Helloo
I have had a cold for like a week now, and I have binged a lot of stuff on youtube. My favorite was definetly Sanders Sides. It made me think about how well I know myself.
I’ve had a hard year, lots of external causes for family drama that then turned internal, resolving in March of 2017, which took two people away from us and now we’re still trying to get back on our feet.
I’ve changed a lot, I’ve developed inferiority issues, and a lot of guilt and self hate, not just for my psyche or my actions but for my body image as well. Nothing drastic and nothing as serious as real life disorder such as Anxiety or Depression, but I’ve lost myself.
I need to figure me out. A friend of mine asked If I had sides and what they were so I’ve come here to put them out for people to see. I don’t know why. I’m kind of scared. But I can’t stop thinking about it, so I’m going to do it so my brain will leave me alone.