Look, I usually don't get serious on this app, but after the election yesterday, I feel just devastated. I am a trans disabled queer satanist, with him winning I don't feel safe.
I'm not trying to play this up for laughs, I am being serious. I don't feel safe. I don't want to feel like this, but with project 2025, I am terrified, and I don't know where else to post this. How could this happen? I don't want to be afraid I don't want to be contemplating what the hell am I going to do... I don't want to be in this country.
Are we going to have to move? We can't afford to! I can't move! We can't move! My mom works 2 jobs! My twin is in college! I'm about to be in college! I live in Michigan! When I was younger, it was relatively progressive! Now it's getting more conservative, and I'm scared! Am I going to have to get my tubes tied? I was never planning on having kids, but if abortions became basically impossible to get or even outright illegal, I don't want to be forced to give birth! What if something horrible happens?! I don't want to die! These bans have already killed!
Summary : The Tardis breaks down, so does the Doctor
Rated : General (tw: grieving feelings)
Chapter : 02/06
Words : 1653
From the story: Growing the Tardis
From the series : There is nothing we can do
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Read chap.01 - There is nothing we can do (T)
"How did you know about the chameleon arch, Rose?" The Doctor in blue asked her as he helped the Time Lord put Donna's unconscious body on the grating.
"Pocket universe," Rose answered, crouching reverently beside Donna's body. She remembered vividly the time she granted her a tour of the Tardis when it was laying almost dead in one of UNIT's warehouses. She watched the Doctor in blue again. "Learned a lot of things about the Tardis while I was there. As well as some things that happened to you in the real time line.. the one where you didn't die."
Rose tried to put up a good front but failed totally. The Doctor's single heart went out for her. He could only see the surface of all the struggles she had to go through to get back to him and it pained him to see how much Rose had grown tough from the experience.
He laid his hand on hers to comfort her, knowing only time and love would heal those wounds. "Good! So," the Time Lord said from over the console. "Donna's new life is near London. She just got hired as a Nanny. Do you think she'll really be good with kids?"
"Of course she will, she's brilliant." The part-human answered.
"Ha!" The Time Lord exclaimed exuberantly. "And looks like Jackie Tyler is the one who just employed her."
"What?"
"Yeah, says so right here," he said pointing at the swirly and round language no one but the two Doctors could decipher. "You just got yourself a full time nanny for Tony."
"Tony doesn't need a nanny, I'm a stay at home mom!"
"Oh, well, I guess having Donna around, in the state she's in, could be a good thing." Rose said, getting back up.
"Let's go then, the Tyler mansion it is!" The Doctor twisted levers and punched buttons all the while keeping his eyes on Rose, a quirky smile on his lips. There was a sudden thud, and a lurch, and a loud bump, then everything went dark as they were all propelled to the floor.
It smelled like burnt wires and smoke and Jackie was coughing loudly. "What the bloody hell?"
"Oh no! No no no no no!!" Both Doctors were at the console, each frantically trying different tactics to wake the Tardis up again, but nothing worked. They were dead in the water. As the Doctors were taking out the grating to get further under the console, Jackie went to the doors to see if they had moved at all.
"Oh, bloody hell, no!" Jackie came back in, furious, hands on her hips. "You move your ship right this instant, young man. What the hell did you think, landing it in my bedroom? How am I supposed to watch the telly with a 7 feet police box at the foot of my bed?"
One of the Doctor's heads, probably the one with one heart, came out from under the console. "Jackie!? We can't move.."
"Mom!" Rose called out, interrupting the Doctor. "Mom! Help me out. She's waking up!" Jackie was still muttering when she grabbed Donna's feet and, with Rose's help, they brought her on Jackie's bed. "Mom. You have to pretend you just hired her. Don't ever tell her about who she really is, alright."
"I know!!" Jackie answered and muttered some more. Donna's eyes opened and she sat straight on the bed.
"Where am I? What happened?"
"Hey, sweetheart. Are you feeling better?" Rose said sweetly. Donna looked at her with a puzzled expression. "You're at the Tyler's, you were here for the nanny interview." Rose paused and Donna's expression didn't change. "You applied to be my little brother's nanny?"
Donna's fake memories seemed to settle. "Yes, yes. Oh, my. I must've fainted. This is not good for the interview, is it?"
"Nonsense, Miss Noble," Jackie intervened, "we already agreed on hiring you. Come on, let me show you around and present you my Tony." Jackie brought Donna out of her bedroom and Rose sighed loudly. Rose came back to the console room to find both Doctors still bickering under the console.
Her walk around the Tardis was cut short when she found out most of the corridors ended drastically after a few feet. The Tardis was in complete shut down. The only rooms remaining were her room, and three stock rooms filled with tools and machinery.
"Rose," one of the Doctors called out to her. "If you need to get anything from your room, go get it now. We have to close it off to reroute as much power as we can to the main systems." Rose nodded and went to leave when he stopped her. "Wait!" He came out, mid body, from under the console, and she realized it was the metacrisis. He had his suit jacket off, wearing only the burgundy jumper with short sleeves and Rose's heart clenched; it must've been the first time she actually saw the Doctor's whole arm naked. "Give me the Joolyian spanner, the blue one with the screw on top. It's over there, by the jump-seat."
Rose opened the tool box laying on the bench and searched through it.. wait did she see one of the tools move? She grabbed the spanner when she found it and closed the box as fast as she could. "I need some duct tape too." She heard the other Doctor call out from deep under the grating.
She grabbed the roll, which actually had ducks on it, and imagined the bits of machinery under the grating, the Tardis' insides, filled with spots of tape with little yellow ducks. She snorted. An hour and a half later, Rose finished bringing the last remaining boxes to her room in the mansion.
She decided to move all her things since the Doctors weren't sure if the Tardis would ever be able to rebuild her old room the way it was. Rose didn't want to lose all the souvenirs she collected through her years of travels. She spent the rest of the afternoon and evening in the console room, helping the Doctors out as best she could and listening to their curses and bickering.
She was starting to nod off against one of the coral struts when the Doctor in blue came out from under the grating, rubbing his hands with a dirty rag. "You should go to bed, Rose. There is still a lot of work to do here and it's been a very long time since you last slept."
"'M not leaving you." She said stubbornly. She stretched and yawned and he smiled at her.
"'M ready for bed too. 'M knackered. I don't have the same stamina as I use too. Want me to join you?" Rose flushed. It happened before, on rare occasions, that the Doctor offered to stay with her until she fell asleep but his present offer was a lot more different than that.
Was this what they were now? Two.. three people, sleeping together? "'M not leaving him either." She was adamant. The Doctor in front of her crouched down and caressed her face as he tucked a stray hair behind her ear.
"He's not coming out of there for a very long while." He swallowed and Rose saw a dark shadow pass over his expression.
"Then I won't leave until then either." He smiled again.
"Alright then, scootch!" He settled behind her, laying on his side, his back against the wall and he pulled her to him. She laid her head on his arm. She was spooning with the Doctor... Oh my God, she was spooning with the Doctor. She breathed. She grabbed the hand from the arm laying under her head and played with his fingers.
"Is she gonna be ok? The Tardis, will she fly again?" He's been working under the console for more than 5 straight hours now, surely he could give her a status report.
"No." He hugged Rose tighter against his body. "No, she won't. Don't tell him though. I don't think he wants to hear it. But the Tardis won't work in this universe, 's not the same energy. I don't think she'll fly until we get her back to the Prime Universe."
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A few hours later, the Time Lord needed to eat something and after many shocks to nudge him out from under the grating, he finally understood it was time for a break. He wasn't prepared for the sight that awaited him in the console room. Both Rose and his counterpart had fallen asleep directly on the hard and cold grating, waiting for him.
A wave of gratitude filled him and it was too much.. he crumpled to the ground. His head in his hands he sobbed silently. He knew he just lost his Tardis and the grief that came with it was more than he could bear. He wasn't ready yet, he really wasn't. His marvelous ship.. No.
This was not the end. There must be something else he could do. He would find a way. He rubbed his eyes and cheeks to wipe the tears away and when his head came back up, he saw the other Doctor looking at him with tears in his eyes. He knew how he felt.
With a soft movement, so he would not wake a sleeping Rose, the Doctor in blue gestures for him to join them. The Doctor in brown frowned, but still crawled towards them. He settled his back against Rose's stomach and she held him tight in her sleep.
They both did. He snuggled further in the hug and breathed deep to keep the tears at bay. He wasn't alone anymore.
