#pill pusher

[katieefacee]

A letter to my psychologist

You said the first step in treating a problem is acknowledgement.

The word you used was addiction.

Addict.

But, that word fits loosely around my slender shoulders.

Addiction is recounting the pills 16 times to make sure you have enough to last the week.

Addiction is hiding in the bathroom at work so no one sees you take your 5th pill of the day.

Addiction is canceling plans with friends because you are too high to stand let alone drive.

Addiction is making plans with friends because you feel so fucking good right now.

Addiction is stealing.

Addiction is lying to your family about how many pills you took today.

Addiction makes you feel dirty and ashamed and alone.

I know addiction.

Before I moved, I was taking upwards to 700mg a day because I was not afraid of dying.

I was mixing my drugs with other people's drugs.

I was mixing my pain killers with 5 shots of rum.

I was putting so much poison into my body that it couldn't handle water the following day.

I overdosed.

While a friend stayed the night to make sure I could breathe on my own.

I know addiction.

When you first saw me.

My usage was at 150mg a day.

Now, it's at 50.

36 days I was able to stay completely clean.

Addiction doesn't fit right in my mouth any more.

I have no physical attachments to the drugs.

But they help my depression better than any antidepressant ever did.

I do not stress over whether I have enough to last.

I don't rearrange funds to buy more.

I stopped drinking.

Call me, an abuser.

Like all the people who made me turn to drugs in the first place.

Call me a pill-pusher

Like big pharmaceuticals.

Call me, self-medicating

Because I found something that sometimes works.

Call me, a work in progress

Because I am still alive.

I know, taking any pills at all is not ideal by your standards.

But I'm not who I was.

I'm not where I've been.

The blood in my veins isn't toxic.

My stomach isn't empty.

My eyes aren't pin needles.

My memory isn't shit.

I'm not as impulsive as I was in the past.

I have control again.

I have control again.

Addiction, doesn't share control.

[itsmythang]

Jackson: He labeled me on TV as the candy man. Right? He said that I was recklessly prescribing narcotics. He said that I got drunk and wrecked a government vehicle.

Why would you want to remind people that you’re a coke-adddrunk pill pusher? Oh, the 'candyman' turned the W.H. into a pill mill.

Well, the Navy after an investigation decided you needed to be demoted because of that conduct in the White House. So Tester was right and we've seen the drug sheets.

Navy demoted Ronny Jackson in 2022 after scathing watchdog report | CNN Politics

The Navy demoted Rep. Ronny Jackson in 2022 after a scathing report from the Defense Department watchdog found the former White House physic

MAGA Republicans: EVERY ACCUSATION IS A CONFESSION

[lovelycrist]

If your feeling depressed take a pill we all are addicts

Lil peep

[b0ttl3bl0nd3]

in need percocet 

[artgurliee]

I think Dr. Oz is doing his show purely for the money. His show offers so much junk science that at this point it is more harmful than good. When these Oz followers come into the store/pharmacy looking for his products they arent even open to the entire pharmacy's claims that the product does not work. These products are overwhelmingly targeted as solutions for weight loss and are being purchased by women fifty or older with maximum 30 pounds to loss. These women are at times risking their lives on untested supplements while not even under the care of a doctor. I realize that ignorant people will do dumb at times harmful stuff if they do not have an open mind to true professional advice and develop the ability to have critical thinking skills. However, why does the American public need another source of misinformation. I really hope that Dr. Oz show gets canceled or AMA calls him out in a VERY public way.

[little-simple-secrets]