#krizdielanne

[ohbeatsme]

Sa bawat oras na nakikita kitang masaya, masaya na din ako. At kung may kasama mang luha ang aking pag ngiti, maaari bang huwag mo na lamang pansinin? Dahil kasing totoo ng pagiging masaya ko para sa’yo ay ang sakit na dinaranas ngayon ng aking puso. Alam ko naman na tulad natin ay wala ring “kayo” ngunit masakit pa ring isipin na mas kaya ka niyang pasiyahin kaysa sa akin.

Ang hirap palang bumitaw sa isang bagay na pinapahalagahan mo ng husto, pero mas mahirap palang hawakan ang kamay mong pilit namang nagpupumiglas. Kaya naman sinta, pinapalaya na kita. Pinapalaya na kita sa isang bagay na hindi mo naman ginusto sa una pa lamang. At papalayain ko na din ang aking puso sa madamot na uri ng kanyang pagmamahal at sa isip kong puno ng inggit para sa taong iyo namn talagang tunay na minamahal. Dahil sa bawat oras na nakikita kitang masaya, masaya na din ako. At kung ay kasama mang luha ang aking pag ngiti, maari bang huwag mo na lamang pansinin?

[ohbeatsme]

What is it? What is it that you’ve been fighting for all your life? Oh, how I wish I could see that mind of yours. How I wish you would open up your heart into me. Not like reciprocating my feelings for you, though it would be great too but like you talking about the things that fascinates you the most. Tell me a secret, your deepest thoughts. And maybe I can tell you mine. 

[ohbeatsme]

Oh, it would be nice to hear your thoughts.

[ohbeatsme]

  Kabisado ko na ang hugis ng katawan mo. Paano ba naman? Paulit ulit ko nang nakita ang iyong pagtalikod. Sabi nila malalaman mo kung sino ang gusto mo kapag siya lang yung nakikita o hinahanap mo sa mga taong nakapalibot sa iyo. Totoo nga siguro iyon, dahil sa pagkadami dami ng mga taong nakapalibot sa akin, ikaw pa rin ang hinahanap ng mga mata ko. Ngunit hindi ko alam kung hindi lang ako marunong tyumempo, dahil tuwing nakikita kita palaging ika’y paalis na. Nahuli na naman ako. Hindi ko nga din alam kung bakit hindi kita naaabutan, lagi namang inaabangan ang pagdating mo ngunit ang paglisan mo ang lagi kong nasisilayan. Minsan nga magugulat ako nandyan ka na pala. 

Maramdaman ko naman sana ang pagdating mo. Makabisado ko naman sana ang hugis ng iyong mukha kahit sulyap lang. Para naman kahit sa ganoong paraan, makita mo na din ako.

[ohbeatsme]

I don’t know if you knew and you just want me to like you more or what but please stop. If you don’t like me just stop doing things that would eventually lead to another heartbreak. Your actions are confusing and keeps me up all night. I don’t want to expect that you reciprocate my feelings for you but your words and actions are really tempting, right now. 

[ohbeatsme]

Me: I read somewhere that you can't say you like someone if you don't know him that well.

Friend: How can you say so? How can you say you don't know him that well when you're friends for almost 4 years?

Me: I don't know. I can't explain it but I really think I don't know him. Yes, I know where he lives, his birthday, parents but it feels like I don't know his fears, his ambitions and what made him like that.

Friend: But you had a glimpse of his past...

Me: I know but maybe it's just not enough for me.

[ohbeatsme]

Oh, hello there. See that door where you came in? Please use it again to leave.

[ohbeatsme]

Go to him. 

You love him more than everything in this world. You share your most memorable experience with him. His smile makes your day brighter and the silent shared between the two of you makes you calm. When he holds you tight, it is like a silent vow that he will be there even in your lowest moment. The way he stares at you is a promise of forever - and you believe him. 

Let him go. 

The world is against the two of you and you can’t prove it wrong. The moments when you’re together are like a distant memory. His smile doesn’t affect you that much and the silence is getting louder and tearing you apart. When his hold is not tight enough to keep you safe even with your own thoughts. And when he looks at you, all you see is its coldness.