and you have to hold back a scream as your body contorts in ways you didn't even know were possible. your voice is nearly hoarse as you cry out his name over and over again, begging him not to stop, not to change anything, to please just keep fucking you. and he listens, doing his best to keep you upright despite the way you writhe in his grip. with your breasts in his face he can feel your heartbeat in his ears as if it's his own, and it takes so much concentration to make sure he doesn't immediately follow you over the edge right after. when your shaking starts to subside a little and he's positive he can't hold back any longer, he tips his head back to speak.
"where can i—"
you interrupt before he can get all the words out. "inside. i'm on the pill. please."
he whines and buries his face in your breasts again, leaving sloppy kisses all over your skin between curses muttered under his breath. with a few more rough thrusts he's done, holding you even tighter against him as he spills into you and groaning louder when you clench your muscles around him.
"fuckin' milking my cock," he hisses into your chest with eyes shut, his voice rough from how hard he's focused.
your hip bones ache, both from the position and from the sheer size of him that you aren’t accustomed to, and you slump into the passenger seat with your legs still across his lap. his hand immediately slides between your thighs, his large palm cupping your pussy to collect his cum that's beginning to leak out of you. it takes him a second before he's able to form words, but he rubs your thigh soothingly as nods at you.
"napkins in the glove box," he manages, and you're jolted back to reality as you remember you're still laid out in his car and he probably doesn't want to get cum all over his seats.
with his free hand he reaches for your panties, which somehow ended up on the dashboard, and he passes them over to you as he starts to clean you up. you lean your head back against the window and let out a shaky breath, forcing yourself to come back down. the cold glass sends a chill through you as you feel the warmth beginning to drain out of you, bare skin prickling with goosebumps.
after a few minutes and a few crumpled napkins tossed on the floor, he clears his throat, and you manage to refocus your eyes enough to meet his gaze.
"your place, or mine?"
"huh?"
your ears are still ringing from the intensity of your orgasm, and you're not sure what he just said. it kinda sounded like he wants to sleep over with you, but there's no way a guy as hot as him wants more than just a quick fuck.
"would you rather go home or come back to my place?" he repeats. "i'm not leaving you alone after that. you need a shower, and probably some tylenol." he winces a little and looks down at his lap, and it's almost strange to see him so shy after he just fucked you into another dimension. "i probably should've given you more warning. car sex isn't that easy on a first date, but fuck, you took it so well, and—"
"you can come over to mine," you interrupt him, still laying halfway in the passenger seat and trying not to be completely useless even though you feel like a melted puddle. "best first date i've ever had."
you can tell the exact moment that your words register in his brain, because the relief that spreads across his face is plain as day. as soon as you can muster all the strength you have left, you sit up and pull your legs back over into your seat, pushing yourself into a comfortable position.
"next time i want to fuck your tits," he exhales shakily as he puts his seatbelt back on, though his voice comes out more like a squeak.
"next time?" you ask, making your best attempt to playfully raise an eyebrow at him. he may be bringing you home and taking care of you, but that doesn't guarantee there's going to be a next time. well, maybe it does. you're really looking forward to there being a next time.
he scoffs, only fumbling a little bit to shove his keys into the ignition. "don't play dumb. i know you enjoyed that. don't act like you don't wanna see yourself covered in my cum after i'm done with you."
the shiver that runs down your spine and the way you instinctively press your thighs together is all the confirmation he needs.
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