Since I don't have any other space to vent about this I'll post it here.
A few months ago I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia + had to test for some additional stuff. My deteriorating health was a topic of many jokes between me and my grandma for a long time - sharing gel for joint pain, painkillers and so on. Until I couldn't ignore it anymore and went to a rheumatologist. Many tests later she confirmed what she suspected at the beginning - fibromyalgia. I also started walking with a cane to support myself. Now, I don't think that all of my symptoms come from my fibro, but I had to take a break from all the tests and appointments. Might come back to this and make an appointment with a geneticist (I suspect a hypermobility issue).
I feel my mental health deteriorating as well. I realised I'm grieving my youth already and I'm barely 22. I had to take painkillers today just so I could get through cleaning my house. Every time the weather changes I feel it in my head, joints, muscles and back. I'm so tired of being in pain all the time. I'm constantly jealous of things people around me can do, but I can't anymore. It feels absolutely shit and as much as I manage to laugh about being 'crippled' on a daily basis, I'm so scared of my future.
Take care of yourself out there















