One year on since I made the post that I had been terrified to make, yet it reached such a wide and wonderful audience.
Since it’s PCOS awareness month for 2023, I just want to send the biggest hug to every single woman who is fighting the same battle. I know it’s exhausting. I know that it physically and emotionally hurts like hell. I know that it feels like nobody will ever fully understand. But if I can get through it, so can you.
I finally got to work with an endocrinology consultant who I owe so much to, for listening to me and taking every symptom and detail on board. We’re working on a treatment plan which has been trial and error (at times there was a lot of error, and that’s totally okay) but I’m finally starting to see small changes that indicate that I’m responding to treatment, which is such a relief.
The amount of hospital and GP visits, tests, stress and times where I’ve been left in so much pain that I wasn’t able to move taught me that I really need to enjoy every moment of this life. So that’s what I’ve been doing as much as I can. So far this year I’ve got a city apartment, appeared on national TV for my work in social innovation, travelled to some of my bucket list destinations and achieved some life goals that at one stage felt like they would only ever be dreams.
Also, today I finally got to meet and hold one of the newest additions to my (very large) extended family. It’s moments like these that make me pray one day I’ll become a momma and be able to hold my own little miracle in my arms, because there is nothing more precious than the gift of life, or the amount of love a little one can fuel you with.
I wish the same for everyone else who shares the same dream. Nobody could ever describe the hurt that comes with being told you’ll struggle with your fertility, but I’m a strong believer in miracles. One day, they will be ours, and until then we will continue to fight 🙏
If anyone has any questions about the help and treatment I’ve been getting, or just wants somebody to talk to, because I know how easy it is to feel isolated, please reach out to me. There is nothing I’d like more than to support and help others, because I know just how hard it is. But I promise you’re never alone 🩵