Warnings: mdni 18+, sub!dk, dk down bad, pussy drunk, shooting blanks, messy creamy pies, praise, name calling (baby, slut, etc.), begging, dk gets off on you getting off, using dk for your pleasure, overstimulation, milking dry, etc. pwp, maybe I guess breeding kink but eh-
Synopsis: You ride loser!Dk to tears
WC: 1.3K
A/N: I am still hung up on loser!Hoshi, and just had to do a loser!dk when I got requested for a sub!dk
It's messy.
The wet squelches of your pussy echo in the dorm room as you slide down Seokmin's painfully hard cock. Your pussy welcomes the intrusion, slurping your gummy walls to his wide circumference, making the pretty boy underneath you whimper. His brain is melting, thighs shaking, as you sit all the way down to the thick base of his cock. He's never felt something so good. Your pussy renders him into a stuttering mess. "Oh my god, oh my god- s'too much-"
If you had told anyone you planned to ride Dokyeom's cock until he was a shaking mess. They wouldn't believe you. You're so popular around the college campus, in a highly acclaimed sorority, and Seokmin was the president of the drama club. In the hierarchy society seemed adamant to abide by, you were out of Dokyeom's league. And it was one of the many reasons why you liked him so much. He was the sweetest boy you came across one day while looking for a book in the library for your latest assignment.
And you knew, the moment he flashed you a smile that warmed you like the sun, that it would always end up like this.
Your walls squeeze around his shaft, sinfully. And he moans, wrecked and high-pitched, his cock jerking inside you for the nth time. Your gummy walls throb around his large girth, slurping his cock deep inside until Dokyeom’s jaw slacks open in awe. He doesn’t know how many times he’s cum now, filthy globs of his creamy seed stuffing farther into your wet channel, adding to the obscene squelches your pussy makes as you bounce in his lap.
You've been doing this for what feels like hours to Dokyeom. Swirling your hips in such an intoxicating way. Forcing his weeping bulbous tip to smooch your cervix with filthy kisses that made you see stars. You're so warm, so wet, squeezin' him so tightly his eyes gloss over. Pretty tears form on his long eyelashes, and his fingers dig into the bedsheets underneath him.
He whines, broken, hiccuping as the wet ‘plap plap plap’ of your addictive pussy smacks down onto his tender cock visciously. He sniffles, "P-please, shit-slow down - ngh - i’m gonna cum again-” His head tilts back, his eyes rolling to the back of his head as his hips buck up into your drooling cunt. A filthy mixture of your combined cum pools from your puffy folds, coating his cock with the sweet slick until it forms a ring around his thick base.
So messy.
So wet.
And your lips curve into a smug grin, your hand moving up to cup Seokmin’s cheek softly as you swirl his cock inside you. You're grinding slowly and steadily, your thumb wiping away his tears that stream down his blushing cheeks. You pout with fake empathy. “Don’t you wanna cum inside? Paint my pussy white over and over again?” Honestly, he feels too good to stop. His fat cock is stirring your insides so deliciously that you can feel your mouth water.
And when you feel his cock twitch at your words, a whine slipping from his spit-slicked lips, you coo. He looked so pretty when he cried. Looking so fucked out, eyes squeezing shut as you ride him like your personal dildo. Your walls clamp around his length, milking the life outta him, forcing gooey hot sperm out of his weeping tip with each bounce you did on his thick cock.
And Dokyeom is fucked. Obsessed - it hurts so good that he doesn’t know if he can handle what happens if he’s pushed to the edge again. But he’ still blabbering between sniffles. “Yeah, grind on my cock..just like that…please, jus’ like that, jus’ like that!”
He cries out loudly, his arms straining, biceps flexing. His fingers clutched the pillow next to him as his other hand pushed on the headboard above him. The muscles in his thighs tensed, drool slipped past his lips, and he cums again, a raw sob shaking from his chest as you continue to rock up n’ down, up n’ down on his big cock.
He stuffs you full so well, filling you up so thoroughly, the veins that run down his length throb and rub all the sweet spots inside you. You can’t get enough, feeling his cum splurt rope after rope of his seed until it overflows from your pretty cunt. It’s filthy how the mixture of both of your previous orgasms seeps past your soaked folds, smearing on Dokyeom’s pelvis and dripping down to his heavy balls.
And Seokmin doesn’t know if he’s actually breathing; his body shakes under you as you still fuck him filthily. Your pussy slurps greedily on his cock, and more tears fall from Dk’s pretty eyes. “I-I can’t- nothin’-“ he sobs, and you cup his face with both hands as you roll your hips in stomach-clenching swivels. “Nothin’s left, given you ‘verything, no more, no more for you.”
But his body betrays him. His balls are still heavy, and they smack against your plush ass each time you slam down on his cock. He’s still rock hard, and you’re cooing at his cute sniffles. “You say you can’t? But why’re you still hard, Baby?” Your thumbs wipe his tears, your lips pressing into his for a loving but messy kiss. “Such a pretty slut crying while you fill my pussy up over and over.”
Dokyeom’s whine ends in a mewl, his head shaking back and forth, heat crawling up his neck until his ears burn red at the top. He tries to defend himself, his mind glitching with how good you're riding him, literally fucking him dumb. His tongue feels heavy in his mouth, his tears staining his cheeks as the familiar knot in his stomach builds back up, and he can only babble. “Yes, yes, ngh- “
Through blurry vision, Dokyeom’s watches as you lean back, moving your hands from his face to slide over your soft body, sitting still on his twitching cock. His eyes are heart-shaped, burning intensely as you move one hand to your breast, pulling your nipple between your fingers as your other hand moves between your thighs. You rub your puffy clit, deciding to give him some mercy by pausing your delirious bounces to play with yourself.
But it just brings new tears sliding down his cheeks. With his orgasm halting, you make him watch while you play with yourself. Your breathy moans increase in tempo as you rub your clit faster, and the bundle of nerves pulsates against your fingertips as you knead your breasts with your other hand. You don’t have to move to cum on his cock and Dokyeom’s watches in awe as your body tenses up, your jaw slacking as you easily work yourself into an orgasm with a pleased whine.
It ruins him. Something snaps in his mind. And while your pussy convulses around his cock, gushing your sweet, slick juices around his length, he grabs your waist forcefully. Using strength that surprises you, he moves you sloppily up n’ down on his cock. He plants his feet on the bed and pushes his hips up to meet each one of your nasty bounces with a grunt.
His head falls farther into the pillow under him, exposing his pretty throat as he feels his cock swell one more time. “M’gonna cum, m’gonna cum, oh fuck, m'gonna cum!” His balls tighten up, and the gasp he exhales sends goosebumps down your entire body.
He cums with a wrecked sob echoing in the bedroom as he shoots blanks inside you. He had meant it when he said he had given you everything. His overstimulated cock jumps and jerks against your gummy walls and helps you ride your orgasm until you're slumping over Seokmin’s wrung-out body.
“You did so- wait, what’re you doin’?” You yelped when he rolled you both around, so you’re the one now lying on your back. Dokyeom’s eyes are glossed over, his tongue lolled out, drooling as he ruts his hips mindlessly into your pulsing cunt. His cock is oversensitive but still hard, and his mind is complete mush. He can’t stop even if he wanted to; it’s too good. It feels too good. And he grinds meanly into your pretty pussy as he babbles between tears.
“Can’t stop- don’ wanna- isn’t this what you wanted, right? Right?”
You knew loser dick was better.
A/N: As always, comments, kudos, and feedback are greatly appreciated!
Side note: I would like to say nothing is wrong with being in drama club lmao it was just for the little bit of plot hahaha
synopsis... you accidentally text svt a thirst message about them, thinking they were someone else... inspired/directly quoted from things @mylovesstuffs and @eclipsaria said today.
𐙚⋆°。⋆♡ pairing... svt x reader
𐙚⋆°。⋆♡ genre... smau, fluff???, smut??
𐙚⋆°。⋆♡ trigger/content warning... mature/nsfw content - minors dni, a lot of phallic symbols, freaks, jealousy, breeding, mentions of p0rn?, leg spreading, swearing, mingyu's feelings, pls let me know if i missed anything!
𐙚⋆°。⋆♡ please consider liking, commenting, or reblogging!
a/n... literally pumped this out in half an hour because of how inspired i was LMFAO... i did not mean to post this fast again but here we are YAYYY!! please thank yuki and cel for these amazing one liners... i was shocked once, twice, thrice, and then a bijillion times. i tried to make it more pg but it was kinda hard...
genre: situationship to lovers, slight angst, smut (with a bit of plot) MDNI!
warnings: cursing, oc is a bit mean to him in the start but it's ok, soft dom!dk, jealous oc, fingering, oral (f. receiving), mentions of giving head, multiple orgasms, a bit of overstimulation, down bad dk, needy oc, praise, ass smacking, protected sex but oc doesn't want to use a condom initially, hair pulling, mentions of creampie (wrap it before u tap it), doggy style, mention of hair pulling, big dick!dk, he is literally too big, slight strength kink, he is an idiot, dirty talk, lmk if i missed anything!
w.c.: 4.2k
playlist: just "friends"
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Note: aaah this is the first fic i'm writing on here so pls bear with me. if u find any mistakes, pls lmk! this was loosely inspired from the situationship i was in last year, except mine didn't end well unlike oc's. hope u like it n pls give me wtv feedback u feel so that i get better at this! hehe anyways go on
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dokyeomie:3 : are u mad at me???
Your phone buzzes. It's 2 a.m. and your phone buzzes. You know there is only one person whose texts you would receive this time at night. You didn’t want to ignore dokyeom, you really do like him after all. You’ve been in, what you would call- a situationship? You’re not very sure. You met him through you mutual friends during a trip you all went to together. It’s funny how during your first year you never noticed him in campus despite him being in the same year as you, but as soon as you returned from the trip, he was everywhere. It was like a dokyeom plague all around.
Initially, you weren’t interested in him beyond being friends but fuck- how can a guy be this sweet? And this nice? And this hot. You can’t blame a girl for wanting more. When he texted you first right after returning from the trip asking for the pictures you had taken, you knew this was your chance to lock it DOWN. Only a fool would miss a chance to let a guy like him pass by. After that it was nonstop texting. All day. 24/7. Point of no return.
You’d give him random updates of your day, he would call you when he went to Sephora with his sister and ask which lip gloss you wanted to feed your manic lip gloss obsession, he would send you pictures of cats he saw on campus and say “us”, coffee dates, study dates (even though you had different majors), teaching him to play DTI at 3 a.m. while you laughed at him dates, but not an official “date” yet. Not a label beyond “friends” yet.
You wondered how can two people do all this and still be called friends. This is not what friends do, right? Or is it? Fuck- this is ruining you. It didn’t help seeing him get coffee with some other girl from his class while she laughed like he was the funniest guy ever. And like he probably was. But she’s not allowed to laugh. Only you. He does NOT need to be this funny with some other girl when he hasn’t even labelled what you are yet.
Leading you to ghosting him for the past 2 days. And trust, it was truly torture. How do you suddenly stop talking to the person you’ve shared everything about you to for the past 3 months? Everything reminded you of him no matter where you went. This is the most down bad you’ve ever been for a MAN. Your prime man hater era would be ashamed.
dokyeomie:3 : im really worried, im coming over, okay? I’m almost there >.< bringing some ice cream too!!! i know ur not asleep yet so pls let’s just talk okay :)
You hear your bell ring and thank god for the fact your roommate was at her parents’ place this weekend- well, not like anything’s going to happen anyway, what would it matter. He didn’t even give you time to change as you open the door in your short pyjama set, and what do you see but crinkly eyed dokyeom with his heart smile which almost makes you want to forget the hell he’s put you through the past 3 months and just kiss him.
“Hi” he says, coming in and setting the ice cream on the table, “let’s eat now before it melts.”
“I don’t feel like eating right now.” You take the plastic bag from his hands and put it in the freezer.
He steps closer to you, and closer, and closer, until there doesn’t seem to be any distance between you and you feel your surroundings closing in, as he towers over you, his sandalwood musk encapsulating you making your heart race, your breath turning erratic and your cheeks a crimson shade like a blushing bride. It truly is so easy for him.
He tucks your hair behind your ear- “y/n what happened, are you mad at me? Whatever it is you can tell me. Just please, talk to me.”
“I was just busy, it’s really nothing. Anyway, you had that girl from your class to keep you from getting bored.”
“Is that what this is about? I got assigned a project with her so we grabbed coffee to discuss how to go about it, it wasn’t anything more I swear.”
“That’s not it.” You turn your face away and head to the couch. Talking about what you feel has always been harder for you, which is why you’ve never had any proper relationships- only casual no strings attached arrangements or situationships.
“What is it then? Please y/n, you can’t just go radio silent for two days. I was so worried about you, talk to me, okay?” he says as he sits beside you on the couch.
“You never asked me out.” You blurt it out so fast its barely comprehensible to him.
“What?”
“You never asked me out. You flirt with me all the time, we text literally all day, and when we don’t its because we’re together at the coffee shop or the library or whatever. My friends call me an idiot, that you’re just toying with me, until you’re bored with me. You’ve never even defined what we are yet, because we sure as hell aren’t friends. Friends don’t act like this- right dokyeomie?”
You looked up to him, doe eyed on the brink of tears as you felt a lump in your throat, a heaviness on your shoulders. He felt horrible.
How was he supposed to know you liked him? He just thought you were being really friendly with him- just like you would be with anyone else, right? Here he was thinking he was the idiot being so hopelessly obsessed with you. He was literally so down bad for you it was kind of pathetic. Once when you had just started talking to him you mentioned you liked glasses, low and behold, he wore glasses every time you saw him. You can’t find the lip gloss you want anywhere? He’s dragging his poor sister with him to every makeup store in the city, trying to find that goddamn lip gloss that seems to be sold out everywhere. And now he feels like shit for making you think that he would just lead you on and leave you when he’s tired of you or something. Fuck. He’s messed up BIG time. And he does the only thing he can think of to make it up to you, FAST.
He leans into you, one hand gripping your jaw while the other brushes against your waist, his face so close you can feel his breathe as your eyes flicker down to his lips as he wets them. Your breath hitches and he can practically hear his heart racing the speed of a bullet train. And just like that, the next thing you know, his lips are against yours engulfing you in a whirlwind of a kiss. Your hand reaches for his chest as he holds you. He kisses you softly yet so messy and passionate it sweeps you off your feet. As you deepen your kiss, he slips his tongue in and a soft whimper leaves your throat. Impatient to gain control he pushes against you in an attempt for dominance and his quick shift in demeanor has you flooding in your pajama shorts. Good thing you sleep without your panties on.
As your make out session continues to grow more aggressive, you feel him manhandle you over his lap onto his hardening length. Fuck. He feels big, you think as your hips give an experimental grind. He seems impatient as you make out, like he’s trying to make up for the lost time as he tightens his grip on your waist to get you closer to him, and you’re no different- tugging at the collar of his shirt so desperate to be with him.
“I really like you” he whispers between soft open-mouthed kisses. “I really like you I just wasn’t sure you felt the same about me, I’m sorry for making you wait so long baby, let me make it up to you?”
Oh. Your pussy likes the sound of that. It comes out of his mouth in a whisper, as he tries to catch his breath because you might not see it, but he is doing gymnastics to keep up with you and you’re driving him absolutely crazy. Its actually a little unbelievable for him to be making out with the girl he’s been in love with for the past year. He can feel a wet spot forming on his jeans as you leak onto him through your shorts.
“So needy baby, can feel you getting wet just from kissing a bit. You want it that bad?” he chuckles. God, you must look desperate to him but you need him right now because his hands gripping your thighs and yours in his hair drive you insane.
“You made me wait so so long kyeomie, need you, please. Need you to fuck me.” It leaves your throat like a whine making him twitch under you. You don’t care how desperate your pleas sound, because truth be told its all you’ve been picturing for the past 3 months. His hand makes its way to your tits as he cups them from over your thin top. From where he's sitting, you look pathetic and so pliant under his gaze, even though you’re sitting on him. If he knew you were this into him, he would’ve done this much sooner.
“Fuck, don’t worry baby I’ll take good care of you. Lift your arms for me.” He says as he takes off your top and god, he can’t take his eyes off your tits sitting right in front of him. He kisses down your neck and you just smell so fucking good he doesn't want to stop. He recognizes the scent, that vanilla bakery cupcake scent that always lingers on him after you hang out with him, the one he's just so obsessed with. He takes your hardened nipple into his mouth as his hand plays with the other. You moan softly as dokyeom focuses all his attention on your chest. Nibbling and biting and licking, as you keep grinding your hips on him, feeling him getting harder.
“So pretty baby, so pretty just for me.”
“I- I need- need you dokyeom, please? Please I’ll do whatever- whatever you want. Wanna suck you off. Make you feel good. Can I?” you say as you get down on your knees. And oh, it is a sight for him. Something in your eyes changes, he sees them full of lust and desperation, so drunk. This was new for him. Before this, you would always be so shy around him, or anyone for that matter. Never laughing fully at the suggestive jokes your friends made when you all hung out together, just giving a coy smile. Even when you and dokyeom talked, you never reacted to his advances, innocent or suggestive, never reacted to the innuendoes he made, just avoiding eye contact with him. But this new you, he liked her for sure. He would’ve teased you more, but fuck, some other time.
You unbutton his jeans as your hands flutter impatiently and fumble with his zipper, because you quite literally cannot wait a second more.
“Slow down y/n, wait.”
He groans as he lifts his hips to let you lower his jeans. He’s already half hard in his boxers and oh. You have no idea how he’s ever going to fit inside you. You mouth at his boxers and lick at him through them. But he knows, if he lets you do this, he'll come in your mouth in an instant, and he is but a gentleman, and would rather die than to not make you cum first.
“Y/n as much as I would love that, I’ll cum in my pants if you do that, and I’m not gonna let that happen.” He says as he tugs you by your hair to get you up. You pout at him, disappointed he won’t let his dick in your mouth.
“Don’t make that face princess, you can do it next time.” he says as he lifts you in his arms. You gasp as he begins to carry you to your room and throws you on your bed as you rebound on it.
“You like that? Like it when I pick you up and throw you around. I see you staring at my arms all the time baby, don’t think you’re subtle.”
He kisses you again as he pins your hands over your head as makes his way down your body, marking you as he goes along. He reaches you thighs and begins to kiss them softly as he drags his tongue to your tiny shorts and begins to pull them down. And imagine his surprise as he comes face to face with your glistening pretty pussy. He sucks his breath in as he seems to be stuck in a trance.
You’re obsessed with the way his eyes follow your cunt. He looks like a child seeing candy for the first time, and you’re totally here for it. His big hands hold your thighs apart as he lays down between them and looks at your pussy like it has the moon and stars hung in it for him.
“No panties y/n? Fuck didn’t know you were a slut baby, you always act so shy and naïve in front of me, no?” he says as his fingers run against your slit experimentally, circling your entrance teasingly, taking you by surprise causing you to let out a desperate moan.
“I’m- I’m not!” you whine but you sound like even you don’t believe your own words. He’s right after all, isn’t he? You are a slut for him. Why would you be ashamed of it.
“You’re not? Then why are you dripping over all your sheets y/n. Haven’t even done anything yet and you’re trying to hump the air. If you needed me that bad could’ve just asked. Would’ve given you everything. But you wanted to give me the silent treatment. So, I’ll have to punish you baby.”
He smirks as one hand tweaks your nipple while the other dips inside you barely before he pulls it out in an instant. He traces soft patterns on your inner thighs, but every time you buck your hips up, he just moves his hand further away from your center.
“Please kyeomie, touch me.”
“I’m already touching you y/n. You need to be more specific.”
This is torture. You’re literally about to cry.
“In- in me. Your hand- your finger, need it in me.” you say with your face in your hand red with embarrassment.
“No please this time? Where are your manners?”
“Please dokyeom, need your fingers in me!"
Finally, he puts you out of your misery. The finger that was teasing you enters you in one instant. And oh. You are so tight. You feel so full, and its just one finger yet. You don’t know how you’re going to take him in.
“Gripping me like crazy y/n fuck, so fucking tight.”
He slowly moves his hand in and out, curling it and watching it squeeze him, barely fitting him in you. You grip the sheets tightly as he curls his finger and hits your g-spot right where you need it.
“You can barely fit one baby, how are you going to take my cock? Maybe I should just eat you out and make you cum on your fingers and leave it at that.” he says mocking you.
He knows he’s being really cruel, but only because you can take it. Also, you did make him wait so long too, so he deserves to have fun with it.
“No! No, I can take it I- I- promise!”
He chuckles and inserts another finger in, increasing the pace until you’re left gasping for air, a moaning mess. He feels your body tensing up, and leans down to kiss your thighs and whilst driving his fingers in you, making you moan his name over and over again like a prayer. Finally, he presses his thumb against your clit, and makes 8 figures over and over again, agonizing you as the pit in your stomach grows bigger every time you feel his fingers hit your spot.
Suddenly he takes his finger out, making you whine at the loss of contact and your eyes fill with tears because you were just so, so close.
He dives in between your legs licking a long strip up your entrance, the moan you let out is music to his ears, and the way you taste is better than anything he’s ever had. His tongue enters you as he pushes it in and out, and oh the way his nose keeps hitting your clit repeatedly with each motion has you seeing stars. You entangle your hand into his hair pushing yourself into his mouth as he moans.
He makes out with your cunt like a man starved as you feel yourself getting closer and closer. And at this point you have no idea about the words coming out of your mouth, a combination of broken moans and desperate pleas. Your legs are trembling as his big hands hold them apart, tightening his grip on them like he’s chasing his own high because you keep trying to close them with every brush of his nose against your clit.
“Please dokyeom, please I- I’m gonna- oh my god, I need to cum!”
“Yeah? Can feel you clenching baby. It’s okay, you’ve been so good, you can cum.”
And that’s all it takes. You feel the pressure in your stomach building up and the knot finally snaps as he hums against you and you break with a loud cry, your back arching and your hands pulling his hair. A euphoric feeling takes over your body as your legs going numb, and your mind in a hazy state with your eyes going dark, your back covered in sweat and your face so hot. There is only pleasure running throughout you but dokyeom doesn’t stop even as your cum covers his mouth dragging his tongue against your core as you come down from your high, until you’re gasping his name like it’s the only thing you remember.
When he looks up, it’s a sight to see; hair all messy, lips glossy, chin dripping with you and a hunger in his eyes like you’ve never seen before. He comes up and captures you in a kiss so deep you taste yourself on him. You never thought a someone eating you out would be this hot, but dokyeom has a way to keep you guessing.
“You’ve made such a mess baby, and you say you’re not a slut. What will I do with you hmm?”
There is something so demeaning about you being completely bare and vulnerable, withering under him, while he stays clothed. It’s like a fucking power trip for him, makes him feel fully in control of you, and oh does that make him so hard. Now that he’s gotten a taste, he doesn’t think he can stop.
“Take off- take- take it off” you say tugging on the collar of his shirt. Even you have no idea what incomprehensible nonsense is coming out of your mouth at this point, you’re just so drunk on him. He sits up taking off shirt and pants and you keep yourself from moaning out loud when you look at him. He looks so big. Not just beneath his boxers but him entirely, he looks so big. He notices your eyes travelling from his chest to his arms, trying to take it all in at once as if you would never have this chance again.
He finally takes off his boxers and you think you’re in love. His dick looks so pretty, his tip a slightly dark shade of pink curved a bit and veiny, you just don’t know how to explain it. He spits on his hand and pumps it in his hand and now that he’s fully hard, you have no idea how he’s going to fit in you.
“Like what you see baby? But your pussy is so tiny, how’s is going to fit?” he says as he brings his hands to your sides, running his hands all over your body. He pouts but you know he’s talking shit to tease you.
You reach up desperate for a kiss but he just kisses your cheek instead, “please, I need you to fuck me so bad kyeom, I can take it! I promise, just give it to me.”
He chuckles darkly, and this is so embarrassing for you but fuck it, who cares. “You beg so well baby, makes me wanna give you everything you ask for.”
He grabs your waist and turns you on your stomach in an instant, raising your hips to meet his, and smacks your ass hard, making you almost jump in surprise. Him manoeuvring you into being on your arms and knees was honestly such a turn on, but you know if you let him know that, you’ll let go of the tiny piece of dignity that you hopefully have left, so you settle for pushing your ass back into him making him groan.
“Condom baby?”
“In my drawer but no! no condom just, want to feel you.” you beg.
Fuck. You’re going to be the death of him. You were going to let him hit raw? Now he truly regrets not doing this earlier, but you’re not thinking clearly and he can’t take the risk no matter how much you make him want to.
“Sorry princess, but we can’t take the risk, some other time, okay?”
You groan, you hate him actually. Who gives us the opportunity to get in raw, you think to yourself as you hand him the condom.
You hear him slide it on and pump himself, “you’re so wet y/n, I might just slide in.” he says as he taps his dick on your clit making you moan. He runs his tip up and down your slit collecting your wetness, and pushes it in just so he's barely stretching you.
“I’ll take it slow okay, I promise.” He says as he grabs you by your hair and pulls you near him to kiss you on your cheek. His hands find home on your hips as he grabs them tightly, pushing himself in one inch at a time, easing you on, making you almost scream. As he bottoms out, he lets out a moan and so do you, feeling so full of him, because oh my god the stretch is like you've never felt before.
“So warm baby, so soft, cunt gripping me so good it doesn’t want me to leave I think.”
“Fuck dokyeom feel so full, I love it, please move.” You say as you beg him for the hundredth time for the night. And apparently that was all he needed to hear as he begins to drill into you sliding in and out mercilessly, slapping your ass every now and then. He fills you so good because its such a tight fit, and god does he love it. You are now left a mess under him, no thoughts in your head, just a chant leaving your mouth as you scream his name over and over.
“It’s that good baby? Or are you just too cockdrunk to think? Fuck, pussy so good it’s gonna milk the fuck outta me.” He moans as he tries to keep up with the unbelievable pace he’s set. His hand moves down your stomach as he toys with your clit from behind, making you see stars.
“You look so good like this y/n, all spread out for me. Makes me want to remember this forever, you’re gonna let me record this ass next time baby?”
All you can do is nod since you have no energy left in you to respond to him.
“Such a pillow princess, can’t even answer a simple question, need me to do all the work for you, hmm? It’s okay though, you don’t have to do anything, just sit pretty for me and I’ll take care of you.”
His grip on your ass tightens and his hand’s movement at your clit fastens as you feel him approaching his high, his strokes getting deeper yet sloppier and you wish he wasn’t wearing a condom so that he could fill you to the brim. At this point he too, like you- was an incoherent mess, because your pussy just feels like heaven to him, and he doesn’t think he can hold out any longer.
“Fuck! I’m so close dokyeom! I- i- fuck right there! Right there! Wanna cum so bad, can I- can I cum? Please, oh!” you scream with all the strength you have left.
“Ah, me too baby, fuck good girl, always such a good girl, asking for permission. You can cum princess, cum for me.”
And that’s all it takes for you to crash into the bed with a loud moan as your arms give out, your pussy clenching around him as he fills the condom. Your chest heaving and a buzzing sound in your ear, you have no idea of your surroundings as dokyeom continues to twitch inside you, finally taking his dick out after what feels like eternity. You whine at the feeling of emptiness, feeling yourself gape due to the lack of him as he crashes besides you out of breath. You turn your face to him as he softly kisses your forehead and wraps his arms around you.
After you both clean up, you lay on your new clean sheets wrapped around him as he caresses your hair.
“I’m sorry I was an idiot for not making it clear I like you sooner, I’ll take you out on a proper date later this week, okay?”
“mhm okay, but just so you know kyeomie, I don’t put out on first dates.”
synopsis: being married to seokmin feels like proof that love only grows heavier with time. even after several years, he still looks at you like he's stunned you exist. still stumbles over his words when you hold his gaze for too long. still needs you in that ways words will never be enough for.
wc: 5.4k
warnings: 18+, explicit sexual content | oral (f. receiving), fingering, handjob, unprotected sex, dom!reader, sub!seokmin, soft power play, praise kink, begging, teasing & denial, possessive language, light hair-pulling, multiple orgasms | established relationship, marriage, swearing, fluff, aftercare.
authors note: okay so i’m not actually sure how much i like this but i think this is the best it’s gonna get for now lolol. i’m sure you’ve all seen the things that this man has been doing to me lately, and i honestly owe it to ki for suggesting to write him as a sub bc it fits him SO well. as always, i hope you that enjoy, and please feel free to let me know what you think! ♡
the rain has been steady since dinner, a soft percussion against the windows, wrapping the apartment in that muted, honey-colored quiet that only belongs to night. the bedroom is warm, lit by the low glow of the bedside lamp.
your husband, seokmin, is stretched across the bed, back against the headboard, one knee bent as he scrolls idly through his phone.
his hair is still damp from his shower earlier in the evening, curling faintly at the ends. the sleeves of his t-shirt are shoved up, putting his large muscles on display, as his sweats sit low on his hips.
“baby,” he calls without looking up. “you have to see this thing i found—”
the bathroom door opens before he can finish, steam spilling around you as you step into the room. your white designer robe hangs loose, tied in a lazy knot, the collar gaping just enough to reveal skin still flushed from the shower.
he glances up mid-sentence and goes completely still.
his thumb freezes on the screen. his eyes drag over you like he’s trying to convince himself you’re real.
“what?” you ask, smiling because you know this look too well.
the phone slips from his hand into the blankets. he shakes his head, almost dazed. “how are you my wife?”
you laugh as you cross to the bed. “we signed papers, remember? you were there.”
“no, like—” his hand makes a helpless little gesture, his words stuck in his throat. “how do you just walk out looking like that? we’ve been married for years and you still—” he cuts himself off with a grin. “it’s not fair.”
you climb onto the mattress, settling beside him. “you’re ridiculous.”
“and you’re ridiculously beautiful,” he counters as his eyes sweep you again, much slower this time. "it’s actually sort of offensive at this point.”
you shake your head, amused. “all i did was take a shower, minnie.”
“exactly!” he says, leaning towards you. “you shower and somehow come out looking like…like you belong on a magazine cover. meanwhile, i look like—”
“—my husband?” you cut in with a smirk.
he grins, leaning closer until his nose nearly brushes yours. “your very lucky husband.”
you laugh under your breath, reaching up to adjust his messy hair. “you’re so dramatic.”
“obsessed,” he corrects softly, eyes holding yours. “completely, and hopelessly obsessed.”
“mm,” your smile turns teasing. “i’m aware.”
“good,” he murmurs, keeping his voice warm. “just making sure.”
you roll your eyes, though the corner of your mouth still curves in spite of yourself. “you act like you’ve never seen me in a robe before.”
“not this robe,” he says instantly, sitting back just enough to take in the whole picture. “or maybe i have, and just blacked out.”
“you’re the one who bought it,” you remind him, amused by his flustered reaction.
“which only proves my taste is flawless.” he responds, clearly very proud of himself.
you shake your head, shifting to sit cross-legged in front of him. “you were about to show me something on your phone literally two minutes ago.”
he waves it away, eyes fixed on you instead of the phone lying useless beside him. “whatever it was, it’s irrelevant now.”
you smirk. “me, fresh out of the shower, is more interesting?”
his gaze sweeps over you once, slow and unashamed. “you—always. but fresh out of the shower like this?” he makes a small, helpless gesture toward you. “it’s criminal, baby.”
you let him look, your smile curving deeper at the way his eyes cling to you like he’s seeing you for the first time all over again.
you lean in, brushing a light kiss against his mouth. “you’re in a mood tonight.”
“more like a spell,” he murmurs, catching your wrist before you can pull back.
“a spell?” you echo, brows lifting.
“yeah.” his voice dips, playful threaded with sincerity. “the kind where my wife looks so good that i forget how to breathe.”
you laugh under your breath, and he takes advantage of the moment, guiding you into his lap with ease.
his fingers go straight to the knot at your waist, instinct pulling at the belt.
“woah—” you catch his hand. “not so fast.”
he blinks, surprise flickering before that familiar, adoring grin spreads across his face. “why not?”
“because,” you say, letting your thumb trace over his knuckles. “you don’t just get to unwrap me because you feel like it.”
“i always feel like it,” his instant reply has you shaking your head with a small smile.
“exactly,” you murmur, leaning in just enough for your nose to brush his. “and if i let you have your way every time, you’d forget how to work for it.”
his gaze darkens, voice low and edged with promise. “i’d never forget.”
“prove it,” you whisper, releasing his hand but keeping the knot secure.
he eases back for a moment, studying you with that same unwavering intensity he always reserves for moments like this. no frustration, just focus, almost like he’s committing you to his memory even though you’re the only thing that ever crosses his mind to begin with.
“you know i’ll do anything you ask,” he says finally, reverence woven into every syllable.
“i know.” your palm cups his jaw for a fleeting moment before falling away. “that’s what makes it fun.”
his grip on your waist tightens, but he doesn’t touch the knot again. instead, his mouth finds the hollow beneath your ear, leaving slow, deliberate kisses along the line of your throat.
the robe shifts, causing his breath to falter, but before he can take advantage of the slight movement, your fingers curl into his hair, tugging lightly until his eyes lift back to yours.
“mm, easy,” you mumble with a knowing smile. “i’m not convinced yet.”
“not convinced?” he echoes, like the words are a personal offense. “i’ve been obsessed with you for years, and you’re not convinced?”
you tilt your head, feigning thought. “flattery’s sweet, minnie, but too it's simple. you’ll have to get creative.”
his lips twitch like he wants to laugh, but the hunger in his eyes drowns it out. “creative, huh?”
you shift against his lap, the movement subtle but enough to draw a sharp breath from him. “make me believe you deserve to untie it.”
his hands slide to the back of your thighs, coaxing you closer until the knot presses against his chest. his mouth trails along your jaw, lingering before he finds the spot just above your pulse, sucking lightly until your breath hitches.
“you could just let me,” he mutters, his voice a low plea. “i’d worship you all night.”
a quiet laugh escapes you as your nails drag down his arm, the muscle flexing beneath your touch. “i’m sure you would. but where’s the fun in that?”
he groans, caught between frustration and want, cupping your ass to press you harder against the obvious strain beneath his sweats.
his mouth returns to your throat, rougher this time, teeth grazing your skin until you gasp.
“mm,” you warn, still smiling. “you’re getting greedy.”
“i’ve been greedy since you walked in,” he breathes. “since the day i met you.”
your grip in his hair tightens, tilting his head back so he has no choice but to meet your eyes. “prove it.”
he moves without hesitation, one hand anchoring you in place while the other slides beneath your robe, dragging his palm up your thigh inch by inch until you shiver under his touch.
his fingers trace higher, lingering just shy of where you need them most, but he doesn’t rush. he holds your gaze, lips parted like he’s waiting for permission that he already knows you’ll give.
“you’re shaking,” he murmurs, the back of his knuckles brushing the inside of your thigh. “and you want to tell me i haven’t earned it?”
your laugh is soft, caught somewhere between amusement and need. "i didn’t say that. i just like watching you work for it.”
his jaw flexes, but his mouth softens into something almost boyish. “you just like teasing me.”
“i love teasing you,” you correct, tugging lightly at his hair until he groans. “especially when you've got that look—like you’d do anything i say.”
“i would,” he replies instantly. “you know i would.”
“say it properly,” your tone dips, quiet but still commanding.
his eyes never leave yours. “i’ll do anything for you. anything you want. always.”
your smile is equal parts tender and cruel. “i know, baby. that’s why i married you.”
his fingers drift even higher, his fingertips circling lazily, as if he has all the time in the world to remind you he knows every inch of you.
but he doesn’t push them inside of you. not yet. he just watches your face, hungry, waiting for that moment when your control starts to waver.
“you’re already so wet for me,” he says softly, like it’s still something that surprises him.
you hum, your nails grazing along his shoulders as your hips roll against his hand. “maybe i just like watching how desperate you get.”
his eyes flutter shut when you grind harder, but he forces them open again, staring at you like you’re all that exists. “i’m desperate for you all the time.”
“i know,” your fingers thread through his hair again. “and i love when you beg without even realizing you are.”
his laugh comes out shaky, but it’s cut short when you grind against him. “please,” he breathes, the plea spilling out from his lips before he can stop it.
the sound of his desperation makes you ache. “please what, baby?”
his jaw tightens, but his body leans into your hand, need written all over him. “please let me—please let me make you come.”
you tilt his chin up with your hand, forcing his gaze to lock onto yours again. your chest tightens at the sight; how badly he wants to give, and how much he’s holding back right now.
“go ahead, handsome,” you whisper. “do it.”
the noise that leaves him is half relief, half hunger. his hand finally shifts with intent, sliding lower, his fingers sinking into the heat he’s been taunting.
he groans against your collarbone the second he feels you open for him.
“fuck—” his voice breaks as he eases a finger inside, his other hand gripping your hip to keep you steady. “you’re perfect. always so perfect for me.”
your hips rock instinctively, pulling him in deeper. your head tips back, a soft sound spilling from your lips, and he watches you like a man starved.
“yeah? that’s it,” he murmurs, curling his fingers just right, while his thumb drags slow circles over your clit. “ride my hand, pretty girl. let me feel how bad you need it.”
you moan at his words, clenching around his fingers when he slips a second one in. he swallows hard, eyes flicking up to your face, dark with need.
“god, you’re gonna ruin me,” he whispers, breathless, his pace quickening as you grind down against him. “look at you—already trembling.”
your laugh comes out broken, tangled with a whimper. “mm, and you’re already a mess just watching.”
“i can’t help it—fuck, you’re so gorgeous when you’re on top of me like this.” he says, knowing the praise will bring you closer to your high.
your hips grind down harder, chasing the pressure that won’t quite break. frustrated, you catch his wrist and guide him deeper, a breathless moan spilling out when he obeys instantly.
“that’s it,” you whisper, eyes on his. “good boy. just let me use you.”
his jaw slackens at the sudden praise, his pupils blown wide. “fuck…” he groans, clutching your hip like he’s drowning.
you rock down onto his hand with more intent, every curl of his fingers hitting just right. his own sounds come out wrecked and strangled, like he’s the one unraveling instead of you.
“you’re being so good for me, minnie,” you mumble, dragging his soaked fingers deeper with every roll of your hips. “you love when i ride you like this, don’t you?”
“yes—god, yes,” he chokes out, forehead pressed to your chest, voice breaking “you feel incredible—you always do, baby.”
your head falls back, a cry tearing loose as the pressure quickly builds. “look at me,” you command, forcing his dazed eyes to stay fixed on yours. “don’t look away. i want you to watch what you do to me.”
the room fills with the wet, relentless sound of you. his thumb circles faster over your clit, and your pulse kicks harder, stuttering beneath his touch.
“that’s it—fuck, just like that,” he gasps, his voice breaking as you grind down, meeting every thrust of his hand with a sharper roll of your hips.
your nails scrape against his shoulders, your whole body trembling in his lap as you ride him, always greedy for more.
“min—” the word cuts off in a strangled cry, and his answering whimper is broken and desperate.
he can barely breathe, watching you unravel in his lap. “oh baby,” he whispers, his lips brushing against your jaw as you continue to fuck yourself on his fingers. “you’re so fucking beautiful.”
your thighs tense, body jerking with every deliberate curl of his fingers. your breath falters, breaking into uneven gasps, your throat too tight for words as his thumb moves even quicker against your clit.
“baby—fuck—” you cry out, causing him to groan, relentless as he works you through your first orgasm of the night.
“come for me,” he murmurs against your skin as his lips ghost the curve of your chest. “let go, pretty girl. i want to feel you fall apart.”
you unravel on his hand, body seizing as you cry out, clutching at him like he’s the only thing keeping you anchored.
he doesn’t let up. his pace stays steady, his fingers relentless, coaxing you through the high until every aftershock ripples out of you.
“that’s it,” he rasps, voice low and wrecked, one arm steadying you as the tremors fade. “there you go, beautiful.”
still catching your breath, you let your fingers slip into his hair, tugging gently as you whisper, “you can take it off now, baby. you’ve earned it.”
he exhales hard, almost as if you’ve given him access to the thing he’s been aching for his entire life.
with trembling focus, he works the knot loose. your robe falls open, the silk pooling around you, baring exactly what he already knew would be there.
for a moment, he just stares; jaw slack as his eyes devour you.
“fuck…baby…” he groans, voice raspy. “you’re—” he breaks off, shaking his head, too undone for words.
you smile faintly. “speechless? that’s rare.”
that earns you the softest laugh before he shifts, his hands grabbing your waist as he flips you effortlessly, settling you onto your back.
his lips find your shoulder first, brushing a slow kiss against the curve of it. you can feel his smile there, warm against your skin.
“you’re so beautiful,” he mumbles as his lips trail lower on your body. “every inch of you. you drive me crazy, you know that?”
your breath hitches, but you can’t stop the soft laugh that slips out. “you tell me that every day.”
“because it’s true every day,” he answers without hesitation, his mouth pressing reverently along your collarbone.
each word comes between kisses, like he can’t decide whether to worship you with his voice or his lips. “i’m never gonna stop saying it. never gonna stop needing you.”
you sink into the mattress, warmth spreading through your chest. “god, minnie…”
he hums at the sound of his name on your lips, hands framing your waist as his mouth moves lower, starting at your chest and following a slow path over the soft curve of your stomach.
“i’d do anything for you,” he whispers against your skin, the words torn between a vow and a plea.
your fingers curl into the sheets. “you already do,” you breathe.
“not enough,” he insists, soft but still sure. his lips graze the edge of your hip before trailing along the inside of your thighs; slow kisses that make you shiver. “never enough.”
your body arches towards him instinctively, need spilling out before you can voice it. “please, baby…”
he chuckles as he brushes his mouth just above your pelvis, so close it makes your thoughts splinter. “yes, ma’am,” he says with a smirk, mischief flashing in his tone.
but the teasing is gone as quickly as it came, replaced by sincerity as he kisses just beneath your navel. “i love you. i love you more than anything.”
your fingers twist in the sheets, then slip into his hair, pulling gently when he lingers at your lower stomach.
he presses another slow kiss there, right where you’re aching for him, and the tension in your chest breaks with a sound you can’t contain.
“seokmin,” you breathe, the sound equal parts wanting and warning. your voice falters when he looks up at you; his eyes too soft, too full of devotion.
“i know, baby,” he assures you gently, his smile brushing against your skin. “i know what you need.”
he doesn’t make you wait any longer. his mouth opens against you, warm and wet. the first stroke of his tongue makes your whole body tighten, your head falling back into the pillow.
he sighs like he’s home, like this is where he’s meant to be, the sound reverberating through you.
your hips twitch for more, but his hand steadies your thigh, as if to remind you that he’ll give you everything, and that you just need to be patient.
“oh my god,” you gasp, tugging his hair, your body betraying every ounce of control you try to hold. “you—fuck—you’re insane…”
he moans against you from the sound of your pleasure, his eyes flicking up briefly; filled with nothing but devotion.
“that’s it—my perfect boy. you always know exactly what i need,” the words tumble out of you before you can catch your breath.
his tongue moves deeper, steadier. you feel him responding to your every tremor, only desperate to give you more.
“slow down, baby,” you whisper, and he obeys instantly, pulling back just enough to drag his tongue in long, lazy strokes that make your thighs tremble.
your grip in his hair tightens, guiding him gently. “look at me.”
he lifts his gaze, mouth still pressed to you, eyes still burning with admiration.
“god, you’re so beautiful like this,” you breathe, brushing the damp strands of hair from his forehead. “between my thighs, making me lose my mind.”
he whines softly, muffled against you, and the sheer need in the sound makes you pulse.
“don’t stop,” you whisper, your voice breaking. “please, baby, don’t stop.”
he clings tighter to your body, his tongue working in perfect rhythm, deliberate and unrelenting.
“yes,” you moan, hips rolling against his mouth. “yes, just like that. you’re perfect, minnie. so fucking perfect.”
he pulls back only once, lips wet, breath ragged. “i love this,” he admits, his voice hoarse, almost shy. “i love you like this.”
your chest tightens at the raw honesty in his voice, the way he says it like it’s the simplest truth he knows.
seokmin was never one to be shy about letting his feelings for you spill out into the open. he always loved you loudly, earnestly, and with a steadiness that made it impossible for anyone to doubt.
“and i love you for it,” you breathe, voice trembling before it steadies into something needier. “now finish what you started.”
he groans at the command, diving back in with renewed hunger.
your voice fractures into moans and gasps as your thighs tremble around his shoulders. “don’t stop—oh my fucking god, don’t stop—”
he wouldn’t dream of it. he stays with you through every wave, coaxing you gently until you’re trembling and crying his name into the dark.
when it finally subsides, you sink into the sheets, breathless and undone. he soothes you with soft kisses, reverent and unhurried, like he’s worshipping the aftermath as much as the act itself.
“come here,” you breathe at last, tugging him up with the little strength you have left.
his lips are swollen, his jaw glistening faintly, and his eyes hold nothing but love as he hovers above you.
you cup his face, smiling through the haze. “you did so well for me, baby.”
his answering smile is shaky, almost boyish. “i could stay there forever.”
“i know,” you whisper, pressing your mouth to his, tasting yourself on his lips. “that’s why i’ll never let you go.”
his breathing is ragged against your mouth, chest pressing into yours. his hips push down, restless, aching. you feel the hard length of him straining through his sweats, desperate for relief.
your hand slips between you, wrapping your fingers around him through the fabric. he shudders at your touch, forehead dropping to your shoulder like his body can’t hold him up anymore.
“baby,” he groans, his voice breaking.
you kiss his jaw, slow and deliberate, stroking him just enough to keep him on edge. “you want me to take care of you now?”
he nods against your neck, a whimper spilling out. “please. i need you.”
your smile softens, tender even as you keep him trembling. “let me make you feel good, baby. you’ve earned it.”
in seconds, his pants and boxers are thrown to the floor, his whole body quivering as your hand finally closes around his aching shaft. you stroke him slowly, your thumb circling his slick head until a ragged gasp tears from his throat.
“fuck,” he chokes, hips jerking into your hand.
you press your lips to his temple. “relax, minnie. let me take care of you.”
he nods frantically, but his body betrays him, straining for more. you wrap your legs around his waist, pulling him close so the length of him slides between your folds.
his breath hitches, head snapping up to meet your eyes.
“you feel that?” you whisper, moving your hips just enough to drive him mad. “you’re so hard for me, baby. so perfect.”
“fuck—don’t tease,” he begs, the words breaking as his voice gives out.
you guide him slowly until his tip nudges against your entrance. he inhales sharply, and you hold his gaze, pressing your body into his just enough to make him whine for more.
your free hand cups his jaw, thumb brushing along his skin as the other hand strokes him again, unhurried and cruel in the sweetest way.
“look at you,” you whisper fondly. “you’re already falling apart for me and i’ve barely even touched you, baby”
he moans your name, hips jerking helplessly into your hand. his forehead drops against your shoulder in defeat, damp hair clinging to your skin as his breath breaks unevenly against your collarbone.
every whimper vibrates through your chest, muffled into your neck.
“baby,” he rasps, the sound cracked and desperate.
you tighten your grip, twisting your wrist just right and causing his whole body to tense up. “you like that, don’t you? the way i touch you?”
his head tilts slightly, lips dragging across your skin like he can’t help himself. “yes—god, yes. only you. always you.”
your chest tightens at the sincerity in his voice; a reminder that years of marriage haven’t dulled the way he unravels under your hands.
you slow your strokes, watching his brows knit and his mouth fall open, helpless against your touch.
“you sound so pretty when you beg, minnie,” you whisper as your lips brush against his cheek. “say it again.”
he tries to hold it in, but his voice fractures. “please. i need you—need to feel you. i can’t—fuck—i need to feel you.”
you reward him with a slow drag of his cock against your slick folds; still not inside, but just enough to make his whole body jolt like he’s been shocked.
“you’ve never changed,” you breathe, stroking his hair back until his eyes meet yours. “years later, and you still fall apart the second i touch you. still all mine.”
“always…god—always yours. i couldn’t belong to anyone else if i tried,” his voice fractures when he finally gets it out, every word dragged from his chest.
you drag him against you again, slow and cruel, and his hips snap helplessly. “say it again.”
his breath stutters, the words catching in his throat before they break free. “you…fuck—yours. i’m yours. always…only you.”
your smile softens at his words, but you keep him there, balanced on the edge, his body trembling with restraint.
“i need you. please—don’t make me wait anymore.” his words spill out, stripped and honest.
his plea hangs heavy in the air, raw and trembling, until you finally relent. you guide him inside slowly, inch by inch, your grip now firm on his biceps as his body eases into yours.
his moan breaks in your ear. “god—” his forehead presses to yours. “fuck, baby, you feel—”
you swallow his words with a kiss, wrapping your legs tight around his waist to lock him in place, deep inside of you. his hips twitch, desperate to move, but you flatten your palm against his chest and hold him still.
“please,” he whispers into your mouth, voice splintering. “i’ll lose my mind if you don’t let me move.”
your lips brush the shell of his ear. “beg for it.”
his breath hitches, broken against your throat. “i am begging,” he chokes as his hands grip onto the sheets. “baby, i’m fucking begging you. let me move. let me make you feel good. please.”
you can already feel the tension winding tight inside of him, his thighs shaking as he forces himself to stay still.
“please, baby. please let me fuck you,” he breathes as his hands slide up your sides. “i can’t—i can’t hold it when you’re like this. you’re killing me.”
when your eyes lift to his, he looks wrecked — pupils blown, lips parted like the next breath might break him.
“okay,” you whisper, pressing a gentle kiss to him as the word settles deep between the two of you. “you can move, baby.”
he doesn’t hesitate after that. he eases back just far enough to make you ache, then thrusts forward hard, a low groan spilling from his chest; half prayer, half hunger.
you cling to him as he finds his rhythm, deliberate and heavy with years of knowing exactly how to undo you.
“fuck,” he groans into your shoulder, his teeth grazing agaisnt your skin. “you were made for me.”
your nails drag down his back, pulling a broken sound from his throat before his mouth crashes back onto yours, messy and consuming.
“fuck, minnie,” you gasp against his lips, the words trembling out. “just like that—give it to me.”
his weight sinks into you, pressing you deep into the mattress, his chest hot and unrelenting against yours.
“oh my god, baby…” his voice comes out wrecked. “you’re perfect. you’re everything.”
you scratch lightly down his spine, just enough to make his body jerk. “don't hold back,” you murmur, voice quiet but commanding. “i want all of you.”
“fuck—take it. it’s yours. all yours,” his chest heaves as the words tumble out rough, almost like they’re pulled straight from his lungs.
you frame his face in your hands as your thumbs stroke his cheekbones. "let me watch you fall apart for me, baby."
he obeys, doing his best to keep his eyes locked on yours, but it doesn't last long. the moment your body clenches around him, he breaks it.
“fuck, baby…i can’t—” his forehead falls to yours, his voice fracturing with the pleasure of it.
“don’t fight it, pretty boy.” you whisper, locking your legs tighter around his waist. “let go with me.”
his rhythm falters, breath shattering. “baby…oh god—fuck—” he chokes, his voice unraveling as he drives deeper.
“oh—oh my god, right there,” you moan against his mouth, pulling him closer.
your body breaks first, a sharp cry ripping from your throat as you clench around him, pleasure tearing through you in jagged shocks.
the sound wrecks him. he follows instantly, hips slamming into you as a loud moan tears out of him, everything in him giving way all at once.
the release leaves you both unsteady, your breaths stuttering as the intensity slowly ebbs. he collapses into your chest right away, his body still lightly trembling, all warmth and weight as you wrap your arms around him.
you hold him there, one hand stroking gently through his damp hair, the other pressed firm against his back to keep him close.
he doesn’t lift his head or try to move away; he just gives in completely, falling into you with a quiet shudder, like his body hasn’t quite caught up to the world yet.
the room hums with silence, broken only by your uneven breaths and the loud beats from both of your hearts.
“jesus…” you breathe, a weak laugh slipping out with it. “you’re gonna kill me one of these nights.”
he huffs against your collarbone. “worth it,” he mutters, voice cracked and hoarse. “you’re always worth it.”
you smile faintly, closing your eyes, still stroking his hair. “you’re a mess.”
“your mess,” he retorts, almost slurring it as his lips brush lazily against your skin.
after a long moment, he finally lifts his head from your chest, pressing a slow, lingering kiss to your temple before carefully sliding out of bed.
you sink deeper into the mattress, heavy and spent, watching him through half-lidded eyes as he leaves the room.
you don’t need to ask where he’s going; aftercare was never something seokmin left to chance. he always insists on taking care of you himself, like loving you properly afterwards is simply part of loving you at all.
when he comes back into the room, there’s a warm cloth in his hand. he settles between your knees again, his movements careful and unhurried. “lift up a little for me, beautiful.”
you do, pliant beneath his touch, and he cleans you with steady, practiced hands. every pass is slow and thoughtful, never rushed; tender in a way that makes your chest ache.
it doesn’t feel like routine.
it feels like care. like reverence. like the steady reassurance of knowing you’re safe with him, the way you always have been.
“you always take such good care of me,” your lips curve faintly, the words coming out fragile but certain.
he glances up, eyes soft despite the exhaustion written all over his face. “of course i do,” he says, as though there’s no other truth in the world.
when he’s finished, he picks your robe up from the floor and holds it out to you. you sit up a little so he can help, arms sliding into the sleeves without either of you having to say a word.
he gently pulls it around your shoulders, his hands lingering just long enough to make sure it’s settled before moving down toward your waist.
his fingers work the belt into a loose knot before he finally leans back with a tired smile. “best thing i ever bought you.”
you let out a weak laugh. "not the ring? not the house?"
his smile deepens, somehow still boyish even through the exhaustion. "nope. the robe wins. nothing else even comes close."
instead of calmly climbing back into the bed, he drops face-first onto the mattress beside you with a dramatic groan, one arm hanging off the edge.
your laugh bubbles out of you before you can stop it. it's the kind of laugh he always manages to pull from you, no matter what mood you’re in.
he turns his head at the sound, just enough to brush a lazy kiss against your arm before melting into the sheets again.
“i'm so tired,” he mumbles into the cotton, voice muffled.
“big baby,” you tease, rolling onto your side to face him. your fingers trail slowly down his back, light and soothing, and he exhales hard, his shoulders quickly loosening under your touch.
“mm, don’t stop,” he mutters, already halfway gone. “this is heaven.”
your smile widens against the pillow. "thought i was your heaven."
he cracks one eye open, a tired smirk tugging at his lips. "you are. this is just...the proof."
lee seokmin x gn!reader, fluff, established relationship, suggestive, idol!au, touch-starved losers
SYNOPSIS : seokmin’s world tour ends and you go on vacation with him for your anniversary. from showers to midnights laying in bed together, summer gets hotter every time you’re near bare skin and affection.
WORD COUNT : 1.7k words
WARNINGS : not proofread, shirtless seokmin, nudity, skin-to-skin contact, they can’t take their hands off each other, kissing, description of sweat
NOTES : i had a dream…and the dream was this, imagine hugging shirtless dk, it’s sooo scandalous!! it’s almost summer time, so i hope this is a fun read! let me know what you guys think <33
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Taking a break after being on a long tour singing around the world, Lee Seokmin decided to book both of you a flight to a famous beach where the skies always leave a set vibrant hues of pink and purple, and grains of sand never leave your skin.
Spending even just a few days with you is something he wants to make exciting. He made sure that no one would know where you two would be going, except, of course, some staff that he needed to tell, along the lines of, “Some alone time with my partner for our anniversary, and maybe to cool off.”
Eventually, word spread as his close friends eyed him up and down before cooing that, “Something is gonna change when you two get back to Korea.” Of course, he tries to debunk those ideas that now began running through his head, trying to attempt to ignore those playful looks on their faces as they began to poke him around.
“Take photos, maybe look for nice stuff near the shore? I want to see you collect seashells.” Some people thought differently as to how you two would spend your vacation together. Seokmin’s mother was one of those people; her voice bloomed roses as he called her up to let her know where he was going to take you.
“I will, I will.” His smile is evident when he looks up to you, packing your stuff in a suitcase. He notices your swimwear, the one that was placed on top of your nice top that was on theme with the one he had already set in his suitcase.
“Do you want me to bring you a souvenir?” Seokmin asked his mother, suddenly getting up and giving you the phone, you look at him, confused as to what he was doing, “They could buy you something, they know which ones are the best.”
“Hey! You’re the one who’s supposed to give something to your own parent.” When you hear the laughter that erupted from the speaker on his phone, you couldn’t help but smile awkwardly. You quietly take the phone as you have a conversation about souvenirs with Seokmin’s mother.
When you two landed, the first thing he felt was the temperature difference, as if there was a heatwave that slammed on his face even when it was already dark. Cold nights seem not to have existed in the area.
The two of you couldn't take the time to look around at how coastal towns spend their nights, as you found yourself jet lagged and sweating already, plopping onto the bed with your boyfriend. Did you two bother to unpack? No, this is part of the healing moments.
But not without prepping yourself for bed. You look at the time, it was already midnight, and Seokmin turns to look at you, propping his arm to support his head.
“Do you want to change?” He asked you, the hem of your top slowly being lifted as the dampness of your sweat just didn’t want to let go of it. Seokmin was getting eager.
You shake your head, you didn’t want to stick into fresh clothes.
“Shower first?”
You only hummed in response, not wanting to move at all, yet Seokmin dragged you into the bathroom to take a shower with him, the new soaps that you two had bought for this occasion finally being put to the test.
The feeling of his hands is gentle, and the look of joy on Seokmin’s face as you clean his face. There were still soap suds to the point of covering his whole face, but you wanted to kiss him at that moment as he washed your hair carefully, just the way you like it.
Seokmin liked how much you did everything you could to hug him, even in the shower as the two of you let the water run on your skin, falling on your back as the bathroom began to smell of sweet florals and his natural scent.
Shaaa…
And as you wrap up with your arms around the still-warm Seokmin in bed. Your face breathed onto his bare neck, not wanting to kiss away the lotion and many other skincare products that touched his face.
Seokmin had the smell of the fancy bar soap sticking in his skin and jasmine, and you wanted to wrap yourself around the smell of his favorite detergent scent that lingered on his clothes. You leave kisses on his neck.
You didn’t think mornings would be this soft, the white bed and dark blue covers, you always find Seokmin on the same side as you, not wanting to leave your side; it’s something you’re still getting used to.
Even when you two started dating, work had always found time to take him further and further away from you, with more promotions leading to more frequent video calls. Honestly, there were moments when he was on the other side, and you stayed up to listen to him rant about his days.
Now that you’re on the same page, it’s nice to wake up next to a still sleeping Seokmin. He was wearing his pajamas, a special pair, as he matched yours. Similar patterns of puzzle pieces.
The window that Seokmin left open for the cold air to enter blows the curtains gently as the cool morning breeze hits your face.
“Do you mind closing the window?” Seokmin suddenly said, turning away from the breeze, moving himself closer to you as he wraps an arm around you.
“You’re closer to the window,” you say, pushing him away as you turn your back on him. Of course, the “cold shoulder” never worked on Seokmin, with how quickly he immediately tackled you. Fluttering your face with kisses and marks of affection.
“Come on, you gotta close the window…”
“Seokmin, you’re so close you just need a finger—mmph!” You were interrupted with a warm kiss on Seokmin's lips. You sometimes forget how his lips always find their way to yours.
Seokmin loved summer and how it brought him every moment to be closer to you.
He remembers how you two first met. By the beach, you struck up a conversation with him, and he was ready to dive deep into the ocean for you.
He really was, his lips leaving pecks on your shoulder as you look at yourself in the mirror before getting ready to leave. He always loved how you wore sleeveless tops just for him.
Seokmin’s hat was snug around your head, pulling it up so that you could see his face. You instantly pulled it further away as you got a good look at him, even when the sun blazed through your face.
And just like the waves that hit the soles of your feet, the sun shines on Seokmin’s face just right. And you are absolutely floored.
“You’re not wearing the top?”
Of course, he wasn’t. It was the perfect weather for a good tan, though Seokmin looks at you confused when you ask him, holding out the shirt, he tilts his head.
“No, you don’t need to put it back on,” you say nothing else as you take the shirt away from him, the material felt loose when you put it over your shoulder.
It’s not like you haven’t seen him without his shirt on; you literally showered with him yesterday. Yet, seeing him smile at you, the more you realize the most unforgettable thing about him.
There was always a way he looked at you.
As you look at his empty hand, before grabbing it, the way it felt different compared to yours, and how you had always seen it through hand gestures in his dances, or the way he used the microphone. Feeling it holding on, you look back at Seokmin, who just so happened to be already looking at you.
“Wanna swim?” Seokmin asked, wearing his usual stupid grin, and with that usual smile, gave you a quiet kiss on the cheek.
Your body felt warm, but you knew it wasn’t because of the sun. Grabbing a palm full of the ocean, you splash it on Seokmin as he immediately lets go of your hand.
“You did not just—” You didn’t let him finish speaking as you splash him another one, really getting it into his face.
You immediately made a run for it, “You can’t get me!”
Seokmin wasn’t ready to lose by a measly splash of water. Trying to find ground, his feet sunk onto the sand before he sprinted to get to you. It wasn’t long before you could hear his loud voice yelling for you to get back.
You decide to make a turn in another direction, but Seokmin was just a little faster than you. Picking up speed, he corners you near the waves of the ocean. You were much closer to your doom than ever
Splash! Splash! Splash!
You’re downright soaked, even more than whatever kind of damage you gave to Seokmin, yet you weren’t ready to lose, still.
You splash more ocean water on Seokmin, spinning your arms like a propeller. Seokmin tries to do the same thing as whatever you did, but you were almost drowning him a little too quickly, moving closer and closer to his figure.
“Okay—please—ugh—stop!” Seokmin cries out through each water, almost hitting his eyes. He puts his hands in a surrender position, turning his back on you and from any other water that was about to come for him.
Seokmin does attempt to turn back, though flinching a bit when he sees you palming a small cup of water.
“I think that’s enough water for today.” You say.
“Yeah. We should probably get back, I’ve got another thing coming.” Seokmin said, grabbing his shirt that was now in your hand and using it as a towel.
“Is it more water?”
Seokmin thought about it. It would be much more fun if it were. But, as you two walk over to where you had placed your blanket, what he unloads from his bag is a small box. And as he hands you the box, he kisses you on the cheek before letting you open it.
“Happy anniversary, Baby.” Seokmin looks at the way you smile, pulling out a stringed necklace, the center of the blue shell shimmered white. You couldn’t let go of him as he hugged you.
Something did happen when you two returned to Korea. Seokmin had an obvious tan and many memories to talk to his friends about.
Other than stories, you wore the necklace and fell in love with Seokmin even more.
NOTES : does this show how much i need lee seokmin ….? because damn i really do
SUMMARY: They said money is the solution, while you naively believed it wasn’t the answer to everything. Yet you found yourself in despair as your father’s fate fell in the hands of the town’s so-called “impartial” judge. You begged him to see reason, swearing your father was innocent. But there was another deception lurking beneath the surface.
WARNINGS: mature themes content (strictly MDNI), strong language, power imbalance, bribery, abuse of authority, manipulation, gaslighting, system corruption, implied stockholm syndrome, unprotected sex, fingering, impregnation kink, biting, skin sucking, dubcon ig?, abuse mention (not reader or jeonghan, just for the case), psychological disturbance, rough sex, heated kiss, pregnancy (mentioned), violence & death (major character death).
WC: 22k
add tags❦: bakery owner! reader, jeonghan is a little evil here, detective! seungcheol, seokmin as childhood friends, lawyer! joshua, possibly another love interest(?), widower jeonghan, implied docile reader, beauty n beast reference if you squint slightly, grief, ambiguous ending(?), morally grey characters, inaccurate legal system, wouldn't call this dark romance cuz this is so fucked up lmao
A/N: wow, the number of people who liked the preview was amazing. yall nasty fr, anyway happy reading (or not). disclaimer: fictionalized and inaccurate legal procedures for narrative purposes.
The smell of freshly baked goods filled the bakery. The lingering scent tingled your nose, though you were already used to it.
It had been almost four years since you began managing the bakery on your own. After your grandmother passed away, you reopened it yourself. You hadn’t planned to continue your higher education at the time, especially when your father had fallen ill, only recently recovering.
You greeted your regular customers as usual, the place busy from morning until noon. You were grateful that the bakery’s success repaid every sacrifice you had left behind. Even though becoming a lawyer had once been your greatest dream. Helping people, fighting for justice, but seeing customers happily buying your goods and complimenting them each day made you feel like the happiest person alive.
Still, deep inside, you were just a girl who once dreamed of becoming a good lawyer—someone who could help others obtain the justice they deserved.
So focused on your work, you didn’t notice Seokmin tailing you like an excited puppy until he startled you from behind.
“Goodness, Min,” you sighed, rolling your eyes as you stepped back into the pantry to refill the bread display. “Don’t scare me like that. What brings you here?” you asked without looking up at him.
Seokmin hummed, crossing his arms. “Can’t I stop by to see the lovely Miss Baker?” he chuckled, still following you as you busied yourself. “Say… are you perhaps available this weekend? I mean— I’d love to take you out for a nice dinner.”
When you didn’t respond immediately, too focused on arranging the croissants, he sighed dramatically.
“Okay… I’m sorry, just this once,” he continued, stepping in front of you so you had no choice but to look at him properly. “I know the last time you said you couldn’t, but please give me a chance.”
You softly sighed, patting your hands against your apron as you shook your head. “I’m sorry, Min. I just… I can’t, okay?” you said, moving to the cashier counter to busy yourself with nothing in particular. “I’m already occupied. I don’t know if I can make time for…”
You hesitated to mention the word love or relationship.
Seokmin had been your friend since childhood. Though he was two years younger, you always treated him as an equal. At first, you saw him as a younger brother, maybe you still did, even after he grew into a fine young man. Still, you couldn’t allow yourself to enter a relationship, let alone think of marriage. You had always been content with what you had… especially when you weren’t ready to leave your father’s side.
You had lost count of how many times Seokmin had tried to ask you out. His attraction toward you wasn’t subtle, he had always pined like a lovesick puppy. You, on the other hand, never took his feelings lightly. Even after rejecting him when you were younger, he remained persistent. You appreciated him deeply, as a friend, perhaps even as family, but your bond with him had always remained platonic.
Before you could even answer his many questions, your attention was already stolen by the customer standing in front of you.
Mr. Yoon.
He was one of your regulars. You stated the total, and he handed you the money, which you politely accepted. You weren’t sure when it began, but there had always been something melancholic about him. He usually bought the same thing, the castella cake, or simply a plain pound cake. On rare occasions, when he seemed to be in a particular mood, he would choose the lemon-flavored one. You never questioned it. In fact, you had memorised his preference so well that you made sure it was always restocked, just in case.
You thanked him, offering your usual polite smile as you watched him walk toward the door. You didn’t even realize you had been staring at his figure as it slowly disappeared outside until Seokmin called your name, snapping you out of your thoughts. Blinking, you looked at him. “If you keep startling me like that, you might as well help around here,” you huffed, pretending to count the notes in your hand.
It wasn’t that you were understaffed. But the bakery had been packed all day, with massive pre-orders and constant restocking. You felt a little guilty watching Seungkwan and Chan shuffle back and forth without proper breaks.
You had always greeted your customers cheerfully, even asking about their day with genuine warmth.
The only exception was that man.
Mr. Yoon, the judge of the courthouse in town. Known as one of the most respectable individuals in the district. You first met him years ago when you were still a student. He had been invited to your university for a legal workshop. You remembered admiring him back then. He was articulate, confident, someone who spoke about justice as if it were sacred.
After you dropped out, he became nothing more than a distant memory. Seeing him again years later felt… different.
It wasn’t as though you had any lingering attachment. Still, the unfortunate incident involving his late wife, the arson case the newspapers wrote about had changed him. At least, that was what people said. Perhaps that was why he carried that quiet heaviness around him now.
But it was none of your business.
“Seeing Judge Yoon this close was kind of scary, if I’m honest,” Seokmin said while helping pack the goods. “It feels like a shiver runs down my spine whenever I’m around him.”
You stilled, eyes still fixed on your list, not responding immediately. “Come on, you’re exaggerating. If anything, everyone probably feels that way because of his position.”
Seokmin only grinned, nudging you gently, and you returned a faint smile. “If I were serious like him, would you have accepted me?” he leaned closer, voice playful. “You know… my sex appeal would be more attractive if I used it properly.”
You rolled your eyes, though a small smile lingered as you moved away so he wouldn’t get distracted. “Less talk, more work. I like a hardworking man, Min.”
Chapter 1: The Corrupt Judge and His Sullied Court
People’s gossip was never something that interested you. Sometimes you overheard things here and there, but you rarely paid attention.
Although, you couldn’t deny it unsettled you whenever the subject revolved around Judge Yoon.
It wasn’t surprising for people to talk about scandalous marriages or secret affairs. But this time, the conversation was about something more serious.
“I heard about the recent case, Mrs. Kwon being accused of murdering her own husband?” one of the middle-aged women said suddenly, making you subconsciously listen as you stood with your back facing them. “They said in court she claimed it was self-defense. Apparently, she revealed that her late husband had been abusing her.”
“Oh dear, that’s horrible,” the other woman gasped. “I hope everything goes well… I wonder how she’s feeling now. It would be unfortunate if she fails to prove her innocence. All that fortune from her husband would eventually go back to his family.”
You hadn’t meant to eavesdrop, yet there you were, listening to every word as you gathered the ingredients you had just bought. The conversation eventually died down, and you hurried along, mentally cursing yourself for rejecting Seokmin’s offer to help.
It wasn’t that you thought their discussion was unnecessary.
If anything, it made you uneasy.
When you first heard that Mr. Kwon had died from murder, it genuinely shocked you. He had been one of your regular customers and, if you remembered correctly, an acquaintance of Seokmin’s. You could still vividly recall the bright smile he wore whenever he stood at your counter, proudly bragging about how smoothly his business was running.
Though he was one of the wealthiest men in town, he carried himself with humility, at least, that was how he appeared to you. He had a way of making you feel like you were no less important than he was. So hearing that he had allegedly abused his wife felt almost unbelievable.
You had met Mrs. Kwon a few times at the clothing boutique. She often spent lavishly on glamorous pieces. You were never one to judge someone’s lifestyle, but the news still came as a shock.
Almost too suspicious. Or perhaps you simply shouldn’t have judged a book by its cover.
When you returned to the bakery, it didn’t go unnoticed that your staff were slacking off in the back. You shook your head as you approached them, both far too invested in the newspaper spread across the table.
“Would you like your pay to be cut short?”
Your voice nearly made Seungkwan and Chan jump out of their skin as they scrambled back into position. Seungkwan was the first to break the tension, attempting to smooth things over with a dramatic whistle. “Oh dear, I think I might’ve forgotten how to make pain au chocolat—do you know where the recipe is, Chan?”
“I seriously don’t know, man,” Chan agreed smoothly, wiping an already spotless surface with his rag.
You sighed, shaking your head before picking up the newspaper they had been so absorbed in. Your eyes skimmed over the article.
Ah.
Of course.
A small column near the top mentioned the recent court case. You were certain details like this weren’t meant to be public, yet here it was in ink.
Mrs. Kwon’s case.
According to the article, she had been sentenced only to probation. Which meant the court had acknowledged her claim of self-defense. Meaning… the allegations about her husband’s abuse were true after all. You weren’t sure how to process it. It felt unreal. Yet, in the end, it didn’t matter anymore, Mr. Kwon was already dead.
Still, something inside you twisted uneasily.
Just a week ago, he had been standing at your counter, smiling brightly. You had always assumed he was a kind man. Seeing this revelation in print felt almost impossible to reconcile. Your eyes drifted toward the familiar surname printed beneath the article. The reporter had made it clear that the case was handled under Judge Yoon.
That name always lingered somewhere in your mind, though you could never quite pinpoint why. Perhaps it was simply because you saw him at the bakery so often. Standing near someone of his caliber had always felt surreal. Even meeting prosecutors or judges once in your life carried a certain weight.
The desire to become one of them had already died long ago.
You folded the newspaper and set it aside, returning to your stock work while your staff resumed whispering about the news.
“Man, I can’t believe Mr. Kwon was that kind of person,” Chan murmured as he arranged the trays.
“I know, right?” Seungkwan replied, hands busy shaping pastries. “I never imagined someone we knew could turn out like that. What’s crazier is that I saw his wife shopping at the jewelry boutique the other day like she didn’t have a care in the world. Then boom— murder.”
That was enough.
You cleared your throat deliberately, and their chatter died instantly. There was no use crying over spilled milk now.
──
Your life had always been simple, you preferred it that way.
Though that never stopped people from running their mouths, especially in a neighborhood like yours. They often commented that your life had been “robbed” by your sick father, as if you hadn’t chosen to drop out of your studies to care for him yourself. As if sacrifice had not been your own decision.
After all, he was your only family.
Sure, it had been years since then, yet some still criticized your choice to remain a bakery owner instead of pursuing a “more respectable” profession, especially as a woman in this era.
You had grown used to it.
But you would never allow them to speak badly about your papa. He was everything you had left after your grandmother passed away. That was why you chose to continue the business, pouring everything you had into rebuilding it. And now, seeing familiar faces return each day, watching customers smile at the taste of your pastries, it felt worth it.
The bakery was filled with warmth and sweetness.
At your age, it was only natural for people to question your marital status — a topic you always brushed off with a polite smile. It was rather nosy of them, prying into matters that did not concern them. So what if you chose not to settle down?
It hadn’t gone unnoticed that a few bachelors had shown interest in you, but you politely declined before anything could even begin. Most people found you odd, perhaps they always had. Even when you were younger, you had been too engrossed in books, too eager to learn and discover more.
The only man you allowed close was Seokmin. He was perhaps the only one who never attempted strange advances or crossed lines. Even after being rejected more times than you could count, he continued to respect your boundaries.
When he suddenly entered the bakery, his face looked unusually troubled. Before you could even greet him, he grasped your arms gently, as if steadying you or himself, while carefully choosing his words. He called your name softly.
“Listen to me… I need you to stay calm. Just listen to what I’m about to say.”
You stared at him, confused, searching his expression for any hint of what was coming. Your heart began pounding, a nervous rhythm echoing in your ears.
He wasn’t joking.
“Your father…”
The rest blurred. The moment he uttered the words of arrest, accusation, embezzlement, and everything else drowned in a loud buzzing inside your head. The details slipped past you, lost somewhere between disbelief and fear.
Your papa has been arrested for embezzlement. It didn’t make sense. None of it did.
You didn’t waste a second. There was nothing you wanted more than to see your father immediately.
At the detention centre, where your papa was now being held, the sight of him behind the metal barrier made your heart clench painfully. His face brightened the moment he saw you and Seokmin approaching.
“Papa!” You rushed forward, fingers curling around the bars as if you could reach him through sheer will. Your chest felt unbearably heavy at the sight of him confined like this.
“My dearest… thank God you’re safe,” your father sighed in relief.
Safe?
You were the one falling apart.
“____, you shouldn’t worry about me—”
“Please, Papa,” you interrupted quickly, shaking your head. “This is serious. Of course I need to be involved.” Your brows furrowed. “I’m not a child anymore. You should be worrying about yourself. How did this even happen?”
Your eyes scanned him anxiously. He looked physically fine, healthier than he had been two years ago, but that didn’t stop your mind from spiraling. Stress alone could undo his recovery.
Your father gently placed his palm over yours against the cold barrier, grounding you.
“My dear, take care of yourself,” he said softly. “You mustn’t fret over me. We can hire an attorney…”
His gaze shifted to Seokmin, giving him a meaningful nod just as the officer called for the end of visitation.
“Take care of her for me.” Before you could say another word, your papa was already being led away. The metal door shut with a sound that echoed too loudly in your chest.
“Hey—it’s alright,” Seokmin murmured, gently turning you to face him as you stood frozen. “I’ll help you, okay? I’ll hire an attorney for your father. We’re in this together.”
Your expression softened, though you slowly shook your head, much to his visible disappointment.
“No, Min… I can’t do that to you.” Your voice trembled slightly. “Your family already helped us when Papa was ill. And when I reopened the bakery…”
You couldn’t ask for more. Seokmin’s family had always been better off financially. They had never once made you feel small for it. His parents adored you, yet accepting more help felt dangerously close to indebting yourself.
And you hated feeling indebted.
Seokmin’s hands tightened gently around yours as he called your name. “Please let me help. I want to do this. I mean it.”
You hesitated. In a situation like this, you couldn’t afford an incompetent attorney.
After a long moment, you nodded.
“…Alright.”
──
In the Union States of Sebong, there was a man who directed the courthouse under government administration while quietly collecting profit for himself.
His name was Yoon Jeonghan. In posterity, he would be remembered as the Collector.
No one ever understood how he determined the outcomes of his cases, whether the accused were found guilty or not. It hardly concerned honor. If you had money, you were saved. But even that did not guarantee your life. That decision belonged to corruption itself.
No one dared to question him.
Yoon Jeonghan was regarded as the most respectable man in town. Therefore, once his verdict was spoken, it was final. In the courtroom, Jeonghan liked to believe that every sin committed passed through his hands alone. He decided who was guilty. He decided who was innocent. And if they paid enough to be acquitted, then their crimes would be permitted.
Only cash would do.
Well… at least in hell.
He did not consider himself greedy. After all, wasn’t he helping those in need? In the end, they should all understand that their lives depended on him.If they wanted salvation, they would pay the proper fee.
Jeonghan adjusted his judicial gown as he prepared to enter the courtroom for the next case. The doors opened at his silent command. The room stilled. Prosecutors, attorneys, defendants, and spectators rose to their feet in respect.
He took his seat, face stoic, voice low and neutral.
“Now,” he said calmly, “let the trial begin.”
You tensed in your seat, sitting rigidly on the wooden bench with your fingers clasped tightly in your lap as your father stood before the court. He looked smaller somehow. Not physically, but diminished under the weight of accusation.
What you hadn’t expected was that Judge Yoon would be assigned to your father’s case.
You had to remind yourself that he was not the quiet regular customer who bought castella cake from your counter. Not the man you occasionally admired from afar.
Down here, beneath the towering ceiling of the courtroom, he felt different.
Intimidating. Distant. Powerful.
And you felt very, very small. You had heard the whispers before, that defendants prayed never to fall under Judge Yoon’s trial. They called him ruthless, though the public preferred a more refined word.
Impartial.
He carried that reputation flawlessly.
And yet, despite everything you had heard, you silently prayed that this time. Just this once, the case would favor your father.
You needed his innocence to be proven, and him to come home.
As the trial progressed, your heart remained heavy with distress and unease. Sleep had abandoned you entirely these past few nights. For now, the bakery was left in the capable hands of Seungkwan and Chan while you dedicated yourself to gathering every possible record, financial statements, receipts, testimonies — anything that could support your father’s innocence.
You have done everything.
When the opposing counsel finally rose to speak, your stomach twisted.
You couldn’t help but frown at the confident cadence of his voice, at the certainty dripping from every word he uttered. His client sat beside him, posture relaxed, almost assured as if victory had already been promised.
That unsettled you.
You weren’t supposed to feel doubt.
Not when you knew your father was innocent.
“Your Honour,” the prosecutor began, voice clear and unwavering, “the evidence will show that this was neither a mistake nor a misunderstanding. This was a deliberate, long-term scheme of embezzlement.”
He paced slowly as he spoke. “We will present the paper trail—the bank transfers, the altered receipts, and the final destination of those funds: the defendant’s own pocket.”
A pause.
“At the conclusion of this trial, we will ask this court to hold him accountable for this grave breach of trust.”
The words echoed in the chamber, heavier than they had any right to be.
You felt your fingers tighten against each other in your lap.
Deliberate. Long-term scheme. Embezzlement.
It sounded so certain when spoken aloud.
The defense attorney rose slowly, adjusting his spectacles. “Your Honour,” he began, voice firm but measured, “the prosecution presents a compelling story. Thus, a story is not a conviction.”
A murmur rippled faintly through the gallery.
“The transfers cited required dual authorization. My client did not possess unilateral access to those accounts. Furthermore, the alleged altered receipts were processed through a third-party accountant, one who has yet to be summoned before this court.”
The prosecutor scoffed lightly. “Deflection.”
The defense ignored him.
“My client built that company from the ground up. Twenty-two years of work. If he wished to steal, he would not do so through traceable bank transfers under his own name.”
Your father finally stepped forward.
His voice trembled, not from guilt, but from exhaustion. “I would never steal from my own partners,” he said. “That business fed my family. It fed theirs too. I have nothing to gain from destroying it.”
Your throat tightened.
For the first time since the trial began, the room felt human.
All eyes slowly shifted toward the bench.
Judge Yoon had not moved once. His hands were folded neatly before him. His expression is unreadable.
He studied your father.
Then he spoke. “Mr. ____,” he said evenly, “you claim loyalty.”
“Yes, Your Honour.”
“You claim integrity.”
“Yes.”
“And yet,” Jeonghan continued softly, “the funds did arrive in an account bearing your name.”
Silence.
Your father swallowed. “They were transferred without my knowledge. I reported the discrepancy.”
“After how long?”
A pause. “…Three weeks.”
The courtroom shifted. Jeonghan leaned back slightly. “Three weeks,” he repeated.
The way he said it made it sound like a confession.
Your fingers dug into your palms.
The defense attorney quickly intervened. “Your Honour, my client needed time to verify the irregularities before escalating—”
Judge Yoon raised one hand. The entire courtroom went silent instantly. “I find,” he said calmly, “that the evidence presented thus far establishes sufficient ground to treat the defendant as a potential flight risk.”
The words didn’t register at first. Your head snapped up.
What?
The defense attorney stiffened. “Your Honour?”
“Pending further examination of financial records,” Jeonghan continued, voice cold as winter steel, “the defendant’s bail privileges are hereby revoked.”
The courtroom erupted.
Your heart stopped. “No—!” you nearly rose from your seat.
Your father turned toward you, shock written across his face as two officers approached him.
“Your Honour, this is highly irregular!” the defense protested. “My client has complied with every summons—”
Judge Yoon’s gaze sharpened. “Compliance,” he said quietly, “does not erase capability.”
The room fell into stunned silence again. That was it. That was the ruthlessness people whispered about.
He simply decided. The reality bent.
Jeonghan adjusted his sleeve. “This court will recess for thirty minutes,” he declared. “Proceedings will resume thereafter.”
His gavel struck once. Final and absolute.
As people began to move in frantic confusion, he stood from his seat. For the briefest second, you swore that his eyes met yours, you find his eyes were not apologetic or cruel. Just… assessing. As if he was calculating something. Then he turned and disappeared through the chamber doors, leaving you frozen on the bench.
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The trial continued, though the entire session blurred together in your mind.
Arguments were dismissed one after another. Evidence you were certain was clear enough seemed to crumble under the opposing attorney’s effortless rebuttals. Every time hope rose in your chest, it was quietly struck down.
You kept telling yourself this wasn’t the end. It couldn’t be.
Yet when you finally heard Judge Yoon deliver the verdict, your head snapped up.
“This court has reviewed the exhaustive ledger entries, the third-party forensic audits, and the defense’s claims of ‘procedural irregularities.’ However, the law does not operate on intentions that remain silent for three weeks. It operates on facts.”
Your throat went dry. Your gaze flickered anxiously between your father and Seokmin.
“The facts show a systematic diversion of five hundred and eighty thousand dollars. It shows a breach of fiduciary duty that crippled a twenty-two-year-old institution.”
The judge paused.
The silence in the courtroom felt suffocating.
“Therefore, on the count of Grand Larceny and Embezzlement in the First Degree, this court finds the defendant—”
Your heart pounded violently.
“—GUILTY.”
The word struck the room like a physical weight.
You watched as your father’s expression did not change, but his head lowered slightly. That small movement shattered something inside you. Across the courtroom, the opposing party erupted in quiet satisfaction, their lawyer already gathering his papers with a victorious air. Meanwhile, you sat frozen in your seat, the world around you collapsing into noise and silence all at once.
Judge Yoon had already risen from his chair. The gavel had fallen. The case was closed.
Just like that.
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Your heart pounded violently in your chest as you ran toward the estate gates. Your dress and cardigan clung to your skin, drenched from the rain as you rushed toward Mr. Yoon’s residence begging for the fifth time to plead your papa’s innocence. You had called out to him when he declared your father guilty of embezzling a large sum of money, a crime you were certain he had been framed for. Your papa would never do such a thing. He was the gentlest and the sweetest man you had ever known.
It couldn’t be happening.
Even when you tried to approach the judge as he exited the courtroom, an unease settled deep in your stomach. The case had been decided in a single day. It was unfair. No one listened to you. Evidence was dismissed as if it meant nothing, when it was obvious some high-ranking bastard had set your father up.
It was heartbreaking.
Your papa was the only family you had aside from your bakery. When he fell ill during your studies, you dropped out to care for him. He was your world. And so you continued your grandmother’s bakery, running it just as she once had. Your knees ached from kneeling too long. Your fists rested against them as you bowed your head before the estate gates. The rain poured relentlessly, yet you remained there for nearly two hours, desperate to speak with Mr. Yoon. What had your papa done to deserve this? Was it about money? Of course you didn’t have enough to bribe him.
But why your papa?
The men who framed him were celebrating their victory while your father bore the blame.
You needed answers. You would do anything to prove them wrong.
Your father had only just recovered from his illness. You never wanted him to work again, but he insisted. Maybe you should have tried harder, then none of this would have happened.
The estate doors opened. A housekeeper approached, likely to dismiss you as usual but instead, a pair of polished leather shoes stopped in front of you.
You didn’t dare look up.
Your soaked fists trembled against your knees. You weren’t sure if you had any tears left, or if they had simply blended into the rain.
Then something shielded you from the downpour.
An umbrella.
Mr. Yoon stood above you, one hand holding it over your head, the other tucked neatly inside his robe. He did not look surprised. “Get up,” his familiar voice said calmly.
You slowly lifted your head.
“We’ll discuss this inside.”
You felt awkward changing into the nightgown one of his female employees had handed you. A shawl was draped over your shoulders, a gesture of courtesy from him. Now warmer, you sat quietly with a cup of tea cradled between your palms, staring into the amber liquid absentmindedly.
It was late.
Even if you returned home now, no one would be waiting. Ever since your papa was imprisoned, the house had felt unbearably hollow. The cell must be colder than the rain you endured outside his estate. The food, if they even fed him properly, would be nothing like the warm bread you baked every morning.
God… you just wanted him to be alright.
Your thoughts spiraled into darker possibilities. Prison was never kind. Guilty or not, men often met terrible ends there. So lost in your mind, you didn’t hear Mr. Yoon calls your name more than once. You blinked, startled, quickly mumbling an apology. When you tried to speak, your words got tangled. “Why… the evidence was there. You didn’t even… hear us out. Why?”
Silence settled between you.
He did not look offended nor surprised. “Why?” he repeated smoothly, placing his cup down. “The case was decided. The defendant’s side presented their argument well. Their attorney was… quite persuasive.”
You frowned in disbelief.
Of course. That would be his answer.
“But Mr. Yoon, it was obvious my father had nothing to do with it,” your voice trembled, almost pleading. “He was framed. Used by those—”
He lifted a hand, silencing you effortlessly. “The case is closed. I have no intention of reopening it.”
Before he could rise again, you spoke. “…You took a bribe from them, didn’t you?”
Your eyes didn’t waver.
Something in your gaze despite your soaked, pitiful state caught his attention.
He thought that it’s either you were bold or simply foolish. Either way, he decided to entertain you. “What makes you think that?” His expression remained unreadable.
You swallowed, intimidated by his composure but pressed on. “I heard rumors. I didn’t want to believe them. But I looked into your past cases.” Your voice steadied slightly. “There’s a pattern.”
For a moment, he studied you. Then a slow, faint smile appeared on his face, “So you finally completed your assignment. Impressive. As expected from a law student.”
There’s a pause in between. “Though you are a dropout now.”
Your breath hitched at the sudden revelation. You wanted nothing more than to understand how he had unearthed pieces of your past you thought were long buried.
He began listing your full name. Your birthplace, your former university, your academic standing and last but not least, your withdrawal records. Basically your entire history.
Cold crept up your spine.
You wanted to ask how he knew, but no words came.
“I have my ways,” he said lightly. “This isn’t the first time someone has accused me. And you’ll notice…” He took another sip of tea, responding to your accusations, “I never directly deny it.”
Your stomach twisted at that. So he wasn’t even ashamed.
“Go on,” he gestured lazily. “Threaten me, expose me, harm me. Others have tried but I’m not sure about you.”
But you did none of that. Instead, you only lowered your head. “…Please release my papa. He was wronged.”
He watched you carefully. Most people would’ve shouted at him. Threatened him with a murderer or arson, maybe threw chairs too.
But you only knelt before him at the gate, in front of his estate, looking docile and desperate. Like a little kitten seeking shelter after getting caught in the rain.
He sighed softly, tilting his head slightly. “You want me to help your father?” He leaned back, fingers interlocked over his knee. “Then pay the fee for your life, little bird. Salvation isn’t free, you should already know how it works.”
You stared at him, stunned by how openly he admitted it. He wasn’t even trying to deny it. Those bastards who framed your father must have paid thousands to secure their victory enough to bury your father behind the iron bars. So logically, you would need to offer double that amount.
Obviously, you didn’t have that kind of money.
The bakery barely covered expenses. The staff salaries and maintenance. The lawyer you already hired though you paid more than that. Your family had never been wealthy. Just ordinary people trying to live quietly in town.
Your silence answered him.
Jeonghan observed you for a moment and seemed to understand. He had only presented the option to demonstrate how the world functioned. He already knew you couldn’t afford it.
He rose from his seat, “I thought so.”
When you saw him move to the door, panic surged through you as he walked toward the door. His unreadable face made it clear, he would not consider it unless it benefited him.
“Judge Yoon, wait!”
If he walked out now, everything was over.
Something inside you just snapped. “Please—just this once—I—” Your voice faltered. Then the words tumbled out before you could stop them. “I’ll do anything!”
His steps halted just before reaching the doorknob. Slowly, he turned. “Be careful with those words, birdie,” His voice lowered. “Those words shouldn’t be used so carelessly. They carry weight.”
You didn’t care and didn’t know what else to offer. Pride might as well had no place here. Without hesitation, you knelt again. Hands resting on your thighs, eyes lowered to the floor. At that moment, humiliation and dignity meant nothing.
Only your papa mattered.
“…I mean it, Mr. Yoon,” your voice cracked. “I’ll do anything to prove my papa’s innocence. Just this once. I won’t ask again.”
He stared down at you. Your trembling lips, your clasped hands and the way you refused to look up. Something twisted inside him. It had been a long time since he felt this… entertained. And he loved the sight before him.
Anything huh?
He stepped closer. Then slowly knelt in front of you. His thumb brushed against your cheek, wiping away a tear with deliberate gentleness. “Don’t cry, little bird,” he cooed softly, almost tenderly. “Tears don’t suit you.”
His gaze darkened, there’s a pause in between as he continues. “And kneeling…” His thumb lingered under your chin, tilting your face upward just enough. “Though I must admit, it is rather fitting.”
His lips curved faintly. “Still, I’d prefer you in other positions.”
It made you stiffen slightly, caught off guard by the sudden shift in his tone. Yet you didn’t pull away. You weren’t even sure you were allowed to.
“Now,” he murmured, voice softer, “did you truly mean what you said just now?”
You could have sworn you saw the faintest grin tug at his lips.
You nodded slowly, and his smile widened. Not close to amusement nor pleasant. Something darker, like he had planned something evil behind those eyes. You felt a chill creep up your spine. In that moment, it truly felt as though you had struck a bargain with the devil himself. Maybe you should have thought about this. But what choice did you have when you were already standing at such a disadvantage?
His gaze lingered over you, studying every reaction. Your eyes. The slight tremble in your brows. The way your lips parted unconsciously. He exhaled quietly as his slender fingers traced from your cheek down to your bare neck. The nightgown clung softly against your skin, the very one he had provided after the rain.
You realized then that he had planned this comfort far too smoothly.
“I must say, birdie…” His voice lowered, almost silk-like. “You look rather exquisite in my late wife’s nightgown.”
Your breath faltered. Only then did the realization fully settle in. You were wearing his wife’s clothing. You hadn’t thought much of it earlier, too consumed with desperation to question the wardrobe he kept. But now, standing this close to him, the fact felt intimate in a way that made your stomach twist.
So this was why he owned a woman’s nightgown.
His fingers drifted to the shawl resting on your shoulders, the one he had draped there himself. Slowly, almost thoughtfully, he toyed with the fabric between his fingers.
The same shawl meant to keep you warm. You hadn’t even noticed how close he had moved. His face hovered inches from yours now, his presence overwhelming, his eyes never once breaking contact. You forgot how to breathe. You couldn’t remember the last time you had stood this close to a man, close enough to feel the warmth of him, close enough to sense the quiet control radiating from his stillness.
And he knew it.
“I’m not a good man, as you can see…” His voice lingered, gaze lowering in a way that made your skin prickle. “Perhaps you’ve already realized that, but I can be gentle… if I choose to.”
Your eyes met his grin. It was a smile, yes, but it didn’t reach his eyes. Those held something unhinged. Something close to dark, that made your pulse thunder in your ears. You had never felt fear like this before. People always exaggerated when they spoke about walking into hell. But if anyone ever asked you what it felt like, you would describe this moment.
And this was only the beginning.
You hadn’t even touched the fire yet.
The tip of the iceberg.
Suddenly, he yanked the shawl from your shoulders. You let out a soft gasp, instinctively clutching the thin fabric of the nightgown as though you had been exposed.
“Say it again.” His tone shifted, no longer smooth, but commanding. It was controlled and final. “Did you truly mean what you said?”
His fingers tightened slightly around the discarded shawl. “I would appreciate it if you didn’t make me repeat myself. Just because I said I can be gentle… doesn’t mean I am patient.”
Your lips parted, breath trembling. “Y–yes,” you managed, voice barely steady. “I’ll do anything. Please… save my father.”
You didn’t even realize you had maintained eye contact the entire time.
It felt as though he was pulling the words out of you without touching your mouth at all. Like you were stepping forward willingly, even as every instinct told you to run.
And there he stood. The devil himself.
Your karma. Your judge. Your biggest nightmare.
Yoon Jeonghan was the very definition of a blessing in disguise.
He grinned, almost too satisfied with what you had told him. His fingers lifted your chin, prompting you to look up at him as though he were inspecting you. “Just to make sure… are you being courted, Miss ___?” he asked lightly. “I figured a woman of your age would be married by now. It’s a shame such a lovely lady like you hasn’t.”
Hesitating, you slowly shook your head. “...N-no… I wasn’t… and never…”
You swore you saw the glint in his eyes sharpen. Whatever idea had formed in his mind was not something you were thrilled about.
“Ah,” he hummed. “You’re one of a kind. I honestly thought someone had already taken you off the shelves.” Then he leaned closer, too close for your liking yet you stayed still, not daring to make the wrong move and risk upsetting the man before you. “I’ll need to make sure of something…” he murmured against your ear, the warmth of his breath making you shudder.
Suddenly he dipped his head, his face brushing near your jaw as he nuzzled into the crook of your neck.
A soft gasp slipped past your lips.
His hands wrapped around your waist, pulling you closer, his grip anything but gentle. At that moment, you almost forgot how to breathe as he inhaled your scent.
“M-Mr. Yoon?!” you whispered weakly.
He shushed you at once.
His hold tightened. Your breath hitched as he began trailing soft kisses along your neck. You hated how the closeness made something unfamiliar stir within you.
It started softly. But gradually it became greedy.
He pulled your body flush against his, arms wrapped firmly around your waist as he pressed open-mouthed kisses along the column of your throat. A quiet moan escaped you before you could stop it. Your eyes widened. You had never expected a sound like that to come from yourself. Jeonghan chuckled lowly at your reaction, continuing to scatter hot kisses along your neck before moving down to your collarbone. His fingers tugged slightly at the shoulder of the nightgown, pulling the sleeve lower.
He grew rougher with each passing second, as if he wanted to devour you whole. You bit your lip, struggling to keep any more sounds from escaping. After a while, he finally pulled back, studying the marks he had left behind like an artist admiring his work.
You felt flushed—hot, exposed, and strangely dazed.
A sly smile curved on his lips as he leaned close again, your noses brushing. “If I had known you were like this,” he murmured softly, “I would have swept you away right there from the bakery.”
You blinked, sharply inhaling at his words.
Seeing this side of Yoon Jeonghan awakened a dangerous thought in the back of your mind. You had stepped into territory far more dangerous than you ever imagined.
Chapter 2: The Doting Father and His Daughter
That night, you ended up sleeping at Yoon’s estate with one eye open the entire time. When you finally returned to the bakery the next morning, you were greeted by a cluster of worried faces, including Seokmin’s. It seemed your sudden disappearance had sent everyone into a panic, searching for you like anxious hens.
You only brushed it off with a small smile. You could never tell them you had been at Yoon’s estate.
“Um, actually… there’s a gentleman looking for you,” Chan spoke up, causing you to frown in confusion.
Curious, you stepped out to meet him. A man stood there in a neatly pressed suit, offering you a gentle smile. He looked calm and warm—almost the complete opposite of Jeonghan.
“You must be Miss ___,” he said, extending a hand.
You hesitated for a moment before accepting it. Instead of a firm handshake, he simply held your knuckles lightly, far gentler than expected. “Yes… yes, that’s me,” you replied, returning a faint smile. “Is there a reason you’re looking for me?”
“Ah,” he said politely, “I suppose Judge Yoon has already informed you beforehand. Hasn’t he?”
Oh.
You remembered then.
Mr. Yoon had mentioned that a new attorney would be appointed for your father’s case.
You were surprised he had helped you this easily. Too easily. Something about it made your stomach twist. You knew better than to believe this was kindness.
Nothing from Yoon Jeonghan came without a price.
But he did it. He really did.
You just hated knowing the price you would eventually have to pay.
“With that,” the man continued gently, “my name is Joshua. I will be representing your father’s case from this point forward.”
And just like that, Joshua—now your father’s newly appointed attorney had entered your life.
The rest of the day passed by in a blur. Even though you were physically present, going through your usual routine, your mind drifted somewhere else entirely.
Too many possibilities. Too many outcomes.
You knew you had to see Mr. Yoon again tonight. Perhaps you could ask him more about everything. Somehow, it all felt unreal—too easy, too good to be true. Your heart refused to calm down. If anything, the unease only grew stronger. No one knew about this arrangement except the two of you. Yoon Jeonghan and you. That night, you really did meet him again, just as the two of you had agreed for further discussion, yet somehow, you had a bad feeling about this meeting.
Was this how Judge Yoon handled every arrangement tied to bribery?
But you weren’t like those people. You hadn’t bribed him.
Instead, you had offered yourself willingly to do anything. That was what you told him, yet even now, you weren’t sure what you were actually willing to give. The thought alone made your stomach twist in discomfort, especially when you knew you couldn’t possibly repay him with money. You glanced around his study as you waited for him, examining the room and its surroundings. That was what the maid had told you to do when you first arrived.
Obviously, he was a busy man.
You couldn’t expect someone like him to spare much attention for a matter like yours, someone who had come here desperately begging him to release a father accused of a crime he didn’t commit.
It was pathetic, really.
You refused to accept defeat even when it seemed painfully clear that the odds were against you. So why had Judge Yoon even bothered to pay attention to someone like you?
Your thoughts scattered the moment the door suddenly opened.
The devil himself had arrived.
Mr. Yoon stepped into the room, looking as though he had just finished dealing with something important. “I apologize for the delay, Miss ___,” he said casually, tossing his coat onto the chair behind his desk. Then his eyes landed on you. “Now,” he continued coolly, “spit it out. What can you offer me?”
Something about Mr. Yoon was unsettling. He could combine politeness and cruelty within the same sentence.
You blinked, caught off guard by the bluntness of his question. “Pardon?”
Mr. Yoon began unbuttoning the cuffs of his sleeves before rolling them up, exposing his forearms. “You heard me,” he said flatly. “Don’t pretend you didn’t.”
He stepped closer. Close enough that heat rushed to your face.
You didn’t know what to say.
Yes, you had agreed to this arrangement, but the thought of what it might truly mean suddenly made your resolve waver. A cold feet.
He could take your bakery. Your savings. Everything you owned.
But offering yourself—
That possibility had never crossed your mind when you first begged him. And now you are here. Standing in front of him, unsure of what you had truly agreed to.
“Or perhaps,” he murmured, his voice lowering, “you’re pretending you didn’t know what you signed up for… little bird.”
Suddenly, his hand gripped your waist. You gasped as he effortlessly lifted you onto the edge of his study desk. His arms caged you in on both sides, trapping you there as his gaze bore into yours—dark and unreadable. His hand moved to loosen his tie, the knot sliding down as he undid two buttons of his shirt.
The sound of his slow exhale made your body tense. It was obvious now that he was in a foul mood. And he had no patience left to entertain hesitation.
“I told you, I’m not a patient man…” he murmured lowly, leaning closer.
You felt his hands creep up along your thighs, the touch almost sensual, and instinctively you stopped him. His lips tugged into a smirk at your reaction.
“My, my, ___,” he drawled teasingly, “you’re making me look like a monster with that reaction.”
He chuckled softly as he withdrew his hands, resting them back on the desk on either side of you. His head tilted slightly as he studied your expression.
“You knew the price for this,” he continued. “If you can’t seem to pay the fee… you might as well pay with something else.”
His gaze lingered meaningfully as he leaned close to your ear. “…or rather,” he whispered, “someone else.”
With a casual flick, he popped open the button of your dress collar. The fabric loosened instantly beneath his fingers, and you gasped, hurriedly clutching it closed again. He chuckled under his breath, almost mockingly, as though amused by how flustered you were. “You act like a virgin.”
Then, unexpectedly, his expression shifted. “I have a daughter,” he said suddenly.
That made you pause.
“…She has always liked the castella cake I buy for her. Which is probably why you realized by now why I always purchase that specific one from your little bakery.”
You stayed quiet, unsure how to react. You knew he had been married once, but you had never heard that he had a daughter. The thought that someone like him was actually a father felt strangely unsettling.
“Her mother and I were arranged in a loveless marriage,” he continued casually. “I never felt any romantic attachment to her. But we had a child nonetheless.”
His fingers brushed along your cheek, and you shivered slightly at the unexpected gentleness of the touch. “But I do dote on my daughter,” he said, almost thoughtfully. “Quite a lot, actually. I cherish her.”
He paused for a moment before continuing. “Her nanny has grown rather old over the years. I’ve been looking for a replacement.”
Your brows lifted slightly in surprise. You weren’t sure if he was implying what you thought he was. You didn’t even know how old his daughter was.
He noticed the faint relief crossing your face. Then his hand suddenly slid back over your dress. You yelped softly when his warm palms settled against your bare thighs.
“Oh, don’t look so relieved just yet,” he murmured with a low chuckle. “I still have my interests in you, little dove.” His voice rumbled with quiet amusement as his fingers traced lightly over your skin. “You belong to me now,” he continued, his gaze locking onto yours.
“For a lifetime.”
His hands slowly brushed along the inside of your thighs. He leaned closer until his lips were a hair’s breadth from yours. “I’m having a bad day dealing with some outdated fools,” he murmured. “The least you could do for me is be good.”
His nose brushed against your jaw as he inhaled deeply, as though savoring your scent. You instinctively held your breath. One of his hands pinned your wrist against the desk while the other settled at the back of your nape.
His lips curved into a wicked smirk, his eyes glinting with satisfaction. “You like this, don’t you?”
His hands slid higher, fingers grazing the lacy edge of your panties. A soft gasp escaped you before you could stop it.
He hushed you immediately, his voice dropping into something almost coaxing. “You signed up for this, sweetheart,” he murmured. “I think it’s far too late to back out now. Think about your precious papa sitting in that cell.”
This bastard.
He had done that on purpose, just to remind you.
You frowned, and he seemed to enjoy that reaction far too much.
Leaning closer, he pressed soft kisses against the edge of your ear before trailing them slowly down your jaw. He wasn’t touching you intimately, not truly, but it felt like he was.
Every brush of his fingers, every whisper against your skin set your nerves on fire. He was stoking something inside you, a slow-burning heat you weren’t sure you wanted to extinguish.
You weren’t even sure you could.
“Come now, little dove,” he breathed, his lips brushing against the shell of your ear.
“Are you going to be good for me… or do I need to make you?” His teeth grazed your earlobe, and you yelped softly. A biting tease, a silent threat. He wanted to hear you say it. And if you didn’t, he looked entirely prepared to make you beg.
His fingers slip beneath the fabric of your panties, touching your bare skin for the first time. Your whimper fills the air, a sweet sound that makes his blood sing with hunger. He feels the heat of you, the slickness of your folds. “Dirty girl, already this wet while waiting for me?” he taunts you, the soft pad of his thumb pressed against your clit, the way your body yields to his touch. It’s intoxicating, addictive, and he knows he’s found something he wants to possess completely.
Your face grew warm at the realization, feeling embarrassment rush over your entire face that you were capable of such a thing. You were definitely ashamed of it.
His fingers stroke through your folds, teasing, exploring—learning what makes you gasp and what makes you moan. “You’re so soft, so responsive. I can feel you throbbing for my touch already.” He continued to circle your clit with the pad of his finger, applying the barest pressure just enough to make you ache for more. His other hand slides up your side, cupping the soft swell of your breast, thumb pressing over the peak of your nipple through the fabric of your dress. He can feel it stiffen under his touch.
Part of it was that you hated how your body responded to him in every way possible. You couldn’t help but shudder at every touch he gave, your voice betraying you with involuntary sighs and soft whimpers.
“Look at you,” he whispers, voice rough with desire. “Coming undone with the simplest touch. I’ve barely started, and you’re already panting for me.” His fingers dip lower, slipping between your folds, feeling your slick heat coat his skin. “I wonder how long it will take before you’re begging me for more?” He curls his fingers inside you, stroking your inner walls, feeling them clench around him. His palm grinds against your clit, the pressure delicious and maddening all at once. From the looks of it, he’s not going to let up, not until he’s had his fill.
And judging by the way your body responds, you might just let him have it. “Keep your eyes on me while I fuck my fingers into you, sweetheart,” he drawled, his voice almost commanding. His dark eyes stayed fixed on you. Your mouth fell open as you struggled to maintain eye contact while he worked you through it.
His fingers thrust deeper—harder, the obscene sound of your wetness filling the room. “Can feel you getting closer, your cunt tightening around me. You want to come, don’t you?” He taunts you as he leans in, brushing your ear, breath mingling with yours. “Come for me then, sweetheart.” With that, his fingers pump harder, faster—driving into you with a newfound urgency. He can feel you tensing, your walls fluttering around his invading digits, and he knows you’re close.
You gripped his shoulders, tightening around him as you finally got your release, coming undone hard enough that you moaned out his name.
“That’s it,” he praises, capturing your mouth in a searing kiss. He swallows your cries, drinking in the sweet sounds of your ecstasy. His tongue delves deep, tangling with yours as he claims you thoroughly. The kiss feels like more than simple desire. It’s as if he wants to devour you entirely, like he wants to crawl beneath your skin and stay there, chasing the heat and hunger only you seem able to give him.
When he finally breaks the kiss, you’re both left panting.
His eyes are dark, his pupils blown wide with desire, a wicked glint flickering in their depths. He’s not done with you yet. Not by a long shot. “Fuck… that was intense.”
He slips his fingers from you, bringing them to his lips. You watch, dazed and pleasure-drunk, as he slowly licks your essence from his skin. The way his eyes never leave yours only makes the sight more embarrassing, more intimate than it should be. “Tastes better than that sweet cake itself,” he confesses, a filthy smirk tugging at his lips.
“For someone so defiant like a kitty, you sure listen to me obediently.” He laughs softly, the sound edged with mockery.
His hands grasp your knees before he sharply spreads your legs wider, making you gasp. His gaze never leaves you, firm and unwavering. “From now on,” he says calmly, “you’ll cater to my daughter’s needs… and meet me like this every evening at six.”
With that, he captures your lips in another heated kiss. Your protest is muffled as he maneuvers you roughly against the desk.
The rest is history.
…
You had never had a child of your own, nor had you ever imagined caring for one. However, that didn’t mean you were bad with children.
So when you met the current nanny, a woman probably in her sixties, you couldn’t help but feel slightly surprised. She didn’t look nearly as fragile as Jeonghan had exaggerated. If anything, she seemed rather firm, strict even like someone who had managed the Yoon estate for many years.
It was clear she had experience.
You had no doubts about her abilities. If anything, your doubts lay with Jeonghan himself.
Whatever reason he had for suddenly assigning you the role of caring for his daughter felt unusual. Why would he entrust you with something so personal? Of all people, he should know better than to let a stranger become this close to his family.
The thought lingered quietly in your mind.
Once, when you had tried to pursue your original profession, you had worried it might someday put your family at risk. Perhaps that was why things had never worked out the way you had hoped.
Perhaps there had been a reason you never managed to follow that path.
As you listened to the rules she explained, you soon realized she wasn’t merely the young lady’s caretaker. She had been managing the Yoon estate for many years. You didn’t ask for further details, but it was clear she must know Jeonghan far better than most.
When she opened the door that presumably led to his daughter’s room, she began, “You will only need to prepare teatime for Miss Yoon. You don’t need to concern yourself with the rest of the household.”
You blinked as you glanced through the small opening of the door. From where you stood, you couldn’t see the girl clearly. She appeared to be sitting by the window, her figure faintly reflected in the glass, but the details of her face were indistinct.
“Then… may I ask?” you said cautiously. “How old is the young lady?”
Your question made the old woman hesitate.
It was subtle, but you noticed the way her shoulders stiffened as she tried to remain composed. “…She’s ten.”
That was all she said.
Something about the way she answered made suspicion stir within you. She had been sharp and confident before, yet now there was uncertainty in her voice, her eyes avoiding yours.
As if she were lying.
You brushed the thought aside, not wanting to make it a bigger issue than it was.
Everything should be manageable. You could balance your time between the bakery and this new responsibility. After all, Jeonghan wasn’t that cruel.
For now.
Soon, you would have to attend your father’s trial.
And then what?
Even if Jeonghan truly guaranteed your father’s innocence, you knew things could never return to the way they once were. You had already paid the price. There was no backing out now. You had chosen this yourself, after all. And yet… a quiet unease lingered in your chest, as though you had stepped onto a path that would never let you walk away.
Joshua handled the proceedings with remarkable efficiency.
The case was brought before a different judge that morning, an older man with silver hair and a stern expression who barely spared a glance at the spectators filling the small courtroom.
Documents were presented. Testimonies reviewed.
Joshua spoke calmly but firmly, pointing out the inconsistencies in the accusation that had placed your father behind bars in the first place. What had once looked like an open-and-shut case slowly unraveled before the court’s eyes.
By the end of the hearing, the truth was painfully obvious. Your father had been wrongfully accused.
The judge adjusted his spectacles before delivering the final verdict. “Given the evidence presented,” he said gravely, “the court finds no grounds to continue this prosecution.”
Your hands tightened around the wooden bench.
“The defendant is hereby cleared of all charges and released effective immediately.”
The gavel struck.
And just like that, your father was free.
Your heart suddenly felt lighter. The heavy weight that had been pressing against your chest for so long finally began to lift. Though you knew there were still many things waiting to unravel in the future, you couldn’t guarantee that life would ever return to normal after this.
All you could do was pray that the world would be kinder to you from now on. Although… that felt like too much to ask after bargaining with the devil.
Your father would be released properly soon enough. For now, you and Joshua stepped outside the courtroom together.
It wouldn’t be a lie to say that you were curious about how Jeonghan had managed to secure someone like Joshua as an attorney so quickly. Then again, a man like him probably had connections everywhere.
You wondered if Joshua knew what lurked behind Jeonghan’s deception.
“Thank you for everything, Attorney Hong,” you said, offering him a small smile. “You helped us a great deal.”
In return, he gave you his usual gentle smile.
“I already told you to just call me Joshua,” he said lightly. “But yes, it is my job.”
You couldn’t help but wonder more about him, whether he knew anything about the truth behind all of this. You searched his expression carefully for any hint of the kind of manipulation Jeonghan carried so effortlessly.
But there was none.
“I know this may not be my place to ask,” you began slowly, “but… do you and Judge Yoon know each other?”
Joshua chuckled softly as he adjusted his tie. “Ah, there’s no need to worry about that. We’ve known each other since we were students,” he replied. “So when he suddenly asked me for a favour… I’ll admit it was rather unusual coming from him.”
“Oh,” you murmured. “A favour, you mean?”
Joshua hummed thoughtfully. “He didn’t specify much. Only that there was a complicated case he thought would suit me.”
So that meant he was unaware of your situation… and of your arrangement with Jeonghan. Still, the thought of anyone else learning about it made unease stir within you.
“Miss ___?” Joshua’s gentle voice pulled you from your thoughts.
“Yes?”
“This may sound a little forward,” he said carefully, “but… is there someone waiting for you?”
You blinked, trying to process his question.
Seeing your confusion, he laughed softly, his expression charming and warm. “My apologies,” he clarified. “What I meant to ask is… are you currently seeing anyone?”
It took you a moment to respond before you shook your head with a faint smile. “No… there isn’t anyone like that waiting for me.”
Joshua smiled, almost with relief. “Then… would you mind if I sought to court you someday?”
That truly caught you off guard. You hadn’t expected such a question. It wasn’t the first time someone had expressed interest in you. There had been others before, even Seokmin once.
But that felt like a lifetime ago.
You hesitated before answering. “…I’m sorry, Joshua,” you said gently. “I don’t think I’m in the right place to pursue love or marriage right now.” You offered him an apologetic smile.
If you were being honest, you had considered such dreams once. But those hopes had faded long ago, first because of your father’s illness, and now because of your situation with Jeonghan.
Perhaps a life of your own family simply wasn’t meant for you.
Joshua accepted your rejection with remarkable grace. “I understand,” he said calmly. “Then I can only hope that if fate allows us to meet again… you might consider me with an open heart.”
You smiled in return, grateful for his kindness.
He reached for your hand and pressed a gentle kiss against your knuckles. “Do write to me if you ever need my help.”
With that, he finally took his leave.
For some reason, you found yourself wishing him happiness. And deep inside, a small part of you hoped that perhaps, in another life or under different circumstances, you might meet him again properly.
As you watched Joshua disappear down the courthouse steps, a black carriage stood quietly across the street.
Inside it, a familiar pair of eyes observed everything.
...
Six o’clock was nearing.
You informed Chan to handle the closing at the bakery. After all, you trusted your staff completely, they had been working with you for years.
You also told your papa not to wait for you tonight. You claimed you had matters to attend to outside, much to his disappointment that you couldn’t spend the evening with him. It hurt more than you expected to lie to him like that.
You had told him you were fortunate enough to meet a capable attorney, that his case had been reopened through a petition. The lie tasted bitter in your mouth, but it was easier than explaining the truth. It pained you to lie to Seokmin as well. Though you had been careful and secretive about it, you could only hope he hadn’t noticed anything strange.
Something about the Yoon estate always made you uneasy.
There were maids and servants around, yet you could hardly feel their presence. They rarely spoke, barely interacted with anyone. Sometimes you wondered what the point of hiring them was if they behaved like shadows.
The only person who ever spoke to you normally was the nanny. She had been in the estate the longest.
It wasn’t the quiet that bothered you, it was the air itself. Something about it felt… unsettling. Perhaps it was just your imagination. Still, for such a large estate, the silence felt unnatural.
By now you should have heard a child running down the hallways, laughter echoing through the rooms.
But Miss Yoon wasn’t quite the child you had imagined.
It was strange, yet you never questioned it.
You replaced the tea and placed a fresh slice of cake on the table, just as the nanny had instructed. You didn’t look directly at the young lady, nor did you attempt to speak to her.
Still, you couldn’t help noticing that the table sat just beside the chair.
From behind, you could see the young girl sitting there, facing the window.
Unmoving.
At first, you hadn’t paid much attention to the details. But over time, you began to notice something odd.
The same warm tea would grow cold. The same slice of cake would remain untouched.
Morning. Afternoon. Evening. Night.
Every time you replaced them, they remained exactly the same. It felt wasteful, yet the nanny had insisted you change everything at every teatime.
A faint sense of dread began to creep into your thoughts.
While waiting for Jeonghan’s arrival, you took a quiet stroll through the estate. Your eyes wandered toward the library, a room that had quickly become your refuge. The shelves were filled with books of every kind, and whenever you had spare time, you found yourself drawn there.
Strangely enough, Jeonghan never seemed to mind. That alone unsettled you.
Your steps eventually slowed near a familiar door. His daughter’s room.
The door was slightly open.
You stepped closer, peering inside. The same chair faced the window, its back turned toward you. Once again, you could only see the girl’s silhouette.
You leaned slightly to catch her reflection in the glass.
Just before you could make it out—
“Miss ___.”
You startled at the voice. Mrs. Thompson stood behind you, her expression stern. “You shouldn’t be here,” she said firmly. “Lord Yoon will be arriving shortly.”
You blinked slowly, adjusting the silk robe around your shoulders. “…Right. I’m sorry. I was just returning from the library.”
Mrs. Thompson studied you for a moment before stepping forward and gently closing the door. Her movements seemed almost… protective or perhaps cautious.
Your attention then shifted to the suitcase she was holding. “Were you about to leave?” you asked, brows lifting in surprise.
The thought of her leaving so soon unsettled you more than you expected. If anything, you preferred having her around. It had only been a week since this strange routine began, and the estate already felt eerie enough.
She nodded. “I received a letter earlier today. One of my relatives has passed away,” she explained calmly. “I informed Lord Yoon beforehand. I trust you will be able to manage in my absence.”
“Ah… I see,” you murmured quietly. You tried not to show your disappointment. “My condolences.”
You were never the type to pry into other people’s affairs. Still, it was difficult to ignore when there were so many things left unexplained, so many mysteries surrounding this house. Everything in this estate… everything involving Yoon Jeonghan himself… felt unsettling.
Disturbing, even.
Ironically, when you first met him, you had assumed he was simply a lonely, sorrowful man. Now it felt like something far deeper than that. Whatever lay behind his actions, you knew better than to dig into it. Some things were better left unknown. Ignorance was bliss, as they say.
Your fingers drifted over the frame of a photograph resting on his mahogany desk, the very same desk where he had taken you before. The memory alone warmed your cheeks, and you quickly pushed the thought away.
The photograph showed a young girl. Her smile was angelic. You assumed it must be his daughter. At last, you were seeing her face clearly. It was almost amusing how much she resembled her father.
Your thoughts were interrupted by the sound of the door creaking open.
Jeonghan had arrived.
You quickly set the photograph back down before turning toward him.
His eyes flicked briefly to the frame you had just replaced, then returned to you. “I assume Mrs. Thompson has already informed you about her leave?” he said casually.
He approached slowly, hands tucked inside the robe draped over his nightwear.
“She did,” you replied, straightening slightly. “Though I’m not sure when she’ll return.”
Jeonghan smirked. The expression alone sent a chill down your spine as he stepped closer, trapping you between him and the desk.
Your back pressed lightly against the wood.
“Why the worried face?” he murmured. “Afraid you’ll be spending more time here than you expected?”
You stiffened as he leaned down, his breath brushing beneath your jaw as he inhaled your scent. To him, the faint sweetness of flour and sugar lingering from the bakery, mixed with your soft perfume, was intoxicating.
“I wasn’t,” you replied.
But your voice came out softer than intended. Barely audible. Not when his face was already buried against your neck, his lips brushing down toward your collarbone while you instinctively steadied yourself with your hands against his chest.
He pulled back suddenly. His face hovered inches from yours. “Next time,” he said calmly, his dark eyes piercing into you, “try saying it properly. Like you’re standing in a courtroom… not whimpering beneath me.”
Heat rushed to the back of your neck.
The audacity of this man, placing the courtroom and your humiliation in the same sentence.
He chuckled. His hands slipped easily around your waist, pulling you closer as he hummed softly, clearly pleased by the sight of you in silk nightwear. “Don’t start acting shy now,” he teased. “Not when you were moaning my name beneath me just yesterday.”
You inhaled sharply, staring at him in disbelief. “Could you not say that?”
“Oh, of course I can,” he replied lightly. “You’re mine, after all.”
He tilted your head gently before pressing his lips to yours. This kiss was different. It was slow and sensual. Nothing like the rough intensity he usually showed. And you hated the way you found yourself melting into it.
You had never imagined something as simple as a kiss could feel so intoxicating—not when he deepened it, his tongue brushing against yours as though claiming you completely.
For a moment, you forgot why you were even here.
Eventually, you both pulled away, breathless. “You enjoy this more than you realize, little bird,” he murmured with a grin.
“Ugh.” You tried to turn away, but he caught your hips easily, holding you in place.
His chin rested against your shoulder as he whispered softly beside your ear. “Ah, ah. And where do you think you’re going?”
You exhaled slowly, your breathing shallow as your back rested against him, his arms loosely wrapped around you.
“Though I would prefer you to be more obedient,” he continued thoughtfully, “I must admit this defiant side of you is far more entertaining.”
His lips brushed gently against your neck, sending a shiver down your spine.
He was infuriating. A cruel bastard.
Those were the words you wanted to say. In spite of that, you had made an agreement with him. Even so, the strange atmosphere of this house continued to nag at the back of your mind. Yet you dared not ask directly.
Instead, you tried something safer.
You asked about his daughter. “I haven’t heard her name yet,” you said carefully. “May I ask, if you don’t mind?”
For a brief moment, silence filled the room. You didn’t dare turn around to see his expression. You couldn’t tell if he was upset or something else entirely. But eventually, he answered. “Jiae,” he said simply. “…It means wisdom and intelligence, combined with love.” His voice softened slightly. “Isn’t that beautiful?” His fingers tightened slightly around your waist when he said her name.
You could feel his warm breath against your skin. For a moment, the way he held you felt almost like that of lovers.
Except that the two of you were nothing close to that.
You hadn’t expected him to answer so calmly. If anything, you had expected him to snap at you.
“It is…” you replied quietly.
The thought lingered in your mind. This man was a father, and yet he lived a life surrounded by corruption. You couldn’t tell whether it was driven by pleasure, greed, or hatred. Perhaps it was all of them.
Either way, you decided you would rather not know.
Come to think of it, you wondered if he had any other family aside from just him and his ‘daughter’. It wasn’t your place to ask anyway. You had your assumptions here and there, but you preferred to remain unbothered by them. Feeling a bit braver, you spoke up.
“...Are there any family members aside from just your daughter and you?” you asked softly, your head not daring to turn toward him as if he might bite the moment you did.
He only let out a faint chuckle, the kind that made every part of your skin crawl in the most eerie way. “Interested in my lineage, huh?” His grip tightened, squeezing your hips and forcing you to shift.
“To answer that…” he whispered against your ear in a way that felt almost intimate, both electrifying and unsettling. “…I’m quite distant from my parents. Ever since my late wife passed away, I’ve been distant from my in-laws as well.”
What does he mean by that?
Your lingering thoughts were abruptly cut off when he suddenly pushed you against his desk. Your palms instinctively caught yourself on the surface as you felt your body bend forward. You blinked in surprise, feeling him hover over your back. Your hips pressed against him, making you stiffen as a sharp inhale escaped your lips.
“Why? Interested in continuing my bloodline?” he whispered, his hot breath making you feel flushed at how close he was. His hands rested over yours, pinning them there.
His chuckle this time was crueler, as if he were mocking you or simply enjoying the way you reacted.
When you tried to protest and spin around, he held you firmly in place, making you gasp. The position was compromising, normally you would have tried to shove him away, but you couldn’t afford to provoke his temper. For someone with such a sharp tongue, he also had a dangerously quiet patience.
“Stay where you are, sweetheart,” he murmured lowly, his voice turning rough. “If you’re interested in being part of my family, the option is always open.”
A small, helpless whine escaped your lips when you felt him grind sharply against you. Your breath caught in your throat at his words. The implication alone was enough to make heat rush up your neck, your fingers tightening against the polished wood beneath your palms.
“You’re unbelievable,” you muttered, though the protest lacked its usual sharpness.
Another low chuckle escaped him. “Am I?” he murmured, voice brushing against your ear as his chest pressed closer to your back. “You’re the one asking about my family.”
You swallowed. “That’s not what I meant.”
His fingers slowly slid over yours where they rested on the desk, deliberately intertwining them as if he were claiming the space between them. “But you’re curious,” he continued softly. “And curiosity always leads somewhere interesting.”
You tried to twist around to face him again, but his hand settled firmly against your waist, keeping you exactly where you were.
“Did I say you could move?” he asked, the amusement in his tone unmistakable.
A frustrated breath left you. “You’re insufferable.”
“And yet,” he murmured, leaning closer so his lips nearly brushed the shell of your ear, “you keep coming back to me.”
The warmth of him behind you was impossible to ignore now. Every slight movement only made you more aware of how close he was, how easily he could keep you pinned there.
Your heart pounded louder than you liked. “You’re impossible,” you whispered.
“Perhaps.” His grip tightened slightly on your waist, not painful, just enough to remind you of the position you were in. “But you didn’t answer me,” he added quietly. “About joining my family.”
You scoffed under your breath, trying to regain some composure. “You’re the one who dragged me into this mess in the first place.”
“Dragged you?” he hummed. “That’s an interesting way to describe it.”
Before you could reply, he pressed himself against your back, one hand sliding around to your stomach while the other gripped your hip possessively. He leaned down, his lips brushing against your neck as he spoke with a needy rumble. “Fuck, you’re so beautiful. I can’t believe you’re not married.”
Your breath hitched, your mouth falling slightly open when you felt his other hand slide lower, cupping your inner thigh beneath the silk fabric, just close enough to touch you intimately. His other hand slid up from your hip, fingers tracing the underside of your breast through the thin fabric of your nightwear. Your heart racing beneath his palm, matching the frantic pounding of his own.
He nipped at your earlobe before trailing open-mouthed kisses down the column of your throat, his tongue darting out to taste your skin. Cupping your breasts fully, his thumb brushing against the peak of your nipple through the fabric. Letting out an audible sigh, your silk robe slipped slightly off your shoulder, the thin strap of your nightwear sliding easily down your smooth skin.
Jeonghan’s hand slid up, yanking the silk robe the rest of the way off. He pushed the outer layer aside as it pooled on the floor, exposing your skin to the cool air, and to his heated gaze. Now his hand cupped the soft swell of your breast, thumb brushing against the curve as he leaned in to whisper hotly against your ear, “You like this, don’t you?” He made a sharp thrust against your ass, yelping at the roughness. “Keep whimpering like that, sweetheart. I’m going to fuck you so hard until all you know is the feeling of me inside, around you, consuming you completely.”
His words send shivers down to your spine. He let out a low, feral growl as he pulled your nightwear up, the silky fabric, and ripped your panties aside, baring your most intimate area to his gaze. You could feel the heat of your core, the slick arousal that coated your folds and the cold air made you whimper. He wasted no time as his fingers slid through your slickness, teasing your entrance before pushing inside, filling you in one swift, hard thrust.
"Always so ready for me, little bird,” he groaned, “Can feel how much you want this, how much you need me inside you.” He pumped his fingers in and out of you, thumb finding your clit and rubbing tight circles around the sensitive nubs. His other hand slid up to kneading the soft flesh roughly as he pinched and rolled your nipple between his fingers. Before you could even process the pleasure of having him finally touch you, he took it away from you.
You could only whine helplessly, feeling the surge of overwhelmedness, he was grinning and you tried to plead him wanting for more. At this point, you can’t help but to surrender to your desire for your desperate release.
Jeonghan didn’t waste no time in fulfilling your desperate plea, with a guttural groan, he hilted himself inside you with one powerful thrust, your body yielding to his as he stretched and filled you completely. A moan escaped from your lips, your walls clenching down around his hard length.
He set a hard, fast pace, pounding into you with a fervor you’d never experienced before. Each thrust pushed you forward, the desk creaking beneath you with the force of his lovemaking. One hand gripped your hip, fingers digging into your soft flesh as he held you in place. The other slid up to your throat, tilting your head back to expose the column of your neck to his hungry mouth. Licking and sucking at the sensitive skin, his teeth grazing your pulse point before he bit down, marking you as his. All the while, he never ceased his relentless thrusts, his cock driving into you deep and hard. Hitting that secret spot inside you that made stars explode behind your eyelids.
He punctuated his filthy words with a sharp thrust, grinding his pelvis against your ass as he filled you completely, his cock throbbing and pulsing inside your fluttering walls. You were blabbering nonsense as he fucked you, unable to keep your mind straight.
Jeonghan groaned deeply as he felt your walls fluttering and clenching around his throbbing cock, your body tensing as your climax approached. He redoubled his efforts, fucking you with wild abandon as he chased your pleasure, determined to make you come undone. “That’s it, darling,” he growled against your nape. "Come for me, I’ll pump your womb full with my seed and put a baby in you.” He could feel his own release building, his balls tightening as your velvet walls squeezed him like a vice. He gritted his teeth, fighting back his own climax, wanting to hold off until he could make you come first.
The thought of yourself pregnant with his child is almost frantic, yet your pussy clenched hard around his shaft, like you’re about to snap him in half. He chuckled darkly when he felt it, “You want that, sweetheart? I’ll make you a mother then, so that you could only depend on me.”
Suddenly, he felt your body stiffen and then convulse beneath him, your back arching as you cried out his name. Your walls flutter as your orgasm crashes over you. He mumbled out a cuss, his voice echoing off the bedroom walls. Jeonghan slammed into you one last time, burying himself to the hilt inside your spasming cunt. He let out a guttural groan, finding his own release as he filled you with his hot seed.
“You are so good to me, sweetheart.” he gasped out, brushing his lips against your nape, hips jerking erratically as he emptied himself inside you. “...so fucking good. You’re mine…all mine, remember that.” he whispered, placing a feverish kiss on your bare shoulder.
Chapter 3: A Confession To Be Told
You have been spacing out a lot lately. Sometimes you would be sleeping soundly beside Jeonghan, and then there would be moments when you felt strangely restless.
Both mentally and physically, you felt disturbed. You weren’t sure if you had lost track of your cycle, and your appetite had become so sensitive that you could barely eat properly. You figured it was simply the result of stress, managing the bakery along with everything else weighing on your mind.
Your thoughts were suddenly snapped away when Seungkwan called your name repeatedly as you stood at the cashier. “Are you alright?” he asked, examining you from head to toe as if trying to make sure.“You’ve been distant a lot lately. I hope you’re not seriously sick.”
You gave him a faint smile and shook your head. “I’m alright… just a little restless, perhaps.”
He didn’t seem convinced. His eyes lingered on the silver diamond necklace around your neck. “That’s beautiful,” he said. “When did you buy it?”
You didn’t answer right away. Absentmindedly, you reached up and gently held the necklace. Your mind drifted as you remembered it was given by Jeonghan. Though to you, it felt less like a gift and more like a collar, something meant to remind you that you belonged to him.
Instead, you gave Seungkwan a small smile. “It’s from a friend…” you said.
Seungkwan hummed thoughtfully as he continued packaging the goods. “Right. This friend of yours definitely knows how to choose the perfect gift for a lady.”
You didn’t reply. It almost sounded as if he was implying you were seeing someone, though the situation was far more complicated than he imagined.
Setting that thought aside, you greeted another customer approaching as usual, offering the warm smile you always wore. A man stood tall before you, his broad shoulders immediately catching your attention. He looked a little intimidating at first. You didn’t think you had ever seen him around before, probably a new face.
After he made his purchase, he gave you a small nod, and you returned it with a polite smile. It was unusual; you found yourself watching his figure until he disappeared from sight.
“Boo, do you know that man just now? I don’t think I’ve ever seen his face here…” you asked.
Seungkwan lifted his head from his work and thought for a moment. “Oh, yeah. He just recently started coming by. I think his name was Seungcheol?” he said. Then he added, “He usually comes around this hour when you’re not here.”
You turned to look at him. “Recently?” you questioned.
Seungkwan hummed in response. “Yeah, he said he’s kind of new here. Got dispatched here because of work reasons,” he shrugged casually.
You didn’t answer immediately. “…Oh. May I ask what his occupation is?”
“I think he mentioned something about investigation-related work,” Seungkwan said with another shrug. “I don’t know much though. Maybe he’s a police officer or something.”
Unexpectedly, Seokmin came in, his usual bright smile directed at you. It made your heart feel lighter for a moment, only a little. Sometimes you had forgotten that you’d been spending less time with him. You had even forgotten that you’d promised him a day out, something he had been looking forward to for a while.
So you went anyway, wanting to get some fresh air from everything. Just to breathe, even for a moment. You hoped he didn’t notice the weariness on your face that you sometimes tried to hide. The thought of him questioning you about it made you feel even more drained. You simply didn’t want to explain anything.
As the two of you strolled past the shops, you suddenly noticed a familiar figure across a boutique.
It was Mrs. Kwon.
Since when had her probation ended? You assumed you simply hadn’t been keeping track, but seeing her spending lavishly again, just like before. It reminded you that she had won favor in her previous case regarding her late husband. Ironically, she didn’t look sorrowful at all. In fact, it was the complete opposite. She looked exactly the same as she did before the case, as if nothing had ever happened.
Your suspicion stirred.
Then you remembered that Judge Yoon had been the one assigned to her case.
Did she bribe him too?
So occupied with your thoughts, you didn’t even hear Seokmin calling your name several times. You blinked and turned to him.
“Yes?”
He studied your face. “You’ve been so distracted lately. Your staff even told me you’ve been acting unusual,” he said with a sigh. “You know, if you’re feeling unwell, you can tell me anything.”
You smiled at him, a smile that didn’t quite reach your eyes, though you hoped he wouldn’t notice.
“I’m alright. Just a little restless, I guess.”
Seokmin smiled back, believing you. He continued browsing the jewelry displayed in the shop window.
“I was thinking of getting you something nice,” he said, “but when I saw that necklace you’re wearing, I decided to choose something else.”
Blinking, you glanced down at the necklace Jeonghan had given you.
“T-this?”
He hummed as he examined the different pieces of jewelry. “It got me thinking. The one you’re wearing is actually part of a matching set with a ring. It’s almost like a wedding gift.”
His eyes turned toward you.
Your throat suddenly felt dry. You didn’t know what to say. Did Jeonghan give it to you on purpose? Instead of feeling flattered, you only felt as if you were being trapped in something you had never agreed to.
Seokmin seemed not to notice your pale expression.
“It’s a shame,” he continued softly. “I was planning to choose that for you. I know you told me before that you don’t want to settle down yet, but I just wanted to make a promise with you.”
You felt a little lightheaded. Seokmin’s words never truly reached you. Your mind was flooded with too many things, and love simply had no space left within it.
“Are you alright, ____?” Seokmin gently held your hand, his voice soft with concern.
You steadied your breathing and nodded.
He could tell you were overwhelmed. Your lack of response made him flustered. “I’m sorry if I’m being too forward,” he said quickly. “I told you I would respect your decision—your space.” He inhaled slowly before continuing. “The truth is, I really want to be with you, ____. Lately, my family’s business has been facing a lot of problems. We’re dealing with some charges for reasons I don’t even fully understand yet.”
He hesitated before adding quietly, “I even got your father’s blessing for us.”
Your heart clenched.
“I just… I want to promise you the life I hope to build with you,” he said earnestly. “Maybe someday, when you’re ready, when you finally decide to find happiness with me.” You heard him clearly, his devotion, his sincerity. But you couldn’t accept it. Not when you were trapped in the circumstances you had created. Your life was no longer normal.
Sensing your silence, Seokmin rested his hand gently over yours and gave you a small smile. “Think about it, okay?” he said softly. “You know I’ve always loved you.” And yet the weight of the necklace around your throat felt heavier than ever. Even at this moment, when he wasn’t physically present, it felt as if Jeonghan was still there.
Then your eyes drifted past the glass of the shop window, and you saw the last person you expected to meet right now.
Jeonghan.
He was staring straight into your soul. Sitting inside the café across the street with one leg crossed over the other, he calmly sipped his drink. Had he been watching you the entire time while you were with Seokmin? The implication alone made your breath hitch.
Slowly, you withdrew your hand from Seokmin’s. Your pale expression was impossible to hide now. “I think… I need to go somewhere else first, Min,” you said suddenly. “We can… talk about this another time. After everything settles down, alright?”
You looked at him hopefully, wishing he would let it go. To your relief, he did, though you could see a hint of disappointment in his eyes when you indirectly avoided the conversation from earlier.
“Alright,” he said with a gentle smile. “Take care. I’ll be here whenever you need me.”
You nodded, offering him an apologetic smile before leaving the shop quickly. For some reason, your feet carried you straight into the café where Jeonghan was sitting.
He didn’t look surprised by your presence at all. Instead, he casually gestured toward the empty chair across from him. “Surprised, are we?” he said calmly. “Come. Won’t you accompany me on this lovely evening?”
You didn’t respond. You simply sat down across from him.
Whatever he was planning behind that calm expression, you refused to lower your guard. He had clearly seen you with Seokmin, yet it was impossible to tell what exactly was going through his mind.
He looked up at you now, his gaze steady and unreadable. He seemed… pleasant. That somehow made you even more uncomfortable.
“Is there any reason why you’re here?” you asked immediately, perhaps a little too sharply, as if you were trying to stop him from speaking first.
Jeonghan only grinned and placed his cup down with a soft clink. “Why? I’m simply enjoying my evening. I do have a life outside the courtroom, you know.” He hummed in amusement as he glanced out the window, toward the very place where you had been standing with Seokmin earlier. “I must say… that ‘friend’ of yours was rather touchy for someone getting close to a woman who doesn’t belong to him.”
The way he emphasized those words made you frown.
“He’s not just a friend,” you replied defensively. “He’s family. Perhaps even closer than that.”
Jeonghan hummed again, his eyes returning to yours.
“Is that so?” he said slowly. “Do family members usually propose to you and take you out to buy rings?”
You didn’t answer. Your palms tightened against the fabric of your coat.
He smirked at your silence. “And let’s be clear here,” he continued smoothly. “Does he even know you’re with me?”
You were about to reply, but he cut you off immediately.
“Don’t compare this to some cheap affair,” he said coldly. “Does it look like I treat you as a mere kept woman?” Leaning back in his chair, he crossed his arms over his chest with quiet arrogance. “The moment you made an agreement with me was the moment your life began to belong to me. Remember that.”
You stared at him in disbelief, momentarily at a loss for words.
“It’s unfortunate,” he continued casually, “that your friend happens to be the sole heir of his family business.”
Your ears sharpened immediately.
“I heard they’re currently facing charges involving money laundering. The opposing side has even approached me, asking if I would be willing to… assist them.”
Your brows furrowed. The implication became painfully clear in your mind. “Are you going to accept it?” you asked sharply. “Are you threatening me by putting my friend’s life at risk?”
Jeonghan chuckled softly. “Come now, little bird. You know it’s not my style to choose sides so easily. If something is too risky, why would I involve myself?”
He spoke casually, almost lazily. “Of course… it always depends on the case I’m handling.” He tilted his head slightly. “Though it’s usually quite obvious which side ends up being favored.”
Your heart began pounding violently. If the Lee family lost the case, they could go bankrupt–even if they were innocent. And judging from the way Jeonghan spoke so lightly about bribery and influence, it was clear he was playing with you.
Forcing you to choose. Just so he could remind you how much control he truly had.
“So?” he said with a soft tut. “The choice is yours, sweetheart. Say the word, and I’ll give you whatever you want.”
You could hear the amusement in his voice, see the faint smile tugging at his lips.
The Lee family has helped you and your father many times. Of course you felt indebted to them. The thought of them suffering while you knew the truth… you weren’t sure you could live with that guilt.
You had already given yourself to Jeonghan. What more could he possibly want?
Exhaling slowly, you lifted your gaze to meet his. “What exactly do you gain from all of this?”
For a brief moment, he said nothing. He simply stared at you.
“You,” he answered at last.
You didn’t believe him. “Stop messing around,” you said, though your throat had gone dry.
Especially when the look in his eyes suggested something far more possessive. “Does it look like I am?” he asked quietly. He stood up and walked over to you, his steps slow and deliberate until he loomed beside your chair. “In return…” he murmured, leaning slightly closer. “You give yourself to me completely.”
Somehow, the necklace around your throat suddenly felt impossibly tight. Almost suffocating you, so that you can't even breathe.
…
You were never particularly religious, but sometimes you would stop by the church to offer your baked goods whenever they held Sunday prayers.
There were also days when you generously donated food to the orphanage, the lovely children who always welcomed you with bright smiles.
Lately, however, you had no reason to visit anymore.
And yet here you were now, early in the morning, sitting quietly in the church. You were the only one there as you clasped your hands together, your head bowed in prayer.
Everything had become so heavy. So difficult. With everything happening around you, you found yourself here, seeking solace and guidance, anything that might ease the turmoil in your heart. It felt as though you were walking straight toward the pit of hell, step by step, and there was no turning back.
You had never felt this lost before. Everything had become so complicated. When you finally finished your prayer, you let out a slow breath. Somehow, it made you feel a little lighter. Just a little.
The air inside the church felt cool and quiet. You should have been alone. Yet you could feel someone’s presence behind you. You didn’t turn around. “Speak,” you said calmly. “I know you’re there.”
A brief silence followed.
Then a voice spoke. “I apologize for disturbing you, madam,” the deep voice said. “My name is Choi Seungcheol. “Do you know a man named Yoon Jeonghan?”
You froze. Slowly, you turned to face the man. You tried not to show your surprise, but the mere mention of that name betrayed you.
“…No,” you said slowly. “…not personally. Why?”
The man named Seungcheol sighed as he stood up from the pew and approached you. You frowned immediately, your body going slightly rigid with caution.
“I would appreciate it if you didn’t lie to me,” he said calmly. “I saw you with him yesterday. At the cafe.”
You let out a defeated sigh and stood up. “In that case, I have nothing to say about this.”
You began to walk past him, intending to leave, when suddenly he grabbed your wrist. Your brows furrowed as you immediately yanked your hand away. “I would appreciate it if you didn’t pull people around like that,” you said sharply, glaring at him. “Do you always grab someone’s hand whenever you feel like it?”
You hadn’t meant for your words to come out so harshly, but lately you had been far more sensitive than usual. At this point, you couldn’t even bother trying to be polite anymore.
Why did a man always have to bother you every time?
Seungcheol studied you for a moment, unfazed by your sharp tone. “There have been reports of judges accepting favors, altering verdicts,” he said. He paused slightly before adding, “His name tends to appear around those rumors.”
Something about his words made your heart pound violently, so hard that you couldn’t answer him right away. You didn’t know whether you were walking on thin ice, or if your prayers had been answered a little too quickly.
Thanks to Jeonghan, your paranoia has probably worsened.
Seungkwan did mention what kind of person Seungcheol was, and you figured this must be what he meant.
“Rumors,” you echoed, looking away as if clinging to a false sense of hope. But what was the point? You had long since let that kind of hope fade. “A judge receiving personal profits is something anyone would say after losing a case,” you continued. “If it’s only a rumor and not an actual allegation, then I can’t answer that, sir.”
With that, you turned and began walking out of the church.
Seungcheol hurried after you until you stopped and turned around again. You were already exhausted from everything surrounding this situation—until he suddenly held out an envelope.
“Hear me out,” he said, slightly out of breath. “You have no idea how long I’ve been investigating this man. Four years now.” His expression hardened. “He’s not the kind of man you think he is.”
You stared at him, then at the envelope in his hand. Deep down, you already knew that. But whatever truth lurked inside that envelope… you weren’t sure if you could handle it.
Still, you took it.
Later, the two of you sat together, discussing everything in private.
A cup of warm tea sat between you on the table, untouched. You hadn’t even noticed it growing cold as you listened to Seungcheol recount everything he had discovered during his investigation. Case after case. Rumors of corruption. Suspicious verdicts. Influence that reached far beyond the courtroom. All you could do was sit there, almost hollow, as if your soul had already drifted somewhere far away. None of this truly surprised you.
Somehow, though, you still felt… lost.
Then Seungcheol mentioned something about Jeonghan’s past. Something that made you falter.
“What?”
Seungcheol spoke carefully. “I need your help,” he said. “If you can bring me anything from his mansion—documents, records, anything that could serve as evidence.”
“I can’t do that,” you replied immediately. “What if I find nothing?”
“You have to try,” he insisted. “It’s the only way we can prove it in court.”
You looked down again at the newspaper article inside the envelope. An old tragedy. An arson incident involving the Yoon residence. It reported the devastating loss of Jeonghan’s family.
Then something caught your attention.
His daughter.
Your heart began pounding again, this time in a far more unsettling way.
The article stated that both his wife and daughter had died in the fire. Their injuries had been too severe for them to survive.
“Seungcheol…” you said quietly. “Tell me more about this case.”
He leaned back in his chair, recalling what he remembered.
“It happened about eight years ago, if I’m not mistaken. From what I gathered, it was likely retaliation from people who were dissatisfied with the outcome of a trial.”
He continued, “Judge Yoon was assigned to the case. I’m not sure exactly how things escalated, but the losing side apparently didn’t take the result well. They wanted revenge.”
Your throat went dry.
“So they targeted his family.” He sighed. “It was tragic, really. I never thought people could go that far just because they doubted someone’s work.” He paused before adding, “Maybe that incident changed him. But whatever the reason, it still doesn’t justify what he’s doing now.”
His tone hardened. “He’s practically letting criminals walk free.”
You were already aware of that. But your thoughts drifted to something else.
To a specific memory. To the girl inside that mansion.
The one living there with you and Jeonghan.
“D-does that mean… he’s the only survivor?” you asked hesitantly.
Seungcheol shook his head. “He wasn’t even home at the time,” he replied. “He returned from work just as the mansion was already burning.”
Your stomach twisted.
“They said he was screaming when he saw the fire.”
God.
You suddenly felt like you were going to throw up. Then who was that girl in the house? The one you had been serving. The one you brought tea to every day. The one who never touched the cake you carefully prepared. You pressed a hand to your forehead as dizziness washed over you. Lately, you have been feeling like this more and more often.
Maybe even longer than you realized.
“Are you alright, ____?” Seungcheol asked.
You nodded weakly. “I’m fine,” you said, attempting to reassure him. But the effort barely held.
Chapter 4: The Beginning and The End
He was known as a ruthless and impartial judge, a figure many defendants hoped to avoid once they learned he would be presiding over their case.
Everything in Jeonghan’s life had always been dull and gray.
The reason he pursued his profession was simple: he was following in his grandfather’s footsteps, the former director of the courthouse of the Union State of Sebong. For generations, the same career had passed down within his family.
From his university days to where he stood now, he had done nothing but live under those expectations. Even his marriage had been arranged by his mother. He paid little attention to it at the time; it was obvious they expected him to marry someone of equal status–the daughter of the chief judge.
Although their marriage was strained, they eventually had a child.
It was a girl. Her name was Jiae.
For the first time in his life, Jeonghan experienced something close to genuine joy when he first held that small bundle of life in his arms. He adored his daughter dearly, doting on her every chance he could. She grew up to be a kind and intelligent child. But that joy lasted only a few short years.
One evening, while he was on his way back home, he saw something that made his entire world collapse. His mansion was burning. Flames raged violently through the building, lighting up the night sky. His expression faltered as he rushed forward, attempting to run inside, but someone stopped him before he could reach the entrance. People were already trying to contain the fire, shouting over one another as the flames consumed everything.
Everything happened all at once. The suffocating heat. The deafening chaos. Jeonghan screamed until his throat burned raw, calling his daughter’s name as if she could somehow hear him through the inferno.
As if calling for her would bring her back.
Eventually he collapsed onto his knees, watching helplessly as the fire devoured the building.
A week later, during the funeral, he could only stare blankly at the gravestone of his daughter. His wife’s grave stood beside it. All he could think about was how painful it must have been for her inside that fire. How scared she must have been. The thought alone felt like knives tearing through his chest.
Time passed, but his grief never faded.
Then one day, he discovered something that changed everything. Behind the arson attack was the truth about his father-in-law. The man had been arrested for accepting personal profits for years. One of the cases he had presided over involved war crimes. He had deliberately allowed the perpetrators to walk free.
The verdict enraged the victims, causing the entire village to rise in anger. That anger eventually turned into violence. The violence that reached Jeonghan’s home.
His daughter. His family.
Jeonghan gripped the newspaper tightly in his hands as the truth finally connected in his mind. Everything made sense now, but one question remained. Why did he and his daughter—have to suffer the consequences of someone else’s sins?
Strangely, he found that he felt little grief for his late wife. Their marriage had always been nothing more than a loveless arrangement. They argued constantly. The only thing that had ever kept him together… was Jiae. She was the only good thing this world had given him, and the world had taken her away. Years passed, yet he still couldn’t move on. He lived trapped in the bitterness of the past, isolating himself from everything around him. Work became the only thing that occupied his mind.
Until one day, something strange happened. He passed by a small shop.
Something about it seemed to call to him. Inside, the store was filled with dolls, rows and rows of them, staring silently from shelves and glass cases. It was one of the most eccentric places he had ever seen.
Custom-made dolls, he assumed. He wandered through the shop slowly, examining them one by one.
Then a man suddenly appeared beside him. He wore an apron and carried a wide, almost mischievous smile. A Cheshire grin. The man introduced himself as Jun, the owner of the shop. Jeonghan hadn’t even realized how their conversation had begun. But when Jun suddenly spoke about believing in magic, Jeonghan nearly scoffed. Jun claimed he could make anything come true. Naturally, Jeonghan found the idea ridiculous and was about to leave.
Until he saw it.
A doll.
No… not just a doll.
It looked almost exactly like his daughter.
Jeonghan immediately asked if it was for sale.
Jun refused.
“No matter the price?” Jeonghan asked.
Jun shook his head. “It’s not for sale.”
Jeonghan attempted to negotiate anyway, offering more money than most people could imagine.
But Jun remained firm. Instead, he offered something else.
A deal.
Jun explained that if Jeonghan truly wanted the doll, he would have to pay with something far more valuable.
Jeonghan frowned at that. If the man wanted money, he would simply say so. In spite of that, Jun kept insisting that what he wanted was something only humans could offer. Something more valuable than gold. When Jun mentioned something close to a soul, Jeonghan furrowed his brow.
And yet… he still accepted. So he made a deal with the devil.
From that day forward, Jeonghan began collecting greedy humans. Those who came to him with bribes, believed money could buy justice. He was selective with his clients. Even if they escaped punishment in court, their freedom never lasted long.
Soon after, they would disappear. Gone without a trace. Jeonghan never believed in witchcraft or supernatural nonsense, but watching them celebrate their purchased victories with dirty money only convinced him of one thing.
Hell was the only place waiting for them.
No one had the right to judge his sins except himself. He would never allow people like them to escape with the fortunes they used to corrupt the world.
And every soul he collected brought him one step closer.
Back in his mansion, the doll stood silently in its place. It looked almost alive. Life-sized, the same height as his daughter had once been. Its porcelain skin glowed softly beneath the light, dressed in a beautiful gown. Jeonghan treated it as if it were alive. He always returned home quickly, afraid she might feel lonely during his absence.
Sometimes he even spoke to her, as if she could hear him. He had convinced himself of one thing. If he collected enough greedy souls…
He might be able to bring her back to life.
…
The mansion felt unusually quiet.
It had always been quiet, but something about the air now felt even more eerie than before. After discovering everything from Seungcheol—who claimed to be part of the officers, you couldn’t see this place the same way anymore.
You knew Jeonghan had never been a good man. Whatever the reason behind it, you somehow found yourself capable of feeling a little sympathy for the tragedy that had happened to him. Still, none of his actions could ever be justified. It simply didn’t make sense.
Losing a child was something no parent could easily overcome. You could empathize with him for what he had been through, but grief was something a person had to face on their own. Yet the conflicting emotions only made your head ache the more you thought about it.
You have been emotionally sensitive lately, restless and easily overwhelmed. You really needed to take better care of yourself, especially when you were walking a line as fragile as a tightrope.
Before coming here, you made sure to tell Seungkwan and Chan to take care of the bakery in case there were days you wouldn’t return. They had looked confused, but you brushed it off. You even wrote a letter to Joshua. You couldn’t help it. In a situation like this, where you couldn’t tell anyone, not even your father, he was the only person you could trust. Perhaps it was because he was an attorney, someone you might eventually need to rely on.
It felt almost like you were foreshadowing something terrible the moment you stepped into Yoon’s mansion.
What if he suddenly decided never to let you leave? You needed to stop thinking like that.
Your hands trembled as you tried to steady the tray, the slice of cake and the teacup rattling slightly against the porcelain. Eventually, you gave up and placed it back down.
“You seem rather unwell these days,” Jeonghan’s voice came from behind you. He pushed himself away from the doorframe and slowly approached. “Exhausted, perhaps?”
You sighed softly, remaining where you stood, your arms folded loosely around your silk robe. “Maybe.”
He hummed quietly, studying the way you absentmindedly tucked a strand of hair behind your ear. “I’ll take care of it,” he said calmly. “Go and rest.”
Yet somehow you still found yourself following him as he carried the tray toward his daughter’s room.
You stopped at the doorway. You didn’t dare step inside. From where you stood, you watched him carefully place the plate and teacup on the small table beside the chair facing the window. The figure sitting there had its back turned, only visible from your angle.
The soft melody of a music box filled the room as he opened it.
Jeonghan began speaking to her. His voice was quiet, almost gentle.
You couldn’t bear to listen. Letting out a slow breath, you stepped back and leaned against the wall outside the room.
The lullaby from the music box should have sounded comforting. Instead, it made your skin crawl. Something about it was too eerie, too wrong. You felt frozen in place, as if your body didn’t know whether to run or stay. There was no way he could be keeping a living corpse in there. If that were true, you would have noticed something before—the smell, the decay, the unmistakable signs of death.
But the last time you stepped inside the room, it smelled faintly of flowers.
And the glimpse you caught… the smooth skin, almost porcelain-like. Far too perfect to belong to anything human.
In the end, you quickly returned to the bedroom—his room, or rather, the one you both shared now. You wouldn’t even be surprised anymore if he suddenly showed up one day with a ring, just to seal the deal.
After a while, you saw him enter the room carrying another tray with two teacups. “Drink up,” he said simply. You sat up from the bed and took the cup, glancing down at the liquid before looking back at him.
He chuckled lightly, taking the cup from your hand and sipping from it before returning it to you. “What?” he teased. “Do you think so little of me that I’d poison you?” You didn’t protest, sipping from the same spot his lips had touched. An indirect kiss. The aroma of the tea filled your senses—ginger and peppermint, you thought. It soothed the nausea that had been bothering you lately.
The gesture itself was strangely sweet, and yet you still found yourself drawn back to him. It wasn’t like he had ever been violent with you. He had never once raised a hand to harm you.
Only rough in bed.
Ironically.
You placed the cup aside. He was sitting at the edge of the bed beside you. The moment felt almost too calm. For someone like him, he was the perfect image of an angel in disguise, acting like a gentleman even though you knew deep down he was crueler than the criminals he judged. You wondered what he had been like with his late wife. He had mentioned it was a loveless marriage. Still, imagining him with a lover was the last thing you would have expected.
Then again… he was a father. Humans were complicated like that. Even they could never fully understand their own hearts.
“You’re acting strange today,” you said, glancing toward him.
He only grinned and leaned closer across the bed. You had already grown used to the closeness. “Am I?” he murmured with a soft chuckle, his nose nearly touching yours. “It’s a little sad that you didn’t come in earlier. My daughter has grown rather fond of your presence.”
You froze for a moment, your eyes searching his.
Still, you forced yourself to remain calm. “…Is that so?” you replied slowly. “I didn’t realize my presence mattered that much.” He hummed, his hand gently cradling your face before leaning in to kiss you.
You kissed him back.
“It does,” he whispered softly. “And what if I told you she wants you here forever?”
You pulled back slightly, studying his face. “Don’t joke about something like that.”
“I wasn’t joking.” His eyes remained fixed on yours, completely serious.
For a moment, neither of you moved. The distance between you was barely a breath. You sighed quietly and pulled him back into another kiss. He groaned softly against your mouth. “You’re rather needy today, little bird.”
You exhaled softly against his lips. “I’m emotionally sensitive these days,” you murmured before pressing your lips to his again. You needed warmth, something comforting. And the only person you had was him. Jeonghan didn’t deny you. He gave you exactly what you wanted as your kiss deepened. For a moment, you tried to forget the uneasiness creeping through your mind, the fear that lingered in the corners of this house.
And the only place you could hide from it…
Was in him.
…
You had never felt so anxious, so mentally exhausted and drained. Now, standing in front of his daughter’s room felt deeply ominous.
Slowly, you pushed the door open.
Your trembling hands steadied the tray as you placed it carefully on the table, trying your best not to look at the figure sitting beside it. As much as you wanted to know, you had never felt this afraid before. Not wanting to know the truth felt safer. Because sometimes the nightmares were already bad enough when you woke up beside Jeonghan. Your thoughts drifted back to Seungcheol’s words. So far, you haven't found anything. You had searched his study room before, hoping to find documents or evidence that could help, but there was nothing.
Nothing at all.
And you had never dared to check inside this room. Until now. Because you had simply been too scared.
Slowly, you forced yourself to look.
Your eyes moved toward the so-called person sitting by the window. You froze. Your feet carried you forward without thinking, moving slowly to the side so you could finally see it clearly.
Its eyes were closed. The lashes looked almost real. Everything about it seemed delicate… beautiful even.
And yet, it wasn’t alive.
You stepped back abruptly, your heart racing at the realization. When you looked closer, there was no doubt.
It was a doll. A life-sized one, crafted with terrifying precision.
For a moment, you couldn’t even tell if it had once been a real body that had been turned into this thing. The thought alone made your stomach twist violently.
You nearly collapsed right there.
Then suddenly—
A soft lullaby began to play. You jolted in shock, turning around quickly.
The music box.
You must have brushed against it accidentally. The tiny ballerina inside spun slowly as the melody filled the room. The atmosphere instantly became unbearable.
Too quiet. Too eerie. Too wrong.
You needed to get out.
Now.
But before you could turn away, Jeonghan was already standing in the doorway.
You flinched.
“I thought the nanny told you before,” his voice said calmly. He didn’t sound angry. But the look in his eyes told you everything. You had discovered something you were never meant to see. Your words stumbled over themselves as you slowly stepped backward, your heart pounding violently. He wasn’t supposed to be home yet.
Why was he here?
“I—I was…” Your voice faltered as you tripped slightly against the bed when he continued walking toward you. “…I thought you would be home late.”
“I was,” he replied calmly. Now he stood over you, trapping you against the bed, his hands resting on either side. “…but I figured if I came home early,” he continued softly, “I could see my girls sooner.” His gaze slowly dropped to your stomach. “…and my little one.”
Your breath caught sharply.
The implication hit you instantly. You had already suspected it, the nausea, the dizziness, the strange exhaustion. You never imagined that he would notice, or that he would accept it so easily.
Then suddenly, both of you turned your heads when you heard a loud commotion outside.
Jeonghan moved quickly to the window. From above, angry voices echoed through the night. People were shouting—furious, chaotic.
He muttered a curse under his breath.
You watched him in confusion as he began pacing across the room. Then you saw him pull something out from the drawer.
A revolver.
Your eyes widened in alarm. “What does this mean?” you demanded, almost frantic. “Tell me right now, Jeonghan.”
You needed answers.
And whatever was happening outside didn’t look good at all. He didn’t answer, instead, he grabbed your hand firmly. “Be quiet,” he said sharply. “Just follow me if you want to stay alive.”
He began pulling you toward the doorway—
But suddenly someone barged into the room.
Both of you stopped abruptly.
Jeonghan immediately stepped in front of you, shielding you behind him. Your heart pounded violently as you tried to understand what was happening.
The man standing before you was someone you recognized all too well.
The same bastard who had framed your father.
And judging by the fury in his eyes, he had come here with only one purpose.
“I told you, Judge Yoon,” the man sneered. “I thought we had an arrangement. Yet you decided to betray it so easily when I needed your help.”
His gaze shifted toward you. “So this is what it’s about?” he scoffed. “You chose that wench instead? When I offered you a fortune in gold to help me?”
Jeonghan let out a cold, mocking laugh. “It aches my heart a little,” he said dryly, “but I let my gavel fall cleanly—for money.”
The man’s expression hardened instantly. He raised his gun, pointing it directly at both of you. Your breath hitched as fear surged through your body. Your grip tightened around Jeonghan’s hand.
“Say that again,” the man hissed, “and I’ll make sure you finally get what you deserve.”
Jeonghan remained completely unfazed. “I would never hand over my fortune to the likes of you,” he replied calmly. “Especially not someone who pretends to be a kind businessman in public while secretly stealing from orphanages.”
The gunshot rang out suddenly.
You flinched, but the bullet didn’t hit either of you. Your trembling hands clutched Jeonghan tighter as you looked up at him.
That was when you noticed—
He had already raised his revolver. Pointed straight at the man. A broken sound escaped your throat as panic flooded your chest. Then you smelled something.
Smoke.
Your head snapped upward to see the ceiling above was beginning to burn. Flames crept along the corner near the window. Your entire body froze in terror.
“Déjà vu, isn’t it?” the man chuckled bitterly. “I thought you should be reminded why all this is happening. By now you should know that dreaming of something mo—”
A gunshot cut him off.
Jeonghan fired first. The bullet tore through the man’s arm, forcing a painful grunt from him.
But the man fired back immediately.
The second shot struck Jeonghan in the side. He grunted in pain.
Before the man could react again, Jeonghan fired the final shot. The bullet pierced straight through the man’s head.
He collapsed instantly. Dead.
You screamed. Horrified, you rushed forward just as Jeonghan’s body began to give out. He collapsed into your arms as you fell to your knees with him, carefully lowering his back against you as blood began pooling from the wound at his side.
A broken breath escaped your lips as your hands pressed desperately against the injury. “No—no, no… why did you do that?” you cried, panic overwhelming you as his eyes half-closed in pain.
“Fuck…” he hissed weakly. His gaze lifted toward your face. For a moment, something strange flickered across his expression. A moment of realisation hits him, he hated seeing that look on your face. That terrified, devastated expression.
Perhaps this would be the first time… and the last.
It was a shame that this face of yours might be the final thing he would remember. Then again… there would be no afterlife waiting for him.
Only hell.
The smoke thickened around the room, the flames slowly climbing across the walls. You struggled to keep Jeonghan upright, your hands trembling as you pressed against the wound on his side.
“Get up,” you pleaded desperately. “We have to go, the house is burning!”
He barely moved. His breathing was uneven, but his eyes were strangely calm.
Then, a sudden voice barged in, calling your name. A voice shouted through the smoke.
You turned your head sharply to see Seungcheol burst through the doorway, coughing as he stepped inside. His eyes immediately scanned the scene, the dead man on the floor, the flames spreading along the ceiling, and you kneeling beside Jeonghan.
“Are you insane?” he barked. “The whole place is about to collapse!”
He rushed toward you and grabbed your arm. “We’re leaving. Now.”
“No!” you cried, pulling away. “He’s hurt—he can’t walk!”
Seungcheol glanced down at Jeonghan briefly. Their eyes met for a moment. Something silent passed between them. “He made his choice,” Seungcheol said firmly.
“I didn’t!” you snapped back. “I’m not leaving him here!” You tried to pull Jeonghan up again, but he stopped you. His hand gently caught your wrist.
“…Little bird.” His voice was softer than you had ever heard it before.
You froze. The fire crackled loudly around you.
“You should go.”
Your head shook immediately. “No.”
“I’m serious.”
“You’re bleeding!” your voice broke. “You can still make it, we just have to—”
His gaze shifted past you. Toward the room, the room where his daughter sat waiting. “…She’s still there,” he murmured quietly.
Your breath caught. “Jeonghan…” you whispered, horrified.
“You should leave before the roof collapses,” he continued calmly. “You shouldn’t stay in a place like this.”
You grabbed his shirt desperately. “I’m not leaving you!”
For the first time, something in his expression softened. His hand slowly moved to your stomach. “…Take care of them.”
Your chest tightened painfully.
“Don’t say that.”
“I’m serious.” His thumb brushed lightly against the fabric. “…You’ll be a good mother.”
The words made your vision blur with tears. Seungcheol stepped forward again, grabbing your shoulders.
“We don’t have time for this!” he snapped. “The fire is spreading!”
You struggled against him. “No! Let go!”
Jeonghan watched silently. Then he spoke again.
“Take her outside.”
Your eyes widened. “You don’t get to decide that!” you cried. But Seungcheol had already pulled you away. Your nails dug into the floor as you tried to hold on.
“Jeonghan!”
For a moment, he simply watched you. The flames reflected faintly in his eyes. “…It was nice,” he said quietly.
You stopped struggling. “What?”
“For a while.”
Your chest tightened painfully.
Then he turned his gaze away. Toward the hallway, to the room where the doll waited.
“Go.”
Seungcheol didn’t hesitate this time. He dragged you toward the exit as the fire roared louder behind you. “Jeonghan!” you screamed, your voice breaking as the smoke swallowed the room except that he never turned back.
Everything blurred together. Seungcheol had finally dragged you out of the mansion, and now all you could do was watch as the fire swallowed it whole. Flames roared violently, devouring the entire building while people around you shouted, rushing back and forth trying to control the chaos. It was too much. Your shaking gaze drifted upward toward the floor where he had been. From outside, you could only see the fire consuming everything. A broken, devastated wail escaped your lips. You tried to rush forward again, desperate to go back inside, but Seungcheol was faster, grabbing you before you could do something reckless.
“No—!” you cried, struggling against him. But his grip tightened as he pulled you back.
All you could do was cry as he held you in place.
Your body slowly grew weak, your knees finally giving out beneath you. Seungcheol followed you down as you collapsed, kneeling beside you while trying to steady your trembling shoulders.
“It’s over,” he murmured firmly, though his voice softened slightly. “You can’t go back in there.”
It felt strange that you were capable of feeling something like this for Jeonghan. The man who had brought so much misery into your life.
And yet…
You had never truly known what lay behind the mask he wore. You knew it wasn’t love, not even close. Somehow, the warmth you had felt from him, however small, had not been completely fake. Maybe some small part of it had been real. And somehow… that realization hurt. Or maybe it was just the hormones.
Everything around you slowly became distant. The noise, the fire, the shouting. Your vision dimmed as exhaustion and shock finally overtook you. And before you realized it, everything went black.
In the burnt remains of the mansion, they would later find what looked like the charred bodies of a parent and a child.
At least, that was how Jeonghan might have seen it. In truth, all they found was the body of a solitary man… and a scorched porcelain doll.
Eight years had passed.
You placed the flowers gently on the gravestone. The name Yoon Jeonghan was engraved across the stone.
It had been a long time since your last visit. Your eyes lingered on the name for a moment, something distant stirring in the back of your mind.
“Mama, who is this?” Your daughter looked up at you with curious eyes, her small hand swinging as she held yours.
You smiled softly and patted her head. “Someone I knew in the past…” You turned when someone called your name. Your husband stood a short distance away, waiting patiently.
Joshua.
“Why don’t you go to Papa first, sweetie?” you said gently. You knelt down to her level, and she nodded before running toward her father. Joshua laughed softly as he easily lifted her into his arms. You slowly stood up again, giving the gravestone one last glance before finally turning away.
After a while, you returned home. Not long after entering, you noticed a package waiting at the door. It was a medium-sized box, carefully wrapped with a ribbon. You frowned slightly as you picked it up.
Your daughter bounced excitedly beside you. “Jiae, don’t jump around,” you scolded lightly. “You’ll hurt yourself.” She pouted but watched eagerly as you untied the ribbon and opened the box.
Inside was a porcelain doll. Beautiful and delicate.
You said nothing at first, a strange sense of déjà vu crawling over your skin. Jiae giggled happily and immediately picked up the doll, holding it carefully in her arms. You noticed a small card attached to it. It must have been from the sender. You frowned. You couldn’t remember Joshua mentioning anything about a gift. And you hadn’t kept in contact with many people since your marriage, aside from your father.
You turned the card over and read it.
He told me to give this to you.
His final wish.
— Jun W.
Your brows furrowed. You assumed it was a shop owner. A workshop, maybe. But that only raised another question. Who would send this to your address? You were certain you had never given it to anyone… except your father. Another card rested inside the box. Your hand hesitated before picking it up.
Slowly, you read the message.
I hope you love this gift.
I made sure she resembles our little one.
— Y. J.
You froze. Your gaze slowly lifted toward your daughter, who was already playing happily with the doll across the room. Your steps felt heavy as you walked toward her. When you looked closer at the doll in her arms, your breath faltered slightly.
It looked… strangely familiar, not exactly the same, but close enough. Uncomfortably close.
Jiae looked up at you with a bright smile. “Look, Mama! She’s pretty!” You forced a small smile in return. Jiae hugged the doll tightly, “Mama, can I keep her?” You watched the porcelain face for a long moment.
Somehow… it felt like the past had found its way back to you. Even after all these years, some things never truly disappeared. And perhaps, some legacies refused to be buried.
FIN(?)
a/n: ah, we've come to the end! dang, that was tragic but pls don't romanticize these lol. i honestly sleep with an eye open after re-reading back to this story cuz idk how i came up with that plot tbh (i had a vocaloid phase, so ig i would say it was based from that lore series lol). reblogs n comments are appreciated. thanks again, dear apples!
SUMMARY | Radiant and adored, Crown Prince Seokmin feels used by those around him. When he’s paired with someone labeled a “villainess,” he begins to see your true, kind heart—and realizes he’s not alone in feeling trapped.
PAIRINGS | Crown Prince Seokmin x Villainess/Mage!Reader
CONTENT/WARNINGS | non-idols au, fantasy themes, fantasy religious themes, villainess trope, domestic fluff, family and political drama, family drama, swearing, assassination attempts, mentions of death, unprotected sex (wrap it up folks!), first time (virgin!reader, virgin!seokmin), kissing, oral (m. giving, f. receiving), creampies, pregnancy, poisoning attempt, happy ending haha
AUTHOR’S NOTE | Finally finished this! Finally! Here's the 3rd installment to the series! Thank you @lovetaroandtaemin for beta reading this! Thank you everyone for joining me on this adventure! ❤️
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"She's back, you know," you hear one of the noble ladies say and you glance at her.
"Back from where?" asks another.
"Where do you think? From the North. She spent years in exile," says your former friend and the ladies gasp.
You roll your eyes, having heard this a thousand times already. Exiled? To the North? How scandalous. As if you're some villain who deserves to be shunned by society. They were right in a sense, though. You've always been different and they never understood you.
Situated in a far corner of the ballroom and looking absolutely bored, you sip your wine and pretend not to hear the scandalized whispers directed at you. It's no surprise that you're the center of gossip. You always are when you attend a ball, and your presence at one of the most anticipated events of the year has already created quite the stir.
The young ladies, former friends of yours, avoid your gaze and whisper among themselves. Once upon a time, you dominated the social circles of the capital, but a fall from grace led to your exile from the elite circle. And now that you're back, you're greeted with suspicion and ridicule. You're used to it though and so you hold your head high.
"Well, I heard that..." Another lady lowers her voice, and you don't care to hear what else she has to say. You down the rest of your drink and set the glass on the table. You should've never come to the ball.
One would think that being the eldest daughter of a marquisate family would come with certain privileges and protection, but your family was always a target of political maneuvering. Life was nice and simple but when your mother passed away from an accident, everything changed in a blink of an eye. Your father remarried, to a baron's daughter no less, and at first she was sweet and kind to you and your older brother Hyunwoo, but that didn't last.
When your stepmother, Lady Ji, gave your father a son and a daughter, her priorities shifted. You and Hyunwoo became obstacles in her path to securing her son's inheritance and her daughter's marriage, so she spared no opportunity to make your lives miserable. When a political opportunity presented itself, she wasted no time in sending you and your older brother off to the North, under the pretense that you'd both be safe from the growing unrest in your father's territory. It was a lie, of course, and it was only by some miracle that you both managed to survive.
The guards that were escorting you to the North were paid to kill you, but luckily, you and your brother managed to escape them and seek refuge in the Xu Duchy. Despite the former Grand Duke Xu Liwen being a political rival of your father, he still took you two in and helped you rebuild your lives. Life in the North was no easy feat, especially with the monsters that lurked in the darkness, but with the help of the Xu Family, you both were able to settle in and start anew.
"Bored?" Hyunwoo, the most important person in your life, asks as he stands by you.
You glance at him and smile. "Very," you reply. "They're still the same people they were a few years ago."
Hyunwoo laughs. "Things haven't changed in the past ten years have they? Still as boring as they were when we left." He takes a sip of wine. "Ah, exiled."
You grin, remembering the days when you and your brother were sent to the North. "Who would have thought we'd be the only ones who survived that journey? And yet here we are, back home, in the capital and the palace," you pause and take a sip of your wine, "It's been years and ever since we thwarted stepmother's plans, our family is already trying to sell me off to a low ranking noble or a merchant."
"Stepmother is trying to use my connections with the grand duke to make her son and daughter's status in the court stronger," Hyunwoo says, a dark expression in his eyes.
You're aware of Lady Ji's schemes. Her son and daughter are both vying to marry into powerful political families and your father is more than willing to oblige her. Your stepmother wants to marry you off to a lesser noble or an old rich merchant so you won't interfere with her daughter's marriage prospects to a higher nobleman. She says you'll be lucky if someone marries you since you're no longer young. You're nearing your thirties and any nobleman would be too embarrassed to marry a woman who isn't even in her prime. You don't even care if you get married or not, but you're not going to let your stepmother decide your future for you.
"I'm so tired of this. Ten years of helping protect the northern borders and yet we're still treated like nobodies by our own family," you say as you stare at the dancers. "Do they think we'll accept this treatment forever?"
You finish your wine and put it on a passing server's tray. You notice that the ladies are looking your way, their fans hiding the bottom halves of their faces. Some have the nerve to look amused, smirking behind their fans. You see your half-sister in a corner with some ladies, eyeing you from top to bottom. You want to roll your eyes at the absurdity of everything.
You're used to the stares and the rumors. They always say that women with 'difficult' personalities are either crazy or possessed, or cursed by a demon. But what is your difficult personality anyway? Being headstrong and firm? Becoming one of Grand Duke Xu's high ranking mages? Or because you had the gall to walk around the imperial ball in such a scandalous dress?
"Let them talk," Hyunwoo smiles as he hands you a plate of food. "You don't have to care what they say about you."
You smile and take a bite of the food. "I know, but it's still annoying. And the more they mock and annoy me, the more I want to set something on fire."
"You and your arsonist ways," he laughs and clinks his glass against yours.
"I wonder who the Crown Prince will choose as his bride this year," one of the ladies whispers loudly. "Ever since the Splendor Princess, I mean Duchess Choi, left the Crown Prince at the altar for Duke Choi, he hasn't chosen any bride. I think he's scared of being left at the altar again. Imagine being left by the bride! What a shame."
"You weren't there at the wedding," another says. "The Crown Prince stepped down so that the Duke and the Duchess could get married. He even gave them his blessing."
"He's so nice, isn't he? Whoever becomes his Crown Princess will be lucky. I would marry him in a heartbeat," the first lady gushes as she looks at the Crown Prince with adoration.
Crown Prince Seokmin is standing next to his brother, King Jeonghan, as they converse with Duke Choi and his wife, Duchess Choi. He's dressed in a royal blue robe with silver accents and a silver crown adorns his head. He looks regal and handsome, and the women can't help but stare at him. You try not to roll your eyes.
"You're right. He is nice," another lady says, her eyes filled with longing. "He's so handsome and charming. I'd do anything to be his bride."
"Would you really marry the Crown Prince if you had the chance?" the second lady asks, her voice full of curiosity. "Even if he's to be betrothed to her?" She nods her head in your direction, her lips curling into a mocking grin.
"You mean the rumors are true? That he'll marry her?"
"I heard from my maid who heard from her cousin who's a handmaid at the palace, that the Crown Prince is set to marry the Marquis's eldest daughter this year. Can you imagine? The most eligible bachelor in the kingdom marrying a woman who's been exiled to the North for so long? She must have bewitched him somehow."
"Lady Heejoo must be beside herself. She must be feeling awful to hear that her eldest sister is marrying the crown prince."
The other women nod in agreement, their expressions a mix of disgust and envy.
"So there are these kinds of rumors," you shrug, feeling the stares directed your way. "Heejoo must be soooo mad that her dear sister is marrying the crown prince and becoming crown princess." You ignore them and turn to Hyunwoo. "Oh boohoo."
"It's not like the rumors are true though," Hyunwoo points out as he pops a piece of meat into his mouth. "You've never got along with the Crown Prince ever since we were young. You're still holding a grudge, huh?"
"He was the one who called me mean in front of all the other noble children," you huff.
"You were six years old," he points out. "You bit the son of Count Yoo's hand because he put worms in your shoe. You even broke his toe as you stomped on it, then ran away laughing. It's no wonder people call you a villain and a lunatic."
"But you have to admit that my personality isn't suited for being the Crown Princess of the kingdom. I'd be a terrible one," you roll your eyes.
"You would be a terrible one," Hyunwoo laughs. "But our family is one of the most powerful families after the Choi Dukedom and the Boo Marquisate. Because you and I are representatives of Grand Duke Xu, the position of Crown Princess is expected to fall on you since you're the most eligible among the ladies."
Your eyebrow twitches. "I will kill whoever decided that I should be married off to the Crown Prince." You scowl. "Should I just marry him? Just to see Heejoo cry?"
The Royal Family has a reputation for being hard to please and difficult to wed into, so for one to actually be chosen is considered a high honor and the woman the recipient of their favor must be perfect and irreproachable. Duchess Choi, second princess of the Splendor Kingdom, was originally betrothed to the Crown Prince but in the end married Duke Choi Seungcheol instead. The Crown Prince, who was gracious and selfless, did not make a big issue of it. Instead of reprimanding the duchess or demanding punishment, he stepped aside and wished her good luck. That act of benevolence made him extremely popular with the public and people hailed him as a noble prince indeed.
And so rumor circulated in the court that he will soon marry again to make up for the Duchess Choi fiasco and produce a successor to the throne. All eligible daughters have their mothers and fathers eyeing the chance of marrying them into the royal family and getting a chance to be queen one day.
Your stepmother is no different. She'll do everything in her power to secure her daughter's chances to become the crown princess. She would do anything, even force you into an engagement against your will to someone far beneath your status and worth. You and Hyunwoo are no strangers to her manipulation tactics and the two of you always manage to weasel yourselves out of any schemes she cooks up.
"Sister," a sickenly sweet voice interrupts your thoughts. Your mouth contorts into a frown. You'd recognize this voice anywhere. The honey laced venom in it tells you immediately whom it is without you even looking. Heejoo, your younger half-sister, saunters over, with her own group of so-called friends.
"Brother," another voice calls out. It's your younger half-brother, Heecheon, who stands to Heejoo's right.
Though it's been six months since you've returned to the capital, you and Hyunwoo were staying at Grand Duke Xu's palace instead of your family home. You refused to stay under the same roof as the family that left you and your oldest brother for dead and would rather stay at the ducal palace with the family that treated you like their own. They were far happier and loving than your birth family that abandoned you after your mother died. They raised you and your brother with care and love, teaching you how to stand on your own. You owe them your life, and you refuse to return home to people who betrayed you.
It doesn't stop your stepmother from sending you countless invitations or throwing tea parties for the nobility and demanding your presence just so she can set up blind dates or so called 'accidental' meetings, but you're adamant about avoiding her matchmaking schemes.
"Ah, Heecheon and Heejoo," Hyunwoo says, and you can sense the sarcasm in his voice. "It's been a while. You've both grown quite a bit since we last saw each other."
"We've missed you so much," Heejoo says with a smile, but you know that it's fake. Heejoo hates you both and never made an effort to hide her dislike for you. "You must be happy to be back in the capital. I can't imagine how harsh the North is."
You rolled your eyes. Heejoo is a great actress, you give her that.
"The North must have been so difficult for you two," Heecheon says with a sympathetic smile. "I heard that the North is home to all sorts of beasts and monsters."
"You must come home though," Heejoo latches onto your arm. "You must have been so lonely without female friends, sister. If you had friends, I'm sure you wouldn't have come to the ball in your current state." Heejoo's eyes roam your body and her brows furrow. "I can have a few dresses made for you since you're back home."
You can feel the anger bubbling up inside you and for a moment you want to say something but you hold it in. You're no longer a child and you won't allow these two to rile you up. Instead, you smile and say, "That's kind of you, sister, but I'm quite capable of buying dresses for myself."
Heecheon laughs. "Sure, sure. But we must keep up appearances, sister. You and our eldest brother wouldn't want to embarrass the family, would you? Your taste in dresses is quite… eccentric."
Eccentric, is it? You're wearing one of the capital's most famous designer's creations. Your dress is a beautiful masterpiece. The dress itself is a deep blood red, with a slit that reaches your thigh. Your shoulders are bare, save for the intricate lace that covers them, and your chest is covered with the same lace, which forms a V, leaving your neck and collarbones visible.
When you were dress shopping, everyone steered clear of this dress, deeming it too scandalous and vulgar, but you saw the beauty in it. The designer said it was a masterpiece that no one wanted to buy. He offered it for free when you inquired about it, but you paid him and even offered him the position to be your permanent designer. Needless to say, the man was moved to tears and accepted your offer without hesitation. Now, he and his wife have joined the Xu Duchy household staff and your closet is full of stunning dresses and pieces.
You look down at your attire. "Is it eccentric?"
Heejoo smiles and you know she's hiding a nasty remark. "Yes, we wouldn't want anyone to think that father and mother don't have a handle on their children, would we? You wouldn't want to give the impression that our family has fallen from grace."
Oh, you hate her. If only you can burn her into ashes right this moment.
"I daresay I prefer a more form-fitting fashion compared to the big bows and frills that you and the other young ladies favor nowadays," you gesture at her dress, which is bright orange with flowers embroidered into it.
Her puffy sleeves, which have little ribbons on them, complete the frilly look. The bows on her puffy skirt add more to her childish look and the huge ribbon on her hip and the matching bows at the top of her head, make her look more like a decoration on her dress rather than a young woman.
"This is the current style!" Heejoo looks indignant. "As if you know more about style than me. The women in the Xu Grand Duchy might find that dress attractive and edgy, but here it is just vulgar."
"Vulgar?" you ask with a smirk, then you take a sip of your wine, ignoring your step-siblings. "I'll tell my personal designer that he has done a fantastic job then."
"Ah, it looks like the Son siblings are here and being reunited. It warms my heart to see such a happy family." You glance at the speaker, and you see the Crown Prince approaching your group, dressed in his finest clothes.
Seokmin's presence is always felt wherever he goes. He is a striking man with features that could easily rival those of a god. His face is a perfect blend of sharp and soft, with high cheekbones, a straight nose, and full lips. His eyes are a deep brown, framed by thick, dark lashes. His hair is jet black and always perfectly coiffed. His body is tall and lean, with broad shoulders and a narrow waist, and he moves with a grace that is both elegant and masculine. He has a strong jawline and a faint smile that can disarm anyone. He is the picture of perfection and grace, and yet, he has a certain quality to him that makes you think he is hiding something.
"Oh, your highness! It is us who are honored," Heejoo gushes, giving her best simpering smile. Her smile is not missed by the ladies who watch her every move. You wanted to hurl.
"May the moon and stars embrace us with your light," you and Hyunwoo greeted, hand over your heart as you bowed and curtsied. Your half-siblings gave you an incredilous look at your greeting but kept their mouths shut when they noticed King Jeonghan nodding his head at you, impressed.
"I'm happy to see the Son siblings together again," he smiles. "Though you all resemble each other, your personalities are far too different. Your father must have had such a hard time raising you."
Your half-siblings stiffen at this, clearly insulted at the insinuation. You and Hyunwoo say nothing, the slight smile not leaving your face as you let the King talk.
"But what do I know?" he says, lifting his palms upward. "I haven't seen Sir Hyunwoo and Dame Y/N in quite some time."
The Son siblings were all different to say the least. Hyunwoo, the eldest Son sibling, was supposed to be the heir apparent to the marquisate but it changed when there was news that you and he had died. Hyunwoo, handsome and strong, is known as a fearsome knight in the Grand Duke's army. He is respected by all, even by those who declared him as a rival. You, the second eldest of the four, a beautiful and talented young lady, could have married a northern nobleman but instead became a mage for the Grand Duke's army upon learning that you wield magic that could rival Grand Mage Junhui and his apprentices.
After you and Hyunwoo were sent away and presumed dead, Heecheon became the heir to the marquisate. Heecheon is a handsome young man, but he lacks the strength and presence of Hyunwoo. He's charming, witty, and has many friends in high society, but he's also known for his love of parties and games of chance, which sometimes gets him into trouble. Heejoo, the youngest, is the opposite of you. She's pretty and she knows it. She's also charming, witty and has a knack for making people feel at ease, but she can also be quite manipulative and calculating. She's well aware of her beauty and how to use it to her advantage, and she's not above using her charms to get what she wants.
Seokmin smiles, his eyes twinkling with amusement. "I was told that Lord Heecheon and Lady Heejoo were going to be in attendance, but I didn't expect to see Sir Hyunwoo and Dame Y/N."
"It's been about ten years, hasn't it? We had all assumed the worst," the King Jeonghan says. "But to learn that you two were actually alive was a relief. The both of you are a sight to behold."
"Your Majesty flatters us far too much," Hyunwoo gives an amicable smile.
"Your Majesty is too generous," you chime in.
Your half-siblings don't want to be outshoned by the two of you, so they quickly come up with a retort to regain the spotlight, "His Majesty is gracious to us all," Heejoo says politely, "We should count our blessings and rejoice."
The other girls let out an "awww", cooing at her politeness and innocence, while some are filled with envy that she was able to speak to the Crown Prince. You stifle a laugh, but the amused smile doesn't leave your face. The petty, cunning side of your personality finds your sister's efforts to please the royal family hilarious, especially since Heejoo is far from innocent or polite.
"Your Majesty! Your Highness!" The rushing steps of your father and stepmother catch your attention. "We apologize for arriving late," your father continues. He quickly bows to the two royals while your stepmother curtsies behind him. She barely spares you a glance. "We sent the children ahead of us since the wheel to our carriage broke. Thankfully, everything is all set and in working order."
"Nothing to worry, Marquess Son. Your children did a great job filling in for you," King Jeonghan waves off. He smiles at Heejoo and Heecheon. "Lady Heejoo and Lord Heecheon, thank you for your greetings earlier."
The two of them bow their heads slightly, acknowledging the King and Crown Prince's comments. "Of course, Your Majesty," Heejoo speaks first, her words sweet and gentle, just as expected of a demure lady. "We're happy to be of service. It's all part of our duties as a citizen of the kingdom."
You raise an eyebrow and do your best not to laugh at her sycophantic tone. "Its the least you can do when you're not the ones defending the northern borders," you retort. The venom in your words surprises the others in your group and causes them to turn to you in shock.
"Who–" your stepmother's question dies on her lips when you turn your gaze to her, a glint in your eye as she stiffens under the intensity. "Y/N! Hyunwoo! My dear children, I haven't seen you both for the longest time! It's a shame that you're staying at the Grand Duke's palace instead of back home. You really should make more visits so I could spend more time with my children."
"We're not here for leisure, stepmother," Hyunwoo replies evenly. "We are here as representatives of the Grand Duke's palace."
Your father scowls at Hyunwoo's words but smiles apologetically to King Jeonghan. "Forgive my eldest's rudeness, Your Majesty, Your Highness."
"It's alright, sir. The past couple of years have been difficult for all of us. I understand," King Jeonghan nods. He regards your group for a moment before clearing his throat. "What is the situation at the Northern Borders, Sir Hyunwoo and Dame Y/N? I hope all is well?" he asks.
The abruptness of the question startles everyone in the group. No one is sure what the topic is or what it means, except for you, Hyunwoo, and the royal family.
Hyunwoo is about to answer, when your stepmother interjects. "Y/N would be useless in discussing anything related to the borders, Your Majesty. I'm sure my eldest daughter was raised in the Grand Duke's palace and was most likely busy with the softer ar–"
"Life was faring well up until the goblin uprising last year," you interrupted, choosing not to give her the time of day. You refuse to let her dismiss your hardwork and abilities. Not when you've done so much for the northern borders and Grand Duke's family. "But that was taken care of. With the help of the Hero Mingyu and his Diamond Mercenaries, we were able to repel the goblin assault."
"Grand Mage Junhui and the tower mages are collaborating with his grace, the Grand Duke, to come up with new defensive spells and new methods to deal with future goblin and monster assaults," Hyunwoo takes over and adds. "Everything is running smoothly for the moment, hence why my sister and I are in attendance tonight."
"I'm relieved to hear it. You have my thanks for all you have done to protect the empire," King Jeonghan compliments.
Your father is beaming with such arrogance that you wanted to wipe it off his face. "Your Majesty, thank you so much for allowing my children to serve the empire. If you could pass on a recommendation letter for Heecheon to join the–"
"Both Dame Y/N and Sir Hyunwoo possess amazing talent for magic and knighthood, Marquis. You should be proud of their success," King Jeonghan replies simply and starts moving through the ballroom. "Sir Hyunwoo and Dame Y/N, I expect a visit in the morning to further discuss our plans for the Northern Borders." With that, King Jeonghan moves on, the Crown Prince and members of his entourage trailing behind him.
The second they're out of range, Heejoo is throwing glares, while Heecheon scowls in silence, feeling inferior, embarrassed, and humiliated.
Your father's expression darkens. He turns to you and Hyunwoo with contempt, voice low enough for only the two of you to hear. "You will come to the estate after your audience with the king. We have much to discuss."
Your stepmother hums in agreement, her smile sending chills down your spine. You knew that nothing good would come of a meeting like that.
Seokmin knows not to get involved in anything that Dame Y/N does and knows to keep his nose where it belongs.
Ever since they were children, Y/N never allowed him or anyone else to dictate her behavior or make her follow any sort of rules or etiquette. She did as she pleased and made her own choices without anyone having an influence on her.
He watched her defy her teachers, her instructors, and her father on many occasions. She spoke her mind and would not stand for others trying to dictate who she would be or what she was to accomplish.
She was a mean little girl as a child, a demon spawn to everyone, except her older brother, Hyunwoo. So even when they grew older and had their own groups of friends and went their own ways, he avoided her, like everyone else.
As she grew older, she dominated the social scene. Her beauty is enchanting, and her manners are impeccable despite having such an ugly personality. She has a natural charisma, a way of drawing everyone's attention to her, and her tongue can be sharp or smooth as it suits her needs.
Yet, none of these can take away the fact that she is cold, harsh, and unforgiving.
Seokmin could understand why she lashed out like she did. At a young age, she had to learn to defend herself as she had no other options left. Her mother had passed on when they were younger, leaving her and Hyunwoo in the care of their cold and unloving father and the marquises' new family.
Life must not have been easy for the two Son siblings. Casted out from the marquisate as soon as they reach adulthood under the pretense that their family territory wasn't safe enough for the two and then ambushed by their own guards by the order of their stepmother, it's no wonder that she's resentful and angry.
And yet, she turned that resent and anger into her greatest strength and channeled it in ways no one could. From becoming a respected lady of society to rising in the ranks of magic and becoming one of the most powerful mage under the Grand Duke's order, she surprised many, especially the nobility that always took her and her brother for dead.
Seokmin supposes there is something admirable about her. Her feistiness, determination, and grit are things he respects.
"What are you thinking about?" His brother, King Jeonghan, appears by his side, snapping him out of his reverie. "Aren't you tired of watching people dance?"
"Just reminiscing of childhood days," Seokmin tells him with an easy smile. He takes another sip of his wine, keeping his eyes trained on a familiar red dress.
"Oh. Of young Y/N and Hyunwoo?" Jeonghan asked with a smile. "I'm just as awed that the demon spawn we knew her as children transformed into one of the greatest talents this country has produced."
"It must be a Son family thing then?" he quips.
Jeonghan raises his eyebrow and sighs. "Well those two didn't get their father's qualities. They must have gotten everything from the late Marchioness."
He turns to his brother, interest peaking at the mention of your late mother. "You've met her before?"
"Oh yes," Jeonghan nods. "The late Marchioness was one of the kingdom's greatest knights. She was the Knight Commander of the Rose-Quartz Knights. I would have loved the two Son siblings to join either the Serenity Knights or the Rose Quartz Knights but their father and that evil wife of his pulled strings."
Seokmin clicked his tongue. That's a real shame. He could only imagine how effective the two Son siblings could have been if they served the crown as knights. But of course, fate isn't fair and destiny doesn't work in their favor.
"I know you don't want to marry her. That she's the furthest thing in the world to be a princess," Jeonghan whispers and his eyebrows are pinched in the way it usually is when he's in deep thought. "But out of all the women here, Dame Y/N might be the best choice."
"Why is that?” Seokmin tries not to scoff, he truly tries.
Jeonghan looks at the two eldest Son siblings, both ignoring the looks on their half-siblings faces. “They hold more power than we imagine. They're Minghao's maternal cousins. We need to get the support of the northern nobles. Dame Y/N was the one who was responsible for the defense of the northern border, and is one of the many nobles and knights who keep the goblins at bay. We need ties to the Son Marquisate and their influence.”
“Then would it not make sense to marry Lady Heejoo since the marquis clearly dotes on her?” Seokmin asks.
Jeonghan glances at the group of angry siblings then at the marquise who's on the opposite side of the ballroom, obviously fuming. Jeonghan watches intently, a soft and amused smile curling on his lips. It disappears and a slight frown replaces it. "It would make the most logical sense. But Lady Heejoo won’t give you the military and financial resources we need even if she has the backing of her own father. Marrying her means dealing with a family that will bleed us dry. At least the elder two Son siblings will work for the sake of the nation because they don't care for material pleasures."
He's right of course, as the eldest and legitimate prince, Seokmin would need to take into consideration the benefit for his kingdom. It would have to benefit the crown. The biggest benefit in this would be the alliance to the Grand Duke, who controls the empire's northern defenses. And since the eldest two children of the marquis have worked their asses off to gain the trust and respect of the nobles in the north, making an alliance with them would make it a lot easier.
The idea of marriage shouldn't surprise him or cause this much dread and worry. He's radiant and adored as the Crown Prince. Yet, Seokmin feels like he's being used. He'd grown accustomed to it because everyone is blinded by his looks and rank, that no one sees the true him. That no one actually loves him for him.
Perhaps, he's looking too deeply into it and getting greedy, and it's not like him to think that way. As the future King of his land, it's his duty to take this step no matter how he truly feels. Even if there is no love in it, he just needs to look out for his people and his kingdom.
But somehow, that makes the decision that much harder.
"Are you still against it? Against marrying her?" Jeonghan asks.
"Is there a point in discussing it now?" he counters, already exhausted from this. His shoulders are slumping and his jaw clenched, unable to control the way his body reacts when he feels tired and irritated. "If your decision is final, why are we discussing it when the future of the kingdom depends on it?"
Jeonghan pauses. "I know you want to love the person you're marrying. That's how you are. But it's our duty as royals to look at the greater good." Jeonghan pats his brother's arm. "Who knows? Maybe you'll come to love each other. Maybe things will turn out better than you'd imagine."
"Our cousin just sent us a new missive," Hyunwoo announces once he meets you in his temporary quarters in the Grand Ducal palace. "He wants us to return home soon since he's tired of dealing with the tower mages on his own."
"Minghao is always whining," you retort. Your lips quirk upwards, unable to hide your amusement. "For being a Grand Duke, you'd think he could handle a few tower mages."
It's not common knowledge that you and Hyunwoo are maternal cousins to the Grand Duke. Only the northern territories and the royal family knew that your mother had a younger sister who married the former Grand Duke, Xu Liwen, and that union gave birth to his heir, the present Grand Duke Xu Minghao. You and Hyunwoo didn't know about this until the former Grand Duke rescued you and Hyunwoo 10 years ago. As soon as you were ushered into the drawing room, a woman who resembled your mother was staring at the both of you, tears in her eyes.
That day, you cried harder than when you did after your mother had passed away. This woman, your aunt, was your last link to your mother and to her family. Your aunt was kind and loving towards you and Hyunwoo, introducing the both of you to your cousin, Minghao, who looked at the two of you as a kind of second set of siblings.
Your aunt and your uncle became second parents to the two of you, guiding and molding you to become the strong people you were. They nurtured you like one of their own children despite the harshness your father and stepmother subjected on the two of you. They made it clear that they wanted nothing to do with the Marquis and his second wife, and gave everything you and Hyunwoo deserve. Your mother would have been proud of the way her sister stepped up to provide you and Hyunwoo with a family of sorts.
Even now, they are helping you, even as far away as they are. Ever since your uncle and aunt retired from their political duties as the former Grand Duke and Duchess, Minghao took over, and thus, is busy managing the North Territories while he was forced to sit through various meetings and spend his time mediating with his advisors. You and Hyunwoo vowed to help your cousin and offered to help run his duchy. With that offer, the two of you have been traveling the entire North on behalf of Minghao, commanding armies, giving orders, and getting your hands dirty. The hardships and battles did a great deal in getting you where you were, but, because of it, the three of you became much closer than any normal family would have been.
"Leave the poor man alone," Hyunwoo scolded light-heartedly, picking up the papers from the desk and handing them to you, "Reports from the magic tower."
You hummed. You shuffled through the paper, eyeing the words carefully as you read every single report, then laid them on the bed next to you. "I take it they've all agreed to the proposition for creating a new magic barrier, or are we still in the process of finalizing everything?" you asked, grabbing the glass of wine beside the pile of paper, bringing it to your lips.
"They've agreed. We only need the cooperation of the northern lords to gather all the necessary materials," Hyunwoo replies. He drops himself next to you on the bed, sighing as he rests. "As long as father and the other nobles here in the capital don't interfere, we should be fine."
"Easier said than done," you rolled your eyes and plop back down onto the mattress, lying on your stomach. "That father of ours will do anything to lift the family status, even if it means trampling on his own flesh and blood."
Hyunwoo's laugh is deep and amused. "Did you expect anything else?"
"At the very least I expected some family loyalty," you countered. You roll over to stare up at the ceiling and sigh. "But it's okay. It won't matter what they'll do. At the end of the day, the people of the northern territory are our family, not them."
A knock sounded from the doors and Hyunwoo bids to let them enter. "Apologies for disturbing your time," a familiar voice echoes in the room and you turn to see the aging butler entering the room, a smile on his kind and old face. "His Highness, the Crown Prince, is here to see the two of you."
"Ugh," you groan and drop an arm across your eyes. "Let him know that we'll be there and tell him not to dawdle. I have better things to do than talk about the weather." You wave a dismissive hand at the butler.
The butler bows and gives a knowing smile to your brother before he leaves. Hyunwoo shakes his head in amusement. "You are the only person I know who can get away with being rude to the Crown Prince."
"I'm not rude," you defended yourself. "I'm direct."
Hyunwoo snorts. "You are the rudest person in the kingdom, no matter what you say. If you weren't my little sister, I would have strangled you by now."
"That's a lie and you know it," you grin at him, and he gives a fond look back, ruffling your hair. "Don't be such a sap."
"Let's go meet with the Crown Prince. It wouldn't do to keep him waiting," Hyunwoo suggests, already making his way towards the door.
"Fine," you roll off the bed, dusting off your skirts.
You walk the halls of the Grand Ducal palace, nodding your thanks at the servants as they greet you and your brother. The servants are more than happy to welcome the two of you back, having grown fond of you during your visits.
The palace has a welcoming aura, unlike the frigid walls of your father's estate. There is life here, the servants are happy and well taken care of. The butler and head maid treat you with the utmost of respect as members of the Xu family, and they are the ones who have given you a place to call home no matter how far you are from the North.
As you approach the study, the butler is waiting and he nods, a kind smile on his face as he greets you. "His highness is already in the study with His Grace, the Grand Duke."
"Minghao is here? I thought he was still at the northern borders?" you asked.
"His Grace returned just moments ago and heard the Crown Prince was here. So he is entertaining him while waiting for you and Sir Hyunwoo," the butler explains.
"Thank you, Myungsoo," Hyunwoo nods. "Please have tea brought up, and some light snacks."
"As you wish, Sir Hyunwoo," the butler smiles and walks away.
The two of you make your way to the study and see that Minghao is laughing at something Seokmin said. The two of them are close friends and had a good relationship ever since they were children. It wasn't a surprise that the two of them would have a casual meeting like this.
"Ah, there they are," Minghao stands and welcomes you and Hyunwoo into the room. "My favorite cousins. You're finally here."
"We just got your letter," you said, walking into the room and giving him a hug. You pull back and smack his shoulder. "You should have told us that you were coming."
Minghao laughs. "And miss the looks on everyone's faces when I arrived? Of course not."
You scoff, rolling your eyes at your cousin's antics. You turned to Seokmin, nodding your head in his direction. "Your highness."
"No need for that, Y/N," Seokmin waves a dismissive hand, "I would have gone to your father as society dictates, but with the tensions between your father and the both of you, I decided against it."
"Oh, please," you rolled your eyes and walked towards the desk, pulling out a chair and sitting down, leaning back comfortably. "I'm sure my dear father would love to have you grace the halls of his estate. It's only a matter of time before he invites you for tea, or for a more intimate setting."
"Intimate setting?" Minghao asked, raising an eyebrow.
"Stepmother wants Heejoo to be married into the royal family and father wants Heecheon to join one of the knight orders," you look at the stack of papers on the desk and pick up a letter, scanning its contents.
"Ah, I see," Minghao nodded, a look of understanding appearing on his face. "I'm guessing Heejoo is the most agreeable candidate."
"Except the king doesn't want that, does he, your highness?" Hyunwoo asked, looking at the Crown Prince. "His majesty wants you to enter a marriage with Y/N, correct?"
"Unfortunately," Seokmin says, a pained expression on his face. "The kingdom is under a lot of stress. We're facing a lot of issues, and the people are starting to doubt the stability of the kingdom. A royal wedding would surely lift the spirits."
"But why me? I'm sure there are a dozen other women who would have gladly jumped at the chance to marry a prince," you raise an eyebrow.
"And you're not? You could have easily married into the highest noble houses, but you would rather be a mage than a noble lady," Seokmin points out. "You're not interested in a noble life or title."
"I'm not interested in playing house," you correct him, "I was ousted from high society when my stepmother entered the picture. I used to be the belle of society and now everyone thinks I'm a monster. What makes you think I want anything to do with it?"
Seokmin is quiet, a contemplative look on his face. Minghao steps in and asks, "What is marrying her entitled?"
"A stronger alliance between the Xu and the royal family," Seokmin answers immediately. "And to put a dent in whatever Marquis Son and his faction is plotting."
Minghao turns to look at you and Hyunwoo. He leans forward, propping his chin up on his fist. "Is there a possibility that the royal family would give aid and financial resources to the North, considering the state the northern territories are in right now?"
"You want me to marry him, don't you?" You narrowed your eyes at Minghao, a glare already forming on your face.
"It wouldn't be a bad idea," Hyunwoo muses, crossing his arms and leaning back on the seat.
"You too, Hyunwoo?" Your mouth hangs open, staring at your brother in disbelief. "Are you out of your mind?"
"If we marry you to the crown prince, then the crown would owe us," Hyunwoo reasons, turning to Seokmin. "Your highness, we need your help with the northern territories. It's a dangerous place and our people are dying because of the lack of resources and supplies. As a royal and the future king, you must be aware of the situation, correct?"
"Of course. The royal family is doing their best to help the northern territories," Seokmin says.
"And yet," you interject, "The royal family is too busy dealing with internal problems that they forget to pay attention to the needs of their people. You claim to help the northern territories and yet you haven't made any moves in the past five years."
"You're right. And we haven't done enough, and I'm truly sorry," Seokmin replies sincerely, "But also it's because your father and the other lords that we can't move. Your father, in particular, has been the biggest hurdle to helping the northern territories."
"Of course he has," you scoff. "I wouldn't expect anything less from that man."
"So," Minghao leaned forward, his elbows resting on his thighs. He clasped his hands together and looked directly at Seokmin, his eyes serious. "You can help us, right?"
"Yes," Seokmin says without missing a beat. "We'll work hard to help the northern territories. And in return, Y/N shall marry me."
"Then it's a deal," Minghao says with a smile.
You turn to your cousin. "Do you really want me to marry him that badly?"
"You'd rather stay single than marry him?" Minghao asks.
"Yes," you answered. "Why not?"
"Are you still holding a grudge against him for being mean to you when you were children?" Hyunwoo asks.
"He called me a meanie," you softly pout, crossing your arms across your chest.
"You are a meanie," Hyunwoo counters.
"You're supposed to be on my side, Hyunwoo!" You pout.
"I am," Hyunwoo chuckles, his eyes crinkling at the corners as he ruffles your hair. "Please just marry him, Y/N. Don't you want Heejoo to bow at your feet and grovel?"
"Now that you mentioned it, yes, I would like to see her grovel," you replied, your mood shifting to a happier one. "Fine, I'll marry the prince. But you better be prepared, your highness, I'm not a sweet princess, so don't expect a fairytale marriage."
"That's perfectly fine," Seokmin replies.
"My wedding dress better not have frills and bows," you stare at him.
"I'll discuss it with your personal designer if that eases your mind," he nods.
"And don't be a pain in the ass. I don't have the patience to deal with that."
"I won't," he laughs. "You can treat me however you'd like."
"Really? That's quite interesting, your highness," you lean forward, a glint in your eyes. "I think I'll enjoy being your future wife."
"Goddess, please help me..."
"Do you know what you have done?!"
Your father is beyond furious, his face red, veins bulging. You rolled your eyes as Lady Ji is consoling a wailing Heejoo, patting her daughter's back. Heecheon is standing next to the two, his hand clenching into a tight fist, and he looks as though he's about to lunge and punch you.
"Oh, please. Stop acting like this is the end of the world," you sighed. "You should be happy that your eldest daughter is getting married to the crown prince. Isn't that what you've wanted all along?"
"Heejoo should have been the one marrying him, not you!" Your stepmother screeches.
"And yet, I'm the one the prince has chosen," you say with a smile, tilting your head, your voice sickly sweet. "Isn't that right, your highness?"
Seokmin huffs before nodding his head, his hand holding onto yours. "Yes, it is."
After discussing your meeting with Minghao and Seokmin a few nights ago, you thought it would be a good idea for him to come meet with your family and announce the engagement himself. You wanted him to witness the full extent of your family's true nature, and he had the pleasure of seeing first hand how they all treated you.
"You can't possibly be serious, your highness," Heejoo's cries subside as she speaks up, wiping away her tears. "Y/N can't be your wife."
"And why not?" you counter, crossing your arms over your chest, staring at the group of people. You notice Minghao and Hyunwoo strolling into the room, making their way towards where you and Seokmin are sitting.
"Because you're an embarrassment," Heecheon answers without missing a beat. "What man would want a brazen woman like you? One who has no manners and no sense of propriety."
"Heecheon," your father warns.
"What? It's true, Father. She's an embarrassment. Who would want her? She's been cast aside by high society, and no man in their right mind would want her," Heecheon spat.
"Are you saying his highness is not in his right mind?" Hyunwoo challenges, raising an eyebrow.
"What–no! I didn't mean–"
"It's okay, Sir Hyunwoo, I understand where he is coming from," Seokmin intervens, raising his hand to stop Hyunwoo. "But please rest assured, I am completely sane and I want nothing else but to marry your sister."
"Then I ask, your highness, why her?" Heecheon asks.
"Why not?" Minghao counters. "If the Crown Prince chose her, then it is not for us to question. He has a reason, and if that's not good enough for you, then that's on you."
"Pardon, Your Grace," Lady Ji looks at Minghao, "But this is a family matter. This does not concern the North."
"Doesn't it? If I recall, both Hyunwoo and Y/N are my family members. Am I wrong here, Hyunwoo?" Minghao asks, looking at your brother.
"No, your grace," Hyunwoo shakes his head, smiling. "You're not wrong."
"Lady Ji, you say it's a family matter and that it does not concern me but both Hyunwoo and Y/N are my maternal cousins. They're family and therefore, this concerns me, the Grand Duke," Minghao smiled at the stunned look on Lady Ji's face. "Did you not know?"
"There's...there's no way." Lady Ji shakes her head.
"But it's the truth. The three of us are related through blood. Which means I can interfere with matters concerning them," Minghao says.
"This is ridiculous!" Heecheon shouts. "He can't just barge in here and take over!"
"Watch your tongue, Heecheon," you say sharply, glaring at him. "Show some respect to the Grand Duke or it'll be your head."
"Y/N is correct. You should show more respect, Heecheon," your father heaves a sigh. "I apologize for my wife and children, your grace. Your highness. But I hope you can understand where we are coming from. Heejoo is my daughter and I would like her to marry well."
"So you're saying that Dame Y/N isn't your daughter?" Seokmin scoffs. "Unbelievable."
"Of course she's my daughter," your father starts but is cut off when Seokmin raises a hand.
"But you seem to treat her as if she's not," Seokmin raises an eyebrow.
"Your highness, surely you've heard the rumors," your stepmother cuts in, stepping forward. "Y/N isn't well-liked by others and the people call her a villainess. I'm sure you can understand why."
"A villainess," Seokmin repeats, testing the words out. "Interesting. A villainess, huh?"
"I'm glad you agree, your highness. My daughter, Heejoo, would have made a far better wife than Y/N. She is very obedient and a proper lady. She will run your household well and would bring prestige to the royal family," Lady Ji lists off.
"And what does Dame Y/N lack that would make her unsuitable?" Seokmin asks. "Would she not bring prestige to the royal family? She is an accomplished mage and is one of the military officers of the Grand Duke's army. She has been a big help in protecting the empire."
"Well, that is–"
"I don't see a problem in wanting to marry a woman who loves her kingdom and would sacrifice her life to protect it," Seokmin continues, cutting off whatever excuse your stepmother has. "Dame Y/N is well versed in the affairs of the empire and can hold her own."
"Thank you, your highness," you nod, smiling at him.
"I don't know how the rumor about her being a villainess came to be, but I have never met a more loyal woman," Seokmin praises.
You look over at him and notice him looking back at you. Was he actually praising you or was it just something to look good in front of your family?
"The Crown Prince is correct. She is a loyal woman," Minghao nods. "And she will make a fine wife."
"But–"
"Enough!" your father's booming voice startles everyone. "If the Crown Prince wants to marry Y/N, then he may."
"Father," Heejoo whines, her eyes starting to fill with tears. "Father, please. It's not fair. Why does Y/N get to be happy when I can't?"
"It is what it is, Heejoo," your father sighs. "We should celebrate the good news. Your sister is getting married to the Crown Prince."
"Father–" Heejoo starts.
"This discussion is over, Heejoo," he cuts her off, his voice firm and cold. "If the Crown Prince wants to marry your sister, then let him. Now, if you'll excuse me, I have work to do."
Your father turns and leaves the room, slamming the doors behind him. Your stepmother and Heecheon turn and glare at you before leaving, a sniffling Heejoo following close behind.
"Well, that was eventful," Minghao muses, looking at you and Hyunwoo.
"Welcome to my family, your highness," you joke.
Seokmin shook his head. "That's not how I imagined things to go. You didn't tell me your family was like this."
You shrug. "Would it have changed anything?"
"No."
"That's what I thought."
Hyunwoo shakes his head at your attitude. "Don't be a brat, Y/N."
"I can't help it," you reply. "They're too easy to annoy."
Minghao snorts. "And that's why the nobility think you're a villainess."
"Please," you scoff, rolling your eyes, "As if I care what they think about me."
"Maybe you should," Seokmin comments.
"Why? They have made up their minds about me," you shrug. "The common folk love me, and the soldiers admire me. And I have the Grand Duke's support, so who cares about high society? I don't."
"I can't believe I'm marrying someone like you," Seokmin sighs.
"Oh you'll be fine," you tease. "Who knows? We might even end up being happy."
"Or miserable."
"Now that's the spirit."
The royal wedding was a huge affair. Everyone wanted to be there and it was a grand celebration. There were thousands of flowers, expensive fabrics, and music that would make the goddess cry.
You would have loved to have skipped the whole thing, but unfortunately, you were the bride and that meant you were going to have to stand in front of all these people and get married.
"I hate this," you sigh, tugging at the lace sleeves of your wedding dress.
"Hate what?" Hyunwoo asks, fixing his collar.
"All of this," you gesture towards the room. "All of the pomp and pageantry. I didn't even want a big wedding."
"But we have to do it," Hyunwoo replies, fixing his jacket. "For appearances sake."
"Ugh," you groan. "I know. Still doesn't mean I have to like it."
"You'll be the crown princess soon," Hyunwoo reminds you. "Try to behave and don't be too much of a pain in the ass."
"No promises," you reply, walking away.
The wedding ceremony was held in the royal palace's grand hall and you were surprised to see the sheer number of people attending the ceremony. Nobles, mages, and soldiers lined the walls, watching as you made your way down the aisle, the long train of your wedding dress trailing behind you.
When you reached the end of the aisle, the priest started the ceremony, reciting the prayers and blessings. The next few moments went by in a blur and the next thing you knew, you were being crowned the Crown Princess and were being led back down the aisle, this time hand in hand with Seokmin.
As soon as the two of you reach the doors, Seokmin lets out a relieved sigh. He loosens his tie and removes his jacket, tossing it onto the nearby chair. "Well, that's done."
"What? Don't like weddings?" You tease, "Or don't like me?"
"I don't mind you or the wedding. It's the whole process of having to be the center of attention," he answers.
"The radiant and adored crown prince doesn't like being in the spotlight? I find that hard to believe," you say.
"I'm not radiant and adored," Seokmin rolls his eyes, "People love me because they think I'm the answer to all their problems."
You walk up to him, standing beside him. "You're right. They do use you."
"What about you? What do you want?" He looks down at you, studying your face.
"Me?" You tilt your head, humming in thought. "I want Heejoo to grovel."
"I'm serious," he furrows his eyebrows.
"So am I," you counter. "If I have the power to make Heejoo beg for mercy, then I'll use it."
"You don't want anything else?" Seokmin raises an eyebrow, curious.
"I don't," you answer honestly.
"Not even wealth? Title? Or power?"
"What for?" you scoff. "I'm already rich and a member of the Grand Duke's family. What more can I ask for? And the power I have as a military officer is enough for me."
"That's...quite refreshing," Seokmin admits, a hint of a smile on his lips. "I can't say that's what I was expecting."
You laugh and Seokmin can't help but like the way it sounds. "Oh? Do tell, your highness. What did you expect?"
"Someone who is just like the others, looking to gain something from this marriage," Seokmin mutters, looking out the window.
"People are complicated," you sigh as you approach him and fix his attire, "Even when they appear to be the epitome of kindness and grace, they still have hidden motives. When my mother passed away when I was ten and my father married Lady Ji, I thought things would be better. She was kind and caring the first few years but...after having Heecheon and Heejoo, her true colors showed."
Seokmin stays quiet, listening intently as he studies you.
"I lived eight years in the spotlight as the belle of society... just so I could get some sliver of affection from her. And all those years, I was just a nuisance, a burden. No matter how many achievements and accomplishments I made, it was never enough for her." You stepped away from him, taking a deep breath. "But then...when the Northern territories were at their worst, when we were facing war... I felt needed and appreciated. And I realized that I didn't need my father and his new family. I just wanted to help my people. I'm the happiest when the people are happy."
"You're nothing like people say," Seokmin mutters, a small smile on his face.
"Oh no. I am. I am a meanie," you chuckle. "I'm just a little nicer and softer on the inside than the outside."
Seokmin lets out a laugh and shakes his head. "You're definitely not what I expected."
"Good," you wink at him. "I'd rather not be like all the other women."
"Well, I'm glad," Seokmin hums. "Maybe this marriage won't be so bad."
"I can't promise I'll be the best wife, though."
"Why not?"
"Because," you lean forward and pat his cheek, a mischievous grin on your lips. "You're still the radiant and adored crown prince. And I'm the villainess married to the radiant and adored crown prince. The two of us together is the recipe for disaster."
Seokmin draws you close, his arm wrapping around your waist. "Maybe. Maybe not. Who knows?"
Married life with Seokmin wasn't as bad as you thought it would be. In fact, it was surprisingly pleasant. The two of you had fallen into a comfortable routine, one that you found yourself enjoying. He would handle the political meetings and you would deal with the northern territories' affairs. You were a team, a formidable one at that.
The only downside was the endless social obligations, which you despised. Seokmin found your disdain amusing, often teasing you about it. The two of you had developed an easy camaraderie, a friendship built on mutual respect and understanding. He never pushed for more, and for that, you were grateful. You were both content with the arrangement, at least for now.
You've shared kisses. Lingering glances and the brush of lips against skin. There have been stolen touches here and there. A playful squeeze of a thigh. Or the squeeze of an arm. But other than that, nothing had really progressed into more.
Sometimes, late at night when Seokmin was away for business or you were sleeping on your side, your dreams had become a little more vivid, a little more heated, your desires slipping through the cracks of your facade and escaping to the night. You yearn for his touch, your body aching with a deep hunger that you had yet to sate. And it was becoming harder to ignore the way your skin tingled whenever he brushed past, or the way your heart skipped a beat whenever he smiled at you.
What were these feelings and why did you feel this way towards Seokmin?
One day, you flop onto a chaise lounge in your shared sitting room, exhuasted from social obligations. "I swear, if one more simpering lady asks me about the floral arrangements for the upcoming summer ball, I'm going to magically set her fan on fire."
Seokmin looks up from the stack of reports he was reviewing, a genuine smile touching his lips. "And that, my dear wife, is why you are now in charge of all event planning. My apologies to the simpering ladies, but their suffering is a small price to pay for my peace of mind."
"I am not your event planner," you grumble, but without any real heat. "I do not… do… flower arrangements." The words were said with the same distaste one might use for 'chamberpot cleaning'. "I strategize battle formations and negotiate trade routes for vital resources. I do not care if the roses clash with the ladies' gowns."
"That's precisely why you're perfect for the job," he chuckles, setting his papers aside. "You will terrify them all into submitting their preferences on a single, concise scroll. You'll be the most efficient event planner in the kingdom's history. A terrifying, magnificent tyrant of tulle and table settings."
"Flattery will get you nowhere, husband," you shot back, though you couldn't suppress a smile at the image. "How I would love to talk to the visiting delegation from Inspirit instead. Their leader is a fascinating man, quite knowledgeable in ancient runes. I'd rather discuss magical theory than seating charts."
"Jeonghan can handle the diplomats. Besides," Seokmin leans forward, his expression shifting subtly from amused to serious, "I have another task for you. One that requires your particular… expertise."
Your interest was piqued. You sat up, swinging your legs over the side of the chaise. "Oh? Does it involve setting things on fire? Because I'm now highly motivated."
"No, no arson," he moves across the room, stopping in front of you. "What better way than to put your villainy to good use than bearing me a child?"
"You–" You start coughing. "What?"
He laughs. "I've been hounded by Jeonghan and the council about this. I can understand my brother wanting nieces and nephews in the palace but the council...ugh," he groans, pinching the bridge of his nose. "The old snobs won't give me a single moment of peace as they suggest that I take their daughters as concubines."
"How is this an expertise of mine?" you inquire.
"Well," Seokmin stands, taking your hand and pulling you up to him, his arms loosely encircling your waist. His scent of cardamom and fresh green tea fills the air around him, soothing you, "would it not be better for us to have children? Unless you want me to take in a concubine? Your father has been begging me to take Heejoo as one and–"
"Don't you dare finish that sentence," you glare at him. "The idea of Heejoo even touching you makes me want to run her over."
Seokmin presses a light kiss to the top of your head, the act surprisingly intimate and tender. "I assure you that there will be no mistresses or concubines," his lips brush against your hair as his fingers deftly play with the buttons at the small of your back.
"The last thing I want is a harem filled with your children," you huff.
His fingers slide under the silk, caressing the bare skin underneath. Your spine stiffens before relaxing, pressing into him, softening under the gentle touches. "Then what do you want?" He purrs, his breath warm and sweet against the shell of your ear. "I won't force you. If you truly don't wish to have children, I won't hold it against you."
"Truly?" You pull back to meet his gaze, your eyes searching for sincerity.
"Truly," his expression is somber, his gaze steady as he looks down at you, a stray strand of dark hair hanging in his eyes.
You reach up and gently tuck the strand behind his ear, studying his face. "You surprise me," you murmur.
"Surprises can be good," Seokmin brushes his thumb over your lower lip. Your pulse quickens, butterflies fluttering in your stomach as he stares intently. "May I surprise you, my villainess?"
"I…Yes..." It's just one kiss, you think, what harm could come from that? You wonder briefly if his lips are as soft and supple as they seem...if he tastes like green tea and lemon cakes, your favorite dessert.
Seokmin cradles the back of your head, bringing you closer, his mouth seeking yours. He claims you and you let him, opening up to him like a flower to the sun. Your senses fill with him and only him, with the sweetness of his taste and the dizzying heat of his touch, and in that moment, the two of you share something honest and precious.
"Just so you know..." you pull back slightly, breaking the kiss, your eyes fluttering open, "I've never done this before..." Your words come out soft, barely a whisper, your cheeks burning with embarrassment at the admission.
"Oh?" Seokmin cocks an eyebrow, his smile warm and gentle. "The most feared woman in the kingdom and yet the thing that scares her the most is this."
"Do you intend to mock me or simply make fun of me?" You narrow your eyes at him. "Because I can leave."
Seokmin laughs, picking you up and carrying you towards the bedroom. "Mock you? How? I don't think you could get any more perfect, my villainess." He lays you down, climbing over you, his expression soft. "To tell you the truth, I haven't shared my bed with anyone before."
You scoff, "As if anyone could resist you."
He leans in, trailing feather-light kisses across your forehead, down the slope of your nose, before placing the sweetest kiss against your lips. "Just like the sun, I may radiate warmth and beauty, but I'm always alone."
You study the expression on his face, looking for hints of dishonesty, but all you see is acceptance and...hope.
"People want my warmth and beauty but they never see me...for me," he confesses, his voice barely above a whisper, the sound thick with emotion, "They don't realize how lonely it can get being the center of attention." His fingers run along the skin of your cheek, soft and gentle. "You and I are alike in that way, so different from the others. One adored and the other hated. People who either admire or fear."
You sigh, covering his hand with yours and leaning into his palm. "A strange pair, the both of us."
Seokmin nods in agreement.
You hesitate before speaking. You've never been the one to pour your heart and feelings for someone else, especially to someone you've not known for too long. "I'll...try my hardest, Seokmin. I'm not perfect."
"Who is?" Seokmin counters, peppering kisses along your jawline. "Perfection is such a boring concept."
"I will be terrible at running this palace," you're scrambling, digging your nails into his shoulders as he bites your collar bone, "All the balls and meetings. I can't."
"Nonsense," Seokmin's voice is low and raspy, his lips hovering over the hollow of your throat, "I need my villainous wife to put those in line."
"Right," you breathe, tangling your fingers in his hair, arching into his mouth, "Right. I'll...scare them. That's...that's my expertise, after all."
He pulls back, flashing a smile so beautiful and pure that it knocks the air out of you. "The most vicious of villainess, ready to inflict terror upon the court."
You let out a laugh, cupping his cheeks. "My prince...you are such an idiot."
Seokmin pulls the pins and ribbons from your hair and they tumble down around you, his fingers getting caught as he rakes through the locks, stroking your hair. You bite your lip and gasp when his mouth moves down to the column of your neck, planting open-mouthed kisses along the tender flesh, a slow burning heat igniting within you as he nips the skin and laves his tongue across the marks.
You cling to him desperately, your hands shaking as they fumble to undo his jacket, the satin soft beneath your palms. You're drowning in sensations, your head spinning, and your heartbeat thrumming wildly in your ears. Seokmin helps you along, pulling off the constricting fabric, his shirt quickly following.
Your mouth goes dry and you forget how to breathe when you admire his exposed upper body, the sleek lines of his chest and stomach, the defined muscles under his bronze skin.
He's beautiful, breathtaking, and you're mesmerized, your hand reaching out to trace over the curve of his shoulders, down the elegant arch of his neck.
"You're positive that you never had other women touch you?" you ask skeptically.
"Just you," he answers with a smile, "You, my dearest wife."
You pause. "...what if I'm terrible in bed?"
Seokmin stops kissing your shoulder, his dark brown eyes flicking up to meet yours, the corners of his mouth quirking upward, dimpling his cheeks. His amusement is evident, causing a pink blush to rise and spread over your face. "Then we can be horrible together."
"So comforting," you mutter, a twinge of nervousness fluttering in the pit of your stomach. "I... don't even know where to begin..."
"Then we can explore it all, together," he removes the dress and unlaces your corset, helping you out of the layers of fabric. He sucks in a sharp breath, his pupils dilating as your body is revealed to him.
"Ummm...don't just stare. You'll make me nervous," you squirm and try to hide yourself from him, but he catches your arms and keeps them still.
"It's beautiful...you're beautiful," he marvels, his eyes soft and adoring. Seokmin studies you closely, as if he were trying to commit the sight to memory, to carry it in his heart forever. His gaze sweeps over you reverently, full of tender adoration and it causes your insides to feel gooey.
Seokmin kisses the inside of your wrist, trailing soft, ticklish caresses down your arm, eliciting a breathless gasp of pleasure. His movements are unhurried, allowing you both the opportunity to explore one another.
You arch into him when Seokmin takes one of the hardened peaks of your breast into his mouth, your fingers running through the soft silky strands of his hair, cradling his head to you, urging him to continue.
"Have mercy," he whispers, nuzzling the valley between your breasts, before switching to the other, "Your responses are...mesmerizing." Seokmin trails his fingers up the underside of your thighs, slowly parting your legs and shifting them over his broad shoulders.
"W-What are you doing?" you squeaked, trying to squeeze your legs shut, your toes curling against the supple skin of his bare back.
Seokmin grins devilishly. He blows against your clit, delighting in the way your hips buck towards him, before dragging his tongue down along the slit. "Tasting you. Trying to figure out which part will make you call my name."
You don't have time to process what that means before his mouth is latched onto you, his tongue delving past your folds, tracing intricate patterns and licks that make your knees shake. He uses his thumb to play with your clit while he thrusts his tongue into you, his fingers moving to spread your inner lips so he can lick you clean, tasting the essence of you.
You couldn't remember what your own name is as you writhe beneath him. Seokmin hums against you, the vibrations setting your nerves ablaze, his nose bumping against your clit. You buck into him, clutching him for dear life as his mouth works to bring you pleasure beyond your wildest dreams, every touch electrifying.
There's nothing else but Seokmin. There's no need for any other thoughts, no obligations. The warmth of his breath and the slickness of his tongue, the way he takes his sweet, agonizing time lavishing attention on you, heats the fire that's burning low in your belly, flames licking upwards, scorching and bright, threatening to burst.
You call his name when you come, sobbing out broken syllables into the evening air, your entire body trembling. His strong arms hold you upright, holding you tightly as you shudder in his embrace, riding out the waves of ecstasy and delight.
When you return to reality, Seokmin is gazing up at you, a lazy smile stretching his swollen mouth, his chin and cheeks glistening. He brings up his thumb, swiping the wetness before sucking on the digit. The action causes your stomach to twist in delightful anticipation, your thighs squeezing together as another rush of arousal spikes through you.
You think you should feel dirty and embarrassed after climaxing against his mouth, but it doesn't seem to faze him in the slightest, only serving to encourage him more.
"How was I?" he asks, trailing sloppy, open-mouthed kisses over your hips. "Not too bad of a first try, right?"
He looks so absurdly pleased with himself, and you can't help the laughter that bubbles out. You pull his face towards yours and taste yourself on his lips. "You are unbelievable," you giggle, wiping the last remnants of your juices from his face.
"So I did good," Seokmin says as he slides up your body, his heated skin rubbing against yours in the most tantalizing way, until his face is level with yours. You cup his cheeks, bringing him closer, sealing his mouth over yours. You moan into him at the flavor of the two of you combined and Seokmin groans, biting your lower lip, slipping his tongue into your mouth, the velvet appendage dancing with yours in a slow, sensual waltz. He reaches down, dipping his fingers into the wetness seeping from your center, making sure you're ready. "Y/N," he whispers your name softly, "Is this really your first time?"
"Why does this concern you?" you grumble.
He presses a kiss to your brow. "It does...because I want you to enjoy it as well," he murmurs.
"Despite what others say about me," you draw little shapes on his shoulders, "I've never lain with any man, not in the way you mean."
He chuckles, nipping the sensitive skin below your ear. "Glad to be your first."
Before you can say anything, Seokmin drops down and covers one of your breasts with his palm, pinching the nipple between his fingers, the sensation shooting a bolt of heat to your core. You gasp, covering your face as the overwhelming sensations of the day's activities continue.
"Y/N," Seokmin stops teasing the swell of your breasts. Your hands slip away, a soft cry escaping your lips, and his forehead drops to yours, eyes searching. "Would you rather I take you from behind? To see each other is not as bad, but..." he runs his hands up and down the expanse of your back, his erection rubbing against the skin of your lower abdomen. "If you're more comfortable then... that way would be best."
You shake your head. "No. This is fine, please," you mumble, gripping his shoulders and hiding in the curve of his neck. "Please."
"Let me know if I hurt you," he whispers before lifting and spreading your thighs. He runs the tip along the slit, nudging the opening. "I'll stop whenever you want."
"Go...just go," you squeak out.
Slowly, he presses himself into you. "Oh, goddess," his eyes slam shut, a harsh groan tearing from his throat, his fingers digging into the skin of your ass, his expression twisted with pained pleasure, "you're so tight, you feel so fucking good."
You gasp at the stinging stretch and the almost-too-much pressure of his intrusion. His eyes shoot open at your pained hiss and he freezes immediately, stroking his hands over your skin. "Do you-"
"Don't you dare stop," you order him. Your hands grip his forearms, steadying yourself. You grit your teeth, bracing for the pain as he buries himself in to the hilt, fighting the urge to curse. Seokmin burrows his face against the side of your head, his breath fanning over you as he waits for your body to adjust to him.
"Ah, Y/N... fuck..." Seokmin moans your name softly, pressing hot, fervent kisses across the column of your neck.
"Give...give me a second," you pant, biting your lip hard and wincing as he rubs soothing circles into the soft skin.
"Just breathe...shh," he soothes, murmuring calming words against your lips, capturing your mouth. He does his best to keep you relaxed as the initial pain slowly melts into a burning ache that's not entirely unpleasant. He nudges his nose against yours. "Are you okay?"
"Y-Yes..." you breathe out slowly, dropping your forehead on his chest.
Your walls are twitching deliciously around him, clenching tightly. It's difficult for him not to give into the urge and thrust into your tight warmth. He runs his hand over your face, pulling you away from his chest and captures your lips in a lingering, sensual kiss. The coil of heat twists inside of you again and you give an experimental shift of your hips, the stinging not as painful as it was seconds ago.
Seokmin peppers kisses along the valley between your breasts and neck, whispering soothing words, waiting for you to adjust, to relax around him before beginning to move.
"You can move now," you tell him, cupping his face, "Sl-Slowly."
You bite the inside of your cheek as he pulls back, gripping his arms, the stinging ache flaring briefly before melting into a heated pulse as he thrusts forward, pushing back in. His hand skims down the side of your waist, resting on your hip, anchoring you to him as he slowly rocks himself into you. "Is it better?" he rasps out, nuzzling the sensitive hollow just below your ear, "Or do I need to stop?"
"K-Keep going," your hands slide up along the smooth ridges and plains of his chest. He exhales heavily, burying himself fully, and your fingers grasp at his hair, pulling the locks with each of his slow thrusts, his strokes gentle and mindful as he sets the pace.
"You're beautiful," he whispers, "...so beautiful." You whimper, tipping your head back and he takes advantage of the position, the slope of your neck open and exposed to him, his lips moving over the skin, branding it with marks that claim. Your nails scrape along the curve of his biceps, down his toned biceps. Seokmin's warm hands splay on your back, his fingers reaching around and grabbing the full swell of your ass.
He hitches your thigh higher against his waist, grinding into you, brushing against an exceptionally sensitive area. Every roll of his hips has him brushing up against a sensitive spot that has you arching into him. Your fingers trace over the sharp angle of his jaw and the edge of his elegant brow, before he draws you into a heated kiss that leaves you both breathless and craving more.
Everything feels new and exciting and Seokmin is content to help you explore this unknown territory, his hands encouraging and loving and patient. With every gasp, moan, and touch, you can feel something stirring within, growing stronger, taking root deep in your soul.
He begins to pick up the pace, his hips meeting yours in a delicious friction, drawing a chorus of breathless groans. The sensations overwhelm you, his sweat-slicked skin gliding against yours, the heat and scent of his body cocooning you in warmth and security and desire.
There's nothing else but thoughts of him. Nothing but Seokmin. How good it feels, how you need more, how the sensations have your stomach quivering, how you'll let yourself drown in his touch.
You've forgotten how to breathe properly as he draws your name over and over again between sighs and kisses, and with the reverence and ardor with which he worships you. Your legs wrap around his waist and he surges forward, causing you to call his name breathlessly, crying out from the over-sensitized nerve endings and the tightening heat coiling low.
"Let go," he breathes raggedly into your ear, and with a snap of his hips he drives his length to the hilt.
And just like that, you unravel, his name on your lips as white-hot heat burns through you. Seokmin stiffens and surges forward with a broken moan, shuddering, his fingers digging into your hips as he chases the high and finally joins you.
For a few moments the two of you stay in the same position, regaining your breath. A layer of sweat glistens over your skin and Seokmin uses his fingers to gently rub your arms. When you look at his face, the sight causes you to swallow thickly. He's beaming, eyes aglow as he gazes upon you.
His eyes are so warm, his smile so brilliant and bright and blinding that it nearly steals your breath. Your chest throbs, aching fiercely, the odd sensation overwhelming, almost too much.
This is ridiculous. Absurd. Impossible. There's no way you've fallen this hard for this stupid, sun-lit man. Not after one night. And yet, with Seokmin touching you, looking at you with those beautiful eyes, his hair disheveled and framing the angles of his handsome face, you know that your heart has already been lost.
"Can..." you chew on the inside of your cheek as he tucks some of the unruly strands behind your ear, his brown eyes warm and steady and completely focused on you. "Can we do that again?"
Seokmin lets out a husky laugh that sends shivers racing up and down your spine. "My dearest wife," he croons, wrapping his arms around you, pecking you sweetly, "all you have to do is say the word."
The palace was bustling as preparations for the summer ball were underway. Servants, workers and military men scrambled through the halls as you made your way, tugging Seokmin alongside you.
It's been three months since you first lain together and both have enjoyed the intimacies that are now shared between each other. Your feelings have begun to grow and with it, a little living being inside of you. You haven't told him yet about the impending bundle of joy, waiting for the perfect time.
However, your good mood has dropped to a completely sour one. When you found out that Heejoo would assist you as a lady-in-waiting, you wanted nothing more than to roast her in a flame spell. But because your father and stepmother begged the king for it, there wasn't anything you could say.
"What a day," you grumble, tying a ribbon on the flower garlands for the ball. "If Heejoo undermines me one more time, I'll throw her from the second floor balcony. Or roast her. Whichever is the first one to appear in my mind."
Your husband chuckles. "Did something happen?" he inquires as the both of you continue making your way towards the main hall.
"Other than Heejoo telling the maids to switch out the flowers and linens that I had been picking all morning? No, nothing at all," you roll your eyes as you reply sarcastically.
Seokmin glances over at you. He offers you a sympathetic pat on the hand.
"Tell me. If this place was lit on fire, how long do you think it would take them to burn? A few minutes? An hour, tops?" you muttered.
"No arson," Seokmin laughs as he helps you settle down onto the garden chairs for your afternoon tea.
You laugh. "Fire spells are useful." You wiggle your eyebrows as he joins you.
The both of you start to work on the plans for the upcoming events, making changes and comments on the events that would be taking place. You hold back a wince. There had been a bout of morning sickness lately and Seokmin noticed you massaging your stomach earlier.
"Are you hurt?" He reaches over to your hands, cupping them with his. "Y/N?" His voice drops and there's no hiding from him now. He looks so concerned as his eyes narrow into slits, his gaze scouring your body for the source of pain. He's looking at you in a way that warms you from the inside out, his soft voice, full of concern.
It almost hurts to realize just how much this man actually loves you. How much you love him back. It makes you want to do everything and anything you can to make sure this wonderful man in front of you doesn't ever experience sadness in his life. To protect him from everything, his and yours, to ensure that he could smile like that for the rest of your lives.
"My prince," you started, "I need to tell you something very important."
"I'm all ears," he replied, burying his face against the crook of your neck, his large hands holding you close to his warm body.
"You'll have to start being more gentle with me in bed," you whisper, taking one of his hands and guiding it to your stomach, letting it linger.
"Why?" his voice was laced with concern as his head shot up and his brows pulled together, "Am I doing something wrong? Did I hurt you? Did I-"
You press a finger to his lips, shushing his panicked mumbling. "You haven't hurt me, and you didn't do anything wrong. And as for why you should be gentle..." You press his palm firmly against the slight bump on your abdomen.
"...Oh," Seokmin pauses and blinks, realization dawning on him, the tips of his ears pink. He opens his mouth, closes it, swallows hard, and then opens it once more. "OH."
A burst of laughter bubbles from your chest and you find yourself nodding, kissing his chin. "Mhmm...so be a little softer with me, alright?"
"Are you absolutely positive?" Seokmin asked softly, his hand splaying protectively over your belly, his lips ghosting against your hair, "It isn't a mistake?"
"Definitely no mistake," you confirm, "You can ask the palace staff. I've been having horrible morning sickness." You look down, blushing a light pink. "And with the way we've been going at it lately...it would be difficult for it to be any one else's."
He laughs, a sound as lovely as wind chimes, melodic and sweet, "I...uh, guess we do get quite...rambunctious at night."
You tuck your head into the junction of his neck and shoulder, hiding the burning embarrassment as you recall just how many times a day he's been coming to you, eager and wanting.
Not that you didn't welcome him with open arms, his appetite insatiable, his lips worshipping your body and soul.
"Let's announce it at the Summer Ball," he says suddenly, sounding happier than you've ever heard him before. He stands abruptly, hands cupping your flushed cheeks, eyes warm and bright. "It'll be a great celebration."
Your heart melts at the excitement swirling in his brown eyes.
You grin and allow your prince to scoop you in his arms and spin the both of you around in gleeful celebration, squealing with delight. The announcement of an heir, especially a future king or queen, was a joyful event and one to be celebrated.
But in your joy, neither one of you noticed that someone had witnessed your private moment, hiding behind one of the many bushes dotting the beautiful landscape.
You're as big as a whale and you are now in your ninth month of pregnancy. The baby would be arriving at any moment so you've had to stop attending to all the state affairs, letting Seokmin handle them instead. While you were grateful that your husband had been so attentive to you and the growing child in your womb, you found yourself getting bored and restless. You hated being cooped up in your bedroom, unable to do anything else but read. The only good thing about it was that you were able to use your magic to help alleviate some of your aches and pains.
"You're getting bigger," Seokmin notes, pressing a kiss to your swollen stomach.
"I'm going to explode," you groan, your feet up on a small ottoman as he rubs your ankles for you. "I can't believe I'm this huge. I look like a balloon."
"It's a good thing," he grins, "Means that the baby is coming soon. You'll be able to see our child sson."
"Our child. It still feels weird to say that," you giggle, "Who knew the most feared woman in the kingdom would end up as a mother?" You turn to look at him. "Seokmin?"
"Hmmm?" he hums, his eyes closed.
"I love you," you smile softly at him as you speak, your heart full to bursting. You know that you can't keep it a secret for much longer and you want him to know the truth.
The words hit him like a lightning bolt. He goes completely still, his entire body turning rigid, before his eyes flutter open, a stunned expression on his face. "You...You love me?" he stutters, "Did you mean that?"
"Of course, I meant it. What? Were you expecting me to say that I hate you?" you chuckle as you lean forward to kiss him. You pull back slightly, looking into his brown eyes. "I love you, Seokmin."
He beams brightly and you realize that you've never seen him so happy. "I love you too," he whispers against your lips. "I love you so much."
You sigh happily, content with his love, your heart singing with joy at his admission. You have no clue as to how much time has passed with the two of you sitting there and trading sweet kisses and gentle caresses.
"Do you think our child is a boy or girl?" you wonder as you settle comfortably in his embrace.
"Hmmm...As long as our baby is healthy, I don't mind having a little prince or princess," he remarks.
"I have no clue on how to care for a child...what if I am terrible at raising one?" you worriedly mumble as you pick at the embroidery on your dress. "What if I don't make a very good mother?"
"Hey now," Seokmin shifts around, laying flat and guiding you to rest your cheek on his chest. "I'll be beside you every step of the way."
"Don't you find that frightening," you worriedly admit, "the thought of us having a child, being parents, what if our child learns their bad ways from me? Like setting things on fire?" Your words give him pause for a few moments before a light, warm laughter emanates from the deep planes of his chest and out of his lips. "It's not funny! Stop laughing, Seokmin!" You shove him lightly, trying to be firm despite how happy the sound makes you.
His arms tighten around you and he pulls you closer. "You'll be a wonderful mother," Seokmin reassures you as his lips kiss the top of your head. "Because the woman that I love with all my heart would never hurt our child or let anything bad happen to them."
You sniffled. "O-Oh yeah? How are you so sure?" you laugh with a choked voice, your eyes growing wet at his sweet declaration. He always knows what to say and how to make you feel better, and how can a villainess not fall madly in love with such a wonderful person?
"Because the woman I know is kind, understanding and compassionate, patient and hardworking, passionate and fierce."
You reach down to thread his fingers through his own. His hand is warm and big and perfectly fitted to yours, the same warmth, and love emanating through you and spreading from the tips of your fingers.
Seokmin draws slow circles onto your shoulders, his other hand keeping your head against his steady heartbeat. "Everything will work out. No matter what happens, I will be with you," he murmurs softly and you burrow even closer to him, hiding your tears away from view. "And I know I am very happy about meeting my future princess or prince."
"Please stop being so perfect," you mutter.
Seokmin gives a rumbling laugh as you nuzzle against him, sighing softly, and his body curls protectively around yours. His hand runs slowly over your back, up and down the length of your spine, as his soft voice floats around you, and you find your muscles slowly relaxing.
His words fade away into the background, and all you can do is close your eyes as a sweet sleepiness drifts over you, settling deeply into your very core.
Seokmin is working late tonight and you're sitting in your shared rooms, reading reports from Hyunwoo. You rub your round belly absentmindedly, humming to your unborn child when you hear a knock on the door.
"Come in," you call out, your eyes never leaving the words on the paper.
You hear the soft click of the door, the sound of shoes, and a woman's footsteps as she enters. "Your highness," Heejoo curtsies to you.
"Oh," you sigh, "what do you want?" You're tired and your feet are killing you. There's nothing you want more than a hot bath and to sleep. But first, you want this person who is making your life difficult to leave.
"Please forgive me for disturbing your rest," she begins, "but I brought tea and snacks for you." Heejoo gestures to the tray that she had brought with her. "I know the pregnancy has been quite a chore for you and I just wanted to help."
You study her for a few moments, your instincts telling you that something was off, but your tiredness clouded your judgment. You decide to dismiss the feelings and sigh. "Alright." You motion towards her to bring it over.
The corner of her lips curve up, an uncharacteristically malicious expression marring her pretty face. You never catch it since you're pouring over another report. Heejoo puts the tray on your table and pours tea into the cup that sits there, using an herb to infuse its fragrance and a sugar cube to add its sweetness before she mixes it in, her motions a perfect picture of politeness. "My congratulations on the upcoming arrival. The whole family is excited for the newest addition."
"You seem rather chipper," you raise an eyebrow at her as you raise the cup to your lips. The taste was different from the usual tea that your maids would make. There was a strange, bitter flavor to it. You set the cup down, raising an eyebrow. "Something's off."
Heejoo's smile widens. "Oh, it's just a special tea that I made for you."
"Is that so?" You rub your tummy, feeling your child move and kick a little. You then begin to massage the ache. "Thank you. You're dismissed." You wave at her, the aching starting to grow.
Heejoo's frame trembles with hidden mirth at the sight of you drinking the tea without question. "You're quite welcome, sister." She pauses at the threshold and looks over at you, the vicious smirk lingering. "He should have been mine."
"What?" you manage to cough out.
Her smirk grows bigger as she approaches you once more. Her steps are elegant and precise and you suddenly feel nauseous. "Pity the villainess only learns her lesson right when her happily ever after is snatched from under her," she cooes at you, her voice high-pitched as she mockingly pats you on the cheek, her brown eyes filled with hatred. "Well, soon you won't have to worry anymore because you won't be around to know."
Realization sets in, the pain in your abdomen becoming unbearable, your heartbeat accelerates and your vision swirls. "Y-you," you hunch over, crying from the pain and trying to gather your energy.
Heejoo stands straight and clasps her hands together, sighing contentedly, "I'm glad that you were stupid enough to drink it. I will rid this kingdom of both you and your child." She flicks her hair, letting it fall into waves over her slender shoulder, and smiles gleefully at you.
Tears burn the back of your eyes and the pain in your chest swells. "Why are you doing this?" You grunt from pain as you lean against the settee, clutching at the spot over where your heart beats furiously.
"I was supposed to be his bride!" Heejoo screams as her perfectly crafted image comes crashing down. "It was supposed to be me!" she continues, her hand twirling her hair as a manic smile appears, the colors draining from her. "This was supposed to be my happy ending but no, you got in the way when you survived that assassination attempt! You were never meant to be the heroine. How dare you have the gall to take everything from me?!"
You let out a sigh of amusement. "Oh Heejoo..." You shake your head and stand, forcing yourself up, holding your round belly. "YOU took everything from me," you breathe out shakily, the pain unbearable. You close your eyes and breathe out. "The moment your mother married my father," your voice rises and falls sharply. You pant and wipe your hand over your brow. "The moment you and Heecheon were born," your breathing grows deeper and harder. "Everything was handed to you," your knees start to buckle from the lack of oxygen and pressure from the tea. "I'm just taking it all back."
Heejoo cries out in outrage. "Shut up! Everything was supposed to be MINE!" she snaps. "You should have died that night. And yet, here you are. Still alive." Her fists are clenched so hard, her knuckles start to turn white. "That child." A snarl appears on her face as she points at your tummy. "I will not let you have the one thing that should have been mine."
"Don't you dare harm this child!" you roar as you stumble forward, catching yourself with a coffee table. The table toppled and sent the porcelain that sat on its surface flying.
"You can't hurt me," she grins wildly. "Not while you're on death's door." Heejoo puts her finger to her chin, looking thoughtful, her brown eyes twinkling malevolently. "His highness will be so sad," she mocks, "losing a baby and his beloved wife."
Hate. It's the only thing you feel as you listen to her empty self righteous speech. Hate and despair, not just because of the agony the poison had wrought in your body, but because you'll never see your child or your husband again.
Seokmin...he didn't deserve this, you think as your knees buckle and you slump to the ground, trying to drag your body forward, trying to make your limbs move, trying to access your magic. But all you can feel is that sweet numbness coming over your body, seeping slowly and completely into your very core.
"My dearest sister," she spits out and glares, pulling a dagger from her skirts, "it's time for you to die."
She raises her dagger but she never gets the chance to strike you.
Seokmin, who had entered the room to check on you, rushed over to you as the guards surrounded Heejoo. They grabbed her immediately, not that she didn't go willingly. It was useless to fight a losing battle. The guards dragged her out, ignoring her screeching as they locked her up. "Take her to the dungeons," he orders, his eyes never leaving you. He turns to you, taking you in his arms. "Are you alright? Did she hurt you?"
"Seokmin," you breathe out, holding onto him as he picks you up. "I'm...I'm sorry. I was so tired and I...I should have known better than to trust her."
"Shh," he hushes you, pressing a soft kiss to the top of your head, "don't blame yourself." He lays you down on the bed and summons the maids to get a healer. Your body aches from Heejoo's attack and you're still dizzy, feeling the remnants of the tea.
"Your highness," one of the maids calls out, "we need to get the baby out of her." The maids begin to take off your clothes and the healer begins to examine you.
"It's time?" you ask, panic rising in you.
The healer nods. "We need to get the child out now. The poison will be deadly for the child."
Seokmin takes your hand, his other hand rubbing your belly soothingly. "I'm here. I'm not going anywhere." He kisses you gently, whispering words of reassurance.
"You must be strong," the healer says, "the baby must come out."
"Seokmin," you gasp, your fingers squeezing his hand so tight that you're sure it'll bruise. "I'm scared."
"I thought I'll never see the day where my strong wife will admit to being scared." He cups your chin with his free hand, tilting your face up. He pecks you on the lips. "I'm afraid too," he murmurs, resting his forehead against yours, eyes screwed shut and eyebrows furrowed in concentration. He exhales loudly. "This is the hardest thing I ever had to do. I'm terrified to lose the one good thing that happened to me."
Tears stream down your face and you feel the reassuring caress of his hand on the side of your face, his thumb tracing your cheekbone and wiping away the moisture. "Do you...do you think our baby will be alright? Even after what happened?"
He lifts your entangled fingers and places them against the left side of his chest, your palm splaying over his heart. "Our hearts beat the same. And as long as it beats, our baby will be ok." You lean over, nuzzling the side of his face. He catches the tear that threatens to fall off your cheekbone. "And so will you, my love."
"Your highness, it's time," the healer speaks, "it is best for the child to come out now."
Seokmin presses another kiss to your lips, gentle, fleeting. "I'm not going anywhere, okay? Focus on the healer and you can squeeze the life out of me."
With Seokmin's encouragement whispered in your ear, you manage to deliver your baby, weak from poison and exhausted beyond measure. After the baby was delivered, the healers worked on clearing any traces of poison in both you and your baby. Seokmin stayed by your side the whole time, whispering encouragement and apologies, keeping you awake. Once the healers have declared you in the clear, he curls around your frame, spooning you, drawing you closer to him until you could feel his warmth against the whole of your skin.
"Sleep," he sighs against the crook of your neck.
And sleep you did.
You wake up to the sound of soft baby cooing and Seokmin's low murmurings.
"Hello there, my little prince," you hear him say softly as you blink your eyes open.
"Seokmin?" you call out groggily. "Is the baby...is it…"
Seokmin turns to look at you, a bright smile on his face. "Our baby is safe," he informs you, showing you the little bundle that he was cradling in his arms.
You gaze down at the tiny baby, tears forming in your eyes as you see the small child. You reach out, stroking a finger along the chubby cheek. "Hi, there," you whisper, a happy smile spreading across your face, "I'm so happy you're alright." You look up at Seokmin. "What happened to Heejoo? Is she…?"
"She's in prison," he nods, "she'll be there for a long time."
"How is my father and the rest of the family taking it?" you sigh, snuggling closer to your baby. You were surprised at the strong urge to protect your child.
"There's an open investigation against them. There are cases of embellizing funds, tax fraud and abuse of power." He explains as he gets comfortable next to you. "Your family, apart from Hyunwoo, are under house-arrest pending their hearings."
"Hyunwoo is okay?" you ask of your older brother.
"Yes," Seokmin affirms, "He's the only one that hasn't been charged with anything since he's one of the Grand Duke's men. If your father is stripped of his title, then it will go to Hyunwoo since the eldest of a direct line is always the heir."
"But...where do I stand?" you ask worriedly.
"My wife is worried about her reputation," he teases. You hit his shoulder and he yelps out. "You have nothing to worry about. You're one of the Grand Duke's people, the crown princess and most of all, my wife." He places a light kiss to your cheek, smiling against your warm flesh.
"I'm the wife of a fool," you smile affectionately at him, "but at the same time, a strong, powerful man." You kiss him, letting your emotions convey how you felt. When you part from him, you smile and cup his cheek with a gentle palm, thumb running along the apple of it. "Seokmin, I..."
You were saved from uttering your feelings when a loud cry escaped the babe's mouth. "Oh, I guess the little prince is hungry," he grins softly. Seokmin places the child against your chest. "Our child is absolutely perfect and so are you."
The babe nuzzles close to your breast and you lift the garment to let the infant suckle, the soft noises comforting. Seokmin runs his hands over the baby's soft head. "I love you," he murmurs against the side of your head, "I love you so much."
The both of you gaze tenderly upon the small infant, his body relaxed as your smaller frame tenses up before Seokmin squeezes you in a warm embrace. He draws you as close to him, careful not to crush the child nestled against you, his touch gentle and comforting.
"I never thought," Seokmin swallows deeply, "that I can ever love you more than I already have, but the thought of losing you and our child scared me more than anything in the world." He squeezes you closer to him, almost as if he was making sure that the two of you are in fact safe. "I can never love another woman," Seokmin admits, his voice catching as he finally utters his fears, the pressure from his position and his heart. "If that woman isn't you."
You squeeze his hands in return, bringing them up to your face to kiss the knuckles. "You are also the first and only man I will love," you inform him, eyes studying every detail of his beautiful face, a hand reaching up to tangle in his locks. "And I love you so much." You pause as Seokmin blinks slowly before returning your affection, his soft lips meeting yours.
It's a soft kiss, comforting, a simple and intimate gesture of your devotion to one another. As your mouths move in tandem, his hand cups the side of your cheek and brings your head closer to him, making you almost lean into his embrace, into his warm, loving presence.
Pulling away, his breathing is heavy and his eyes remain locked onto yours, gazing at you lovingly and with a new-found fervor. The pad of his thumb strokes your cheekbone. He stares at you and your own mouth hangs open, your breath falling from your lips in deep inhales and exhales as he stares at you. You lean closer into his hand and his eyes are liquid amber, radiating with desire and affection. He lifts the small hand of the little bundle into the air and the child clutches at his father's larger hand.
Seokmin gives the back of the babe's hand a sweet kiss, his eyes locked onto you, and you can almost hear the words that hover in the air. You hope to see more of this loving and adoring father as your little family grows.
"I'm the villainess and you're the perfect crown prince," you tell him after some time, "and yet, here we are with a happy ending. For me, for you and most importantly, for our child."
Seokmin leans into your frame, hugging you, the three of you pressed up against one another. "Yes," he agrees softly. "This is the start of the beginning for us." He snuggles his face into the side of your neck, nipping at the exposed skin with his lips. "Let's make more babies. Lots of them," he mumbles against the crook of your shoulder.
You can only chuckle, patting the top of his head. "One at a time, husband," you whisper teasingly, "One at a time."