#violent ends

[mickstarz]

I just finished violent ends 😞

I think this ending, this last passage, is probably the closest we'll ever get to knowing exactly what happened to Julian he leaves.

SPOILERS AHEAD IF YOU'RE IN THE MIDDLE OF READING OR YOU'RE WAITING TO READ IT YOURSELF!!

I just really have to talk about this!

It took me at least three reads to register that it was not from Paul's perspective but from Julian's, because the entirety of the collection up until that point was from Paul's perspective.

It's from 2020, the same year that the book was published so my best guess is that it very nearly made it into the book, as the ending or maybe as like an epilogue but either Nemerever determined it would be confusing to jump perspectives or decided we were better off leaving it with Paul instead.

What happens is that Julian runs off to New York to stay with Joy, finds himself in a modern art museum, staring at a painting for nearly an hour. When he starts off the chapter, he's bruised and streaked with dirt so by the time he gets there, it's probably not long since what happened with Paul.

The rest of the excerpt is him slipping on a mask, figuring out a lie to tell Joy. He fixes his appearance and he tries to make himself believe that Paul killed himself anyway, with or without him. He doesn't picture him doing it by jumping into the ravine, but instead hanging himself after burning all his paintings. The line where Julian says to Paul "I always worry you're going to kill yourself" is kind of referenced because in his cover story of what happened, he says (or would be saying) "I always knew he was going to kill himself."

So the real truth is, based off this, is that neither one knows what happens to the other after they part ways for the last time, and it's so depressing oh my god. I ruined my morning with this, it's 8AM!

There's definitely a lot of useable material from violent ends that I will be using when I finally get around to writing my queer little essays. Mostly for Paul but this passage combined with what I've already gathered about Julian, gives me a lot to think about.

[fearofmarko]

Violent Ends - November 30th 🪦

It feels so surreal to finally be releasing my first official collection of work. I know in the past I’ve released a lot of music (some of it good and some of it not so good lol) but that’s something I’ll never regret. I really feel like this year I’ve come into my own and found myself as an artist. And although a lot of these tracks are written about my experiences over the last couple of years I’m excited for them to have a new life again soon.

I’m also excited to be using tumblr again. It’s been years since I’ve used this app, I remember back in 2014 when this was THE place to be for all the aesthetic posts, fandom edits and memes. And now I’m hoping it will allow you guys get to know me a bit better on a personal level. Now that Instagram is dying, Twitter is kinda falling off and Tik Tok is just a place to post quick witted content for likes and views, I think it’s important to have a place to be honest and vulnerable. Plus I know anyone who follows me on here is a real one 🫶🏼

Violent Ends drops November 30th!

[kenobrea]

The Zoo for violent_ends’ fic “Living with Satan: A Beginner’s Guide”

[five-is-a-princess-confirmed]

We need to bring back twenties slang and Shakespearean English with fifties aesthetic without the racism, sexism, homophobia and transphobia

[incourages]

Violent Delights Have Violent Ends

great lovers come to harm and whirled away

WOLF Series – #225

http://incourages.tumblr.com/

[sowwux-captow]

a rendition of kirby matheson from the book “violent ends” which i fuckin love yall

[hmmm--unfortunate-blog]

Shaun David Hutchinson has literally never written a cishet mc in his life and i live for it

[giuliettaluce]