『 ...How often does this happen to you? 』
// from the nightmare starters uwu
now playing ... bad dreams, ft. @voxfisch
huddled at the edge of the mattress, blanket tangled around her legs, she feels more prey animal than person. it takes a few seconds to realise where she is, longer for the question to register. there's concern in there, she can hear it, but she can't take it, not now. not from vox of all people. " how often do you think?! "
fuck. her head hurts. she feels like she might throw up, heartbeat too fast, breathing still coming too shallow. dizzy confusion of waking up in the dark, convinced, for a moment, she's somewhere else completely. the glow of vox's screen gives a little light to their surroundings but odile's trying not to look at him and she really, really doesn't want him to look at her.
couldn't he just have stayed asleep? he's managed it every other goddamn time.
the details are almost gone already, but there's a lingering feeling of being watched that clings like a second skin. whatever—whoever—that gaze belongs to, it wasn't safe.
she needs to be out of here. kicking off the blankets, she swings her legs over the side and tries to stand up, only to lose her balance the second she does and sit right the hell back down. sure. of course. let's just make this more humiliating, why not? more carefully this time, she lowers herself to the floor, back leaning against the bed, knees tucked to her chest.
" ... sorry. go back to sleep. " the words are muffled, head buried in her arms. " i'm fine. "