#tw: venting

[lambinajam]

Life of Lamb #14: Breaking News

This comic is a bit unusual for me in that Lamb is not depicted in this. Really, this comic is more of a vent and journal post than anything else.

I'm so tired.

[the-moon-is-a-hoe]

Gonna be real with you. I HATE that abstraction is permanent.

It doesn't have to be permanent. Why should it be? If it's an allegory for suicide, the abstracted should be dead, not living creatures who apparently still have thoughts deep down. I'm sorry, I know Gooseworx loves bleak endings, but I despise them. I despise and spit on the notion that Jax or any of the others cannot be brought back from abstraction. They're corrupted files, not deleted! Corrupted files can be fixed, goddammit!

I get that it's Gooseworx's show, and it was her choice, and I think she's extremely talented, but holy shit... does that one creative decision of hers frustrate me! Jax deserves a happy ending, I don't care what anyone says!

I don't even hate Jax anymore, I just want her to be alive and happy for once!!!

[adventuretolkienlover]

SHORT TEMPORARY BLOGGING BREAK!

Me, my friends, and my family have been having an absolute SHITSHOW of a month. My stress levels are through the roof. I just… feel like screaming. I’m tired. So tired.😣 So I think I’m gonna take a break from this blog for a couple days at least. Possibly longer.

However, I will still be participating in any events or ship weeks I said I would join. Just in case anyone is worried I won’t be. I won’t leave anyone hanging like that.

EDIT: Btw just to clarify, I’m not mad in any way. This is sad stress. I’m just emotionally exhausted. I need to step back for a bit. That’s all.

[poisonedspider]

Nothing bad honestly, just putting under the cut so people dont have to read my OOC ramblings and bad mental health.

I am so bad at talking ooc, and its been such an issue lately both internally and externally. I see you all as friends no matter how much or little we talk. I feel like I know yall from watching on the dash and our little interactions in commentary. So then internally I'm like...wow all these people are so close and do all these game plays together and stuff and I just dont have the energy to do that so maybe people dont see me as a friend in return.

And then it gets solidified externally. I've had several people lately unfollow me or cut off connection because I haven't been as present as Id like to be. I've been struggling with severe depression as it is these past few months. Father's Day is incredibly difficult for me. And Im working 8/9 session days which means I work, eat, sleep, repeat.

I try to reply when I can. But it seems like if Im not responding at a decent pace or if my answers are short, people want nothing to do with me. I know that's my own internalization as well but its how it feels. Maybe its because people see me posting here or even doing ooc posts and think Im ignoring them so fuck me. The difference is it's easier to post just rants into the void then it is to hold up a full conversation. Especially when my job is conversing with humans all day and Im drained.

Just a rant. No drama or anything. I just know I suck ooc at things and I wish I could be better at it but with my career and other busy things there's just no way. That does not mean I see any of you as not my friends just because you're on the other side of a screen and it's mostly our characters chatting. Its why Im sensitive af and it will continue to make me sad when I "lose" people because it isnt just losing a writer to me.

Basically the tldr is no matter how much or little we talk, I see you as a friend and I love you and I am sorry my own shit makes me terrible at that ooc communication. I promise it isnt personal.

[galaxoshine]

i know the point of hospitals is that ppl are sick and unwell but. can life be nicer. can they get better. can they please get better.

[twilighthavens]

✧ I was managing to do replies, but now that I'm halfway through my lunch break, I have hit a wall. x.x

(Venting below because my brain is fried and I need it.)

Doesn't help that my workplace feels like I walked into a devil's asscrack and had it super-glued behind me after someone dumped bees in too.

No, I won't elaborate further.

[melissaduck]

Gonna confess something: I never finished Steven Universe or Steven Universe Future because I found out about the episode where Steven finds out he has been repeatedly traumatized throughout his childhood, and it pissed me off so much that I rage-quitted the series.

I thought I was watching a cute story about a whimsical boy and his magical family, and instead I got a story about a boy who was repeatedly neglected or put in serious danger until he literally turned into a FUCKING PINK KAIJU.

It felt like a stab in the back. The ultimate betrayal. I actually fantasized about entering Steven's world and destroying ALL the Gems out of pure rage. I wanted to slap Greg for not being a better father. Not only that, but I wanted to pretty much hurt everyone in the cast who wasn't Steven or Connie because they're the only innocent ones.

It really sucks because I find the concept of Gem fusion to be amazing, even beautiful. But the Gems are deeply, deeply flawed.