#weisstheimmaculatekin

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The scene where Nero saves me from Hojo in Ever Crisis is not one to one to the original Dirge of Cerberus that came out in 2006. They (Square Enix) changed a line that Nero says - and have me responding to him.

It's such a small, one off change that likely wasn't noticed by most. And that's okay. But that change, it aligns with my own memories, so it was quite the shock to see.

Strange, that they'd change it though. I wonder if they're planning anything for the future and if it'll match with what I know..

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-Weiss the Immaculate

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Nero. It is silent from your end of the universe. I know you're alive. And I want nothing but the best for you, even if it means I am not included. But I do miss you. I miss our connection. I miss us.

I love you, Nero. With everything I am and will be. I love you.

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-Weiss the Immaculate

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Kinning something no one else does kind of sucks honestly? I’m kin with Weiss the Immaculate from ff7 and it’s just me and one other guy over here. I need more people to compare notes with.

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I've begun to look for Nero, even if passively. More often than not, I'll find myself paging through the tags I could hope to find him in, though I always hesitate.

I miss him terribly. I can't accurately explain why I hesitate on initiating contact though - it's a mix of worries and doubts that I hold of myself. Not of Nero. Forgive me Nero, for taking so long on finding you. I promise, you're always at the forefront of my mind. I love you and miss you.

Please, wait for me to put these doubts and worries to rest. I'll find you. I swear it.

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-Weiss the Immaculate

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Happy Valentine's Day, Nero.

I truly hope you're happy and safe.

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-Weiss the Immaculate

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Omega... it was a strange being to be connected to. It knew everything about the past and present, maintaining it while simultaneously creating different paths for the future. And while it can do this, it doesn't change the fact that Omega is a machine, given finite power for the means to a beginning and an end. A being created by the planet for the singular purpose of carrying the lifestream to a new planet, to start life anew.

Omega lives for life, as it dies for life. A loop that serves one purpose.

I wonder if my life is like that. I have quite a few timelines, yet most of them are the same. There are only... approximately four timelines I have that I can say with confidence that deviate from the established canon. Yet most of what I remember is the same loop that I already know. That I've clearly lived by so many times.

Omega, someday, I hope that you will take the grief I felt within you and decide to deviate from what is expected of you. But if you cannot deviate from what you're used to yourself, give me the strength to do it for you.

I have some wishes to make true.

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-Weiss the Immaculate

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One of my favorite memories with Nero is of our time spent with each other. I believe that it was our first time together after being separated for extended amounts of time.

It had been just the two of us, sitting within the live simulations. The scenery was of a jungle at night. Nero and I were laying next to each other, holding hands as we looked at the stars projected by the simulation. There was a conversation between us, one that I unfortunately don't remember.

But his smile and the rare, gentle expression on his face, (I had removed his mask. I always removed his mask when we were together) the way he'd squeeze my hand while he laughed - truly, everything about Nero while we relaxed together under the false stars in the simulation is what makes this memory one of my favorites.

The researchers rarely allowed us to spend time together once we had become teenagers. So any time we were allowed together was scared to me. I greatly miss being able to share softer moments with him.

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-Weiss the Immaculate

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Diving into the network in an attempt to find the cure to the virus that was to kill me was painful. The network was painful. I remember that it burned at my mind, searing it with so much information that I was completely overwhelmed. I knew too much within those moments, but it wasn't enough. I wasn't able to find the cure to the virus that killed me. And I had all but allowed Hojo to break my mind and steal my body. He used his knowledge and intellect from time his spent within the network to fracture my mind and sense of self even further. He kept me weak, trapped within my own body as he returned us and used the reactor to heal. For those three years, Hojo did all that he could to meld our minds together, so he could gain my knowledge of using my body and the abilities I was given through the experimentation done on me. He practically succeeded. He had whittled enough of me away that he was able to wake my body up and order for Omegas creation. Due to this, I have Hojo's memories. I have Weiss's memories. I have the planets memories. It is only by my memories and emotions towards Nero that I can say with confidence that I am Weiss. Nero, my sweet little brother, my peace, my stars, my universe. It was only by thinking of Nero and holding onto my desire to see him again that I was able to have a sliver of myself remain. Nero, I owe my strength to you. But I still failed you. I'm sorry, Nero. I don't know how I could face you, after everything. I want so badly, to be with you again. I want to have you in my arms again. I want to know if you've made it to this life, that safe and happy. I want to tell you I love you. I want to ask for your forgiveness in making you work so hard and unintentionally trapping to Deepground again when I wanted nothing more thank for you to be free. Truly, I don't know how I could face you, with all of my different faces and weaknesses. I'm sorry, that I'm no longer the Weiss that you knew and likely expected to return to you. I'm sorry that I left you alone for so long. I never wanted you to lose your life because of me. Perhaps its the alcohol in my system or the fact that I've been thinking of this for a bit, that made this confession so long. So it's better off that I end it now, before I continue to type and become incoherent. I'm sorry, Nero. I love you, so much. And thank you. . -Weiss the Immaculate

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