Single Card Daily Reading
05/13/2026 - Inverted Nine of Swords
** Unfortunately, this is ATTEMPT NUMBER THREE of trying to post on this god-forsaken app. At first, I misinterpreted this card and wrote up something that was entirely wrong. Of course, that was on me. I’m getting back into the swing of daily readings, and with that mistakes and misreadings will happen. All necessary in the pursuit of sustained knowledge and strengthening my psychic practice. However, I did some research and returned to this reading with further clarity, only to have my write-up completely lost to a nefarious ERROR message while saving a draft. I was about to ragequit this entire endeavor, but I’m naplocked by my sweet baby right now, and his cuddles are pacifying my anger. While in this position, there is not much I can do other than “play on my phone” so I might as well try to type my thoughts up again. I’ll try to leave the vitriol to the side while I lament on the day I’ve had.
Anyway, here is an approximation of my prior interpretation of this day’s card:
Depression and anxiety controlled much of my day. I felt it coming on yesterday, but it was this morning I really became consumed by fear. These past two days, I haven’t been getting much done around my house. My to-do list is longer than my arm, but it feels like I’m dragging myself from task to task. I’ve been down on myself, feeling like I don’t do enough as a mother. That I can’t provide my son the future he so clearly deserves. And, these judgements towards myself have only been compounded by a deep existentialism I cannot escape.
I was reading too much into AI data centers today and their impact on the environment, and I was overwhelmed by the urge to throw my phone into a lake. You may think I’m over-reacting, and I would immediately disagree as someone who protested the DAPL at Standing Rock years ago. This issue is huge. It’s bigger than anything I’ve ever protested. And, I do fear a future where my son won’t have clean drinking water cause my FB mutuals wanted ugly AI cartoon profile pictures.
I want to completely quit using the internet sometimes. I feel a push towards the most radical choice. I can’t even google information about AI without seeing an AI overview positioned at the top of the page above articles written by real people. It may sound cliche, but we are truly living in a dystopia, and I’m not ashamed to say I’m scared. The worst part? I can’t even quit the internet. I’m trying to launch a small business from home, and I can’t even do that without the internet.
I do recognize that I wouldn’t even have the opportunity to start my jewelry business without the aid of technology/the internet, but why must every social media app I use to advertise integrate generative AI everywhere?? I hate it. I absolutely hate it.
These anxieties stemming from political, social, and ecological issues are at the forefront of my mind today, and it is making me depressed. It even began to have a physical effect on my body in the form of a mild stress migraine which lingered all day. I didn’t get really anything done because of it.
I believe this card was ultimately advising me to reach out for help. When my fiancé came home, I briefly vented to him about my existential dread. He did make me feel a little better, but I don’t know if that small comfort will be enough. Maybe I should reach out to friends, or perhaps seek counseling. The only thing preventing me from finding a counselor is my busy schedule as a mom, but it might be necessary. Ultimately, the thing pulling me through all of this is the cherubic child resting on my chest as I type all of this. My son’s smile is the most spiritually and mentally healing product I’ve ever had, and I’m hoping that will be enough for me to pull out of this funk.
If you took the time to read all of this, thank you so much! I’ll see you in the next post!
