holy shit we feel like we have literally nowhere to go as a recovering radqueer. we have nowhere for support. which especially sucks when we have a sidesystem (and one headmate in particular) who's trying to drag us BACK there. like, i swear, every recovering radqueer blog we find is either:
- anti para (we are a paraphile. also some of the anti-contact "pro para" people have extremely strict rules on what "counts" as "actually anti-contact", which would require us to stop seeing multiple members of our family and give up our pets in spite of us 100% Not being a danger to them)
- anti endo (we are multi origins with a sidesystem that's almost entirely spiritual)
- anti [dark]ship (we use darkshipping, both writing AND READING (meaning it has to be PUBLICLY AVAILABLE for us to find it, aka no "coping in private"), to cope with our trauma & SAFELY engage with our paraphilias)
- pro transID (we have complicated feelings on some transIDs, but we are overall against them for Reasons)
- inactive
- multiple of the above
AND THEN!!! there's the so many radqueer blogs IN THE RECOVERING RADQUEER TAGS!!!!
and ofc. the reason for this latest relapse (with the headmate who is now engaging in that community, who had been able to avoid it for a day maximum) is because someone we follow, someone we respected, said they were neutral on the matter. and we try to be so so so fucking careful to only follow anti-RQs to avoid relapse, and so it just hurts extra that it was someone we respected.
reminder we're neu radqueer due to the nuance it has but vehemently anti harmful transids, pro harmless transids, pro anti-contact para, anti pro-contact para
i wish the radqueer community wasn’t so blehhhhhhhhhggggg. i love some trans id labels and i want to use them and post about them and talk to people with similar labels but the community is so evil awful and so many people are pro contact and just bleughhhh. when the worst community you know made some super cool labels!! its not fair :(
seas and fucking peaks what the fuck does "harmful transIDs" mean. obv transharm[ed/ful] etc count (although we have complicated feelings/opinions on "transtrauma" folks, since wanting trauma is a sign of severe trauma, especially trauma from gaslighting--we think it's a shitty term, but we can have sympathy for the people who identify under it), most people are including transracial (as in, "transitioning to a different race", not the original definition referring to adoptees), but like.
what else are they including. or rather, what counts as nonharmful transID. shit like "transeyecolor" is whatever and transplural (not transDID/OSDD) just seems like an alternative word for tulpamancy/willomancy, but do you think transspecies is a "harmful transID"? even though transspecies has a long fucking history before rad/queer shit ever started? even though a lot of anti-transspecies shit is rooted in saneism and ableism, especially towards psychotic individuals? do you think transintersex is "nonharmful", even though you cannot transition to intersex (intersex isn't a body type, and to say you can "transition to intersex" is a fundamental misunderstanding of what intersex means--it implies that people with invisible intersex variations aren't actually intersex and that IGM can actually turn someone perisex, which are both intersexist as fuck)?
just. what the fuck does "harmful transID" mean. what is the definition. what are you guys trying to say is bad. where are you drawing the line.
so, like. ok. i, nec, have a fragment in my (ringed) subsystem that is. not my favorite to say the least. shi is a type of part that i don't really like or vibe with personally, but i had to make a role for lust because absolutely no other terms can possibly fit. and now that i've redone our profile, i figured that i'd post this for the public to see.
heads up, this term includes rad//queer and dark//ship mentions. we aren't rad//queer and never will be! and please for the love of everything holy do not send hatemail because that is a guaranteed block. abide by your own dni's please.
— fadhbpart :
this term is not to be directly forced upon someone in a system. this term also does not support harmful actions taken in real life (including rad//queer "transitioning"), and is only for online usage due to the sensitive nature of such a concept. please use this role with care.
a persecutor who acts in "problematic" ways according to the rest of the [system], or engages in such behavior as a way to vent for the [system], rid oneself or the [system] of urges, or for other related reasons. a fadhbpart does not act in accordance to the rest or majority of the [system]'s views.
— ( fadhb, pronounced "fibe," roughly translates to "problem" in irish gaelic. )
( terms in brackets are obviously able to be changed for whatever a plural calls oneself. )
examples of a fadhbpart can include :
a headmate who is rad//queer or uses related terms to describe oneself, in a system that is majority anti rad//queer
a headmate who uses or ships dark//ships for whatever reason, whilst in a system that is majority antiship or anti dark//ship
a headmate who has or holds an addiction (and acts on said addiction) that the others do not have.
.. and more. this is for whatever you deem to be not in accordance with the rest of your headmates.
this is coined by a trauma-endo system, but it is for all systems and plurals alike to use. i don't gatekeep my terms! but please don't interact with this post if you are included in my dni.