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hello love, can you help me to find this drarry fic on ao3 where theyre soulmate and harry unintentionally reject their bond; resulting to draco falls ill. harry befriends draco and take care of him. on the last day of dracos's death, harry confesses his feelings and draco manages to survive his death. thank youuuuuu 😘

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

you've got the antidote for me

Kandakicksass

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter, Hermione Granger/Ron Weasley Characters: Draco Malfoy, Harry Potter, Ron Weasley, Hermione Granger, Penelope Clearwater Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Soulmates, Soul Bond, Red String of Fate, Heavy Angst, Terminal Illnesses, Major Illness, Angst with a Happy Ending

Summary:

When Harry Potter unintentionally severs their soulbond before it can fully form, Draco Malfoy resigns himself to a slow death and decides not to burden Harry with a soulmate he's made it very clear he doesn't want. He's never been selfless before, but for Harry, he can try.

Excerpt:

This is why, five days after Healer Clearwater’s visit, he turns to Harry, who’s lying next to him in bed and reading a horror novel aloud, and says, “I have something to tell you.”

Harry pauses, then lays the book on his lap. “You gonna give up all your secrets? I’d rather you didn’t; it’ll be morbid and depressing.”

Draco’s lips quirk up into a tired smile (everything he does is tired. He misses having enough energy to leave his room). “I don’t have any secrets from you anymore. Well, except for the one.” He’s not trying to be cryptic – it’s really just an offhand comment, but Harry’s eyebrows go up. He coughs a little, nervously, but he forces himself to speak. “I don’t know how to tell you, but I need to.”

Something serious and grave settles over Harry’s face. “You don’t have to tell me anything. If you’re trying to… I don’t know, give us closure or something, I don’t want to hear it. I don’t want you to talk like you’re about to die.”

“I am about to die,” he says, exasperated. “You can’t pretend I’m not, and fuck you very much, I need to say this for me as much as you need to hear it. It’s important. It could change everything.”

Harry visibly grows more upset. “I don’t want everything to change, though – I don’t want your confession, especially if it's something bad. Whatever it is, you don’t need to make things stressed now; I’ll be happier not knowing. I want us to be happy right until…” He trailed off, swallowing.

“It’s important, Potter,” Draco huffs, struggling to sit. He coughs again – this time from the pressure in his chest and lingering pneumonia – and Harry softens, moving to push him back onto his pillow.

“Merlin, Draco, stop,” he sighs. “Fine. If it’s that important, tell me. I just don’t want you to feel the need to tell me things just because you think it’s the thing to do.”

“It is the thing to do,” Draco disagrees. “And this is something…” He swallows. He can’t explain it, or explain himself.

There’s a very long moment where Harry just looks to him, concerned and ever so slightly curious. Then, he just says it.

“It’s you.”

Harry’s eyebrows furrow in confusion. “What is?”

Draco doesn’t answer him properly, but he feels his own expression weaken into something vulnerable and afraid. “I’m sorry I didn’t tell you. When it first happened, you seemed so angry, so offended I even spoke to you, that I figured… I figured it was better for us both if I didn’t say anything. I thought it would be a bother for you, that you’d feel obligated to – I just didn’t want to make a bigger problem than there already was, and I felt… crushed. I didn’t want to reveal that pain to you.”

Realization – and horror – is dawning on Harry’s face. “A bigger problem? Are you saying what I think you’re saying?”

He presses his lips together tightly, bottom lip wobbling, but after a minute he nods, his hair mused against his pillow. “I’m sorry,” he whispers. “Once we became friends, I didn’t know how to tell you, and I didn’t want you to feel obligated to me. I just wanted to be friends, to know what it was like to be around you. I wasn’t trying to take advantage.”

There’s a storm brewing in Harry’s eyes. “You weren’t trying to take advantage. You just became my friend, to torture me by letting me watch you die – you just wanted to… fuck, Draco.” He hangs his head, pressing his palms against his eyes. “I cannot believe you, you – you berk.”

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you’ve got the antidote for me by Kandakicksass

Summary: When Harry Potter unintentionally severs their soulbond before it can fully form, Draco Malfoy resigns himself to a slow death and decides not to burden Harry with a soulmate he's made it very clear he doesn't want.

He's never been selfless before, but for Harry, he can try.

You guys. I can’t even with this fic. It was so good. 

1) the angst. Okay listen to me. I’m not one for angst. My chest aches with the pain of the characters and I need happiness, but this one. Was. So. Great!!!! It’s written so well, Draco’s POV is so deep that you live with him through the story. I was totally absorbed in how deliciously heartbreaking it was!! And, it’s Happy (very!!!) Ending in the most perfect way.

2) perfect length. It’s 20k which is such a nice read you can have even during your lunch break (why, yes, that’s exactly how I ended up reading this, woops). The story it’s so captivating that you hold your breath from start to finish barely blinking.

3) the friendship. It’s all about love this story, not only romantic love. There’s so much friendship, in all kind of ways, I was so happy reading it. Draco and Ron become true friends, and then even Hermione, and ultimately Harry and it all happens so normally, gradually. It felt unavoidable, just perfect. 

Draco’s voice is really splendid in this and I’m feeling all soft and in love now. I hope you’ll enjoy this as much as I did. 🥺

[hazybellarecs]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Title: you’ve got the antidote for me

Author: Kandakicksass

Pairing: Drarry (Draco/Harry)

Rating: Mature

Word Count: 20,730

Summary: When Harry Potter unintentionally severs their soulbond before it can fully form, Draco Malfoy resigns himself to a slow death and decides not to burden Harry with a soulmate he's made it very clear he doesn't want. He's never been selfless before, but for Harry, he can try.

AU?: Yes - Canon-divergent AU, Soul bonds AU, Soulmates AU

Important Tags: Terminal Illness

My Comments: This fic hits SO HARD. So much angst, and I’m not ashamed to admit I cried through a solid portion of it. I love how this was written, and the characterisation was one of my favourite parts, particularly of Ron! I will definitely be reading this again when I’m in need of a cathartic crying session lmao.

[dictacontrion]

This is life or death, Draco,” Ron says evenly. “I won’t respect your privacy if it means keeping you alive.” “It’s not your decision!” Ron leans forward toward his chair, his hands clasped in front him. He looks painfully earnest. “But it is his, and you’re taking his ability to decide from him. I know you’re scared, but he deserves to know, Draco, and I think you’d be surprised by how much he’d want to.” Draco’s fists are clenched. Why do people keep saying that? “He rejected me. I was going to die alone so he’d never have to know. He told me he didn’t want me.” “He was angry. He judged you based on your past and he apologized for that. You can’t hold it against him.” “I'm not, I just... I don’t know how to tell him,” Draco says, honest even though it kills him, and Ron’s entire expression softens. “At first, I didn’t say anything because I didn’t want him to be with me out of obligation… but how do I explain that now? How do I explain I’ve been his friend for months and haven’t told him?” “He’s going to care more about you living than how long it took you to tell him,” he answers. “That doesn’t make it easier, but it’s true. He needs to know.” The thing is, Draco knows he’s right, but he also can’t shake the idea that Harry would agree just to save his life. That had always been his fear, and it hasn’t changed. He had a very clear vision of Harry, willing but more and more resentful every year of the soulmate he’d been shackled to… Draco had gotten so used to the idea that he’d die from this that now it’s more frightening to consider that he might have to live with it.

you’ve got the antidote for me by Kandakicksass

[lostdrarryfics]

Hey, Im pretty sure I read this fic on ao3, but it could have been ff.net too. It was 8th year but only Harry went back, both Ron and Hermione went straight to working at the ministry. They might have either taken their NEWTs early or just been offered jobs.

The only specific scene I remember is Ron and Hermione finally coming to visit him at Hogwarts - they’d been making excuses or had been too busy before - and Harry noticing how different and ‘mature’ they were compared to him, and that working at the ministry had changed them. It is drarry, I think Harry starts confiding in Draco because he’s growing apart from his friends and they eventually end up together. It wasn’t a super long fic, possibly 30-40k? Maybe shorter

Really sorry if this is too vague, but I hope you can help!

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[lostdrarryfics]

Hi! Thank you so much for doing this 🥰

I'm trying to find a post-war, soulmates fic where Harry rejects Draco's attempt at apologizing after his trial and Draco immediately finds out that he was his soulmate via a cut red string. It's a death sentence but Draco doesn't want to interfere with Harry's life, and so vows to suffer alone and never tell him. Draco works with letters and has a boss who dislikes him. He starts getting sicker and sicker, as magic starts hurting him, but later makes friends with the trio (Ron and Hermione first cuz they feel sorry for him and then genuinely). He and Harry become really close as he deteriorates, with Harry inviting Draco to live with him so he could take care of him. But Draco still refuses to tell him until he is almost at death's door, then they have an emotional reconciliation scene in bed when the truth comes out.

I think the whole thing was written a long time ago and totals to less than 20k words, but I'm not sure.

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[lostdrarryfics]

Hi, can you help me find this fic? I remember that Draco is cursed with something that deteriorates his health condition, and he is probably going to die. He has a job in the ministry, and Ron notices that draco is getting ill and is very lonely, but draco tries to come in every day anyway. So I think Ron invites draco to the pub and he and Hermione become friends with him. OHH I think!! the curse was to get Harry to love him, but draco just didn't think it would happen so he didn't try and accepted his fate. Ron and Hermione convince harry that draco is actually a pretty good person, and they become friends, but draco is still getting worse. at the end, I'm not sure if he lives or dies...

I know this is a bit vauge and kind of like The Bucket List, but draco has accepted his fate in this one and doesn't go do anything and just deals with it for as long as he can.

thank you for everything you do!

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