#poisons personal shit

[poisonedsimmer-inactive]

sooooo, I had a good portion of my character page filled out yesterday.... today I went to edit it and it was back to the OLD setting and all the HTML and info was lost... Have to restart, for the 3rd freaking time!!!!!!!! I will be copying ALL my HTML into a file before I leave that page at all just in case but idk why this is happening or why tumblr fucking HATES me. I’ll get it sorted, but pls don’t expect character profs anytime soon. Apparently tumblr said noooooo *headdesk*

[lifeisabouttogetstranger]

Me: *sees post by @sleepfight, looks at tags* #blows a kiss to the group chat#the only place my content goes these days Me again: *cries in loneliness* I miss all you peeps so much! Everybody left me behind.

[naut-icallychallenged]

On the bright side though I guess, my brain has finally decided it’s also time to write my follow up to my currently only GreedFall fic and write the aftermath of the moment and what happens to Jules after THAT scene at the end. So silver linings and writing things might be happening I guess? Yay!

[poisonedsimmer]

why is it so hard to create a street scene for your sims in blender? I can’t build, getting annoyed at this. had an idea, no available scenes fit my idea, can’t build an outdoor scene to save my life. *siiiiiiiiigh* I just wanted to build a rainy night scene for my sims so i can use the cute umbrella poses i found. nope not today or for a long time satan...

[poisonedsimmer]

Thanks to everyone who stopped by the stream to say hey and see how to do things. I hope the video was helpful and I had fun so thank you all and thanks for the questions and the comments! I will now spend a million years in blender posing Neo and H*eiss as a thank you gift to you all. Thanks! <3

[poisonedsimmer]

I hope you have a good day, a lot of strength and encouragement. Remember that after the storm comes the calm.You are a good person so I am sure that you will overcome any difficulty.

There is a reflection that I like and I wanted to tell you:

"Bravely endure difficulties and bad spells, because then you will enjoy the good times. Only those who PERSEVERE find a better tomorrow"

If you publish this message I will not react to it because I do not want you to know who I am. I hope I am not being rude with what I am saying, it is not my intention, but it seems to me that you are a little discouraged for saying it in some way and that I just want to encourage you.

Dear anon,

I know you said you won't respond to this, but I just wanted to say, thank you. You don't know what this message meant to me. I'm struggling to feel like I belong anywhere, to enjoy or even slightly like the things I write, the things I make, the pictures I take, I just don't feel like any of it is any good. Like I don't belong anywhere anymore and I'm sort of tired of just existing.

So really, thank you for this, I'm trying to fight the way my brain tells me nothing I do is interesting or good enough. And yeah look I'm sorry to turn this into a drama fest or anything but I have been and still am incredibly discouraged about literally everything I do so thank you a million for being so sweet. I don't know who you are but I'm crying, in a good way and I appreciate this message more than you could possibly know. 💟

I'm really trying not to feel discouraged about the things I create but it's so hard right now. But I'm trying so again thank you. You're too sweet and I don't deserve you. 💗

[poisonedsimmer-inactive]

I’m working on the look book things, I am I swear! It’s just... I’ve had a super stressful day and I’ve taken about a million pics just for the first one I got and I keep deleting them cause I hate them and I wanna cry. Nothing is going right at the moment so please bear with me. I’m trying I just can’t get anything to look how I want...

[poisonedsimmer-inactive]

Praise meeeeee! I have successfully competed my first sims render! Omfg Ahhhhh!

OK so I suck at angles, and lighting and something weird happened with the hair that is totally not my fault BUT you can't see it in the final render so I'm still pleased even if not actually happy.

But seriously I had a few hiccups but I got there and I know how to do everything now! Thank you @cyansimblr for your wonderful tutorial. It was so easy to follow even while using 2.81 instead of 2.9. You're a life saver! Being able to hear AND see what I needed to do made it so much easier to understand. You're a hero!

I'm gonna go create a hopefully better render now. One that won't take me all day. Lololol I don't think I'll share the first render here it's honestly terrible. But I'm still feeling accomplished hehe