Since I'm not in a competition anymore I'm not gna bother with many pictures
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After a while, I honestly forget what happens before this other than it was just Me, Nabikio, Tiger and Jar in the game room. We were resting from the war i think, planning to bond and chill.
But Jar had promised to be honest abt his feelings earlier and to talk about them.
And so he talked, and i wanted to comfort. I wanted to help him feel better. As always.
I tried encouragement, i tried pep talk i tried-
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I'll admit I used to have a saviour complex. And i thought it was fine.
Like, forming a whole identity abt saving others was virtuous, right?
I couldn't get physically hurt in any way so i can't get hurt right?
With my 4th wall powers i should be able to understand others enough to KNOW how to need their true needs, right?
The frick you mean right-NO.
It was intrusive, disrespectful and bad not only for me but for others. It was because of it i did many things I regretted.
Maybe it was just because i wanted to be liked, to be loved, to be usefull and needed.
Maybe it was how i could believe i was real
Either way it never excused it
The talk ended. Eventually i kept my mouth shut. And Jarrett finally just tolp us his feelings. Wer learned weaknesses and we learned smth new.
Also Tiger was the only one who listened and asked the right questions. But that's not the point.
But this incident.....it rly shook me a lot
