#mixed cd

[wizardmars]

tada!!

anyways my mix is done! Wish I had a cd that held more than 80 minutes but oh well!

Edit: tumblr deleted like half the shit I wrote on here? Weird?? Anyways I basically just wanna say I’m super proud of this bc, while it is NOT a priority to have your art look as close to the source material as possible, I’m still really proud at how close it is. I’m almost 30 and always wanted to touch this milestone just to say I could, so that’s fun!

[apt-comix]

[Image Descriptions: photos of a quartered, 8-page stapled zine featuring handdrawn pencil sketches on printer paper that has been edited on gimp to enhance all the flaws of the paper in a purpley-red sloppy effect. The cover is just the penciled words "Hopping On The 'People I Think About A Lot' Train (with thanks to tumblr just scramratz for the concept)". There is also the logo on the side, showing a drawn hand holding a power drill with the words "A.P.T. comix" on either side.]

[first page. "Christine, for whom I bought the pregnancy test, and then smuggled the piss-soaked stick in my purse, so her father couldn't find it." A barely-adult blonde girl in a t-shirt and skirt hugs a barely-older adult with too long tangled dark hair wearing black shirt and jeans with a purse hanging from their shoulder. The blonde is crying with her eyes closed but smiling, as one of the hands wrapped around the brunette holds a pregnancy test with just one line on the screen.]

["The lyft driver whose name has been lost to my ride history, who offered to stay with me in the dark when we arrived at the Radiology clinic too early." The drawing shows two adults, one an older and tired version of the first brunette now with shorter hair, smiling and exiting a car driven by an equally-tired man with a mullet. The background has been scribbled in black with the pencil.]

["Kathleen, my grandmother's daughter, who stopped talking to me 5 weeks after we discovered each other." The drawing shows the faint outline of an oldish woman with long, light hair, smiling with her eyes closed as she props her face up with her hand. In the corner it says "(I'm still not entirely sure what she looks like.)

["Britrney W, whom I missed out on a relationship with because I knew our tastes in music were vastly different." It shows the brunette person, now a teenager with short hair that has long strands of hair on the side, holding a backpack and looking dismayed as a teenage girl (also brunette) excitedly holds up a CD with a heart drawn on it.]

["Brittney F, whose death is still never secretly stop feeling guilty for." It shows an empty park bench at the edge of a pathway, a bouquet of flowers on the ground in front of it. Of note, because of the enhanced flaws, it shows the ghosting of the cover's words mirrored on it.]

["Louis, my summer romance, who ghosted me the day they found out their cancer was terminal." It shows the sketched photo of a person with very short, thin hair and wearing glasses. They look tired as they hold a happy cat. On their sleeve it is written "despite everything, it's still you."]

["Cassandra, whom I knew for all of 3 days before she was kicked out of the homeless shelter in the dead of winter, and left me her coat anyway." It shows a woman in her thirties, exhaustion aging her, staring at the reader with a wry smile while wearing a winter coat with the fuzzy hood pulled up. In the background it is penciled dark. End I.D]

The scramratz comic that inspired this can be found here (my reblog with the image description)

Commentary under cut

Some day I'll make a lighthearted comic

Rip my ink levels lmao. The intent until the very last moment was just a plain pencil comic on white printer paper, but while trying to clean up and heighten contrast on one of the panels on GIMP, I clicked a button to see what it would do and it was baller as hell so I did it for the whole thing. It has blue tones on my laptop but printed more red, even tho it's quite clear on my tank printer that I had plenty of blue ink

First comic without Electric Zine Maker bc it doesn't work on my new Linux 😭. Instead I used Scribus Zine Templates by MetaParadox on Itch, then had a hell of a time trying to get my setup to actually print the page and not the individual panels, before I realized I needed to export it as a PDF then print it from my native PDF viewer, not from Scribus directly. So much wasted ink 😭😭

I was originally going to do a comic just on losing Louis twice, but this is all you're going to get about it bc i couldn't get thru editing it and realized it came out more as making their cancer about me than I felt was justifiable anyway

I haven't spoken to any of these people in years, some in a decade or more

[nikkileeshoopman]

A playlist of all of my old mixed CDs from HS and College.  Enjoy! (via https://open.spotify.com/user/nlmmakeup/playlist/7db497fjp4neYGu0ah5NdK)

[amestilskin]

Found my mixed cds that I made 6 years ago.

Couple of bands that I completely forgot about.

[howstrangethemusicsoundstome]

I wonder what became of all those mixed CDs I made for people in high school.

[hazelodestar]

[hazelodestar]

[lacey-the-seawitch]

I’m totally done making mixed cds for people that don’t appreciate them. To me they are an art form that I put a lot of work into....I put a little piece of myself into them and therefore take them very seriously.