Having a Grand Cross and Finding Balance - My Cardinal Grand Cross
So for a reference, I have a Cardinal Grand Cross with my Mercury in Libra (at my Asc), Neptune and Uranus in Capricorn (at my IC), Mars in Cancer (at my MC), and my Moon in Aries (on my Desc) and this is JUST MY EXPERIENCE with these placements!
Warning...this gets complicated...that's kinda the whole point I think... I am going to give examples because there really isn't much on Grand Crosses (at least that I could find).
If your have any of these placements/aspects keep in mind that these are just very basic ways these planets interact. There is so much more to learn about each planet and how it interacts with the others.
Having a Grand Cross means that you have two sets of planets that are opposing that are squared to each other (it will look like a big X inside a square on your birth chart). It means that the planets are in signs that behave so differently that it causes conflicting pulls...in 4 different directions.
Example: My Aries Moon would decide to be independent and stick up for myself but then my Libra Mercury goes "oh no, that's ok. Let's just do what you want to do." My Aries Moon would then push people away when I needed independence, no nicey nice. Grrrrrr
It's taken a long time and quite a bit of work to find even a little balance with it. I had to work on each planet individually and then their relationships with each other. I started with the Oppositions.
Working on my Libra Mercury by learning that my opinion and desires are valid and needed! And then with my Aries Moon learning that I need lighthearted competition to let out some of that energy cause...oh my, am I a handful (having an Aries Moon is said to be like having 2 Mars'...but my actual Mars is in Cancer...which is like not having a Mars at all so it's a bit backward). But also with Aries Moon learning that my feelings aren't the only feelings to consider. So then when I brought them together, I was able to communicate that I needed to be able to have freedom to make my own decisions and be my own person without going cranky little brat on people.
With Mars in Cancer I had to learn to go for what I wanted! Instead of being a scaredy cat. Not going after my dreams went hand in hand with putting myself into the not having freedom and and pushing people away spiral. With the two Outer Planet Uranus and Neptune I had to learn that not everything was as it seemed...and sometimes change is inevitable and needed. When bringing them together, it meant that I had to move forward even when I didn't fully feel comfortable (because that never really happened anyway) and that would help me understand the changes and make me more comfortable in the end.
Then I would try to work on Mars in with my Mercury and Moon (as these are my Inner Planets and the other two are Outer Planets)... it meant doing the things I wanted to do without being "babied" or needing anyone else's approval. While also allowing the right kind of help instead of trying to do it all myself. Follow where my heart was leading me. I had a tendency to need to know EVERYTHING about a situation before moving forward (made worse by several placements in my chart).
With Neptune...this one didn't so much have it's own thing but have really bad effects on the other planets in the Cross. I'll just share how it effected my Moon. I had to learn that it was far too easy for me to forget that someone had hurt me...to the point that they could keep doing the same thing over and over and I wouldn't remember. I also had to learn that my perception of people was based on what they could be, not what they are right now. This got a lot better when I started journaling. I would wright about things that happened and when I went back I would see how many times they did the same thing and how often it was and how malicious they really were being. I started writing down how they acted afterwards how they would purposely change their behavior so that it was easier to forget what had happened.
With Uranus I had to learn that I NEEDED change in these areas. And if I didn't allow change to happen...well it would anyway. So I try to not keep myself cooped up in any way (if possible). Because as soon as I have a restriction I immediately try to fight it.
And it is a spiral from here on out because each of the planets in the Cross effect all the others in what feels like the most chaotic story ever unwinding. I don't' think it actually ends but the more I work on balancing each planet's energy and then incorporating it into the mix the better it gets. I no longer have the same issues I struggled with for so many years but I am finding others that I should I work on. It's a constant balancing game. If I stop working on it...I find that I slip back into a pattern. It always gets easier to come out of it and get back on track each time though. None of this happened over night...it has been over a year of studying and working on it now and I can for sure see a difference where I had just about lost hope before I found Astrology.
If you have a Grand Cross PLEASE SHARE your experience!!! :)
