trying to grain this concept into my brain. when i'm at my happiest, at my most confident, and feeling so positive, i speak in suit. i can shrug off the small stuff, look at things practically, think rather than speak, etc. i have productive work days and keep myself busy with fun friends and uplifting plans. i cross things off of my bucket list. i laugh. i even listen better. so, how to make this a habit in the oh so dreary winter months that frequently let my inner negative twin take over my voice? i call her ursula. yes after the little mermaid. she's big. and evil. though i will request you envision the ursula in human lusty brunette lady form, as opposed to octopus legs chick. anywho, my brain begins to feel a bit angsty. a bit anxious. and i tend to believe it's best for the world if i just keep my head down and go about my way. the thing is, i'm getting a bit frustrated with this frame of mind. actually quite peeved (peeved, good lord, now i'm a 47 year old housewife). i so desperately want a cure to this. i know things don't work like that, but what are the steps to get to this thinking. without anti-depressants. ha! just like most things, this is a habit. habits are breakable. so i sit here and i research and i read. i blog and i talk. all with the single hope, that at the very least, by the end of this month i will have figured out a way to make a better habit of thinking positively. good news: i am hopeful. off to a great start.
