I'm kind of asking myself why I'm doing this right now, since it'll probably be a little long while before you get to see this. But then again that's kind of why I'm doing it? ....That and the fact that I didn't really do anything else for today, oops. I'm bad with gifts and ideas anyways, maybe I'll figure something out before you get back, though I'm kind of hoping you show up before I figure anything out because hm yeah, I miss you a lot.
Buuuut that's not what this is for. I'm not really even sure what this is for, I guess I initially thought it'd be kind of cool to leave you something for today in your tag and then when you finally get on, like 200 years later, and poke around and stuff you could find this and hm, yeah.
Anyways, happy anniversary. It's been a month already and you know the odd thing? There are still times when I really can't believe that we're actually together and that you're just...all mine. I get this weird feeling when the realization hits me, though it's a good kind of weird but just, I don't know really. It's just that you've been someone I yearned for, for so long, someone I stupidly angsted over because I honestly thought my feelings were one-sided and I'd never have anything that went past friendship with you and I'd even accepted that for a while, I settled into this whole idea that we'd only ever be friends and I was determined to enjoy things the way they were. Our friendship was pretty amazing anyways, we had these short, rare conversations but whenever they took place I'd always end up with this big smile on my face and this real settling feeling in my stomach, I'd just be real happy. And even when we were just friends, when feelings were pushed aside on my part and my only focus was being your friend, you still made me the absolute happiest. No one ever made me as happy as you made me---no one makes me as happy as you make me.
I still don't know where I'm going with this, I think I've kind of gotten away from what I was initially aiming for? I just wanted to write something cute and sweet and awfully short but, I think that's kind of impossible anyways. My thoughts are never short when they concern you, my feelings certainly aren't short or small, they're so immense it's a little scary. I love you. I love you so so much and I'm going to still be as in love with you months and months from now, and I know this because months and months before I fell in love with you, without meaning to at all, and here we are now, all this time later and I'm even more in love with you. And it doesn't help that each day I spend with you----even the days I spend away from you, I end up falling more for you. It's so weird and I keep wondering if there's a point where I stop falling? A point where it's just like, welp that's as in love with you as I'm getting, but it doesn't seem like that's something that's happening? It seems like it's only going to get deeper and deeper and hm, it's weird.
I miss you a hell of a lot too, let me just throw that in there. Being away from you for this long should be illegal and I really hope you pop up sometime soon because I really just want to smother you in kisses....maybe hit you a little too but that's whatever.
I love you. I love everything about you and all of you and I'm just....eh, I'm just awfully in love with you my dear hentai kareshi. Happy one month.