Chapter 12 of the official Black Butler Anthology has Sebastian pretend to be Ciel's childhood friend for the day (the "osananajimi" trope in romance anime, even teases him playfully)
Sebastian, as himself, likes holding Ciel's hand, and walking side by side with the Young Master... But Ciel doesn't think it's possible to hold hands with Sebastian like this because he isn't human... Or at least they can't, because of their current roles and circumstances.
He does not allow himself to succumb to such illusions.
Sobbing hands and knees on the floor rn, once again plugging in Hallucination because I keep hurting myself thinking about how they believe it's not possible for them to hold each other's hands, as master and servant, as demon and human.
Thinking about Sebastian having inner conflict, wondering if it's such a sin as a demon to enjoy holding his master's hand, a simple touch of affection. So unbecoming of a servant and yet indulging in it every chance he gets... Dancing with him, carrying him, helping him into/out of the carriage.. what would it be like to hold his master's hand in his own, without pretense nor necessity?
They can never walk side by side, that's the way things are. And yet...
To want this much...
Is it a sin or a trap?
