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I better person would not have done the things I have done. But I am all I have, and this is all I know.

[neopets-slut]

my Gods, do I want to kiss you

[neopets-slut]

To think, after all this time I’m still trying to save my soul

[neopets-slut]

i love kindness and soft hearts, and even though i can go weeks without feeling anything these are still two things i hold most important in my life

[neopets-slut]

im beginning to realize that i think of everything in terms of violence and kindess. like there can’t be anything else.

[neopets-slut]

i’ve spent the last week in my room. some days sleeping on and off for twenty four hours, some days staying awake for over thirty. i have hurt myself and i have cried and i have laid on my floor with my bare back pressing against cold wood, praying. so much time in one space and there are still corners i have not gone in. maybe the isolation made me a bit crazy. maybe it’s not healthy, maybe i can take my tangled hair and scribbled pictures and shove it, because really it’s all for nothing. but now that i have been alone and that i have faced myself, i will never choose someone out of fear again.

[neopets-slut]

honestly my dad really loves me and i’m thankful that he’s helping me move across the country. he’s doing a really good job.