[[ Admin Confession 1:
An average teenager of my build and age should be about 115lbs.
I am, ashamedly and quite literally, twice that size at 230lbs.
My goal is to, someday soon, get down to half of my size.
Then I will feel beautiful for the first time in my life, I just know it. Even if I still have a pig-like nose and crooked ears and lazy eyes, I will still feel...better. I'd give anything to be skinny.
Then after that, I'll save up for plastic surgery for my nose, and some sort of corrective eye treatment to fix my vision. As for my ears...eh, what can you do?
Then after I'm thin and beautiful and confident, I will go and start my own cosplay Askblog on Tumblr.
I want to dress up as England, I think, because I've discovered I'm most like him.
There's a million Englands, yes, an I probably won't be the prettiest, best or most popular...but it's a dream, and I'm aiming high for it.
And then, I will cosplay with Kota and Chris, two of my cosplay role-models.
They may be silly and stuff, sure, but I seriously admire them. I know they put a lot of hard work into what they do. It's pure quality, and they are adorable and creative.
Right now, I feel so ugly and unworthy of them, or this fandom, or cosplay.
But someday, Chris and Kota, I will be a beautiful little cosplayer, and I'll meet you at Anime Expo, and I'll feel like I'm worth something for once.
You two are my inspiration. I know that's cheesy, and childish but- I look up to you two a lot.
I will work hard to become something worthwhile, and then I can prove to the fandom I'm a lot more than just an annoying person who posts a bunch of shiba.
Someday, I'll be pretty.
-Victoria AKA Lovi F.S ]]