Summary: On his sixtieth birthday, Joel can’t help but feel the weight of his years. For just one night, he wants to forget the number — and with you, remember what it feels like to be young again.
Pairing: Husband! Old man! Joel x Wife! reader
WC: 1.6k
Warning: 18+, smut, vulnerability, lots of pet names.
12 years, four kids, and an apocalypse together— a lifetime full of surprises with Joel. Seeing Joel get old was not something you ever thought you’d get experience, especially in this world— it’s truly one of your biggest blessings.
Jackson has been good to you, a place for you to call home and for your kids to thrive. Joel has been at home a lot more, not that he wanted to be— but after his heart attack it was the doctors orders.
Tonight is Joel’s birthday dinner, he’s finally turned sixty.
Joel gets home—hanging his coat on the rack and sliding his shoes off by the door. You’re in the kitchen finishing up making dinner.
“Where have you been? You left earlier while I was taking a nap.” You mention.
He comes behind you while you’re at the stove, wrapping his arms around your waist and placing a kiss on your cheek.
“I went out with the guys for patrol”
You turn, looking at him.
“Joel..”
“Baby, I just did a walk around the perimeter with them— no heavy stuff.”
“Did you at least bring your pills?”
Joel’s eyes widen as he leans over, putting his finger on the edge of the pan and tasting the lasagna sauce.
He lets out a slight chuckle, “this sauce is really good.”
He walks away, trying to avoid the question.
You let out a sigh, turning back to the stove.
“You need to take this seriously, I don’t want to find out that my husband had another heart attack because he wouldn’t listen.”
He sits on the couch, putting his glasses on to watch one of the dvd movies you have.
“Honey, I won’t forget again. I promise.”
The scent of garlic bread and lasagna fills the house.
“I see that you got some new movies for the collection. Pirates of the Caribbean, Lord of the Rings, and X-men.”
You’re too focused on pulling out the plates, “yeah. They found them when they went out last week and gave them to me.”
The lock to the front door turns—the door opens and the kids come running in.
“Please, take your shoes off and your jackets!” You yell from the kitchen.
Your daughter Claudia runs and jumps in Joel’s lap.
“Happy birthday, daddy!” She giggles.
Joel laughs, putting down the movies and giving her a kiss on the forehead.
“Thank you, pumpkin. How was your time with Sarah?”
“It was good. Her and Jonah are so much fun!”
Joel’s brow raises, “Jonah?”
You bring the food over to the table— setting it up and wiping your hands off on your apron. Sarah turns the corner, “it smells good.”
“Thank you, honey! Can you call your siblings in here, so they can get seated for dinner?”
You look up and see a boy walking behind Sarah.
“Oh! I didn’t know you brought company, who’s your friend?”
She smiles awkwardly, Jonah now standing beside her.
“This is Jonah..”
He waves at you as you walk over to shake his hand.
“Nice to meet you Jonah.”
“Nice to meet you as well, ma’am.” He replies, shaking your hand with a sweaty palm.
“He’s my boyfriend.” Sarah blurts out.
Your eyes widen, “boyfriend?”
She nods, looking at you nervously.
“Does Joel know?” You giggle.
Sarah shakes her head no.
“Do I know what?” Joel asks, turning the corner behind Jonah— holding Claudia in his arms.
You laugh, pulling your apron off and walking back over to the sink.
Sarah turns to face Joel, hesitating. “This is my boyfriend, Jonah.”
Joel’s mouth falls open as he sits Claudia down in the chair closest to him.
“Boyfriend?”
Jonah awkwardly chuckles, holding his hand out for Joel to shake it.
“Nice to meet you sir and Happy birthday!”
Joel just stands there, looking at them.
You glance over at them, letting out a sigh.
“Joel!” You loudly whisper.
“Right, thank you.” He nods, shaking Jonah’s hand.
“Kids come in here for dinner!” You yell, placing napkins on the table.
Dinner goes well— the lasagna is a hit and so is the chocolate birthday cake. Despite Joel being surprised by Sarah with a boyfriend, he did try to get to know him during dinner and even shared a few laughs with him.
The door is opened, Jonah walking out before Sarah.
“Bye guys, I’ll be back over tomorrow. I love you!”
“I love you too! Be careful.” You both shout in sync as she shuts the door.
“The dishes are going to soak for a little bit and then I’ll wash them.” You mumble, talking to yourself.
Joel is leaning against the counter, staring at you like you’re his favorite snack on a hungry day.
“You didn’t have to do anything for me, I’m so glad you did.” He admits, walking over to you.
“It’s your birthday, of course I was going to do something. We had to celebrate your sixtieth birthday, it’s a big deal.” You grin.
He pulls you close to him, his hand caressing your cheek.
His lips meet yours in a needy kiss.
“I need you so bad.” He confesses.
As much as you love kissing him, you pull back.
“Joel..” you mutter.
“What’s wrong?”
“We can't. Remember what the doctor said?”
He hangs his head down in defeat
“Baby, my heart is gonna be fine. I already took my pills during dinner too.”
“I don’t want to chance it.”
He starts kissing your neck, “I’m aching for you.”
You whimper, trying so hard not to cave in— but it feels so good having his lips on you after three months.
“The kids are asleep.. and it’s been so long, baby.” He mumbles in between his kisses.
You slowly shift away from him, trying to fight the urge to rip off his clothes.
“I’m gonna go shower, once I’m done we can watch one of those movies.”
He groans, “alright.”
You can tell that he’s a bit frustrated, you are too. You just want to be mindful of his health. You’d love to fuck him every night, but the doctor told him no strenuous activity until he’s cleared.
You take a cold shower, trying to forget the urge to fuck Joel. The water runs down your body and flashes of him fucking you flood your mind.
You can feel the heat and wetness pooling between your legs.
You get out of the shower— wiping yourself off and throwing on one of Joel’s t-shirts.
Joel’s on the couch with his glasses on and reading the back of the X-men dvd.
“I think I want to go with this one.” He mutters.
You come into the living room and straddle his lap, catching him off guard.
“Sugar, what are you doing?”
“I want you so bad, I don’t want to wait anymore.” You confess, your hands rubbing his chest.
He sets the dvd down on the table, keeping eye contact with you.
“You sure about that?”
You nod, “I am. Unless you don’t want to fuck me anymore?”
His hands grips your ass and glide up your back.
“Darlin, I want to fuck you every way I can.”
You bite your lip— pulling his glasses off and setting them down.
“Good.”
You kiss him, moaning into his mouth.
He pulls your shirt over your head, staring at you in awe while you sit in his lap completely naked.
He pulls you closer—kissing your chest, his hand cupping your breast and rubbing your nipple.
Your hips grind against his sweats out of pure need.
His tongue circles your nipple, making you moan.
“Joel.. fuck me.”
He picks you up and lays you on your back, taking his sweats and shirt off.
His cock springs free— thick, veins bulging, and precum coating his tip.
He comes down on the couch, in between your legs— kissing you like he’s been starved.
“You ready for me?” He whispers in your ear.
You nod, arching your back as he rubs his head against your clit.
His head pushes in, stretching you and making you gasp.
“Shit, mama. You’re tight as hell.” He groans.
You grab his arm, trying to get used to the stretch again.
“You got this baby. Doing so well, taking all of me.”
He’s fully inside you, filling you up in a way that you’d almost forgotten what it felt like.
He leans down, kissing your neck and shoulder— slowly thrusting in and out of you.
“Fuck, your cock is so big.” You moan.
He chuckles, his hips slamming against you— going deeper with each stroke.
“Yes, Joel. It feels so good.”
“Mhmm.” He grunts.
He pulls out of you, catching you off guard.
“Turn around for me, mama.”
You get up, turning around and getting on all fours—arching your back.
“What a beautiful sight.”
He lines himself up, pushing in— slapping your ass.
He fucks you like he can’t get enough, his hips slamming into your ass.
“Just like that. You’re so deep inside me.” You moan.
He grabs your hair, wrapping it around his fist.
“You like that?” He grunts.
“Yes, fuck” you whimper.
He smacks your ass again, smiling as he watches it bounce on his cock.
“Shit, I’m gonna-“
“Fuck.”
“That’s right, sugar. Cum for me.”
Your pussy grips him like a fist as moans spill from your mouth.
He lets go of your hair and brings both hands back to your hips.
“Don’t get too loud, baby. We ain’t home alone.”
His release is quickly approaching.
“Mmm baby, I’m about to cum.” He moans.
Two more thrusts and his warm ropes of cum are filling you up.
He keeps thrusting in and out of you, riding out his fantastic release.
He pulls out, falling onto the couch behind you and trying to catch his breath.
“Shit, darlin. I needed that.”
You giggle, turning around— facing him and grabbing your shirt.
“Me too. I didn’t realize how much I needed that.”
“Whoo. I need a minute and maybe another pill.” He jokes.
You nudge him.
“That’s not funny.”
“Well, it wouldn’t have been the worst way to die. I would’ve gone out as a happy man.”
Pedro meets a pretty young woman at a bar who seems to have no idea who he is. Intrigued by this, he ends up hooking up with you. Months into your relationship, you have something to confess.
Contains: smut, p in v, consensual protected sex, condoms, age gap (50&29), oral sex (f receiving), fingering, feral!Pedro, lying, angst, crying, bad conscience about age gap, bodily fluids, multiple orgasms, dirty talk, mild dom/sub dynamic, reassurance, aftercare, fluff, love confessions, nervousness, mild pain during sex, comfort
Wordcount: 12,656
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Pedro laughed and put his glass back on the counter with a low thud.
"Oh shut up…" he grinned, feeling heat spread in his cheeks from being the center of attention. Or maybe it was the alcohol in his system.
"No, no, no…" his friends disagreed in unison, raising their glasses to celebrate him.
Despite the faint flattery, Pedro felt the good mood in his bones. He had just finished a movie that had taken many months of hard work, so of course his head would have been swimming even without the whiskey in his glass.
He was in a bar with his best friends, he could use his next few weeks to rest, and he was satisfied with the outcome of the movie. Indeed, there was reason to have a good time tonight.
"Next round is on me!" Pedro laughed, even though half of his friends couldn't hear him over the loud noise around them. The other half shook their heads in protest, but he was faster than them. As swiftly as the wind, Pedro stood up from the table, grabbed his wallet and swayed his index finger in front of them.
"I insist!" he shouted, giving them a wry smirk before heading for the counter where people were lined up in front of the bartender like children watching animals behind the fence at a zoo.
"Can I get another round for my friends?" Pedro asked the bartender, a young man with a dark beard and piercing grey eyes that seemed to look straight into his soul. He just hoped the man wouldn't look too closely and make a scene in the middle of the bar. Most of the time, Pedro didn't mind taking one or two pictures with fans, but the place was pretty crowded, and since he wanted to celebrate with his friends, he wasn't keen to draw everyone's attention to him and wait for such a long time while everyone was having their share of him.
"Of course!" the young man said and gave him a friendly nod. If he had recognized him, he didn't hint at it, which Pedro was relieved by.
"Excuse me…"
He briefly flinched at the voice of a woman, a heaviness settling in his stomach. Shit. Well, now he would have to get through it and just hope that the woman wouldn't inform anyone else in the bar of his presence.
"You dropped something."
Pedro finally turned around, glaring at you through narrow eyes.
"What?"
"You dropped something. Here you go."
You quickly lowered yourself to the floor and picked up a small item, throwing your hair over your shoulder as you straightened up. With a shy smile, you handed him his wallet, which must have fallen out of his back pocket.
"Thank you – so much," Pedro stammered, taken aback by the unexpected encounter. He had been certain that you approached him to ask for a picture, but there was nothing shimmering in your eyes that resembled recognition or excitement. Just… kindness.
You were young, significantly younger than him. Maybe around thirty or in your late thirties, tops. But gosh, you were pretty, and he was positive that it wasn't just the dim light shining onto your face in such an intimate way. There was something about you causing his nerves to prickle and his mouth to dry up.
"I'm sorry, I'm an idiot. I always keep my wallet in my pocket, but it has fallen out a million times before. Thank you, honestly. Can I – Can I thank you by buying you a drink?"
Your grin broadened, teeth sinking into your bottom lip, though you seemed a little unsettled.
"Really? I mean, I – you don't have to. Seriously."
"I want to," Pedro simply said over the noise and took a step toward the counter.
His friends could wait. This was more important.
Pedro couldn't remember when the last time was that he had met someone your age who didn't know his name or any other personal details about his life. Usually, at this point in a conversation, the other person would have shoved their phone in his face, told him about their favorite projects of his and asked him for a hug. Not that he minded his fame, he really didn't. Yet it was refreshing to stand in front of a woman who had absolutely no intentions or expectations. Someone who was getting to know him like human beings usually did when one of them wasn't a famous actor. Pedro hadn't experienced it in so long that he felt almost eager to find out what it was like. Of course, he would buy you that drink if it meant talking to you just a little longer.
"Thank you. Okay…" you whispered and took your seat on a stool while Pedro ordered two Mojitos.
"Is that okay? Do you like Mojitos?" he asked, which made your eyes light up.
"Yes. Of course, yeah," you answered and crossed your legs, drumming your fingers on the counter.
"Good. I'm sorry, I just ordered without asking you, which is kind of stupid because I wanted to invite you…"
"It's fine. Seriously."
Taking his bottom lip between his teeth, Pedro exhaled softly. "Are you here with friends?"
"Yes. But they kind of ditched me."
His eyebrows lifted, curiosity sparking on his face. "Ditched you how?"
"Well, the plan was to come here with three friends. One of them asked to bring her girlfriend last minute. We agreed, but I should've known that the two of them would leave after an hour, which is exactly what happened. The second one met a guy while waiting in the bathroom line, and the third one just got a phone call and left to pick up her friend because she got arrested."
Pedro's features drew with disbelief, his eyes wide but a feeble grin tugging at his lips.
"Arrested?"
"It's nothing bad," you uttered, making a dismissive hand gesture. "She drove too fast, that's it."
"So they just left you here alone?" Pedro wanted to know and rested his right elbow on the counter, slightly leaning in.
"Yeah. Which is why I planned to leave. That was right before I saw your wallet fall out of your pocket." You smiled, allusively glancing at the brown leather, glinting in the bright light. Pedro now held it in his hand, just in case he would drop it again and there wouldn't be someone to help him as you had.
"I'm really sorry. That doesn't sound like a good night."
"Oh, I don't mind. Besides… I'm not so alone now, right?"
Pedro bared his teeth as he gave you another smile. You were definitely interesting, that much was for sure. A young woman alone in the bar after her friends had ditched her… And a woman who was seemingly unaware of his identity. Pedro wondered whether you just didn't recognize him like that, the room a little dark and his hair messier than usual, or if you just hadn't seen his face before. At least, he could rule out the possibility of you being drunk. You were able to stand steadily on your own, and he couldn't smell any alcohol on you after all.
"No, you're not."
"Oh, but I don't wanna occupy you if you're – are you here with people? Sorry, I didn't mean to keep you away from them. I mean, if you're not on your own."
Your eyes were wide as though you had just realized something that made you deeply regret your previous phrasing. It made Pedro grin, though he tried to hide it in order to spare you the embarrassment. He didn't want you thinking that he was laughing about you.
"I was the one who bought you that drink, wasn't I? You think I would've done that if I didn't wanna be… occupied?"
If Pedro wasn't mistaken, you were blushing, your pupils scurrying over the counter as though searching for something.
"Right…"
"But to answer your question: Yes, I'm here with friends."
"Oh, great!" you said and took a swig from your Mojito, which the bartender had placed in front of you, as well as one cocktail in front of Pedro.
"Is it your birthday?"
"What makes you think that?" Pedro chuckled before remembering the homemade crown one of his friends had put on his head a little earlier. On the back, the name of the movie that had just wrapped filming could be read, but it seemed like you hadn't spotted the lettering so far.
"Oh, right… No, it's not my birthday. It's just… work stuff."
"Work stuff? What do you mean?" you laughed and tilted your head to the side.
"Well, we had a major success today. So my friends and I decided to go for a drink." It wasn't even a blunt lie. Wrapping a film in time definitely counted as a major success.
"Oh great! I'm so happy for you. What do you do?"
Pedro realized that he had reached a dead end if he didn't want to keep the lie up. Normally, he wouldn't have cared, since you were a stranger that he probably would never see again, but the idea of coming up with a completely dishonest story made his stomach twist. He didn't know why, but Pedro didn't want to tell you a false tale. But neither did he want this quite appealing dynamic to shift by telling you who he was. Even if you had never heard of him, one click on your phone would be enough to find out that he wasn't just a normal guy grabbing a drink at the bar with his friends.
And what would happen then? There was a good chance you would ask for a selfie, but what was even more likely was that you would start acting differently around him. That was what people did most of the time when they discerned his face behind his large sunglasses or underneath the cap he had pulled deeply into his face. Pedro rarely complained about it since he had enough people in his life who kept him grounded and viewed him as their friend or a family member instead of a celebrity, but it hadn't gone unnoticed by him either. How their voices became higher, their behavior a little tense as they made an extra amount of effort around him.
In the end, Pedro decided to find a balance. He wouldn't lie to you but just not go as much into detail as he would have had to in order to give you the whole picture.
"Oh, I'm working on film sets. Just a bunch of boring stuff."
"Film sets? Oh wow," you whispered, giving him a look of sheer admiration. No, this was exactly what he didn't want.
"It's not that exciting. I swear to you. It sounds so glamorous, but it's mostly just waiting around, following orders and going home tired."
Fortunately, your expression softened at that, and he felt like he had the version he had just met in front of him again. Good.
"But I hope you're not tired today," you smirked, twisting a strand of hair around your finger. "I mean, you have to celebrate whatever that success is you're celebrating."
Pedro didn't know whether you were consciously sending him signals by toying with your hair like that, but he liked to believe that you did. Because it fit exactly with the fluttering of his heart. God, you were cute. And somehow, although he had met you not more than five minutes ago, it felt so easy and effortless talking to you. Or it was the mere fact that it had been years since he had met a person like that. In a crowded bar, his wrist still hurting from the many autographs he had given on set earlier, and a person in front of him who saw him for what he was instead of his name and profession. Pedro didn't like to get all self-pitiful and complain about things that others were working hard for their whole lives, but in that moment, he simply appreciated the circumstances and the fact that out of all people, it had been you who had picked up his wallet.
"No," he grinned, resting his chin on his palm. "I'm not that tired today."
Ten minutes later, Pedro had bought a second drink for you, gin this time.
His friends were long forgotten, and so was the fact that he had promised himself not to stay too long but rather have a good night's rest after those weeks of long shooting days.
This was much better.
You were just throwing your head back, laughing about something Pedro had said, which he had already forgotten. It wasn't hard to get distracted by your beautiful laugh, how your lips parted and how confidently you showed your teeth while your whole body trembled. He liked when people laughed with their whole body, and he especially loved it when people weren't afraid to show their joy.
"I had the worst haircut at around 14," you told him, shaking your head at the seemingly horrible memory. Right, the two of you were talking about hairstyles, and Pedro had just told you about some of his worst decisions regarding his appearance throughout the years.
"You got any photos?"
"Definitely not," you giggled and raised your index finger. "A few years later, when I realized how awful it was, I literally went around and deleted all the evidence. I think my grandmother might have a picture in her drawer, but she had to promise me that she's never gonna take it out of there."
"Well, I guess we're gonna have to visit your grandmother then," Pedro whispered, his mouth curled and his eyes sparkling. "What was it? You're gonna let me guess?"
"Sure." You challengingly folded your arms and twisted your lips.
"Mhm… A bowl cut that went wrong?" Pedro asked and tried to picture how it might have looked on you. He couldn't imagine that any haircut would make you look bad, though.
"No. Though the part about it going wrong is correct."
"Did you cut it yourself?" Pedro wanted to know, working his brain to come up with more ideas for the most horrible hairstyles that might have been fashionable fifteen years ago.
"No, a friend of mine did. She's actually one of the friends I came here with today."
"It can't be that bad then. If you're still friends."
You laughed at that, then finally cleared your throat to reveal the truth about your haircut.
"You know, I wanted bangs. Because everyone had bangs. And so my friend started cutting, and she cut it too short. And then she tried to make it look less radical by cutting the hair around my face, and in the end, I had a mullet. And even a very bad one."
His eyebrows shot upward, Pedro pursed his lips, trying to figure out what you might have looked like.
"But people wear mullets again, don't they?"
"Not mine. Definitely not mine."
Pedro burst into laughter, really craving to see a picture that captured that moment in your life, but before he could ask for it again, you emptied your glass and shyly wiped over your mouth with the back of your hand.
"I really don't want you to stay away from your friends because of me…" you admitted, peering at him through your lashes, which frankly, drove him insane.
He couldn't let you go yet. And if he had to, he at least needed something from you: your phone number or your name on Instagram. But at that point, you finding out about his true job would be inevitable. Unless… you didn't just not know his face but also his name. It would be worth it, wouldn't it? The alternative was to part ways with you and never see your pretty face again. Never see again how you nibbled at your thumbnail, only to quickly drop it once you realized what you were doing.
"I told you, I don't mind. I… I'm rather fond of such lovely company."
Heat shot to your face at his compliments, painting your cheeks a light red and making his stomach bubble with excitement and a delightful warmth.
"And what about them?"
"Oh, they surely haven't even noticed my absence," Pedro lied, hoping none of them were searching the room too extensively for him. Perhaps the alcohol had done its job, and they were all too busy singing along to the music or gossiping about anyone they had ever met instead of bothering about his whereabouts.
"Are you sure?"
"A hundred percent sure."
With that, Pedro swallowed hard, moistening his throat. "Besides… I just don't feel like leaving you here alone."
You looked slightly to the side, finger nervously tapping on your thigh.
"You don't need to worry about me," you whispered, chewing on your lower lip.
"But I do. And to be honest, I'm also just a very selfish man who doesn't feel like letting you go just yet."
"You're selfish?" you repeated, a mischievous glimmer in your pupils.
"I can be very selfish. If I want something very badly."
"Then I better not get in your way, right?"
He drew a deep breath, relishing your little cat-and-mouse game, which was precisely to his liking.
"Oh, but I want you right there. In my way." Pedro shifted a little closer, his knee touching yours.
"Well, what do you want?" you whispered, darting your eyes up at him, a thin, glossy layer hanging over them. There were multiple possible explanations for your agitation, but Pedro prayed it had to do with him and not the empty glass in front of you. Shit, he felt the alcohol as well, but at least he was certain he would have been just as smitten with you if he had stayed sober. You were too enchanting and adorable not to feel drawn to, no matter his alcohol level.
"Do you really wanna know?" Pedro whispered in your ear, your heads so close now that his friends at the table probably wouldn't have made out his face among the many people. If only there hadn't been that stupid crown on top of his head…
"Yes," you panted, your hands gripping the edge of the counter as his breath fanned your earlobe.
"Are you sure? Because it's… bad. It's not what I should say to such a lovely girl like you, who I've just met."
"I wanna know," you insisted, almost begging him with your quiet voice. Pedro saw stars, his head spinning and his body feeling so limp he craved something to hold onto. What had he done to deserve someone so sweet and perfect? He wanted you so badly, and he didn't even know in what way.
On one hand, he couldn't stop thinking about getting you into his bed, undressing you, and fucking you while you continued to make those beautiful sounds for him, but on the other hand, he didn't want this evening to end with a one-night stand after which Pedro and you would never see each other again.
"Please," you muttered, which caused the last thread holding his composure together to snap. His hand found your hip, fingers digging into your flesh as his lips touched your ear.
"I wanna have you naked underneath me," he said bluntly, hoping that it wasn't too much and that you wouldn't be appalled by his directness. You had asked for it, though, hadn't you? With wide eyes, you glared up at him, even though it hadn't diminished your arousal in any way. There was something innocent about you, but maybe it was just the fact that you were so much younger than him. He shouldn't want you like this, but his critical thinking was overcast by the alcohol, by the stuffy air in here, the beauty you emitted, and his desire to touch you without your stupid jeans in the way –
"Please take me with you," you suddenly whispered, interrupting Pedro's quite chaotic train of thought.
"You want me to take you with me? Where?"
For a brief second, something like nervousness flickered across your face, your teeth grazing your bottom lip.
The bathroom.
Yes, that would be an option. But then again, it wasn't really how Pedro imagined things. You deserved better than to be fucked over some dirty sink. Especially because he hoped things wouldn't be a one-time thing. Christ, what was he even doing here… He was supposed to enjoy a casual night out with his friends after finishing a movie, and now he was about to abandon them for a young woman he couldn't get out of his head.
"I want you," you whispered, putting your hand on top of his, beckoning him to trace it higher up your leg.
"You wanna come home with me?" Pedro really prayed that you would agree to see him again. Should he ask now, or would that come across as strange?
"Yes… Please." It seemed as though you had forgotten all about not wanting to rip him away from his friends, just like Pedro had. Because you didn't protest—or in fact, say anything—as he guided you out of the crowded bar a few minutes later, hoping that no one would recognize him now. It would have been quite possibly the worst development.
But Pedro was lucky. His hand firm on the small of your back, he held the door open for you and then drew a heavy breath through his mouth once the two of you were outside. It was so quiet all of a sudden that his ear rang, and when he cleared his throat, his own voice sounded unfamiliar to him.
"You still wanna do this?" Pedro chuckled, even though he found it an odd thing to say just a few seconds later. Your lips curved, your hand reaching for his wrist to pull him toward you.
"Yes. I do. If you promise me you won't tell anyone."
His mouth crashed into yours before he could think about it properly and come to the conclusion that it would be unwise to kiss a stranger in the middle of Manhattan.
Fuck it.
No one would recognize him anyway in the dark, his face covered by your head. Still, Pedro gently shoved you toward the black van waiting for him a few feet down the street, which would take the two of you to his apartment in the West Village.
"Why?" he spoke against your lips, bringing his hands to your waist.
"Because I've never done something like that before…"
Your words, or rather, the content of them, ignited a little fire within his heart. God, he shouldn't feel so turned on by the fact that you were throwing all your habits overboard in order to go home with him. And, of course, there was your unawareness of his stardom and the thought that you had no special interest in him beyond your sexual desire. You didn't want to fuck him because his name was Pedro Pascal, but because you wanted him. You had met a stranger in the bar, someone you felt so attracted to that you were trusting him to take you to his apartment.
"I won't tell anyone…" he murmured and hummed gently, seeing that your back was about to touch his car.
"Careful…" he whispered and knocked on the window of the passenger seat. His driver nodded in understanding, and a second later, the rear doors were unlocked.
"You… why do you have a driver?" you asked quietly, but allowed Pedro to help you inside without hesitation.
"I told you, I work in film."
That was all the answer you got for now, even though he was positive you would have more questions once the two of you were at his apartment, located on one of New York's most expensive streets.
The car started moving, and Pedro's hands were immediately all over your body again, this time taking hold of your face and neck.
"I'm y/n, by the way," you panted, your index and middle fingers hooked into the collar of his shirt.
"Pedro."
His heart skipped a beat, waiting for a suspicious noise of realization from you, but it didn't come. Thank god.
"Do you think we should…" you began, clearly reluctant to make out in the car with the driver just a few feet away, but Pedro just pushed his face against yours and stroked up your thigh. Of course, you were right, and he should just wait the five-minute drive to his apartment, but he had a hunch that sitting next to you without touching you would be impossible. Your scent, your silky hair, your warm skin were all too tempting to just sit there, actionless. Besides, his driver was much too professional to comment on his feral behavior.
"It's okay. Just relax… Let me help you relax."
Faces squeezed together, Pedro's hand quickly dropped to the opening of your jeans, where he hastily undid the button and zipper. He didn't have much time, but he wanted to give you at least something before their arrival. Most of all, it was his selfish, egoistical yearning to hear your pretty voice beg him for more while he was taking you up to his apartment… Yes, that was the kind of outcome he was hoping for. Leading you up the staircase while your glossy eyes glanced up at him in awe of the things he had just made you feel in the car. Your lips parted, eager and hungry for more.
"Huh. Fuck, I - " you stammered, sucking uneven breaths through your teeth while Pedro nimbly slid his right hand past your waistband like it was exactly where it belonged.
"I know… Open your legs a bit wider for me, baby."
You did, though it was a struggle in the tight space in the back of the car. His driver probably couldn't even see anything except their rapid, greedy kissing and maybe your arms slung around his neck. Definitely not his hand disappearing in your pants.
"That's it…" Pedro exhaled, pressing his palm against your clothed pussy, desperately searching for any wetness.
There it was… Through the lace of your underwear – why were you even wearing lace for a casual night out with your friends? – he felt a certain dampness, which made him wish he could just shove your jeans down right here and right now and smell and taste you. Well, perhaps he could do that in a few minutes. There was something immensely ardent about doing it in the back seat of a vehicle, though.
"Do you like that?" he purred, moving his hand in circles to create friction against your clit.
"Y-Yes," you whimpered, thrusting your hips and shifting closer against Pedro's palm as he rolled his hand into your cunt.
"You're so wet… All that for me?"
"Mhm," you cried out, your hands grasping his bicep to pull him closer.
"How naughty… I thought you were just at the bar for a night out with your friends. And here you are, dripping all over my hand."
Slowly, Pedro pushed the fabric of your panties aside and inserted his middle finger inside your clenched hole without any warning. Your body wriggled, the muscles in your legs tensing while Pedro mercilessly entered you to the hilt. You were properly soaked with your natural body fluids, which made him soothe you in satisfaction.
"Taking it so well, sweetheart… So beautiful. And so goddamn wet… You think you can take another finger?"
The fabric bothered him, but as of now, he couldn't just take them off so effortlessly, and ripping them wasn't an option either.
"Yes," you whined, arching your chest toward him when Pedro pressed his thumb into your pulsing clit. Somehow, every part of your body was prickling with heat, whether it was your face, your lips, your pussy, or the side of your neck, which Pedro was still gripping tightly while scissoring you open. Just when he was about to comply and add his ring finger, the car came to a stop, and you squealed, both your heads brutally torn back to the present by the sudden intrusion. Pedro pulled his hand back fast, feeling his heart thunder in his chest.
"I'm sorry for disturbing you, but we're at your apartment," the driver spoke. Pedro was too caught in the moment to figure out whether Mike's voice was laced with amusement like he had expected it, or if he was at least trying to act unsuspecting like he wished.
"Thank you," Pedro answered with his raspy, hoarse voice and opened the door with his left hand. His right… well, he didn't want to ruin the expensive interior of the van.
With a quiet thud, your back met the wall next to the door to his apartment.
He protected the back of your head with his hand to ensure he wasn't hurting you when he pressed you into the wall with his whole weight and passion. Now that they were in a completely private place with no one observing them, Pedro wanted nothing more than to fulfill his wishes and opened your jeans for a second time that night. With skilled fingers, he shoved the fabric down your hips, waiting for it to drop onto the ground and then slowly sank to his knees in front of you.
"Pedro – " you began, nervousness resonating in your low tone, but as his lips kissed your bare knee, the rest of your words caught in your throat.
"It's okay. I'm gonna make you feel so good, sweetheart."
Sure, his aged knees hurt a little on the hard floor, but he simply couldn't wait long enough to guide you to his bedroom or couch. Besides, there was a desk nearby, which he could make you sit on top of in case this position became too impractical.
"I – I just want…" you whimpered and buried your fingers in his locks, your nails grazing his scalp in a way that was most delicious to him.
"Yeah? What do you want?" Pedro's mouth was pressed against your mound, which allowed him to finally take in your scent. And gosh… you smelled amazing. Clean, yet surrounded by a strong musky note.
Blood rushed to his cock, which had been hard the moment he first kissed you in the car. He briefly considered taking himself out and pumping his cock while making out with your sweet pussy, but for now, he didn't have the patience that such actions would demand. He had to dive straight in and lick through your folds that smelled so perfect, so seductive…
"Please. Please touch me, I – I need it so bad." You sounded close to tears, which elicited a hint of pity in him.
He wasn't consciously edging you; he was just savoring the sight in front of him, worshipping every inch of skin that he gradually unwrapped like a present.
"I know, baby. I'm gonna make it better. Gonna kiss the pain away."
His lips enclosed your bundle of nerves, and he hollowed his cheeks to apply pressure on the bud as the lacy fabric stung his skin. Your brow furrowed, which Pedro couldn't see from that angle, but your noises were more than enough to confirm that he was doing more than ordinarily well.
"Ah. Ow, fuck… Yes. Yes, please." Pedro smiled contently, then stuck out his tongue to tease your clit through the thin layer.
"Pedro," you cried out, rolling your hips as though to plead with him to proceed faster.
"Take it off. Please," you additionally begged, but Pedro had too much fun teasing you with your pretty underwear, which he felt you had put on just for him, though this was obviously not the case since neither of you had expected to hook up with a stranger tonight.
"Relax. I got you. Just gonna let your panties stay on your body a little longer… You can't see it, but you look so pretty with them. Just let me play with them a little, okay?"
Your hand lying flat on the wall behind you, Pedro ran a hand up your stomach and slipped it underneath your shirt.
"Y-Yes," you choked, knees turning to jelly as his hand cupped your left breast through your bra and gently cradled your flesh.
"Jesus Christ, sweetheart… What have I done to deserve all that, mhm? You smell so good, you felt so good around my finger, and I know you're gonna taste divine."
It was Pedro's cue to slowly shove the fabric out of his way and press an open-mouthed kiss to your opening. His tongue quickly swirled around your hole, feeling your wetness prickle on his skin, and then a few seconds after that, he entered you with his fat muscle.
All of it had happened too quickly for you to catch up in time, but now, you gasped for air so loudly that Pedro briefly glanced up your body to check if you were okay. Of course, you were. Your cheeks were just a little ruddy, and you looked out of the loop, overwhelmed by how good he was capable of making you feel. His hand clasped around your breast tightened a little, squeezing and kneading your warm flesh. He grinned when he felt you grab his wrist, encouraging him to do more and explore more of your body, but for now, he was utterly smitten with the taste of your pussy, which is why he focused on that part of you.
"You're gonna drive me fucking insane, sweetheart," Pedro grunted, but then was quick to stick his tongue back inside. He couldn't reach as deeply as he could with his fingers, but he could taste you and feel your juices trickle down his chin, a sensation grand enough that he wished he would never have to separate from your core. You also received all the necessary stimulation on your clit through his nose, scrunched up against the upper part of your pussy.
God, if only time would stop right now. If only he could do this every single day, every hour, for the rest of his life. It was all of you that kept him under this spell, not just your pussy. You were so responsive and reacted to him so sweetly that Pedro craved to explore more of you. He wanted to know all your most sensitive spots, tease you until he had discovered every side of you, and find out how much he could coax out of you before the two of you were too exhausted to even connect your lips. He wanted to know you in every way possible and not stop until these feelings were quenched. It was one thing to have you pressed up against the wall, but another to listen to you sharing your most hidden desires with him. That was what he wanted... yes.
"Please, Pedro…" you breathed, knees dangerously close to giving in, which would cause you to collapse on top of him. He could definitely imagine worse things than that. Maybe he should just ask you to sit on his face and hope you forgot all about time and place… Maybe you would roll your hips into him all night and – His eyes pinched shut as he felt you pull harshly at his strands.
Right. He had been so lost in his thoughts that he hadn't noticed how he had stopped with the twirls of his tongue. Pedro seized the opportunity to switch things up a little and replaced his tongue with his finger. He was still owing you a second finger, after all.
"Rock against my mouth, y/n. Take what you need," Pedro requested and pressed his flat tongue against your clit. That way, he couldn't exactly trace your most sensitive spot with his pointed tongue as well as he would have liked, but you could create all the necessary friction on your own while he fucked you with his finger. You clenched heavenly around him, and Pedro loved to watch all those little reactions, such as your pussy flattening whenever he circled your nipple or your hips uncontrollably twitching when he curled his finger inside you. You were enjoying yourself, and for some reason, there was nothing that could possibly have brought Pedro more pleasure than that idea.
"Ready for a second finger, little one?" he grinned and finally pushed down your underwear at that very moment. He couldn't help it. He needed to feel all of you, feel the pulse in your clit in his entire body until the thrumming of his heart was in perfect sync with you.
"Yes. Yes, please," you pleaded, more than thrilled by the course of action.
"Take a deep breath for me."
You must have rewired something in his brain; there was no other explanation. He pressed his thick ring finger inside you, humming gently as he realized that he hadn't taken off the piece of jewelry yet. You must have felt it too, given the way you were bending your neck to make out his face between your legs.
"You're not married, are you?"
Pedro chuckled softly and reassuringly brushed over your naked thigh. "No, I'm not… I can still take it off though. If it's too cold."
"No," you quickly murmured, relaxing your shoulders and letting your head fall back against the wall. "I wanna cum, Pedro."
He laughed tenderly, sucking your little nub in his mouth and curling his fingers inside you in the meantime.
"You wanna cum or you're gonna cum?"
"I don't know," you whimpered, sounding as though you were deeply frustrated about something you couldn't quite pinpoint.
"It's okay… Take your time. Do you want me to go faster?"
"I don't know," you whined again, knees shaking and your body squirming unrestrainedly.
"Shh… it's okay. It's okay, baby. Just relax and let me take care of you. You don't have to do anything. I know what you need."
With that, Pedro stood up in front of you, not because he wanted to leave that spot between your legs, but because he figured it was time for a little change in your position. You seemed more than ready and in need of him to finish what he had started, but for one, he didn't trust that you could stand on your own, and also, he wanted you calm. And he wasn't sure whether he would achieve that with you standing and your hands desperately dragging at his hair like you were seeking something. Laying you down and having your body sprawled out in front of him would make things easier for both of you.
You didn't seem to perceive Pedro rising to his feet until he placed one hand on the back of your neck and draped the other around your waist.
"Let me get you to bed, okay, sweetheart?"
You nodded before your eyes became round. "But you – you're gonna touch me again, right?"
"Of course, darling," Pedro laughed, then effortlessly hauled you up in his arms, cradling your head against his chest. "I'm gonna do a lot more than that… if you want me to."
"Yes. I want everything."
Pedro suppressed another amused giggle, since your words had sounded more serious than one would suspect from the phrasing alone. Your face buried in his neck, he carried you through the hallway and into his bedroom, where he cautiously laid you down on the bed.
"Pedro?" you asked, or rather whispered, scrutinizing the room with blown pupils.
"Yes, sweetheart?"
"Are you rich?"
"Am I rich?" Pedro repeated, his chest vibrating with laughter. "I work in film."
"Well, what exactly do you do… in film?"
While taking off his shirt, Pedro thought about a reply that did reality justice without ruining the intimate moment between the two of you. There was no way around it now. You didn't deserve to be lied to, and he couldn't give you some trite explanation again.
"I'm an actor," he therefore whispered, threw his shirt in a corner of the room, and approached the bed.
"An actor? What movies have you made?"
"That doesn't really matter now…" Pedro mumbled, parting your knees with his hand and letting some of his weight press you deeper into the mattress.
"Do I know them?"
As a response, he yanked your shirt up, bundled the fabric right underneath your shoulders, and moved the cups of your bra aside.
"You haven't answered me," you giggled, which earned you a disapproving huff.
"I know. 'Cause I got more important things to attend to… more important than my stupid movies…"
"I'm sure they're not stupid," you babbled, body straining as you suddenly felt his hand cup your sex once more.
"Pedro," you hissed, writhing with your hips, but he remained unwavering and just twisted his wrist the slightest.
"I want you to cum for me. And you know what I would like to do then?"
You shook your head, even though there was a feverish glow upon your skin, making your eyes look glassy, almost like a doll.
"I would like to fuck you. Would you like me to do that too?"
His fingers were back inside you, reaching so deep that you threw your head to the side, searching for something only Pedro could give you.
"Y-Yes," you cried, rolling your hips forward, but this time he wanted to remain in charge of your actions, which was why he moved his thumb on his own and teased your clit the way he saw fit.
"I'm gonna make you all wet and pretty for me and then fuck you deep…"
"Yes," you yelped again, closing your eyes and biting down so hard on your bottom lip that it turned scarlet red.
"I wanna make you feel it all the way up in your belly… I want that pretty little head of yours only to think about my cock all the way inside you."
He twisted his finger as though to give you a little taste of what it would feel like to have his length inside you, but you were certain it would be an even more exceptional experience to be stuffed full by his manhood.
His dirty talk continued, and so did the swipes and pumps of his skilled fingers between your legs. Your head was swimming, your vision blurred, which made it impossible to determine exactly where he was touching you or how he was moving the pads of his fingers, but what you knew was that it was good. That it was stealing your breath away and guiding you right to the verge of an orgasm.
"I'm gonna cum," you informed him. Meanwhile, Pedro crawled down your body swiftly and replaced his thumb on your clit with his lips, sucking and kissing the nub until, with one final, sharp thrust into your core, you were pushed over the edge and came with a soft yell.
"Oww…" you mewled, trapping Pedro's head with your legs, which you clamped tightly.
"Good girl… That's it, just let it go… Don't forget to breathe… That's right, breathe for me…"
Your body moved as though you were floating above the rippling surface of the ocean, the tides softly cradling you while Pedro tenderly touched you through your high.
"Pedro…" you whispered, grabbing the silk sheets beneath you with both hands.
"Just feel it… It's good, isn't it?"
You reached for his head to pull at his strands and transmit the inexplicable feelings inside your body, but Pedro just snatched your wrists and planted them on top of your stomach.
"Shh… Just breathe…"
"Pedro," you uttered, wriggling your hands beneath his grasp, making him raise his eyebrows.
"What is it?"
"I want you. Please. Please, fuck me."
His features shifted, and with a chuckle, he slowly climbed on top of you again.
"You're getting a little ahead of yourself, mhm? Feeling a little greedy?" Twisting a strand around his index finger, Pedro kissed you right next to your ear.
"Please," you repeated, wrapping your legs around his hips.
"Y/n?"
"Yes."
Your face gleamed with anticipation, which was so endearing that his heart stumbled in his chest. Yet there was something he had to inquire about before he could listen to his throbbing cock with his whole heart and claim what he wanted so badly.
"How old are you?"
Your chin jutted forward, a faint crease forming on your forehead. "Twenty-nine, why?"
"Jesus…" He had almost expected, rather feared, a number obscenely young, but twenty-nine was far worse than what he had hoped when he had seen you for the first time.
"You're young," Pedro sighed, cupping your face, his aged hand stroking your soft skin.
"And?"
"Too young."
Urgency flared in your eyes, your heels digging into his lower back. "No. I want it, Pedro, please. It can't be that bad, I – "
"I'm 21 years older than you."
Pedro wasn't seriously considering backing away now, if he was being honest with himself. He might be irresponsible and horrible for it, but his own selfish desires to be buried inside you overshadowed his nagging conscience. Hell, perhaps he hadn't demanded to know your age earlier for that very reason. Maybe he simply hadn't wanted to know the ugly truth. And even now, he couldn't walk away and leave someone as pretty and appealing as you in his bed. Yet it would feel good to hear you beg just a little longer, so that this critical voice inside his head was at least a little less noisy, believing that he wasn't corrupting you but rather doing you a favor by giving in to your wants and needs. After doing the math, you stubbornly tautened your face muscles and arched off the bed, putting your chest on perfect display. Jesus… As if he could have ever walked away.
"I don't care. I still want it. Please. I'm twenty-nine, I can make those choices. And I want you to fuck me. Please, Pedro. Please."
You were begging so lovely that Pedro was this close to denying you your wishes one last time. His dick was painfully hard against the restraints of his pants, though, and the idea of finally taking himself out, and not only that but also feeding you his cock, was simply too bewitching. So, Pedro adjusted you on your back, parting your legs a little wider and placing your hands on the bed on either side of your head.
"Alright. I'm gonna fuck you. Probably gonna go to hell for it, but whatever…"
You giggled softly at that, which Pedro rewarded with a teasing bite on your chin. Then he reached for the bedside table, opened the top drawer, and grabbed one of the plastic packages he stored there along with his reading glasses and some tissues.
"I'm on the pill," it suddenly burst out of you, making Pedro's hand slow down in the air. "I promise. We can go raw."
His forehead wrinkled, and he put the condom down on the mattress right next to you.
"Sweetheart, I –… No. No, we're not gonna go raw."
"Why?" you asked, sounding almost offended. "You don't trust me?"
"I trust you. I just – it would be wrong."
"Why?" you hissed, lips compressed, which caused Pedro to gently trace along your cheekbone. He felt somewhere between amused and annoyed by your mulishness and eagerness to feel him without any separation, but most importantly, he had to calm you and convince you that it would be foolish to go without protection.
"I don't wanna risk anything. You're so young – "
"So that's what this is about?" you whispered.
"No. I don't know. I just wanna make sure nothing bad is gonna happen. You're on the pill, that's great, but we're not gonna go raw. We're only doing this 100 percent safely."
"But – "
"I said no," Pedro said, his voice a little louder, laced with authority now. "I only want what's best for you."
You growled something incomprehensible but didn't speak up again while Pedro's eyes wandered to the condom.
"We don't have to do anything at all if that's what you want. Your choice."
"No!" you quickly protested, hands flying to his broad shoulders. "No, I want it. I want it either way."
"Okay," Pedro murmured and finally picked up the package again.
He undid his trousers, shoved them down his legs along with his boxers, and inaudibly chuckled at the way you licked over your lips. Then he opened the condom with deft fingers, throwing the plastic on the nightstand before sliding the rubber over his manhood. You barely saw anything of him except for the rough outline, but as Pedro settled between your legs, his length slapped against your tummy, giving you an idea of his thickness.
"Pedro…" you muttered under your breath, your index finger tracing the veins on his forearm.
"It's okay… We're gonna make it fit, I promise."
He wasn't seriously concerned about working himself inside you. You were more than well prepared for him, had been drenching his hand with your juices, and he was positive that a little bit of sweet whispering in your ear would put you at ease quickly. Still, he needed you to trust him with your whole heart while you showed yourself from your most vulnerable side, opening up to him and allowing him to see and feel every last inch of you.
"Can I – can I touch it?"
The corners of Pedro's mouth lifted. He carefully took your hand and brought it to his thick cock, helping you form a fist and glide it up and down his shaft.
"It's so big," you panted, looking down between your bodies, but you couldn't see much in the darkness.
"Don't worry your pretty head about it. It's gonna fit. I'm gonna go slowly and make sure it won't hurt."
You nodded slowly, still unable to take your eyes off his center until Pedro raised your chin with his finger.
"Are you ready, babygirl?"
"Yes," you replied, determinedly staring back at him while Pedro replaced your hand around his cock with his and trailed the tip along your folds, giving your clit some extra attention, which made you jolt.
"Sensitive, aren't you?" Pedro chuckled and notched his tip against your entrance. Shit, he really was big, and right now, you were all cramped and tense, your pussy barely letting in his tip.
"Relax for me, sweetheart," he demanded, carefully circling your clit to make your muscles loosen.
"I don't want it to hurt," you whispered, squeezing his arm while Pedro soothingly kissed your hairline.
"Shh… I know. I know, baby. You tell me to stop and I stop. I mean it. If it hurts, if it feels uncomfortable, or if you change your mind, you tell me so. But I can't say that it's not gonna hurt a little bit. Do you still want me to go on?"
"Y-Yes," you claimed with no reluctance, brushing a sweaty strand of hair out of your face. After spending another minute rubbing your clit, Pedro whispered some sweet nonsense in your ear while thrusting his hips forward. This time, it worked a lot better, and within a few seconds, he was halfway inside you. You drew a sharp breath through your teeth, clutching his bicep firmly, but you didn't stop him.
"Is that okay?" Pedro asked, just to make sure.
"Yes. Just – hurts a little. But it's okay."
"When did you last sleep with someone?" he wanted to know, not just because he was genuinely interested, but also because it was a good distraction from the faint sting in your core while he fed you more of his cock.
"Like… half a year ago, maybe?" you breathed, sweat gathering on your focused brow.
"That's okay… you just need a little more time to warm up."
Not long after, Pedro was finally sheathed fully inside you, the hair curling at his base touching your pussy. His head was spinning, little flashes sparkling in his view at how tight and warm you felt. He could have come on the spot, he was certain, though he couldn't fully let the pleasure consume him, as he first needed to check on you.
"Talk to me, sweetheart… Are you okay? Look at me."
Your eyes set on him, though there was a dense haze over your vision, like you weren't fully there.
"Yes, Pedro…" you muttered nonetheless, clenching around him so hard that Pedro pinched his eyes shut.
"Please move," you then added, shuddering as a reaction to his brushes over your bundle of nerves.
"Are you sure? How do you feel, mhm? Does it still hurt?"
"Not much. I just… I wanna feel it."
Although he was still hesitant to completely let go, Pedro pulled away a little and then thrust his cock back inside, attentively watching you for your reactions. You moaned lowly, lids shutting, but he couldn't track any pain or discomfort in your features, which was why he settled into a slow but steady rhythm of sliding in and out of you.
"You're so – big, Pedro," you hummed after a while, your brow glistening with a thick layer of sweat, but your eyes a bit clearer now.
"Can you feel it right here? Am I all the way up here, baby?" Pedro connected his flat palm with your lower belly, applying some force to find out whether he was actually kissing and stimulating your insides like he had intended.
"Y-Yes… I think so," you howled, hauling up your hips, broken gasps leaving your throat. It provoked Pedro to reach for one of the pillows next to your head and slip it underneath your pelvis, which would change the angle and perhaps make it even more pleasurable for you.
"Is that good like that?" he questioned, but merely got a euphoric whine as an answer.
"I'm so sorry, sweetheart, but I'm not gonna last long…" Pedro mumbled after a while, pacing the movements of his finger around your clit. "You feel so fucking good, I can't – can't help it, baby, I'm sorry."
Pedro's eyes were squeezed shut, excitement tangible in every line and crease across his face. His muscles were coiled and constricted, ready to loosen and limber up, his nerves already prickling like they knew exactly what was coming. You didn't reply, too focused on rolling your hips in accordance with his thrusts, which caused Pedro to address you again.
"You're gonna cum again, baby, I promise. I'm gonna make you cum again, but I – shit, I gotta – "
You took him in so wonderfully, it robbed him of the words bubbling in the back of his throat as well as his ability to speak in general. His hips snapped forward faster now, crashing into yours with a quiet smacking sound, which made your eyes roll back in your head.
"I'm close," you cried out, grabbing the wrist of his right hand, which was drawing messy patterns over your bundle of nerves.
Pedro's body was rippling with joy, the anticipation of reaching his apex at the same time as you sounding intoxicating in his head. Right now, he even regretted using that damn condom since he couldn't get over the idea of filling you up to the brim, but his conscience surely wouldn't have allowed it, and besides, he would have felt guilty afterward.
Pedro lowered his head, kissing up your neck and inhaling your scent while his thrusts became even faster, though also a lot more unrhythmical and irregular. But his finger remained focused, rubbing your clit in tight, firm circles. He interpreted each shallow gasp of yours as a sign that he was on the right track, and when your head fell back into the cushions at last, Pedro let go as well.
"Fuck…" he groaned, feeling his cock spill cum into the condom while you spasmed and throbbed around him. Your perfect, warm walls that had already hugged him so beautifully for the past minutes felt even more exhilarating around him, and Pedro just wished he could make this moment last forever.
"Ohh. Yes, fuck – " you whimpered, lashes fluttering and your mouth agape.
When he felt that his balls were empty, he glared at your face, his own lips curling as he took in your patchy, flushed cheeks that looked blazing hot.
"Do you even know how perfect you feel, babygirl? I don't wanna pull out, shit."
"Then don't. Pull out," you laughed softly, grabbing the side of his face as Pedro kissed you slowly.
"Jesus Christ… The prettiest, most gorgeous…"
He didn't specify what exactly he was referring to, but it didn't matter. Whatever words followed in your mind, they certainly wouldn't be wrong as he relished just about any part of your body. His dick twitched again, causing your sensitive walls to quiver around him and your throat to produce a quiet wheeze.
Although he much regretted doing so, Pedro cautiously withdrew, pulled back, peeled off the used condom, and threw it into the trash can beside his bed. Something within him stirred in the best way possible at the view before him as he shifted his gaze back to you, your sprawled-out hair, the look of sheer adoration and satisfaction on your face, and your intertwined fingers resting on your stomach. Pedro wanted to scoop you up in his arms more than anything, hold you, and shower you with kisses. He wasn't supposed to feel that way about a woman twenty years younger than him, especially one he had just met for the very first time. But one couldn't shut up their feelings, right? And adoration was probably the word that best summed up the turmoil raging inside his chest right now.
"How about I get a washcloth now and get you cleaned up?"
Pedro laid down next to you, absent-mindedly caressing your skin while you cleared your throat.
"Okay, Pedro…"
He was gone just for a minute, wetting a towel with warm water, and then returned to the bedroom. You had turned onto your side, but at his sight, you rolled onto your back again, expectantly spreading your thighs for him.
"I'm gonna be careful… Gonna be kind to your sweet, sore pussy."
He was right, you instinctively flinched at the first contact with the rough material, but Pedro ended your protest with an arm snaked around your waist, effectively holding you down while he wiped your cunt clean with the most sensitive care in the world. He only briefly cleaned the skin around your clit and avoided directly touching your nub.
When he was done, the towel wasn't so warm anymore, and Pedro softly squeezed your hip as he crawled back to the end of the bed.
"I'm gonna be right back. Don't move an inch." Though he doubted that you even could if you had wanted to, Pedro waited for your slight nod, then rushed to the bathroom to put the washcloth in the basket for his dirty laundry.
Walking back into the bedroom, he whistled a familiar tune that had been stuck in his head since his visit to the bar, but he stopped at once when he heard a sniffle coming from the bed.
"Y/n?"
He hurried to the edge of the bed and sat down, his eyes flying open at the sight of your tears. Shit, what had happened? Were you in pain? Had he hurt you? Had he crossed a line he wasn’t aware of? Had he been careless with you?
"Hey, what's wrong? Y/n, look at me, c'mon… What's going on?" Pedro suppressed the urge to grab your face, not wanting to make anything worse, so he just took your hand instead and squeezed it reassuringly.
"Please talk to me, sweetheart. Is there anything I did wrong? Are you in pain?"
You rapidly shook your head, which made Pedro's heart feel a little lighter. Still, you wouldn't stop crying, even hiccupping occasionally while trying to blink away the tears flooding your eyes.
"N-No… I – I just…" Your voice broke midsentence, your lower lip quivering as Pedro tried to make sense of the scene unfolding in front of him. Something had upset you, but what could it possibly be? Had he said something?
"What is it, baby?" Pedro repeated, lifting your frail hand to his lips to kiss your knuckles.
"You – Are you doing this all the time?"
He needed a moment to understand what you were referring to, let alone what you were implying. Once he did, the area around his eyes softened, and he slowly lowered your hand.
"You mean going home with women?" he asked, just to be certain.
You nodded and weakly wiped the wetness from your cheeks.
"Oh, sweetheart…" Pedro whispered and couldn’t help himself but lean in and kiss your hairline.
"You – You're an actor. You're in films, and you – you have this apartment, so you – you bring lots of women here, right? And you're – you're gonna throw me out and – and find the next woman to take home tomorrow."
Pedro's heart melted a little at your rapid rambling, and he wished for nothing more than to silence you with a kiss to stop your nonsense. You couldn't have been further from the truth.
"Baby…" Pedro cut you off and cupped your cheek in his large palm. "No. Stop saying such things."
"But it's true, isn't it? I didn't – I didn't… think."
"I'm not gonna throw you out. And I don't want you to go," Pedro uttered while climbing onto the bed beside you, hauling up the blanket so that the two of you could slip underneath. "I thought I made that clear."
You still observed him with wide, glossy eyes, although the tears had stopped streaming down your face.
"No, I'm not bringing women here every weekend. I've had one-night stands before, but that was a long time ago, and it's definitely not what I've had in mind for you."
He gently poked you in the side, then pulled you against his chest, cradling your head while feeling your hair give way to his fingers.
"Really?" you mumbled. "What did you have in mind for me?"
"Oh, little one…" Pedro sighed, almost feeling apologetic about how wrong you had been about all of this. How badly you had misjudged his intentions with you. You poor thing had probably raked your brain, contemplating at what point during the night he was going to kick you out and whether he would at least call you an Uber.
No, you were going to stay here. Until the morning, and then hopefully a bit longer. And then he would ask for your number and call you a little later. Screw the three-day rule. Maybe the two of you could grab a coffee in the afternoon and walk around Central Park, given that it would be a warm spring day tomorrow.
"I have a lot of things in mind for you," he whispered and dragged your hand to his lips once more. "And they definitely don't involve kicking you out, baby."
"Really?" you muttered, your eyes sparkling in the dark and somehow lighting up the whole room.
"Yes. If it were up to me, I would wait a really long time for the getting-out-of-here part…"
You giggled quietly, wiping your cheeks with the remnants of your tears, which fortunately weren't followed by new ones.
And Pedro smiled. The turmoil in his stomach eased.
You hadn't contradicted him, which meant that you didn't desire to flee from him either.
Sure, he would have to talk to you about the whole being-a-famous-actor thing. But everything in its own time…
Five months later
Pedro had felt your uneasiness all day.
It had started at breakfast, when you hadn't stopped playing with the handle of your cup even long after it had been empty. You were a nervous thing at times, but never like this, especially when there was no reason.
Your restlessness had spread through the whole day, Pedro patiently waiting for you to give him a hint or even explicitly address the elephant in the room, but you hadn't made a single allusion.
To be honest, he wouldn't have expected you to speak up on your own, since it was mostly Pedro in your relationship who took care of problems or initiated clarifying talks, but he had hoped for at least something to work with.
When Pedro and you sat on the couch in the evening, you nervously sipping on a cup of tea while he went through some lines, he just had to open his mouth. Otherwise, his brain might explode and those weren't good conditions to get those damn scripts into his head. Besides, he seriously worried that something was nagging at you, or that he had done something to hurt you, which he obviously wanted to avoid at all costs.
"Sweetheart," Pedro whispered, his voice low as he wanted you to be as calm as possible in your stressed state of mind.
"Yes?" you murmured equally quietly, raising your lips from the edge of the mug.
"What's wrong?"
"What do you mean?"
Pedro sighed and put down the paper sheets, feeling positive that this might take a bit longer. "You're nervous today. You can't sit still."
"I – " you began, but he shut you up by raising his hand.
"No. Don't lie to me. And don't try to fool me. I know you, and I know there's something on your mind. And I want you to tell me."
You tilted your head in torment, your bottom lip shivering dangerously.
"N-No… you… you don't," you whimpered, which made Pedro's whole demeanor shift.
Swiftly, he reached for the side of your head and rubbed your temple with his thumb.
"Hey… it's okay, it's alright, sweetie. Of course, I want you to tell me. I got you, you know that."
"But you – " you stammered, gaze dropped to your feet. "If you – if you knew, you wouldn't want to know."
"What do you mean?" His brow creased in confusion, but instead of giving him a reply, you just shook your head repeatedly.
"Talk to me, y/n. Whatever it is, I'm here for you. You can tell me anything."
Determinedly, you wiped over your eyes and swallowed the lump in your throat.
"I… I meant to tell you for a while. I promise. I'm so – I know I should've told you sooner. Or just – I shouldn't have done it at all."
Now, he really was curious, since he couldn't imagine what you, his perfect, innocent, sweet girl, could have possibly done wrong. He was sure that nothing you might tell him now could upset him, not when you were looking up at him with those puppy eyes anyway.
"Okay. Go on."
"I'm sorry. For doing it and for – for waiting so long to tell you."
Pedro nodded, exhaling deeply. "It's okay. Just tell me what it is."
"I… The night that we met."
You stopped, waiting for him to react. As if he would ever forget that night. It had been one of the best evenings in his life, the very reason he was sitting here with you so happily.
"Yes. What about it?"
"I didn't tell you the truth exactly. I lied to you."
Although Pedro was happy about you finally articulating yourself and giving him the much-needed information, he stumbled over the word lied. He hated when you lied to him, and he just couldn't imagine what the hell you were speaking of.
"Lied about what?"
You nervously sucked your bottom lip between your teeth, eyes still fixed in front of you rather than on his face.
"I'm sorry. I… I know it's bad. I acted like I didn't know you. But I did."
The two of you were surrounded by a heavy silence while the words sank in. His mind automatically replayed the whole interaction: your conversation by the counter, the drive to his apartment, the intimate moments you had shared beneath the covers… Now, he was watching everything from a different angle. Of course, Pedro couldn't remember every word the two of you had exchanged, but some phrases had stood out to him as they had been the seeds of where you were now in your relationship. Knowing that you had in fact been fully aware of who you were talking to changed some of those memories. Just a little.
"Okay…" Pedro uttered, squeezing your hand tightly. "You knew who I was. From the beginning?"
You nodded, still avoiding his gaze, which felt like a punch in his stomach.
"Tell me what happened. When did you decide to lie?"
After clearing your throat and blinking a few tears away, you began speaking slowly at first.
"When… When I picked up your wallet, I didn't know who you were. I swear. But then you – you turned around and I recognized you. I was about to say something, but then – I don't know, I – you looked so calm and – and happy. And natural. And kind. And I thought that if I said something about knowing you, you might switch into that professional mode, and I just didn't want that. I wanted you to be you."
"Baby…" Pedro sighed, but before he could express his disbelief, you continued, the words tumbling out like they had been stuck in your throat for a long time.
"I'm so sorry. I know that it was bad, but you know, I didn't expect – that any of this would happen. I thought we would just talk and then – then you bought me that drink and suddenly we were in your car. I knew I should've told you, but… but the right moment just didn't come. It happened so fast, and when we laid in bed that night, I knew that I made a mistake, but I was too scared to tell you. I thought you would hate me if I said it."
At last, your eyes found his, and the pain glimmering in your dark pupils was almost too much for Pedro to bear. How was he supposed to be angry with you? It was more than obvious how badly you had been feeling and still felt, and that you regretted lying with your whole heart.
"You've been carrying all that with you? You thought I wouldn't wanna be with you if you told me?"
"Yes," you murmured, nodding slightly.
"And why did you decide to tell me now?"
You took a deep breath, bracing yourself for more confessions.
"I don't know. I've wanted to tell you for so long. After things got serious, I promised myself I would talk to you when we went to that Italian place for my birthday. But… But everything was so beautiful and I had the best birthday of my life, so I didn't want to ruin it. It just – It became too much, and I just – I thought about it every day, and I knew I finally had to say it. Before this stupid secret would kill me…"
For a moment, neither of you said anything, though Pedro was still holding your hand, his gaze lingering on your lips.
"Do you hate me now?" you asked shyly, as though you feared his answer.
"You really think I could ever hate you?"
Shrugging your shoulders, you longingly gripped his fingers, too afraid for him to let go.
"I love you. And that's not gonna change."
"But I – I lied to you. Our relationship is based on a lie," you whimpered, close to tears again. Therefore, he pulled you in for a hug, sliding his hands down your spine as he pressed your face against his collarbone.
"No, it's not… Maybe I was a bit more fond of you in the beginning just because you made me feel so normal and I could just be myself with you. You had no expectations. But then, I fell for you because of who you are. I didn't fall in love with you because I thought you didn't know who I was. I specifically fell in love with you because of how you saw me. How you treated me, how you gave your heart into our relationship, how you let me see you."
You sniffled softly, and Pedro combed his fingers through your hair.
"Baby, I've spent the past five months with you, and they were the best five months of my life. You think I care about something that you didn't tell me during the first twenty-four hours since we met? You think the happiness of my past five months just doesn't count because of one lie? You think it's just gonna make me forget those weeks with you?"
"I'm sorry," you repeated, pressing a kiss through his shirt against his chest.
"I know. I believe you. But I love you no matter what. I fell in love with you, baby, for who you are. Maybe – yes, maybe it made the start easier because I was just extraordinarily interested in you since you treated me so normal, so… maybe I should even feel grateful. That you acted that way and made me want to get to know you. 'Cause look where it got us."
You laughed quietly, tilting your head up at him while Pedro draped both arms around you, holding you firmly against his chest.
"I'm still sorry. And I swear, I'm not gonna lie to you again. Never."
"I know. But I want you to stop feeling bad about it. I forgive you. Besides, I told you all about my job within the first day of knowing you. So don't say our relationship is built on a lie, sweetheart. Don't be silly."
He tapped his fingers tenderly on your bicep, inhaling the scent of your hair, while you finally, feeling a heavy weight lift from your heart, relaxed completely in his grasp.
"Thank you, Pedro. I love you so much. And I – I don't wanna lose you."
"You're not gonna lose me. Never. I'm not gonna let that happen."
Although the problem that had been gnawing at you for weeks was finally resolved, you remained flush against Pedro's body for the next hour. Not because you needed more comfort or solace, but simply because it felt too good to let go.
You believed him when he said he forgave you and that this wouldn't end the relationship like you had feared in your worst nightmares. But having his hands glide up and down your back, occasionally sliding your shirt to the side to caress your bare skin while whispering his love in your ear over and over, was so beautiful that you didn’t intend to move a single muscle. At least, not until you absolutely had to.
ok I don’t know what kind of au this would be in but I had a fantasy/vision this morning and I need to share it with SOMEONE. kinda freaky so bear with me.
picture this: maybe joel and reader have a couple kids. maybe he’s been feeling a bit insecure lately about him getting older, feeling self conscious about his tummy and his grey hair and maybe the fact that he’s losing a bit of stamina oops. then one day the kids are being badly behaved and he puts his foot down and reader gets so hot and bothered by him being discipline daddy and she knows he’s been feeling a lil insecure so later when they’re alone she lets him know that the things that make him look like a full blown dad are the things that make her the horniest and she says something like “when you put your foot down with the kids… it reminded me of the days when you used to punish me” and they do sex to one another and she gets spankings and light chokes and wifey reminds him she’ll always be his bad girl and he reminds her how bad girls get punished and hey by the way take my phone away
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no outbreak.
Pairing: Oldman!Joel Miller x wife!Reader
Content warnings: 18+ ONLY, minors DNI. age gap (60s/20s), pet names, Daddy kink, aging insecurity, emotional reassurance, spanking, possessive/domestic sex, light chocking, praise & dirty talk, soft obsession, dom!Joel, sub!reader, Established Relationship
Word count: 1.194
The kitchen was chaos.
Markers rolled across the floor, spilled juice dripping down the cabinets and your oldest, six going on sixteen. Was currently screaming because her sister dare to touch her stuffed racoon. Again.
You were one second from crying or laughing, you weren't sure which, when Joel's boots thudded against the wood floor.
"Enough," came the voice. The one that vibrated from the chest.
You stilled. So did the kids.
That voice was rare. That tone. Rough. Stern. Low like thunder before a storm.
It made both girls freeze on instinct and your youngest even dropped the raccoon like it had burned her.
Joel looked tired, his flannel half buttoned, a little sweat at his temples from fixing the damn leaky sink.
"Pick up the mess," he ordered. "Say sorry to your mama. Then go sit on the couch. No cartoons."
Both the kids shuffled off with quite little sorrys. No sass, no backtalk.
You leaned on the counter, biting your cheek to suppress a smile. Joel turned towards you, rubbing his neck, and muttered. "Sorry 'bout all that. They were bouncin' off the walls while I was under the sink.. just lost my patience, I guess."
But all you could do was stare.
At the way he stood, shoulders broad, hands dirty, jaw clenched just so. The silver threading through his curls, the soft curve of his belly pushing slightly against his shirt.
The voice. The authority. The way the girls obeyedhim like he was the law of the land.
And suddenly, your thighs clenched.
He caught your look. Brows furrowed.
"What?"
You crossed the kitchen slowly, thudding your fingers through the collar of his shirt, letting your eyes move over every weathered, perfect part of him.. "I'm so fucking turned on right now..." You whispered.
Joel blinked. "...what?"
You leaned closer, voiceowr. "When you used that voice? When you put your foot down with the girls? I swear to God, Joel, it reminded me of the days when you used to punish me." Joel's face went from confused to wrecked in half a second.
"Jesus," he murmured. "You serious."
You nodded, wrapping your arms around his middle, under the softness of of his flannel, resting your head against that cheat you loved so much.
"I know you've been feeling self conscious," you murmured. "About the gray. The belly. Getting winded.. but all of that? Joel, it makes me want to climb into your lap and beg for it..."
He let out a shaly breath, arms tightening around your waist.
"Goddamn, baby..."
"You're sexy, Joel," you whispered. "You're a full blown dad. You fix shit with one hand, discipline with the other. You wear those stupid reading glasses and your flannels don't button right over your tummy and it makes me wanna ride you until you stop me."
Joel was hard.
You could feel it against your hip.
He grabbed your jaw gently, tilting your chin up.
"Bedroom. Now."
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By the time you were lajd out across the bed, shirt peeled off, shorts shoved aside, Joel's flannel was half off, boxers pushed just far enough to let his thick cock slap heavy between your thighs.
He stared down at you like he was starving. Like you hard the answers to every doubt in his head. "You still daddy's girl?" He asked, sliding his fingers through your slick folds. "Even after all these years?"
You nodded, gasping. "Always.."
"You still need reminders?" His voice dropped, that gravelly tone making your stomach flip.
"Yes. Please,' you begged.
He smirked, older, slower but still lethal.
One sharp spank landed on your ass, then another.
You cried out, arching into him.
He wrapped one hand lightly around your throat, the other gripping your hip as he lined up and pushed in, deep and slow until he bottomed out and groaned like it hurt to feel that good.
"Fuck,"he rasped. "So fuckin' tight."
You clung to him arm. "Still all yours."
His thrusts were heavy, deepz measured.
"I got older," he muttered. "But I never got soft on you."
You didn't,' you moaned. "You're so good,.Joel... So deep, god, daddy..." He focked out a moan and leaned in, hand braced beside your head, mouth dragging along your neck.
You whispered, "use me."
And he did.
He flipped you on your stomach, your thighs were already trembling, and Joel hadn't even started fucking you properly yet.
His hand slid up your spine, slow and warm, making you arch like instinct. His breath hit your shoulder, heavy and uneven.
His soft stomach pressed against your lower back, grounding you to the bed. He guided his cock through your soaked folds, the head thick and hard, teasing your entrance.
Joel then grabbed your hips and sank into you with one deep, controlled thrust. You gasped, loud and startled. Hands scrambling to brace against the mattress as he filled you up to the hilt.
You couldn't speak, couldn't do anything but feel him..he filled every inch like he is as carved to fit you, his hips flush with your ass, his cock pulsing thick and hot inside you.
He didn't move yet. He held himself ther, buried deep, hands gripping your tiny waist hard enough to leave marks. "You want daddy to ruin you tonight?" Be asked softly, voice all whiskey and hunger.
"Y-Yes, please. Daddy."
Joel pulled out nearly to the tip and then slammed back in with a low grunt. The sound of skin meeting skin echoed through the room.
Obscene and wet and perfect. He kept thrusting into you, he kept his thrusts steady, not rushed, not frantic, just hard. Possessive.
You couldn't stop moaning.
Every thrust hit deep, dragging against your walls, your body clenching tighter each time he pressed that soft tummy against your back.
"Fuck- fuck-" you sobbed. "You feel so good, daddy.." he leaned down , wrapped his hand around your throat gently, lips brushing your ear. "Don't forget who this pussy belongs to."
"You, daddy." You bewthed. "Always. It's yours."
"You think anyone else could ever fuck you like this, fill you up this deep?" You shopl your head, "no, no one...just you."
Joel pulled you upright onto your knees, your back against his chest , his hand still right at your neck, the other one on your clit now, circling slowly while his cock kept pounding up into you. "Show me, he whispered. "Cum on daddy's cock."
You shattered.
Your pussy clenching around him so hard it made him curse, your body going limp in his arms. He cought you with a growl, held you in place, still thrusting through the after shocks.
And then he followed.
He buried himself deep and stayed there, pulsing inside you, thick ropes of heat flooding you full while he panted into your slick neck..
"God damn, baby..." He muttered, "ain't never gonna get over you.
You reached up, threaded your fingers through his greying curls, "still god it, daddy." Joel laughed low against your skin and pulled out slwly, watching the mess spill down your thighs with a satisfied smirk.
A blurb since Joel Miller and dumbification have been simultaneously on my mind for a few days;
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apprx. 500 wrds.
mdni; dumbification, pet names, degradation, sloppy!joel miller
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"C'mon, baby, you ain't got a thang to say?"
Shit, you wish you did. The only things roaming through your voided head were pleasure, Joel's name, and the slow drag of his cock which made its mark among your bruised cervix.
Joel purrs out with his languid tongue, his breaths heavy along the back on your sweaty neck. He continues to tortuously lick and slobber along your shoulders like a dog. His cock dragged in and out of your cunt like you were his own fleshlight.
You, idiotically, only were able to form your words in a moan of broken cries, nodding so softly it could be mistaken for a twitch of the neck.
Though, he knew your body better than you did at this point.
His teeth had pierced their mark on you to later remind you of this moment, the purple blooms of blood under skin surfacing up for him to admire, just as he admired your bouncing skin—hip meeting hip.
He'd been fucking you slowly for perhaps an hour now. Starting off strong, just with the purpose of making you cum—feel your muscles spasm around his cock. Joel, somehow, has ended up forcing 5 sugary orgasms out of you with his deft fingers and thick cock alone.
Your cunt was dripping along his bare thighs, down onto the white sheets. Impossibly warm, and impossibly messy. He liked your longer fuck sessions to be sloppy and moisture-filled.
With another messy kiss to the back of your neck, his palm moved up to grip the bottom half of your jaw from behind. With an adjustment of his strong hips, he forces you to arch your back via his grip.
He forced your lips to the ceiling, purposefully ensuring you couldn't hide a single cry. He coiled his words around your brain again, "D'ya go stupid on me, baby? Huh? My cock drill all ya' thoughts out ya'?"
A lengthy whine left you as your hips robotically drove back to meet his. Like syrup, his words dripped into one ear and out the other, all warm between the journey.
Within this blissful state, you tried to speak back to him, and only ended up with your words leaving as a slew of cries and sobs, palming the sheets beneath you desperately. Like it'd make you think anything proper.
"Yeah..." he growls out as you do. He mocks you with a chest-bursting chuckle, almost proud of himself. Finally, he decides to pick up the snap of his relentless hips with one final addition of his rude words;
"All fuckin' stupid now, ain't you? Ain't got shit left to say to me, ain't got shit to complain about," he breathlessly notes as his sweaty chest meets your trembling shoulder blades, "So much more pretty when you shut up."
Summary: She’s been riding his nerves for years, but when she waltzes into his bar in that little dress, pushing every damn button, Joel’s patience snaps. One jealous glare, one bar fight, and one heated moment against his truck later—he’s finally got his hands on the one thing he was never supposed to have. She may be forbidden, but tonight, she’s his to break.
Warnings: 18+ afab and fem reader, p in v sex, dbf fic, unspecified age gap, no description of reader but has big boobs and ass, dirty talk, no use of y/n, unsafe sex, oral (f! receiving), creampie, degradation, praise kink.
Word count: 3.5k
Joel Miller had never been a patient man.
Life had never given him the luxury of it. He had worked with his hands since he was young, learned early on that the world didn’t give second chances. He was a man of discipline, a man who knew how to keep his head down and his wants buried.
But she was making it damn near impossible.
She had been a teenager the first time he met her, trailing after her father, all wide eyes and laughter, running barefoot in the summer heat. He had watched her grow up, watched her turn into the kind of woman who could bring a man to his knees.
And now, she was back.
Older. Smarter. Dangerous.
She had always been off-limits. The daughter of his best friend, the one woman in the world he had no right to want. But she was making it impossible not to want her.
It had been easy to tease him, to poke at that ironclad patience of his and see ifshe could get a reaction. A lingering touch here, a too-sweet smile there. Watching the way his jaw clenched every time she called him Mr. Miller in that honeyed voice just to watch his ears turn red.
But no matter how much she pushed, Joel never broke.
Miller’s was packed, bodies moving, voices loud, music twanging through the air.
Joel had been behind the bar all night, pouring drinks, barely listening to the conversations around him. He had been doing a good job of keeping his mind on work, on anything but her.
Until she walked in.
The air seemed to shift, a pull in his gut that made his grip tighten around the glass in his hand.
And then he saw her.
That pretty little dress clung to her, the hem swaying just high enough to make his throat go dry. The cowboy boots only made it worse, giving her the perfect mix of sweet and wild, like she belonged there, like she wasn’t trying at all.
Except he knew she was. She knew exactly what she was doing.
Her gaze found his across the room, and a slow smile curved her lips.
His gaze dragged over her, slow and deliberate, before snapping back up to her face. He looked pissed.
Good.
Smiling to herself, she let her friends pull her toward the bar, where Joel was still watching, still brooding. She leaned against the counter, resting her elbows on the wood, waiting for him to say something.
He didn’t.
Instead, he grabbed a glass and poured her a drink, sliding it across the bar without a word.
“Not gonna say hello?” she teased.
Joel kept his gaze on the glass in her hands. “You ain’t supposed to be in here.”
She tilted her head. “Since when?”
“Since you started struttin’ around like you want trouble.”
She let out a soft hum, dragging her fingers along the rim of the glass he had just poured for her. “Maybe I do.”
Joel’s jaw tightened.
She was doing it again—pushing, testing, seeing how far she could go before he snapped.
“Not tonight,” he muttered.
“Not tonight what?”
His jaw clenched even harder, his teeth grinding.
She leaned in just a little, voice soft, sweet, coaxing. “You don’t like my dress, Mr. Miller?”
Joel exhaled sharply. “You think this is a game?”
Her lips twitched, like she was trying not to grin. Joel had to look away before he did something stupid, something reckless.
Like pull her across the damn bar and show her exactly how much he liked that dress.
The night carried on, the bar growing louder as the drinks flowed. She was laughing with her friends, sipping her whiskey slow, when she felt it—
A hand.
Not Joel’s.
Rough fingers slid along her lower back, dipping too low, too familiar. She tensed, turning sharply to find a man standing too close, grinning like he had a right to touch her.
“Hey there, sweetheart,” he slurred, breath heavy with beer.
She moved to step back, but he caught her wrist, holding on just tight enough to make her stomach twist.
“Let go,” She said, voice cool.
He laughed. “Aw, don’t be like that.”
Then, all at once, he was gone.
Yanked back so hard he stumbled, nearly falling on his ass.
Joel.
He was furious.
She had never seen him like this, not even when he was arguing with her dad about football scores or fixing some busted-up truck in the heat of summer. This was different.
Dangerous.
His hand was wrapped around the man’s wrist, squeezing so tight she could see the strain in his forearm.
“I told you,” Joel said, voice low, steady, lethal. “Get your goddamn hands off her.”
The man tried to laugh it off, but Joel yanked him forward just enough to make his breath hitch.
“You touch her again, I will break your fuckin’ hand.”
Dead silence.
The man swallowed, eyes darting around the room, looking for anyone who might step in. But no one did.
They knew better than to cross Joel Miller.
He let go, shoving the guy backward. “Get the hell out of my bar.”
The man didn’t hesitate.
Didn’t even look at her again. Just turned and left, tail tucked between his legs. And then Joel turned to her.
“Outside. Now.”
"Lets go," he barked, his voice cutting through the cacophony of the bar like a knife. The other men gathered around her table with protested, but Joel's icy glare sent them retreating faster than a coyote with its tail between its legs. She was still taken aback by his sudden aggression, but didn't struggle as he practically dragged her out of the bar and to his truck.
He didn’t stop until they reached his truck, the metal cool against her back as he crowded into her space.
“What the hell were you thinkin’?” he growled.
Her pulse was racing, but she forced herself to hold his gaze. “I wasn’t doin’ anything.”
Joel exhaled sharply, his hands braced against the truck on either side of her. His body was close, heat rolling off him in waves.
“You been runnin’ me in circles since you got back,” he muttered. “Wearin’ these little dresses, givin’ me that damn smile, callin’ me—”
She licked her lips, voice soft. “Mr. Miller?”
Joel groaned. His fingers flexed against the truck, like he was fighting every instinct in his body to keep from touching her.
“You don’t know what you’re doin’, girl.”
She tilted her head, her lips a breath away from his. “What if I do?”
Silence.
Thick, heavy, charged.
Joel’s hand came up before he could stop himself, rough fingers tracing the line of her jaw, tilting her face up. His thumb brushed over her bottom lip, slow and deliberate.
Her breath hitched.
“Joel—”
He kissed her. It was desperate, all fire and hunger, years of restraint snapping like a damn rope pulled too tight.
His hands slid to her waist, pulling her flush against him, pressing her against the truck. She gasped against his lips, and he took advantage of it, deepening the kiss, claiming her.
Her hands fisted in his shirt, tugging him closer, like she wanted to crawl inside him, like she had been waiting for this just as long as he had.
Joel lifted her onto the edge of the tailgate, his grip firm on her thighs. Her dress rode up, exposing soft, smooth skin against the rough denim of his jeans.
He pulled back just enough to look at her, breathing ragged.
“You sure about this?”
She didn’t hesitate. She grabbed the front of his shirt, pulling him back in. “I’ve never been more sure of anything in my life.”
Joel groaned, resting his forehead against hers. “You’re gonna be the death of me.”
She smiled, breathless. “Then at least you’ll die happy.”
His control shattered.
He kissed her again, deeper, hungrier, and this time, he didn’t stop.
He opened the door of his truck and threw her into the backseat, the leather cool against her bare skin. He didn't bother with pleasantries or explanations; he knew she was playing with fire, and it was high time she felt the burn. His eyes raked over her, taking in every curve and freckle that made her uniquely her. She met his gaze, a mix of defiance and curiosity in her own eyes. He leaned in, his breath hot against her neck, and whispered, "You've been asking for this all night, darlin'."
Her heart raced as he climbed in beside her, the weight of his body pressing her into the seat. The smell of his cologne, leather, and something uniquely Joel filled the small space, making her head spin. His rough hands began to roam, tracing the lines of her body as if they were an ancient map, each touch setting her skin alight. Her own hands found his beard, and she pulled his face closer, feeling the prickle against her cheek. His lips claimed hers in a kiss that was as fierce as it was possessive. She could feel his hunger, his need to claim her as his own.
He pulled away, his eyes dark with lust, and grabbed his hat from the front seat. "Wear it," he grunted, placing it on her head. The brim shadowed her face, making her feel a mix of excitement and naughtiness. He took a moment to appreciate the sight of her in his cowboy hat, a stark contrast to the bratty persona she had been putting on all night. She bit her bottom lip, her eyes sparkling with mischief.
With surprising gentleness, Joel pulled her shirt over her head, revealing her ample breasts that bounced free, the cool air making her nipples tighten into delicious little buds. He took one in his mouth, teasing it with his tongue, while his hands found there way under her dress, tracing her soft thighs. She gasped, arching her back, the fabric of the hat brushing against her neck as she reached for him. Her hands roamed over his muscular chest, feeling the strength beneath.
Her own dress was quickly discarded, leaving her in just her lacy panties. He groaned, taking in the sight of her. His own desire was evident, pressing against the fabric of his jeans, but he took his time, savoring the moment. He reached down and slid her panties off, tossing them aside. "You're going to be the death of me," he murmured against her skin as he kissed his way down her body.
He settled between her legs, his breath hot against the sensitive flesh of her inner thighs. He took a moment to appreciate the sight before him, her pussy glistening with want. "So sweet," he whispered, his voice gruff with desire. He dipped his head and licked her, a long, slow stroke that made her moan. She was already close, her body tightening with every flick of his tongue. He chuckled darkly, the sound sending vibrations through her. "You're eager, aren't you?"
Joel didn't wait for an answer; he feasted on her, his tongue delving into her depths, lapping up her sweetness. She squirmed beneath him, her hands grabbing fistfuls of his hair as she pushed herself closer to his mouth. "You taste like heaven," he murmured, his breath tickling her clit. His hands gripped her thighs, holding her in place as he worked her over with his mouth, his teeth grazing her sensitive skin.
The tension built, coiling tighter and tighter within her until she couldn't take it anymore. She shuddered, her orgasm ripping through her like a tornado, leaving her panting and trembling in its wake. He looked up at her, a smug smile playing on his lips, his eyes gleaming with satisfaction. "Good girl," he praised, his voice thick with lust. "Now, you've been teasing me for so long, let's see if you can handle the real deal."
With a swiftness that belied his size, Joel stripped off his clothes, his muscles rippling in the dim light of the truck's cabin. He was a vision of raw masculinity, a stark contrast to the gentle care he had taken with her moments before. He grabbed her, pulling her onto his lap so that she straddled him, his erection pressing against her soaked pussy. "Ride me," he ordered, his voice low and commanding. She didn't hesitate, sliding down onto him, feeling him fill her completely.
Her gasp was music to his ears, and he watched as she adjusted to his size, her eyes fluttering closed as she began to move. Joel's hands found her hips, guiding her movements, his thumbs tracing lazy circles on her skin. "Look at me," he said, his voice a gruff whisper. She obeyed, her eyes locking with his, and he could see the trust, the need, the desire all swirling together in their depths.
He leaned back against the seat, watching her ride him with a fierce determination that sent bolts of pleasure through his body. The hat sat askew on her head, her hair a wild mess around her face, and she had never looked more beautiful. His grip tightened on her hips, urging her to go faster, deeper. "Take what you want from me, darlin'. Show me what you've been hiding from me all these years."
Her movements grew more frantic, her breasts bouncing with every bounce, her moans filling the space around them. Joel could feel his own climax building, the base of his spine tingling with the promise of release. He leaned forward, capturing one of her nipples between his teeth, giving it a gentle bite that made her gasp and ride him harder. "That's it," he murmured, his voice a dark rumble in his chest. "You're going to make me come sweet girl."
The words seemed to spur her on, and she began to grind down on him with a fervor that was almost animalistic. Her nails dug into his shoulders, leaving little half-moons that would likely bruise by morning. But Joel didn't care. All he could focus on was the exquisite pleasure she was giving him, the way her pussy clenched around his cock with every movement she made. He knew he wouldn't last much longer.
With a growl, he flipped their positions, her back now pressed against the cool leather of the seat. He was relentless, pumping into her with a force that made the truck rock slightly. His hands found her breasts again, kneading them roughly as he claimed her mouth in another bruising kiss. She could feel his dominance, his need to possess her, and it only made her wetter.
Joel's hand slipped down between them, his calloused fingers finding her clit. He began to rub it in time with his thrusts, the sensation sending sparks of pleasure shooting through her body. She moaned into his mouth, her nails now digging into his back, her body begging for more. "Cum for me," he murmured, his voice a dark promise in her ear. "I want to feel you come all over my cock."
Her walls tightened around him, and she knew she couldn't hold out much longer. With a cry, she shattered, her orgasm tearing through her like a wildfire, consuming every part of her being. Joel followed her over the edge, his own release hot and powerful as he buried himself deep within her. They stayed there, locked together, for several long moments, their breathing the only sound in the quiet parking lot.
When he finally pulled out, she could feel the emptiness he left behind, both physically and emotionally. He didn't say a word as he tucked himself back into his pants, his movements efficient and practiced. She watched him, her chest heaving, the hat still perched on her head. It felt strange now, a symbol of what had just transpired between them.
Joel reached for a pack of cigarettes from the dashboard, lighting one up with a shaky hand. He took a long drag, the tip glowing red in the darkness before he turned to her. "You know, you've been playing a dangerous game," he said, his voice a low rumble. "You can't just tease a man like that and not expect consequences."
She sat up, her breath still coming in ragged gasps, the hat slipping slightly on her head. "I know," she whispered, a hint of a smile playing on her lips. "But you liked it, didn't you?"
Joel's expression was unreadable, his eyes hooded as he took another drag of his cigarette. He beckoned her closer with a crook of his finger, his voice a soft rumble. "Come here, darlin'." She complied, sliding over to him, the leather of the seat sticking slightly to her skin. He pulled her into his arms, holding her close, the hat still perched on her head.
The warmth of his embrace was a stark contrast to the coolness of the night air that had seeped into the truck. His heart thudded against her ear, a steady rhythm that seemed to echo the beat of her own. He inhaled deeply, breathing in her scent, a mix of sweetness and sex that was uniquely hers. "You know your daddy's going to kill me if he ever finds out about this," he murmured, his breath hot against her skin.
She giggled, the sound a little shaky, and snuggled closer to him. "Don't worry," she whispered, "I won't tell." Her fingers traced lazy patterns on his chest, feeling the steady thrum of his heart beneath her touch. The gravity of their situation settled on her, the reality of what they had just done heavy in the air between them.
"You're mine now," Joel said, his voice gruff but not unkind. "All those pretty dresses you wear, all for me to peel off." He reached down and picked up her discarded panties, holding them up with a smirk. "And these," he added, tucking them into his pocket, "are mine now."
She looked up at him, the hat tilting slightly to the side. "What are you saying?" she asked, her voice a mix of surprise and excitement.
"I'm saying," Joel began, his eyes dark and intense, "that from now on, every time you wear those little dresses that drive me wild, it's my cock you're thinking about. Every time you spread your legs for anyone else, you're going to remember whose cock you really want." He took another drag of his cigarette, his gaze never leaving hers. "And when I say no one else gets to taste you, darlin', I mean it."
Her heart fluttered at his possessive words, a thrill of fear and excitement racing through her veins. "But, Joel, my dad—"
"I don't care about your daddy," he cut her off, his voice firm. "You're mine, and I'm not sharing." His eyes bore into hers, leaving no room for argument. "You'll wear those dresses, keep 'em guessing, but they'll never know what's hidden beneath. They won't get to taste what's mine."
He took her hand and placed it over his heart, the steady beat beneath his palm a declaration of his ownership. "You're not just a pretty face in a short dress anymore. You're mine to protect, mine to cherish, mine to fuck." He leaned in, his breath a warm caress on her neck. "And when you wear that hat," his voice grew gruffer, "you're riding the cowboy."
Her cheeks flushed with a mix of excitement and trepidation. The weight of his words was intoxicating, a heady blend of fear and desire that had her knees trembling. She knew the rules had changed, the line she'd been toeing all night had been crossed, and there was no turning back. "I won't let anyone else have me, I'm yours," she murmured, her voice a soft promise that seemed to vibrate through him.
Joel's grip on her tightened, his eyes never leaving hers. "You'd better not," he warned, his tone playful yet laced with a hint of seriousness that made her stomach flip. He leaned in and kissed her again, a kiss that spoke of ownership and passion. His hand found her bare thigh, his thumb stroking the sensitive skin, sending waves of pleasure through her body. "Every time you wear one of those dresses, I'll know that underneath, you'll be dripping full of me, my cum will make sure it says 'property of Joel Miller.'"
The thought made her blush, but she didn't pull away. Instead, she leaned into his touch, her hand sliding down to his crotch, feeling him harden again. "Only for you," she murmured, her voice a siren's call in the quiet night.
He groaned, his hand coming up to cup her face, his thumb brushing over her bottom lip. "Good girl," he praised, his voice thick with lust. "Now, let's get you dressed and back inside before anyone starts asking questions." He helped her into her clothes, his movements almost tender. As she adjusted her dress she couldn't help but feel a twinge of regret, knowing that she'd be giving up the thrill of the chase. But the look in Joel's eyes told her that the real fun was just beginning.
Sorry I haven’t posted in a while - got caught up in Christmas and work
Since y’all liked my last Joel miller smut - I’m back with another one!
“A man who yearns is a man who earns”
Warning: 18+, explicit content, obsession and yearning, p in the v and so on…
The air in the truck was thick with the silence of the road, a silence that Joel had once craved but now felt like a physical weight. Every mile marker he passed was another notch in the belt of his impatience. He’d been gone for ten days—a run to a supposed federation outpost up north that had turned out to be a bust, nothing but rusted-out cans and the ghosts of better days. Ten days. Ten days of sleeping on cold ground, of eating stale food, of keeping his senses sharp for clickers and raiders and every other nightmare the world had to offer.
But the real torture, the one that gnawed at him from the inside out, was being away from you.
He gripped the steering wheel, his knuckles white, the worn leather creaking under the pressure. He could almost feel you. Not just the memory of you, but a phantom sensation, a ghost of your presence that clung to him. He could smell the faint, lingering scent of your soap on his own skin, the one he’d washed with in a frigid creek three days ago, desperate for even that small connection.
He was obsessed. He knew it. It was a dangerous, foolish thing in this world, to need something, to need someone, the way he needed you. It was a weakness he couldn’t afford, a chink in his armor so wide a tank could drive through. But there it was. You were his soft place to land, his reason for coming back. You were the warmth in his bones when the world was nothing but ice and decay.
The thought of you was a constant, low-level hum beneath the surface of his consciousness, but when the loneliness of the cab pressed in too close, it roared to life. He thought about the way your hair fanned out on his pillow. The specific, sleepy sound you made when you first woke up. The way your hand felt in his, smaller and so much softer than his own calloused one.
And then there were the other thoughts. The ones that made him shift in his seat, the denim of his jeans suddenly feeling too tight. The ones that made his mouth go dry and his heart hammer against his ribs like a trapped bird.
He pictured you now, back in the house you’d made a home. Maybe you were reading by the light of an oil lamp, your brow furrowed in concentration. Or maybe you were in the garden, the dirt under your fingernails, a smudge of it on your cheek. The image that sent a jolt of pure, unadulterated want through him, though, was the one of you in his bed. Your bed. Their bed.
He imagined you wearing one of his old shirts, the fabric swallowed by your frame, the hem barely brushing the tops of your thighs. He could almost feel the heat of your skin, the way it would feel under his rough hands. He thought about the taste of the sweat on your neck after a long day, the little gasp you’d make when his mouth found that sensitive spot just below your ear.
God, he was aching for you. It was a physical pain, a deep, hollow throb in his groin and a tightness in his chest. He felt like a starving man who’d been shown a feast he couldn’t touch. Every night on the road, he’d lie awake, hard and frustrated, his body a traitor screaming for the comfort of yours. He’d close his eyes and it was your face he saw, your name he whispered into the darkness.
He finally saw the familiar outline of Jackson’s walls against the bruised purple twilight. Relief washed over him, so potent it almost buckled his knees. He drove through the gates, his hands moving with practiced efficiency, but his mind was already miles ahead, already inside the house, already with you.
He parked the truck, the engine sputtering to a silence that was immediately filled by the familiar sounds of the settlement. He grabbed his pack, his movements stiff with urgency. He didn’t stop to talk to anyone who greeted him, just gave a curt nod, his eyes fixed on the path that led to your door.
The walk was the longest part of the entire journey. Every step was an exercise in restraint. He wanted to run, to sprint, to charge through the door like a man possessed.
He finally reached it. He stood there for a moment, his hand raised to knock, his heart pounding a frantic rhythm against his ribs. He took a deep breath, trying to calm the storm raging inside him, but it was useless. He was lost to it.
He pushed the door open.
The light was low, a single lamp casting a warm, golden glow across the room. And there you were. You were sitting on the edge of the sofa, a book in your lap, and when you looked up and saw him, your face broke into a smile that was brighter than any sun he could remember.
He didn’t say a word. He couldn’t. The words were there, but they were trapped behind a decade of grief and a week of pure, unfiltered longing. He let his bag drop to the floor with a heavy thud, the sound echoing in the quiet room.
You stood up, the book forgotten. “Joel,” you breathed, your voice like music.
That was all it took. He crossed the space between you in three long strides, his boots heavy on the floorboards. He didn't stop, didn't hesitate. He closed the distance and his hands were on you, one cupping the back of your head, his fingers tangling in your hair, the other wrapping around your waist, pulling you flush against him.
He claimed your mouth in a kiss that was hungry and desperate. It wasn't gentle or sweet; it was a kiss of a man who had been wandering in the desert and had finally found water. He poured all of his frustration, all of his fear, all of his obsessive need into it. He kissed you like he was trying to breathe you in, to consume you, to memorize the feel of your lips against his all over again.
You responded with an equal fervor, your arms wrapping around his neck, your fingers threading through the hair at the nape of his neck. You tasted like home, like safety, like the only thing that mattered.
He broke the kiss, resting his forehead against yours, his breath coming in ragged gasps. He was still in his dirty road clothes, the scent of dust and engine grease clinging to him, but he didn't care. All he could smell was you.
“Missed you,” he rasped, his voice thick and raw. It was the biggest understatement of his life. He had been hollowed out without you.
“I missed you too,” you whispered, your hands stroking the back of his neck.
His eyes roamed over your face, tracing every line, every curve, like he was trying to commit it to memory all over again. “God, darlin’,” he murmured, his thumb stroking your cheek. “Thought about you every second. Drove me mad.”
He lifted you then, his arms easily hooking under your legs, and you wrapped them around his waist. He carried you towards the bedroom, his movements sure and driven by a singular purpose. He kicked the door shut behind him, plunging the room into near darkness, save for the sliver of light from the other room.
He laid you down on the bed, his body following yours, caging you in with his weight. He didn't speak anymore. He didn't need to. He let his hands and his mouth do the talking. He peeled away your clothes with a reverence that bordered on worship, his calloused fingertips tracing the soft skin of your stomach, the curve of your hips, the dip of your waist.
He was starved for the taste of you, for the feel of you. He kissed a path down your body, his beard rough against your sensitive skin, making you shiver. He took his time, rediscovering every inch of you, his touch a brand that claimed you as his. When he finally settled between your thighs, he looked up at you, his eyes dark and intense, burning with an obsession that was both terrifying and thrilling.
“Joel,” you gasped, your hands fisting in the sheets.
He didn’t wait for another invitation. He lowered his head and his mouth was on you, hot and demanding. He worked you with a desperate expertise, his tongue and lips driving you higher and higher, his hands holding your hips firmly, anchoring you to the bed as you writhed beneath him. He was relentless, a man possessed, drawing out every cry, every shudder, every moan until you were arching off the bed, your release washing over you in a powerful wave.
He moved back up your body, his skin slick with sweat, his chest heaving. He positioned himself at your entrance, his eyes locked on yours, searching. In that moment, you saw it all—the vulnerability, the possession, the all-consuming need. He was asking for permission, even as he was taking what was his.
You reached up, cupping his jaw, your thumb stroking the rough stubble. “I’m yours, Joel,” you whispered, the words sealing a pact you’d both known was true from the start.
With a guttural groan, he pushed into you, slow and deep, filling you completely. The sensation was overwhelming, a perfect, aching fullness that made you both gasp. He stilled for a moment, his forehead pressed to yours, his body trembling with the force of his restraint.
Then he began to move.
It wasn't slow or gentle. It was a hard, deep rhythm, a primal claiming that spoke of his desperation. Each thrust was a declaration, a promise, a prayer. He was a man erasing the past ten days, replacing every cold, lonely memory with the hot, living reality of you.
The bed frame groaned in time with his movements, a rhythmic protest against the force of his need. He was lost in you, his world narrowed to the slick heat of your body, the breathless sounds escaping your lips, the feel of your nails digging into his shoulders, urging him on.
He buried his face in the crook of your neck, his breath hot and ragged against your skin. “You feel so good,” he gritted out, his voice a low, strained rumble. “So fuckin’ good. Like comin’ home.”
Every word was a lit match against your skin. He wasn’t just inside you; he was rewriting the very fabric of his being with you as his center. He was Joel Miller, the hard man, the survivor, the killer. But here, with you, he was just a man, and you were his religion.
He shifted his weight, propping himself up on one arm, his other hand gripping your hip, holding you steady as he drove into you, deeper, harder. The new angle sent a jolt of pure electricity through you, and you cried out, your back arching off the mattress. He watched you, his dark eyes fixed on your face, drinking in every expression of pleasure, every flicker of ecstasy. It was a look of pure, unadulterated obsession, as if he were committing this moment to memory, storing it away for the next time he was alone in the dark.
“Look at me,” he commanded, his voice rough with emotion. “Eyes on me, darlin’.”
You forced your eyes open, meeting his intense gaze. The connection was electric, a raw, visceral thread that pulled you both deeper into the moment. He was watching you fall apart, and the power in his gaze, the sheer possessive adoration, was enough to push you closer to the edge.
“Mine,” he growled, the word a possessive brand. “You’re mine.”
“Yours,” you gasped, the affirmation a sacred vow. “All yours.”
That was it. That was the thing that broke him. His rhythm faltered for a second, a shudder running through his powerful frame as your words washed over him. He lowered his head, capturing your mouth in a bruising kiss, all tongue and teeth and desperate need. He was swallowing your moans, tasting your release as it built within you, a tidal wave gathering strength.
He reached between your bodies, his calloused thumb finding that sensitive bundle of nerves at the apex of your thighs. He circled it once, twice, in time with his powerful thrusts, and that was all it took. The world shattered.
Your orgasm ripped through you with the force of a storm, a blinding, all-consuming wave of pleasure that left you gasping and trembling. Your body clenched around him, a series of powerful, rhythmic spasms that milked him, pulling him right to the brink with you.
He let out a raw, guttural sound, half your name, half a curse, as your release triggered his own. He drove into you one last time, deep and hard, his body going rigid as he poured himself into you. It was a violent, shuddering release, a week’s worth of pent-up frustration and longing finally breaking free. He collapsed against you, his full weight pressing you into the mattress, his face buried in your hair as his body trembled with the aftershocks.
The room was silent, save for the sound of your ragged breaths mingling in the air. The frantic energy that had fueled him was gone, replaced by a profound, bone-deep peace. He was home.
For a long time, you just lay there, tangled together, your bodies slick with sweat, your hearts beating a frantic, slowing rhythm against each other’s chests. He was heavy, a solid, grounding weight that you wouldn’t have moved for anything in the world.
Finally, he stirred, lifting his head just enough to look at you. The hard, desperate edges of his face had softened, replaced by a look of such raw, unguarded tenderness it made your chest ache. He gently brushed a stray strand of hair away from your forehead, his touch impossibly gentle for a man with such rough hands.
“You okay?” he murmured, his voice hoarse.
You nodded, a lazy, satisfied smile spreading across your face. “I’m more than okay.”
A ghost of a smile touched his lips. “Good.” He shifted, rolling to the side but keeping you tucked firmly against him, one arm slung possessively over your waist, pulling you into his embrace. He kissed your temple, a soft, lingering press of his lips.
He was still here. Not the haunted, driven survivor who had walked through the door, but your Joel. The man who yearned, the man who was obsessed, the man who would cross any hell on earth just to get back to this. To you.
He closed his eyes, his breathing finally evening out, and for the first time in ten days, the silence in his soul wasn't empty. It was full. It was full of you.
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Updated: 17/08/26
Created: 28/10/25
COMPLETE
The Devil’s Smile - You and your children are rescued from a cult and go to stay with Joel. 18+only - complete (42 parts)
Where Our Shadows Meet - In 1870s Texas, Joel loses his wife and child and asks you to marry him to prevent him losing his daughter. 18+only - complete (25 parts)
The Circle - Two years ago you lost your son and Joel lost his daughter. Neither of you are sure the support group you both attend helps, but here you are. 18+only - complete (5 parts)
Guardian - Joel doesn’t want to leave you to go out on patrol. Not when you, and the baby inside you, are his whole world. 18+only - complete (2 parts)
When You Want It The Most - You and Joel had a deal - no kids. But nature finds a way to give and then take. 18+only - complete (2 parts)
Mama Lovin’ - Joel gives you what you need post partum. 18+only - complete (2 parts)
Safe Harbour - You’ve had a terrible day and you just need Joel to fuck you. 18+only - complete (2 parts)
The Favour - You need a favour from Joel. 18+only - complete (2 parts)
Wake Me Up When September Ends - It’s Joel’s birthday and the anniversary of Sarah’s death. Joel shows up at your door late at night. 18+only - complete (one-shot)
Wildfire - He’s a rancher, you’re an environmentalist. You hate each other, except when you don’t. 18+only - complete (one-shot)
The Christmas You Get You Deserve - Last Christmas, Joel lost you. Now he’s being forced into posing for a sexy Santa shoot and wondering if you might see it. 18+only - complete (one-shot)
Every Inch - When you get criticised for your weight, Joel shows you exactly why he loves you. 18+only - complete (one-shot)
The Fight - On the way to Bill and Frank’s, you and Joel have an argument. 18+ only - complete (one shot)
Season of Change - You’re a woman of a certain age and things in your body are changing. Fortunately, you have Joel Miller in your corner. Mature - complete (one-shot)
Slip N Slide - You, Joel and Sarah are spending the day at a waterpark. Sarah wants her dad to go on a scary slide with her. You just want her dad. 18+only - complete (one-shot)
WORKS IN PROGRESS
Hair Trigger - You’re new in Jackson and rifle training is mandatory for all adults. You want to be useful, but it’s hard when Joel Miller’s your instructor. 18+only.
A Different Kind of Love - Your husband’s been missing presumed dead for two years and you’re slowly falling in love with Joel. Then a face from the past returns. 18+only.
Sweet Poison - You’ve been infected and you need Joel to end it for you because you don’t have the courage to do it yourself. 18+only.
Blossoming - Libby Miller is five going on fifteen and Joel’s not ready for his little girl to grow up. PG fluff.