#punin

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Qifrey / Olruggio

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At night I feel the loneliness most of all and the senselessness of petitions and prayers, and sometimes I cry quietly. I think that each of us quietly cries if only once every twenty-four hours; some at night, like me, others, perhaps, during the day. And there is no salvation.

Nikolay Punin (1888-1953), diary entry of 13 December 1941, in “The Diaries of Nikolay Punin: 1904-1953″, translated from Russian by Jennifer Greene Krupala “Ночью я больше всего чувствую одиночество и бессмысленность просьбы или мольбы и иногда тихо плачу. Думаю, каждый тихо плачет хоть раз в сутки; некоторые ночью, как я, другие, может быть, днем. И нет спасения.”

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I can’t tell you anything definite now. I have persevered this year because of your love and my love for you. And I am still holding on because of it. That’s all. The most difficult stage is now.

Nikolay Punin (1888-1953), from a letter to M. Golubeva, 7 September 1950, in “The Unsung Hero of the Russian Avant-Garde: The Life and Times of Nikolay Punin“ by Natalia Murray

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... almost every hour I think of you, speak to you, search for you on the street, and all the while it seems that you are there in the crowd somewhere... I love you, I love you with endless strength, to the very end, without anything left in my heart.

Nikolay Punin (1888-1953), a diary note of 26 September, 1914 (”you” referred to Anna Arens, as the first future wife of Punin) in “The Diaries of Nikolay Punin: 1904-1953 (translated from Russian by Jennifer Greene Krupala)

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My quiet light, I send you kisses.

Nikolay Punin (1888-1953), from a letter to M.A. Golubeva (29 June, 1953) in “The Diaries of Nikolay Punin: 1904-1953 (translated from Russian by Jennifer Greene Krupala) “Свет мой тихий, целую тебя.”

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Oh, you are so endlessly beloved. I listen to you and do not tire, look at you and cannot get enough. Because you are in my life, death frightens me so, and I love the bustle of life because you, my love, are with me.

Nikolay Punin (1888-1953), a diary note of 17 October, 1914 (”you” referred to Anna Arens, as the first future wife of Punin) in “The Diaries of Nikolay Punin: 1904-1953 (translated from Russian by Jennifer Greene Krupala)

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– Nikolay Punin (1888-1953), diary entry of August 2, 1923, in “The Diaries of Nikolay Punin: 1904-1953″, translated from Russian by Jennifer Greene Krupala “Есть любовь - для которой все: и встреча, и руки, и вместе пить чай; расстаться — и она пройдет, а полдня, прожитого не вместе - трудно. Есть другая любовь, для нее пить чай — все равно, что умереть, частые встречи страшны, а разлука желанна.”  

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I have sheltered her and will continue to shelter her until death...

Nikolay Punin (1888-1953), diary entry of January 7, 1923 in “The Diaries of Nikolay Punin: 1904-1953 (translated from Russian by Jennifer Greene Krupala) “Я берег и до смерти стану беречь ее ...”