#werebeing

[mikey-wybie]

how to become one of them

how to be one of you

(/lyr)

[wxlfbites]

June 21, 2022

Werewolf Playlist...

Doing something a bit different by making a playlist post of some songs that make me shifty.

x | x

The Animal In Me - Solence // Dirty Paws - Of Monsters and Men // Howl - Florence + The Machine // Running With The Wolves - AURORA // The Resistance - Skillet // Full Moon - The Black Ghosts // Roslyn - Bon Iver, St. Vincent // I'm Born To Run - American Authors // For The Glory - All Good Things // Legends Are Made - Sam Tinnesz // Shooting The Moon - OK Go // Hearing Damage - Thom Yorke

[marianas-art-world]

Supernatural beings | Werewolves

@werewolfbarbie @christinalibertymikaelson @metallihca @kittyinhighheels

[wxlfbites]

January 21, 2025

360...

It's the year 2012, I have just become awere of my nonhuman identity in the sense that I now have a name for it and know that what I experience is also experienced by others. I identify as a wolf, a black phase wolf with amber eyes. I tell everyone, explaining that for years I have felt this way, and everyone tells me that they suspected something like this because of my behavior as a child. I join Facebook groups filled with other Therians, teen werewolves, and otherkin. I start an Instagram account where I openly talk about every aspect of my identity in depth; this account gaining 11,000 followers at one point. I find new words to describe other experiences I have and eventually my list of labels grows.

Wolf therian, feline-hearted, bear-hearted, horse-hearted, canine-hearted.. all labels that meant very much to me. But as the years go by, they begin to waver under the weight of my growing following and the struggles I face at home. My nonhumanity is unstable, it feels as uncontrollable as my home life. I have a walk-in experience with a fox I mistake as a theriotype, I feel more like a beaten dog than a wild animal and so my identity is now that of a dog cladotherian, I drop all of my heartedtype labels because at some point I am resolved to say that I am simply a polymorph.. too many things happening all at once to fully pinpoint them as anything else.

I am as chaotic as the ocean, the depth of me cannot be understood. I am beyond any terms the alterhuman community can conjure. But I am not satisfied with this. It causes me more stress that I cannot contain myself into at least some measurable form. I cannot control anything. I am unable to control the abuse I face, and I am unable to control my experiences, and it has taken its toll on me. I decide to completely trash any and all things I think I know and start my awakening from scratch. I am no longer any of the things I've said I am, I am nothing but a blank canvas, the painting will result from the extensive private journaling and self-analysis I do using any source I can find to determine my true, authentic identity before I was ever influenced by external forces. I spend years dissecting myself and my experiences and interviewing family about things I don't remember. It is an unending, perilous voyage into the ocean of myself. The ship capsizing quite a few times, I sometimes lose any hope of finding my home again. But alas, hope is not lost.

The year is 2025, and I have been awere of my nonhuman identity for 13 years. My journey through the labyrinth has been disorienting and discouraging to say the least, but I have reached the center. Only... it's not the center, really.. I have reached the point in my journey where I can say that what I was in the beginning, untainted by any of the things I had consumed, untouched by the paws of my peers, is exactly what I am today. A wolf therian (though the word is different now), bear-hearted, horse-hearted... I say coyote-hearted specifically now, but canine wouldn't be inaccurate, and while felines are still being questioned, it's these original labels I find myself confirming again. Hardly any doubts about what I am phase me now. It is all just simple facts of life that I sit with every day. I am content with the labels I have chosen to describe myself. A quiet calm settles over me when I think about what I am now and what I have always been. But my journey is far from over.

[wxlfbites]

October 27, 2023

Delusions...

I've pretty much stopped talking publicly about my delusions of being descended from werewolves... It's hard to keep sharing such personal experiences when you're met with doubt and judgement everywhere you turn. The discourse that engulfs clinical lycanthropes and physical nonhumans, whether it's total rejection from other nonhuman communities or infighting amongst themselves, has reared its ugly head at me whenever I've tried to explain my delusions and hallucinations, so I've kind of just kept it all to myself since then. I want to talk about it more but it's difficult to get past all the things that make me feel invalid or shunned from spaces that should welcome me.

It's also hard to explain, without being viewed as problematic, that I'd like for others to engage with my delusions rather than treat them the way many info posts suggest you do. When I feel like people are being dismissive or treating me like a patient, it can make me shut down or think I'm being completely rejected; making me defensive or upset. Part of my delusion involves the denial and secrecy of my families werewolf heritage since the portion of them that split off from the Pack no longer have the ability to shapeshift and thus refuse to accept our true nature. This is only further fueled by my own mother's avoidance of the topic, neither denying nor confirming anything I ask, just skirting around my questions like she knows something she can't tell me. So when I feel like other people do this, even if they don't mean to, it makes me a little more suspicious and maybe even slightly angry.

I find reality checking extremely painful for me by most mental health communities agree that there is only one other option: to be passive about delusions. Do not encourage or discourage a delusion. Do not ignore the delusion but also don't feed into it. This is where I feel like I have to tread lightly. Because I want my delusions to be encouraged and fed into. I want people to fully embrace what I'm telling them as my truth even if they don't believe it themselves. Whether that makes me a bad person or not, I guess is up for interpretation...

[wxlfbites]

For those who identify as nonhuman but not therian/otherkin/alterhuman

What is your personal belief for your identity

physical nonhumanity/clinical zoanthropy

endelity

spiritual/religious

psychological/trauma-based

system/plural

disability/mental illness/neuodivergence

other

Voting ended onNov 20, 2023

if you feel comfortable, regardless of your choice, please explain your choice and your personal beliefs. I'm literally so curious as to how nonhumans (besides those who use therian, otherkin or alterhuman labels) view themselves and how they perceive their identities.

Nonhuman spaces are so heavily therian/'kin that it's hard to find others who don't perceive themselves that way.

[wxlfbites]

February 12th, 2022

Gut Feelings...

Advising the questioning and confused to do their research seems to have become protocol over the decades since the otherkin community formed. This, in theory, is to ensure they have considered all possibilities for kintypes before confirming one - knowing exactly how and why the creature they identify as is the correct one. Though this may steer the person in the right direction, it can also cause even more confusion when there are overlaps between creatures.

I suppose the real problem lies with the fact that sometimes, those who have researched their kintypes extensively find that they don't really have much in common with them... and yet the identity is still there. There may be other creatures that match their experiences much better, but there is still a disconnect between the person and the creature, suggesting that identity isn't always determined by the facts of the creature but rather ones own interpretation of themselves as that creature. I've noted in a previous post that identity can involve stereotypes, myths and other symbolism's of a creature, instead of being solely based in reality. This is where research falls short in connecting someone to their kintype.

Gut feelings are just as valid in confirming - or otherwise explaining - ones identity as they are in helping one narrow down their options. And individual does not need to "meet the criteria" of an animal in order to hold it as an identity. Let me assure you, you are not being dishonest about your identity simply because it is not 100% exact to factual information. You have just as much right to confirm your identity based on gut feelings as someone who has spent years researching theirs.

I guess I just always wonder what happened to the days when it was enough to just... know... we are the essence of an animal.

[wxlfbites]

Looking to make some nonhuman friends from Washington USA. Planning on moving west of the Cascade Range in 5 years so I’d love to get to know some others before I get there. Maybe even get some advice on how to prepare for the move?

Anyway! Please interact with this post if you’re an adult (18+) nonhuman in any part of Washington state!