“I remember when I met him, like it was yesterday. He was so quiet I don’t even think I heard him speak to me for a year or so. He would just watch me work, would silently do his part of the class work. And then one day I realized he was the only one who was looking at me like he saw me. He wasn’t looking at me the way everyone else did, with that terrified awe that came from the people around me because of who my family was. He didn’t look at me and see some ice cold pureblooded princess like Sirius used to call me, didn’t see some pretentious rich girl who did whatever her father told her to do. He looked at me and he saw...me,” she breathed.
Narcissa looked down at the ring on her left hand, the moon stone there sparkling as if perhaps it were winking at her knowingly. “It’s funny,” she said, looking back up. “To think that the quiet Gryffindor boy who got saddled with me as a Potions partner would be my husband someday. But...he’s so much more than that,” she said, her face beaming brightly. “Remus is my world, he’s my better half. He has loved my son as if he were his own, he gave me a daughter that I always wanted. Remus loved me when I thought I was unlovable, he wanted me when I was proven imperfect, he fought for me even when others tried to take me from him. And he waited for me...when it would have been so easy to move on,” she said softly.
“But...it wasn’t easy to move on, that was the problem. I married someone else because I had to, not because I wanted to. I would have gutted myself before I ever hurt Remus. And even after all this time, that’s still true. Remus is like...if sunshine were a person. He is warm summer days and well written old books. He’s bubble baths and chocolate ice cream,” she said, her smile brightening with her eyes. “Remus is laughter and starlight, he’s sea salt and passion fruit. He’s long nights in bed and lazy Sunday mornings on the sofa. Remus is happiness to me...he’s my entire world,” she said, sniffling softly with happiness. “I can’t believe we’ve been married for a whole year already...and I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with him...”
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// My dearest Mobert, for a while I wasn’t sure what to get you for this day, the day that marks one year since we met. And then I realized the best thing that I could do was honor the ship that brought us together. When I met you I was in a really really bad part of my life, and I was lonelier than I had been in a really long time. I had just had to leave my job, I had just gone through a break up, I didn’t have very many friends and my mental health was at an all time low. I was injured, I was lonely, I was bored and I was waiting for the universe to give me something that would remind me that there was good things in life. And then, the universe gave me you. I still remember the day you first messaged me like it was yesterday, so much so that I can’t believe it’s already been a year. I was so giddy when you messaged me, I remember messaging you all day and creating this beautiful ship out of nothing.
Remus and Narcissa as a ship started as a joke for us, a crack ship to have a laugh at. But then quickly within a few messages, of us being emotional assholes like we usually are, it quickly became an OTP. Out of two characters that we had never thought of being together before, we made something beautiful. We found two people that understood each other so well, that complemented each other and brought out the best in one another. This ship is one of my favorites that I have ever written in my 10 years of role-playing, it has my heart in a way that no other ship ever has. The way that you write Remus is so uncanny that I think he’s more canon than the canon Remus. No, scratch that, your Remus is the canon Remus. And on top of that, all of your characters are so absolutely fucking amazing.
You give your characters so much depth, you are so talented that none of them are similar to each other and they are their own person. Each character is unique and special, with their own hopes and fears and quirks and habits. And in the same breath of thinking, they all feel so real, so alive. And your writing is so amazing, my sweet friend. You are so talented, it blows my mind. You bring me to tears so quickly with your writing, your replies make my day, and staying up until 8 o’clock in the morning on the phone with you plotting new threads and crying over our ships is one of my favorite things in the world. You are one of my favorite things in the world. I can’t properly put into words how much you mean to me, how special you are. But it’s true.
You mean the entire world to me, and you’ve always been there for me when I needed you. No matter what was going on in either of our lives, you’ve always been there. Every day for the last year, you’ve been there for me. Since the first moment we met, you’ve been by my side. You’ve been there for me when I was crying and felt like my world was falling apart, you were there to ground me when I had panic attacks, you made me laugh when I felt like I couldn’t even smile. You allowed me to be there for you when you needed someone, to comfort you when you were scared, to trust me with the personal parts of your life, to trust me with your secrets. I’ll never be able to express how grateful I am that you trusted me with that friendship, that you trusted me with your feelings, your thoughts. And I’ll never be able to express to you how much it means to me that you’ve always been there for me.
Since the day we met, you have made me feel so special, so wanted, so loved. And as I write this I cry because I can’t believe that the universe gave you to me, that I found you by chance. I don’t think that I could ever regret getting hurt at my last job, because if I hadn’t gotten hurt I never would’ve been put on restrictions and eventually put on medical leave. And if I hadn’t had the free time that came with being put on medical leave, I never would’ve come back to roleplay and I never would’ve met you. And I can’t really imagine a world where I didn’t know you. I can’t imagine a world where Remus and Narcissa never fell in love, where they never had their darling daughter and found home in a little cottage in the woods. I can’t imagine a world where James and Lily never found a happy future, a world where James became a good man and a good father. I can’t imagine a world without Peter finding redemption, without Sirius growing up into a man that Lily could be proud of, I can’t imagine a world where I never saw polyamorous ships everywhere I looked because of you.
I can’t imagine a world without you. I can’t imagine a world where I didn’t check Discord first thing in the morning because I know you’ve been spamming me while I’ve been sleeping. I can’t imagine a world where I don’t hear you laughing your ass off and end up laughing as well because you have the most infectious and amazing laugh I’ve ever heard in my entire life. I can’t imagine a world where me and you aren’t confusing the shit out of Duo all night long in our group chat. I can’t imagine a world where are you aren’t there. I’m crying my eyes out while I write this because I really am such an emotional asshole, but I’m your emotional asshole so I think you’re used to it by now. For a year we’ve been writing together and crying together, for a year we’ve been creating worlds in our heads together and we’ve been laughing together. For a year we’ve been there for each other and for a year I’ve been happier than I’ve been for a very long time. Because of my best friend.
I love you with my whole heart, and I know I tell you that every day but it’ll never feels like enough, because of how much you do for me. You make me feel so loved every day, like I’m never alone even when we’re not physically speaking, like there’s nothing wrong with me. You’re my person, and at the end of the day that’s never going to change. I can’t imagine a world where you’re not my best friend, and I don’t want to ever have to. I don’t really think there’s anyone who knows me better, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. So today we celebrate one year of being best friends, the first year of the rest of our lives. I’m so proud to call you my best friend, I can’t wait until the day that I can actually hug you tight and never let go, and that day is going to come I pinky promise. I love you so much Sugar Booger, my favorite smol bean in the entire world. Happy one year friendiversary best friend, the first of many.
