Aug 24, 2024
I tried to create a stupifd fucking genuinepost and it deleted half my fucking tags. How am I going to remember what I was thinking now
#rcollercoaster#I went through like 4 different trains of thought and like 2 of them got removed#how can i express my thoughts if half my words are missing#it even kept the tags about how i was annoyed at my own run on sentences and punctuation errors in the interest of keeping coherency#(but i erased those tags because i hit a limit). Why does a comma have to create another tag for something that was all one thought!!#i remember it took out my rant about a small vn i wanted to write about a train station you couldn't get out of#and how i decided to scrap that because its root concepts were based off a song I liked#Which was unfortunate because Stationary was a funny title idea and I kinda had a lot of fun drafting dialogue trees#but on the bright side i can incorporate my best ideas from that into the thing i actually wanted to work on#[working title] may be inspired by lobotomy corp and roadside picnic but it's still my own execution of a concept using my own words#even if i haven't figured out the concept myself beyond vague ideas (i think it exceeds my words and i mostly think in monologue)#and i also had that project i wanted to do because it was SUCH A GOOD IDEA and i knew i could execute it flawlessly#but that's not going to happen and i can't really recycle that idea in the same way; it relies on different methods to be effective#a shame but it's time to bury that bridge i've crossed#actually though i've made a lot of progress drafting [working title] tonight#i finally figured out how i want the main characters to ruin each other's lives. god i hope someday i write this#i've never tried to explain the idea of it but i think it's about humanity and trying to reach something you can't understand#funny enough i've mostly polished the “things you can't understand” bit. i was never religious but that means i can create my own gods#the setting is fantastical. however the main characters have to come across as people you're able to see the futures and pasts of#otherwise i'm representing humanity with... I don't know how to phrase it. Cardboard cutouts?#i think i have to rethink the ending though because it was just misery without a purpose. it imparted no message and was a lobcorp rip-off#i think it's my belief that good art is just something that makes you feel emotions. however disappointment is... disappointing#so i'm going to make something that i'm proud of and that means i'm gonna trial-and-error it until something sticks#it won't be roadside picnic ending-tier but i have a lifetime to improve my ideas#i'm really really really normal about storytelling. i'm not incredibly passionate about it and i can definitely be trusted#actually i told myself i was gonna get back into reading since i have a month between jobs but i've spent most my time off in the stew#i havent finished reading muramasa (i fucking hate that visual novel but i'm in too far now; i have to disassemble it completely) either#ask me how much i hate muramasa and i will give you a response that still praises some of its ideas. too bad it's a hypocritical work#i think the contradictory nature of humanity can be explored very well but muramasa completely failed at it.#okay apparently this is where i've ran out of tags again. this was a fun exercise. wifi if you read all this thank you