💌 // for Eliza from Alexander
Send 💌 for a goodbye letter from my muse to yours
If you are reading this, it means that my time has come to an early end. But I’m hoping with this letter you hold no grudges towards me or my decisions. You see, the doctors appointment I attended, the only one you weren’t there for, the doctor told me the unbearable news. That this pregnancy would have to be my last and that I had two options: I could live and the baby would die or the baby could live and I would die. They could save us both and you should know better than anyone that I will always put someone else first, especially if it is our child. They will always come first.
I just want you to know that I’m not doing this in spite of you, I’m doing this because of my love for you. You’ve always wanted a son, and now, now is your chance to have one. He is yours. He is ours. Yours and mine. I just wish I were there to celebrate this next step in our lives together but I know you, and I know how much of an amazing father you’re going to be. You’re always going to have me there too, just not in physical form like we wish I were. But no matter what happens, I’m always there, I hope you know that.
One last thing before I leave, thank you. Thank you for allowing me to be a part of your narrative. Thank you for including me in your stories. Thank you for loving me for who I am and not for what I’m worth. Thank you for being my one in a million. I will love you forever and always Alexander.
- YOURS FAITHFULLY, ELIZABETH HAMILTON