#TIU31 Time To Make A Change
It’s been 5 months since my surgery, and I’ve gone through my first 3 month dose of hormone therapy. When my doctor first brought up the idea of total suppression. This means shutting down my entire reproduction system I didn’t think much of it. I thought okay, let's get rid of all this endo! I never want to be in pain again. How was I supposed to know what I was getting myself into?
Well, I was wrong, and not just wrong more like very naive. It didn’t start out slow for me, it immediately started impacting my life. I noticed I was becoming super paranoid. Stressed out for no reason, this was due to the hormonal changes that were beginning. Slowly all of the estrogen was leaving. Then I started getting painful burning, you guessed it down there.. and I am not talking mild burning like I thought my vagina was on fire and the only way to cool it down was yogurt. Yea you read that right, I won’t go into specifics. Then came the other physical changes. My skin started becoming saggy, and I started bloating all over. My stomach has been bloated for a while due to the inflammation of endo, but with the menopause, it got out of control. My stomach started becoming more and more sensitive, causing its own style of cramping. I could practically feel my ovaries shivering up inside me.
It might seem so easy for me to lay it out on the table, but in reality, this was a nightmare, a mental one to be exact. I am 25 years old these are supposed to be my most fruitful, sexy, young feeling times of my life!! And here I am going through menopause, questioning what my fertility be like, will I ever feel good again, is this just my life now? Health issues galore! I started getting really depressed, and my self-confidence plummeted. I didn’t feel like a woman, because the core of what makes a woman is going into hibernation. After two months I said enough is enough. I need to take ownership of this. I need to educate myself and surround myself with beautiful, and strong women. Which led me to Tone It Up!
I spent the month of September, learning about endo, and what it was doing to my body. I learned that every woman’s story is different, and then I started realizing there aren’t a lot of stories out there. I was always an admirer of Tone It Up, I liked the concept but it was a lot of money to do the nutrition plan, pay for the app, and a commitment. I kept making excuses, until this great depression of mine. With the TIU 31 day challenge coming up I felt inspired to make a change. I decided to sign up for Tone It Up, and with it, I would start to share my own experience. I am here today declaring that I am flawed, but so is everyone it’s what we do with the weaknesses that make us stronger. I hope you get something out of me sharing, whether it’s looking out for your own health, being a little kinder to other women, whatever it may be, do something good.
If you have endo or our a journey of your own, please feel free to share!
