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🪦 : what hill would they die on?

This is definitely more of a personal one, but the fact that some learning disabilities really are disabling and that the toxic positivity mindset she had hammered into her as a kid probably did more harm than good. While her parents more or less just learned to stop expecting more from her because of her Dyscalculia, some of the well-intentioned but uncertain administration of the schools she went to didn't really know how to help her and tried to wishfully think her way into success, which didn't work. Sure, they were a little kinder and didn't belittle her as stupid or stubborn (which a lot of kids with learning disabilities can be shamed as), but thinking just that knowing what was wrong would somehow help her become successful didn't really help, either. It's why Sveta is a bit jaded whenever she hears learning disabilities being euphemized as "differences" or "gifted". When she was younger, she just wished someone would've understood that some disabilities are disabling, and that what she needed was empathy, not pushed to be "better" in ways she really couldn't be.

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I blame Runa for the brainworms, but the idea of letting someone else maintain DH's tail and it feels so nice that he starts purring...,,,, Drago brushies...

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One thing I can't really stop thinking about is the fact that, despite Black Swan deleting the 2k years of memories (that are preserved in his entry of As I've Written) to halt the progression of his Mara, there's still this enormous gulf in his mind that makes reaching past (technically present) memories so difficult. Everyone outside Ampho hasn't seen him in ~4 months while he hasn't seen them in two thousand years. It makes reunions so bittersweet to me, honestly.

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So, watching this video gives a really interesting theory: aka, what will happen to Phainon once he accepts Kephale's Coreflame.

In summary? Phainon might become infected with the Anti-Organic Equation. Why?

The Scepter that powers Amphoreus (whether it's a simulation, memoria world, a world corrupted by the Scepter remains to be seen) is the source of the Anti-Organic Equation. To anyone who remembers or did the SU's Gold & Gears expansion, one of the Secrets' POVs is from a person infected by the Anti-Organic Equation that eventually sees them assassinated by Polka. The Anti-Organic Equation is sourced from the Scepter(s).

Now, given the fact that Kephale is directly linked with the Dawn Device that's actually the Scepter, it stands to reason that Kephale's Coreflame will have some part of the Scepter encoded within it. And in accepting the Coreflame, an infection might be possible.

Something that worldbearing/Robin brought to my attention is Phainon's Emanator form bearing an uncanny resemblance to Kiana as Herrscher of the Void.

And then, there's the way in which Kiana becomes the Herrscher of the Void is via corruption from Honkai. While I don't feel the need to go in-depth, Honkai corruption and the Anti-Organic Equation are very similar to each other, which in turn is much like Mara: all of them alter the victim's mind, grant them power at a cost, and can turn them against the people dearest to them due to their minds being altered so completely.

Again, this is consistent with leaks we've gotten in the past that 3.4 will result in a boss battle with Phainon, presumably with his Emanator state. As we haven't been told how or why we'll be forced to do this, all signs point to Phainon being infected with the Anti-Organic Equation and we'll have to fight him to snap him out of it.

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If anyone needs Dan Feng, he's going to be Amphoreus for a bit--

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So, I altered my rules a little and removed the no-ship zone just because some are common sense or rare enough that it shouldn't be an issue, but I kinda need to get something off my chest.

The way HSR has been treating the AE Trio's relationship has more or less completely killed my interest in DH/March and DH/TB just because I can't, for the life of me, ship pairings that are constantly enforced as borderline paternal in regards to DH and March/TB. Now, I used to like both pairings. What we got in 1.0 was great, but then it just spiraled. Maybe it leans more towards sibling-like, but it's impossible for my muse to feel attracted to people the narrative constantly asserts as child-like and asserts that by how DH is with them, feeling more on the level of Himeko or Welt who are portrayed as the mentors of the Trio.

It's just sad because I liked both pairings. Like, genuinely loved them, even as one of my OT3. Now I just feel nothing because MHY has that terrible habit of beating tropes until they're beyond dead (hello trashcans) and it's just discouraging because it's affecting my boyo ICly, too.

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Dan Heng being good at cooking: The Musical