#vent ;

[pxppinmolly-archived]

The woes of having a not popular or well known character, genuinely.

Not many people know or, or, well, more people do NOWadays, as opposed to before, but still people don’t know ... HER. She’s just Angel Dust’s sister.

I know, she doesn’t seem or sound v interesting to interact with. She isn’t a royal or big name like the von eldritch, she isn’t an overlord, she isn’t even canonically in hell.

and like. idk. i know mny people dont rlly wanna interact w that. or like they dont see potential interaction. or even interest.

and i cant rlly blame people, i think.

i try v hard to make molly seem interesting and engaging and trying to fit her into places

and like i said, I LOVE doing it, and it makes me happy! when it works. ASKDJ

just. idk...

she has the same woes as like writing an OC, you know? Hard to get traction and interest in, you know?

It’s just kinda a bummer when you don’t get many asks wanting to engage with your character or know more about her, esp when the rest of your dash seems to nearly all the time. KSKSKS;; Like rbing a question meme and getting nothing but ur mutuals get a lot.

Or seeing your mutuals be mutuals with all the same people but not with you and so you’re constantly kinda out of loop with a lot of dash comm stuff

It’s no one’s fault, ofc. I’m not MAD or anything.

Just kinda a bummer, yk! feels a lil left out

I feel guilty reblogging my own promo so much but I just rlly wanna get some new mutuals and stuff, you know! esp w new people coming in the community. and i always feel embarrassed esp when no one touches it (Which im not mad about or rlly blame anyone i get it yk KSDJ)

again no one’s fault and i won’t blame anyone for anything, if anything I feel it’s a failure on my own behalf, you know?

I’m glad, though, I have the few people who DO seem genuinely interested in Molly and care about her a lot, and when people come to me wanting to make AUs or plot dynamics and holding her so integeral to their muse’s story it swells my heart with joy! It’s not something that I feel like I have a lot of, but, it’s nice at least I have it somewhere.

i guess what just rlly nails the coffin is. is I USED to have that, you know a lot of mutuals and friends, lot of people interested in molly, getting asks sent to me not just bout molly, but her relationship with other muses, too! just stuff to answer!

and so it just is kinda extra ouchie i guess because like. what happened like what did i do and i have a guess but like. still it sucks that i said the same opinion a lot of ppl i see say nowadays but im one of the few people who got the most shit for it and have everlasting consequence and like...fears and paranoia with now

but w/e i know i bitch bout THAT a lot but it was my worst experiences in this rpc so </3

[archieved-dtvibez]

people are accusing me of tracing artwork ;;

[shxfu]

Can I just express my annoyance a little bit here? I mean, of course, the times are hard for everyone and negativity is all around us, but... why do I always get such lukewarm reactions from my _close_ friends, when I share a piece of good news with them? I always try to be supportive and express my gladness for them when they share something good with me, but when I share something that means a thing for me  — it’s never the right timing? Good things do not happen that often, but okay. I guess, I shouldn’t share the news with anyone at all. Doesn’t matter are they good or bad. 

[olxtte]

i have two people mad at me in the span of 10 minutes? my cousin, for not wanting to go over to her house, and a “friend” who didn’t like my opinion on people saying “i love you” and when it’s time to say it? soooo im just gonna chill & lurk tonight.

[imagine-this-overwatch-blog]

I have had such a scary and stressful morning and the day isn't even close to being over yet;;;;;

Lowkey want to run to the bathroom and cry

[pxppinmolly-archived]

I apologize again I KNOOOW I’ve been in a v bad mood as of late.

I’m very insecure as of late and I’m feeling very just. Bad. I feel off.

I feel like I’m not... Fitting in properly anymore, you know? Like I just feel off. I feel like I really lost my touch and that like. Idk. I feel very alone a lot here. dkfjghg

And I know it’s just my mental illness getting bad again. I keep getting so easily irritable. I feel awful that my parents try talking to me and I get so pissed off when they just. walk in my room.

my dad will try and joke with me and I want to bite his head off.

I’m easily upset and hurt over small things. Constantly exhausted! Stomach issues. Back issues.

Having a constant pain in my back and also reoccurring headaches/migraines..

I’m just a mess.

And I hate constantly asking for validation like “hi you guys still like me right? :(” because it’s so. annoying. and ive been told before that im obnoxious and draining because im so fucking needy because of this.

it just sucks man. i got a lot of issues.

anyway point of this post is UHHHHH

I’m sorry I’m a mess lately and I’m sorry if I seem irritable or get quiet or whatever yk yk. </3

[stygiuscantus]

i hate the term "passed away."

eight years ago, my father did not "pass away." he fell unconscious from drinking outside of our home in the February cold and froze to death overnight. he collapsed on the ground and hit his head and never got up. his corpse still had the cuts and bruises from hitting the concrete. there was no "passing." just a slow death that he thankfully was not awake for.

three days ago, my mother did not "pass away." she had a slow, painful decay of her mind and body over the past few months, culminating in a rapid decline over the week before my fiancee and i found her on the brink of death. she was septic, and had severe liver disease. she was barely coherent, talking about things she had been hallucinating and screaming in agony. she had lost significant amounts of her hair, was extremely frail and skeletal, had her eyes bulging out of her skull, and her skin was sallow and sickly looking. my last impressions of her were her screaming and crying in pain as doctors struggled to find veins to stick her in and get her pain meds to prep her for surgery and get her under. she spent her last days sedated and struggling to stay alive. there was no "passing." just a horrible, ugly death.

my father died. my mother died. why is it considered such a harsh word? it's simply the truth. they died. they are dead. why do i have to sugarcoat it for grown adults? children i can understand. introducing the concept of death to them is something that has to be done delicately. but i dont understand why there's such pressure to use "passed away" when talking to other grown adults.

"another angel gains her wings." "she was such a kind person." "she was an incredible woman and i'll never forget her kindness." "she was a special person."

no she wasn't. she was an abusive piece of shit. but she can't hurt my sisters anymore. she can't hurt the animals under her care anymore. she can't hurt me anymore. she can't hurt herself anymore. maybe she was a good friend to you, but she was an awful mother to me and my sisters. it's better for everyone that she's gone now.

i'm not glad my mom "passed away." i'm glad she died.