for accuracy, close your eyes and take a deep breath before picking.
pile one
the lovers, seven of cups, ace of pentacles
in the future, you will meet someone who truly understands you like the back of their hand. this union has been a long time coming, so it's important that you fully open your heart for this person so they can free you from the past that haunted you for so long. this person will make your wildest dreams come true because they know how much those visions mean to you. they may not know what's best for you, but that's something only you know for yourself. many tough decisions are made through your imagination, seeing where your eternal happiness leads you through all the endless possibilities, but it's important not to fall completely out of reality. you will have the world at your fingertips, where anything you want to pursue is limitless. physical and mental barriers become nonexistent. you're confidence and creativity are what helps you thrive freely in the world. you will also prioritize your mental health because there will be times when you feel overwhelmed with all your responsibilities. overall, you will be embracing the new rather than returning to the old. a new job that pays more, a new home in a better city, new relationships where you feel valued, etc. for once, you feel safe being in your own skin. this is just the start of your journey to success, and you're finally ready to follow the road towards your dreams that at first seemed too impossible to reach. you could be turning 16, 17, 21, 26, 27, 31, 36, or 37.
pile two
page of cups, nine of swords, wheel of fortune
in the future, you want to go back to when times were simpler. you will watch the tv shows you grew up with, listen to music from your childhood, reconnect with those from your past, etc. even when the state of the world becomes more uncertain, you still yearn to enjoy your time. you also become more extroverted, attending parties, hanging out with friends, and adopting a new style that fills you with contentment. you're more empathetic towards others because you understand their struggle with grasping reality for what it is. focusing on the past does bring you anxiety for what's to come next, but you manage it through therapy, medicine, and meditation. prior mental health issues are finally diagnosed and tackled, helping you function easier. you will spend a lot of time nurturing yourself and building back up what had fallen. eventually, you're shedding old skin and opening your eyes to what really matters to you. in this process of growing, you meet your soul tribe, who end up becoming your support system and one of the reasons why you keep living for yourself. you develop a deep love for life outside of the superficial things and fleeting thrills. times moves too fast to ponder on the hurts, what could have been, and where you went wrong. you realize that everything happens for a reason and that this is just another phase into the next one. you could be turning 19, 29, or 39.
pile three
ten of wands, three of swords, eight of cups
in the future, you're learning to stray away from toxic cycles. it hurts you to let these things go because they were in your life for a long time, but it's the only way to move onto bigger and better things. allowing others influence who are you is why you have been suffering for so long. it's not too late to turn your life around, even when things start to feel hopeless. a past heartbreak or release from a job led you to a worsening depression that you're now finally accepting. darkness is being absorbed by the light to put you back on the right track. avoid reminders of the past, focus on yourself and what makes you beautiful. spending time alone and with loved ones is where you're meant to grow. you will indulge more in your favorite foods, media, and hobbies. for a change of scenery, you take walks outside to get some fresh air and revisit places that bring you happiness. at some point, a solo trip elsewhere is what you really need to help you escape. exploring the unknown is where you feel the most comfortable, so foreign places become safe havens for you. you build up an emotional resistance, realizing that sometimes it's okay to be alone. you will discover a lot about yourself in this lifetime, looking deeper into what makes you human and how you share those experiences with others. you could be turning 18, 23, 28, 30, 33, or 38.
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As promised, this is our bonus reading this month - the theme was voted by you lovely folk. Thank you to everyone who voted!
Each pile touches a collective pattern, this is supposed to be "short and sweet" so I mixed my old reading format with the pattern analysis.
Let me know if this resonates and if you like it, so I can keep doing posts in this style!
Reading below the cut.
Pile 1 - Shadow
energy check: othala ("home"), ehwaz ("horse"), algiz ("elk")
For our energy check I was guided to draw elder futhark runes, this tells me you can be aligned with "older energies" such as pagan gods - from any pantheon. I did felt Hekate strongly while I shuffled the runes, most likely some of you use the label witch or are students of the occult.
Your new beginning is already here, my dear. Your keywords not only are earthy, they have that down-to-earth quality; the horse is an archetype of fast movement, but the elk is a steadfast grounded presence. Home is something concrete out of an abstract concept, I kept hearing "home is where the heart is" and my consciousness was guided to my literal heart.
Your new beginning didn't arrive out of the blue, it was carved out by you - with blood, sweat and tears. You deserve the good things that have only just began to happen for you, my love, they are the reward and the consequence of your efforts. I sense you broke free from an identity structure that kept you stuck and small. You definitively went through an intense period of shadow work.
To give you something more concrete, your new beginning is a new mindset. A renewed sense of hope - of justice, I heard - that life is not only terrible things, and that good things can indeed prevail in the end.
Closing channeled message: "Love your shadow, even your embarrassing parts deserve compassion."
Pile 2 - Treasure
energy check: uranus (innovation), mars (courage), pisces (depth)
I was guided to switch to my astrology runes. The energy for this pile is dramatically different than the previous, but I can't quite find the words to describe it, so I'll channel a few keywords that might resonate with you: cosmos, high-tech, solar space, light arrangement, spiritual council, president, morpheus.
I'm also getting something about astral travel/projection, some of you might been having very vivid dreams around the time of this reading - for some reason I'm getting the time the reading was posted, not the time you get across it. If this is for you, you'll know it through a physical sensation.
Your energy is more complex to read, pile 2. I'm feeling some past life issues here that were affecting your current life, definitively some deeply ingrained soul wounds that followed you through many incarnations. But you're working through them, learning your lessons - and these are not lessons as in passing silly tests the universe sends your way, no, these are deep lessons about being true to yourself and putting up boundaries.
A recurring cycle is hard to break when you aren't aware of it. Yet, here it seems your higher self and spirit guides are working behind the scenes, helping you break free from a subconscious space. This probably has something to do with the pattern coming from a past life, these are tricky to work through consciously, specially if you're not trained in energy work.
The new beginning for you, my dear, is the greatest gift one could receive: new life. The release of a heavy burden that you have carried for way too long. You'll know this gift by the feeling inside your gut, it might frighten you, but when you open it your heart will feel freer than ever - like a breath of fresh air.
Closing channeled message: "Your energy is precious, protect your peace like one guards a treasure."
Pile 3 - Kindness
energy check: 443 ("stability"), 343 ("hard work"), 652 ("trust")
Numerology is all about math - yes, I know, you don't need to groan. But there's something here about being logical, reasonable, punctual.
I was guided to skip the breakdown of your energy check, because, if this pile is for you, you'll know it - and I've heard 100%. You'll just know it; something in it, be it my words, be it the vibe, you'll just know this is your pile. And there's something here about "those cliche things" like when someone asks another when they realized their spouse was "the one" and they just shrug and say "I just knew."
Maybe your new beginning is about romance, maybe it's about starting a new chapter in your love life - be it taking the next step or finding the one. But, truly, I'm sensing this pile is multifaceted. I believe it's something deeper than that, your new beginning is a new relational pattern, not just a relationship. Most likely this is a new blueprint for your relational dynamics - and deep down you know it. This is just a confirmation.
So whatever you had wished for a long time that felt was impossible... well, think again, because it's possible now. And it's coming towards you.
Closing channeled message: "Speak kindly to yourself, and allow your inner world to be sweet."
I hope you all are doing fine! Today we have a very beautiful reading. In this reading we'll be looking at your day-to-day life in the near future. We have 2 parts to this reading.
☀️Part 1 - We'll look at your day-to-day life
☀️Part 2 - We'll look at your domestic life (with your love)
In Part 1, in your love life section, we have discussed about your love life with the person you'll end up marrying, aka love life with your future spouse.
This is your reading. I hope you'll love it☀️🌻.
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Pile 2
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Pile 2, I did not see about your domestic life because your reading flowed in a different direction.
Pile 3
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When happiness arrives, what fears come forth? (Very detailed).
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Pile I.
tw: suicidal thoughts, suicide, and triggering.
knight of swords reversed, queen of wands reversed, the wheel of fortune sideways, four of swords sideways, and chains.
When happiness arrives for you, you tend to allow your mind to drift away from the feeling. You do not allow your emotions to come forth, to show appreciation and gratitude for oneself and your hard work. Or how others helped you, how your intuition guided you, or how your religion helped you. Whatever the case is, you don't allow yourself to feel; you just go to the next situation like a horse would if they're running a race. You need to learn to appreciate the flaws that you have even when you get what you receive. Happiness comes to us in all different shapes and forms. For others it would be through success and money and it can also be winning a trophy. Even in my case, it is buying a book that makes me happy. In your case it's appreciating yourself for the little details about yourself, but you always nitpick every single thing, so how can you appreciate yourself? How can you enjoy the emotions and stay grounded if you keep sabotaging your happiness?
The fear that comes forth is a fear of sabotage. Now I understand that this sounds like, “oh, I'm afraid that if I sabotage so-and-so that I should be afraid of sabotaging myself instead, right?” No. The thing is that you have a fear of sabotaging yourself and then become scared that you're sabotaging yourself. It's kind of like making yourself the villain of your own story because you disrespect what you say and then nitpick and insult yourself in the past for the aftermath of now. Then when it comes to the future, you do it again in the same cycle that never ends. Think of the Wheel of Fortune. Not the tarot cards but the game—it spends each time someone spends it for the game but there are certain parts where there's a low income prize or you cannot get something out of it, it's the same thing like this: Each time you spin it, you keep making it hard for you to receive happiness because you keep expecting something new.
You cannot settle but you must settle. You must not think 'oh let me get this over with, let me go to the next thing.' You cannot go to the next thing, you have to settle down and feel the emotions. You also have an addiction to playing video games, using technology, or reading too much. Yeah, some of you are reading way too much, and you're procrastinating and sabotaging your other duties. You have to prioritize everything and keep it in balance. Think of healthy productivity. You cannot do everything all at once. You're limiting your potential, and you're causing yourself stress and this is the fear. This is the fear because you keep repeating your life on a loop and you don't take breaks. You must take breaks. It's okay to take breaks. It's normal to take breaks.
I know that you idolize other people, and you see, ‘oh they are so successful, so successful, so they must have been grinding the first time.’ No, they're not grinding so hard, they took breaks. Some of them may have not, but they have learned lessons to take breaks. You also see tarot readers who keep making posts, or they're doing paid readings, and then you feel jealousy because they're successful and you want to feel successful, but you cannot be successful if you keep at it. You're gonna burn yourself out and some of you are already burnt out as it is. You need to let it go, you need to let it go. You cannot go all the way straight in and do it—you must take breaks. Some of you even think that I grinded very hard when I did my readings, but I took breaks when I first started out.And then I became insecure and went at it, grinding so much. And I was not getting anything out of it. And now I don't grind as much as I used to. And I'm slowly going back into the same momentum as I used to. And seeing success slowly come to me. So it's a slow process. Everything is a slow process. You're going to have ups and downs all the time. But at the end of the day, you need to take breaks, and you need to prioritize yourself and take care of your emotions because if you don't and you don't surround yourself, you're going to burn out, and you're gonna quit completely.
You have two reverse cards. Honey, this is about taking breaks. You need that break. If you don't take that break, you're gonna get to the point where you're gonna start lying to yourself, you're gonna start causing trouble for yourself, and you're going to feel disgusted with yourself. This whole reading is that you need to learn to take breaks.
I know that when you have been in this mindset for so long that if you take a break, then you are not worthy of something in particular but in this circumstance you are worthy. And I know that you were conditioned to think this way and I'm sorry that you have. However, it is now your responsibility to take charge of your whole life and change your mindset because everything is about mindset. If you learn to nurture yourself, take care of your emotions and your mindset, then each time you do something simple like brushing your teeth or taking a shower, you are going to automatically thank yourself but it is going to be in your own way. But you have to start thanking yourself—you gotta become your own best friend, your own lover. Whatever you love, you gotta be that for yourself. You gotta stop loving things that are toxic. This is not for you. This should not be for you. This should not even be in your nature. You need to fuck off with those people that have treated you like crap, bullied you, made fun of you, conditioned you, whatever it is. Let them go. They are not worth your time. You are worth your own time. You have to respect yourself because if you don't respect yourself… you're gonna screw yourself in a pickle, and you're never going to return from everything—
People can burn out very quickly, but it's their responsibility to allow themselves to slow down and take a break. You feel guilt for taking a break but you should not feel guilt. Intuition tells me that “if you keep having this mindset where you feel guilty for taking breaks and you keep at it when you become an adult—not as of now, but like when you're in your 30s and 40s, and if you're in your 30s or 40s, then in your 50s and 60s. You'll come to the point where life has no meaning, and you will feel suicidal. You will feel so drained and exhausted. You won't think that life has meaning. You'll get to the point where you think that life should just be mindless, where you do a 9 to 5 job, where you don't do anything, and you're just... just like la la la, whatever, life is just life. You will become monotone and emotionless; you'll feel like you are devoid of your emotions. You won't feel anything and will literally chase to feel your emotions.” That is why I'm saying you need to learn to take breaks, and each time that you cannot take a break, remind yourself about this reading, or remind yourself of the time that you were burnt out in your life and how you allowed yourself to not feel burnt out anymore. What did you do exactly, how did you take care of yourself? You need to consider your past as the key to help you out with this notion.
You need to think of productivity as a reward system. Each time you're productive, like brushing your teeth or taking a shower, give yourself a small reward. It can be a cheat day. It could be one chocolate piece. It could be reading two or three chapters. It can be something small. And if you do something bigger, like finish your homework or finish two stacks of an essay or whatever, whatever. It doesn't matter. Give yourself a bigger reward. But it has to be genuine. You have to be genuine, and if you don't, you'll start to lie to yourself. And when you start to lie to yourself constantly, it's going to be so hard for you to get out of that cycle. Think of generational trauma. It's hard to get out of generational trauma because that is what you were taught and conditioned to have. So if you keep at it and if you have children, the same thing is going to happen. Do you really want your children to be like that? Or do you really want your future self to be like that? I don't think so.
You are at these pathways, there are two pathways… one is following what I'm telling you to a new path that I cannot spoil for you, and the other one is following your way that I can spoil for you, and it ends up with suicide. Now, I understand that the pathway I'm speaking about is very scary. I understand the fear of the unknown is scary as shitbags. But the thing is, if you follow the unknown, sometimes you're able to find lost roads. When you follow those lost roads, you come to a new place. Think about going to a new world each time. Each time you watch a movie or read a book, you are going to a new world (their world); you're experiencing the world that has a new path—your new path is your adventure. But the path that you're about to take is your demise. Is that what you truly want?
Intuition says, “I want you to think clearly about this. I want you to think rationally about this. I want you to think logically about this. I want you to think, think, think, think.” You need to really sit down with yourself and think. If you have to read this over and over and over and over until you're throwing up the words out of your head or whatever, do it. If you have to talk to yourself, talk to your comfort character, talk to your friends, or talk to someone that you trust then do it. If you have to vent to whatever, do it, but with their consent. That's your other problem. You need to respect other people's boundaries. You can't be entitled, you can be entitled to what you want, yeah, but you still have to think about other people's feelings. Be entitled to what you want, like money. Okay, money will come to you no problem, but if you're entitled about someone's feelings, it's not going to come for you. You're just being an asshole.
Intuition also says that “the wheel of fortune is in your hand. You can get the success you desire if you remove the jealousy and get forth what you want,” meaning that you have to do the work that you desire in order to get what you want. You cannot just sabotage your thoughts, sabotage your affirmation, sabotage subliminals, etc. You cannot do that. No. No, honey, you cannot do that. You're being a fucking asshole to yourself, and that's not what you deserve, okay?
Some of you are thinking that if you're a little bit harsh with yourself, you're being a cool person or you're being like everyone else—why do you have to feel like you have to be special? What do you gain from that? There's nothing. Everyone is special in their own ways, and everyone's special not in their own ways. Meaning we have flaws, we have two sides of us but also have many sides—it does not matter because the human mind is complex as it is. We are special in the things that we do and how we love ourselves, but we're not special when we don't love ourselves and we hurt other people. There are different hurts. You can hurt someone who's an asshole to you. There is no place for anyone to judge that because it's your experience, but if you're just hurting and bullying someone just for the fun of it, then you're not special at all. You're pathetic. It's that way, and I know for a fact you're not like that. I know for a fact that you don't understand boundaries because of a disorder that you have. I understand, I do. The thing and the reality is that you have to learn. You can learn by talking to other people, asking questions, looking online, and watching YouTube videos. You have to learn, you cannot disrespect people's boundaries and their feelings. You have to learn you're being unspecial, and I know a lot of you desire to be special, but the wheel of fortune is telling you to follow my path, but that is if you decide to follow it, and maybe if you keep following it and find different lost roads, eventually you'll find what you're looking for.
Intuition tells me that you're losing hope as you read this pac, you're feeling like life has no meaning again, and you're feeling a bit suicidal once more because it's not the answer that you seek. It's the answer that doesn't feel right to you, like everything has to work your way because you're manifesting it.
Intuition says, “I want you to stop manifesting for the things you desire and instead do the work. You're being lazy and unprofessional with yourself. You're being disrespectful to yourself. You can get what you want through manifestation, sure, but you also need to do the work. Because it's not physical work, it's mental work. How can you desire these affirmations that you keep affirming if you're changing your thoughts the next day? Why are you contradicting yourself? If you keep saying that you are successful and then the next day when it does not work and you say you're not successful, how are you supposed to manifest? You can't manifest then. To manifest is to affirm and follow through with your desires.” Meaning, if I were to say that I am successful for one day and then the next day and then the next and the following day and so forth, I will become successful. I will have the mindset of being successful, and I will gain it. But if I were to follow yours and say I'm successful, the next day I wouldn't, and the next day I'd get jealous and say I'm not successful. And then I say successful. Like, nothing's going to happen. There's going to be no momentum. Think of it with drawing. Let's say I’m drawing. And it's the first time I'm drawing. I'm not going to be good at it. I'm not going to be the best. I'm not going to be a beginner with it. I'm just going to make circles. It's going to look wonky. But it's not going to be that same momentum. And then the next day I draw, and then the next day, gradually in a month and a half or so, I'll probably get better; it won't be that wonky, but it's still not gonna be the best for my skills, and that's okay. But if I were to draw and do your method, I'd take a break because I failed. Then the next day, I would get jealous of other people, and then I would do it dry the same day, get angry with myself, and take a break again. That's gonna be the same thing. I'm not gonna gain anything.
Intuition says that, “I know you're triggered, but you must understand this is for your best benefit. You are being triggered for you to understand this world, to understand what you want in this world, and what your purpose is. Your purpose is to love yourself. Everyone's purpose is to love themselves, but they keep seeking other different purposes, and they forget one thing. It's to love themselves.”
You've come to a crossroad where everything I'm saying is very triggering, and you kind of just want to give up. You just want to forget about it, let it go, and make sure that it's something you never read before. You want to erase it out of your mind or whatever. But I'm going to be upfront, and I'm going to be harsh, and I'm not sorry.
If you keep allowing yourself not to feel emotions and allow yourself not to be triggered once in a while, you're going to get this mindset of perfection, and you're going to lose yourself. Each time you look back in your past, you will only see this perfect version of yourself, a fake, a mask, and you will never be able to tell the stories to yourself, to your children, or to whoever. If you keep lying to yourself about who you are right now and assume that you're perfect because of your stupid manifestation affirmations that you cannot even follow, then you are not going to get what you desire. You're not getting your success. You're not getting anything you desire. You have to do the mental work. If everything is about the mindset, then you need to follow through. You don't follow through then you don't get your success. You gotta stop being jealous. It's pathetic. I'm triggering you. I know and I have to trigger you. These are intuition words.
You have to be triggered. You have to be angry. You have to allow yourself to tell yourself that you're fucking scared like crazy. You have to scream at yourself, saying, "I'm scared. I'm so fucking scared. I'm losing hope. I can't handle it. I can't act. I can't wear a mask with other people. I can't say I'm fucking fine. I'm scared." You have to be honest with yourself and if you are not honest with yourself—you will kill yourself.
Is that what you deserve…..?
Pile II.
tw: a mention of suicide and death.
five of cups, six of swords reversed, and three of wands.
Did you recently lose someone who meant the world to you? It could be a child, a child that was not born yet, a family member, or someone you did not know but in a way you feel connected to. And when you lost them, did you feel like hope had no meaning anymore, that if you were to hope again, the same situation would happen? Whenever you think about happiness in your past, do you get stuck in the past? Think that it would have been better if you never met the person, never met your partner, or never met the one who caused you a lot of pain. A lot of you are blaming the person's death for your grief, you have to let it go. It’s not on them that they died. No one has control over their death, not even those who commit suicide. So you have to let it go.
Your heart is so heavy. There's so much emotional baggage. Each time I look at your heart as I try to channel your energy for this reading, I keep seeing shards of glass illuminating, but there is only darkness surrounding it. And each time I try to move around to see the light, maybe in hopes of seeing if there's something more inside the shattered glass heart. But when I open it in my mind, there's nothing but a withered rose. There's so much pain in your heart. And you feel like if you were to love again, if you were to have another child, or if you were to meet someone new, that pain would come to you.
Everyone in this pile is afraid of love and happiness. Not romantic love, but emotional love. When you give your heart to someone each time, it seems like the world puts you at a crossroad and makes you have a decision whether or not to save them or yourself. Meaning, if you were to save them, you would be grieving as you are now. But if you were to save yourself, you would be able to let go of the past and how they are dead now and move on with your life. Moving on with your life does not make you a bad person. It does not make you evil. And it does not mean that you are betraying or abandoning them. It just means that you're doing justice for yourself. And the five of cups wants you to do that. It wants you to let go, let go of the suffering, and allow yourself to feel like it's going to be okay. Because it will. Not only is tarot saying it, but my intuition as well.
When I told you that everything was going to get better, that my tarot and my intuition even said so, ironically, I flipped the card and you got six of swords reversed. And I know that the intention on this card is not the best, but your life is kind of upside down as it is. If you really think about the card and you learn about it, you'll realize that it's giving you a warning. But if you read the energy of the card and you combine it with five of cups, you're gonna see that there is nothing for you to worry about. There's no need for you to cause yourself pain, to allow yourself to drift into worry. You don't have to make a deal with the devil in a metaphorical way. You don't. You just have to let go and allow yourself to heal. Because intuition says this card means a slow healing. And I know that healing takes a long time, but when you heal, you learn that it's okay to let go, to abandon who you once were, and to find someone new. And when you understand that who you are now is who you were meant to be and that if you allow yourself to keep growing as a person, you'll find beautiful flowers already planted in your heart that were never discovered. Because now I see the shattered heart that was illuminating the darkness—there are flowers, pretty flowers growing in the dark. They're protecting the heart, and it's rising up. But the illuminating glass is showing a door out, a pathway for you. So in a comical way, yes, the card is necessarily right in the generalized way, but energy-wise, it just means that you're learning to solely heal as you read this pac.
You're like water in a glass. Sometimes it will rock. If you move it, sometimes it will stay still, and sometimes it'll rock when it stays still. Healing is a slow process. It's exhausting. Sometimes it feels like there's gonna be a lack of progress. Sometimes you have to stand your ground with your inner thoughts. Sometimes your inner thoughts are not your friends, and sometimes your inner thoughts are your friends. You're gonna have to figure out what inner thought is yours and what inner thought is your pain, grief, or traumatic voice.
When I said that tarot and intuition say that everything is going to be okay, the three of wands confirmed it. And it was also when I shuffled my cards, it popped up. It showed up immediately. But when I channeled it, it proved my point and it's gonna prove their point. If you look up the meaning, basically, it literally explains exactly everything that's gonna happen to you. But if you're curious, that is, then look it up. Otherwise, I'll give you a summary. I don't wanna spoil everything for you, because I feel like if I did, it'd be kind of boring for you. So I know you guys are like this spontaneous gremlin that craves excitement for every single thing, and when there are spoilers, you kind of become bummed out, but then you like get yourself back up and boom. It's like you're very moody; you kind of remind me of Bokuto from Haikyuu.
Basically, when you follow this advice, intuition says that you're going to start traveling, not physically but mentally. You're going to travel to different sections of your past, learn lessons, and teach yourself how to be gentle with yourself. You're going to travel to your past and ask yourself what you're seeking. You're going to allow yourself to daydream. Some of you are super realistic, and now you're letting yourself be stuck in your head. Some of you even shamed yourself for being stuck in your head or others, but now you're learning that it's not a bad thing, it's actually a very beautiful thing. All of you are actually going to become self-assured with yourself and have this strong sense of love for yourself. You were so afraid of love for the longest time, and now that you are able to—almost all of you are healing yourself as you read this. It’s like your brain is changing its gears in your mind. The energy right now is so beautiful. I'm really happy for you.
Some of you prayed for this. Some of you seek an answer. Some of you just told yourself this is never going to happen. You're not going to get your answer. Some of you don't even believe in this stuff, and it appeared for you. That's what I'm saying. It's meant for you, and this energy is so beautiful.
The gears in your head are shifting, and you're going to… also for those who are not in a relationship, you’re gonna fall in love with someone so genuine. It's going to feel like a fairy tale; it's gonna feel like Prince Eric from Ariel, but like the best type of way, and you're also going to become like an angel, both metaphorically and not. Meaning that you're going to spread your wings and find your desired job, your desired career, and the things that you actually want to do. You're going to follow through no matter what, you're not even going to look back, but physically you're going to—
Think about that illuminating cracked heart (again) made of heart glass.. there are so many flowers right now it's literally packed, and what I meant by physically is that your energy is like the heart but protected with flowers—that you're gonna have this energy that you're just like so.. you'll be people's angel. Angel on their shoulder. I know that some of you don't believe in angels, but I'm serious. You will be their angel on their shoulder. You're going to become their comfort person. You're going to be comforting. You're going to make people feel safe. You're going to make people feel relaxed. You'll actually change people's lives with the careers that you do. Some of you will also become tarot readers too, or if you're thinking about it, do it. Don't look back. We all start somewhere. If you don't write a lot, that's okay too. If you write a lot, that's okay too. It does not matter. Do it.
But one thing is tarot wants you to understand that when the love comes to you, not romantically, but when the love comes to you, just accept it. You can be scared. You can let the doubt come. It doesn't matter. Just accept it. Say, “I accept.” That's all you have to do. Because it will take the biggest weight off your shoulders. You're still going to worry. But this worry is not a bad thing. Think about the past before you got scared of this stuff. You may have been worried about your job, school, people, how you're gonna talk to someone, homework, an essay coming up, etc., right? But now you're worried about the good things that are happening. Do you see how much of a change that is?
I understand how scary it is, but at the same time, you're not scared about anything else other than the good love coming to you or happiness coming to you. In a way, that kind of relaxes you because everyone desires good love. Everyone desires happiness. But you're getting that, and you're scared of that. And even when you're scared, it's still going to come to you anyways, right? So there shouldn't be anything to worry about anymore.
Hello, welcome to another pick-a-pile reading.
Today’s reading will be looking at what’s blocking your love life, what’s causing that block, what you can do to break through it, and what awaits you once the blockage is cleared.
This is a timeless reading, I trust that it will find whoever needs it, exactly when they need to hear this message most.
This is a collective reading, so take only what resonates and leave the rest.
And remember, nothing here is meant to judge you. Some things may sting a little, but that’s only because your guides, Spirit, the universe, whatever you call it, are trying to help you recognize what’s ready to be released and how you can move forward.
Close your eyes, take a deep breath, and when you’re ready, pick the image you feel most drawn to. If you feel drawn to more than one, there may be multiple messages meant for you.
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::Pile 1 ::
Okay with the eight of wands popping out in the block position, I can already see what’s going on here. You move fast when you feel something, maybe faster than you realize. It’s like once you see the potential, you want to fast forward to the HEA. But when things move too quickly, the connection doesn’t have time to grow the way it’s meant to. Spirit keeps showing me that you need to slow down, and let things happen naturally without pressure or rushing.
This comes from an inner imbalance, you tend to go to extremes. You’re either all in or completely out. With you, it often feels like, “This better become something real or what’s the point?” And while that comes from wanting something meaningful, it puts a lot of weight on things before they’re ready. There’s also this pattern of focusing on what’s missing more than what’s already there. It’s not that you’re ungrateful, not at all, it’s just that you’re scared of wasting your time and that’s understandable, no one wants to waste their time, but when you look too far ahead you can miss what’s right in front of you.
And I just want to say this because I don’t ever want you to feel judged, I’ve done this too. A lot of us have. Wanting something real isn’t a wrong, it’s just something that needs gentler pacing.
Your lesson right now is patience, let yourself actually enjoy the moment you’re in. You have so much to offer, even if you don’t see it, but when you rush things, the other person doesn’t get the chance to discover you slowly and fall in love piece by piece. Not everyone opens up the way you do. Not everyone moves at your speed. And that’s okay.
There’s also a message about fairness coming through. You may feel like love has been unfair to you, but Spirit is asking you to take a moment and look at things from the other person’s perspective in order to understand how your pace, your expectations, or your need for answers might feel overwhelming to someone still getting to know you. When you soften that pressure, connections suddenly feel easier and more balanced. It’ll just flow right.
And when you learn to slow down, when you stop trying to rush to the ending and just let things be what they are, that’s when love finds you again. I’m seeing Knight of Cups, someone very romantic coming your way. Someone gentle, kind, and warm-hearted. Someone who wants to love genuinely.
::Pile 2::
Here’s where the block is, you feel like what’s the point, you put in the work but it doesn’t seem to pan out for you. It’s like at this point you’ve given up putting 100 percent in the relationship because you feel it’s often not reciprocated the same way.
This is coming from an idealization of the “knight in shining armor” you may be expecting or even on a subconscious level want this person who is going to come in and fight for your love. You want someone to fight for you. It’s almost like if you have an argument and tell this person you’re gonna leave, you want them to say no, stay. This isn’t wrong in itself, this is just you wanting to know this person loves you enough. It doesn’t make you a bad person, but it may not be a realistic expectation and one that most won’t know how to meet and when they don’t respond the way you hoped, the Magician reversed comes in, and that’s where the self sabotage happens, it’s not intentional. It comes from wanting to feel the ultimate display of being wanted and anything less than a dramatic “fight for me” moment feels like a rejection even if it wasn’t.
The lesson here is stop holding back, stop letting past experiences and expectations keep you from expressing your passionate side. Less fight for me energy, instead let more tenderness and warmth pour out of you and into the relationship. Open up more.
Stop fighting, stop getting in your own way. Despite the song, love doesn’t need to be a battlefield. When you stop seeing love as a fight for the upper hand, you’ll invite in some good energy, I see someone with integrity, honesty, a no games, no bullshit type of person for you.
Often times we fight against our own good and once we stop fighting against ourselves, everything falls right into place.
::Pile 3::
Alright, let’s see what the cards say. The main issue is you give up easily. You’re quick to walk away. The problem with this is that you may be harsh on those who don’t deserve it. Sure there may have been some that did but overall, you may be cutting things short due to misunderstandings. This seems to be coming from holding people to high expectations.
I’m sensing energy that can come off as "my way or the highway". It’s that you have a certain set of rules or a code and you measure partners by it. You expect a certain level of loyalty and when someone falls short of meeting that, you see it as dishonesty and disloyalty and you’re out. That doesn’t make you a terrible person, you expect that level of loyalty and devotion because that’s what you offer, what you deliver, so you hold other people to this level as well.
The lesson here for you is not to let every little violation of your rules break what could be something good, the truth is that not everyone is on that same level as you, not everyone knows how to meet that. It doesn’t mean they’re not good loyal people. Spirit is saying stop focusing in on the perceived slights and see what is actually there.
If you can learn to be less “harsh” when someone makes a small mistake you’ll invite into your life this energy and confidence to just trust the process, no need for strict structure in relationships, that’s when you’ll open yourself to a more fulfilling love.
Whether your FS is male or female, I'm getting the impression that they have some similarities to Chapelle Roan, or simply just listen to her. I’ve already written everything I need for this reading, I’m just going back and polishing it, so I would like to take the time now to say that there are three consistent themes within this reading that appeared within this reading for me.
1. Your FS likely resembles a celebrity in some way (you’ve probably read another one of my PAC’s before and you fell under the pile where I talked about Zendaya and Tom Holland)
2. Your imagine of your FS isn’t entirely what you think. There is something here that is a little different than what you image or expected.
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3. Some of you are Queer and want your FS to be a woman. (For some of you though, you could be straight but just don’t mind if your FS happens to be queer or a woman who has many partners before. Some of you are looking for a dominant woman lmao. You’ll have it, haha.)
Anyways, if that sounds like you, welcome, welcome, let’s get onto your reading!
If your FS identifies as a woman, there’s a strong chance she has a similar look or vocal tone to Chapelle Roan, this hasn’t leaved me as I typed, although I’m getting that she probably doesn’t sings much, if at all, although she may just have that striking tone to her voice and appearance as a whole. She may also be a theater kid or have more of a theater-kid vibe about her, although this may just be you more than her. There are some parallels between the two of you (I’m also getting red lips, take it if that resonates, drop if not.) they may have a lot of similarities to you if not in appearance than interest. (I’m getting Hamilton and 21 Chump Street for some of you, maybe she likes musicals.) As I mentioned before there is a bit of a queer energy here, although don’t worry if you’re not, i’ll get to those of you who’s partner is likely male in a minute, but I digress. If you’re looking for a woman, I’m getting you’re looking for one who’s not only queer but also has a bit of that femme-fatale, Joan-of-Arc kind of vibe to her, like she’s a mix of princess and knight with a Renaissance-like appearance. I’m getting she definitely has that. Although for some of you this is likely a “Dream” and you’re being asked to be a little bit more “realistic” about your FS, no that they don’t exist or you the way you imagine but some of you imagine this warrior of a woman with big bright red flowy hair, something like maxie from Under the Oak Tree maybe, (but less shy) when in reality, her hair may be more of a brown-ish red rather than that bright almost blonde-ish ginger red you would see in like a movie or something, or perhaps more of a dyed color red. I feel like for some of you your FS may not even have red hair but just have dark wavy brown hair and freckles and while they will be outspoken they’re likely a little bit more introverted than you expected, but this doesn’t mean she’ll be any less fun or into the kind of stuff you’re into, i’m getting this is somewhat of my kinky pile and some of you are looking for a dominant woman, you’ll have it, you’ll have it, but don’t reduce her to only that, okay, haha. <3
If your FS identities as male, I sense a mix of patience and a bit of impatience from you lmao, you’re sick and tired of waiting both for me to get to describing your FS and also you’re sick of waiting for him to show up, but I’m getting there’s this back-and-forth inside you of what you want your FS to look like vs what they’ll most likely look like. (I know what my next PAC is gonna be about now lol.) Look, my love, your FS might not match the exact picture in your mind.
And that’s okay. I’m literally getting the image of a slightly sun-kissed, blonde-haired, bright-eyed, “golden retriever” type of boyfriend who could be a book lover and surfer who hangs out at the beach often and is a fond of marine life and what not, the “perfect” guy with a chiseled jaw and bright gorgeous brown eyes that make you melt under the sun. Thiiiis is not him lmao, but this does not mean this is “not” him. What do I mean by this.
Much like I told you, or the other side of Pile one if you skipped the first half. Your FS has some qualities about them that are different from what you expected. I get the sense that you’re afraid he’s not going to be your type and that you’re not going to be attracted and perhaps you try hard to let go of this and tell yourself that you’re okay with “any” type no matter how he looks like, but sugar, 1. It’s okay to have a type but 2. It’s okay to allow yourself to be okay to like someone outside of your type. You need to be a little bit more kind to your mind and understand that you have no idea what this guy looks like, perhaps you have very high standards or maybe even a light prejudice that holds you back from imagine him to look like anything except what you imagine him like, I’m not here to judge you but you need to understand that if you want to grow past this, healing does not come from judgment, you can’t grow and shame yourself all at once. If you’re judging yourself, ask yourself why, sit with that thought or feeling and see what it wants and why is it there, do whatever you need for yourself in that moment and then let it pass by and evolve. You’ll be just fine <3 But back to your FS, your FS is a criminally attractive. You might not notice it at first because they don’t look how you imagined in your head, but once you give them the space they need to shine in front of you, oh man you’re never coming back.
I’m getting some of you are looking for more of a “Golden Retriever” type boyfriend but you’re likely to end up with more of a “Black Cat” kind of personality. They might actually be Black, like African American (I’m getting some of you are African yourselves, perhaps you’re from West Africa, you might be the same ethnicity but don’t worry this man will NOOOOOT look like your father lmao) or if they’re a woman, they may have more “Cat-Like” eyes and be a little quieter and have sharper more model like features than what you expected, think Nara Smith but with more of a bolder, Alt style/personality. Anyways, your FS is hard for me to describe because of this very reason, whenever I go to say something about them, your energy comes in with a panic “NO!” you say, hahaha. For some of you, you have NOTHING to worry about and they look EXAAAACTLY what you imagine them to look like, but maybe with one tiny, itty, bitty difference like maybe they longer lashes than you expected or they have a beauty mark on their face. But for others, they look like how you imaged but 1 key treat is just the opposite. If they’re male I get the sense, you’re looking for someone whos has softer feature or maybe they’re “beautiful” in an almost feminine sense, your FS will likely be likely be like this. I feel like this is a very beautiful guy or maybe this is just your rose colored glasses trying to paint him like that again, haha, guys, please, I promise he’s beautiful, he’s very pretty but I get the sense some of you are attaching an almost unrealistic standard to how he’s gonna look like. You’re really indecisive here arent you? I keep repeating myself in this reading, it’s wild. But I promise I get it, it ain’t your fault. But do know that your FS DOES looks like a celebrity of some sort, if it’s not someone you recognie then maybe they just have the appearance of someone who would do good under the public eye, someone who’s very aesthetic and dresses well. But do keep the whole “1 opposite trait thing.”
If you expect them to look feminine, they’ll likely be masculine with feminine features.
If you expect them to be be silent and reserved, they’ll likely be calm but very sociable.
If you expect them to be tough and a lonewolf, they’ll likely be warm hearted but stern in a way.
I’ve been all over the place with this reading, let’s focus solely on their appearance.
If female she may look like Nara Smith or Chapelle Roan, If male a celebrity isn’t coming into mind (instagram model for some) but whatever image of a person, celebrity or not it is that you have in mind is the “Base” of their appearance BUT, find a trait, whatever it is that sticks out to you the most and switch it for something else. If her hair’s short, it’s likely rather long. If she’s Tall in your head, she’s probably a littler short. If he’s thin and a bit more on the delicate side, imagine him to be lean in his built or with a slightly rugged edge. Brown or “Reddish” Brown eyes for them.
That’s all for now, haha, as wild of a ride as this was, I had fun, I hope this reading brought you something.
I hope to see you again babes!!
Pile Two: Bicycle
Wow.. I don’t know how to describe your FS to you, I suddenly got this overwhelming sense of peace over me. I was just listening to United In Grief by Kendrick Lamar and now my phone’s Playing Blue Dream which honestly tells me so much about them. I feel like this person is just, honestly, a dream, I want to say they’re so pretty, but honestly calling them a beauty would be almost an understatement. They could be very spiritual, I’m struggling to pick up if they’re male or female, they may be non-binary and Identify as they/them or they may just be somewhat genderfluid. If they’re a woman, they have some “masculine” features to them, perhaps thicker eyebrows and wider shoulders, but honestly these features of their just make them appear even more mystical and more elegant. They can have very clear skin. If they’re male they might have some more “feminine” features about them, like soft beautiful lashes or a little beauty mark under the eye like that of a 1920’s actress. This person makes me think of incense, perhaps they meditate often or light some nice incense around the house, they really have this lovely earthy-spiritual vibe about them. If they’re black they may be light skin with soft curls, though for some of you it’s a tighter curl pattern, for others of you this person is simply foreign she could be south african if a woman and kind of resemble someone like Tyla, if male their ethnicity could genuinely be anything, though I’m getting they’re likely very mixed, they really give me Jhene Aiko vibes which makes sense given how she’s Black, Japanese, Dominican and something else I believe??? Correct me if I’m wrong. Overall this man is a beauty, I’m not sure why the Movie Millenium Actress by Satoshi Kon is coming into mind, but like the main character he could have a very calm, yet determined demeanor to him, I’m getting he’s been patiently searching for love for a very long time, much like her, a love that he’s not sure he’ll ever come to cross but he’s possible he’ll find one day. Gosh I can’t wait for you guys to meet.
Alright let’s continue talking about appearance, they may have a “sleepiness” to their eyes and a sweetness to their smile that’s very calming, they might wear very flowy clothing or comfortable loose fitting clothes. I want to say street wear but honestly it’s a little more modest than regular street wear, this is only for a few of you but they may be muslim. Even if they aren’t they’re very stylish but they have a uniqueness to their appearance you wouldn’t expect to find anywhere else, it’s like a mix of modern and ancient. Like Imagine mixing punk with decora but still somehow making it work. I get the sense your future spouse might either be experimenting with their style or simply not have singular style and likes to try out different clothes.
This is also something not appearance related, but they may not talk much, they’re likely more a of a listener, they’ll likely like to hear you talk more, although I’m getting the sense you won’t be able to do much talking around them when they’re admiring you lovingly with those deep inquisitive eyes of their, haha. Honestly, being with this person is just going to bring you such a sense of peace and I get when they do open their mouth it’s always going to be the silliest thing that makes you laugh or something that’s thought provoking and inspires soul-searching. I recommend you listen to Blue Dream by Jhene Aiko, their energy to me feels so similar to this. I keep finding myself saying “What a Dream! What a Dream!” this could be you, or them although I get that you’ve never been with a person like this, I get that you might not expect to fall for them as hard as you did, but just know that when they met you, god, they knew it’d be no one else but you from that very moment <3
That is all my dove!
I hope to see you again, my dream!! (This could also be a nickname they might have for you or you for them now that I think of it <3)
P.S
Snoop Dogg keeps coming into my head during this reading, Idk why lol, it’s possible they may be very silly and good hearted or just have ADHD or be Neuro-Divergent in some way lmao.
Pile Three: Tabby Kitten
Pile one and two both had people who’s future spouse’s were likely Female, I’m sorry to say that if you’ve selected this pile expecting a woman, this is likely not for you. Wow, this person is MASCULINE like H.E.L.L honestly, they’re almost influencing the way I write, it’s very hard lmao to type casually like I do, but they’re very forward in the way that they talk. I feel like you likely know this person, I wouldn’t say this is an ex or perhaps someone that you’ve had a situationship with. I feel like they have a lot to say to you, I’m getting someone who’s more on the “Rough and Roudy” side, I almost don’t want to give physical descriptions, they’re someone who likes to banter a bit or sometimes be a little bit of a tease. They’re a lot to handle, maybe a bit intense but I don’t get that they’re toxic. This is for a few of you but he gives me “Booktok” vibes lmao, he might have tattoos. Is this guy real? Lmao??
I want today this guy doesn’t exist and I just got sma-OH SHIT!! WAAAAIT I GET IT. LMAOO.
Oh my gosh girl!! It’s not that he doesn’t exist, it’s that Y O U think he doesn’t exist!! This guy that you describe as your “boyfriend” could be like a mix of several book-boyfriends, he’s every troupe that you like but with a healthy-mindset-not-actually-toxic-and-wont-hurt-you-maybe-others-but-never-you vibe. BIIITTTCH AAAHH, oh my gosh, I feel like we’re at a sleep over and I’m geeking out with you. I get the sense that maybe you’ll be hanging out with friends and when you finally show them a picture of him they’ll all be screaming with you like I am. I really want to say this person is not real, but Jesus fuck, you’ve manifested this so hard I get the sense that this man actually does exist, like maybe you’re into super natural and your favorite character was Dean, he may look somewhat like Dean but with Tattoos and black hair and drives a motorcycle. Do you watch Doctor Who?? Are you a 90s kid or do you just like the aesthetic because I feel like I’m time traveling, maybe Dean isnt exactly your type but you’re more into a slender, pretty guy aesthetic who have piercings and isnt afraid to paint their hair and wear dark clothes. Lmao, I have no idea where this is going but sis I get that this person really exists, I’m not getting any opportunities to say no even as a joke.
The only thing is though that there are two of you here, for some of you, you really want the bad boy boyfriend of your dreams and you’ll get him exactly and you imagine him! But for others of you this – OK, idk wtf I just pressed but my computer like glitched almost and I deleted half of everything I wrote before pressing Ctrl + Z to bring it all back. KEEP THIS MINDSET THAT YOU HAVE AND DO NOT CHANGE IT BECAUSE BABYGIRL YOU’RE ALMOST THERE!! The only warning I am getting is to NEVER settle for less, because for a lot of you, you might fall victim to depressive energies and wanting to heal someone else and trap yourself in toxic relationships with shitty guys who use rock music and punk aesthetic and “nonchalantness” as an excuse to be dickheads to their partners and the people they’re supposed to love. NEVER settle for less, you paved the way, maybe some of you have been in past toxic relationships already LET THIS GO and never fall behind again, pick yourself back up Queen (or King or Your Majesty if you’re male or a they/them <3) and PUSH!! PUSH FORWARD YOU GOT THIS!!
And finally some of you don’t give a damn about no future spouse or tarot stuff but you just wanted to pick a pile and read something for fun haha. For others of you your spouse themselves may be reading this together with you in the same room, haha, I’m rooting for you!
Anyways, whomever you are, I hope you get the experience of your dream with this person and that they treat you like absolute royalty, don’t always remember this, that you don’t need to be reminded by someone else that you’re worth treating correctly, you are and have always been special, you are and have always been worth loving <3
“See ya, princess <3” (they may call you this, that’s for a few of you)
this reading is for the connections that never fully closed. the ones that still feel present in small ways, even after time has passed. take a breath, don’t overthink it, and choose the pile you feel most drawn to.
timeless reading. if it finds you, it’s meant to meet you where you are.
take what resonates, leave what doesn’t ♡
Pile 1: °‧ 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 ·｡
9 of swords, 4 of pentacles, 7 of wands
this feels like something that was never said because it felt too vulnerable to say.
there’s a lot of overthinking here. words held back, things replayed late at night, things that almost came out but didn’t. someone cared more than they showed, but kept it locked in. not because it wasn’t real, but because it felt safer to hold onto it than risk what could happen if they said it out loud.
there’s also a strong sense of emotional guarding. both of you, or at least one of you, staying defensive, protecting yourself, not wanting to be the one who gives more or gets hurt first.
what’s left unsaid is simple, but heavy.
“i felt more than i let on.”
“i was scared to open up.”
Pile 2: °‧ 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 ·｡
3 of wands reversed, 5 of swords, 6 of swords reversed
this feels like something that didn’t move forward the way it was supposed to.
plans that didn’t happen, distance that wasn’t crossed, something that stayed stuck instead of growing. there’s also tension here, maybe words that were said wrong, or situations that turned into conflict instead of understanding.
the 6 of swords reversed makes it feel like neither of you fully moved on from it, even if you tried to. there’s still a part of this connection that feels unfinished, like it never reached a proper conclusion.
what’s left unsaid here feels like frustration and regret.
“this could have gone differently.”
Pile 3: °‧ 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 ·｡
7 of cups reversed, 5 of pentacles, princess of cups
this feels like clarity that came too late.
someone didn’t fully understand their feelings at the time, or didn’t see the connection clearly until it was already slipping away. there’s a sense of emotional distance or loss here, like one person felt left out, unseen, or not chosen.
but the princess of cups brings something softer underneath it. feelings that were genuine, even if they weren’t expressed properly. something that wanted to be said, but stayed quiet or came out in smaller, indirect ways.
what’s left unsaid feels gentle, but a little sad.
“i did have feelings for you.”
“i just didn’t know how to show it.”
