Feb 19, 2022
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so my friend and i jokingly started making headcanons for Sugawara/Terushima but then my brain actually started loving them and now...... yeah ❤️
cold and wet and “Please stay the night. I really don’t mind. I wouldn’t feel right knowing you’re sleeping by yourself.” forrrrrr TeruSuga
Koushi hadn’t seen him in years. Not since The Incident. But now he was soaking wet, and on Koushi’s doorstep.
“I didn’t know where else to go,” was all Terushima said. He didn’t look Koushi in the face. Then he sighed, ran a wet hand over his wet hair. “This was a bad idea. I’m just gonna go.” He turned to leave, and Koushi knew what he was about to do was going to change everything, but he did it anyway.
He reached out, and pinched Terushima’s sleeve. “Please. Come in.” Koushi gently tugged Terushima inside and shut the door behind them. He wandered down the hallway to the washroom to get the man a towel. When Koushi returned, Terushima hadn’t even shed his shoes; he hadn’t moved at all.
Koushi dropped the towel on Terushima’s head and began gently rubbing it dry. “Just what have you gotten yourself into?” he asked gently. Terushima let out a sarcastic snort.
“You don’t even want to know, babe.” The old term of endearment nearly tore Koushi’s heart in two. Instead, he focused on getting Terushima dry.
“Bathroom is down the hall on the left. Go get warm. I’ll get you some dry clothes.” Terushima shuffled down the hall and disappeared through the door. When Koushi heard the shower turn on, he collapsed against the wall and took a deep breath.
The last time he’d seen Terushima, they were getting ready to sign the lease on the very apartment Koushi now called home. Then, he’d vanished. Disappeared. No one had heard from him in years. And now he was here, he was back, and he was in Koushi’s apartment, showering.
Shaking his mind from nostalgia, Koushi went to his bedroom closet and looked for clothes he knew would fit Terushima. He found an old pair of sweats and the old Johzenji t-shirt Koushi had stolen what felt like a lifetime ago.
Koushi placed them on the vanity in the bathroom, and went to the kitchen to make tea. He knew from experience that Terushima wasn’t a fan, but Koushi needed the warmth and the calm.
Just as his tea had finished steeping, he heard Terushima shuffle into the kitchen behind him.
“Thanks for the clothes. But I should probably go.” Koushi turned and looked at him. The t-shirt fit tighter around his arms and shoulders than it had before The Incident. Koushi knew this was going to be a bad idea, but he said the words anyway.
“Just stay the night. I really don’t mind. I wouldn’t feel right knowing you’re sleeping by yourself. There’s a blanket over the back of the couch, and a spare pillow in the ottoman. Make yourself at home.” With a small smile, Koushi took his tea and went to his bedroom, shutting the door behind him.
The man who had vanished from Koushi’s life, and stolen his heart, was now out in Koushi’s living room. Whatever mess he’d gotten himself into could be dealt with in the morning. For now, Koushi wanted to focus on his tea, his book, and not crying into his pillow.
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happy haikyuu!! day i wrote some smut to celebrate!!
Rating: Explicit
Pairing: Sawamura Daichi/Sugawara Koushi/Terushima Yuuji
Content Warnings: tw for gunplay and knifeplay!
Suga audibly gulps and laces his fingers together, nodding. Daichi reaches for the gun. “Is this what you want?”
“Yes.” It comes out on an exhale, wide, dark eyes silently begging.
Daichi brings the gun up to Suga’s mouth. “Open.”
So I’ve written two fanfictions now, Star Child (which has chapter 5 back up, sorry about that) and this monstrosity (a TeruSuga one-shot that’s 100% self-indulgent, you should check it out, it’s awful and i love it)
and i think they really reflect how my relationship perspectives have changed.
with star child i was trying so hard to Do My Best, and saw relationships as equal to support in a way. i fed off of the positive feedback i received from that fic like nobody’s business. it took a lot of hard work, and i felt so rewarded for it just by the positive responses i got. now, though, it’s hard to look back at what i wrote and think positively about it, because it hurts to see myself trying so very hard for what is, objectively speaking, so very little (fanfiction writers, you know what i mean. kudos feels great, but it don’t pay the bills)
now, i’m more or less just doing what i feel like, i’ve been forced to pick and choose what to care about in order to preserve my mental health, and i don’t know what’s going on but I’m happy with it. i have a boyfriend, and he’s not perfect, but i like him very much and he likes me back. and we support each other, and we talk a lot, and that’s really enough for me. and i think i’ll be able to re-read my own fic like three years down the road and be like, omg cringe but damn did i have fun writing it.
i don’t know, i think i’m in a better place. idk that my writing has gotten any better though lol!!!
anyway, please read good boy, a short and spicy fuck-buddies-but-it-works-out story that appears to be a strange manifestation of my psyche
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My gift for @miss-fandoms-shakespeare for the @haikyuusecretsanta! Hope you enjoy <33
Title: Getting Out of The House Isn’t Always Bad Pairing: TeruSuga, mentions of EnnoTana Rating: T Word Count: 1338 [If Any] Trigger Warnings/Author Notes: N/A Summary:
He grinned and leaned forward conspiratorially, stealing a grape off Ennoshita’s plate in the process and earning a squawk of protest. “So, what do ya have planned tonight? Got a hot date with the boyf?”
“Uh, sort of. My old high school, Karasuno, is having a reunion in the form of a Christmas party at Ryuu’s house tonight.” His eyes lit up for a second. “Speaking of which, would you like to come? Since you’ve got nothing else planned for tonight and I don’t trust you alone.”
“What, and watch you and your hot boyfriend make out? Absolutely.”
“I’m not letting you watch us make out, Terushima.”
Haikyuu!! Masterlist
A list of all the fics I’ve written for Haikyuu!! Will be updated as I write more!
Multichaptered
Fruitless (E)
Pairing: Akaashi Keiji/Bokuto Koutarou
Chapters: 15/15
Summary:
Fruitless: failing to achieve the desired results; unproductive or useless.
If a serial killer was standing right in front of you, would you know?
Untucking (E)
Pairing: Akaashi Keiji/Bokuto Koutarou
Chapters: 4/?
Summary:
Akaashi Keiji is a drag queen who tries to maintain his privacy as he best he can in order to protect his four year old son, Tobio, from the life he lives at night. He’s done a pretty good job with this until one night he seductively lip syncs on stage to a man in the crowd, a man who he will discover is his son’s new daycare teacher. Bokuto Koutarou immediately flips Akaashi’s world upside down and it becomes a lot harder to protect himself and his son from prying eyes.
Black and Blue Heart (M)
Pairing: Sugawara Koushi/Ushijima Wakatoshi
Chapters: 10/10
Summary:
Sugawara Koushi has been in an abusive relationship for the past three years and when he has finally had enough, he flees after a particularly bad night.
He does not know that on this night he is going to meet the man that is going to heal his black and blue heart.
Time (M)
Pairing: Sawamara Daichi/Sugawara Koushi
Chapters: 5/5
Summary:
Daichi grabbed the phone and pressed it to his ear, “Hello?”
“Daichi,” Suga’s mother said immediately. Her voice was gentle but he could hear her breaking. This was definitely not good. “Daichi, Koushi’s been in an accident.”
He bolted out the door.
Wisteria (T)
Pairing: Oikawa Tooru/Ushijima Wakatoshi
Chapters: 4/4
Summary:
Wisteria: used to express affection after meeting someone special for the first time or serious devotion whether to a cause or a person Oikawa Tooru was having a terrible morning, taking the phrase waking up on the wrong side of the bed literally. He was extremely late for work, but things seemed to fall into place when he stumbled upon a small flower shop that appeared to have been broken into and robbed.
Tastes So Sweet (T)
Pairing: Semi Eita/Sugawara Koushi
Chapters: 3/3
Summary:
Semi has everything he could ever want. He plays sold out shows almost every night for a majority of the year with his best friends and sees places most people could only dream of. But, of course, there’s something missing. It’s love.
Comes in Waves (T)
Pairing: Akaashi Keiji/Bokuto Koutarou
Chapters: 11/11
Summary:
Every night he is woken by the waves, crashing over him; suffocating. Everyday is he haunted by the rush of water in his ear doing somersaults against his ear drums. Everyday is another attempt to escape, but he cannot.
One-Shots Under the Cut!
“Are you scared…Then why won’t you look at the screen?” TeruSuga
Was feeling very Teru-y today, thanks to that sweet nonnymouse and some other stuff, so here we go with this short and sweet thing.
Koushi looks out of the corner of his eye, watching the way that Terushima holds the tiny throw pillow to his chest, face only lit by the light coming from the tv. He’s not quite looking at the tv, though, Koushi can tell. His eyes are on the blinking numbers of the clock just underneath it, and every so often he cringes and raises the pillow a little higher.
“Are you scared?” Terushima jumps at his voice and looks over, frowning and shaking his head in a no. “Then why won’t you look at the screen?”
“I am.” Koushi raises an eyebrow, and Terushima’s frown turns into a pout. “M’not scared, Kou. Just…tired.”
“Yuuji, it’s barely 6 o’clock. And you slept til at least noon, I know you did.”
Terushima wrinkles his nose, and Koushi tries to resist the urge to kiss him. It doesn’t work, and he leans in to press a sweet kiss to Terushima’s tiny pout instead, dragging a little smile out of him. “Why you like being mean to me, Kou?”
“Cause you’re cute.”
Koushi turns back to the tv, but this time he snuggles up against Terushima’s side, draping his blanket over them both. It’s warm and cozy, and even though Terushima still only pretends to watch, Koushi’s happy to be with him. After a while Terushima gives up pretending, nuzzling his face into Koushi’s chest instead, shifting and settling until he’s comfortable, napping quietly as Koushi finishes his movie.