#livingwithadhd

[azraljael]

It really do be like this sometimes

[tianaahhhh]

The only kind of sexual tension I have, is with my google doc as my so called this-is-going-to-be-such-a-hit wip lays on the screen with 217 word count.

[the-girl-without-a-name]

Anyone else with ADHD (and autism too???) have a hard time with doing things with people that you originally had plans doing regardless?

What I mean is, let’s say there’s this new show you wanna watch. You’re busy, so you wanted to wait until you had free time (such as a day off or a major break from school) to get the full experience of it and dedicate your time to it without pauses. When that time comes, a friend or family members tells you that they wanted to watch the show and, knowing you did too, suggested that the two of you watch it together right then and there. Suddenly, although you still desire to watch it, you don’t want to watch it anymore in that moment? Not because you dislike the person or anything--it’s just that now, at the mere suggestion of a loved one that you two watch it together, you start making up reasons why you don’t want to at that moment (ex. “I’m tired”, “Oh I have work/class tomorrow”, “I just realized I have a ton of stuff to do so I need to sleep in tonight”, etc.). It loops until one of you die.

I realize this could be a sneaky form of executive dysfunction, but it really sucks because then things like this pile up and you become so overwhelmed that you never end up watching it no matter what. You just keep purposely putting it off to a non-existent day of freedom and clarity.

[clownscola]

so i know i typically post small lore anyalisis for the dream smp, however i am really into human rights

so let’s take a moment to talk about how autism shouldn’t be demonized and adhd shouldn’t be romanticized. I will start out by saying: i’m not an expert. I have not gone to school for this. My source is my own personal experiences as an autistic person with adhd.

First lets start with autsim. For a long while now, autism has been seen as a disorder that needs to be “fixed” that it is so horrible and life changing that if someone lives with it, they’re immeditely praised for doing simple tasks. However, on the other end of that spectrum, with “high functioning” (hate that label by the way-) people, we are commonly told that we dont seem autistic, and that we have to be faking for attention. As a person with autsim, I can say with certainty: WE ARE NOT. I have gotten diagnosed decently late in my life, unlike my uncle who is autistic. I had always shown signs, for example id hyperfocus on minecraft, I wouldnt eat any new foods because i knew i wasn’t used to the texture, I wouldnt understand sarcasm or jokes, and the most harmful thing most likely: I couldn’t understand or control my tone, leading me to always think when someone raised their voice that they were mad, or whenever i didnt want to do something, id be labeled as “rude” because i didnt realize my tone changed. For neurotypical people, let me use a metaphor for how not understanding your own tone is, and being told to control it. Say that someone told you to read a book, but you have to read it upside down, in a different language. You can see that its a book, and that it exists, but you dont know what any of it means. All of these autistic traits i had were considered “weird” and “irrational” forcing me to mask for so long one day i looked in a mirror and came to a realization that every day i just put on a show for neurotypical people, in order to seem “normal.” Now while there are all these issues, and things i have to deal with, autism isnt this terrible thing. All it is is that my brain works differently. I cant do all of the same things nerotypicals do in the exact same way, however i can still do them. Im still i person with my own thoughts and emotions and i dont have to “look” or “act” autistic to BE autistic. I’m still happy, i still get to live a life i wanted, i just have to deal with some ableism on the way. 

Now lets move onto adhd. People commonly see adhd as just being some hyperactive person, but thats not the case all of the time. i personally know plenty of people with ADHD that are quite calm. The reason adhd is romanticsised is to be like: omg id love to hyperfixate! No, you wouldnt. While some people enjoy their hyperfixations, others struggle because of them. For example, I cant do school at home, why? because my mind physically won’t let me think of anything that isnt five nights at freddys. Sometimes ill even neglect physical health until i complete something involving my hyperfixations like its some sick, twisted reward. Another thing thats romanticized, ADHD people getting destracted. “oh that was just my adhd acting up whoops!” While i do get destracted by small things, i do certainly admit, Sometimes ill be walking with my friend and go “squirrel!” out of nowhere if i see one. However my destractions are horrible at times. For example, ill be working in class, and if someone talking i can fully comprehend their whole conversation, and that gets people upset because i cant focus. At times i disassociate and everything feels muffled, it doesnt feel like im me. Im not “cute” because i have ADHD. I get easily frustrated, and need constant stimulation. 

Another thing ill talk about are sensory issues. The reason i cant eat most foods. I’m typicallly told “its no big deal” however every time i get close to having a panic attack. One day when there was a speaker that made a loud sudden sound, i had to skip an entire class because i panicked and broke down. That was my favorite class. I had to buy headphones because i was having sensory overloads daily because my peers would scream in the halls for no reason, people would yell and shout, play music on speakers. I couldnt handle it. 

Autism isnt some terrible thing, and ADHD isnt some cute disorder where youre super hyper. Pros and Cons come with both. But we are JUST as human as neurotypical people, and deserve to be treated as such. 

[w0rdsandthings]

You know when you’re streaming something and the picture freezes but the audio continues? Yeah, that’s what being ADD sometimes feels like

[childishgambinois]

I'm an African Zulu Girl With ADHD and that shit fucking sucks

A lesser known side affect of having ADHD is the anxiety it causes and paranoid behavior it can inspire. It's worse when it comes to your friends 👫👬👭

You're constantly worried that they don't like you. You're worried that you did something wrong. That there's something wrong with you. That you're too weird and socially retarded that you can't keep up with the social norms and it alienates you from your friends.😔😖

Having strange "White", "Western" and "American" alienated me from my peers and community most of my childhood. I was more interested in watching TV 📺24/7 than I was going outside to play with my friends👭.

It was worse at school because we could never talk about the same shit. Other kids were more interested in other shit while I was interested in Anime, Computers, Cartoons, Comics and superheroes. Imagine trying to explain the difference between DC and Marvel and Anime and Cartoons to someone uninterested. 😞😞😞😟😟

Now imagine doing that for 7 years straight. To Africans. In AFRICA. That right there was basically me during all of Primary School. No one was Fucking interested and that shit ostracised me from everyone else.😥😦😧😩😩

Now imagine me discovering Fanfiction and faculture for the first time. Now imagine me trying to explain that too.

For the Longest time I was convinced I was the only black girl in this community. At best I am the only Zulu here.😶

Now imagine me making a friend for the first time on fanfiction and starting a chat with her. When chatting with her I felt a free to be myself but one day she just. Stopped. She ghosted me.

I tried to message her and apologise but still no word. I know she's still online because she updates so she must be ignoring me right? Fuck what did I do?😰😰😰😩😩😩😩😩

This happened about 3 years ago and to this day i'm fucked up from that ghosting that I get hella paranoid whenever someone doesn't reply to my message. It has me fucked up and wondering, "shit did I do something wrong?", "did I miss out on some social etiquette or some shit? Fuck what did I say? What did I do?😩😧😲😲"

So nowadays whenever someone doesn't reply after a certain amount of time it fucks me up and I over react by bombarding them with multiple messages and suffocating them. I ask shit like "Are you still there?" "Did I say something to offend you?" I'm extra sensitive to when someone doesn't reply when chances are they just fell asleep or ran out of Data. But no my paranoid ADHD brain doesn't agree and compels me to suffocate them in an endless sea of messages that probably freaks them out.

Thanks to friends @spadestorm696 who understands she makes sure that she always has the last message and constantly reassures me she's still there and gives me a heads up whenever she has to go.

Real friends aren't just people that pit up with your crazy shit but adjust themselves to accommodate you because of them. @spadestorm696 saw I had trust and ghosting issues and makes sure I know that she's not gonna do that.

Shoutout to all the #realfriends like Spadestorm that do shit like that.

The friends that disinfect their hands because you are a germophobe. The kind that keep tidy and clean because they know you're a neat freak. The kind that know you hate this food so they always make sure to avoid it. You guys are the real friends

To some of my other friends and people I occasionally chat with i'm sorry if I freak you out sometimes and overwhelm you with seemingly endless messages.

Tag list: @soriseerakyra @spadestorm696 @disgrays-on

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