2018は
Hey Happy new year 2018, and I hope everybody has super nice each day on the year.
Looking back from 2016, it was indescribably painful. In particular one of the reason must be this, My BF and I broke up after 4 years and half dating. I felt like I lost another my self and got depressed so much long time. I was tryna get back together but I couldn’t. it’s just every choice I make, everything I do, I disappointed him. It takes me almost a year to realise he never comes back.
One more thing was 就活 of that year.
I failed. I overwhelmed. That’s it. I wasn’t good at this. I will never do 就活 again.
Then 2017, this was almost busiest and hard in different way from 2016.
I believed that I would be in Rakuten but I’m not a member of them now, I made a big choice not to be in and it changed my career.
I still don’t know and I might not be going to know whether it is right or not. Anyway I’m trying to adopt this environment with lots of new IT vocabularies and knowledges.
I was totally unremarkable girl in the world, だけど今は I am trying to being different.
今年も、また特別な年になりますように。
日本語で書くの少し恥ずかしかったから、英語で。
アカデミックな場で勉強し続けていない限り、どんどんボキャブラリーも減ってくな。
I should deliberately use English to brush it up.
According to しいたけ占い、this year for me would be “supports someone a lot”. af I just wonder I support who?
占いも気にしすぎず、自分らしく、生きていく！