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[lookforanewangle]

what happened to saturn/steadfastsaturnsrings :( where did you gooooo

[lookforanewangle]

Hi!

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HI SATURN I am so sorry this is so late!! I completely missed this ask 💀😭 I think this one was refresh my pinnterest and make a mood board of the first four images?

[gayeddies]

Hello! ☺️

Just popping into your inbox to say I love all your edits they are so amazing! 😍

Have a lovely day!

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thank you 🥺🥺🥺🥺❤️❤️❤️❤️

[glorious-spoon]

Hello! ☺️

Do you have any more of the alternate universes fic to share? Or can you link me to previous snippets? I would love to read more ☺️

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hey, hey! i haven't formally posted any of the fic (and i don't have a separate tag for it because i'm not that organized, lol) but it's the main one i've been writing on and off all summer, so most of the recent stuff in my WIPs tag is for that! i hope to finish and start posting it in the not too distant future, so stay tuned. :D

and thank you!!

[martyreddie]

Omg it’s your birthday?!

Happy birthday!!!!!!!!! 🩷🩷🩷

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thank you!!!!! 😊💜💜

[glorious-spoon]

Hey! ☺️

I LOVED what you wrote about Eddie vs free will and why you like exploring it so much, I’d love to hear more of your thoughts :)

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yesss definitely!! i have so many thoughts on this lmao.

part one is that eddie tends to present his choices (both in his own head and when he's trying to justify them to other people) as not actually choices at all, but situations where there was no other option available to him. he absolutely hates to ask for help or admit that he needs it, which i think is probably a reaction to his overbearing and smothering childhood, where making mistakes or admitting that he didn't know what he was doing was treated as proof that he was intrinsically incompetent.

(cut because this got long)

but like, he makes these choices, and he's very unwilling to admit that they were choices. shannon's the one who makes it explicit in 'eddie begins', when she tells him that he keeps saying he didn't have a choice but he's the one who keeps making these choices for the rest of them. and she's right, is the thing; he presents re-upping as the only available option, so much so that it didn't warrant any discussion with the other adult who'll be affected by his decision to do it. he's totally unwilling to hear any of the other suggestions that she offers, because that would mean that it's possible he made a choice that was the wrong choice. and he can't cope with that, so he can't listen to her.

and this leads into part two, which is that once he's made a decision he tends to present it as a fait accompli, almost an act of god, something that absolutely cannot be changed no matter how any of the people involved (including him!) feel about it. it doesn't matter how he feels about ana; he made the decision to date her, so he's got to stick it out. it doesn't matter that nobody, including him, actually wants him to stay in el paso; he already applied for a job and bought a house, so that's that - like, it's notable there that he never presents any reasoning for why he's choosing to stay, up to and including chris, who was the reason he went in the first place. he just acts like it's a done deal until chim more or less forces his hand.

and i think all of this combines to make him incredibly avoidant when it comes to emotionally difficult choices. it's what leads him to string shannon along, because he can't decide if he should let her meet chris, and then doesn't know if they should try again to make their marriage work; it's why he's hiding out at buck's loft instead of making a decision about what to do about marisol; it's frankly at the root of a lot of his hot and cold behavior toward buck in the past season. he's so terribly afraid of making a choice that turns out to be the wrong one that he doesn't really get that not doing so is also a choice.

that's really the root thesis of that one WIP of mine: forcing eddie to confront that he DOES and HAS made choices, that he has agency when it comes to what happens to him and how he lives his life, and that he could, in fact, make different choices - that all is not lost forever the instant he makes a mistake.

[glorious-spoon]

Hi!

Tell me about

alternate universes eddie fic

Post s8 roommates fight

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:DD!

alternate universes eddie fic i talked about a bit here, but here's another (mildly NSFW) snippet:

In the morning, Buck makes pancakes. It feels like some sort of romcom cliche, or maybe like a lingering dream, when Eddie rolls out of his empty bed and wanders bleary-eyed into the kitchen to find Buck at the stove, apron tied over his pajamas, flipping a pancake neatly onto the waiting stack. He glances up and smiles when Eddie comes in. Through the doorway, Eddie can see Chris at the dining room table, curls messy, slouched over his phone with a mug in front of him that contains, if his own Chris is any indication, a sugar and cream concoction with a small splash of coffee for color. And it is, because this Chris is his Chris, and this Buck is his Buck, and it's only Eddie who's different here. Better. More honest, or at least less of a coward. "Morning," Eddie rasps, self-consciously wary. It's odd to look at Buck in the light of day and remember kissing him, clawing at his shoulders, begging for his cock. He keeps feeling like it's something they should talk about, or at least guiltily avoid talking about until it spills out all over everything. He keeps having to remind himself that all this is normal here. That it's allowed.

and then the post-s8 roommates fight, for a completely different flavor of tension, lmao:

Eddie's just watching him with a sharp, unreadable expression that Buck hates. He used to be able to read all of Eddie's expressions. He breathes out hard through his nose, frustrated, and says, "It was a one time thing," and then wonders why he feels like he needs to justify it at all. Sure, he's not planning on getting back with Tommy, especially not after that disaster of a morning after. But that's not Eddie's business. Eddie's his friend and current, sort-of, landlord, and that's it. That's what they are to each other. He's got no right to be pissed off about Buck having sex in his own bed when he wasn't even in the same state, let alone the same house. "You were in Texas," he says again, and he doesn't mean it like that, except that maybe he does, a little bit. There's a mean little part of him that likes the way Eddie flinches before he buttons it down and curls his lip. "Yeah, sounds like you didn't waste any time." "What the hell is that supposed to mean?"

[glorious-spoon]

Hi!

I am coming into your inbox to scream with you about IT!!! I had no idea you have written for IT!!

I was just looking for one of your IT fanfics from 2022 (I didn’t know it was yours at the time) (it was fruit from a forbidden tree—ahhh such a good fic! Especially the part where Eddie remembers young Richie back at niebolt cupping his face, sorry it’s been awhile so the details are a bit hazy at the moment) but I was thinking about fics that changed my view of canon and this was one of them! I just love the fic so much and I am so happy I found it again and can’t wait to reread it!

Also It’s so so cool that you also enjoy 911 too!! So cool to find another person who enjoys multiple of the same fandoms as me!

I just think it’s so cool to have enjoyed your fanfic all the way back in 2022 before I made a tumblr when I was only into IT to have now refound the fic 3ish years later and see that you are still writing fanfics that I love for a different fandom!

Have a lovely day ☺️

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ahhhh thank you so much!! i was never super active in the IT fandom on tumblr, but it was so much fun, and i'm so so happy to hear that you liked that fic, because i had an awesome time writing it.

it's always so cool to run into the same people in a totally different fandom - it really is such a small world in some ways, lol.

i hope you also have a beautiful day!!