Also another BURNING question
Would you say that Knife, in the current point in time, dislikes Leadman, or still sees him as his dad, or is it more like indifference/he’s put their history behind him, or neither
Oh boy. Let me tell you, certifiedcuntboy, knife is all kinds of messed up in the present day due to leadman. Of course, they’ve always had a bit of a challenging dynamic - knife himself has always struggled with either trying to be “the mature one” while also deeply idolizing leadman’s choices, and in the end being one of the driving forces to keep Leadman in power as a “good king.” I think for a long time, he really did believe in a hope that leadman would be a person who could see and empathize with anyone, and would be a great leader because of that. But watching him crumble from the responsibility of the position (which honestly, was never right for him in the first place), as well as not being able to handle his immortality, was both deeply painful and disappointing to watch. Knife has long considered Leadman, as his father, or even Leadman as a person to be dead - which is odd considering leadman .. isn’t. Obviously leadman is not all there! But sometimes he still is, a bit. but Knife also refuses to believe the kind of person Leadman has become now - so he refuses to really believe that he really is like, who he is. And you know when Knife’s kinda made up his mind about something like that, he sees it as an absolute fact lol. Knife has considered killing him, of course, but its always something he’s “put off” in a way that, i mean, for a person who has killed so much of his family - its a bit weird that he would delay that inevitable outcome. There’s a lot of feelings Knife is avoiding there, but in the end i think it boils down to that Knife doesnt know what to do with the world or what to do about the outcome of the world without Leadman there. He might be effectively, kinda useless as a “real” leader, but his symbolic power and hold on the kingdom is still very strong. He is a foundational block for a lot of systems that keep things together, so removing him would certainly be a radical change and doesnt seem like one Knife has decided is worth going for yet. Plus like leadman is crazy strong, and there’s also a lot of crazy strong people who would retaliate for him doing something like that. So it would basically be a murder suicide, at best. If Knife didn’t have spoon and fork in his life, I think it would have happened by now. But obviously, he has his own family to consider too. Even if he’s been avoiding them by faking his own death, i think in a way he expects that to one day happen, that he’d give them that kind of pain. He’s trying his best to let go of them and “do the right thing”, but also cant commit cuz i think deep down he also knows it isn’t the right thing. He has no idea what the right thing is to do in this situation, he's stuck. So Knife repeats the cycle of his own father by being there, but also not. Being dead, but also not.
