Summary: The illusion of the "proper girl" shatters when Leander confronts the jagged reality of the Slytherins' injuries. Realizing the "fever" was a ruse to slip away with Sebastian, Leander rushes to the Hospital Wing. His initial desire to protect her—even after discovering the devastating clinical news of her infertility—is instantly poisoned by the realization of her "betrayal." Viewing her choice of the forest over the victory party as a personal humiliation, Leander abandons his "investment," leaving a cold, final note that severs their future forever.
Characters: Leander Prewett, Sebastian Sallow, Ominis Gaunt (cameo).
Word Count: ~950 words
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Leander noticed the cracks in the world first during Herbology.
Professor Garlick was discussing the temperament of Venomous Tentacula, but Leander wasn’t listening. His gaze was fixed on the workstation across the greenhouse. Sebastian Sallow was a walking wreckage; an angry, jagged scratch bisected his cheek, and the left sleeve of his school shirt was darkened with fresh blood. Beside him, Ominis Gaunt was even worse, his skin mottled with strange, ink-black bruises that seemed to pulse with a life of their own.
But it was her absence that turned the dread in Leander’s stomach into a cold, heavy stone.
He remembered the "fever" from the night before—the way she had looked so small and fragile when she’d told him she needed to rest. He had believed her. He had spent the victory party making excuses for her, playing the part of the concerned, devoted partner while his teammates toasted to his success. Now, looking at the bruised and silent Slytherins, the realization hit him like a physical blow: she hadn't been in bed.
The moment class was dismissed, Leander didn't head for the Great Hall. He intercepted Sebastian in the connecting corridor, his movements aggressive and fast.
He shoved Sebastian hard against the stone wall, the impact echoing through the hallway. He didn't use a wand; he used his hands, gripping Sebastian’s robes and shaking him with a strength fueled by pure, survivalist rage. The physical pain of the impact did nothing to Sebastian; it was a distant, insignificant sting compared to the crushing weight of the image burned into his mind—the sight of her, pale and broken, on that hospital bed.
"Where is she?" Leander hissed, his face inches from Sebastian’s.
Sebastian didn't resist. He didn't even sneer. He looked at Leander with eyes so sunken and exhausted they looked like hollowed-out sockets. He was a dead weight in Leander’s grip, his silence the loudest admission of guilt Leander had ever heard.
"WHERE IS SHE?" Leander roared, his voice cracking, shoving him again against the walls.
"Hospital Wing," Sebastian whispered, the words sounding like they were being dragged over broken glass.
Leander let go as if the fabric of Sebastian’s robes had suddenly turned to fire, shoving him aggressively one last time against the stone wall. "You’ll pay for this, Sallow," he spat, his voice trembling with a dark promise. He didn't wait for a response. He ran.
The Hospital Wing was a tomb of white linen and the sharp, clinical scent of dittany. He pushed past the heavy doors and found her behind the white curtains at the far end of the ward. She was unconscious, her face a deathly, translucent white. Her breathing was a rhythmic, fragile rasp that made his own lungs ache.
Panic seized him. He needed to know the damage. He needed to know if she was still the future he had staked his reputation on. He spotted the Healer’s clipboard resting on the nightstand. With trembling fingers, he snatched it up, his eyes scanning past a routine list of minor allergies and underlying conditions, only to stop when they snagged on a single, clinical word: Infertile.
A wave of visceral nausea washed over him, followed immediately by a frantic, calculating sort of grief.
He thought of his mother’s letter—the demand for "big numbers" and "healthy grandchildren." But as he looked at the girl on the bed, he didn't immediately feel hate. He felt a desperate need to protect his investment. I can make this work, he thought, his mind racing through a dozen different lies he could tell the manor. He could claim the report was a mistake, or better yet, use her status as the 'Hero of Hogwarts' to shame his parents into silence. She was a legend; surely that was worth more than a few heirs? He could shield her. He could keep this secret for her, becoming her only ally against the weight of the Prewett name. For a moment, his love for her—distorted as it was by his need for control—surged, and he reached out to touch her hand.
But then his eyes drifted to the timestamp of the admission—recorded barely hours after she had pleaded for rest and slipped away to her dormitory. The timeline was an indictment. And the nature of the injuries was a checklist of horrors: deep lacerations, critical loss of blood, magical core critically depleted (level III), impact of a direct dark spell to the chest, severe magical backlash, prolonged exposure to Forbidden Forest spores, and a status of medically induced coma to manage internal hemorrhaging.
The "fever" was a lie. The "rest" was a ruse. She hadn't been sick; she had acted that fever so well he had truly believed her, laughing at his concern while she slipped away into the dark with the one person she knew he hated.
The realization turned his blood to ice. He hadn't been her protector; he had been her fool. While he was standing in the Common Room defending her absence to his cousins and teammates, she was in a cave with Sallow, risking the very legacy he was prepared to lie to his parents to save.
His paranoia sparked into a white-hot flame. He imagined them together—Sebastian’s hands on her, their shared whispers about the "Star Captain" who was too stupid to see through a simple act. He saw her silence not as a symptom of a coma, but as the final, ultimate defiance. She had chosen the mud over the silk. She had chosen the orphan over the Prewett.
The love he had felt moments ago curdled into a cold, permanent resentment. She wasn't a victim; she was a traitor.
He grabbed a scrap of parchment and a quill, his hand shaking so violently the ink splattered across the wood. He didn't write a plea. He wrote a sentence that felt like a sentence of death.
“I will not be the punchline to a joke you and Sallow share. Do not look for me when you wake; there is nothing left to save.”
He didn't sign it. He placed the note on her bedside table, his eyes lingering on her pale face one last time—not with love, but with the clinical disgust of a man looking at a wasted investment.
He fled the Hospital Wing, his heart heavy with a bitterness that would define him for years. The dream of the Prewett bride was dead, and as he stepped out into the sunlight of the corridor, he began the process of erasing her from his history, convinced that every kindness he had ever shown her had been a weapon she’d used against him.
The Psychology of Transgression and Guilt
Magritte’s The Son of Man immediately captivates with its two central symbols: the apple and the figure’s formal attire. The apple, suspended in front of the man’s face, evokes not only the biblical narrative of Eden but also the Oedipal Complex, where transgression against the father’s law leads to guilt. In the biblical tale, Adam consumes the forbidden fruit offered by Eve, symbolizing the birth of self-awareness, shame, and the burden of guilt. In this painting, the man’s face is concealed behind the apple, echoing the unresolved guilt from that original transgression.
From a psychoanalytic perspective, the apple mirrors the child’s desire for the mother and the violation of paternal boundaries, evoking the tension between desire and punishment. Before consuming the apple, Adam was unaware of his nakedness, just as the child, before transgressing paternal laws, is innocent of their own desires. Magritte’s man, in contrast, is fully dressed—his body covered by a formal suit, suggesting an overcompensation for that earlier transgression. His attire, like the suit of a corporate leader, represents conformity to societal rules and the defensive structures built to contain one’s hidden impulses.
However, it’s the apple that holds the deepest psychological weight. By hiding the man’s face—his core of identity and expression—it creates a psychological tension between the desire to be seen and the fear of being exposed. For a leader or executive, this speaks to the unconscious burden carried beneath the polished exterior, where the drive for success is continually shaped by the fear of transgression and the guilt of overstepping social or professional boundaries.
The Suit as a Symbol of Conformity and Defense
The man’s formal attire serves as more than just a uniform of professionalism—it becomes a psychological defense. The suit, much like the hat perched atop his head, symbolizes social status and conformity, a way to signal adherence to the expectations of society, much like corporate leaders navigate the demands of shareholders, regulatory bodies, and industry norms. Yet, behind this polished exterior, the apple remains—a reminder that no matter how much we align ourselves with social structures, the hidden burden of guilt and the desire to transgress still linger beneath the surface.
Leaders who resonate with this painting might feel an unconscious connection to this duality of identity. On one hand, they must project a facade of control, success, and conformity. On the other, they may grapple with the weight of unresolved guilt from past decisions or actions—choices that, like the apple, remain hidden from public view but deeply influence their sense of self.
Transgression, Authority, and the Pursuit of Power
The Oedipal Complex present in this work also extends into the realms of power and authority. The apple, symbolizing forbidden desire, creates a tension with the suit, a marker of societal success and control. For those drawn to this painting, it may evoke a subconscious acknowledgment of the transgressive impulses that often drive ambition—the desire to challenge authority and push past boundaries, while simultaneously seeking approval from the very structures they seek to defy.
For executives or professionals who might display this work, The Son of Man serves as a psychological mirror, reflecting the internal struggles faced in their journey toward leadership. The fear of exposure, the guilt of transgression, and the need for external validation all intertwine within the image. It reminds us that no matter how elevated one becomes in status or authority, the unconscious drive to rebel and the weight of guilt are never fully erased.
The Apple as the Unconscious Burden of Guilt
At its core, the apple not only hides the man’s face but represents the guilt of wanting more—more power, more success, more control. In leadership, this often translates into a continuous striving for achievement while carrying the fear of overstepping boundaries. The man’s face, hidden yet central, reminds us that in the pursuit of success, there is always a part of the self that remains concealed—driven by past transgressions and the desire to surpass societal limitations.
For those drawn to this painting, it could signal an unconscious recognition of the cost of ambition—that the pursuit of power, while necessary, also comes with a burden of guilt and the need to reconcile one’s hidden desires with public expectations.
Juliana de Roussel, who died in 1669, left an album amicorum in which she records her likes – art, poetry, social status – alongside carefully painted dedications and sketches from her female friends, like the allegory of suitors (see above). A few pages on, de Roussel is painted by a male friend, Alexander von Burgckstorff, with a flattering couplet alluding to happy times spent together: Bon vin, belle Dames et bonne viande, Pendu soyt il qui plus demande ('Good wine, fair ladies and good meat: hang the man who asks for more'). Perhaps the flirtatious von Burgckstorff was one of the suitors de Jiaukama painted.
"The Notebook: A History of Thinking on Paper" - Roland Allen
On the day she lost her child stillborn, Evelyn Vyche narrowly escaped her hunters and survived.
She found refuge in a place called Herzen amidst the heavy rain.
‘The mansion where corpses appear without warning…’
Despite knowing the eerie rumors about the Duke’s mansion, Evelyn couldn’t refuse the head maid’s request to become a wet nurse.
She had been caring for the Duke’s daughter, who was blonde-haired like her dead baby for a month. It was then she first encountered the owner of the mansion in the garden on a summer night.
“Who are you?”
“Ple, pleasure to meet you, Sir. I’m Evelyn, the nanny to Miss Johanson.”
“A nanny.”
The Duke, who had been gently stroking her hair, then moved his hand lower.
“You smell sweet.”
“Sometimes, my, my milk leaks….”
After his hand brushed her cheek and chin, and traveled down her neck, Evelyn held her breath.
“Unbutton your clothes.”
As she doubted her ears and stood frozen, the Duke spoke again.
“Unbutton your clothes. I’m curious about what the child has been eating.”
Claiming that there is equality of opportunity in our society is a fallacy. A random middle class Slovenian guy didn't have as many opportunities as Barron Trump.