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Estonian Javert got his kinky boots ✨

The curtain call photo is sourced from the theatre's Facebook.

#les miserables #les mis fanart #javert #im so sorry i drew this #just cannot stop my mind from thinking...#ummm… those over knees leather boots…

finally got around to reading the fic 🤭 its so good!! rahhhhh!! 👹

here are some doodles for your hard work 🤲✨

me while reading abt robert having actually the worst time ever: damn he just like me fr 🙂‍↕️ (as a disabled person with chronic pain that whole scene hit like crazy, good job writing that srsly)

anyways, love everything about this and eagerly awaiting the continuation 🧍‍♂️💖

HI I THINK I'M ACTUALLY GOING TO HAVE A HEART ATTACK HELLOOOOO OH MY GOD. I LOVE YOUR ART YOU DONNNT EVEN KNOW WHAT IT WAS LIKE TO OPEN MY INBOX AND SEE THIS. OH LORD OH LORD ALMIGHTY WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE THIS OH MY GOD IM GOING TO NEED TOBE PUT ON DIALYSIS AFTER THIS

#dispatch #dispatch fanart #waterboy #invisigal #watermech #all the same in a mirror #atsiam fanart #THE WHIPLASH I GOT FROM SCROLLING FROM THE FIRST IMAGE TO THE SECOND ONE #DUDE IT'S ACTUALLY SO GORGEOUS ARE YOU KIDDING EM. that fucking cardinal. THE LOOK ITS GIVING ME id break donw too #your art is genuinely so breathtaking i think im getting hypoxic #visi's fucking smirk in the first picture im LOSING MY MIND I LOVE HOW YOU DO EXPRESSSIONS SO BAD #ALSO IM SO GLAD??THAT THE ROBERT SCENE WAS ACCURATE??? i was so so so scared i was doing it wrong #goodness fucking gracious the emotion in the second image is PALPABLE #nobody's face is in it but you still managed to do that. how did you do that????? HOW???? FUCKING MAGIC #GENUINELY THOUGH i admire your art so much it's just so genuinely gorgeous to look at #the way you capture scenes so viscerally is fucking unbelievable??? how??? how do you do that????#the fucking.. flowery wallpaper with the mold and gnats all over it i think im going to be sick #also yeah thats exactly how the visi scene went you fucking got it #god i can't stop looking at the pictures i geneuinely cant get enough of your art #cannot stress just how honored i am that you took the time to drwa things for me. i know it has to be hard with your chronic pain #so believe me when i say that i appreciate it from the bottom of my fucking heart #jesus fucking christ i love your art so much i genuinely cant believe this #this is like ffffucking like . jesus popping into your room and telling you that he really likes the fanfic you wrote #CAN I PUT THIS IN THE FIC PLEASEPLEASPELPALEPSLAPELS #just god. thank you . thank you so much for taking the time to draw this. just absolutely fucking gorgeous #aeowfegawegfouieafeuafhekjefwoauiew #YOURE AMAZING YOURE AWESOME NEVER STOP DRAWING THE WORLD IS A BETTER PLACE WITH YOUR ART IN IT #sorry for the yap writing tag essays is lowk my whole thi g

Migraines

#lancer rpg #the text on the background and foreground is on the alt text #its from the lancer manual from one of my favorite parts of the worldbuilding and my main inspiration #lancer oc #HIII CRYSTAL. IF YOU'RE READING THIS STOP READING NOW. OK? LOVE YOU XOXO #spoilers ->#i dont know if Andrzej is fully a bicameral mind or just a psyker that's up to the DM. but he fits the idea of his internal voice-#being conceptualized as a higher being that excuses his actions or gives him a reason to do what he already wants to do #the right part is made to symbolize when he accidentally blew up his former ship. He didnt know he directly caused it #he thinks it was a freak accident. i think it would fuck him up if he knew he had anything to do with it #thereforte the ACTS MADE IN ANGER CANNOT BE UNDONE #anyways im done yapping about my own art. first full illustration done in six months yayyy #oc #original character #own art #oc: andrzej

Found an old sketch in my work notes

It's not great but sharing it cuz I miss drawing these two 😔

Luci/Devil belongs to @an0nymous-c

#kom oc #kom ocs #kingdom of marionettes #my art #my artwork #doodle art #kom #honestly I dont know if this height difference is accurate since I've done it while at work from memory #would need to look at the height comparisom chart I made but #lets say its close to what they have #I cannot stop thinking about their height difference without hearing anon's comment about Eva always looking at his chest lmao #I mean its not a bad view #He got nice clothing and stuff #Imagine she remembers all the details of his golden chains and its charms by memory by now #like she could dress him up and know which chain goes where #Ngl she is quite observant and would admire Luci's clothing a lot so yeah #Gosh if he'd show her his wardrobe collection I think her liking for his style would show #He'd get compliments about the fabric and the details on them #With jewelery too #Still thinking of my headcanon of Eva bringing him some fabrics or pieces of clothing that she'd find on flea markets that'd she think he'd #like to have #Eva is quite stylish herself and loves fashion! Especially vintage #Also about the petting #She wouldnt mind really I think?#I mean with him it might be half to tease and half just because probably #Ugh now I imagined him being the one to play with strands of her hair like anon once said he would #They make me sick with their sweetheart behaviour #neptuii rambles

crawling out of my hermit wizard tower to finally post another costume .. I wanted to do something higher effort with like, two sets of horns and elaborate head jewelry and makeup and such but I started to feel headachy, so alas... lol.. Just some sort of elf in fancy jewelry... Perhaps going to an Event? Or, maybe they just look That Way all the time and this is them going to pick up groceries.

#fantasy costume #elf #fantasy fashion #fashion #The eyelashes always look a bit weird since you can still tell they're black underneath lol. I actually dont have white mascara but I hav #this ''lash extender'' mascara that is basically a clearish white and is made to be the layer you put UNDER black mascara #to make your lashes look bigger - and instead I just put that on and then when it's still wet I dab it with loose white eyeshadow #until its mostly all white. then I let that dry for a minute - sometimes adding a second layer. and THEN I will add color over the #now kind of 'light gray/whitish' eyelashes. Like in this I just added a light golden blond looking color #But I can't get it that far down since I don't like poking my eye so the very base of the eyelashes always still has a dark part lol #Maybe one day I will learn to do fake lashes but everytime I've ever tried it just feels crazy and I don't like the glue #I'm very glad I found that i still have a bunch of those star shaped paperclips (which i just bend slightly and use on the side of the #mouth to hold jewelry) because I thought I only had one left and it was worn like... a year ago and looked very musty and suspicious and #I was like... yeagh i cannot put that in my mouth even for a few minutes to take pictures lol... I need to clean many of my fake piercings #actually but I keep forgetting about it until I'm actuallyplanning a costume and then i don't feel like it so I'm running out of options.#I will have nothing left to accessorize and then be forced to clean.. (i dont even know how to clean jewelry..?? I have no real piercings #and dont wear jewelry so it's something I'm unfamilair with.. Especially things that are not even meant to be jewlery (like paper clips #from the dollar store and random rings from keychains and etc.) I wonder if maybe those are just a 'yeah once it gets dirty throw it away'#situation.. hrmm...) ANYWAY.. at least I've done SOMETHING. My other main goals are still to get back to game videos (even though I am #the only one that cares about them lol it is FUN to MEEEEeee). make another sculpture. FINISH MY OWN GAME AAAAGhh1!!#Though the main thing is correcting my sleep schedule that has somehow become horribly off..?? Which I think will then help with the whole #'staying awake' and 'generally functioning' thing.. It's been migrating slowly later for like a year but this year and especially this #month sometimes I was getting to bed at even 2am and waking up at 7 like.. erm.. ERM. In terms of the long term health affects of #sleep deficit on the mind and body. It makes me paranoid I'm literally lowering my own lifespan and exploding my brain but it's been #SO hard to correct. I need to have a week straight where I don't even do anything productive my ENTIRE goal from the time I wake up is just #to go to sleep at a reasonable hour lol... agh.. OKAY.. ''anywaaay'' FOR REAL <(must stop rambling)#self #OKAY one last note - I think pale eyes could have made this WAY cooler.. I have GOT to learn to study the mysterious art of Contacts..#(mysterious to ME.. chronically an 'I hate anything near my eyes at all' person lol...). Imagine them with light gray eyes though.. agh

like i went so insane over hansry like actual insanity, that i turned one of my fics into A NOVEL!!! Not even one novel actually two parts that i stitched together so probably wil end up splitting it into two novels. TWO NOVELS. And now im thinking how i started bb novel during medieval england war of the roses and then turned it into revolutionary america but the hansry fit so well into medieval england also what if i did soemthing else there STOP!!!! NO!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO. I CANT DK THIS AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#I CANT DO THIS I HAVE TO GET OFFLINE NOW!!! i have ao3 open to the hansry series. STOP!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg the #the darkness #STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!🛑#🚨#every day is hell……..#every day…………#i need at least 2-3 clones of myself to write everything i want to write #worst part is i do write I’ve written like 50k since last month? just haven’t posted any of it #maybe that’s why im going insane because it’s just me writing original stuff alone losing it #losing my whole entire mind #and my hair #im bald now also #man WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how do i stop this #adderall do I need adderall?????? do i need COCAINE???#do i need to quit my job…? yes #I do #but also i need to be paid so i cant #hmm…….. lots to think about….#the problem is i think my writing really peaked with Hansry series like fr I never wrote like that before #each one shot is a banger #all really good writing #esp bb novel idk where that came from #bb fic and novel both just wrote themselves #now it’s just struggle #maybe burnout #but i also want to write very badly #idk what is happening to me but i CANNOT DO THAT AGAIN #I can’t #goodbye

////witch hat atelier manga spoilers warning given that the anime is coming out Tomorrow !!!!

cannot stop thinking about qifrey's quality of life if/when they remove that fuckass tree. the tree that literally kills you if you find peace in life. the tree implanted in qifrey's fucking eye for Unknown Purposes. qifrey's eye tree of doomfail yaoi. that tree.

how do you even. he has to relearn his entire life. he has to relearn his entire way of living and perceiving and existing within the world because he was never able to really trust or love or find safety. he has spent his entire life fundamentally incapable of being at peace. because that would've fucking Actually Killed Him For Real. and it's so fascinating to me because despite the twitter jokes about him eating brushbuddies and having four DUIs qifrey is to me at least a good person. having ulterior motives and being a Lot Fucked Up and doing some incredibly dubious shit might be his modus operandi but at least to me there is not a second where i'm not confident that if push came to shove he would make the kind choice. we see that as much as he struggles in life he is a generous person, someone who cares about the safety of children, about the quality of the world they live in, about breaking rules that must be broken because they were never meant to be applied in these new and increasingly fucked up situations. i'm not saying all his choices were great because. well. gestures vaguely at like half of his choices.

but it's all of that combined with the fact that he is always holding himself back, always pulled between being a person and being a future catastrophe, caught between all that he doesn't know about his past and all that he fears of his present and future. his selfish choices unerringly find their way into allowing him to do good in the world and then like that one shitty relative who's always asking for money that goddamn tree starts bursting out of its socket again.

so what's it gonna be like when he doesn't have to hold back? what's it gonna be like when, in many ways, he doesn't have that excuse to keep himself distant anymore, but the body still remembers all the years spent with the world at an arm's length? how do you find it in yourself to be a person again after so many years spent trying very very very fucking hard to not be Too Much Of A Person? how do you let yourself be happy when your entire life happiness and peace and love have been the things (indirectly) killing you?

qifrey c-ptsd is real is what i'm saying—