I’ve been overwhelmingly canonsick lately, and I’d love to hear from the folks I care about again, but I must admit it feels sort of helpless.
Whenever I think to try and look for people, I get hit with the reminder that most people, both in the fandom and in canon, don’t like me. It feels awful. I have such a fondness for all the camp girls. And Arthur, of course. I’d love to see them all again. It’s strange, because I have sources with much smaller fandoms and thus, not as many kinnies. I’ll likely never find those canonmates at all, finding sourcemates is hard enough. But for RDR2, it’s the fact that those I’d love to hear from could all out there right now and not want to hear from me that hurts, I think.
Oh Arthur, if you see this…I replayed our last “date” recently. How I wish it could have gone differently. I wish it didn’t take me so long to learn what happened to you. I wish you were right here with me now. That’s all. I hope you’re well.
And to Abigail…Thank you for sticking up for me. And sympathizing with me. Your kindness means the world to me, it did then and it does now. I sincerely wish you the best, wherever you are.
♡ Mary Linton, RDR2
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