i know i said i’ve forgiven them but i don’t think i do or that i ever can.
everything still hurts so deeply, i cry over thoughts, memories and screenshots, everything.
i tried so hard and they both hurt me so badly because they couldn’t think about how everything was affecting me.
i wish it didn’t affect me but it still does, all of it, to this day.
every time i go over things with my therapist, it’s like i’m scratching at an open wound. they left me like this while they act like nothing happened.
did i even exist to either of you?
neither of you did anything to make up for what happened, for how you’ve made me feel.
did i matter or were you both that selfish about being with each other?